I was with her for 7 years, married for 3, and she was a genuinely good person, but…she was adulterous and ended up telling me she wasn’t even sure she ever loved me. All of this started happening less than 1 year after losing my dog, Daisy, who I had since she was just a few weeks old. Daisy was my best friend and I had to sit and watch her body die from old age, helpless to change anything no matter what I did…then all of my friends (including my now ex-wife) just told me versions of the same thing, “She’s just a dog” “You’ll get over it” “You can always get a new pet”. Now my stepbrother is dead from a drug overdose, my ‘friends’ couldn’t care less about my life, my family is fractured, my ex has moved on into a new relationship, and I’m stuck trying to pick up the pieces and make sense of everything. All I’m left with are broken memories and pain in my heart, even in my dreams, I can’t escape this hellish carnal world. But I must push onwards in life
I’m sorry for your losses, keep on keeping on and things will find you and make you happy in new and different ways. Also dogs are family members, when they pass there will never be another one like them, they are beautiful loving creatures who are one of a kind. You don’t just “get a new dog” they are an addition to the family. I’m sorry the other people in your life don’t get it but i at least understand that part
Bro I know exactly how you feel. Most people are emotionally useless, they don't even know how to feel their own feelings. When my ex of six+ years left me, the majority of the people I know acted like I was bitching about a lost one night stand, or that a month or two was enough time to stop being sad. Thankfully that wasn't everyone in my life, but even if that is everyone in yours, don't think that means the way you feel is invalid. It isn't, this person or pet was a legitimate part of you and now that part is gone forever. It's like losing a psychic limb or some shit, at the very least a trusty leaning post for the toughest times in your life. Don't listen to the people who tell you to just completely suck it up either. You gotta feel it, total suppression helps nobody, but don't wallow either. I forget my original point, but you ain't alone man. Just because people might be dismissive of your feelings doesn't mean they aren't legitimate.
@@poon_don Thank you for your kind words. I guess it’s just difficult for me to come to terms with the fact that some people are emotionally “hollow”. Not everyone in my life has been that way, but it does get overwhelming when my ‘loved ones’ and ‘best friends’ treat me like this. Peace and love🙏
Im sorry for all this my man, i think if i was you id do one thing, id have literally abandonned everything and go chase a new dream to reconquer my world. When a man is broken i think he needs to reborn. Anyways you will one day recover of this im sure you will
"For 17 years, this has been home. Isolation. Acceptance. Peace. For 17 years, love has been lost. Welcome to grieving, it's forever. For 17 years, I've been here. Waiting. For you to come back."
I find it fascinating how the soundtrack of SH2 (and it's imitations) and retro aesthetics combined are turning SH into something it never even was originally... To think that you could remember a literal hell on earth and all of it's horror spawned by your sins or the sins of others with nostalgia... It's just so amazing to me since I was there when it all first came out in 1999, since the first one, and I'd never imagined back then that it would become like this. Fascinating.
The music from the game has a very relaxing feel (most of the time). And me personally, I think just like the town itself, the music makes me forget about everything else and kind of locks me into my own consciousness where i can think about everything in the silent peace of my own room without interruption. I don't know if other people feel the same, but that's the feeling it gives me lol
@@levieakle I promise this is not a plug and I'm just relating, but I make music with that exact goal in mind; I want people to feel that feeling that I can't put into words when I listen to the sh2 ost!!
Yup, and now you can brag about « having played it when it first came out » and even better : get some internet points for it ! How cool is that, huh ?
@@aidanaguayo6776 isn't it though? There's loads and load's of hour+ long theories and reviews on RUclips, endlessly theorizing about every aspect of the game, lol. The music compilations, etc, it's gotten out of and at this point, I'd say, in good way, though. It demystified SH a bit though, that kind of sucks but it had to happen eventually.
I'm 26, I lost my girlfriend a month ago, it was for the best but she was my first love and it's hard to let go... I'm also on the verge of loosing my job and was threatened by my boss due to lack of concentration and failing at my tasks, also found out my mom has cancer - all in the span of 1 month. Sometimes life has a special touch of triviality, like no matter how hard you've strived for living, loving and trying to be commendable, you will still be kicked to the curb by providence... Stay strong everyone.
I hope things start going your way dude. My mother found out she had cancer in one of the worst periods of my life, thankfully she beat it but i truly sympathize with you. Best of luck my friend keep Your head up:)
@@AddyWakeUp thank you, she is going through surgery this week. You motivate me that it will get better. Hopefully things start taking a turn, also in my job and honestly... Fuck cancer
@@LuSanification I hope all the best for you. My wife’s grandmother also had cancer not too long ago so I can understand how worrisome it can be. I know things will look up again I promise.
@@LuSanification eyo, keep your head up!! I'm very sorry to hear/read about what happened. I lost a cousin to cancer. It's very hard, but stay strong and stay up. Lemme know if you need anything, I'm a comment away. (Still can't find RUclips messages)
People often say "you don’t miss her, you miss the version of what she could have been". That might be true for some, but to me it's not about what she could have been. Sure, she might had become my wife, the mother of my children. But that's not what I miss. I miss what she was for me - home, and warmth. Something that I'll never get back from her, and something that although I've tried with some already, couldn't receive. Not because they haven't tried, but because I feel like it will go the same way it did before.
I feel with you. 5 years together, 2 years ago when we broke up. Still can't get over it, my heart misses her. Can we truly forget someone that we considered as the love of your life?
It also is the fact that you give a such huge part of yourself and rely so much on that person that when she’s no longer here it almost feel as if a part of yourself was torn apart and you’ll never see it again, I’m in a healthy relationship since HighSchool we moved together and everything is going well but I can’t stop thinking of how lonely I’ll feel if she ever want to leave one day, that’s why I do my best and her too
Don’t fall into a self fulling prophecy. If you think about it for just a second, you can’t tell yourself you’ll never get over her. Tell yourself “one day at a time.”
The older I get, all I can say is I’m thankful for the experiences. The highs and the lows. You can never see them coming, no matter how hard you try. Life is just endless rugpulls, and then it’s over.
He is a wonderful person and I miss him everyday. He did a bad thing that impacted me and my family. For 3 years he was everything, he didnt made me happy, he gave meaning to my life. I just dont understand, why hurt me and my family? He also introduced me to silent hill and I loved the soundtrack, but now... its more... sad... I'm alone in a different city, it's hard but I'm growing. I understand how fragile I'm. I hope in some years I can read this comment with a smile in my face, if I do then... thank you for not giving up ju :)
I broke up with my ex 4 months ago. She was (she is) a very good person, but she also did a very bad thing to me. We tried to move on together, but i just couldnt stand the pain. Almost five months have passed and i still think on her. But not in a good way, i dont miss her, I only think about the sad things that happened to us. I want to get rid of this pain so much, it feels like i have no peace anymore. Thats it. I miss my peace, and i deeply want it back.. EDIT 6 MONTHS LATER: hi guys. Half an year has passed and im here to say that im way way WAY better than i was 6 months ago. I mean WAY BETTER hahaha. Im still single, but i have met a lot of nice persons in College, and Im doing a lot of activities at the same time there. Im working as a teacher (again) teaching to students who are in the same college as me. Now im a member of both Student Consul and student organization, and also im studying German as my 3rd language. And about my ex, i almost dont think about her. And when i do, it doesnt hurt me anymore. I'm in peace..
I know the feeling dude, iv been there in the deepest and dark alone for 2 years drowning in that mindset with panic attacks and depression because of my ex who left me after moving to a different country to start new life together, she was aswell good person and she did very bad thing to me too, I was stuck alone at the beginning but I got out of it and past faded, now I don't feel past haunting me anymore, I don't feel it, some feelings fades! Keep strong !
Do not fear, do not suffer. Accept your emotions and move on. It is okay to think about something that has had a profound impact on your life, I myself have experienced this. Someone you deeply love lets go of you so quickly that you don‘t really notice what‘s happening and you are too ignorant and petty to fight for your love. It has caused insecurity and emotional pain for me over the entire last year, but it gets better. Try to let go of it and shift your focus toward the present and your own life. Trust me, it is just a stumbling stone on the road that is your life. You will overcome this, your goal lies far beyond this.
@@cano4816 yes you right! After those two years I somehow accepted and realized it has grew me more emotionally stronger, the experiences we get strengthen us.
Time heals all wounds, accept it as needed and keep moving forward. You never know where you will be in a year, 5 years, 10 years, trust in the future. You're gunna make it bro
i was with her for about 2 and a half years, although we stopped dating, we never really could bring ourselves to not contact each other every now and then. but a lot has happened since last december. there are moments where i think about her a lot. reminiscing about the past and even wondering if i should even text her. she messaged me pretty recently on her birthday, reminding me and saying “hey, just messaging hoping you didn’t forget it’s my special day” i mean how could i? i remember every little thing about that woman. it feels right but also wrong talking to her. it’s like there’s a knife slowly piercing my chest and there’s no way to get it out. sometimes i wish things went differently, sometimes i wish we never met. but the hardest thing about this all, is trying to move on with your life after. if you’ve read this far on my ramble, i just wanted to say thank you for listening. i never realized how beautiful youtube can be and how it truly is a place you can feel at home.
don't give in to your desires over your pride. someone who cares is out there but you'll have to be impressively "you" to get them. Chin up, chest out. don't you dare give up on yourself.
I believe ultimately this is why people end up so hurt after relationships. The memories are great, but you lost the person you wanted to be with, does that make the memories worth it?
Everyones talking about an ex, some unrequited love, and idk why but it made me think about how i felt about the one person who was there for me. My mom passed away when i was 18, feels weirdly timed tbh or maybe just my brain finding weird ideas. Its been years since then, im 26 now and it feels like that was a whole other world, and im not that kid anymore. It feels like i seperated myself from it, and everything feels darker these days. Hell i don't cry as much as i did after her passing, i have other things that preoccupy my mind. She wouldn't get hurt and thats all thats comforted me.
Reading all these comments fills me. Scrolling through the histories, the memories of people that you don't ever know. Beginning to remember your stories , even ones that you forgot already. Just wow. I love you all, and love these small hidden sections, kinda islands, where we can tell about our experience, our story everyone, understanding that you wont be judged by someone. Now I am also going through difficult times, we all face them from time to time. But remember, difficult times give birth to strong people. Peace to everyone, thank you for being there
Never delete this please, I always go back to this whenever I want to think to myself and I don't have the space to. Just venting here since I know no one will see so it's safer for me here; I'm going to be away from her again, its like a ritual, last time 5 - 6 and now this time it'll be a year, I don't want to wait but I must, I'm scared without her but I've always worked it out but it's so hard because she can't respond to me during those moments and I can't blame her, she's busy with her grades and I need to be better, I need a scholarship or else I go back to my home country and study there for 4 years, I can't do that. The distance between us would kill me, my separation anxiety was so bad that I weeped silently whilst she listened at 9 PM while it was 1 AM. I'm finally back and I'm so,,, lost, tired? Excited? Afraid? I'm just... overwhelmed.
Pain, regret and suffering is necessary. It’s what shows us who we truly are and leads us to knowing what we want and who you want to be truly… The next coming days, weeks and months will be dark, cloudy & foggy. You will be lost but not forever, you just need to keep going and find a way out of here… You don’t want to be stuck in this place forever… Do you?
To anyone struggling right now, I want you to know that you WILL get through this. Missing her is okay. I still do myself, but what I've realised is that I miss her as a Concept, a shell of her former self. A concept made by memories that is not a reflection of the present. All that we have is now and we have to at some point accept and realise that we are born Alone, and much of our life we'll have to traverse that way. People come and go, to teach us something. Or not, whatever. The 'her' you miss does not exist anymore. Fill your life with wonderful things that you're passionate about. Chase your dreams relentlessly and find fulfilment in your pursuits, and in your other relationships. Keep your friends close, talk it out, FEEL THE FUCKING FEELING that is aching to be expressed. You are beautiful, you are worthy. And you WILL love again. And you WILL be loved again. If it costed your peace it was too expensive. Wish yourself well, wish her well. And thank you for the music :)
my ex and i, we have our special place and everytime i go there i just breakdown i miss her so much i hope someday we meet again in our special place : (
It's better to think about your next potential so that will be so much more for you in the future, every person I've had feelings for a special to me in so many different ways but I don't want it to have any effect on my next relationship, you know
@@gutstheberserkerr You just gotta enjoy being alone, being by yourself, work on your mindset. Learn how to be happy by yourself. Trust me you don't need somebody else to be happy or anything else
@@gutstheberserkerr "My hardest lesson is trying to learn how to live alone again." I seriously teared up, I have genuinely never felt so touched, and related to a comment before. I'm in the same position. Thank you.
Sometimes I wonder if this music eases our pain or intensifies it. But the scary thing is: no matter which of these is true, it's exactly what we need in those moments.
Basically you just described an illusion and a delusional state of mind in one LOL. Even still, I'm in total agreement about the "thinking we need it in those moments" 😜
@@SurvivalSpheres He's got great taste! And I think Waning Sorrows was the 1st one I had heard! A new clarity was another great one! Appreciate all your work 😃
I lost her and it was completely my fault. When she needed me I turned and ran like a coward, and when I saw her again almost 2 months later she called me a coward and a pathetic person, and rightfully so. After a bit of time apart she tried to talk to me again, but I pushed her away, scared of what might happen and I regret it so much to this day. I wish I told her how much I missed her, and took her hand when she offered it to me again...but I didn't, and I live with the regret of that mistake almost 4 years later now. I want to talk to her so bad, tell her how I've felt all these years but it's been so long, and I've heard from others that she doesn't like me anymore and might be interested in someone else, I can't blame her. I miss the version of her that I had, that I lost, that I can never have again, not with her or with any other girl. I wish I could go back and change it, I wish I could so badly, I would gladly go back to high school if it meant I could change how it all went down. I just miss her so much...and how it used to be
@@gokuonice1940 Silent Hill is probably the only place we end up in to fix ourselves and move on from our mistakes and lies down to our willingness to confront our demons.
I have the same feeling. I’m waiting for something, but I dont really know what for. And I also hate if I have to wait. I got diagnosed with ADHD, and my psychiatrist said that this is the reason why I feel this way.
@@metalgearobama been there man. But you learn that waiting for something to happen will never work, you need to make that something, i know its tough, ive been there. Once you realise it and start working on it, it gets better. trust in it bro.
I can't believe i still think about her after such a long while. I can feel that the memories are fading slowly, the more I think about her, the less I remember her mannerisms, or her physical attributes. However I do know she made me feel like a better person when I was with her. And I never thought she could be so beautiful to me, and I never thought I could be so attached. She was a wonderful person don't get me wrong. But she used me for her own benefit when I was weak metally. Then she left me twice. And I still tried to take care of her because I was so blinded by her love, that not a single person has ever made me feel. She looked at me like no one has ever before. But thats all over with now. Its just that feeling is irreplaceable to me, i've tried. Althogh small things remind me of her. But unfortunately the goods never outweigh the bads for these situations, and I can never go back. I know shes with a new guy now, and hes probably better for her, At least shes doing better now, and I gotta move on.
My dad just passed away on december, past year... My ex broke up with me less than a month since dad passed away.... Conciously i try to be ok and stand out there giving up the best of me But deep inside i just feel empty, all the memories, all the things we said to each other... No matter how hard i try, memories just keep flashing back to me, is just a river full of my deepest and saddest emotions and feelings I wish the best to her... But for me... i feel awful. It's an eternal memorie that'll live in my dreams Miss you Dad Miss you F.
Better said than done but my brother, she left you at your lowest, she probably does not derserve you. Keep doing your best, time will get the rest done. May your dad rest in peace as you may walk in too. I wish you all the best my brother I do feel you ❤️
Unfortunately sometimes life has a way of showing us things we do not want to see. As someone in the comments above stated if she left you at your lowest she wasn't good for you. I am terribly sorry for your loss regarding your father. I don't want to be annoying or cliche but a place to start picking pieces up is the gym. No it won't take all the pain away but it will give you a healthy outlet to express the hurt pain and anger while also building YOU up. Life is terrible to us sometimes but it is my true belief that so long as you're doing right by others and the best you can for yourself it'll all make sense and fall into place. I believe in you you've been very strong to comment what you did now use that strength and continue on fellow struggler.
firstly when she was finally gone i felt nothing, maybe the void she left in me was always there, she just knew how to stuck it with love and warmth… now it feels like it was another person’s life, and from this point i am broken viewer of the memories and consequences… still… there’s a hope, never believed that time will heal me, but even trough my stubbornness it works, please every poor and wounded soul who will read this… you have to believe no matter how it hurts and feels empty there is way out, i believe in you.
To everyone struggling: you can keep on living and you'll find love again. Me and my ex were together for 10 years and honestly when he left me my whole world crumbled. It took me 2-3 years to get up and to feel ready to open my heart again but I am finally doing it and I feel like a better person than what I used to be before experiencing all of this. It still sucks and hurt of course, but I like who I am now.
I really am impressed of a story like yours, personally it’s been a year and I don’t think I could even open my heart to someone. Strangely enough I would like to, but I don’t feel capable of that… we’ve been together for 4 years yet she just left without telling nothing one day all of a sudden, I don’t know if I could ever trust someone again…
@@Yann2020 It is your decission. Maybe imagine it to be like a flame. You might burn yourself or smother it if it gets too close, but to live without flame would be cold and sad, unless you really hate the flame for being too hot at the touch, fleeting in nature, and irrationally hungry at times. We will never fully know why people act the way they do, but we also do not know whats around the corner. Maybe our trust needs to be betrayed at times to make space for someone more trustworthy . Good luck
@@t.k.5972 thanks my friend, deep down I think like that as well, but I kinda have some trauma. Thanks for your time and responding I appreciate it kind stranger
At its core, Silent Hill is a psychological horror series yet its ambience is also ethereal, otherworldly and melancholy. I think that it's these other aspects that make me come back to it.
@@Fizzy332 youll be ok. maybe not, but my own surroundings are all i can perceive. ill never interact with you again apart from these few seconds in our lifetimes, and dont know the type of person you are, but i pass my joint to you
It's been 20 min since I read most of the comments here. I really love reading all the "broke up" / lost someone stories, I feel so sorry for everyone that is in pain, just remember, pain is temporay, happiness could be forever. So, I want to share my story too, it's the first time so please be gentle. It's been since September 2022 that I lost my true love of youth. I had been with her for 2 and a half years but I had known her for more than 4 years. Ever since I was a child I've never had much luck in my life, I've always been alone, with practically nothing except the love of my parents. In 2018, I had my first love, everything was going well, I finally understood the fact that we could be "loved" in two different ways. Except that a few months after having my first moment of "luck" my Mom killed herself. Since then, I know nothing but a deep loneliness, the feeling of having lost one of the two "types" of loves of your life forever, hurts my spirit and my soul extremely. I've been fighting my depression every day since, feeling alive, but just not happy and empty. After that, my first love leaves me, and tells me that she "never really loved me" and blocks me from everywhere when I was in emotional distress and needed people to take care of me. mind and think of nothing. Then at the beginning of 2020 I started going out with 'M', everything was going well, I rediscovered a happiness that I had not known for some time, but then comes the COVID and therefore the confinement, with my very unstable mental health I decides to cut ties and just end this relationship for a while. In the end, I come to talk to her again 1 year later in March 2021. From there, it is cold, but after a few days, the machine had started again, and we could resume our relationship where we had stopped. Everything was so passionate, so perfect, she matched me perfectly, everything I loved, she loved him too, which meant that we could literally talk about anything and everything. Time passes, and around Summer 2022, she drastically changes personalities, we hadn't been able to see each other since March because I needed to be alone, like a ghost, but she needed to see me all the time, because ( for information, I helped her in her psychological problems, I supported her in all her steps and her life projects, even if it means that I abandon myself so that she succeeds in her life, which is stupid in thinking about it). So she started making new friends, guys and girls and I think she just got tired of me, even she told me she loved me not as much as before, which made that the relationship was at a standstill. From there, I tried from the bottom of my heart, to force the lines and "be happy and joyful" just to get back on track and fix something that could have been broken. I tried everything for 3 months, offering him to go to the movies because that's what I like the most, to see each other , going to the beach, EVERYTHING, but no, she was just postponing, until one day we saw each other at the mall, no kisses, no hugs, nothing, it was empty, like my heart. Then, one evening in September, I delete everything on my discord and instagram profile, our date, the shared bio, my pp, everything again. I sleep for a few hours and around 9 am, I get a big text explaining to me that we're not together anymore, then a discussion follows where just well we say everything to each other without really saying anything. Then, we unfollow each other, we delete each other, I don't block her but she did and I tell her to take care of her and my stuffed animals. She said to me "I would come to see you every year to see if everything is fine on your side" I remember having refused that, because back then I thought I was going to end my days. Since then, I have nothing, no news, nothing, apart from a few clues, for example the fact that she take back the Instagram username that I had chosen for her rather than her first and last name. Well, after that I couldn't sleep for 5 days straight, I didn't eat, just drank water or I was going to die, I just felt dead, with no desire to watch movies, play or talk, it was just desperation. 2 weeks later, I decided to take myself in hand and go to the gym, lose weight and build a mind and body like what she had never seen. With this mentality, this motivation and being "detached" from all emotion since then, I have lost 12 kg, gained a lot of strength and a very pleasant physique and an unflinching mentality. On the other hand, since my breakup, I have lost my memory, my brain has suffered so much that it has gone into safety mode and made me forget everything since 2018/2017. So in just a few weeks, I forgot the memories related to 'M' or my mom or even my first love. That's fine, but it's really scary to be able to remember anything, from anyone. Now I feel "good" although empty and without emotions, but it's moving forward, I know I have my whole life ahead of me to meet people, people come and go, it's the cycle of life, it doesn't bother me that much. What saddens me, however, is that each person is unique, and never finding a person like her scares me. But, I know that if she ever comes back, I just wouldn't want to talk to her, because the compassion and love I might feel would just be that of my memories, not that of reality. I already made the mistake once even though I thought it was perfect, I wouldn't make it a second time and no one else. Thank you to those who were able to read my little French story, take care of yourselves guys, don't forget, suffering is not eternal, it is temporary. Just to finish, I will say a french quote : "Le beau temps n'aurait pas la même valeur sans les jours de pluie." meaning : "Good weather would not have the same value without rainy days."
I read your whole story, and for some reason my story have so many similarities to yours, after almost 3 years with my girlfriend who became my wife in our last year together, not long ago my mom was suffering from cancer and i was in a different country where i live and study with my girlfriend, and because of covid i had no chance to go back home and see my family, so i had to wait, so last summer in July I married my girlfriend and i finally got the chance to go back home and i became so miserable and unbelievably sad after i saw how the illness changed my mom, but i was also happy to see her and feel a feeling that i haven’t felt in a long time, so in September 2022 after spending 2 and half months with my mom, she passed away in the 27th, and my wife told 3 days earlier that she no longer wants this relationship and she can’t take it anymore, she also began to make new friends guys and girls after i helped her through her depression and the most difficult time of her life, i was the only one there for her, and i was so devoted to her, and ready to do anything for her, and when finally she got better she decided to get rid of me, so after my mom passed away i detached from this reality, days would pass with me eating nothing, i had no desire to eat or to talk or to play or to laugh or to see anyone, there was only one thought in my head and it was that this cant be happening and that i will never see my dear mom again, and so i had to go back for my university and then i met wife and she continued with her decision and that she no longer sees a future for us together, even though i am now in the worst period of my life and i need all the support especially from her, she told she is not ready to so and she is already seeing someone else, so there was me and the silent hill inside my head, lost the two people i loved the most at the same damn time, words will never describe how i feel, but reading your story reminded so much of mine and what has happened to me, i don’t think that right now I feel anything, or maybe i am sure that i feel nothing, no passion, no love, no ambition, just nothing, and yeah it’s really hard to remember memories about someone but when you do it kills you, because you know you can no longer feel the same how you once felt, and I really believe that this is my mind responsible of all of this with his defense mechanism, i really don’t know what to say, i just try now to survive and hope for better tomorrow, and remember that our greatest glory is not In never falling, but in rising every time we fall, i hope someone reads this and feels better, and to you my friend i wish you patience and strength Stay safe.
If your reading this, and your in a pit of sadness, take the time to step back and look from the outside in. You have people who love you and cherish you, even if you can’t see or know it. If you were gone, nobody could replace you. Stay strong and love yourself
Sh2 helped me move on when my ex had left me and my dad had passed away. I was so immersed in its msuic and atmosphere. I allowed myself to be completely sucked into its aesthetics and I still replay it to this day.
im curious about your experience with this. for me, playing silent hill 2 made me more worried about death and loss for a little while. The situation with mary was really hard. how is it that the game helped you? i think if i wouldve gotten the leave ending my first time it wouldve left a more positive impact. but i got the water ending. the leave ending is my favorite, as its how I hope I would be able to react with a tragic loss of someone.
@LANpartylandlord sh2 provided me with an escape from a lot of the pain I was going through that time. I had an original ps2 copy and as soon as I was past the opening cutscene I just fell in love with it. It made me feel something that no other game made me feel before. The game made me feel a sense of nostalgia/fear as it had you exploring through liminal spaces. And when I was hit with the twist, it completely changed how I saw everything in the game. I often held small parties at my house and I would gather friends in a dark cramped room to playthrough it. Even when I know almost everything about the game by now, I still replay it and find new things to think about. Little details in the environment that stand out when you start think of then. I also heavily identified with having a loved one become mentally destroyed from years of illness. It still feels crushing when I hear the Mary monolgue near the end of the game. None of the endings are perfect but I kind of like the in water ending the best despite how bleak it is.
Lost a lot not from a physical standpoint, but an emotional one, recently. Good friends coming and going, relationships not lasting, betrayals becoming more common. Real life is a beautiful yet terrifying thing, and once that reality slaps you in the face it becomes overwhelming. It takes time to adjust to, becoming an adult. In some ways, we’re all still learning, because in our own ways we’ve never fully grown up. This feeling is the embodiment of that. The everlasting transition of trying to grow up. Maybe that’s why music like this makes us feel a certain way, because we try to ignore that feeling.
I've read a lot of comments under this video and I want to share my story. I was 17 when I met her, we were first year and to tell you the truth, I didn't think that we would have something with her, because she was very popular, she had a lot of friends who made friends with her. As for me, I was just an ordinary guy from a small village, who had escaped to the big city and was afraid of every step. The year flew by unnoticed and somehow it so happened that a quarantine started in our country and we were all sent home. This is where it all starts, this girl and I began to communicate a lot, practically all day long we corresponded and when the opportunity arose, we met. It was the most wonderful thing. We had a wonderful walk that ended with a kiss. We have been together ever since and you know..... Half a year goes by, then a year, we're fine. On the 2nd year of the relationship I couldn't congratulate her in any way and give her something because I was in occupation. We called each other when I had the opportunity and had a cell phone (and there it is rare and there was no electricity to charge the phone, so we used the generator of electricity friends). Every time we called, I could hear how worried she was and how she was holding back her tears. I reassured her and told her that everything would be fine. Being in the occupation and hiding from the constant shelling, I was more worried about her than myself. And here I was able to get out of the hell I'd been through. We met on July 27, 2022. And the emotions I felt when I saw her - I will never forget, it was the most beautiful feeling. When I was in her arms, it was like I forgot about all the bad things that happened to me during those six months of occupation. Reading this, you think that everything ended well and we are living together now, don't you...? But we're not..... We lived together for 5 months after which she got a job and then another guy. That month of figuring things out was worse for me than the six months of occupation. I begged her to stay so we could work things out, but I couldn't stand her uncertainty and eventually one day packed up and left on my own. We broke up on April 2, 2023, it's now September 25, 2023. It's been half a year and I still sometimes can't sleep well at night. I keep remembering the past, remembering what she was like when she loved(?) me. I'm just waiting for it all to end, I'm waiting to be able to react normally to her on the street when I see her walking by (yes we live close to each other). Because every time I see her I have a panic attack, my heart rate increases, my eyes start to darken and I feel like I'm losing control, but not completely. I move on and slowly come to my senses. I had a lot of plans for the future with her. Now I'm 21 and I don't even know who the fuck I am. There's no goal, no dreams, no desire to change anything. I feel empty. I don't know where or when the end is... I just hope time will heal me. Peace, everyone.
Carnal tienes toda la vida por delante, aún eres joven cuando menos te lo esperas la vida se pone mejor sólo no hay que perder la esperanza ni el buen ánimo, suena difícil y tal vez pienses que no te podrás recuperar pero el tiempo siempre cura esas heridas
Jay. I carry all of the memories we shared listening and playing SH. The mood, and melancholy struck a cord with us both. As if recognizing a face in the crowd. It's something we both carried but I only see now how much heavier it was for you...too late. I hope it's lighter now for you. Weightless. Burden gone. Peace attained. Rest well brother.
I’m at work this morning thinking of someone I once knew. Tired because of lack of sleep. Staying up crying and wishing that anything could’ve been different. The one person that ever made me happy. I realize that now, but I know that if I did anything different, I’d never have been close to her, or learned anything about her. I never would’ve loved. She’s the only person I have ever truly loved. Now it’s all just a memory.
It’s what they say “ you can’t find the same person , not even in the same person twice. Say you’re walking around a forest and you see the same tree, that means you are lost.” Ever since then I woke up and now I’m single , we’ve been broke up since back of March this year but ever since I heard this it made it much easier to move on.
Man it’s been years and I still find myself thinking about all the crap she put me through, the amount of mental anguish I had to deal with at just the age of 17 is a pain I hope none of y’all ever feel. She was my best friend but the shit she put me through would make your head scratch as to how and why I put up with her shenanigans and honestly my only answer for that is love truly is blind. All the signs were there but I refused to read them. How are you going to say you loved me and all this shit but then you start dating someone immediately after you broke us up on Valentine’s Day like our first 3 years of knowing each other meant nothing to you, all the poems, the times I was there for you during your mental breakdowns, that one time I longboarded all the way to see you, fooling around late at night, what was it all to you? Was I really worth so little? Why’d you say yes to begin with. All these questions that I know I’ll never receive an answer for. Emotional and psychological trauma go brrr.
She used you, much in the same way my old love used me. At the end of the day, we were only a shoulder for them to cry on... Which is why nowadays i have forgiven her, but i don't think i'd ever trust to go back to her ever again...
Man, I really feel for you but I have a similar story… I’ve met her in high school, we were 17. We immediately clicked and we dated for almost 4 years. We always talked about marriage and kids and I was sure it was gonna happen some day for us. It wasn’t perfect though, we had some big issues, and she was really strange and heartless sometimes. Like she could be very distant sometimes, really attentive other times. The only big fight we had was bc I really doubted that she wanted to date someone else one time, but it was pure intuition 0 prove and even I thought I was delusional. Last year she stopped replying and she apparently moved to another town without telling me anything. I was totally broken and I think I still am today. I don’t even know if she was really seeing someone else or not, I don’t know why it ended that way so suddenly, but I definitely didn’t push onwards… I’m just getting worse and worse each day. I’m really sorry for this messy long ass text but thing is you’re not alone man, I really hope you’ll get better my friend
@@Yann2020 She was really heartless. Even if your relationship wasn't the best, 4 years is still a long time. She definitely needed to at least break-up with you on good terms... Horror stories like yours is why i just have up on dating altogether nowadays. I've come to accept that true love is something that rarely happens out of the realm of fiction
It's been almost 6 months but she is still living in my mind without paying the rent, there's no way forgetting about her she was more than a human being to me she meant literally everything that i had, i wasted my own life so much caring about her that i couldn't live my own life and now she has a happy life living a good life but i ruined my own life for her and can't get her out of my head no matter how hard i try, at least knowing that she's happy gives me some peace of mind, i'm absolutely not mad at her for the pain she caused me, she was my childhood my first and only love and my only bestfriend, i don't know how but i hope someday i can stop thinking about her and rebuild my own life again from its ashes which is i have to, because this life is worse than a nightmare to me and i can't keep living like this, i hope life will bring good things for me and people who suffer from the same shit i'm currently going through.
It gets better bros. I was in a very dark place when i was first here and now I'm very happy with my new gf. Dig deep and keep pushing ahead no matter how many times you are tripped up by others
I‘m listening to this music when I have period cramps and it helps a lot 💓 listening to the music and reading all those comments where men truly loved a girl. I unfortunately never experienced such a love I was always the one who loved harder and couldn’t stand being apart. I always fell in a hole without him…
I liked her for 9 months. She made me feel a way I’ve never felt and don’t know if I’ll ever feel again. We did everything together, found our classes together. Cried together, laughed together. Watched movies. Everything. I tried to tell her how I felt and she didn’t feel the same way. It hurt like hell. I say that I’m happy and okay, but it still hurts deep down.
If she cheated then she bet against your future, against you. Why continue spending your most valuable and finite resource, time, on her? Letting go will never be easy, infact for me its been the hardest part. Selling gifts she got me, resigning our memories to die and be replaced with someone who won't bet against you. Who gives you peace, who loves you in a way that beats out your past love, because it never hit a point where she stopped believing in you. It's hard but absolutely worth it, and if you let it, heartbreak can make you quite strong. Struggle on my strugglers.
When you are a kid you see Silent Hill and are scared and wonder how someone can come up with such a bleak horrible hell, then you grow up and realise you been living in it your whole life, you just couldnt see inside the fog...
I have been feeling nostalgic towards everything for these past 2 months, and this type of music always vibrates that energy for me. The stillness, the calmness of nostalgia.
1 month in after break up and moving out. You’re not alone i know the feeling of being alone especially on the weekends where you used to spend it together. Bless up we’re stronger than this
me and my girlfriend just broke up because she didn’t have the energy to keep going. before we fell into an argument stage everything was perfect, we had a spot together we used to always hang out at (it was a bridge over some train tracks, it had graffiti everywhere, it had leaves overgrown and sometimes we even had to clean up the glass in the area lol) everything was perfect, she matched me so perfectly and every moment i had with her felt surreal. she was the first woman i can say i had an actual connection with. we bought minecraft watches together, went to the movie theaters so many times and we used to sit out by a lake in the cemetery usually just to do nothing but be in each others presence. Things got bad after we stopped being able to see each other as much as we used to, we fell into an argument stage and i didn’t realize how unhappy she was. i didn’t realize how much i was taking from her. i regret not giving her space to heal from things before, i regret not making her happier when i had the chance. it still feels surreal, and i have no idea what to do, i’m so used to having her in my life. i miss her everyday, and we agreed that we would both like to retry once we’re ready. i just don’t know how long i should give her, and i’m sad because that’s so long from now. i didn’t eat for 2 days after she broke up with me. i hope me and her can rekindle things and make things better again because if i don’t have her i just don’t see myself getting with anyone else.
keep trying bro dont give up make things right change for her win her back bro dont just mop around i know it sucks but keep trying if you really love her dont give up love letters flowers something bro dont give up
it seems like that now bro but after a few weeks you won't feel as attached. been there, if it's done or she keeps breaking up and getting back together after this, the best thing you can do is release/let go. you functioned before you ever met her. you got this.
My dude it must hurt so much; but I don't recommend you to focus so much on becoming better for her or hoping to be in a relationship with her again. It hurts but we must try to focus on ourselves and in becoming better persons for our own sake, not for someone who can't focus on us. You're strong, it takes wits to not eat anything for two days. Place that love you felt for her in yourself and in healing your past wounds; everything will feel better by time, I promise. The person who used to be my sweetheart also broke my heart when I needed her the most, I still miss her every day, including her happiness and her grief. But she was hurting me without noticing, and I was also triggering her past trauma unknowingly; it was reciprocal pain coming from an anxious/avoidant relationship. All of us deserve better, but for that we need to grow by ourselves and apart. Only time can tell if we can become that better partner for them or if we will find someone that doesn't trigger us.
Our circumstances just weren’t in our favor. I tried everything I could but really sometimes I feel like I’ve tried a little too much. But I have no regrets loving her. If I could still, I would wish her the best. what I’ve learned this past month is that it’s okay to be sad, it’s okay to cry about it. There’s zero shame. But as much as it hurts you, you have to move on. You are too precious for this world to drown in your own head. Never reject your emotions. But also never get consumed by them. It’s going to take awhile to let go of them I know, but once you do you’ll finally start to heal again. Forgive yourself. Don’t ever shame yourself. Don’t regret the love you tried to show to them. Even if you couldn’t fully. You did you’re best. And you still are. Forgive yourself and be proud.
It’s hard grieving someone who’s still alive, I’ll never got the resolve I’m after nor do I wish to seek it. I know we had our moments but I thought we were getting through them and I thought that’s what made us such good friends but then you cut contact, it like you died for me and no one else. It’s been 9 months and I still think and cry about you multiple times a week, I wonder if you do the same. I’m not sure how I’m meant to move on I’m stuck in a constant loop of the past
The depression inside is always here and Silent Hill is where my mind usually goes when I have moments of silence. I find myself lost in a dark hole that is filled with a static and ambient sound, and I find myself always stuck. When I can finally leave this place, maybe too I will leave Silent Hill. Maybe being alone isn’t bad, and maybe I have my bumps. However, I still feel like in my dreams that there is a goal at the end of the tunnel. In reality, I feel it more and more. Thank you for this music, I’ll always remember her face in my life and remember the good times, but they’re only memories that taught me something. Only in my memories, silent hill is there. It’s a journey thru the fog but at the end it will part and reveal a path. I hope that it comes one day ❤ Stay strong, much love to everyone, this is beautiful. Thank you for uploading this.
she said we are not compatible to each other we dated for a long time, she was sweet, she told me she will keep me happy no matter what and love me i couldn't keep her happy nor she could i just hope she can find someone who will love her as much as i did but i will never forget her i will always miss my sweet bubbles i don't think i deserve happiness in life
My on and off gf (woudlve been 7 years this year) died last june. She randomly stopped texting me that night before she died. I thought she was just ignoring me or ghosting me as usual, but it felt off that time and I knew she was gone before I found out about it online. I blame myself, her dad, her, and a lot of other things and people, but she was just taken too soon. I always told her about her dying. About my dreams of her dying. Scary. I feel her everyday. I spoke to her everyday almost.
A great fear of mine. I'm sorry you had to experience it, one man to another. If i could hug you I would, I hope you have support there for you friend. ❤
we broke up. something changed between us and I’m not sure why or how. If I knew how to fix it, I would in a heartbeat. I wish I could just go back - 2 years of our lives together; everything that we’ve been through, all the things that we’ve done, all the places we’ve been, the moments we’ve shared, the life we’ve built together, the future we had planned - all gone, just like that. it hurts so much it’s almost unbearable. but life goes on, and the only thing you can do is go on with it. no matter how much you ache inside. it never stops. you have to keep living before it ends up killing you.
As a big fan of Silent Hill I am very happy that the saga reaches so many people thanks to videos like this, it is as if it is generating a very resonant aesthetic with all the people nowadays. Silent Hill is not just any horror franchise, they are very personal and unique games, especially Silent Hill 2, the jewel in the crown. If you have not played them yet, I highly encourage you to do so, you will discover a fantastic world.
Yeah man. 7 years and several relationships later (currently in a happy relationship). But now and then, the mind wanders to when everything felt so right with her. Its not as invasive as it used to be, but the romance and nostalgia we shared refuse to leave my memory.
She doesn’t miss me. I don’t know why I lose so much sleep over her. I want to stop thinking about her but her name, her voice, always finds its way back to my head. I don’t even want to be in a relationship. The only thing I want at this point is to stop thinking about her
Sometimes, it just doesn’t work. It’s okay to be sad about it, however please do remember that it happens, and that it shouldn’t completely take you down, you’ll come out of this as an improved person ♥️
The funny thing is they always think that if you come back that means they did nothing wrong. No that’s not what it means. It means you love them so much that you were hoping maybe they changed a little bit
He was a Good person to me , 9ne of the first guys who didn't treat me like some kind of ugly monster. He told me he couldn't do long distance , but he said he cared and loved me . He thought i was going to crawl back like the last time . But i knew it would just keep on happening . I told him goodbye , and blocked him on everything, but i still love him. the thing is i will only see his face when its in my dreams
Silent hill is not a place, it's a mental state.
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I was with her for 7 years, married for 3, and she was a genuinely good person, but…she was adulterous and ended up telling me she wasn’t even sure she ever loved me. All of this started happening less than 1 year after losing my dog, Daisy, who I had since she was just a few weeks old. Daisy was my best friend and I had to sit and watch her body die from old age, helpless to change anything no matter what I did…then all of my friends (including my now ex-wife) just told me versions of the same thing, “She’s just a dog” “You’ll get over it” “You can always get a new pet”. Now my stepbrother is dead from a drug overdose, my ‘friends’ couldn’t care less about my life, my family is fractured, my ex has moved on into a new relationship, and I’m stuck trying to pick up the pieces and make sense of everything. All I’m left with are broken memories and pain in my heart, even in my dreams, I can’t escape this hellish carnal world. But I must push onwards in life
I’m sorry for your losses, keep on keeping on and things will find you and make you happy in new and different ways. Also dogs are family members, when they pass there will never be another one like them, they are beautiful loving creatures who are one of a kind. You don’t just “get a new dog” they are an addition to the family. I’m sorry the other people in your life don’t get it but i at least understand that part
Bro I know exactly how you feel. Most people are emotionally useless, they don't even know how to feel their own feelings. When my ex of six+ years left me, the majority of the people I know acted like I was bitching about a lost one night stand, or that a month or two was enough time to stop being sad.
Thankfully that wasn't everyone in my life, but even if that is everyone in yours, don't think that means the way you feel is invalid. It isn't, this person or pet was a legitimate part of you and now that part is gone forever. It's like losing a psychic limb or some shit, at the very least a trusty leaning post for the toughest times in your life.
Don't listen to the people who tell you to just completely suck it up either. You gotta feel it, total suppression helps nobody, but don't wallow either. I forget my original point, but you ain't alone man. Just because people might be dismissive of your feelings doesn't mean they aren't legitimate.
@@poon_don Thank you for your kind words. I guess it’s just difficult for me to come to terms with the fact that some people are emotionally “hollow”. Not everyone in my life has been that way, but it does get overwhelming when my ‘loved ones’ and ‘best friends’ treat me like this. Peace and love🙏
it will get better bro. do not lose hope. remember my words
it will get better.
Im sorry for all this my man, i think if i was you id do one thing, id have literally abandonned everything and go chase a new dream to reconquer my world. When a man is broken i think he needs to reborn. Anyways you will one day recover of this im sure you will
"For 17 years, this has been home.
Isolation. Acceptance. Peace.
For 17 years, love has been lost.
Welcome to grieving, it's forever.
For 17 years, I've been here.
Waiting.
For you to come back."
All broken hearts go through silent hill..
Corny
Who hurt you Courier? 😢
@@clorby22 mr house
@@clorby22 The Dragonborn because he doesn't want any of my letters😩😔
@@julianicarvalho7667 Corny or not.. I've been looking for you.. Your hands only.. *Pimp Slapped* Looks like that's it. Got to go.
it sucks when they meant more to you than you ever meant to them.
I found so much faults in my girlfriend, yet i kept pointing them out in hope she will change, but guess thats just how she is and i should move on
Yep
True.
Real.
How are you doing bro? What’s up??! Hey the video is at 777K views hope ur lucky day has happened or soon.
im not heartbroken im just here for the ambience ya feel me
Same here
word up this shit therapeutic
Fr I’m smokin a blunt in my room chillin with this on, just staring at my ceiling thinking. 😂💯💯
@@AzizAbduIMuhammadhell yeah 😎🌿
hell yea
I find it fascinating how the soundtrack of SH2 (and it's imitations) and retro aesthetics combined are turning SH into something it never even was originally...
To think that you could remember a literal hell on earth and all of it's horror spawned by your sins or the sins of others with nostalgia...
It's just so amazing to me since I was there when it all first came out in 1999, since the first one, and I'd never imagined back then that it would become like this. Fascinating.
The music from the game has a very relaxing feel (most of the time). And me personally, I think just like the town itself, the music makes me forget about everything else and kind of locks me into my own consciousness where i can think about everything in the silent peace of my own room without interruption. I don't know if other people feel the same, but that's the feeling it gives me lol
@@levieakle I promise this is not a plug and I'm just relating, but I make music with that exact goal in mind; I want people to feel that feeling that I can't put into words when I listen to the sh2 ost!!
Yup, and now you can brag about « having played it when it first came out » and even better : get some internet points for it ! How cool is that, huh ?
@@Spin0saure...lol, is everything ok at home bro? ...You need a hug?
@@aidanaguayo6776 isn't it though? There's loads and load's of hour+ long theories and reviews on RUclips, endlessly theorizing about every aspect of the game, lol.
The music compilations, etc, it's gotten out of and at this point, I'd say, in good way, though.
It demystified SH a bit though, that kind of sucks but it had to happen eventually.
Who would have thought that emptiness could weigh so much.
How are you doing bro? What’s up??! Hey the video is at 777K views hope ur lucky day has happened or soon.
right?
I'm 26, I lost my girlfriend a month ago, it was for the best but she was my first love and it's hard to let go...
I'm also on the verge of loosing my job and was threatened by my boss due to lack of concentration and failing at my tasks, also found out my mom has cancer - all in the span of 1 month. Sometimes life has a special touch of triviality, like no matter how hard you've strived for living, loving and trying to be commendable, you will still be kicked to the curb by providence... Stay strong everyone.
I hope things start going your way dude. My mother found out she had cancer in one of the worst periods of my life, thankfully she beat it but i truly sympathize with you. Best of luck my friend keep
Your head up:)
@@AddyWakeUp thank you, she is going through surgery this week. You motivate me that it will get better. Hopefully things start taking a turn, also in my job and honestly... Fuck cancer
@@LuSanification I hope all the best for you. My wife’s grandmother also had cancer not too long ago so I can understand how worrisome it can be. I know things will look up again I promise.
@@LuSanification eyo, keep your head up!! I'm very sorry to hear/read about what happened. I lost a cousin to cancer. It's very hard, but stay strong and stay up. Lemme know if you need anything, I'm a comment away. (Still can't find RUclips messages)
keep your head up bruv hope you alright remember after the darkness comes the light
I love coming back to this video and reading the comments.
It makes me feel understood.
We’ll get through this.
I’ve been doing the same thing. Feels comforting to see that I’m not alone in my feelings, and that someone else has experienced my same situation
It's like yea im in silent hill but at least im not the only one here.
Me too
hope u got through whatever youre going through ❤
Yea. We all will, no doubt.
You don't miss her, you miss who she was when you knew her
Alive?
@@HiddenAccount😂
who you thought she was
real
real
"In my restless dreams, I see that town. Silent Hill. You promised you'd take me there again someday. But you never did. Well, I'm alone there now."
"In our special place. Waiting for you, waiting for you to come to see me. But you never did."
People often say "you don’t miss her, you miss the version of what she could have been". That might be true for some, but to me it's not about what she could have been. Sure, she might had become my wife, the mother of my children. But that's not what I miss. I miss what she was for me - home, and warmth. Something that I'll never get back from her, and something that although I've tried with some already, couldn't receive. Not because they haven't tried, but because I feel like it will go the same way it did before.
💯
I feel with you. 5 years together, 2 years ago when we broke up. Still can't get over it, my heart misses her. Can we truly forget someone that we considered as the love of your life?
I feel you. I miss the peace she would give me just by her presence. Before all this ambient music that make me calm, I could rest on her shoulders.
It also is the fact that you give a such huge part of yourself and rely so much on that person that when she’s no longer here it almost feel as if a part of yourself was torn apart and you’ll never see it again, I’m in a healthy relationship since HighSchool we moved together and everything is going well but I can’t stop thinking of how lonely I’ll feel if she ever want to leave one day, that’s why I do my best and her too
Don’t fall into a self fulling prophecy. If you think about it for just a second, you can’t tell yourself you’ll never get over her. Tell yourself “one day at a time.”
The older I get, all I can say is I’m thankful for the experiences. The highs and the lows. You can never see them coming, no matter how hard you try. Life is just endless rugpulls, and then it’s over.
deaths the biggest rugpull of them all, life really is a grand time though
i wonder if you ate alot of soup if you would feel better
@@goopynoopers That's a solid piece of advice. I'd vote for pancakes with maple syrup, though.
She's never coming back
Damn.
Ur Right
@@KarlMarxJaDizia I'm not
It b like that 😐
Nah you never coming back your in silent hill😭 pyramid head on yo ass
He is a wonderful person and I miss him everyday. He did a bad thing that impacted me and my family. For 3 years he was everything, he didnt made me happy, he gave meaning to my life. I just dont understand, why hurt me and my family? He also introduced me to silent hill and I loved the soundtrack, but now... its more... sad... I'm alone in a different city, it's hard but I'm growing. I understand how fragile I'm. I hope in some years I can read this comment with a smile in my face, if I do then... thank you for not giving up ju :)
How are you doing now? Hope life is treating you well.
im also juish
I broke up with my ex 4 months ago. She was (she is) a very good person, but she also did a very bad thing to me. We tried to move on together, but i just couldnt stand the pain. Almost five months have passed and i still think on her. But not in a good way, i dont miss her, I only think about the sad things that happened to us. I want to get rid of this pain so much, it feels like i have no peace anymore. Thats it. I miss my peace, and i deeply want it back..
EDIT 6 MONTHS LATER: hi guys. Half an year has passed and im here to say that im way way WAY better than i was 6 months ago. I mean WAY BETTER hahaha. Im still single, but i have met a lot of nice persons in College, and Im doing a lot of activities at the same time there. Im working as a teacher (again) teaching to students who are in the same college as me. Now im a member of both Student Consul and student organization, and also im studying German as my 3rd language. And about my ex, i almost dont think about her. And when i do, it doesnt hurt me anymore.
I'm in peace..
I know the feeling dude, iv been there in the deepest and dark alone for 2 years drowning in that mindset with panic attacks and depression because of my ex who left me after moving to a different country to start new life together, she was aswell good person and she did very bad thing to me too, I was stuck alone at the beginning but I got out of it and past faded, now I don't feel past haunting me anymore, I don't feel it, some feelings fades! Keep strong !
Do not fear, do not suffer. Accept your emotions and move on. It is okay to think about something that has had a profound impact on your life, I myself have experienced this. Someone you deeply love lets go of you so quickly that you don‘t really notice what‘s happening and you are too ignorant and petty to fight for your love. It has caused insecurity and emotional pain for me over the entire last year, but it gets better. Try to let go of it and shift your focus toward the present and your own life. Trust me, it is just a stumbling stone on the road that is your life. You will overcome this, your goal lies far beyond this.
@@cano4816 yes you right! After those two years I somehow accepted and realized it has grew me more emotionally stronger, the experiences we get strengthen us.
Time heals all wounds, accept it as needed and keep moving forward. You never know where you will be in a year, 5 years, 10 years, trust in the future. You're gunna make it bro
"Assassinate her." -- A wise man
i was with her for about 2 and a half years, although we stopped dating, we never really could bring ourselves to not contact each other every now and then. but a lot has happened since last december. there are moments where i think about her a lot. reminiscing about the past and even wondering if i should even text her. she messaged me pretty recently on her birthday, reminding me and saying “hey, just messaging hoping you didn’t forget it’s my special day” i mean how could i? i remember every little thing about that woman. it feels right but also wrong talking to her. it’s like there’s a knife slowly piercing my chest and there’s no way to get it out. sometimes i wish things went differently, sometimes i wish we never met. but the hardest thing about this all, is trying to move on with your life after.
if you’ve read this far on my ramble, i just wanted to say thank you for listening. i never realized how beautiful youtube can be and how it truly is a place you can feel at home.
Hey, how are you now? I hope you feel good.
hope youre doing okay brother 🙏
It's hard to forgive her for what she did to me but deep inside I want to experience again the warmth that she made me feel
never have I heard something I can relate too
feel you too much and I wish the same thing too...
i can’t accept this but maybe this is what i want
don't give in to your desires over your pride. someone who cares is out there but you'll have to be impressively "you" to get them. Chin up, chest out. don't you dare give up on yourself.
hahahhahaha
It's like feeling something that never actually happened.
Sometimes it feels like it never actually happened
And a name of this. Toska
True... 😪@CiciAngel696
I just want to walk around the fog with this playing in the background. Aimlessly wondering. No going back, but nothing to look forward too.
Damn this is that rare obscure ambient stuff I love
Listen to silent hill 2s soundtrack
Smh
It’s strangely relaxing and contemplating
ever listened to yellow swans?
You don’t miss her, you miss the memories. 💚
This comment hit pretty hard, for better or for worse. Thanks. See you in silent hill.
I believe ultimately this is why people end up so hurt after relationships. The memories are great, but you lost the person you wanted to be with, does that make the memories worth it?
i do miss making memories with her
Im sure you do, but is because you're not with her that you miss making these memories or is it because of something else entirely?@@Spaxecowboy
@@GigglesYeahMan I miss her
Everyones talking about an ex, some unrequited love, and idk why but it made me think about how i felt about the one person who was there for me.
My mom passed away when i was 18, feels weirdly timed tbh or maybe just my brain finding weird ideas. Its been years since then, im 26 now and it feels like that was a whole other world, and im not that kid anymore.
It feels like i seperated myself from it, and everything feels darker these days. Hell i don't cry as much as i did after her passing, i have other things that preoccupy my mind.
She wouldn't get hurt and thats all thats comforted me.
I rly feel your comment
Reading all these comments fills me. Scrolling through the histories, the memories of people that you don't ever know. Beginning to remember your stories , even ones that you forgot already. Just wow. I love you all, and love these small hidden sections, kinda islands, where we can tell about our experience, our story everyone, understanding that you wont be judged by someone. Now I am also going through difficult times, we all face them from time to time. But remember, difficult times give birth to strong people. Peace to everyone, thank you for being there
Thank you I needed this
@@tinkywinkywonky6903me to I was feeling sad
Never delete this please, I always go back to this whenever I want to think to myself and I don't have the space to.
Just venting here since I know no one will see so it's safer for me here; I'm going to be away from her again, its like a ritual, last time 5 - 6 and now this time it'll be a year, I don't want to wait but I must, I'm scared without her but I've always worked it out but it's so hard because she can't respond to me during those moments and I can't blame her, she's busy with her grades and I need to be better, I need a scholarship or else I go back to my home country and study there for 4 years, I can't do that. The distance between us would kill me, my separation anxiety was so bad that I weeped silently whilst she listened at 9 PM while it was 1 AM. I'm finally back and I'm so,,, lost, tired? Excited? Afraid? I'm just... overwhelmed.
Pain, regret and suffering is necessary. It’s what shows us who we truly are and leads us to knowing what we want and who you want to be truly…
The next coming days, weeks and months will be dark, cloudy & foggy. You will be lost but not forever, you just need to keep going and find a way out of here…
You don’t want to be stuck in this place forever… Do you?
To anyone struggling right now, I want you to know that you WILL get through this. Missing her is okay. I still do myself, but what I've realised is that I miss her as a Concept, a shell of her former self. A concept made by memories that is not a reflection of the present. All that we have is now and we have to at some point accept and realise that we are born Alone, and much of our life we'll have to traverse that way. People come and go, to teach us something. Or not, whatever. The 'her' you miss does not exist anymore. Fill your life with wonderful things that you're passionate about. Chase your dreams relentlessly and find fulfilment in your pursuits, and in your other relationships. Keep your friends close, talk it out, FEEL THE FUCKING FEELING that is aching to be expressed. You are beautiful, you are worthy. And you WILL love again. And you WILL be loved again. If it costed your peace it was too expensive. Wish yourself well, wish her well.
And thank you for the music :)
[Thank you so much for this, It brought a tear to my eye.] ❤️🔥
Well said.
Thank you so much man ❤
Thanks brother.. I hope one day we'll find peace everyone.. I hope..
Needed to hear this man just broke up with my ex 3 weeks ago and I’m slowly but surely finding my way again and this helped me continue thank you 🙏🏻
I love her so much. The circumstances just weren’t in our favor.
She’ll always be special to me.
I know how you feel my friend
Things like this happen to the best of us brother, Keep your head up, I’m sending out love bro, I wish you will achieve all of your goals my friend 👍
my ex and i, we have our special place and everytime i go there i just breakdown i miss her so much i hope someday we meet again in our special place : (
Moving on will change your life for the absolute better. It takes time but only if you're willing to put in the work.
It's better to think about your next potential so that will be so much more for you in the future, every person I've had feelings for a special to me in so many different ways but I don't want it to have any effect on my next relationship, you know
In my restless dreams i see that girl
Lisa....
She doesn’t love me anymore, but took my heart with her.
She knows I’m with her always, even if that means we’re worlds apart.
you don't need her to be okay, don't rely on someone else. Work on yourself and try to get happy by your own, the only person you need is yourself.
My hardest lesson is trying to learn how to live alone again.
@@gutstheberserkerr You just gotta enjoy being alone, being by yourself, work on your mindset. Learn how to be happy by yourself. Trust me you don't need somebody else to be happy or anything else
This comment hit my chest like crazy
@@gutstheberserkerr "My hardest lesson is trying to learn how to live alone again." I seriously teared up, I have genuinely never felt so touched, and related to a comment before. I'm in the same position. Thank you.
You reading this, keep your head and spirits high, you are loved. Keep going, you are strong. We're all in this together.
ty🙏
real
I don’t need these kinds of words anymore but sure
@@Bloodhound789 🫂
Someone else might need it
Sometimes I wonder if this music eases our pain or intensifies it. But the scary thing is: no matter which of these is true, it's exactly what we need in those moments.
Basically you just described an illusion and a delusional state of mind in one LOL. Even still, I'm in total agreement about the "thinking we need it in those moments" 😜
@@Johny40Se7en Nice to meet you, here in Silent Hill.
I adore your work; Super eye patch wolf introduced me to it years ago. Been listening ever since
@@cefka100 Oh man that's so awesome! I'm still grateful to the wolf for featuring me back then. It was completely out of the blue.
@@SurvivalSpheres He's got great taste! And I think Waning Sorrows was the 1st one I had heard! A new clarity was another great one! Appreciate all your work 😃
I lost her and it was completely my fault. When she needed me I turned and ran like a coward, and when I saw her again almost 2 months later she called me a coward and a pathetic person, and rightfully so. After a bit of time apart she tried to talk to me again, but I pushed her away, scared of what might happen and I regret it so much to this day. I wish I told her how much I missed her, and took her hand when she offered it to me again...but I didn't, and I live with the regret of that mistake almost 4 years later now. I want to talk to her so bad, tell her how I've felt all these years but it's been so long, and I've heard from others that she doesn't like me anymore and might be interested in someone else, I can't blame her. I miss the version of her that I had, that I lost, that I can never have again, not with her or with any other girl. I wish I could go back and change it, I wish I could so badly, I would gladly go back to high school if it meant I could change how it all went down. I just miss her so much...and how it used to be
"I miss my Girlfriend."
"Oh really, why not talk to her?"
"I can't, I'm in Silent Hill."
". . . WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND?!"
Facts everyone got their part in everything
I will never forget the frickin unexpected plot twist that this game threw in my face
She isn't my girl friend anymore, I guess silent hill is all I have now ...
@@gokuonice1940 Silent Hill is probably the only place we end up in to fix ourselves and move on from our mistakes and lies down to our willingness to confront our demons.
@@joeldelgado1376 Maybe or maybe it is whatever we got right now
This music has accompanied me for years in a depression that I still can't overcome... I'm waiting for something but I don't know what it is
I have the same feeling. I’m waiting for something, but I dont really know what for. And I also hate if I have to wait.
I got diagnosed with ADHD, and my psychiatrist said that this is the reason why I feel this way.
just dont let life pass you by
@@metalgearobama if we wait for something it is because something good will come!! Despite everything, life is beautiful. I send you a big hug!
I feel the same...something needs to happen, a miracle or an event or something needs to occur that will change me. Or atleast that's what I feel.
@@metalgearobama been there man. But you learn that waiting for something to happen will never work, you need to make that something, i know its tough, ive been there. Once you realise it and start working on it, it gets better. trust in it bro.
I can't believe i still think about her after such a long while. I can feel that the memories are fading slowly, the more I think about her, the less I remember her mannerisms, or her physical attributes. However I do know she made me feel like a better person when I was with her. And I never thought she could be so beautiful to me, and I never thought I could be so attached. She was a wonderful person don't get me wrong. But she used me for her own benefit when I was weak metally. Then she left me twice. And I still tried to take care of her because I was so blinded by her love, that not a single person has ever made me feel. She looked at me like no one has ever before. But thats all over with now. Its just that feeling is irreplaceable to me, i've tried. Althogh small things remind me of her. But unfortunately the goods never outweigh the bads for these situations, and I can never go back. I know shes with a new guy now, and hes probably better for her, At least shes doing better now, and I gotta move on.
My dad just passed away on december, past year...
My ex broke up with me less than a month since dad passed away....
Conciously i try to be ok and stand out there giving up the best of me
But deep inside i just feel empty, all the memories, all the things we said to each other...
No matter how hard i try, memories just keep flashing back to me, is just a river full of my deepest and saddest emotions and feelings
I wish the best to her...
But for me... i feel awful.
It's an eternal memorie that'll live in my dreams
Miss you Dad
Miss you F.
Better said than done but my brother, she left you at your lowest, she probably does not derserve you. Keep doing your best, time will get the rest done. May your dad rest in peace as you may walk in too. I wish you all the best my brother I do feel you ❤️
Rest in peace to your dad. Idk u but i feel for u. And I really really hope u get thru this mess. ur not alone
Love you fam, stay up and feel what you gotta feel. We’re not alone
Unfortunately sometimes life has a way of showing us things we do not want to see. As someone in the comments above stated if she left you at your lowest she wasn't good for you. I am terribly sorry for your loss regarding your father. I don't want to be annoying or cliche but a place to start picking pieces up is the gym. No it won't take all the pain away but it will give you a healthy outlet to express the hurt pain and anger while also building YOU up. Life is terrible to us sometimes but it is my true belief that so long as you're doing right by others and the best you can for yourself it'll all make sense and fall into place. I believe in you you've been very strong to comment what you did now use that strength and continue on fellow struggler.
keep your head up stranger up my father passed away in October of 2022 and my last relationship was in 2014.
I wish Silent Hill was a real place. I'd stay there forever.
It was based on a town in my state Pennsylvania, hella ghost towns here!
So you want to get attacked by creepy monsters?
Me too but minus the monster😂 I would just enjoy the loneliness and it would be nice to have this music playing in my background.
@@Philosophyaddict yup exactly
@@ForeverBlooming-05 No, it wasn't. It's inspired by towns in the state of Maine.
firstly when she was finally gone i felt nothing, maybe the void she left in me was always there, she just knew how to stuck it with love and warmth… now it feels like it was another person’s life, and from this point i am broken viewer of the memories and consequences… still… there’s a hope, never believed that time will heal me, but even trough my stubbornness it works, please every poor and wounded soul who will read this… you have to believe no matter how it hurts and feels empty there is way out, i believe in you.
We believe in you
This comment section is a Graveyard I offer my blessings and condolences to every one of you and I understand the pain 🤍
To everyone struggling: you can keep on living and you'll find love again.
Me and my ex were together for 10 years and honestly when he left me my whole world crumbled. It took me 2-3 years to get up and to feel ready to open my heart again but I am finally doing it and I feel like a better person than what I used to be before experiencing all of this. It still sucks and hurt of course, but I like who I am now.
I really am impressed of a story like yours, personally it’s been a year and I don’t think I could even open my heart to someone. Strangely enough I would like to, but I don’t feel capable of that… we’ve been together for 4 years yet she just left without telling nothing one day all of a sudden, I don’t know if I could ever trust someone again…
@@Yann2020 It is your decission. Maybe imagine it to be like a flame. You might burn yourself or smother it if it gets too close, but to live without flame would be cold and sad, unless you really hate the flame for being too hot at the touch, fleeting in nature, and irrationally hungry at times. We will never fully know why people act the way they do, but we also do not know whats around the corner. Maybe our trust needs to be betrayed at times to make space for someone more trustworthy . Good luck
@@t.k.5972 thanks my friend, deep down I think like that as well, but I kinda have some trauma. Thanks for your time and responding I appreciate it kind stranger
At its core, Silent Hill is a psychological horror series yet its ambience is also ethereal, otherworldly and melancholy. I think that it's these other aspects that make me come back to it.
Me and her sat by the river for 5 hours talking about our lives and now everytime we see eachother it’s as if we don’t know eachother
isnt it crazy how it all changes like it never fucking happened
Friendships brings good times,
Good times brings rutines,
Rutines brings monotony,
And monotony brings oblivion
Yeah man, she said she loved me.
Now we don't even want to look at each other, it's crazy how relationships can change.
@@adriancruise6585 literally it like someone in your life dying but in this case y’all just never see each other (unless fate decides)
two freakin strangers now, neither she nor me tryna communicate its bad as hell.
i always come back to this video whenever i feel like nothing
absotootly fcked up sobbing in the crib rn
bro u got a flag in your profile u be sobbing in your suburban house
@@harrisondoerr9746 what 😭
@@harrisondoerr9746 flag = suburbia
Lmao tootly
@@harrisondoerr9746 anti-flag surburbian association
I never played Silent Hill but im straight up crying because she was perfect to me.
I feel your pain bro
@@A_Lxst_Causei feel it too man.
it gets better boys
@@Fizzy332 youll be ok. maybe not, but my own surroundings are all i can perceive. ill never interact with you again apart from these few seconds in our lifetimes, and dont know the type of person you are, but i pass my joint to you
@@Fizzy332 it isnt forgettable, is it?
Lingering pain of the actual loss of a love.
It's been 20 min since I read most of the comments here. I really love reading all the "broke up" / lost someone stories, I feel so sorry for everyone that is in pain, just remember, pain is temporay, happiness could be forever.
So, I want to share my story too, it's the first time so please be gentle.
It's been since September 2022 that I lost my true love of youth. I had been with her for 2 and a half years but I had known her for more than 4 years. Ever since I was a child I've never had much luck in my life, I've always been alone, with practically nothing except the love of my parents.
In 2018, I had my first love, everything was going well, I finally understood the fact that we could be "loved" in two different ways. Except that a few months after having my first moment of "luck" my Mom killed herself. Since then, I know nothing but a deep loneliness, the feeling of having lost one of the two "types" of loves of your life forever, hurts my spirit and my soul extremely. I've been fighting my depression every day since, feeling alive, but just not happy and empty. After that, my first love leaves me, and tells me that she "never really loved me" and blocks me from everywhere when I was in emotional distress and needed people to take care of me. mind and think of nothing.
Then at the beginning of 2020 I started going out with 'M', everything was going well, I rediscovered a happiness that I had not known for some time, but then comes the COVID and therefore the confinement, with my very unstable mental health I decides to cut ties and just end this relationship for a while.
In the end, I come to talk to her again 1 year later in March 2021.
From there, it is cold, but after a few days, the machine had started again, and we could resume our relationship where we had stopped. Everything was so passionate, so perfect, she matched me perfectly, everything I loved, she loved him too, which meant that we could literally talk about anything and everything.
Time passes, and around Summer 2022, she drastically changes personalities, we hadn't been able to see each other since March because I needed to be alone, like a ghost, but she needed to see me all the time, because ( for information, I helped her in her psychological problems, I supported her in all her steps and her life projects, even if it means that I abandon myself so that she succeeds in her life, which is stupid in thinking about it).
So she started making new friends, guys and girls and I think she just got tired of me, even she told me she loved me not as much as before, which made that the relationship was at a standstill.
From there, I tried from the bottom of my heart, to force the lines and "be happy and joyful" just to get back on track and fix something that could have been broken. I tried everything for 3 months, offering him to go to the movies because that's what I like the most, to see each other , going to the beach, EVERYTHING, but no, she was just postponing, until one day we saw each other at the mall, no kisses, no hugs, nothing, it was empty, like my heart.
Then, one evening in September, I delete everything on my discord and instagram profile, our date, the shared bio, my pp, everything again.
I sleep for a few hours and around 9 am, I get a big text explaining to me that we're not together anymore, then a discussion follows where just well we say everything to each other without really saying anything. Then, we unfollow each other, we delete each other, I don't block her but she did and I tell her to take care of her and my stuffed animals. She said to me "I would come to see you every year to see if everything is fine on your side" I remember having refused that, because back then I thought I was going to end my days.
Since then, I have nothing, no news, nothing, apart from a few clues, for example the fact that she take back the Instagram username that I had chosen for her rather than her first and last name.
Well, after that I couldn't sleep for 5 days straight, I didn't eat, just drank water or I was going to die, I just felt dead, with no desire to watch movies, play or talk, it was just desperation. 2 weeks later, I decided to take myself in hand and go to the gym, lose weight and build a mind and body like what she had never seen.
With this mentality, this motivation and being "detached" from all emotion since then, I have lost 12 kg, gained a lot of strength and a very pleasant physique and an unflinching mentality.
On the other hand, since my breakup, I have lost my memory, my brain has suffered so much that it has gone into safety mode and made me forget everything since 2018/2017. So in just a few weeks, I forgot the memories related to 'M' or my mom or even my first love. That's fine, but it's really scary to be able to remember anything, from anyone. Now I feel "good" although empty and without emotions, but it's moving forward, I know I have my whole life ahead of me to meet people, people come and go, it's the cycle of life, it doesn't bother me that much.
What saddens me, however, is that each person is unique, and never finding a person like her scares me.
But, I know that if she ever comes back, I just wouldn't want to talk to her, because the compassion and love I might feel would just be that of my memories, not that of reality. I already made the mistake once even though I thought it was perfect, I wouldn't make it a second time and no one else.
Thank you to those who were able to read my little French story, take care of yourselves guys, don't forget, suffering is not eternal, it is temporary.
Just to finish, I will say a french quote : "Le beau temps n'aurait pas la même valeur sans les jours de pluie." meaning : "Good weather would not have the same value without rainy days."
I read your whole story, and for some reason my story have so many similarities to yours, after almost 3 years with my girlfriend who became my wife in our last year together, not long ago my mom was suffering from cancer and i was in a different country where i live and study with my girlfriend, and because of covid i had no chance to go back home and see my family, so i had to wait, so last summer in July I married my girlfriend and i finally got the chance to go back home and i became so miserable and unbelievably sad after i saw how the illness changed my mom, but i was also happy to see her and feel a feeling that i haven’t felt in a long time, so in September 2022 after spending 2 and half months with my mom, she passed away in the 27th, and my wife told 3 days earlier that she no longer wants this relationship and she can’t take it anymore, she also began to make new friends guys and girls after i helped her through her depression and the most difficult time of her life, i was the only one there for her, and i was so devoted to her, and ready to do anything for her, and when finally she got better she decided to get rid of me, so after my mom passed away i detached from this reality, days would pass with me eating nothing, i had no desire to eat or to talk or to play or to laugh or to see anyone, there was only one thought in my head and it was that this cant be happening and that i will never see my dear mom again, and so i had to go back for my university and then i met wife and she continued with her decision and that she no longer sees a future for us together, even though i am now in the worst period of my life and i need all the support especially from her, she told she is not ready to so and she is already seeing someone else, so there was me and the silent hill inside my head, lost the two people i loved the most at the same damn time, words will never describe how i feel, but reading your story reminded so much of mine and what has happened to me, i don’t think that right now I feel anything, or maybe i am sure that i feel nothing, no passion, no love, no ambition, just nothing, and yeah it’s really hard to remember memories about someone but when you do it kills you, because you know you can no longer feel the same how you once felt, and I really believe that this is my mind responsible of all of this with his defense mechanism, i really don’t know what to say, i just try now to survive and hope for better tomorrow, and remember that our greatest glory is not In never falling, but in rising every time we fall, i hope someone reads this and feels better, and to you my friend i wish you patience and strength
Stay safe.
It doesn't matter brother. It is *Past* which you cannot change.
Give yourself a chance as long as you're consciously breathing.
If your reading this, and your in a pit of sadness, take the time to step back and look from the outside in. You have people who love you and cherish you, even if you can’t see or know it. If you were gone, nobody could replace you.
Stay strong and love yourself
Sh2 helped me move on when my ex had left me and my dad had passed away. I was so immersed in its msuic and atmosphere. I allowed myself to be completely sucked into its aesthetics and I still replay it to this day.
Its really amazing such a game can change a person for good. I love SH.
im curious about your experience with this. for me, playing silent hill 2 made me more worried about death and loss for a little while. The situation with mary was really hard. how is it that the game helped you? i think if i wouldve gotten the leave ending my first time it wouldve left a more positive impact. but i got the water ending. the leave ending is my favorite, as its how I hope I would be able to react with a tragic loss of someone.
@LANpartylandlord sh2 provided me with an escape from a lot of the pain I was going through that time. I had an original ps2 copy and as soon as I was past the opening cutscene I just fell in love with it. It made me feel something that no other game made me feel before. The game made me feel a sense of nostalgia/fear as it had you exploring through liminal spaces. And when I was hit with the twist, it completely changed how I saw everything in the game. I often held small parties at my house and I would gather friends in a dark cramped room to playthrough it. Even when I know almost everything about the game by now, I still replay it and find new things to think about. Little details in the environment that stand out when you start think of then. I also heavily identified with having a loved one become mentally destroyed from years of illness. It still feels crushing when I hear the Mary monolgue near the end of the game. None of the endings are perfect but I kind of like the in water ending the best despite how bleak it is.
@@dutcher268 Ironically, the "In Water" ending is also considered by many to be the true canonical ending to the game
Play sh shattered memories
Lost a lot not from a physical standpoint, but an emotional one, recently. Good friends coming and going, relationships not lasting, betrayals becoming more common. Real life is a beautiful yet terrifying thing, and once that reality slaps you in the face it becomes overwhelming. It takes time to adjust to, becoming an adult. In some ways, we’re all still learning, because in our own ways we’ve never fully grown up. This feeling is the embodiment of that. The everlasting transition of trying to grow up. Maybe that’s why music like this makes us feel a certain way, because we try to ignore that feeling.
Beautiful.
Felt this heavy. Best of luck to you
I've read a lot of comments under this video and I want to share my story.
I was 17 when I met her, we were first year and to tell you the truth, I didn't think that we would have something with her, because she was very popular, she had a lot of friends who made friends with her. As for me, I was just an ordinary guy from a small village, who had escaped to the big city and was afraid of every step.
The year flew by unnoticed and somehow it so happened that a quarantine started in our country and we were all sent home. This is where it all starts, this girl and I began to communicate a lot, practically all day long we corresponded and when the opportunity arose, we met. It was the most wonderful thing. We had a wonderful walk that ended with a kiss. We have been together ever since and you know..... Half a year goes by, then a year, we're fine. On the 2nd year of the relationship I couldn't congratulate her in any way and give her something because I was in occupation. We called each other when I had the opportunity and had a cell phone (and there it is rare and there was no electricity to charge the phone, so we used the generator of electricity friends). Every time we called, I could hear how worried she was and how she was holding back her tears. I reassured her and told her that everything would be fine. Being in the occupation and hiding from the constant shelling, I was more worried about her than myself.
And here I was able to get out of the hell I'd been through. We met on July 27, 2022. And the emotions I felt when I saw her - I will never forget, it was the most beautiful feeling. When I was in her arms, it was like I forgot about all the bad things that happened to me during those six months of occupation.
Reading this, you think that everything ended well and we are living together now, don't you...?
But we're not..... We lived together for 5 months after which she got a job and then another guy. That month of figuring things out was worse for me than the six months of occupation. I begged her to stay so we could work things out, but I couldn't stand her uncertainty and eventually one day packed up and left on my own. We broke up on April 2, 2023, it's now September 25, 2023. It's been half a year and I still sometimes can't sleep well at night. I keep remembering the past, remembering what she was like when she loved(?) me. I'm just waiting for it all to end, I'm waiting to be able to react normally to her on the street when I see her walking by (yes we live close to each other). Because every time I see her I have a panic attack, my heart rate increases, my eyes start to darken and I feel like I'm losing control, but not completely. I move on and slowly come to my senses.
I had a lot of plans for the future with her. Now I'm 21 and I don't even know who the fuck I am. There's no goal, no dreams, no desire to change anything. I feel empty. I don't know where or when the end is...
I just hope time will heal me. Peace, everyone.
Your not the only one brother we all can’t sleep well mediate workout , heal urself spiritually the pain will never stop use it to be stronger
Dude, that's sucks. I completely understand you but never give up! Everyone on this hell of a road, we'll get through this.
Carnal tienes toda la vida por delante, aún eres joven cuando menos te lo esperas la vida se pone mejor sólo no hay que perder la esperanza ni el buen ánimo, suena difícil y tal vez pienses que no te podrás recuperar pero el tiempo siempre cura esas heridas
hey brother , just checking on you. It’s been well over 6 months since you posted this. I just wanted to tell you there’s peace in Jesus.
I miss King of the Hill. That was a funny show, now the tv just makes this noise from 7 to 7:30 every Sunday
Jay. I carry all of the memories we shared listening and playing SH. The mood, and melancholy struck a cord with us both. As if recognizing a face in the crowd. It's something we both carried but I only see now how much heavier it was for you...too late. I hope it's lighter now for you. Weightless. Burden gone. Peace attained. Rest well brother.
It's eerie hearing my name, as well as friends' names in the comments. I'm sure that your Jay is resting easily.
thx bro
I’m at work this morning thinking of someone I once knew. Tired because of lack of sleep. Staying up crying and wishing that anything could’ve been different. The one person that ever made me happy. I realize that now, but I know that if I did anything different, I’d never have been close to her, or learned anything about her. I never would’ve loved. She’s the only person I have ever truly loved. Now it’s all just a memory.
Whenever I feel like my world is crumbling around me, this always makes me feel a comforting joy
yuh, It makes my soul rest in peace
How can I miss her when I've never even had her...
😔
That's called stalking, get help.
@@HiddenAccount bro… not that serious 😭😭
@@TVCrater I know your not, just couldn’t resist the chance for the tease, I truly hope things get better ❤️🩹
@@HiddenAccount word bro
I miss melody, I never appreciate her till she was gone.
She was a good girl.
I miss becca
It’s what they say “ you can’t find the same person , not even in the same person twice. Say you’re walking around a forest and you see the same tree, that means you are lost.” Ever since then I woke up and now I’m single , we’ve been broke up since back of March this year but ever since I heard this it made it much easier to move on.
Man it’s been years and I still find myself thinking about all the crap she put me through, the amount of mental anguish I had to deal with at just the age of 17 is a pain I hope none of y’all ever feel.
She was my best friend but the shit she put me through would make your head scratch as to how and why I put up with her shenanigans and honestly my only answer for that is love truly is blind. All the signs were there but I refused to read them.
How are you going to say you loved me and all this shit but then you start dating someone immediately after you broke us up on Valentine’s Day like our first 3 years of knowing each other meant nothing to you, all the poems, the times I was there for you during your mental breakdowns, that one time I longboarded all the way to see you, fooling around late at night, what was it all to you? Was I really worth so little? Why’d you say yes to begin with. All these questions that I know I’ll never receive an answer for.
Emotional and psychological trauma go brrr.
She used you, much in the same way my old love used me. At the end of the day, we were only a shoulder for them to cry on... Which is why nowadays i have forgiven her, but i don't think i'd ever trust to go back to her ever again...
brrr
Man, I really feel for you but I have a similar story… I’ve met her in high school, we were 17. We immediately clicked and we dated for almost 4 years. We always talked about marriage and kids and I was sure it was gonna happen some day for us. It wasn’t perfect though, we had some big issues, and she was really strange and heartless sometimes. Like she could be very distant sometimes, really attentive other times. The only big fight we had was bc I really doubted that she wanted to date someone else one time, but it was pure intuition 0 prove and even I thought I was delusional. Last year she stopped replying and she apparently moved to another town without telling me anything. I was totally broken and I think I still am today. I don’t even know if she was really seeing someone else or not, I don’t know why it ended that way so suddenly, but I definitely didn’t push onwards… I’m just getting worse and worse each day. I’m really sorry for this messy long ass text but thing is you’re not alone man, I really hope you’ll get better my friend
You loved, she didnt.
Im sure you did you best to make her feel special. It isnt your fault it didnt worked out.
@@Yann2020 She was really heartless. Even if your relationship wasn't the best, 4 years is still a long time. She definitely needed to at least break-up with you on good terms...
Horror stories like yours is why i just have up on dating altogether nowadays. I've come to accept that true love is something that rarely happens out of the realm of fiction
"Babe, go to sleep, new StarLinkwaves just dropped."
Real.
Ok fine I’m up
keep coming back here because it’s so peaceful and melancholy.. thanku
It’s been 3 months and I still can’t get over her
here its been 4 years
Been 3 years for me, never saw it coming. She turned evil on me....
It's been almost 6 months but she is still living in my mind without paying the rent, there's no way forgetting about her she was more than a human being to me she meant literally everything that i had, i wasted my own life so much caring about her that i couldn't live my own life and now she has a happy life living a good life but i ruined my own life for her and can't get her out of my head no matter how hard i try, at least knowing that she's happy gives me some peace of mind, i'm absolutely not mad at her for the pain she caused me, she was my childhood my first and only love and my only bestfriend, i don't know how but i hope someday i can stop thinking about her and rebuild my own life again from its ashes which is i have to, because this life is worse than a nightmare to me and i can't keep living like this, i hope life will bring good things for me and people who suffer from the same shit i'm currently going through.
It gets better bros. I was in a very dark place when i was first here and now I'm very happy with my new gf. Dig deep and keep pushing ahead no matter how many times you are tripped up by others
I feel happy thinking that this kind of music used to make me feel drowned, desolated, but now it brings me a peace I can't describe
What need is there to weep over parts of life? The whole of it calls for tears.
Hoovaru
wow just wow in a sense this is right
Hawwah
Totally something Squall would say.
:(
I‘m listening to this music when I have period cramps and it helps a lot 💓 listening to the music and reading all those comments where men truly loved a girl. I unfortunately never experienced such a love I was always the one who loved harder and couldn’t stand being apart. I always fell in a hole without him…
you don't miss her, you just miss the version of her how she could have been.
We all seem to have our own versions of Maria
@@mfjqkqo5665 imagine if her name really is Maria
I liked her for 9 months. She made me feel a way I’ve never felt and don’t know if I’ll ever feel again. We did everything together, found our classes together. Cried together, laughed together. Watched movies. Everything. I tried to tell her how I felt and she didn’t feel the same way. It hurt like hell. I say that I’m happy and okay, but it still hurts deep down.
If she cheated then she bet against your future, against you. Why continue spending your most valuable and finite resource, time, on her? Letting go will never be easy, infact for me its been the hardest part. Selling gifts she got me, resigning our memories to die and be replaced with someone who won't bet against you. Who gives you peace, who loves you in a way that beats out your past love, because it never hit a point where she stopped believing in you. It's hard but absolutely worth it, and if you let it, heartbreak can make you quite strong. Struggle on my strugglers.
When you are a kid you see Silent Hill and are scared and wonder how someone can come up with such a bleak horrible hell, then you grow up and realise you been living in it your whole life, you just couldnt see inside the fog...
I have been feeling nostalgic towards everything for these past 2 months, and this type of music always vibrates that energy for me. The stillness, the calmness of nostalgia.
Now we meet only in our dreams...
I love that this music genre has become a type of safety for me because of how it reminds me of resident evil save rooms
1 month in after break up and moving out. You’re not alone i know the feeling of being alone especially on the weekends where you used to spend it together. Bless up we’re stronger than this
me and my girlfriend just broke up because she didn’t have the energy to keep going. before we fell into an argument stage everything was perfect, we had a spot together we used to always hang out at (it was a bridge over some train tracks, it had graffiti everywhere, it had leaves overgrown and sometimes we even had to clean up the glass in the area lol) everything was perfect, she matched me so perfectly and every moment i had with her felt surreal. she was the first woman i can say i had an actual connection with. we bought minecraft watches together, went to the movie theaters so many times and we used to sit out by a lake in the cemetery usually just to do nothing but be in each others presence. Things got bad after we stopped being able to see each other as much as we used to, we fell into an argument stage and i didn’t realize how unhappy she was. i didn’t realize how much i was taking from her. i regret not giving her space to heal from things before, i regret not making her happier when i had the chance. it still feels surreal, and i have no idea what to do, i’m so used to having her in my life. i miss her everyday, and we agreed that we would both like to retry once we’re ready. i just don’t know how long i should give her, and i’m sad because that’s so long from now. i didn’t eat for 2 days after she broke up with me. i hope me and her can rekindle things and make things better again because if i don’t have her i just don’t see myself getting with anyone else.
keep trying bro dont give up make things right change for her win her back bro dont just mop around i know it sucks but keep trying if you really love her dont give up love letters flowers something bro dont give up
Can only promise you this my man
No matter what
Be at peace with it
And it will be ok ✌️
it seems like that now bro but after a few weeks you won't feel as attached. been there, if it's done or she keeps breaking up and getting back together after this, the best thing you can do is release/let go. you functioned before you ever met her. you got this.
@@fredothedestroyer153 Bad idea. She wants space, as he stated. By doing that you are just disturbing her. Things will go downhill from there.
My dude it must hurt so much; but I don't recommend you to focus so much on becoming better for her or hoping to be in a relationship with her again.
It hurts but we must try to focus on ourselves and in becoming better persons for our own sake, not for someone who can't focus on us.
You're strong, it takes wits to not eat anything for two days. Place that love you felt for her in yourself and in healing your past wounds; everything will feel better by time, I promise.
The person who used to be my sweetheart also broke my heart when I needed her the most, I still miss her every day, including her happiness and her grief. But she was hurting me without noticing, and I was also triggering her past trauma unknowingly; it was reciprocal pain coming from an anxious/avoidant relationship.
All of us deserve better, but for that we need to grow by ourselves and apart. Only time can tell if we can become that better partner for them or if we will find someone that doesn't trigger us.
Our circumstances just weren’t in our favor. I tried everything I could but really sometimes I feel like I’ve tried a little too much. But I have no regrets loving her. If I could still, I would wish her the best. what I’ve learned this past month is that it’s okay to be sad, it’s okay to cry about it. There’s zero shame. But as much as it hurts you, you have to move on. You are too precious for this world to drown in your own head. Never reject your emotions. But also never get consumed by them. It’s going to take awhile to let go of them I know, but once you do you’ll finally start to heal again. Forgive yourself. Don’t ever shame yourself. Don’t regret the love you tried to show to them. Even if you couldn’t fully. You did you’re best. And you still are. Forgive yourself and be proud.
You dont miss her, you miss the version of her you made up in your head as well as your expectations of what she could've and/or shouldve been
My friend just passed away today and this was in my recommended, thank you truly
It’s hard grieving someone who’s still alive, I’ll never got the resolve I’m after nor do I wish to seek it. I know we had our moments but I thought we were getting through them and I thought that’s what made us such good friends but then you cut contact, it like you died for me and no one else. It’s been 9 months and I still think and cry about you multiple times a week, I wonder if you do the same. I’m not sure how I’m meant to move on I’m stuck in a constant loop of the past
The depression inside is always here and Silent Hill is where my mind usually goes when I have moments of silence. I find myself lost in a dark hole that is filled with a static and ambient sound, and I find myself always stuck. When I can finally leave this place, maybe too I will leave Silent Hill. Maybe being alone isn’t bad, and maybe I have my bumps. However, I still feel like in my dreams that there is a goal at the end of the tunnel. In reality, I feel it more and more. Thank you for this music, I’ll always remember her face in my life and remember the good times, but they’re only memories that taught me something. Only in my memories, silent hill is there. It’s a journey thru the fog but at the end it will part and reveal a path. I hope that it comes one day ❤
Stay strong, much love to everyone, this is beautiful. Thank you for uploading this.
she said we are not compatible to each other
we dated for a long time, she was sweet, she told me she will keep me happy no matter what and love me
i couldn't keep her happy nor she could
i just hope she can find someone who will love her as much as i did
but i will never forget her
i will always miss my sweet bubbles
i don't think i deserve happiness in life
My on and off gf (woudlve been 7 years this year) died last june. She randomly stopped texting me that night before she died. I thought she was just ignoring me or ghosting me as usual, but it felt off that time and I knew she was gone before I found out about it online. I blame myself, her dad, her, and a lot of other things and people, but she was just taken too soon. I always told her about her dying. About my dreams of her dying. Scary. I feel her everyday. I spoke to her everyday almost.
A great fear of mine. I'm sorry you had to experience it, one man to another. If i could hug you I would, I hope you have support there for you friend. ❤
@@Jxsxn0705 hug the one you love. That's all i want from you
@@sxrvsvct7911 look after yourself mate
Cap
@@kkore00 i hope you dont experience it. Goodluck dude
we broke up. something changed between us and I’m not sure why or how. If I knew how to fix it, I would in a heartbeat. I wish I could just go back - 2 years of our lives together; everything that we’ve been through, all the things that we’ve done, all the places we’ve been, the moments we’ve shared, the life we’ve built together, the future we had planned - all gone, just like that. it hurts so much it’s almost unbearable. but life goes on, and the only thing you can do is go on with it. no matter how much you ache inside. it never stops. you have to keep living before it ends up killing you.
To anyone who stumbles upon this comment, just know I love you and it's all gonna be okay in the end🖤 don't give up
Silent hill 2>>>
God that game slaps so hard, silent hill in general but silent hill 2 the story and the characters oh my god bro
silent hill is a broken place for broken people , i feel like i belong there
As a big fan of Silent Hill I am very happy that the saga reaches so many people thanks to videos like this, it is as if it is generating a very resonant aesthetic with all the people nowadays. Silent Hill is not just any horror franchise, they are very personal and unique games, especially Silent Hill 2, the jewel in the crown. If you have not played them yet, I highly encourage you to do so, you will discover a fantastic world.
im not heartbroken just mentally unwell
it’s been 3 years and still can’t stop thinking about her wtf do i do
there is something unresolved within you. Are you forgiving her and yourself? What Is holding you back
maybe stop being such a simp
Yeah man. 7 years and several relationships later (currently in a happy relationship). But now and then, the mind wanders to when everything felt so right with her. Its not as invasive as it used to be, but the romance and nostalgia we shared refuse to leave my memory.
Relationships breaking up just feels like normal these days. I don't want to have a shelfish mindset
“I love you, but I can’t” it broke me
She doesn’t miss me. I don’t know why I lose so much sleep over her. I want to stop thinking about her but her name, her voice, always finds its way back to my head. I don’t even want to be in a relationship. The only thing I want at this point is to stop thinking about her
You're not alone brother but remember its all an illusion. Take care of yourself brother
Me too brother
Man the Silent Hill 2 remake, better have the same atmospheric ost.
Sometimes, it just doesn’t work. It’s okay to be sad about it, however please do remember that it happens, and that it shouldn’t completely take you down, you’ll come out of this as an improved person ♥️
The funny thing is they always think that if you come back that means they did nothing wrong. No that’s not what it means. It means you love them so much that you were hoping maybe they changed a little bit
So true bro
He was a Good person to me , 9ne of the first guys who didn't treat me like some kind of ugly monster. He told me he couldn't do long distance , but he said he cared and loved me . He thought i was going to crawl back like the last time . But i knew it would just keep on happening . I told him goodbye , and blocked him on everything, but i still love him. the thing is i will only see his face when its in my dreams