I've definitely noticed the change in behaviour, in the sense that before, you seemed more anxious, and now you just look so much more at peace. Maybe that has to do with transition or maybe with just growing up, or both, but in any case I'm glad to see you happier, more confident, and wanting the most out of life. I wish you luck on all your endeavors ❤
Everyone should get therapy. Everyone needs it. No one is perfectly happy. But therapy isn't just for people that aren't happy. Therapy helps you understand your mind and feelings, and that can make your life so much better! I'm so happy for you, you look awesome! 👏
lara * _Nope nope_ *NOopEEe* If it wasn't for transitioning purposes I wouldn't ever come close to a therapist again. Never helped me, just made things much much worse. But that's just me personally.
Not everyone needs therapy, and not everyone like therapy, there are different ways to do things emotionally other than "therapy" I personal hate therapy because it does not help me, I help myself like some others out there.
This all sounded sooo familiar to me. It's interesting that you mention your "lumpy" chest because I have exactly the same problem/feeling (also peri-areolar). Since my areolas are still too big anyway, I'm planning on having a revision and hope to then get rid of those "roundy" shapes on my chest, too.
But GOSH DARN IT I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU (You've really inspired me to keep on, if you you can be happy to be alive, mabey I can be one day. Best regards, -a smol trans boy)
*finger guns* hahaha we're all suffering here, dysphoria is fun. :'D (Unless you're cis and are just insecure about you're bod, then you probs don't have dysphoria, but you're prob still suffering, Idk your life)
What’s crazy is I watched this in 7th grade thinking I’d never get close to where he is but now I’m almost a year on t and surgery in planning and I’ll continue to watch this man. Because he taught me everything. Thank you
This is the first time I watched any video of the FTM transition. I know very little about this subject but I just want to applause you for your courage and your willingness to share your journey with the world. You are a truly amazing guy!
OH MY GOODNESS. I just pulled myself through the darkest mental health time and I am also worrying about death and eternity and infinity when previously I had such a different relationship with it. I'm pleased you're feeling happy, good luck, we're always here.
I'm cryinggg. I have been watching your video for a few years now and it's soooo amazing to see how far you've come!! I am so proud of you for being strong through everything :D congrats
the comment about death. . .yeah I get that. I went through some tough times and now I realise i'm scared of dying when I used to wish I could sleep and never wake up. Like, i'm so glad you've reached the point when you can say that you want to live now, because it took me a while to realise this too. and I guess this reminded me that i'm here to live, not just exist. thanks
I had a double mastectomy 45 years ago and I still have numb spots. I think it just comes with the territory. Don't let it bother you too much, that's the way it will probably be the rest of your life. I don't mean to upset you, but, you might as well know now, right? Love you Alex!!!
Thanks for the update! Happy to hear you're doing well regarding the disphoria! But I really hope that you'll find peace in other mental aspects as well :)
alex ive been following your transition for a couple of years now and im just so so happy for you i cant even put it into words. you deserve all the happiness in the world
Your hairline has a "male distribution" now (thats what we call it in the physical exam), which is shaped like an M. I dont think it has to do with going bald, dont worry
Alex. I've been following you ever since you were 15 years old. You are the RUclipsr that made me realize that I was trans. And you've been my inspiration ever since. If there was a person who I didn't know that I had to pick to be happy for the rest of there lives it would be you man. I'm so glad your happy. Your still my inspiration. Honestly I want to look exactly like you, your beard is fucking awesome and that jawline man. I just started hormones like a month and a half ago, wish me luck Alex! Wish me luck guys. BTW I really want to meet you so hopefully that will happen soon!
i started watching him when he was 15 and then i kinda forgot about him then i saw one of his old videos and thought "huh, i wonder what he looks like now." so i clicked on the video, went to his channel, went to his videos and i was like "OMG. MY LIL BEAN IS A GROWN UP BEAN"
its beautiful to see how far you have come, how much you have changed, your so much happier!! and thats what motivates me to keep going, i really look up to you and can sort of relate to things you say? i am so far from getting top surgery and going on t but i know its going to happen, you remind me of that each time you upload a video, it makes my day so much better. One day i can actually go outside and be so much more confident!! since i have ptsd its hard to talk to people. i tend to isolate myself, but you. your an inspiration. seeing your journey encourages me every day. Even on days i just never want to move or get up. thank you!! i love you so so much!! have a amazing day or night hun! just know that every one of your fans admire you for being you. and we all hella fucking love ya :D
5:48 I want to be alive! I am alive! Alive, I tell you! I wanna hold you! I wanna run in a stream! I want to taste ice-cream! I don't want to just put it in my mouth and let it slide down my throat but really eat it!
I love how excited you became when talking about wanting to live. I can't imagine the thoughts that have gone through your head over the years, but I'm glad to see that happier ones are taking center stage now.
You’re so inspirational!!! I just stumbled upon your channel today (and have been going down the rabbit hole of videos...) and it’s just clever, honest and fresh!! Oh, and you and jake are totally adorable!!! ❤️❤️
Dude i just got a referral to a GIC and i just wanna say a huge thank you for being so helpful and informative! Honestly i've been watching your videos even before you went on T and it seemed like suuuuch a long way for me to get T as well but now I'm getting close and I'm so happy :). Wishing you all the best mate 💜
I really enjoy listening to your voice and Im happy about the fact how much you`ve changed: I`m here on your channel for a while now and it makes me glad to see you happy
So proud of you bud. You make this sound a lot less awkward than it usually is, and it's helpful to a lot of people. You inspire people, and I'm sure we're all happy for you. I love how you joke about things, and it makes it easier to think about. It's great that you're happy about your body now, and are comfortable with it. I wish everyone who watches your videos someday become happy with themselves.
I absolutely love your top surgery results. Thank you for talking about your surgical experience it's really helping me decide what I want in the future.
Wish you luck bro. To be honest, you look pretty good, and even though you are maybe not feeling completely okay (like mentally), I can see, that it is better than it was a year ago. And I'm really happy for that. You deserve to be happy and not just because what you've already came through. You are good person and you should treasure yourself, because in this world there is a shortage of people like you. You've helped a lot of us trust me. Thank you
Just want to thank you for your words about your fear of death at 5:48. It reaches me. Now I can't stop thinking that maybe... maybe I'm slacking living because I don't enjoy where I am atm or who I am. Its so obvious, I know, like, everyone talk about it. But I just realised with my own heart that at the moment when I will get this hunger for living - it will be a sigh of me being at MY place, living MY life. Thank you.
it's so nice to see you so happy and proud of your body. i've been watching you for the best part of two years and i'm so glad your quest for a beard has finally been satisfied! sending all the love alex 💖💖
I love this video because we see a lot of younger Alex mannerisms. It's so fun to watch people grow up, and also it's great once in a while to remember that this person you are now is distinctly connected to tiny pre-T Alex who first met Jake and all that stuff
You were the first trans guy youtuber I looked up, you weren't even on t yet. So happy to see so much progress and you smiling. You were there for me at my most scared time even though you don't know it, so thank you
I'm so glad to see you happy ! Before you seemed very anxious and unhappy but now I see that you're full of life and enjoying yourself ☺️ it's truly inspiring and amazing to see you living your life 100% authentically yourself while inspiring others to do the same.Love you Alex 💙
RAAAAAAAAAAH!!! I'm both super happy for & SO envious of you, Alex!!! ...But you're still awesome, either way. ^^ Looking forward to more great updates!
It makes me so happy to see you grow and gaining all this confidence! Keep on rocking this life Alex, you deserve every bit of it! Thanks for this good content! :):):)
I've been here all along the way for your transition and honestly I'm so happy for you and proud of you seeing you genuinely happy and feeling good about yourself just makes me happy and is so inspiring and I'm cis so I can't imaging what you're doing for the trans community and idk this video just made me really happy
You should react to your first video to "the quest to Alex's beard" series. I watched it after watching this and DAMN. You've came so far and I want to cry
as a pre-transitioned transmale, seeing your videos makes me feel so much better for myself... like, you give me a clear vision of what i want to be, and you make me feel not ashamed for being transgender. thanks alex
A little advise for your acne: I take zinc tablets, they're super cheap and I notice a HUGE difference when I'm using them, it can take about a week of taking them (you take one every day but they're only little) before they start to kick in but after that they are super helpful and there's no side effects. Also I put sudocrem on my spots every night and I have no idea what it does but it makes them go down LOADS. I hope that helps 😁❤️
Emma Young zinc helps support the immune system and a strong immune system brings down inflammation and increases disease fighting and helps eliminate pathogens. It also can help with hormone regulation slightly
man i was feeling why do i exist here in this world but when you said you want to live after transition i felt so hopeful for my future. Thank you Alex.
Just teared up a bit whist hearing the ending of this video. Glad you wanna live. Best of luck, Alex. You deserve everything you wish for. x P.S.: Also, looking for therapy is a great idea. Go for it! Take care of yourself.
I had that phase where I was terrified of dying too in my first year. I was finally happy for the first time ever and I was really scared of losing that. It's cool to know I'm not the only one.
Looking gorge. I'm really happy I have been on your channel for so long and watched yo go on this amazing journey. I'm really proud of how far you've come. I work in skincare and have an amazing product for acne. It's so much healthier than the stuff the doctors will give you. Let me know if you would like some information xxx
I love these Videos so much and this makes me rly happy bc you are so happy with yourself. like you do have a few things you don't like (everyone has that) but you're so happy about your body! I also think that therapy could rly help you if you want to do it and I'm rly prouf of ypu for aknowledging that and thinking about going to help yourself ♥ I'm so happy for you Alex, ily :)
hey Alex. I use a sugar fave scrub that I found a recipe for online and it works really well and makes my face really soft. Here's the recipe. • 1 1/2 cups of brown sugar • 1 cup of white sugar • 1 cup of oil (any essential oil) • 1 tbs of vanilla
Been watching your journey for a few years now and it's so wonderful seeing you so happy. I do think you should look into therapy though - if there is a chance to feel even better why not take it? :-)
I noticed the same "Wait my dysphoria is gone but why am I still depressed??" thing. It was easy to pile all my shit into the "it'll go away when I transition" basket...but it doesn't go away without treatment of some sort. Definitely look into therapy. It's good for all people at some point!
I had the same top surgery done and I also had crazy sensitive sensation on one side which returned much faster than the other side. It levelled out eventually after about a year and the same thing happened to the other side with increased sensitivity and then the sensation mellowed out evenly to more or less normal. Regarding the acne - I found that cutting milk products out of my diet helped tremendously (e.g. whey protein, latte, milkshakes, ice cream, etc.). I still have it as a treat now and then so it's not the end of the world but your mileage may vary.
The healing/recovery process will continue.... the acne thing; wash hands more often.... the death thing will pass so do not focus on that. I am really happy for you.... best wishes.....
I started watching like "F yeah, lemme watch this 10 times so I can see you shirtless lots" and then I'm like "awwwwwyis I'm so happy that you're happy and more comfortable" ❤️
Here in a couple months I'm going to be stationed at Mildenhall Air Force Base. Would be amazing to meet you one day. I've followed your transitioning for quite some time now. You look amazing!
I really related to what you said about death. For pretty much as long as I can remember I've been, at the most, indifferent about life. Recently, I've become more hopeful about the future. At the same time I also became terrified of death, which is something I have never experienced before. It felt like these feeling came out of nowhere and I didn't really know how to handle it. It was nice hearing that someone else feels the same way!
Alex don't worry to much about spots when i first started T i had terrible acne and after i hit the two year mark on Nebido its really settled down when i went through my first puberty i also had terrible acne that needed long term treatment - bearing in mind im 34 so it might have settled down quicker for me than it will you but it does settle down I promise.
Very happy for you Alex. Great watching your changes and interesting to hear your inner changes.Receding hairline? My Dad had a thick, full head hair, gray with a lot of dk brown still there, Me? Well I got His father's hair. On top, bald except for a thin, thin growth of hair, almost imperceptible. Well, so be it.Don't worry, I hear worrying may make you lose hair. ha ha. Love you, kiddo.
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"*My Butt issssss...SO Hairy*" - 😂 at least that part of your body will stay warm 😂
I've definitely noticed the change in behaviour, in the sense that before, you seemed more anxious, and now you just look so much more at peace. Maybe that has to do with transition or maybe with just growing up, or both, but in any case I'm glad to see you happier, more confident, and wanting the most out of life.
I wish you luck on all your endeavors ❤
i'm glad you're feeling better boyo !!
Everyone should get therapy. Everyone needs it. No one is perfectly happy. But therapy isn't just for people that aren't happy. Therapy helps you understand your mind and feelings, and that can make your life so much better! I'm so happy for you, you look awesome! 👏
lara * _Nope nope_ *NOopEEe* If it wasn't for transitioning purposes I wouldn't ever come close to a therapist again. Never helped me, just made things much much worse. But that's just me personally.
Not everyone needs therapy, and not everyone like therapy, there are different ways to do things emotionally other than "therapy" I personal hate therapy because it does not help me, I help myself like some others out there.
This all sounded sooo familiar to me.
It's interesting that you mention your "lumpy" chest because I have exactly the same problem/feeling (also peri-areolar). Since my areolas are still too big anyway, I'm planning on having a revision and hope to then get rid of those "roundy" shapes on my chest, too.
Wow your chest looks great dude
Your hairline doesn’t look like it’s receding. It looks like a mature male hairline. I got mine around 20 and it’s been the same for the last 6 years.
Asdfghjkl, your jaw is, so square, your chest, so flat, your voice, so deep, my jealousy, so high.
Calvin Pope I love this haha sammmmmeeee
But GOSH DARN IT I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU
(You've really inspired me to keep on, if you you can be happy to be alive, mabey I can be one day.
Best regards,
-a smol trans boy)
*finger guns* hahaha we're all suffering here, dysphoria is fun. :'D
(Unless you're cis and are just insecure about you're bod, then you probs don't have dysphoria, but you're prob still suffering, Idk your life)
Im ftm haha
What’s crazy is I watched this in 7th grade thinking I’d never get close to where he is but now I’m almost a year on t and surgery in planning and I’ll continue to watch this man. Because he taught me everything. Thank you
This is the first time I watched any video of the FTM transition. I know very little about this subject but I just want to applause you for your courage and your willingness to share your journey with the world. You are a truly amazing guy!
OH MY GOODNESS. I just pulled myself through the darkest mental health time and I am also worrying about death and eternity and infinity when previously I had such a different relationship with it. I'm pleased you're feeling happy, good luck, we're always here.
I'm cryinggg. I have been watching your video for a few years now and it's soooo amazing to see how far you've come!! I am so proud of you for being strong through everything :D congrats
I started therapy about 7 months ago - Best thing I've ever done. ❤️ you!
the comment about death. . .yeah I get that. I went through some tough times and now I realise i'm scared of dying when I used to wish I could sleep and never wake up. Like, i'm so glad you've reached the point when you can say that you want to live now, because it took me a while to realise this too. and I guess this reminded me that i'm here to live, not just exist. thanks
Super jealous of your chest bro!
I had a double mastectomy 45 years ago and I still have numb spots. I think it just comes with the territory. Don't let it bother you too much, that's the way it will probably be the rest of your life. I don't mean to upset you, but, you might as well know now, right? Love you Alex!!!
IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUUU 💕💕
Thanks for the update! Happy to hear you're doing well regarding the disphoria! But I really hope that you'll find peace in other mental aspects as well :)
I have been watching your channel for 3 years and it has been amazing to watch your transition. I am so unbelievably happy for you
alex ive been following your transition for a couple of years now and im just so so happy for you i cant even put it into words. you deserve all the happiness in the world
Your hairline has a "male distribution" now (thats what we call it in the physical exam), which is shaped like an M. I dont think it has to do with going bald, dont worry
I haven't watched your videos in ages and I'm so amazed at how far you've come! So happy for you.
your giggle could cure my sadness
I am literally crying. I've been watching you for the last 5 years and I am so happy to have seen you grow up.
Alex. I've been following you ever since you were 15 years old. You are the RUclipsr that made me realize that I was trans. And you've been my inspiration ever since. If there was a person who I didn't know that I had to pick to be happy for the rest of there lives it would be you man. I'm so glad your happy. Your still my inspiration. Honestly I want to look exactly like you, your beard is fucking awesome and that jawline man. I just started hormones like a month and a half ago, wish me luck Alex! Wish me luck guys. BTW I really want to meet you so hopefully that will happen soon!
SkinNYmini Good luck on your journey ! It's great that you're living your life 100% you
SkinNYmini when I was first figuring out my gender my friend told me about Alex and he helped me realise so much.
i started watching him when he was 15 and then i kinda forgot about him then i saw one of his old videos and thought "huh, i wonder what he looks like now." so i clicked on the video, went to his channel, went to his videos and i was like "OMG. MY LIL BEAN IS A GROWN UP BEAN"
its beautiful to see how far you have come, how much you have changed, your so much happier!! and thats what motivates me to keep going, i really look up to you and can sort of relate to things you say? i am so far from getting top surgery and going on t but i know its going to happen, you remind me of that each time you upload a video, it makes my day so much better. One day i can actually go outside and be so much more confident!! since i have ptsd its hard to talk to people. i tend to isolate myself, but you. your an inspiration. seeing your journey encourages me every day. Even on days i just never want to move or get up. thank you!! i love you so so much!! have a amazing day or night hun! just know that every one of your fans admire you for being you. and we all hella fucking love ya :D
you guys I'm literally crying.. I'm so happy for him. I've seen him grow and change so much and I'm just ugh so happy :,)
It's so great that you are sharing your journey with us, Alex! Thank you :) Also, very excited for the release of your book!
5:48 I want to be alive! I am alive! Alive, I tell you! I wanna hold you! I wanna run in a stream! I want to taste ice-cream! I don't want to just put it in my mouth and let it slide down my throat but really eat it!
I love how excited you became when talking about wanting to live. I can't imagine the thoughts that have gone through your head over the years, but I'm glad to see that happier ones are taking center stage now.
I'd love to see a before and after now! You've come so far.
You’re so inspirational!!! I just stumbled upon your channel today (and have been going down the rabbit hole of videos...) and it’s just clever, honest and fresh!! Oh, and you and jake are totally adorable!!! ❤️❤️
Dude i just got a referral to a GIC and i just wanna say a huge thank you for being so helpful and informative! Honestly i've been watching your videos even before you went on T and it seemed like suuuuch a long way for me to get T as well but now I'm getting close and I'm so happy :). Wishing you all the best mate 💜
I really enjoy listening to your voice and Im happy about the fact how much you`ve changed: I`m here on your channel for a while now and it makes me glad to see you happy
Ahhhhh I'm so proud of you 💕 been here since almost the beginning and it's been amazing to watch you reach your goals
OMG IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I WATCHED YOU AND YOU GREW UP SO MUCH AND YOUR VOICE SOUNDS SO MUCH DEEPER. ALSO CONGRATS ON THE SURGERY
that's so encouraging that now you're happy to be alive
I remember watching you, like, 3 years ago? if you were even on RUclips then idk but man you came far and I'm proud
So proud of you bud. You make this sound a lot less awkward than it usually is, and it's helpful to a lot of people. You inspire people, and I'm sure we're all happy for you. I love how you joke about things, and it makes it easier to think about. It's great that you're happy about your body now, and are comfortable with it. I wish everyone who watches your videos someday become happy with themselves.
I absolutely love your top surgery results. Thank you for talking about your surgical experience it's really helping me decide what I want in the future.
Wish you luck bro. To be honest, you look pretty good, and even though you are maybe not feeling completely okay (like mentally), I can see, that it is better than it was a year ago. And I'm really happy for that. You deserve to be happy and not just because what you've already came through. You are good person and you should treasure yourself, because in this world there is a shortage of people like you. You've helped a lot of us trust me.
Thank you
Just want to thank you for your words about your fear of death at 5:48. It reaches me.
Now I can't stop thinking that maybe... maybe I'm slacking living because I don't enjoy where I am atm or who I am. Its so obvious, I know, like, everyone talk about it. But I just realised with my own heart that at the moment when I will get this hunger for living - it will be a sigh of me being at MY place, living MY life.
Thank you.
it's so nice to see you so happy and proud of your body. i've been watching you for the best part of two years and i'm so glad your quest for a beard has finally been satisfied! sending all the love alex 💖💖
You look so much happier Alex, I'm so excited for what's to come!
I love this video because we see a lot of younger Alex mannerisms. It's so fun to watch people grow up, and also it's great once in a while to remember that this person you are now is distinctly connected to tiny pre-T Alex who first met Jake and all that stuff
You were the first trans guy youtuber I looked up, you weren't even on t yet. So happy to see so much progress and you smiling. You were there for me at my most scared time even though you don't know it, so thank you
I'm so glad to see you happy ! Before you seemed very anxious and unhappy but now I see that you're full of life and enjoying yourself ☺️ it's truly inspiring and amazing to see you living your life 100% authentically yourself while inspiring others to do the same.Love you Alex 💙
RAAAAAAAAAAH!!! I'm both super happy for & SO envious of you, Alex!!! ...But you're still awesome, either way. ^^ Looking forward to more great updates!
It makes me so happy to see you grow and gaining all this confidence! Keep on rocking this life Alex, you deserve every bit of it! Thanks for this good content! :):):)
I've been here all along the way for your transition and honestly I'm so happy for you and proud of you seeing you genuinely happy and feeling good about yourself just makes me happy and is so inspiring and I'm cis so I can't imaging what you're doing for the trans community and idk this video just made me really happy
I'm very glad you want to be here on earth. It's great having you here :)
You should react to your first video to "the quest to Alex's beard" series. I watched it after watching this and DAMN. You've came so far and I want to cry
Omg, I haven't seen ur videos and a few months and you've changed so much! Oh, you look absolutely fantastic!!!❤❤❤
Alex I really enjoy these little updates and I'm so glad you're happy!!!
as a pre-transitioned transmale, seeing your videos makes me feel so much better for myself... like, you give me a clear vision of what i want to be, and you make me feel not ashamed for being transgender. thanks alex
A little advise for your acne: I take zinc tablets, they're super cheap and I notice a HUGE difference when I'm using them, it can take about a week of taking them (you take one every day but they're only little) before they start to kick in but after that they are super helpful and there's no side effects. Also I put sudocrem on my spots every night and I have no idea what it does but it makes them go down LOADS. I hope that helps 😁❤️
Emma Young zinc helps support the immune system and a strong immune system brings down inflammation and increases disease fighting and helps eliminate pathogens. It also can help with hormone regulation slightly
man i was feeling why do i exist here in this world but when you said you want to live after transition i felt so hopeful for my future. Thank you Alex.
Just teared up a bit whist hearing the ending of this video. Glad you wanna live. Best of luck, Alex. You deserve everything you wish for. x
P.S.: Also, looking for therapy is a great idea. Go for it! Take care of yourself.
It's so weird that it's already been 8 months since you've had top surgery wtff, only feels like it's been 3 xD really happy for you Alex :)
Thank u for putting words to how I felt mate 2 years ago I found u and I'm so happy I did
Mate how wonderful to hear you say, "I wanna live now". (PS I did enjoy looking at you too.)
I finally got everything together for my insurance, so they will cover my top surgery. Your videos really helped me a lot, so thanks!
Hey Alex I'm so happy to see that things are progressing really really well! Sending only the best to you my friend, from across the pond!😘
I love this video!! it makes me feel like i might have the courage to start saving up for t, because it's a big thing and all. i'm so happy for you!!
There was that moment when I looked at everything and I thought for the first time in so long.
I want to live.
i love watching these types of videos it gives me so much hope for my future and i'm so happy that you're so happy thank you for sharing so much
i can't believe its already been that long.. time has gone over so so fast
These videos always make me so happy for you, Im glad you're feeling good 💕
Interesting what you said about feeling warm. I had no idea that was a symptom x
So happy for you, my guy! You're looking really good!
I had that phase where I was terrified of dying too in my first year. I was finally happy for the first time ever and I was really scared of losing that. It's cool to know I'm not the only one.
Glad you're feeling good about your body dude!
So proud of you!
Your videos have always and will always be my favourite Alex
I feel like I grew up and have been transitioning with you. I am so fucking proud and happy for you💜
Looking gorge. I'm really happy I have been on your channel for so long and watched yo go on this amazing journey. I'm really proud of how far you've come. I work in skincare and have an amazing product for acne. It's so much healthier than the stuff the doctors will give you. Let me know if you would like some information xxx
Wow I'm so so happy for you!! Your vids always make me smiling a bit even on bad days. So Thanks for that😊❤
Woah, no way... This is the best transition I've ever seen.
I love these Videos so much and this makes me rly happy bc you are so happy with yourself. like you do have a few things you don't like (everyone has that) but you're so happy about your body!
I also think that therapy could rly help you if you want to do it and I'm rly prouf of ypu for aknowledging that and thinking about going to help yourself ♥
I'm so happy for you Alex, ily :)
hey Alex. I use a sugar fave scrub that I found a recipe for online and it works really well and makes my face really soft. Here's the recipe.
• 1 1/2 cups of brown sugar
• 1 cup of white sugar
• 1 cup of oil (any essential oil)
• 1 tbs of vanilla
god, you’re incredible and i’m really proud of you !!
Alex I've missed you!!!
Been watching your journey for a few years now and it's so wonderful seeing you so happy. I do think you should look into therapy though - if there is a chance to feel even better why not take it? :-)
i couldnt stop crying when you started talking about wanting to live 💙 ily
I noticed the same "Wait my dysphoria is gone but why am I still depressed??" thing. It was easy to pile all my shit into the "it'll go away when I transition" basket...but it doesn't go away without treatment of some sort. Definitely look into therapy. It's good for all people at some point!
I'm so proud of you I've been watching since you started. I just love you so much and look up to you so much,came so far!💗❤️💖💜😆😍💞💙
I had the same top surgery done and I also had crazy sensitive sensation on one side which returned much faster than the other side. It levelled out eventually after about a year and the same thing happened to the other side with increased sensitivity and then the sensation mellowed out evenly to more or less normal.
Regarding the acne - I found that cutting milk products out of my diet helped tremendously (e.g. whey protein, latte, milkshakes, ice cream, etc.). I still have it as a treat now and then so it's not the end of the world but your mileage may vary.
Holy shit 8 months wtf happened with time
Edit: holy shit 1 year 9 months wheres time gone
I'm really happy for you, man!! It's looking good.
This is a real eye opener but also giving me hope (I have another year of nhs waiting list hell - as you know it's fucking hard).
The healing/recovery process will continue.... the acne thing; wash hands more often.... the death thing will pass so do not focus on that. I am really happy for you.... best wishes.....
Thanks for the update man, I relate to your comment on being afraid to die now
I started watching like "F yeah, lemme watch this 10 times so I can see you shirtless lots" and then I'm like "awwwwwyis I'm so happy that you're happy and more comfortable" ❤️
Every time I watch your videos, I mentally say the "quack" in the beginning. This time I said it out loud but the "quack" was missing. xD
Here in a couple months I'm going to be stationed at Mildenhall Air Force Base. Would be amazing to meet you one day. I've followed your transitioning for quite some time now. You look amazing!
I really related to what you said about death. For pretty much as long as I can remember I've been, at the most, indifferent about life. Recently, I've become more hopeful about the future. At the same time I also became terrified of death, which is something I have never experienced before. It felt like these feeling came out of nowhere and I didn't really know how to handle it. It was nice hearing that someone else feels the same way!
Alex don't worry to much about spots when i first started T i had terrible acne and after i hit the two year mark on Nebido its really settled down when i went through my first puberty i also had terrible acne that needed long term treatment - bearing in mind im 34 so it might have settled down quicker for me than it will you but it does settle down I promise.
Oh my life you look and sound wonderful! I am so glad you're happy!!
Everything's looking so great, can't wait for your book absolutely gutted I lost the sample :(
This made me so happy 💕
Very happy for you Alex. Great watching your changes and interesting to hear your inner changes.Receding hairline? My Dad had a thick, full head hair, gray with a lot of dk brown still there, Me? Well I got His father's hair. On top, bald except for a thin, thin growth of hair, almost imperceptible. Well, so be it.Don't worry, I hear worrying may make you lose hair. ha ha. Love you, kiddo.