I can see your struggles there :( I'm so thankful that it's my second year and I have next year to graduate. I hope you do get to see your classmates and have a proper goodbye
Pandas In Space thank you, I said that pretty lightly so I didn’t expect a reply like this. That was actually really sweet. I’m currently much happier, hope you’re doing great. ❤️
I do feel like we're actually going back though. It's like we are repeating the nostalgia but like this time it's different. God knows I'm not a scientist. But only us though. everyone here. Atleast the people who still really misses it and understands as much as i like I do. or is it just only me who is experiencing this phonomninal?? but I have a feeling that other people who literally feels the same way are coming with me
I feel like it’s still summer 2012 when I discovered Lana Del Rey. Spending my entire summer vacation listening to her “Born to die” album. Didn’t know a thing about love, not much stuffs to worry about. Life was good. Now it’s not..
I‘m not scared of my future. But i‘m kinda scared for the *future.* You know. Before the all crazy shit happens. I Love Living back in my nostalgia *past.* I feel safe in this timeline too and get to experience *Memories* all over again until I want to go back to the *present* again. We could be making new ones without knowing.
I miss last summer sm. I left school, hung out with friends until late at night, went to places i never knew i would go to and live life to the fullest but now i hardly see my friends due to corona, i also thought this year was gonna be it but turns out id be stuck in a house for the whole summer.
Last summer, my sister and I were able to go to Florida and stay with my grandparents for awhile. It was the first time in a long while that we both felt completely healthy, cared for, and free. We had home-cooked meals, daily trips to the store, the gym, the pool, and the beach. Even when we didn't go out, days were still productive and exciting. It was amazing. I could get out of bed each morning without feeling afraid. During one night of this trip, my grandma was preparing dinner, and I asked if I could go out for a walk. Under normal circumstances, my guardian would say no. Walking outside in the nighttime is a ridiculous concept to my mother, and asking her would only anger her, even if I am fifteen. But my grandma said yes. She said I could walk on the sidewalk, but to take my phone with me, and be safe. It was more than I could ever ask for. And the second I stepped outside of my grandparent's home, everything was beautiful. The air was warm and gentle, and because we were so far from densely populated cities, you could see all the stars and just a hint of the sun against the black sky, causing the world around me to look midnight blue. That color, paired with the warm yellow of the overhead streetlights, had me in awe. Even if it was an average Florida night, I was free. I could breathe the air and be on my own. I set off down the sidewalk. It was such a symbolic moment of freedom, being able to go out on my own, happy and healthy, able to see a cat crossing the street and the seashells in the pavement of the road. I could hear myself breathe in the warm Florida air, and feel myself smile. It was a wonderful walk. By the time I returned to my grandparent's home, I paused on the driveway, tipping my head back to look at the stars. The sun had completely set by now, and the midnight blue of the sky was cast into an inky black. I could see the big dipper, one of the only constellations I'd bothered to memorize, and I began to cry. Perhaps the overwhelming feelings of love and happiness was what made me so emotional... or perhaps it was the pain of remembering I had to go home. I don't know when I'll get to see my grandparents again, to reside in that home full of happiness... that ideal lifestyle. But I am making do with what I have. It's just strange to remember that even a walk can bring tears to my eyes.
@Yuri Yurei Ahhh that's so sweet... thank you! I know you can absolutely write like AND better than me! Practice doing writing prompts, read as much as you can, and believe in yourself! Write from your heart. You'll be amazed by what you can produce
The comment section of RUclips really is an incredible place. I know that's a weird thing to say, because makes me seem like I spend every waking hour on RUclips, but that's not what I mean. People pour their hearts and souls into comments here. They talk about relationships and break-ups. They talk about drugs, alcohol, therapy, little memories that make them smile. They rant about their parents or type a one-line poem about depression that sends in a wave of supportive replies. We may be from other sides of the world, but in this section, we are all connected. Maybe I'm going in too deep, or I'm just trying to make a simple app seem like heaven. But it's just how I feel, and I like it.
Yes. We are the peoples that , for a reason or an other can’t be happy.. so we find a place to not feel alone, in a world who doesn’t pay attention to us.
I realized how much I've been inside this summer compared to when I was a child and that realization made me sad. I wish I can go back to those days, when times were simpler, when I was naive to the world and before I realized how cruel the world can be.
i completely agree. i say, still try your best to live your life to the fullest now. when you’re an older person, or even in your last few years of life, you’ll be thinking about how much you miss the times of when you still had time. don’t be afraid to try new things and slowly step from your comfort zone, you won’t regret it.
ya but think about all the freedom you have now. like, for example, tom you could just pack ur bags, buy a plane ticket and backback all around rome. We only let responsibilities tie us down, they dont have to. If you have kids well then its stiil harder but doable ;)
i met my first love in summer 3 years ago. we used to study, chill, cook & hangout together while listening to lofi music. sadly, 7 months in our relationship he passed away. it pained me sm that i got depressed for almost a year. now, i can finally let him go. i will always cherish our memories together forever, mark
I could feel how the sun used to burn my skin, how i laughed, ran, screamed on top of my lungs, fell down, and lived. Blurry, these memories where life was simple back then. Wishing that it would stay the same. There’s a regret hiding in the insides of me. I kind of regret growing up. edit: its been 2 years ahahah
Just know that I'm gonna think about this comment for the rest of my life, thus I will be thinking about you the rest of my life. You'll never be forgotten and even a little thing as a comment can leave your impact, meaning you've already made a mark on the world. Godspeed, brother.
This is one of the best comment sections on youtube. Every time I read these comments, I feel so connected to all of you, even though we're all so far away from each other. It would be nice if some of us could meet in a room and tell our stories, I guess.
Exactly. I have a theory that a lot of people around us irl feel similar sentiments. We just choose to keep them to our self and express them in hidden places like notebooks and recesses of youtube.
Raneem Iftekhar, wow, I always think about the same thing. Imagine if everyone had the courage to talk about their feelings and thoughts. Think about the many people who happen to share demons and emotions with you, and just choose to keep it for themselves. I think it’s an incredible thing to think about.
everyone is never far from each other. We are all humans. Do you see the connection? God made us all not to harm or do crime but to love each other, even if people hurt you, you shouldn't hurt them back. We are all brothers and sisters, since we are created by the same creator. Let the animals live like us dont hurt them. If you hurt animals your only hurting god's creation. Do you see the connection? everyone is in a room called earth.
clock tick as we change. We can sometimes be kind or be mean. if you have depression dont be, you have a home right where your standing. Earth. I recommend you all to go outside, and scream on the top of your lungs say: LET THERE BE PEACE IN THIS WORLD FOR ONCE!
I love how everyone has their stories to tell about their last summer and how the music fits so well. Seeing what last summer means to different people with such candid stories is something really lovely but slightly sad to read
It makes me sad to think about the fact that I never actually had a memorable summer that I can look back at and be like “damn I wish I could go back to those times”. Hopefully the summer of 2k20 will be a movie :(. I’ll update y’all even if I don’t get any likes.
I'm here listening to this, while it's 10 pm and I can see the purple sky outside my bedroom window how it slowly turns blue and it's just beautiful. I want to live in this moment forever.
scrolling through these comments made me realise that the internet is both an outlet of our problems, relieving us of that stress while also trapping us in a virtual prison of pressure
it’s currently 3am for me, and i’m just laying in bed thinking about the old summer days that i’ve had. i used to run around under the sun with my cousins and play hide and seek, or shoot each other with water guns. every single day was just a blast... but now we’re all much older than before and we have our own plans and things to do. i just miss those days where i had no worries and felt... happy and free. i want to have that feeling of an amazing summer once more, instead of moping around in my room blocking myself from the outside world.
Last summer was my last high school summer break. I started my senior year great and ended it great. Over the years I realized how much I changed and everything else. Knowing which are my real friends and removing the toxic ones. I miss it already. I miss waking up early to get ready and go all out for spirit day. I’d love setting up decorations at 5am in school. The football games with my friends. Halloween. Hanging out in my cool teachers classroom really late with my friends just to hang out or watch videos. Working in the student store. Drama club. Rehearsals. I never wanted to go home during senior year because I didn’t want to leave my friends. I really enjoyed senior year so much. I have too many memories, and I’m glad I do. I pushed myself a lot this year to be more social so I can have a year to remember. I hope everyone can do the same. Like I can’t believe this is it. I thought I’d be in high school forever. I don’t know I just couldn’t imagine life after high school and here I am. It is true. It goes by fast. And like everyone else already said please enjoy it. Make the best of it. It could be the best or worse days of your life, but it up to you.
Man, everything really does have an end. All my friends are going to different schools and countries... I can't believe time flies this fast... Wish I could spend more time with them...
i discovered this album when i was 13, on the last day of summer before 8 grade started. i was listening to it on a plane, while traveling back home by myself for the first time. i remember seeing the sun set from above and i could see fireworks in different cities at the same time (this happened exactly when you can hear whats seems to be firework noises in joan of arc). this was surprisingly a turning point in my life. i listen to this album each last day of summer since that day, almost 3 years ago.
Going through some of the comments made me realize. Nobody is perfect we all go through a fair share of shit. Just be you man, just be you. That's all you've got.
no one really talks about how strong nostalgia is, like sadness or anger. thinking about amazing memories that are all in the past that'll probably never happen again, especially with the same person? and what if that person doesn't think about it as much as i do? crushes my heart. it makes me scared for the future, both knowing something as good might not happen again and that if it does that'll it'll eventually be put in the past, where it'll only be a memory. hurts even more when it's with a person you never talk to anymore.generations and generations of human life have put away memories on top of memories of loved ones and happy times and eventually time will put it all in the past. it kind of makes it all bittersweet. each human life has it's own regrets and memories of last summer.
this title is actually accurate. i listened to this all last summer (summer 2018) when my depression and insomnia were rough during summer school. i’d sit at 4am, the only light coming from my tv, which was playing this softly. it makes me so nostalgic because although i was struggling, life seemed so much simpler then.
thats exactly what im feeling too, maybe life would be seen as so easy for future me. maybe i dont have to overthink things. maybe i can just be happy. but i cant for some reason.
It's funny how when you are depressed, there are only few thoughts in your head making you feel bad or anxious, but when you are living life normally, your mind is filled with a million thoughts, weakening you by the second and getting you all stressed out and shit...
I feel alone and empty hearing this. It reminds of when I'd walk outside during the hot summer evenings as everything turned gold and the clouds loomed over the horizon. There was always that summer smell, musky and hot. There would be songs I'd loop for hours at a time during my walk. And it'd be the only time I'd leave the house during the summer. Whether for walking the dogs, getting alone time, just wanting to go down that forest trail again, I would be out at six every evening before dinner. But then I stopped. Where did it go?
missed my childhood summer where I only played the whole early morning till the early sunset. and then a day is nothing longer cause I'm with my childhood bestfriends. i remembered when we used to build our own tent and buy some snacks and we we're just insidd our tent talking, laughing and. even scaring ourselves to make it a thrilling experience. While now, all I have are those memories. and I can't turn it back anymore. so sad but all I can do is to live.
I miss that too. You know what I just realized though is that I have a lot of memories that I only recently made, that I’ll remember years later, and miss. Just over spring break, one of my best friends, my sister and I played at the park all day. We left the house at 10 or 11 AM and didn’t come back until sunset. We found some old scooter thing, tied it to my friend’s bike, and rode around with it all day. Best few days of spring break in my life, and it was simple. I didn’t go on any trips, or do anything fancy, we just had genuine fun. I’m going to miss that.
I remember summer 2015 when I would just run across the streets in my neighbourhood with my best friend. I remember summer 2016 when I would dance in the rain with my crush, which was lovely, though the rain drops were pretty cold. I remember summer 2017 when my life went totally downhill and I realized in my complete loneliness that the only person who could help me out that pit I fell in was me and only me. Now it's summer 2018 and I feel a strong feeling of numbness, I feel quite empty, not completely empty though, I feel like I'm kind of recovering from what was coming to me back in 2017. But now... 2018 is so silent, so quiet, I feel like I can do anything I put my mind to but at the same time I feel trapped. I miss feeling loved and I have so much love to give, but I feel like there's no one now who can make me feel loved, I need affection and it's so harsh for me. This summer has been so boring and I know that I should either wait or look for someone myself, but waiting for love can be so hard. Sorry for the long text, I just needed to chill out a bit and nostalgia hit me hard. Also, thanks for reading. Lots of love and peace, I hope you guys are having the best summer! 💕 August the 2nd, 2018
We’d divorced three years earlier and hadn’t seen each other since, but for whatever reason, I never took her off my emergency contact list at the nearest hospital. After my accident, I was put in a medically induced coma, and when I woke, she was the only person in the room. She sat in a hospital recliner, watching The View, looking unshowered. She turned her head casually as I slowly came to. “It’s just like you to have something like this happen,” she said. “I’m here, so I figure I’ll get us something to eat. What do you want?”
i miss the good old days of running around the street riding bikes with my friends. but as the years went on that worry free feeling of happiness just kept slowing fading away. now i’m about to graduate high school but i don’t feel excited or happy, all i feel is regret. i regret not living my teenage life to the fullest. if your reading this and you’re still young, please strive for any goal you have because if you do i can’t guarantee you will accomplish it, but i can guarantee you’ll regret not reaching for it. may 22, 2019
Wow, I was just going to use this as music to do my summer homework to, but I'm finding myself getting ready to cry. Do you ever have the feeling where each year gets progressively worse and you miss every single past year because it felt different? I'm probably just crazy and lonely, but this kind of music brings it out, haha
yep, i relate so bad... but i guess that's how we ended up here, our scars gave us a chance to bond and to listen to each other's sufferings...this is where the good part of all of this is. i hope everything turns out well for you, i really hope from the bottom of my heart.
I'm sure there are people who love you, and even if your years get worse you have to try to make your life better and don't give up, you can rest whenever you feel tired of life but never give up 💓
This summer doesn't feel like summer. Summer is calm. No worries. No pressure. Right now this is all I feel, a pressing, heavy ticking. A clock running out of time. Ironic. It doesn't feel like I'll ever be able to relax. I have no boundaries, just the constant state of anxiety I wake up to everyday that goes on and on and gets worse every minute. I don't know which way to turn. I just feel like lying down and sleep..
Same here. I think the reason why summer is so terrifying to me at least is I feel like I'm going to waste it being a husk of a person, passively consuming RUclips videos and getting nothing done. It's the little things that give me peace sometimes. A bike ride late at night, a profound conversation with a stranger, waking up before anyone and drinking coffee while watching the sun rise, lofi hip hop (lol), art, music. Cliche I know, but it makes me feel alive.
Here's what I got outta the video: So you are outside with your friends playing hide and seek tag and whatnot, and the sun is slightly low, making the sky orange, while misquitoes are biting you and you are sweaty, but you don't care you just want to be with your friends. Then you get called inside for dinner, and you go inside, expecting tommorrow to be better and filled with fun.
this just made me realize that we all played with our neighborhood friends one last time and never even thought about it being our last day together. now we’re all grown, moved away, or in college. :/
Last summer... Do you remember? The birds chirping at sunrise And the smell of freshly baked pies When you kissed me to wake me When you made me laugh when I was feeling blue When you convinced me you would never hurt me When you said...you loved me too.. It all kindly ended with that one little lie Now, you've stopped kissing me Now, you've stopped making me laugh Now...you've changed I am up at 4 AM Overthinking and shaking at the thought of you You never noticed how my heart is completely aching And there I sat, heart crumbling Always stumbling.. And now here I sit, looking at the vast ocean Always afraid when my heart is in motion Always wondering.. Of last summer... So this is my first poem and it might be pretty weak but I tried. Thanks for reading if you did! :P
last summer i met a boy named adam. we liked each other at first sight, and i admitted it straight away. we dated, but since he was depressed and had insomnia, it was hard for us to stay together. i tried to help him cope with the visions and voices, andd when it didn't seem to work, i gave up. a few months later after i went home across the state, i heard he met the girl of his dreams. i felt happy for him, as he wasn't depressed anymore, but.. i missed him, and felt a little jealous. i still miss him today and when it's summer, i think about him and the time we spent together. i miss you adam. i know you don't understand why, but you will someday. i love you.
Listening to this while reading manga and drinking a jug of milk, maybe being alone isn't so bad after all. For anyone seeing this, hope you're doing well, I wish y'all the best! And if you're not, don't you worry, things will get better, they always get better, just do the things you love doing, pick up a new hobby, something like that. love you all
I remember adding this to a playlist four years ago, I was in a pretty dark mental place at the time, but a lot of time has since passed and I am happy to say I’m much better, listening to this four years ago would usually make me sad, but now it’s given me a feeling of happiness and nostalgia oddly enough, anyways, hoping this summer is fun! Have a good day! To whoever read all this shit
I miss my friends and our memories together. The slightest bit of thing that reminds me of them brings me back into that classroom that we all stayed. I remember walking to class and seeing somebody there first. They would comment on how I look that day and we would just laugh. All of us would, sometimes, gather around and just talk about the past. It was great. I don't want us to part ways but this is it. This is how life works. We have to move on. This might be my loneliest summer yet.
a word of warning and wisdom to those who feel lost and helpless around this time, especially with exams and school ending: you will find your way. there is nothing more powerful in your life, nothing more perfect, and nothing more inspiring than you. you are valid, no matter your colors or views. you are beautiful, and you should be respected for staying true to yourself, no matter what. good luck to you, you incredible being. when you feel unworthy of the challenges set in front of you, remember that you are the judge and jury of your own life. you will overcome, and you will overcome with colors brighter than anyone has ever witnessed. remember the universal language of music when you struggle. you will find your way, but let the sounds of your heart guide you to your home.
Thank yoouuuu!!!! I'm currently at Law School summer program and I have felt super overwhelmed since I got here but I know it will get better. I really needed this."
I will remember your smile in those warm summer evenings, we didn't even speak the same language, but our connection was deeper than that. I'll miss you.
I dated someone from another country last summer. some of the best days of my life. I knew it wouldn't last, our conversations were screened by google translate before the other saw. but I loved him anyway.
Listening to this, i cant help but thinking about a beautiful period of my life. It was summer 2019, i went to summer camp with my friends, it was like a movie. We snuck out, going to malls, going to the arcade, drinking boba at 1 in the morning. Those days were beautiful.
Here's the poem at the end in epilogue / it spoke so deeply to me that I had to write it down because I couldn't find it written anywhere You were a summer thunderstorm drop of golden sunshine days Your rain and light shows made me dance in ways I never have before Oh how glorious it was It wasn’t until you left when I looked at the fires burning at my wildflowers That I understood that you were not the right storm for me Although (Your rain did not quench my thirst Oh how I danced Swaying and leaping in new ways I never thought possible Drenched with my eyes and arms turned towards the sky I beg for more of the lightshow and bone shaking beat that were distracting Me from the fires scorching my already parched wildflowers It wasn’t until you left with me chasing after you That I finally looked around and found the depth of your destruction And there I sat, soaked to the bone Smouldering field of wildflowers, trying to water the earth And bring them back to life with my tears that were locked somewhere deep within me As my wildflowers started to wilt, I looked around again And I realized that I was utterly alone So I took my flowers in my arms But as I touched them, they crumpled and turned brown, disappearing the more I try to hold onto them Desperation I finally plucked them Roots and all, I could no longer hold them
my interpretation: storm = hot lustful sex wildflowers = virginity wilted wildflowers = broken virginity (she can't fix them anymore just like how u cant ever get ur virginity back once it's lost)
to everyone out there reading this right now, you are so much stronger than you know of. just being on this earth right now means so much. it means that despite your downs, you still are here. you are amazing, you are beautiful, don't let anything or anyone make you feel otherwise, especially yourself. you are here for a reason. everything happens for a reason, and your downs only make you stronger and stronger. it breaks my heart that so many people don't see how frikin AMAZING you are! when you think you're unloved, remember there are SO SO many people who love you deeply and care about you so so much. never ever doubt yourself or beat urself up about the past. Never blame yourself, everything happens for a reason. YOU ARE ENOUGH. you've always been enough, that's why you are here. To everyone in pain who gets up and has breakfast, and goes to school/work, you are so frikin strong. and to EVERYONE who cant get out of bed, you are still so frikin strong. remember, being here right now, and living in the moment is enough. its okay not to be okay. everything happens in good time and takes a while to overcome obstacles and heal. let time lead you to new experiences and adventures. when you realize you are a beautiful strong being, you become even more beautiful and strong. when you set your mind to believe in yourself and never give up, it becomes a reality. you are never alone. when you feel like you're in the pit of despair, the only way to go from there is up. my heart goes out to everyone out there.
A couple of weeks ago i was in such a dark state, i had major anxiety and depression and i still do. I felt hopeless, i felt as if i had no one to turn to, i felt i was useless to everyone and everything. Since nobody wanted me or needed me and since i was utterly useless to everyone, i planned to commit suicide one night. When that night came, i was breaking down crying on my bathroom floor with razor blades and pill bottles at 4 in the morning hoping i would never see the light of day again. As i was about to start the process of suicide, my playlist of sad music ended on youtube and this video came on from the suggestions. As soon as this came on, i had "flashbacks" of all the wonderful times ive had with my boyfriend, my friends, and my family. I sat in the bathroom for 2 more hours listening to this on repeat and thinking about all the amazing people i have in my life that i didnt recognise before. Im still depressed and anxious but im alive. When you hear me say "music saved my life" i really mean it did. This video, this music saved my life.
Since this is the internet there's no guarantee that this happened but if it did, Just remember... It doesn't get better. You get stronger. If it's all true I really recommend you get some help. I don't care who you are, but it's completely unreasonable to say that no one care's about you. I hope you're feeling a bit better now. Please get some help.
Life is precious so keep living it! I know how you feel, I truly do but giving up is not the way to go. You have to push back and say no. I wish you the best and remember, you’re not alone.
When I first started listening to this more than a year ago i thought to myself "I wished I had summer nostalgia." But a year later, I realized that during the period where I was constantly listening to this was outside during summer break, on walks and runs with my sister. So in a way, this lofi video and background really built it's own nostalgia on my life
Listening to this while in my dorm, peering out the tiny windows that displayed the rosy gold horizon that I so loved to watch fade into temporary blues and blacks of an ethereal night and holding on to the panging feeling of homesickness in my veins, hoping someday to return back to the past.
You're you. You're you and that's fucking beautiful. Life sucks, man. But sometimes you just have to reach for the glimmer of hope within your life that you don't care enough to notice. Sometimes life will drag you down over and over until you feel blank and meaningless. But guess what? There's always a sunrise. Sometimes you just have to climb through the layer of dark and gloomy clouds you've built around yourself and look at the twinkling stars that were there the whole time.
Always cherish those people who come into your life, and you find out that they love you for you. Because damn, don't take the littlest things for granted.. because they won't come back all the time. Like how you want them too.
Those clouds reminded me of that summer I spent in my grandma´s house in China. She always woke up earlier than the rest, and went downstairs to buy breakfast. In the afternoon, my mom, aunt and me would go shopping and before going back to grandma´s we would make a stop and buy the groceries for dinner. I was seventeen and while I was waiting for my mom and aunt, I saw the most beautiful clouds between a pair of tall buildings, it was unfortunate I didn´t had a cellphone or camera with me in that moment, but I still remember it clearly.
At the time we don't truly value how special some moments and days mean to us. Only when we look back in the past do we cherish and savor those moments that you wish can last forever. Every moment is the most important moment. I only wish I can re-live those days when the only care in the world seemed so trivial. Nostalgia is my best friend, but also my worst enemy.
I feel like people often don't talk about how nostalgia affects you and how sad it can feel for me I kinda feel like it would be amazing to go back with some memories and others I'm glad I'm in the present time but what can you do, really 🙃
sometimes it feels good alone, being lost in your own thoughts, you temporarily leave this world and listen to your mind's voice. It's peaceful in there.
I'm glad i didn't end it all... I was so young and in so much pain, I was able to grow up and experience so many things, I had a chance to live and it was so worth it. Things aren't perfect now, and my depression isn't gone but I'm so happy it didn't end in my middle school bathroom. My life is precious and I'm so glad I lived long enough to understand that.
i'm glad you came to this conclusion. for some people, it'd take them forever to get to the point of being thankful for simply existing. wishing good luck to everyone who's struggling.
Last summer felt bittersweet and disappointing. My grandma got sick for two months so me and mom looked after her. I was exhausted. But also I've seen my art school talanted friend a few times. He asked me to hang out together and I was fucking happy because I truly liked him, but i didn't know it yet. I started to realize it when he left for college. i've met that guy in autumn 2016. i'm taking art classes in the art school and usually i stay late after practice... so i remember on a fall day he walked in my classroom before his class and talked to me. when he was on the way out of my class he always said "well, i won't distract you. talk to you later". i didn't even notice initially what he looked like because i was busy with my still lifes and had my back to him. talking was never enough, i waited for him to come every time. we talked until the summer came. he has blue eyes and light brown hair and he's really good at art. in june 2017 he approched me at the regular summer plain air when everyone left and... said nothing i was silent too few weeks passed. my gmother got sick and i went to the grocery by bike. I saw him as I was riding down the alley right opposite our art school. i said hello and went past, but it clicked in my mind and i returned. he asked me for my phone number and invited me for a walk to paint together i can't discribe my feelings at that moment, is it happiness? but i didn't even like him as a boyfriend, i never thought about him in this way. it was the first time someone noticed me. someone i like noticed me, gosh we took a walk three times. i can tell it was the best thing that ever happened to me. we walked around our boardwalk, and lakes, and dam. we stood at the dam when the sun sets in silence. we were at the plain air together, painting sunset. when i dropped my watercolours box he helped me to pick it up. some colours drowned in the lake through haha... i was at his place. he showed me all of his paintings. he knocked over a vase with flowers (can't describe the smell, it's been standing there for a month haha). he offered me a book to read but i refused... fuck, i don't know why. i should've take it so, he went to the college in another town. since that time we've met twice and i didn't have a chance to talk to him again he never calls. he didn't say he has a social web account. but he has i called him once, i was nervous because didn't want to impose, asked when he'll return for a weekend. he responded and we said like, goodbye. i feel like he's dissapointed in me. now i see photos with some girl on his fb page and feel nothing at all i don't know. i can't say i love him but i want him back i go to the lakes really often. i sit at a bench and look out at the river. creep around the place. and i dream of the day when i'll look back and see him. Now I can say I forgot him. I'll never cry about it again. I think I see through him. Thank you for those three walks dude, it was the best thing i ever had until now.
wow, this sounds like it came from a novel. Don’t worry, everything will work out in the end. It seems very likely that you’ll see him again, cant explain why
oh thanks. he was replaced by other guy and i'm not whining about anything now. but i don't mind seeing him again (i was worried i made grammar mistakes because i'm not a native speaker but i hope no one cares)
I always find myself coming back to this playlist. Its so timeless and captures a feeling of rest and lack of responsibilities I yearn for, and miss so very much.
Last summer, I was diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety and panic disorder. I tried to fight my way through it, I fought really really hard, the healing is slow and the times of difficulty always seem to crawl back even today. But I don't want to live like this forever so even though I'm so afraid I'm doing my best to help myself. This summer I feel strong and hopeful.
This reminded me of so many small moments in my life. It’s amazing that music can capture you and bring you back like that. Staring into the eyes of someone you love. Looking through the sky. Spending time alone. Just taking time in life to stop and just listen. I should stop now. Just wanted to express my feelings. :)
Last summer I parted ways with my close friends to find our own different paths and future and said each other last goodbyes for the last time. Even though we spent hours together it only felt like a milliseconds before we all hugged our last hug and turn our back to eachother. Wishing each other to reach their hopes and dreams and find happiness in the things they do until together; we are old grandma's and grandpa's.
Used to listen to this back in 2018 when im studying my ass off Till its 4 am . Now its 2020, no difference except not in high school anymore , first year in uni . This lofi does wonders to me
I can't even explain how this picture combine with the music works on my emotions... I feel completely suspended in time and space. It perfectly gives that vibe of lazy, thick air summer with nothing to do and hours to waste on daydreaming.
Ive been listening to this on spotify but its good to see that the comments are still lovely even after 5 years. First time i was here i almost offed myself but hey im still here 5 years later.
Same. So sad. Just happened to think about this lofi and tried to find in RUclips to no avail. Scrolling back phone screenshots up until 2019 to finally found screenshot of this video playing on phone music player. And now I'm here
i never EVER reply or comment anywhere on youtube but same shit happened to me in the past dude i know how it hurts feel better soon! theres always more ppl to come
People say they wish they knew they were in the good old moments before they left them.. And I'm here thinking that .. I'm in those good old moments.. really really young .. with all of my family and friends .. haven't lost a person! I'm so grateful that they are there by my side ❤ wish I'd never lose them and I never wish loss upon anyone .. So hey, person reading this .. even if you have lost someone you care about .. you still have people left around you.. you love 'em and they love you .. take care of them .. Stare at there faces long enough .. listen to them .. tell them you love them before you're no longer able to ..
I'm No One please hug them and let them know how special they are. i lost my grandpa and the biggest mistake of my life is not saying i love you loud enough last time i saw him. i miss him everyday.
Last Summer, Hm long time ago I remember very clear. First thing I remember is I was happy. Running around, all happy, doing things I love. My family around me like a guard, so I personally don’t do anything stupid. Then I went home, back to the US. So school started and school ended. This summer I.... Am shatter In million pieces I can NEVER pick back up. Thank you If you read this, You are loved. 🖤
hey, this is to you my love, but i cant tell you this directly because im not strong enough.. so i just have to write it out here and imagine your reaction on my own.. you were the most beautiful thing i have ever, ever felt. truly, you made last year the best year of my life. you honestly made me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world sometimes.. and honestly every moment with you felt so exhilarating and full of life. our time together was such a blessing.. and im so happy you shared so many memories with me. you were my first for so many things, and im honored i was many of your firsts as well. but, of course the heaven on earth we lived had to come to an end.. thats just the way life goes. i am so sorry, from the bottom of my heart that i wasnt what you were looking for. you fell out of love.. and i cant change your feelings. i love you enough to accept your change of heart.. no matter how badly i want you for myself. baby im sorry for being selfish and lashing out and crying out to you why you felt the change in your heart. i shouldnt push what you dont want.. i just want you to be happy. i really did think my love for you was something special, but its okay. it really is fine.. for your happiness and freedom from having to keep your true feelings from hurting me.. it truly is worth crying on my knees at 2 am. it hurts, it really does hurt. its the kind of pain that spreads to your chest, down to your stomach, and throughout your arms and legs. my eyes sting from draining my body of tears.. but im glad youre happier now. next time, once you meet the girl of your dreams, please please promise me that you wont promise her that youll love her always, that you cant wait to spend your life with her unless you truly truly mean it.. please mean whole heartedly what you say to people you love, because words with that much power can really strike someone in their heart.. like you did to mine. i told myself everyday how incredible our lives would be together once we move out of this little town. i told myself that the pain of home life was worth it, anything was worth the wait to be with you. ill always love you.. always.
hey, i just want you to know that everything will be alright in time. i've been there, and i know full well just how it feels when the special person who was yours, and who you belonged to, suddenly isn't yours anymore... everything feels WRONG and out of place and you wonder about all the what-if's-- what you could have done to have prevented this from happening, if they'll ever suddenly have a change of heart and come back for you (which is a dream you yearn for constantly), if you could exchange the unbearable pain in your heart now for all the memories of that person and forget they ever existed, because then at least you wouldn't be hurting now... hurting while they go about their lives and move on so easily without you. how could someone who claimed to love you more than anything and anyone do that...? those thoughts kept me up at night constantly, until one day, they didn't. one day, you'll be able to listen to a love song without that telltale aching in your heart. i promise.
Reading this made me sob like I had never done so before. A couple months ago I let go of a beautiful and intelligent girl because I was insecure. I felt like she needed someone who was worth her time. She was just to good for me. She was intelligent, open minded, courages, funny, and full of love. I felt like I just didn’t deserve her at all. So I made the biggest mistake of my life and said bye without telling her the real reason of why I let her go. I still think about her and cry over her. She was the first girl I ever truly fell in love with. I still love her but I just can’t bring myself to reach out.
Listening on August 31st, 20 more minutes and summer is over. Im really sad but in a good way, summer 2020 was one of the best things that happened in my life. Not only i met amazing new people, but created a lot of memories that i'll never forget. Of course i had my ups and downs, but im grateful that i got out of a deep depression and worked my way to the top- becoming a better person. Some days i still wanted to hide from the world, or myself, but im glad i didn't. I just wish that this summer would last forever, but the journey goes on, i hope there are more great things that come in fall, winter and maybe even the next year. So long sweet summer, you will be missed.
Saved this to my RUclips account 5 years ago. I decided to listen to this while I read my “East Of Eden” by John Steinbeck. And after five years I never read the bio. With the famous Steinbeck quote “What good is the warmth of summer, without the cold of the winter to give it sweetness”. I love this video even more now.
this comment section is so deep. so real. i want you guys to know that no matter who you are, you are beautiful. you are worthy of love. if you haven't met the one, you will. i promise. there is someone waiting for you out there, and they're thinking of you. they miss you. and when you meet and fall together, it will be absolutely glorious. if you're missing someone, know that they remember you, and life will go on. you will meet new people. and know that no matter what, you are loved. i love you. keep your head up. ❤️ i'm always here to talk.
keep on fighting it... one step at the time. in front of your house, at the end of your street, out of the city... talk to relatives, friends from relatives one step further everyday. Take your time and know that it feels so good to "return" to your safe place, not to "stay" at your safe place...
I feel you. Like the person above said, take little steps. I still have trouble with mine, but Its gotten much better because I had a friend who pushed me, and slowly but surely I began to push myself. I wish the same for you. You got this :)
ewnewmano like when I was in a swim team and every time at a meet I’d spiral into a panic attack. felt pretty pathetic. did i forget to add that most of the people on that swim team went to my school/ are in some of my classes?
this makes me wanna go back to when I was five, playing in the garden and sleeping on the grass on sunny mornings when the sky would start to get gold-ish and my brother and I would play tickle fights while hearing the birds singing in the background and my dog would run to play with me even tho she was a lot older than I was, she used to be full of energy, and she always took care of me, and since I didn't had that many friends she was the one I used to spent most of my time with. those were good days.
this album is... genuinely perfection. the album art evokes such a specific nostalgic feeling, remembering going home at sunset when the sun was too far down the horizon to reach the houses but still reflected in the cloud tops miles above while the street lights were just coming on. the music is so simple and wholesome, and fits both memories of the past and the process of making memories in the present day. and when you listen to it long enough, the music Itself ingrains itself in your past, and unlocks another level of nostalgia. i listened to this a lot the last two years in the summers, and last summer i basically had it on repeat as i packed my childhood room to move houses. it reminded me of playing around the neighborhood as a kid, and was a good soundtrack to saying farewell to the home where i grew up. now it's the end of the following summer, i am listening to it Again, and i'm nostalgic for those memories as well. basically, this album can only get better with age.
Time flies by. If you read this: don't wait to get "older" to do the things you dream of. Cause u know it doesn't feel the same when you're old... It's like everything has taken this grey shade, emotions are rare. Wathever you wanna do, I believe you are more than capable of it so... just go for it
Summer brings out long, hot afternoons and popsicles on the curb. Of looking up and cloud gazing at that blue expanse of sky. It was laying in front of the fan while clothes stick to your sweaty skin. God, she misses her. They haven't seen each other in weeks. Messages are constantly sent back and forth, when they're not busy tending to family errands of course. But it isn't really enough than seeing each other face to face. The miles between them stretching too far to even meet. She loves the summer days, of seeing her family and lounging in the dewy green grass in the yard. Playing with pet dogs and catching up with people in the neighborhood. It's her favourite season of the year. But as the days become shorter and the leaves begin to change, She couldn't help but have excitement running through her at the thought of seeing each other again. To see her smiling face dressed in that mandatory uniform, bringing out a shine that couldn't be replicated. Warmth etched in her very being that reflected sunny skies and watermelon slices. Her chest grows warm and her cheeks flush. Maybe one day, they'll spend a summer together.
i remember listening to this for the first time 2years ago. i was listening to my family talking shit about me while listening to this. i found this again and i cant believe its been 2years damn it reminds me how shitty the place im living in is
time moved slow back then. i listened to this a couple of years back and continued on listening to every couple months which then became years. This song gave me comfort. This wasn't only because of the music but the comment sections of people having similar experiences as us with that one certain time during our lives when we felt happy and free. I enjoyed scrolling through the comments while listening to this music, reading about people's experienced when it came to falling in love and falling out of love, having friends, losing friends, being happy and being sad. I hope everybody is doing okay
most of us were young when we listened to this song, 2018 was 4 years ago, alot of us who listened to this then were probably in middle school or highschool, this was when we felt the most emotions, when we felt the most free to do anything, back when we were surround with hundreds and hundreds of people our same age, where we made friends and fell for people and experienced new things and grew to be the person we are today. This was also when we felt the hardest pains, the most alone, the days when we just wanted to stay in our room and just listen to calming songs and not talk to anybody, the calm the peace.
I love the pretty things in life. From flowers to shinny rings and worn sweaters. to yellow pages books, pink skies with hints of blue and purple blending together in a chaotic harmony. and colorful socks, music that whispers and heals, white walls, paint splattered carelessly on jeans. I love it all. too bad I’m not a pretty thing that someone else could love.
There was a very nice quote in Anne with an E: You won't get kissed because you're beautiful, you'll get kissed because someone loves you. But then again, that can be read both ways I guess.
I get so fascinated and interested in the tiniest things, that's probably one of the characteristics I really like in myself, and I enjoy seeing them in others too
I think you’re beautiful for loving those beautiful things in life. I enjoy all of those things too, including cloud formations. I wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for these simple pleasures and when I see others enjoying them I think it’s just as wonderful. When you’re just soaking in the beauty of things and not worrying if you’re ugly or not is when you shine the most.
While last summer wasn't that great for me, this reminds me of the summers from when i was really little spent playing outside all day and that felt like they lasted forever. I'm turning 18 this september and I can't help but feel like my childhood has slowly slipped away from me.. I hope this summer is better..for all of us.
I'm just 14 and I miss being a kid and the fun stuff I used to do as a kid. And this song helps me remember those beautiful moments. Now I know how the real world is like.
nikkisus I feel exactly the same .. But it reminds me of my last four summers. The last was the worst because things were changed and nothing was the same ... I'm not the same ... it makes me sad. I am also 18 years old this summer and I feel as if all that I am and every memory of these summers that I have will disappear. Nothing will be more like before. And all I miss.
Sometimes when I get bored in summer I just am gratefull of these kind of song...It makes me get rid of my anxiety even tho...Its a daily thing to me..and all the songs that are like this...are just tearing apart all bad vibes...I dont wanna go back to school because of this...but sometimes you gotta...this is so cool it really has that summer vibe...
i come back to this video every summer, and i like to see my improvements from then and now by listening to this and every year i reflect the last as "last summer". I miss going to my brothers baseball games and swinging on the playground and eating sunflower seeds, watching the "big kids" climb to the top of the playground, watching the sun set and going for ice cream afterward. I miss early grade school when i had a minimum of 20 friends and life was so easy, I miss the milk cartons and school trays. I miss hugging my teachers on the last day of school and coming home to my mother who would always make dinner, Going to my grand parents to stay the night and then go to the museums and the gift shop, On my birthdays when i would blow out the candles and we'd eat cake, On Christmas when we'd help decorate the giant real tree, the family christmas party on xmas eve when we'd eat potato and pea soup, At school when we'd celebrate Halloween and i'd always go as bonnie from fnaf. I miss that. But now i have to let go and move on since in a few years i'll be a responsible young adult, going to college and finding true love, Maybe not a person, but a career to fulfill my childish dreams of being a artist, Or maybe working to help children. Just know that moving on doesn't have to be sad, and you don't have to forget those fuzzy childhood memories, and looking back at where i was now, and how i'll look back at this comment in a few years, The improvement and change will come as long as you willingly allow it, So dear 2027 me, If you're ever sad, or feeling hopeless, remember this comment on this wonderful lofi mix. I love you, so therefore you love yourself. -sincerely 2020 KB Edit: it’s now 2021, and it’s summer again. I’ve also improved and I’ve found myself a lover. We’ve been together for 5 months now and we’re on call with each other daily. I’m gonna update this comment every summer, or try to. As for my dreams and aspirations at the moment, I want to become a forensic scientist or a profiler. I wish the best summer for all of you who stumble upon my comment, and I hope I can update this sort of journal? I don’t know. But anyway, dear next summer me, how far have you come from me right now? How are you doing in school? Do you still have the love of your life? Do you look the way you want to look? Are you sober?
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You can find Spotify playlist for this mix, here : open.spotify.com/user/ew620nblrccykb09l6amo52ta/playlists
those birds chirping at the starting is the sound of me realizing that it’s like 4AM and i haven’t slept at all..
trivia_ luvs LMAOO
that photo of tae is so pretty:’)
bvbskook xbae i know 😭😭😭😭
Thats me right Now lol
welcome to the club haha :")
makes me feel nostalgic for a summer i never had
Same
Walking in the alley in the afternoon
But even the bad moments are nosatlgic moments...or not?
thats called saudade, the longing for something you can never have or the longing for something youve never had and dont know
You’ve never had a summer? lol
last summer i pan fried an egg and seasoned it with salt and pepper. it was good.
fujoshi girl you should try to do an omelette next
perhaps
😂😂😂😂😂😂
last summer i made perfect eggs and now i’m disappointed in myself because i know that level of chef will never emerge from me again
i can taste this comment. so good and yummy in my tummy
this hits different when this summer is going to be your last after school and coronavirus won't let you gather with your friends for the last time
😂😂😂
Are u a senior?
Must've been fun before the Coronavirus struck
I can see your struggles there :( I'm so thankful that it's my second year and I have next year to graduate. I hope you do get to see your classmates and have a proper goodbye
Not the boys 😂
_Getting nostalgic of memories I've never had_
Soo me lol
s a m e
Write "anemoia" in google search
same
in this big group of ppl in comment section
There always will be this one man who will be deep or just making memes
Thanks budd
How come every year has a different feeling when looking back at it like a different vibe that makes you miss it
Because we reflect on our past like chapters to a book
Its the best thing you ever feel in life...
Speak for yourself I just kind of live in a blur
@@TrangThu-hb9iy i used to too. once your out of it it becomes clearer, its just a matter of time. take care of yourself and it will become right
Pandas In Space thank you, I said that pretty lightly so I didn’t expect a reply like this. That was actually really sweet. I’m currently much happier, hope you’re doing great. ❤️
wow are u guys ok
I was wondering the same thing lol
No
*_h e l l n o_*
d o n t t h i n k a b o u t i t b r o
Absolutely 100%
*_N O T O K_*
hits different coming back here after more than 5 years 🥲
Yeah bring back memories...
Last summer was just a memory
This summer is reality
Next summer will be a dream
Zooer Thank you for this
Hang in there my dude.
Benjamín Fernández you're welcome :)
Память об озоне?
Big facts
Time is moving by so fast... I can't believe it's already 2019.. I feel like I'm still in 2011..
KiddKoalaz fuck same
I do feel like we're actually
going back though. It's like
we are repeating the
nostalgia but like this time
it's different. God knows I'm
not a scientist. But only us
though. everyone here.
Atleast the people who still
really misses it and
understands as much as i
like I do. or is it just only me
who is experiencing this
phonomninal?? but I have a
feeling that other people
who literally feels the same way
are coming with me
Wolfielover3874 I wish we were actually going back :(
I feel like it’s still summer 2012 when I discovered Lana Del Rey. Spending my entire summer vacation listening to her “Born to die” album. Didn’t know a thing about love, not much stuffs to worry about. Life was good. Now it’s not..
I‘m not scared of my future.
But i‘m kinda scared for the *future.* You know. Before the all crazy shit happens. I Love Living back in my nostalgia *past.* I feel safe in this timeline too and get to experience *Memories* all over again until I want to go back to the *present* again. We could be making new ones without knowing.
I cant remeber the last time my head was empty of all thoughts
Danikhani damn 💯
Helena Schneider thank you that was sweet
😞
I also can't
One of my favorite albums, cannot state how much I like it.
i feel like my loneliest days are in the summer; i don't see my friends from school, and i just stay in my room when summer break starts
I feel that
;;k _ In time, you will realize that these are the best days of your life. Once you start a full time job, you REALLY lose who you are.
Me too
Same here
go out and take a walk buddy!! by yourself!!! u can do it!!
The connection has been lost!
Thank you for playing Club Penguin.
*Waddle On!*
ACK 😫😭💞
The last thing I needed was a reason to cry😢😢😞😞
nothing in the comment section is making me cry
oh wait nevermind club penguin just did
NOOOOO
Club penguin 😢😰😢😰😢😰😭😭
But knowing one day there will be a last summer.
*Someday,* *but* *soon.*
well then we should make the last ones the best of our life. don't you think?
Yes from corona virus
Hilal Sena TÜRK ahhh
this is so ominous and it has so many likes im shajking
Omaygohd how do you---
I miss last summer sm. I left school, hung out with friends until late at night, went to places i never knew i would go to and live life to the fullest but now i hardly see my friends due to corona, i also thought this year was gonna be it but turns out id be stuck in a house for the whole summer.
Last summer, my sister and I were able to go to Florida and stay with my grandparents for awhile. It was the first time in a long while that we both felt completely healthy, cared for, and free. We had home-cooked meals, daily trips to the store, the gym, the pool, and the beach. Even when we didn't go out, days were still productive and exciting. It was amazing. I could get out of bed each morning without feeling afraid.
During one night of this trip, my grandma was preparing dinner, and I asked if I could go out for a walk.
Under normal circumstances, my guardian would say no. Walking outside in the nighttime is a ridiculous concept to my mother, and asking her would only anger her, even if I am fifteen. But my grandma said yes. She said I could walk on the sidewalk, but to take my phone with me, and be safe. It was more than I could ever ask for.
And the second I stepped outside of my grandparent's home, everything was beautiful. The air was warm and gentle, and because we were so far from densely populated cities, you could see all the stars and just a hint of the sun against the black sky, causing the world around me to look midnight blue. That color, paired with the warm yellow of the overhead streetlights, had me in awe. Even if it was an average Florida night, I was free. I could breathe the air and be on my own. I set off down the sidewalk.
It was such a symbolic moment of freedom, being able to go out on my own, happy and healthy, able to see a cat crossing the street and the seashells in the pavement of the road. I could hear myself breathe in the warm Florida air, and feel myself smile. It was a wonderful walk.
By the time I returned to my grandparent's home, I paused on the driveway, tipping my head back to look at the stars. The sun had completely set by now, and the midnight blue of the sky was cast into an inky black. I could see the big dipper, one of the only constellations I'd bothered to memorize, and I began to cry. Perhaps the overwhelming feelings of love and happiness was what made me so emotional... or perhaps it was the pain of remembering I had to go home.
I don't know when I'll get to see my grandparents again, to reside in that home full of happiness... that ideal lifestyle. But I am making do with what I have. It's just strange to remember that even a walk can bring tears to my eyes.
Handsome Jack, lovely.
i wish i can write like you that was beautiful
@Yuri Yurei Ahhh that's so sweet... thank you! I know you can absolutely write like AND better than me! Practice doing writing prompts, read as much as you can, and believe in yourself! Write from your heart. You'll be amazed by what you can produce
Florida memories are such a vibe for me to
Stay strong
The comment section of RUclips really is an incredible place.
I know that's a weird thing to say, because makes me seem like I spend every waking hour on RUclips, but that's not what I mean.
People pour their hearts and souls into comments here.
They talk about relationships and break-ups. They talk about drugs, alcohol, therapy, little memories that make them smile.
They rant about their parents or type a one-line poem about depression that sends in a wave of supportive replies.
We may be from other sides of the world, but in this section, we are all connected.
Maybe I'm going in too deep, or I'm just trying to make a simple app seem like heaven.
But it's just how I feel, and I like it.
Beautifully spoken.
As I was reading what u wrote I realized that u r right, and u totally didn’t go to deep. :)
Yes. We are the peoples that , for a reason or an other can’t be happy.. so we find a place to not feel alone, in a world who doesn’t pay attention to us.
I screenshotted this it's perfect
you're amazing
I realized how much I've been inside this summer compared to when I was a child and that realization made me sad. I wish I can go back to those days, when times were simpler, when I was naive to the world and before I realized how cruel the world can be.
i completely agree. i say, still try your best to live your life to the fullest now. when you’re an older person, or even in your last few years of life, you’ll be thinking about how much you miss the times of when you still had time. don’t be afraid to try new things and slowly step from your comfort zone, you won’t regret it.
That’s true, but also, the world can be a wonderful place full of good people and kind words.
shit this comment made me cry
Same!
ya but think about all the freedom you have now. like, for example, tom you could just pack ur bags, buy a plane ticket and backback all around rome. We only let responsibilities tie us down, they dont have to. If you have kids well then its stiil harder but doable ;)
i met my first love in summer 3 years ago. we used to study, chill, cook & hangout together while listening to lofi music. sadly, 7 months in our relationship he passed away. it pained me sm that i got depressed for almost a year. now, i can finally let him go. i will always cherish our memories together forever, mark
Yo this is so sweet, Im sry for your lost but Im happy you were able to find peace
🥺
I could feel how the sun used to burn my skin, how i laughed, ran, screamed on top of my lungs, fell down, and lived. Blurry, these memories where life was simple back then. Wishing that it would stay the same. There’s a regret hiding in the insides of me. I kind of regret growing up.
edit: its been 2 years ahahah
Just know that I'm gonna think about this comment for the rest of my life, thus I will be thinking about you the rest of my life. You'll never be forgotten and even a little thing as a comment can leave your impact, meaning you've already made a mark on the world. Godspeed, brother.
Same :)) welcome to life
Same here, and I'm only pushing 20. My parent always said to me "don't grow up, its a trap"
I guess we all do. By the way, you're name is my favourite book character's name (Will) maybe you're as awesome as him💙
Now you realize things too fast and see them too clear...
This is one of the best comment sections on youtube. Every time I read these comments, I feel so connected to all of you, even though we're all so far away from each other.
It would be nice if some of us could meet in a room and tell our stories, I guess.
Exactly. I have a theory that a lot of people around us irl feel similar sentiments. We just choose to keep them to our self and express them in hidden places like notebooks and recesses of youtube.
Raneem Iftekhar, wow, I always think about the same thing. Imagine if everyone had the courage to talk about their feelings and thoughts. Think about the many people who happen to share demons and emotions with you, and just choose to keep it for themselves. I think it’s an incredible thing to think about.
everyone is never far from each other. We are all humans. Do you see the connection? God made us all not to harm or do crime but to love each other, even if people hurt you, you shouldn't hurt them back. We are all brothers and sisters, since we are created by the same creator. Let the animals live like us dont hurt them. If you hurt animals
your only hurting god's creation. Do you see the connection? everyone is in a room called earth.
clock tick as we change. We can sometimes be kind or be mean. if you have depression dont be, you have a home right where your standing. Earth. I recommend you all to go outside, and scream on the top of your lungs say: LET THERE BE PEACE IN THIS WORLD FOR ONCE!
i need to spread this in the real comments so people can understand the definition of my name
I love how everyone has their stories to tell about their last summer and how the music fits so well. Seeing what last summer means to different people with such candid stories is something really lovely but slightly sad to read
It makes me sad to think about the fact that I never actually had a memorable summer that I can look back at and be like “damn I wish I could go back to those times”. Hopefully the summer of 2k20 will be a movie :(. I’ll update y’all even if I don’t get any likes.
"Hopefully the summer of 2k20 will be a movie"
yea bitch contagion.
Lvna Babyy i’m sorry love.
Lvna Babyy I’m sure 2020 will be a movie, but not the movie you wanted
me too bb, maybe next year tho
this comment did not age well
i have a message to all of you silly nuggets, this might get lost between the comments but i don't care.
Don't cry over spilled milk.
I do though. My precious milk. I just love milk too much. Sorry
I love you, merci.
It's sad because I'm vegan :(
Exerum x XDD
Exerum x 😅
isn’t it
breathtakingly beautiful
how you’ve learned
to grow flowers
from the memories
that died
a long time ago
shut the fuck up
new keynesianism
learn to lose
and
it will teach you how
winning works
shut the fuck up you product of late stage capitalist decay
new keynesianism 😘
I'm here listening to this, while it's 10 pm and I can see the purple sky outside my bedroom window how it slowly turns blue and it's just beautiful. I want to live in this moment forever.
Same here, even though it's 10:28 pm as I'm listening to this
Ah, I really like enjoying summer morning :')
Aďa Gri I’ve never seen the sky purple I wish I was there
scrolling through these comments made me realise that the internet is both an outlet of our problems, relieving us of that stress while also trapping us in a virtual prison of pressure
So true! It just depends on how you use it.
it’s currently 3am for me, and i’m just laying in bed thinking about the old summer days that i’ve had. i used to run around under the sun with my cousins and play hide and seek, or shoot each other with water guns. every single day was just a blast... but now we’re all much older than before and we have our own plans and things to do. i just miss those days where i had no worries and felt... happy and free. i want to have that feeling of an amazing summer once more, instead of moping around in my room blocking myself from the outside world.
so true
Jimin
Wow, I relate so much with what you've said
squishy park jimin i can relate so much rn
And be free from drugs
Last summer was my last high school summer break. I started my senior year great and ended it great. Over the years I realized how much I changed and everything else. Knowing which are my real friends and removing the toxic ones. I miss it already. I miss waking up early to get ready and go all out for spirit day. I’d love setting up decorations at 5am in school. The football games with my friends. Halloween. Hanging out in my cool teachers classroom really late with my friends just to hang out or watch videos. Working in the student store. Drama club. Rehearsals. I never wanted to go home during senior year because I didn’t want to leave my friends. I really enjoyed senior year so much. I have too many memories, and I’m glad I do. I pushed myself a lot this year to be more social so I can have a year to remember. I hope everyone can do the same.
Like I can’t believe this is it. I thought I’d be in high school forever. I don’t know I just couldn’t imagine life after high school and here I am. It is true. It goes by fast. And like everyone else already said please enjoy it. Make the best of it. It could be the best or worse days of your life, but it up to you.
It really goes fast. Thanks for sharing your story, I feel really sad, yet grateful now.
Man, everything really does have an end. All my friends are going to different schools and countries... I can't believe time flies this fast... Wish I could spend more time with them...
How can the feeling of nostalgia be captured so well in music?
Lydia T so true
Right
It feels like I am listening to a lost memory...
it's actually science
@@GamingSmithJohn explain or link me to that science plez
i discovered this album when i was 13, on the last day of summer before 8 grade started. i was listening to it on a plane, while traveling back home by myself for the first time. i remember seeing the sun set from above and i could see fireworks in different cities at the same time (this happened exactly when you can hear whats seems to be firework noises in joan of arc). this was surprisingly a turning point in my life. i listen to this album each last day of summer since that day, almost 3 years ago.
Going through some of the comments made me realize. Nobody is perfect we all go through a fair share of shit. Just be you man, just be you. That's all you've got.
Thank you and I hope you do too
Some great words, thanks so much for sharing this :)
this reminds of the time when anything and everything didn’t matter
no one really talks about how strong nostalgia is, like sadness or anger. thinking about amazing memories that are all in the past that'll probably never happen again, especially with the same person? and what if that person doesn't think about it as much as i do? crushes my heart. it makes me scared for the future, both knowing something as good might not happen again and that if it does that'll it'll eventually be put in the past, where it'll only be a memory. hurts even more when it's with a person you never talk to anymore.generations and generations of human life have put away memories on top of memories of loved ones and happy times and eventually time will put it all in the past. it kind of makes it all bittersweet. each human life has it's own regrets and memories of last summer.
wow i relate to this so much
its been 4 years, i still come back to this playlist ❤
me too
Same here 🥲
🙋🏻♂️
same 😍
this title is actually accurate. i listened to this all last summer (summer 2018) when my depression and insomnia were rough during summer school. i’d sit at 4am, the only light coming from my tv, which was playing this softly. it makes me so nostalgic because although i was struggling, life seemed so much simpler then.
not really but i'm getting by
thats exactly what im feeling too, maybe life would be seen as so easy for future me. maybe i dont have to overthink things. maybe i can just be happy. but i cant for some reason.
It's funny how when you are depressed, there are only few thoughts in your head making you feel bad or anxious, but when you are living life normally, your mind is filled with a million thoughts, weakening you by the second and getting you all stressed out and shit...
jellymarie i felt this
I feel alone and empty hearing this. It reminds of when I'd walk outside during the hot summer evenings as everything turned gold and the clouds loomed over the horizon. There was always that summer smell, musky and hot. There would be songs I'd loop for hours at a time during my walk. And it'd be the only time I'd leave the house during the summer. Whether for walking the dogs, getting alone time, just wanting to go down that forest trail again, I would be out at six every evening before dinner.
But then I stopped.
Where did it go?
StarriiArii I completely understand. Also, you havent lost it! Its right there! In your beautiful art, and sharp mind!
To your memories
missed my childhood summer where I only played the whole early morning till the early sunset. and then a day is nothing longer cause I'm with my childhood bestfriends. i remembered when we used to build our own tent and buy some snacks and we we're just insidd our tent talking, laughing and. even scaring ourselves to make it a thrilling experience. While now, all I have are those memories. and I can't turn it back anymore. so sad but all I can do is to live.
Why are tears falling down my phone?
Wow, your childhood seems like it was a lot of fun. All you can do is just revel in the memories
wowo i feel you, i had this before age of 8, i had to move on , i let my friends and i never had friends like this again ..
I miss that too. You know what I just realized though is that I have a lot of memories that I only recently made, that I’ll remember years later, and miss. Just over spring break, one of my best friends, my sister and I played at the park all day. We left the house at 10 or 11 AM and didn’t come back until sunset. We found some old scooter thing, tied it to my friend’s bike, and rode around with it all day. Best few days of spring break in my life, and it was simple. I didn’t go on any trips, or do anything fancy, we just had genuine fun. I’m going to miss that.
Same... But my friend moved into other place to live and that really hurts...
It’s been 5 years. I still come back to this playlist. I’m so emotionally drained…..but I have to keep pushing forward
Same here. This playlist brings me back to 4 years ago and I will never forget that summer.
@@Marcos-jr6ky Same, i've been listening this since 2018 were my life really changed significally
I remember summer 2015 when I would just run across the streets in my neighbourhood with my best friend. I remember summer 2016 when I would dance in the rain with my crush, which was lovely, though the rain drops were pretty cold. I remember summer 2017 when my life went totally downhill and I realized in my complete loneliness that the only person who could help me out that pit I fell in was me and only me. Now it's summer 2018 and I feel a strong feeling of numbness, I feel quite empty, not completely empty though, I feel like I'm kind of recovering from what was coming to me back in 2017. But now... 2018 is so silent, so quiet, I feel like I can do anything I put my mind to but at the same time I feel trapped. I miss feeling loved and I have so much love to give, but I feel like there's no one now who can make me feel loved, I need affection and it's so harsh for me. This summer has been so boring and I know that I should either wait or look for someone myself, but waiting for love can be so hard. Sorry for the long text, I just needed to chill out a bit and nostalgia hit me hard. Also, thanks for reading. Lots of love and peace, I hope you guys are having the best summer! 💕
August the 2nd, 2018
Same, what hapened to that best friend? :)
lazar lazic my boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend in 2015 so I had to leave them both
aww thats so horrible and sad ..... but it will get better these days for sure :*
lazar lazic thank you so much for the support and I hope you're right... how's your summer going though?
haha not so great but im optimistic that things must change pretty soon, thanks for asking
We’d divorced three years earlier and hadn’t seen each other since, but for whatever reason, I never took her off my emergency contact list at the nearest hospital. After my accident, I was put in a medically induced coma, and when I woke, she was the only person in the room. She sat in a hospital recliner, watching The View, looking unshowered. She turned her head casually as I slowly came to. “It’s just like you to have something like this happen,” she said. “I’m here, so I figure I’ll get us something to eat. What do you want?”
i miss the good old days of running around the street riding bikes with my friends. but as the years went on that worry free feeling of happiness just kept slowing fading away. now i’m about to graduate high school but i don’t feel excited or happy, all i feel is regret. i regret not living my teenage life to the fullest. if your reading this and you’re still young, please strive for any goal you have because if you do i can’t guarantee you will accomplish it, but i can guarantee you’ll regret not reaching for it.
may 22, 2019
thank you so much i think i should wait a little longer to see what life will bring me
Wow thank you
Came back here after 2 years... Really hits the feels
Wow, I was just going to use this as music to do my summer homework to, but I'm finding myself getting ready to cry. Do you ever have the feeling where each year gets progressively worse and you miss every single past year because it felt different? I'm probably just crazy and lonely, but this kind of music brings it out, haha
yep, i relate so bad... but i guess that's how we ended up here, our scars gave us a chance to bond and to listen to each other's sufferings...this is where the good part of all of this is. i hope everything turns out well for you, i really hope from the bottom of my heart.
aw, now you really have me crying
I'm sure there are people who love you, and even if your years get worse you have to try to make your life better and don't give up, you can rest whenever you feel tired of life but never give up 💓
thank you
This summer doesn't feel like summer. Summer is calm. No worries. No pressure. Right now this is all I feel, a pressing, heavy ticking. A clock running out of time. Ironic. It doesn't feel like I'll ever be able to relax. I have no boundaries, just the constant state of anxiety I wake up to everyday that goes on and on and gets worse every minute. I don't know which way to turn. I just feel like lying down and sleep..
me and you boo. ;^(
Same here. I think the reason why summer is so terrifying to me at least is I feel like I'm going to waste it being a husk of a person, passively consuming RUclips videos and getting nothing done. It's the little things that give me peace sometimes. A bike ride late at night, a profound conversation with a stranger, waking up before anyone and drinking coffee while watching the sun rise, lofi hip hop (lol), art, music. Cliche I know, but it makes me feel alive.
I feel
true af specially right now in my life
Here's what I got outta the video:
So you are outside with your friends playing hide and seek tag and whatnot, and the sun is slightly low, making the sky orange, while misquitoes are biting you and you are sweaty, but you don't care you just want to be with your friends. Then you get called inside for dinner, and you go inside, expecting tommorrow to be better and filled with fun.
oh my god you’re gonna make me cry
and the "tomorrow" never ckme back again
Pedro Henrique no, it did all summer, but everything feels like one day now
CharismaticKid I imagined a treehouse with swings and birds chirping.
this just made me realize that we all played with our neighborhood friends one last time and never even thought about it being our last day together. now we’re all grown, moved away, or in college. :/
years later, i'm still to find a lofi playlist that comes even close to the cozy feeling of summer this gets me into
Last summer...
Do you remember?
The birds chirping at sunrise
And the smell of freshly baked pies
When you kissed me to wake me
When you made me laugh when I was feeling blue
When you convinced me you would never hurt me
When you said...you loved me too..
It all kindly ended with that one little lie
Now, you've stopped kissing me
Now, you've stopped making me laugh
Now...you've changed
I am up at 4 AM
Overthinking and shaking at the thought of you
You never noticed how my heart is completely aching
And there I sat, heart crumbling
Always stumbling..
And now here I sit, looking at the vast ocean
Always afraid when my heart is in motion
Always wondering..
Of last summer...
So this is my first poem and it might be pretty weak but I tried. Thanks for reading if you did! :P
oof I like it! :D
We have the same usernames! Also, your poem is beautiful :3
Kinda was expecting it to end with “....oof.” But STILL GOOD
Wow thats amazing! I like poems myself and I really love this one! ( ˘ ³˘)❤
This is perfect for a song.
last summer i met a boy named adam. we liked each other at first sight, and i admitted it straight away. we dated, but since he was depressed and had insomnia, it was hard for us to stay together. i tried to help him cope with the visions and voices, andd when it didn't seem to work, i gave up. a few months later after i went home across the state, i heard he met the girl of his dreams. i felt happy for him, as he wasn't depressed anymore, but.. i missed him, and felt a little jealous. i still miss him today and when it's summer, i think about him and the time we spent together. i miss you adam. i know you don't understand why, but you will someday. i love you.
._.
Victor Nikiforov it's okay God has better for you
@@Tarps07 i guess a little kid like you doesnt understand vulnerability. you can "._." all you want, but dont try to pull that here.
calm down mate dont know why you are triggred
U made me cry :(
Listening to this while reading manga and drinking a jug of milk, maybe being alone isn't so bad after all. For anyone seeing this, hope you're doing well, I wish y'all the best!
And if you're not, don't you worry, things will get better, they always get better, just do the things you love doing, pick up a new hobby, something like that.
love you all
Hope you're well too Foster. Listening to this actually makes my own company more enjoyable.
Van Naruse not really, stuff has been stressful and pretty lonely, but hey i got *milk*
"despacito"
malkiness hell yeah
malkiness despacito 7
I remember adding this to a playlist four years ago, I was in a pretty dark mental place at the time, but a lot of time has since passed and I am happy to say I’m much better, listening to this four years ago would usually make me sad, but now it’s given me a feeling of happiness and nostalgia oddly enough, anyways, hoping this summer is fun! Have a good day! To whoever read all this shit
good for you. growth is smiling at things that would've made you cry before. hope you're doing well :)
I miss my friends and our memories together. The slightest bit of thing that reminds me of them brings me back into that classroom that we all stayed. I remember walking to class and seeing somebody there first. They would comment on how I look that day and we would just laugh. All of us would, sometimes, gather around and just talk about the past. It was great. I don't want us to part ways but this is it. This is how life works. We have to move on.
This might be my loneliest summer yet.
a word of warning and wisdom to those who feel lost and helpless around this time, especially with exams and school ending:
you will find your way. there is nothing more powerful in your life, nothing more perfect, and nothing more inspiring than you. you are valid, no matter your colors or views. you are beautiful, and you should be respected for staying true to yourself, no matter what. good luck to you, you incredible being. when you feel unworthy of the challenges set in front of you, remember that you are the judge and jury of your own life. you will overcome, and you will overcome with colors brighter than anyone has ever witnessed. remember the universal language of music when you struggle. you will find your way, but let the sounds of your heart guide you to your home.
I'm going to send this to my friend right now because she seriously needs it. Thank you for that comment.
Thank yoouuuu!!!! I'm currently at Law School summer program and I have felt super overwhelmed since I got here but I know it will get better. I really needed this."
💕💕
zaxx // Have you been through a lot.?
I will remember your smile in those warm summer evenings, we didn't even speak the same language, but our connection was deeper than that. I'll miss you.
awe
I dated someone from another country last summer. some of the best days of my life. I knew it wouldn't last, our conversations were screened by google translate before the other saw. but I loved him anyway.
This made me curious...
Listening to this, i cant help but thinking about a beautiful period of my life. It was summer 2019, i went to summer camp with my friends, it was like a movie. We snuck out, going to malls, going to the arcade, drinking boba at 1 in the morning. Those days were beautiful.
Here's the poem at the end in epilogue / it spoke so deeply to me that I had to write it down because I couldn't find it written anywhere
You were a summer thunderstorm
drop of golden sunshine days
Your rain and light shows made me dance in ways I never have before
Oh how glorious it was
It wasn’t until you left when
I looked at the fires burning at my wildflowers
That I understood that you were not the right storm for me
Although
(Your rain did not quench my thirst
Oh how I danced
Swaying and leaping in new ways I never thought possible
Drenched with my eyes and arms turned towards the sky
I beg for more of the lightshow and bone shaking beat that were distracting
Me from the fires scorching my already parched wildflowers
It wasn’t until you left with me chasing after you
That I finally looked around and found the depth of your destruction
And there I sat, soaked to the bone
Smouldering field of wildflowers, trying to water the earth
And bring them back to life with my tears that were locked somewhere deep within me
As my wildflowers started to wilt, I looked around again
And I realized that I was utterly alone
So I took my flowers in my arms
But as I touched them, they crumpled and turned brown, disappearing the more I try to hold onto them
Desperation I finally plucked them
Roots and all, I could no longer hold them
you a goat
dang you beat me to it :/
Zenith haha capricorn reference
my interpretation:
storm = hot lustful sex wildflowers = virginity
wilted wildflowers = broken virginity (she can't fix them anymore just like how u cant ever get ur virginity back once it's lost)
Zenith goats are satanic
to everyone out there reading this right now, you are so much stronger than you know of. just being on this earth right now means so much. it means that despite your downs, you still are here. you are amazing, you are beautiful, don't let anything or anyone make you feel otherwise, especially yourself. you are here for a reason. everything happens for a reason, and your downs only make you stronger and stronger. it breaks my heart that so many people don't see how frikin AMAZING you are! when you think you're unloved, remember there are SO SO many people who love you deeply and care about you so so much. never ever doubt yourself or beat urself up about the past. Never blame yourself, everything happens for a reason. YOU ARE ENOUGH. you've always been enough, that's why you are here. To everyone in pain who gets up and has breakfast, and goes to school/work, you are so frikin strong. and to EVERYONE who cant get out of bed, you are still so frikin strong. remember, being here right now, and living in the moment is enough. its okay not to be okay. everything happens in good time and takes a while to overcome obstacles and heal. let time lead you to new experiences and adventures. when you realize you are a beautiful strong being, you become even more beautiful and strong. when you set your mind to believe in yourself and never give up, it becomes a reality. you are never alone. when you feel like you're in the pit of despair, the only way to go from there is up. my heart goes out to everyone out there.
thank you
You make me cry, thank you for your words. My English is no good sorry :c
i needed that, thank you allison
Thank you i really need that, you are so kind, thank you! 💖
Thank you
A couple of weeks ago i was in such a dark state, i had major anxiety and depression and i still do. I felt hopeless, i felt as if i had no one to turn to, i felt i was useless to everyone and everything. Since nobody wanted me or needed me and since i was utterly useless to everyone, i planned to commit suicide one night. When that night came, i was breaking down crying on my bathroom floor with razor blades and pill bottles at 4 in the morning hoping i would never see the light of day again. As i was about to start the process of suicide, my playlist of sad music ended on youtube and this video came on from the suggestions. As soon as this came on, i had "flashbacks" of all the wonderful times ive had with my boyfriend, my friends, and my family. I sat in the bathroom for 2 more hours listening to this on repeat and thinking about all the amazing people i have in my life that i didnt recognise before. Im still depressed and anxious but im alive. When you hear me say "music saved my life" i really mean it did. This video, this music saved my life.
Since this is the internet there's no guarantee that this happened but if it did, Just remember... It doesn't get better. You get stronger. If it's all true I really recommend you get some help. I don't care who you are, but it's completely unreasonable to say that no one care's about you. I hope you're feeling a bit better now. Please get some help.
Calebcze i am getting help and going to therapy now, and im doing a bit better; thank you for your concern
i dont even know you but i really hope you're okay!!!! stay strong, sending lots of love~
Never give up of your life. One day u will remember this day and how u got strong since
Life is precious so keep living it! I know how you feel, I truly do but giving up is not the way to go. You have to push back and say no. I wish you the best and remember, you’re not alone.
When I first started listening to this more than a year ago i thought to myself "I wished I had summer nostalgia."
But a year later, I realized that during the period where I was constantly listening to this was outside during summer break, on walks and runs with my sister. So in a way, this lofi video and background really built it's own nostalgia on my life
Listening to this while in my dorm, peering out the tiny windows that displayed the rosy gold horizon that I so loved to watch fade into temporary blues and blacks of an ethereal night and holding on to the panging feeling of homesickness in my veins, hoping someday to return back to the past.
You're you. You're you and that's fucking beautiful. Life sucks, man. But sometimes you just have to reach for the glimmer of hope within your life that you don't care enough to notice. Sometimes life will drag you down over and over until you feel blank and meaningless. But guess what? There's always a sunrise. Sometimes you just have to climb through the layer of dark and gloomy clouds you've built around yourself and look at the twinkling stars that were there the whole time.
thanks, Vector
I feel like writing this comment on my notebook, on my wall, on my sketchbooks... this made my heart feel so warm and happy. Thank you so much.
Always cherish those people who come into your life, and you find out that they love you for you. Because damn, don't take the littlest things for granted.. because they won't come back all the time. Like how you want them too.
please please please never delete this.
you don't know how often I come here
@@a-ren3780 same bruh
I'm literally searching in the comments the comments i saw last time.
Those clouds reminded me of that summer I spent in my grandma´s house in China. She always woke up earlier than the rest, and went downstairs to buy breakfast. In the afternoon, my mom, aunt and me would go shopping and before going back to grandma´s we would make a stop and buy the groceries for dinner. I was seventeen and while I was waiting for my mom and aunt, I saw the most beautiful clouds between a pair of tall buildings, it was unfortunate I didn´t had a cellphone or camera with me in that moment, but I still remember it clearly.
Last summer. i found my love.
today i asked her about our future, she said yes to my propose
im happy for u
Congrats :')
I'm happy for you😋😊❤
Thank you all! Never tought that my comment get noticed, thanks for your kind words!
Congrats
At the time we don't truly value how special some moments and days mean to us. Only when we look back in the past do we cherish and savor those moments that you wish can last forever. Every moment is the most important moment. I only wish I can re-live those days when the only care in the world seemed so trivial. Nostalgia is my best friend, but also my worst enemy.
I feel like people often don't talk about how nostalgia affects you and how sad it can feel for me I kinda feel like it would be amazing to go back with some memories and others I'm glad I'm in the present time but what can you do, really 🙃
sometimes it feels good alone, being lost in your own thoughts, you temporarily leave this world and listen to your mind's voice. It's peaceful in there.
I'm glad i didn't end it all... I was so young and in so much pain, I was able to grow up and experience so many things, I had a chance to live and it was so worth it. Things aren't perfect now, and my depression isn't gone but I'm so happy it didn't end in my middle school bathroom. My life is precious and I'm so glad I lived long enough to understand that.
i am so, so happy that you now see the simple fact that your life is precious. thank you. i'm always here to talk.
Can't wait until my brain can get to that point more often
i'm glad you came to this conclusion. for some people, it'd take them forever to get to the point of being thankful for simply existing. wishing good luck to everyone who's struggling.
Last summer felt bittersweet and disappointing. My grandma got sick for two months so me and mom looked after her. I was exhausted. But also I've seen my art school talanted friend a few times. He asked me to hang out together and I was fucking happy because I truly liked him, but i didn't know it yet. I started to realize it when he left for college.
i've met that guy in autumn 2016. i'm taking art classes in the art school and usually i stay late after practice... so i remember on a fall day he walked in my classroom before his class and talked to me. when he was on the way out of my class he always said "well, i won't distract you. talk to you later". i didn't even notice initially what he looked like because i was busy with my still lifes and had my back to him. talking was never enough, i waited for him to come every time. we talked until the summer came.
he has blue eyes and light brown hair and he's really good at art.
in june 2017 he approched me at the regular summer plain air when everyone left and... said nothing
i was silent too
few weeks passed. my gmother got sick and i went to the grocery by bike. I saw him as I was riding down the alley right opposite our art school. i said hello and went past, but it clicked in my mind and i returned. he asked me for my phone number and invited me for a walk to paint together
i can't discribe my feelings at that moment, is it happiness? but i didn't even like him as a boyfriend, i never thought about him in this way. it was the first time someone noticed me. someone i like noticed me, gosh
we took a walk three times. i can tell it was the best thing that ever happened to me. we walked around our boardwalk, and lakes, and dam. we stood at the dam when the sun sets in silence.
we were at the plain air together, painting sunset. when i dropped my watercolours box he helped me to pick it up. some colours drowned in the lake through haha...
i was at his place. he showed me all of his paintings. he knocked over a vase with flowers (can't describe the smell, it's been standing there for a month haha). he offered me a book to read but i refused... fuck, i don't know why. i should've take it
so, he went to the college in another town. since that time we've met twice and i didn't have a chance to talk to him again
he never calls. he didn't say he has a social web account. but he has
i called him once, i was nervous because didn't want to impose, asked when he'll return for a weekend. he responded and we said like, goodbye.
i feel like he's dissapointed in me.
now i see photos with some girl on his fb page and feel nothing at all
i don't know. i can't say i love him but i want him back
i go to the lakes really often. i sit at a bench and look out at the river. creep around the place. and i dream of the day when i'll look back and see him.
Now I can say I forgot him. I'll never cry about it again. I think I see through him.
Thank you for those three walks dude, it was the best thing i ever had until now.
wow, this sounds like it came from a novel. Don’t worry, everything will work out in the end. It seems very likely that you’ll see him again, cant explain why
oh thanks. he was replaced by other guy and i'm not whining about anything now. but i don't mind seeing him again (i was worried i made grammar mistakes because i'm not a native speaker but i hope no one cares)
Hiendar Inenkoray that's good to hear, this new guy could be better for you. plus, your grammar is a-ok
um, thank you
This is like a sad romance novel :o
I always find myself coming back to this playlist. Its so timeless and captures a feeling of rest and lack of responsibilities I yearn for, and miss so very much.
anyone else watching this in quarantine missing last summer?😭
Last summer, I was diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety and panic disorder. I tried to fight my way through it, I fought really really hard, the healing is slow and the times of difficulty always seem to crawl back even today. But I don't want to live like this forever so even though I'm so afraid I'm doing my best to help myself.
This summer I feel strong and hopeful.
amghali achumi you’re amazing
This reminded me of so many small moments in my life. It’s amazing that music can capture you and bring you back like that. Staring into the eyes of someone you love. Looking through the sky. Spending time alone. Just taking time in life to stop and just listen. I should stop now. Just wanted to express my feelings. :)
this is why music is so beautiful, why I love music so much 👌, have a nice day
So did we all collectively listen to this every day in high school? Ok. Love to u all
Yes ma’am got me through my struggles sort of
Last summer I parted ways with my close friends to find our own different paths and future and said each other last goodbyes for the last time. Even though we spent hours together it only felt like a milliseconds before we all hugged our last hug and turn our back to eachother. Wishing each other to reach their hopes and dreams and find happiness in the things they do until together; we are old grandma's and grandpa's.
Tatsuya Koyuki so you guys are old now?
Not that old, but still we kinda are i guess
Used to listen to this back in 2018 when im studying my ass off Till its 4 am . Now its 2020, no difference except not in high school anymore , first year in uni . This lofi does wonders to me
it’s so cool that it’s continually helped support you all these years good luck with uni 🙌🏼✨
notroe awww thank you sweetheart ☀️
Good luck! Hope it pays off. I’m currently in freshman year with all honors classes and I’m hoping it pays off aswell.
I can't even explain how this picture combine with the music works on my emotions... I feel completely suspended in time and space. It perfectly gives that vibe of lazy, thick air summer with nothing to do and hours to waste on daydreaming.
Ive been listening to this on spotify but its good to see that the comments are still lovely even after 5 years. First time i was here i almost offed myself but hey im still here 5 years later.
we still here after all
Same. So sad. Just happened to think about this lofi and tried to find in RUclips to no avail. Scrolling back phone screenshots up until 2019 to finally found screenshot of this video playing on phone music player. And now I'm here
I used to hang with 2 special ppl now we are all strangers all alone again being sad again isn't it life wondeful?
i never EVER reply or comment anywhere on youtube but
same shit happened to me in the past dude i know how it hurts
feel better soon! theres always more ppl to come
lonely god The only thing that hurts about it are the memories you gained with them
You look back at all you've done together
its shit !
thats so true
if u hung urself doesn't it mean ur dead?
People say they wish they knew they were in the good old moments before they left them..
And I'm here thinking that .. I'm in those good old moments.. really really young .. with all of my family and friends .. haven't lost a person!
I'm so grateful that they are there by my side ❤ wish I'd never lose them and I never wish loss upon anyone ..
So hey, person reading this .. even if you have lost someone you care about .. you still have people left around you.. you love 'em and they love you .. take care of them ..
Stare at there faces long enough .. listen to them .. tell them you love them before you're no longer able to ..
I'm No One please hug them and let them know how special they are. i lost my grandpa and the biggest mistake of my life is not saying i love you loud enough last time i saw him. i miss him everyday.
“I wish there was a way to know you were in the good old days, before you left them.”
ah man good old times when you didnt have to worry about anything. I miss ittt
wow this is 4 years old? life has flown by!
Last Summer, Hm long time ago I remember very clear.
First thing I remember is I was happy.
Running around, all happy, doing things I love. My family around me like a guard, so I personally don’t do anything stupid. Then I went home, back to the US. So school started and school ended. This summer I....
Am shatter In million pieces I can NEVER pick back up.
Thank you If you read this, You are loved. 🖤
Autumn Sun Thank you so much ❤️
hey, this is to you my love, but i cant tell you this directly because im not strong enough.. so i just have to write it out here and imagine your reaction on my own.. you were the most beautiful thing i have ever, ever felt. truly, you made last year the best year of my life. you honestly made me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world sometimes.. and honestly every moment with you felt so exhilarating and full of life. our time together was such a blessing.. and im so happy you shared so many memories with me. you were my first for so many things, and im honored i was many of your firsts as well. but, of course the heaven on earth we lived had to come to an end.. thats just the way life goes. i am so sorry, from the bottom of my heart that i wasnt what you were looking for. you fell out of love.. and i cant change your feelings. i love you enough to accept your change of heart.. no matter how badly i want you for myself. baby im sorry for being selfish and lashing out and crying out to you why you felt the change in your heart. i shouldnt push what you dont want.. i just want you to be happy. i really did think my love for you was something special, but its okay. it really is fine.. for your happiness and freedom from having to keep your true feelings from hurting me.. it truly is worth crying on my knees at 2 am. it hurts, it really does hurt. its the kind of pain that spreads to your chest, down to your stomach, and throughout your arms and legs. my eyes sting from draining my body of tears.. but im glad youre happier now. next time, once you meet the girl of your dreams, please please promise me that you wont promise her that youll love her always, that you cant wait to spend your life with her unless you truly truly mean it.. please mean whole heartedly what you say to people you love, because words with that much power can really strike someone in their heart.. like you did to mine. i told myself everyday how incredible our lives would be together once we move out of this little town. i told myself that the pain of home life was worth it, anything was worth the wait to be with you. ill always love you.. always.
hey, i just want you to know that everything will be alright in time. i've been there, and i know full well just how it feels when the special person who was yours, and who you belonged to, suddenly isn't yours anymore... everything feels WRONG and out of place and you wonder about all the what-if's-- what you could have done to have prevented this from happening, if they'll ever suddenly have a change of heart and come back for you (which is a dream you yearn for constantly), if you could exchange the unbearable pain in your heart now for all the memories of that person and forget they ever existed, because then at least you wouldn't be hurting now... hurting while they go about their lives and move on so easily without you. how could someone who claimed to love you more than anything and anyone do that...?
those thoughts kept me up at night constantly, until one day, they didn't. one day, you'll be able to listen to a love song without that telltale aching in your heart. i promise.
thank you so much for this.. truly thank you
Reading this made me sob like I had never done so before. A couple months ago I let go of a beautiful and intelligent girl because I was insecure. I felt like she needed someone who was worth her time. She was just to good for me. She was intelligent, open minded, courages, funny, and full of love. I felt like I just didn’t deserve her at all. So I made the biggest mistake of my life and said bye without telling her the real reason of why I let her go. I still think about her and cry over her. She was the first girl I ever truly fell in love with. I still love her but I just can’t bring myself to reach out.
Listening on August 31st, 20 more minutes and summer is over. Im really sad but in a good way, summer 2020 was one of the best things that happened in my life. Not only i met amazing new people, but created a lot of memories that i'll never forget. Of course i had my ups and downs, but im grateful that i got out of a deep depression and worked my way to the top- becoming a better person. Some days i still wanted to hide from the world, or myself, but im glad i didn't. I just wish that this summer would last forever, but the journey goes on, i hope there are more great things that come in fall, winter and maybe even the next year. So long sweet summer, you will be missed.
I don’t know you but I’m very proud of you and all you have accomplished:)
@@dezi_esc Thank you:)))
i love that for you, keep this attitude!
Ahhhh! So beautifully written, you go girl!
@@hudajavaid7848 I'll try my best haha!
Saved this to my RUclips account 5 years ago. I decided to listen to this while I read my “East Of Eden” by John Steinbeck.
And after five years I never read the bio. With the famous Steinbeck quote “What good is the warmth of summer, without the cold of the winter to give it sweetness”.
I love this video even more now.
this comment section is so deep. so real.
i want you guys to know that no matter who you are, you are beautiful. you are worthy of love.
if you haven't met the one, you will. i promise. there is someone waiting for you out there, and they're thinking of you. they miss you. and when you meet and fall together, it will be absolutely glorious.
if you're missing someone, know that they remember you, and life will go on. you will meet new people. and know that no matter what, you are loved. i love you.
keep your head up. ❤️ i'm always here to talk.
of course ! love from the us x
That’s a really beautiful comment, thanks for being an awesome person :)
Waiting for that person... its so hard
i know this was from five months ago.... but i really needed this. thank you
there's this thing called anxiety...and if I never had it, I would've had many unforgettable summers
keep on fighting it... one step at the time. in front of your house, at the end of your street, out of the city... talk to relatives, friends from relatives one step further everyday. Take your time and know that it feels so good to "return" to your safe place, not to "stay" at your safe place...
I feel you. Like the person above said, take little steps. I still have trouble with mine, but Its gotten much better because I had a friend who pushed me, and slowly but surely I began to push myself. I wish the same for you. You got this :)
I feel the same exact way
ewnewmano like when I was in a swim team and every time at a meet I’d spiral into a panic attack. felt pretty pathetic. did i forget to add that most of the people on that swim team went to my school/ are in some of my classes?
I feel the same way
this makes me wanna go back to when I was five, playing in the garden and sleeping on the grass on sunny mornings when the sky would start to get gold-ish and my brother and I would play tickle fights while hearing the birds singing in the background and my dog would run to play with me even tho she was a lot older than I was, she used to be full of energy, and she always took care of me, and since I didn't had that many friends she was the one I used to spent most of my time with.
those were good days.
this album is... genuinely perfection. the album art evokes such a specific nostalgic feeling, remembering going home at sunset when the sun was too far down the horizon to reach the houses but still reflected in the cloud tops miles above while the street lights were just coming on. the music is so simple and wholesome, and fits both memories of the past and the process of making memories in the present day. and when you listen to it long enough, the music Itself ingrains itself in your past, and unlocks another level of nostalgia.
i listened to this a lot the last two years in the summers, and last summer i basically had it on repeat as i packed my childhood room to move houses. it reminded me of playing around the neighborhood as a kid, and was a good soundtrack to saying farewell to the home where i grew up. now it's the end of the following summer, i am listening to it Again, and i'm nostalgic for those memories as well.
basically, this album can only get better with age.
This comment had me in tears...
Time flies by. If you read this: don't wait to get "older" to do the things you dream of.
Cause u know it doesn't feel the same when you're old... It's like everything has taken this grey shade, emotions are rare. Wathever you wanna do, I believe you are more than capable of it so... just go for it
Summer brings out long, hot afternoons and popsicles on the curb. Of looking up and cloud gazing at that blue expanse of sky. It was laying in front of the fan while clothes stick to your sweaty skin.
God, she misses her.
They haven't seen each other in weeks. Messages are constantly sent back and forth, when they're not busy tending to family errands of course. But it isn't really enough than seeing each other face to face. The miles between them stretching too far to even meet.
She loves the summer days, of seeing her family and lounging in the dewy green grass in the yard. Playing with pet dogs and catching up with people in the neighborhood. It's her favourite season of the year.
But as the days become shorter and the leaves begin to change, She couldn't help but have excitement running through her at the thought of seeing each other again. To see her smiling face dressed in that mandatory uniform, bringing out a shine that couldn't be replicated. Warmth etched in her very being that reflected sunny skies and watermelon slices.
Her chest grows warm and her cheeks flush. Maybe one day, they'll spend a summer together.
i remember listening to this for the first time 2years ago. i was listening to my family talking shit about me while listening to this.
i found this again and i cant believe its been 2years damn it reminds me how shitty the place im living in is
I hope you get out of there one day and pursue your dreams :) sending you a virtual hug
@@alanacoenen9706 thank u i really appreciate it
time moved slow back then. i listened to this a couple of years back and continued on listening to every couple months which then became years. This song gave me comfort. This wasn't only because of the music but the comment sections of people having similar experiences as us with that one certain time during our lives when we felt happy and free. I enjoyed scrolling through the comments while listening to this music, reading about people's experienced when it came to falling in love and falling out of love, having friends, losing friends, being happy and being sad. I hope everybody is doing okay
most of us were young when we listened to this song, 2018 was 4 years ago, alot of us who listened to this then were probably in middle school or highschool, this was when we felt the most emotions, when we felt the most free to do anything, back when we were surround with hundreds and hundreds of people our same age, where we made friends and fell for people and experienced new things and grew to be the person we are today.
This was also when we felt the hardest pains, the most alone, the days when we just wanted to stay in our room and just listen to calming songs and not talk to anybody, the calm the peace.
I love the pretty things in life.
From flowers to shinny rings and worn sweaters.
to yellow pages books, pink skies with hints of blue and purple blending together in a chaotic harmony.
and colorful socks, music that whispers and heals, white walls, paint splattered carelessly on jeans.
I love it all.
too bad I’m not a pretty thing that someone else could love.
same
I keep being fascinated by beautiful cloud formations, but whenever I show them to people, they don't seem to be as amazed as I am. Weird..
I'm too ugly to love
There was a very nice quote in Anne with an E:
You won't get kissed because you're beautiful, you'll get kissed because someone loves you.
But then again, that can be read both ways I guess.
I get so fascinated and interested in the tiniest things, that's probably one of the characteristics I really like in myself, and I enjoy seeing them in others too
I think you’re beautiful for loving those beautiful things in life. I enjoy all of those things too, including cloud formations. I wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for these simple pleasures and when I see others enjoying them I think it’s just as wonderful. When you’re just soaking in the beauty of things and not worrying if you’re ugly or not is when you shine the most.
While last summer wasn't that great for me, this reminds me of the summers from when i was really little spent playing outside all day and that felt like they lasted forever. I'm turning 18 this september and I can't help but feel like my childhood has slowly slipped away from me.. I hope this summer is better..for all of us.
nikkisus Me too!
I'm just 14 and I miss being a kid and the fun stuff I used to do as a kid. And this song helps me remember those beautiful moments. Now I know how the real world is like.
I'm turning 18 this summer and goin to uni. Life was good😂
You are an innocent 18 year old, the whole life is in front of you. Childhood extends for as far as you are willing to remain childlike.
nikkisus
I feel exactly the same ..
But it reminds me of my last four summers. The last was the worst because things were changed and nothing was the same ... I'm not the same ... it makes me sad.
I am also 18 years old this summer and I feel as if all that I am and every memory of these summers that I have will disappear.
Nothing will be more like before. And all I miss.
Sometimes when I get bored in summer I just am gratefull of these kind of song...It makes me get rid of my anxiety even tho...Its a daily thing to me..and all the songs that are like this...are just tearing apart all bad vibes...I dont wanna go back to school because of this...but sometimes you gotta...this is so cool it really has that summer vibe...
i come back to this video every summer, and i like to see my improvements from then and now by listening to this and every year i reflect the last as "last summer". I miss going to my brothers baseball games and swinging on the playground and eating sunflower seeds, watching the "big kids" climb to the top of the playground, watching the sun set and going for ice cream afterward. I miss early grade school when i had a minimum of 20 friends and life was so easy, I miss the milk cartons and school trays. I miss hugging my teachers on the last day of school and coming home to my mother who would always make dinner, Going to my grand parents to stay the night and then go to the museums and the gift shop, On my birthdays when i would blow out the candles and we'd eat cake, On Christmas when we'd help decorate the giant real tree, the family christmas party on xmas eve when we'd eat potato and pea soup, At school when we'd celebrate Halloween and i'd always go as bonnie from fnaf.
I miss that. But now i have to let go and move on since in a few years i'll be a responsible young adult, going to college and finding true love, Maybe not a person, but a career to fulfill my childish dreams of being a artist, Or maybe working to help children. Just know that moving on doesn't have to be sad, and you don't have to forget those fuzzy childhood memories, and looking back at where i was now, and how i'll look back at this comment in a few years, The improvement and change will come as long as you willingly allow it, So dear 2027 me, If you're ever sad, or feeling hopeless, remember this comment on this wonderful lofi mix. I love you, so therefore you love yourself. -sincerely 2020 KB
Edit: it’s now 2021, and it’s summer again. I’ve also improved and I’ve found myself a lover. We’ve been together for 5 months now and we’re on call with each other daily. I’m gonna update this comment every summer, or try to.
As for my dreams and aspirations at the moment, I want to become a forensic scientist or a profiler. I wish the best summer for all of you who stumble upon my comment, and I hope I can update this sort of journal? I don’t know. But anyway, dear next summer me, how far have you come from me right now? How are you doing in school? Do you still have the love of your life? Do you look the way you want to look? Are you sober?