As a December baby with depression for as long as I can recall, this song hits straight through the heart. It's always December in me, watching people live their lives as I look for a reason to live.
Same here, december baby with depression. In the last 5 years I've lost 3 people, 2 of them in December the death date very close in time. Buried them respectively 2 days and 1 day before my birthday. It just brings back everything that went wrong. I used to love that month, but for a while it was very hard watching the days pass by as it gets closer (firstly because it just reminded me that i could have been spared all the suffering as i should've died before i turned 1 and then just because it always felt awkward celebrating a birthday, never really liked it). It was hard to overcome but i feel like the episodes are getting more and more rare. Keep holding on guys, it gets better 💜
I love the analogy here. Most people will associate December with happy things like Christmas or snow days or hot chocolate, but in this it's put in a more negative light. It's a beautifully twisted, tragic explanation of depression and fighting against it. Well done as always guys, keep up the awesome work! ❤
I never feel happy in december 😟 I don't like Christmas 😟 My mother never likes her presents and always complains at the food and about the channel you watch on tv All the efford you put into it and no one appreciates it 😟 The only thing that makes me happy at Christmas is standing almost all day in the kitchen preparing food so I don't hear the ungratefull complains And helping people who have less than me, I always love to bring them a box full of food, add a lot of love and a suprise and give them a little bit of happyness in those dark days Or invite people who feel lonely at Christmas that's the only thing that makes me happy with Christmas And december is just a cold and dark month so yeah I can see a lot of similarities with depression I always wish I just could sleep thru december and just skip it... just wake up in the summer and feel the light and love 😟 Sending all the light and love to anyone who needs it 💜
December is my favorite month.. However the last December I remember is the worst December I ever had.. I guess I still have the feeling of fighting that tragic..
Every song either makes me feel like "Hell yeah I'm a badass that can fight an army" or "I need someone to hold me because I'm gonna cry like a fountain." And I love it every time.
Fitting. My husband died in December. I have ptsd and fibromyalgia now because he f'ed with my head for 13 years. Trying to grieve and heal from trauma is hard. Thank God, Jesus is a ride or die kind of savior. No one else understands lol😅 Good song for bad days!
Everyday feels like an endless struggle digging through and endless amount of snow and an infinite winter. Suffocating, exhausting, depressing. Sometimes I'd rather just rest and never wake up.
Same.... I just I want to sleep and don't awake again.... I'm desperate, lonely, trying to fight in a world that gave me back and never helps me, I just I am done.. I'm sinking, waiting this ends
The feeling of something squeezing your chest whenever a certain thought comes by. Too much of it, you’ll sometimes think that you will have a heart disease soon, since it’s suffocating. You can’t go around tell other people about it or express such numbness for it’ll either trouble them or you’ll feel bad. You’re just there, not knowing what to do and is just breathing heavily. The coldness creeps on your feet- and the pain encompasses your heart.
"I would rather lay here in my bed then face what's in my head" and "tried so hard to be brave but the reasons this life is worth living is hard to remember" and "I'm only free from it when I'm asleep" hit the hardest for me... Heck the whole song is so powerful! I love your music! While I do cry everytime I listen to your music it's kinda a good thing for me because it helps me feel something when I've been feeling completely numb and in pain at the same time. Thank you so much for your music!
I feel you completely. While at the moment, I'm pretty stable, there are still times when I just want to lay there and not do a thing and ignore everything inside my head, but just can't. Or when I'm feeling so down and out that all I can do is take a nap. I actually found myself nearly bawling at TikTok videos made for those that are struggling with depression and when my parents called me for dinner, I had to stop in the bathroom to make sure they couldn't tell I was crying. There was a time in my life where I stayed up for hours on end each night watching videos or watching TV just so I would feel so tired I wouldn't think while I was falling asleep and I would pass out. And it was like that for a few weeks until I was forced to sleep around normal people times. If I'm being honest, I need a really good therapist...
@@YaYa-hq9kt Heh I don't even need to share my story cause you've said it all. I'm practically living your life... or are you living mine? lol my point is, anytime you lay down feeling your worst, maybe you can find hope in knowing that you're not alone. We can make it through December. I believe in us!!
"I'd rather just lay here in my bed than have to face what lives in my head" hit hard. Thank you guys so much for making such wonderful music, and for being such an inspiration to everyone 💜
I think out of all my bands, this is the only one that actually engage with their fans. ♡No matter how cold or dark or lonely i get.. All i gotta remember is that someone out there loves me.
This is the GOAT of sad songs. I always liked December, and winter is my favorite season, but the meaning behind the lyrics hits deep. Depression gives a unique chill or cold feeling so the line about not escaping it because it's in your head is 100% accurate. Getting out of bed is very hard when you've lost your reason(s) for living. Thank you Citizen Sokdier for this masterpiece and all your music.
Another one, another song to keep in repeat to feel with it. Till know this is for me the most beautiful song what I've ever heard, Always December the darkest month with the darkest thoughts...love the message behind this. Love you Citizen Soldier ! ❄💜;
@@CitizenSoldier I wish I could fully explain how many hard times you have gotten me through. But no words seem good enough. You soothe many souls. Never change. 🖤💜🖤
@@afroggg2244 what about your family, friends? Obviously I'm not in your situation your family/friends could be pure idiots for all I know but I hope you can find something else to love.
@@randomblob8996 not really because my social anxiety I have a difficult time making friends so I have none, and my parents just scream at my my mom most of the time wishes she didn't have me and my dad only pays attention to me if he wants me to get him something my extended family doesn't care much they don't even talk to me, I wish it was different but it's not so I am living for my dog I love her to much to die yet, but I am trying to be happier
@@afroggg2244 it's good that you're trying to be happier and I'm sorry for all the problems you're facing. I think you need to find someone/something else to live for otherwise once your dog passes, I'm afraid you won't be here you'll lose your will to live. I suggest (though you might not want my opinion) that you go places that make you happy even if it's just a walk in the sun or sitting in the shade under a tree while reading. Getting to know yourself better is the best way to do things that make you feel good/be happier. Keep trying and your dog must be really amazing (just like you even if you didn't realise it)
"I would rather lay here in my bed, than have to face what lives here in my head, hell just being awake hurts much more than I could ever explain" idk but I relate to that so well and it hurts so much
Yes their are fake friends.. BUT their will always be that one friend that always cared for you...And you can called him your best friend or best buddy...
@@constanceackerman7763 Not everyone is the same. There are those who will use and abuse you and call themselves your friend. But there are those who will care about you and listen to your stories. Look for those kind of people. Don’t give up. You’ve only truly failed when you stop trying. So, keep trying. You’ll find someone out there who may need you just as much as you need them. 🤍💜
@@CitizenSoldier absolutely awesome both in imusic and lyrics but I feel like I'm missing something because it seems like the fact that it's specifically December means something more than Dark and cold And if it was explained during that great interview that happened recently then I'm sorry but I must've slept on that part. But I love it since I can just apply my recent breakup with the first person to ever love me... She's fighting her demons plus helping others fight as well, while best I can do is let others vent and say it's all right..
I swear, Citizen Soldier songs.. ALL are relatable to ALL of us... If nobody has your back, nobody understands.. These songs understand you, comment sections get it.. we're all listening to these songs on repeat for a reason, this comment section, the comment section in every other Citizen Soldier song, that's your real safe place. I truly bless you all, thank you for reading this, I believe your soul can make it through another day♥️
LYRICS FOR YOU BEANS! Snow is falling, it's middle july Just another day here in my mind, Cant escape what's inside, ive been running my whole damn Life. Years go by but the colors wont change, Been so long since ive felt anything, feelings fading so fast like im watching my own life through Glass. No One Sees, But its Always December in me, No matter where i go its pouring rain In my head seasons never change, And its killing me No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember, When its Always December Black and white, Only colors i see, Sunless sky somehow stuck on repeat, But i hold it all down, Dont want anyone to feel this but me. I'm only free from it when i'm asleep, The more i think, The more i feel myself sink, Back to this empty place, It's a Nightmare i could never explain. No One Sees, But its Always December in me, No matter where i go its pouring rain In my head seasons never change, And its killing me No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember, Cant Outrun the cold, When its in my Head, In My Head. Its been getting Old, Wishing i was Dead, I Was Dead, As this Overcast Suffocates Me, I'm done waiting on some sign of Spring. I would rather lay here in my Bed, Then have to face what lives Here in my Head, Hell just being Awake Hurts much more than i could ever Explain. No One Sees, But its Always December in me, No matter where i go its pouring rain In my head seasons never change, And its killing me No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember, When its Always December
@@TrayXCooper there are people who want the lyrics so they know what the next line is gonna be as they sing. Few lyric videos are off-timed, so yeah. Hope that explains.
My brother posted this song to Facebook which confused everyone because he normally never posted at all. No one ever reached out to him because we always assumed that he wanted to be left alone but the truth is that he was hurting inside. No one realized that him posting this song was his way of saying goodbye to everyone at once... Use this song as a reminder that people around you could be hurting and that you should always check on them because you never know if today will be the last day you see or hear from them. I regret not being there for him, I hate myself for it.
Omg guys this is just so beautiful you always bring out the emotions in me right I'm my chest it's like I will burst with feeling , these lyrics are your best yet citizen soldier and Jake as usual your voice is just perfection 🥰 heart and soul of everything 🖤
Different emotional song I been listening like (slipknot. snuff ) (disturbed sound of silent) (linken park. In the end) and any music emotional song I been listening but citizen soldier is my band now
I'm sitting at my computer, crying because this is the first time someone's been able to explain what it's like for me on a daily basis. I needed this today.
6 months since my suicide attempt.. 6 long blurred months. I’m ready for the day I see more color, and my seasons are filled with hope. Thank you again for giving me a song that reminds me I’m not the only one in my head. I will travel anywhere to see you guys in concert.
Their music truly is a lifesaver. I drowned in my emotions most nights but their songs always find a way into my head. Their like the light in the dark.
I'm so glad you survived. Remember you are here for a reason. It's hard to remember that. I struggle to remember that. One day I'll write a book with people 's stories and when I'm ready if you want I'll share yours if you're comfortable. Because people's life stories always interest me I have no clue why.
Don't know how you do it Citizen Soldier but every song just puts me into tears its like you know exactly what's on my mind and just get to that feeling with those songs. Now I will keep this song on repeat for 2+weeks 😁😁
I’ve been going through some major medical issues for the past 6 years now and when I hear these songs they always hit starting when I found y’all and heard Would Anyone Care. Thank you for the beautiful messages.
I resonate with this song. Depression has left me constantly drained of drive and will. I always feel this pain within that's similar to internal bleeding. However, there's no real injury. Because of that, I don't feel any other injuries or pain. It's almost like my body has become completely numb to it all. It is indeed the cruelest pain...
This song perfectly sums up my entire life. Ironically, my daughter was born in December and I love my beautiful princess more than anything but I always feel like I'm bringing her down because I can't bring myself to celebrate her special day. On her 10th birthday, she walked up to me and told me that January 7 will be our Daddy / daughter day, just the two of us to celebrate her birthday. Obviously, I started bawling my head off and she just threw her arms around me and told me that she loved me. I don't know how I was graced with such a sweet and amazing little girl but I'm forever thankful. Thank you for this beautiful song.
It’s scary when I pretend I’m okay, but I can still relate to these songs… they speak words I could never say. I must thank my best friend for showing me this legend.
I grew up listening to music with my dad. He taught me to lose myself to the music; to listen to the meaning. He tragically passed away two and a half years ago. And in dealing with the grief and anxiety, you Citizen Soldier have helped me so much. It is never difficult to find the meaning and each song just gets more and more relatable. You guys have such an impact on all of us, we all love you guys.
@@CitizenSoldier I loved it. Of course, I love all of your songs, but this one really encompasses the feeling of being completely trapped in the same crappy cycle and good God I feel that. Fantastic work.
To anyone who relates to the lyrics, the storm will pass. I know it has lasted a long time and there's no sign of it clearing, but it does clear. I wish I could tell you how or when; it's really scary and lonely weathering the storm; just know you are not alone and I, a stranger on the internet, am rooting for you. Nobody deserves your pain. This is your permission to do what you need to to open your umbrella or simply dance in the rain. You are stronger than your storm. Trust me. You've got this.
I love the rain. It cleanses all the pain of the day. The rain also hides your tears but at least you feel relaxed as the rain washes over you and you feel free at least just for that moment
I'm not crying, I'm not crying, ok I am balling my eyes out with this one. Citizen Soldier, your songs are absolutely powerful and beautiful. This hits so close to home, and I love this song. December is often associated with the end of a year with a new beginning around the corner. However, for those who have to battle with depression, anxiety, and demons from our past, our Decembers can be so very long. Thank you again for creating this exceptionally powerful song.
Your music is so amazing. Every time I turn around it's always a new song that hits home. Thank you so much for letting me know I'm not the only person struggling with things. It's so hard to look outside of the storm raging on the inside.
After my sister passed away December is the hardest month of the year. Not only because of the holidays but a week before Christmas that was my sister's birthday on the 15th. She would have been 22 this year. but she lost her fight when she was 16. But not a day goes by that I don't remember the day I last heard her voice. I'm living what she couldn't I'm gonna make the best of this life no matter what mountain I have to climb. Yes, there will be days that I will fall down but I would always get back up and try again.
I can’t explain how much this song relates to the things people go through it’s pretty crazy how much depression hits people. I love this song so much guys! Keep up the good work
I can't even explain how much your music means to me. I lost my baby girl November 21st 2017 ever since then I just want to go be with her. Takes all I can to no just give up and be with her. I always had depression but she was my meaning to life . Without her I'm lost. This makes me feel not so alone.
My birthday is tomorrow this is a real gift. Thank you! It really helps im having my sweet 16. No one and (me) thought i was going to make it to 16. So thank you very much!!!
This hit me deep. I cried for quite a bit after I listened to this. I haven’t heard a song that goes into detail what I and so many other people go through just on a daily basis. Thank you so much for making this song 💙
I know it's the end of the month but I forgot to say this: Happy Men's Mental Health Month! You guys make such beautiful music that helps every person who listens to you, but I still wanted to say that :). Keep making masterpieces!
I absolutely love listening to your music. It helps with so much going through my head. When I feel down and upset I just listen to so if your guys songs. It always helps ❤️💯💯
Incredible as always, is the only thing I can say. Citizen Soldier, all your songs are amazing and reach my heart. Hello from Spain and sorry for my bad english!!! 😍😍😍
to be honest i actually love the cold and the rain but this says so much about my life that it's almost scary love you citizen soldier you're probably the reason i'm still alive ❤️
Me being born in December, and who has been through some shit. I can relate, citizen soldier I have listened to y'all's songs for 2 yours. Y'all have helped me a lot, and I'm so happy y'all are still making songs💕
Why does this song describe me more and better than I could ever describe myself??.. Thanks for this song guys! Love every song of yours. Pieces of Art.
Well, now that there’s a new song, it’s time for me to fixate on Citizen soldier songs for like a week. Anyone else with me?
Love it 💜💜💜
I do the same thing
Lol absolutely!! 😀
Same here
I am
"Snow is falling it's middle July"
Canada
Haha I see what you did there 💜
Lol, yeah. Canada for the win 🇨🇦
honestly
yeah
Than what’s it like in December haha
@@MsSpooke Oh, in Alberta it is snow for like 6 months, and then finally it warms up and snows
“The reasons this life is worth living get hard to remember when it’s always December”
My soul felt that 😭💔
💜
Same here 😔
@CitizenSoldier ur just amzing and saved me and im sure so many more
Same here, it really is hard to remember
Same here it's hard to remember my dad because it has been 8 years since he's been gone
As a December baby with depression for as long as I can recall, this song hits straight through the heart. It's always December in me, watching people live their lives as I look for a reason to live.
Appreciate you Paulina 💜
December baby with depression too ❤️ keep holding on Paulina ❤️
Same here, december baby with depression. In the last 5 years I've lost 3 people, 2 of them in December the death date very close in time. Buried them respectively 2 days and 1 day before my birthday. It just brings back everything that went wrong. I used to love that month, but for a while it was very hard watching the days pass by as it gets closer (firstly because it just reminded me that i could have been spared all the suffering as i should've died before i turned 1 and then just because it always felt awkward celebrating a birthday, never really liked it).
It was hard to overcome but i feel like the episodes are getting more and more rare.
Keep holding on guys, it gets better 💜
Me as well. Born on the 31st. Depression for years and told my emotions were invalid. This song summed up a large chunk of my life very well.
23rd for me, this song hits me on such a whole new level of feels
I love the analogy here. Most people will associate December with happy things like Christmas or snow days or hot chocolate, but in this it's put in a more negative light. It's a beautifully twisted, tragic explanation of depression and fighting against it. Well done as always guys, keep up the awesome work! ❤
Thanks so much 💜
overkill
I'm only at 2:09 and I love it!!
I never feel happy in december 😟
I don't like Christmas 😟
My mother never likes her presents and always complains at the food and about the channel you watch on tv
All the efford you put into it and no one appreciates it 😟
The only thing that makes me happy at Christmas is standing almost all day in the kitchen preparing food so I don't hear the ungratefull complains
And helping people who have less than me, I always love to bring them a box full of food, add a lot of love and a suprise and give them a little bit of happyness in those dark days
Or invite people who feel lonely at Christmas that's the only thing that makes me happy with Christmas
And december is just a cold and dark month so yeah I can see a lot of similarities with depression
I always wish I just could sleep thru december and just skip it... just wake up in the summer and feel the light and love 😟
Sending all the light and love to anyone who needs it 💜
December is my favorite month.. However the last December I remember is the worst December I ever had.. I guess I still have the feeling of fighting that tragic..
“Life is like a piano. Black keys are pain And white keys are happiness,but we need both to play music"
Love that 💜
Wowwii you said that really beautifully💜love it!
💛💚🖤🤍💜
@citizensoldier Beautiful lyrics, Thank you for that. #mystory
This is my favorite quote now and its incredibly true!
Look at you, surviving despite everything life has thrown at you.
You're doing so well.
💜
I did nothing
Thanks.
Thank you ❤
And then you realize all youve been doing is sitting in your room reading and watching youtube
Every song either makes me feel like "Hell yeah I'm a badass that can fight an army" or "I need someone to hold me because I'm gonna cry like a fountain."
And I love it every time.
We hear you. Life is a roller coaster 💜
same here :-:
Same here 🖤
Fitting. My husband died in December. I have ptsd and fibromyalgia now because he f'ed with my head for 13 years. Trying to grieve and heal from trauma is hard. Thank God, Jesus is a ride or die kind of savior. No one else understands lol😅 Good song for bad days!
“It’sbeen getting old wishing I was dead” hits me so hard
Same feels
I’m seriously stunned how well written y’all’s lyrics are. Just emotionally stunning.
Thank you friend 💜
Everyday feels like an endless struggle digging through and endless amount of snow and an infinite winter. Suffocating, exhausting, depressing. Sometimes I'd rather just rest and never wake up.
We hear you. Stay strong friend 💜
Same.... I just I want to sleep and don't awake again....
I'm desperate, lonely, trying to fight in a world that gave me back and never helps me, I just I am done..
I'm sinking, waiting this ends
Same
@@LittleFrostyPrincess Sending hugs
I say the same all the time, most wake from their nightmares, when I wake mine just begin!
"But the reasons this life is worth living get hard to remember." Damn this hits way too hard. Good job Citizen Soldier!!
The feeling of something squeezing your chest whenever a certain thought comes by. Too much of it, you’ll sometimes think that you will have a heart disease soon, since it’s suffocating. You can’t go around tell other people about it or express such numbness for it’ll either trouble them or you’ll feel bad. You’re just there, not knowing what to do and is just breathing heavily. The coldness creeps on your feet- and the pain encompasses your heart.
We hear you 💜
Exactly
The comparison of December like the seasonal depression, the lack of color and dullness to the constant battle many of us have. I'm loving this
Thanks Taylar 💜
"I would rather lay here in my bed then face what's in my head" and "tried so hard to be brave but the reasons this life is worth living is hard to remember" and "I'm only free from it when I'm asleep" hit the hardest for me... Heck the whole song is so powerful! I love your music! While I do cry everytime I listen to your music it's kinda a good thing for me because it helps me feel something when I've been feeling completely numb and in pain at the same time. Thank you so much for your music!
Always! Appreciate you so much 💜
I feel you completely. While at the moment, I'm pretty stable, there are still times when I just want to lay there and not do a thing and ignore everything inside my head, but just can't. Or when I'm feeling so down and out that all I can do is take a nap. I actually found myself nearly bawling at TikTok videos made for those that are struggling with depression and when my parents called me for dinner, I had to stop in the bathroom to make sure they couldn't tell I was crying. There was a time in my life where I stayed up for hours on end each night watching videos or watching TV just so I would feel so tired I wouldn't think while I was falling asleep and I would pass out. And it was like that for a few weeks until I was forced to sleep around normal people times. If I'm being honest, I need a really good therapist...
@@YaYa-hq9kt I'm sorry for your struggles I wish the best for you and hope you find the help you're wanting
@@CitizenSoldier thank you!
@@YaYa-hq9kt Heh I don't even need to share my story cause you've said it all. I'm practically living your life... or are you living mine? lol my point is, anytime you lay down feeling your worst, maybe you can find hope in knowing that you're not alone. We can make it through December. I believe in us!!
"I'd rather just lay here in my bed than have to face what lives in my head" hit hard. Thank you guys so much for making such wonderful music, and for being such an inspiration to everyone 💜
Thanks Lilliana 💜
Completely agree, seems it's time to stop and make summer in mind ☀
I think out of all my bands, this is the only one that actually engage with their fans. ♡No matter how cold or dark or lonely i get.. All i gotta remember is that someone out there loves me.
Here for you friend 💜💜💜
Definitely true, sorry if that didn’t make sense
Does anyone else feel like he’s singing to you specifically? It’s such a talent that he has to make me know that he understands and will help me fight
Yep I feel that too 💯
Every song
I feel that every time
This is the GOAT of sad songs. I always liked December, and winter is my favorite season, but the meaning behind the lyrics hits deep. Depression gives a unique chill or cold feeling so the line about not escaping it because it's in your head is 100% accurate. Getting out of bed is very hard when you've lost your reason(s) for living. Thank you Citizen Sokdier for this masterpiece and all your music.
I'm going through alot but listening to your songs helps me and brings tears to my eyes🥺❤️keep up the great work with new songs I love you guys ❤️❤️
Love you too 💜 what did you think of this one?
@@CitizenSoldier this song really got to me I enjoy the song really amazing of what you created keep it up 💜💜💜
Hey friend. We don't know each other but I wish you find the courage to fight your way out of whatever you're going through.
Another one, another song to keep in repeat to feel with it. Till know this is for me the most beautiful song what I've ever heard, Always December the darkest month with the darkest thoughts...love the message behind this. Love you Citizen Soldier ! ❄💜;
Thanks friend 💜
Omg. It's like you're inside my mind. This hits so close to home.
Much love 💜
@@CitizenSoldier I wish I could fully explain how many hard times you have gotten me through. But no words seem good enough. You soothe many souls. Never change. 🖤💜🖤
"The reason this life is worth living is hard to remember"
That really hit home.
Great song c:
Yeah it's a great song... I hope you're doing okay... I'm sorry I know it's hard... Stay strong!!❤️😔
Yeah at this point I am only living to make sure my dog is taken care of, if it wasn't for her I would have ended it already
@@afroggg2244 what about your family, friends? Obviously I'm not in your situation your family/friends could be pure idiots for all I know but I hope you can find something else to love.
@@randomblob8996 not really because my social anxiety I have a difficult time making friends so I have none, and my parents just scream at my my mom most of the time wishes she didn't have me and my dad only pays attention to me if he wants me to get him something my extended family doesn't care much they don't even talk to me, I wish it was different but it's not so I am living for my dog I love her to much to die yet, but I am trying to be happier
@@afroggg2244 it's good that you're trying to be happier and I'm sorry for all the problems you're facing. I think you need to find someone/something else to live for otherwise once your dog passes, I'm afraid you won't be here you'll lose your will to live.
I suggest (though you might not want my opinion) that you go places that make you happy even if it's just a walk in the sun or sitting in the shade under a tree while reading. Getting to know yourself better is the best way to do things that make you feel good/be happier.
Keep trying and your dog must be really amazing (just like you even if you didn't realise it)
"I would rather lay here in my bed, than have to face what lives here in my head, hell just being awake hurts much more than I could ever explain" idk but I relate to that so well and it hurts so much
Hang in there friend 💜
Yes their are fake friends..
BUT their will always be that one friend that always cared for you...And you can called him your best friend or best buddy...
Here for you friend 💜
@@constanceackerman7763 Not everyone is the same. There are those who will use and abuse you and call themselves your friend. But there are those who will care about you and listen to your stories. Look for those kind of people. Don’t give up. You’ve only truly failed when you stop trying. So, keep trying. You’ll find someone out there who may need you just as much as you need them. 🤍💜
Finally here! Can't wait to listen to it on repeat for the whole day
What did you think of it?
@@CitizenSoldier IT WAS SICK.
@@CitizenSoldier absolutely awesome both in imusic and lyrics but I feel like I'm missing something because it seems like the fact that it's specifically December means something more than
Dark and cold
And if it was explained during that great interview that happened recently then I'm sorry but I must've slept on that part.
But I love it since I can just apply my recent breakup with the first person to ever love me... She's fighting her demons plus helping others fight as well, while best I can do is let others vent and say it's all right..
@@CitizenSoldier I love every song you make and how long does the take for you guys to make all of you songs?
Another song that describes my feelings better than I can. Such a relatable and impacting song. Well done👏
Thanks Alex 💜
I swear, Citizen Soldier songs.. ALL are relatable to ALL of us... If nobody has your back, nobody understands.. These songs understand you, comment sections get it.. we're all listening to these songs on repeat for a reason, this comment section, the comment section in every other Citizen Soldier song, that's your real safe place. I truly bless you all, thank you for reading this, I believe your soul can make it through another day♥️
These songs are literally telling stories.. glad I found y'all.
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Sitting on my bed in tears, this song spoke to me so well with everything going on in my life, thank you for this song!! Please keep on writing
Will do. Much love Heather. We care about you 💜
Your music is amazing especially when I fall into a deep dark pit of depression
What did you think of this one?
@@CitizenSoldier loved it
Agreed
This is why I like winter, it’s nice when it’s colder outside than within.
December 11th 2016, I lost my oldest brother. I miss him everyday and this song resonates more than I can explain.
When a song knows how you feel, and tells it like no one else ever could:
Here for you friend 💜
Same
Same my friend
Same tho
I was at a place like this but i got outta there and i reaaaaally hope y'll will get out of there oneday
LYRICS FOR YOU BEANS!
Snow is falling, it's middle july
Just another day here in my mind, Cant escape what's inside, ive been running my whole damn Life.
Years go by but the colors wont change, Been so long since ive felt anything,
feelings fading so fast like im watching my own life through Glass.
No One Sees, But its Always December in me,
No matter where i go its pouring rain
In my head seasons never change,
And its killing me
No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember,
When its Always December
Black and white, Only colors i see,
Sunless sky somehow stuck on repeat, But i hold it all down, Dont want anyone to feel this but me.
I'm only free from it when i'm asleep, The more i think, The more i feel myself sink,
Back to this empty place, It's a Nightmare i could never explain.
No One Sees, But its Always December in me,
No matter where i go its pouring rain
In my head seasons never change,
And its killing me
No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember,
Cant Outrun the cold, When its in my Head, In My Head.
Its been getting Old, Wishing i was Dead, I Was Dead,
As this Overcast Suffocates Me, I'm done waiting on some sign of Spring.
I would rather lay here in my Bed,
Then have to face what lives Here in my Head, Hell just being Awake Hurts much more than i could ever Explain.
No One Sees, But its Always December in me,
No matter where i go its pouring rain
In my head seasons never change,
And its killing me
No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember,
When its Always December
Thank you!! 🙏
Its funny how people post lyrics in comments on lyric videos lol
@@TrayXCooper there are people who want the lyrics so they know what the next line is gonna be as they sing. Few lyric videos are off-timed, so yeah. Hope that explains.
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@@TrayXCooper so people can see the lyrics ahead and sing to it
My brother posted this song to Facebook which confused everyone because he normally never posted at all. No one ever reached out to him because we always assumed that he wanted to be left alone but the truth is that he was hurting inside. No one realized that him posting this song was his way of saying goodbye to everyone at once... Use this song as a reminder that people around you could be hurting and that you should always check on them because you never know if today will be the last day you see or hear from them. I regret not being there for him, I hate myself for it.
Omg guys this is just so beautiful you always bring out the emotions in me right I'm my chest it's like I will burst with feeling , these lyrics are your best yet citizen soldier and Jake as usual your voice is just perfection 🥰 heart and soul of everything 🖤
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Finally another song about my father and me. Thank you very much. This is why we all love you
Different emotional song I been listening like (slipknot. snuff ) (disturbed sound of silent) (linken park. In the end) and any music emotional song I been listening but citizen soldier is my band now
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Once again you took words from my mouth "the only peace is when I'm asleep" that's been my life for 2 months now.
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I'm sitting at my computer, crying because this is the first time someone's been able to explain what it's like for me on a daily basis. I needed this today.
December Capricorn here. I feel this song all the way to my bones.
How is it that they can make such great songs and convey those feelings?
without a doubt, an incredible song
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"IN MY HEAD SEASON NEVER CHANGE"
So Relate
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Me too
@@CitizenSoldier Hiiii
Holy Molly!
The hours of wait, has been the worth for this 🌟MASTERPIECE🌟
Thank you 💜💜💜
6 months since my suicide attempt.. 6 long blurred months. I’m ready for the day I see more color, and my seasons are filled with hope. Thank you again for giving me a song that reminds me I’m not the only one in my head. I will travel anywhere to see you guys in concert.
Glad you’re still with us Megan 💜 Appreciate you
Their music truly is a lifesaver. I drowned in my emotions most nights but their songs always find a way into my head. Their like the light in the dark.
I'm so glad you survived. Remember you are here for a reason. It's hard to remember that. I struggle to remember that. One day I'll write a book with people 's stories and when I'm ready if you want I'll share yours if you're comfortable. Because people's life stories always interest me I have no clue why.
I lost my mom dec 21st 2023. I feel this song probably differently than anyone else. I'm still in December.
Don't know how you do it Citizen Soldier but every song just puts me into tears its like you know exactly what's on my mind and just get to that feeling with those songs. Now I will keep this song on repeat for 2+weeks 😁😁
Thanks Sandra 💜
I’ve been going through some major medical issues for the past 6 years now and when I hear these songs they always hit starting when I found y’all and heard Would Anyone Care. Thank you for the beautiful messages.
Omggg its really a beautyfull songg I literally just woke up and heard that... 🥲🖤damnnn Just beautyfull💜
Much love 💜
I resonate with this song. Depression has left me constantly drained of drive and will. I always feel this pain within that's similar to internal bleeding. However, there's no real injury. Because of that, I don't feel any other injuries or pain. It's almost like my body has become completely numb to it all. It is indeed the cruelest pain...
We hear you 💜
It was something else to hear Jake's softer voice. Like a whole new dimension 💜💜😍
Goosebumps all over me💜💜💜
This song perfectly sums up my entire life. Ironically, my daughter was born in December and I love my beautiful princess more than anything but I always feel like I'm bringing her down because I can't bring myself to celebrate her special day. On her 10th birthday, she walked up to me and told me that January 7 will be our Daddy / daughter day, just the two of us to celebrate her birthday.
Obviously, I started bawling my head off and she just threw her arms around me and told me that she loved me. I don't know how I was graced with such a sweet and amazing little girl but I'm forever thankful.
Thank you for this beautiful song.
It’s scary when I pretend I’m okay, but I can still relate to these songs… they speak words I could never say. I must thank my best friend for showing me this legend.
Same for me
I grew up listening to music with my dad. He taught me to lose myself to the music; to listen to the meaning. He tragically passed away two and a half years ago. And in dealing with the grief and anxiety, you Citizen Soldier have helped me so much. It is never difficult to find the meaning and each song just gets more and more relatable. You guys have such an impact on all of us, we all love you guys.
"SUNLESS SKY SOMEHOW STUCK IN REPEAT"
those lines hit hard through heart! ☺
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@@CitizenSoldier ❤❤
Only heard the first line and knew it was me. Its amazing how you write songs that totally relate to
"Years go by but the colors don't change and know one sees"
Thoughs parts where what I feel some days.
I can feel this so deep.. I lost my son in November 2009.. It's always November in me
Worst thing happened to me in November 😭😂😭😭
Thank you for making another song. You don’t know how perfect your timing was. Thank you so much.
Always. What did you think of it?
@@CitizenSoldier I loved it. Of course, I love all of your songs, but this one really encompasses the feeling of being completely trapped in the same crappy cycle and good God I feel that. Fantastic work.
Absolutely amazing love the song and the tune 💯💯
Thanks Tyler! 💜
I miss loved ones and somehow this feels like what I need to spend the night a bit easier. Thank you guys.
this music isn't just music its a reason to carry on thank you
Another beautiful song that evokes feelings that I forget I have.
Much love 💜
"I would rather lay hear in my bed than have to face what's in my head" I love it this song explains alot keep it up 💜
To anyone who relates to the lyrics, the storm will pass. I know it has lasted a long time and there's no sign of it clearing, but it does clear. I wish I could tell you how or when; it's really scary and lonely weathering the storm; just know you are not alone and I, a stranger on the internet, am rooting for you. Nobody deserves your pain. This is your permission to do what you need to to open your umbrella or simply dance in the rain. You are stronger than your storm. Trust me. You've got this.
My grandpa died 9 days before Christmas when I was 15. If I only I knew the year before was the last time my family would ever all be together.
This is one of your rare, RARE songs on a major key. These rays of hope should be cherished forever.
I like using "December" as the interpretation of feelings. Like in December we got sun, but it doesn't heat us
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30th July is my birthday and I still sit here and listen to this song and I ask myself will I always feel this way? 🌹🖤
Is it this me or did anyone else just break down and cry while listening to this..it really hits home for me.
It’s ok to cry 💜
Everytime I come back to this song especially tears just fall continuously down my face can literally feel my heart n soul 💔 breaking 💔 😪
I love the rain. It cleanses all the pain of the day. The rain also hides your tears but at least you feel relaxed as the rain washes over you and you feel free at least just for that moment
Don't forget someone loves you 🖤 stay strong 🙏🏻 and ask for help. There's so much beauty in this life
I'm not crying, I'm not crying, ok I am balling my eyes out with this one. Citizen Soldier, your songs are absolutely powerful and beautiful. This hits so close to home, and I love this song. December is often associated with the end of a year with a new beginning around the corner. However, for those who have to battle with depression, anxiety, and demons from our past, our Decembers can be so very long.
Thank you again for creating this exceptionally powerful song.
It’s ok to cry 💜
I couldn’t stop playing the song since it was out 🥺🥺 I just love it, who’s with me? 🖤🎶✨
Thanks Sofi 💜
Your music is so amazing. Every time I turn around it's always a new song that hits home. Thank you so much for letting me know I'm not the only person struggling with things. It's so hard to look outside of the storm raging on the inside.
"but i hold it all down dont want anyone to feel but me"
relate for me, keep being strong for everyone i love, thanks for the reminder citizen soldier
After my sister passed away December is the hardest month of the year. Not only because of the holidays but a week before Christmas that was my sister's birthday on the 15th. She would have been 22 this year. but she lost her fight when she was 16. But not a day goes by that I don't remember the day I last heard her voice. I'm living what she couldn't I'm gonna make the best of this life no matter what mountain I have to climb. Yes, there will be days that I will fall down but I would always get back up and try again.
I don't comment but this song has touch my heart and my very soul. The emotion is to powerful in this song
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I can’t explain how much this song relates to the things people go through it’s pretty crazy how much depression hits people. I love this song so much guys! Keep up the good work
Thanks Isabella 💜
I can't even explain how much your music means to me. I lost my baby girl November 21st 2017 ever since then I just want to go be with her. Takes all I can to no just give up and be with her. I always had depression but she was my meaning to life . Without her I'm lost. This makes me feel not so alone.
My birthday is tomorrow this is a real gift. Thank you! It really helps im having my sweet 16. No one and (me) thought i was going to make it to 16. So thank you very much!!!
"Can't out run the cold, when it's in my head. It's been getting old, wishing I was dead."
That hurt and brought tears to my eyes instantly.
This hit me deep. I cried for quite a bit after I listened to this. I haven’t heard a song that goes into detail what I and so many other people go through just on a daily basis. Thank you so much for making this song 💙
I know it's the end of the month but I forgot to say this: Happy Men's Mental Health Month! You guys make such beautiful music that helps every person who listens to you, but I still wanted to say that :).
Keep making masterpieces!
Just in time
Welcome 💜
I know it was most likely intentional but that makes it all the better that this video was uploaded in middle of July
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Songs by CITIZEN SOLDIERS are always about the most painful moments of life.
I absolutely love listening to your music. It helps with so much going through my head. When I feel down and upset I just listen to so if your guys songs. It always helps ❤️💯💯
Thanks Troy 💜
Incredible as always, is the only thing I can say. Citizen Soldier, all your songs are amazing and reach my heart. Hello from Spain and sorry for my bad english!!! 😍😍😍
Thanks Pablo 💜
Listening in December
This is far one of the best song citizen soldier have ever made.I just can't stop repeating it
Perfect voice+perfect music+perfect lyrics+completely relatable=citizen soldier
Love this song and every other song you have made and I’m ready for many more to come 🎵
Thanks friend 💜💜
YES LETS GO
Let’s gooooo 💜
Your Songs are amazing. They've got another meaning if you understand that feeling you're singing about. just amazing!
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to be honest i actually love the cold and the rain but this says so much about my life that it's almost scary love you citizen soldier you're probably the reason i'm still alive ❤️
This one and hand me down are the two that I listen to the most on repeat followed by would anyone care.
Me being born in December, and who has been through some shit. I can relate, citizen soldier I have listened to y'all's songs for 2 yours. Y'all have helped me a lot, and I'm so happy y'all are still making songs💕
Why does this song describe me more and better than I could ever describe myself??.. Thanks for this song guys! Love every song of yours. Pieces of Art.