I’ve literally been doing compulsions for two days straight and I’m so tired I’m laying down in bed trying to sleep but I can’t because the intrusive thoughts are still there. Idk what I feel anymore and you’re right, this is an exhausting illness.
I have been stuck on a loophole of 2 months now with a thought that got so debilitating. By debilitating, I mean DEBILITATING. Lost interest for things and found myself in a really dark place. I have been feeling better now, but I realize that I often go back to the thought to try and check that's "for sure" what I don't want. And it has made me feel confused because the thought I am fixated, is not even a bad thought at all. It's a good thing, but not something I want to do ("Do you really NOT wanna do that?" -my brain right now lol). Recently I have been thinking about the points you talk about here: "do i really want that?" "I must want it so bad if I continue thinking about it." "Well, you just thought about it and it made you feel a certain way." "You don't even feel interest in the things you like to do." are some of the things that I think. I started to wonder whether that is even part of OCD, and after watching this, I do feel a bit better.
I have sexual intrusive thoughts as well as some much worse. I call them “IT”. Occasionally I can have a break from IT for a couple weeks, up to a couple months. I also have mild autism, which doesn’t help. IT can be debilitating. Often, not an outwardly noticeable effect, but IT hit. IT fracture reality. IT can make you think dark thoughts that can worry you about yourself. Yes IT can be rough.
This is one of yout most brillant videos Chrissie, unbelievable. If have a huge admiration for you, i hope one day i can help people like you in my country,
This video gave me so much relief. I think I have HOCD and I’ve had INTENSE ocd and doubts and compulsions 24/7 for a few weeks to the point I would break down crying because I’m in a long term relationship with a man I love, and now it feels like I’m starting to like the intrusive thoughts
Yeah I’m exactly in that same place. But then they disappear when I stop thinking about it because I got distracted or had to pay attention to something else. Thus makes me realise that perhaps is the illusion of OCD
The most devestating part of pure o is that you can be in the best mood ever appreciating all the great things in your life then you yourself conjure up these thoughts that have hooked you hoping that you can just think of them and feel good and go on with your day but instead it bums you out totally and your like WTF it's an endless cycle .,. You are the only one who understands this Chrissy I think it's a form of checking always checking wether the thoughts still bother you
You’ve saved my life so many times, with your videos. Thank you for everything you do for the OCD community. OCD fucking sucks but we can overcome this. We deserve to overcome OCD and be happy.
Same problem I’m having. Been stuck on a three-week loop and now I can’t distinguish between thoughts and my own voice 😢. I’m also suffering from burnout by the way.
You mean you true will? OCD is very persuasive that's one of the nature of it? If OCD would not feel real you would believe in it. Sometimes I can't even explain OCD is very confusing. Even when I go to church for confessions. It feels so real. So I say if I don't know if I sin I would say I didn't because I don't no for sure, I can not sin by being unsure. So I would apply the rule to OCD if you question your self if you have OCD or did you like your thoughts or experience. OCD is lying to you don't have it . So don't try to talk to OCD. Just believe you are a good person.😊
My Brain does my brain in. I get paradox thoughts. I dream about having dreams.Reality becomes phantasy, and phantasy becomes Reality. I have no job, and I sleep all day like a sloth. Maybe that was my past life.
I'm sitting here crying so scared, exhausted. I've been crying on and off all day everyday. I'm so done, probably going to the hospital. No idea what is going on.
Videos are amazing. thanks for sharing your knowledge and experiences. I’ve dealt with fear to vomit ocd, rocd and self image ocd, now hocd and self image ocd or I guess you can BDD Which I became intensely obsessed with negative thoughts and gradually even developed social anxiety as well. Hocd or SO-OCD is by far THE WORST I’m dealing with this now. It’s devastating. I know it won’t last forever.. but then ocd comes in and says “what if it does? 😭😔 I thank you for these videos means a lot to anybody going through any subtype of ocd.
Hey, you’re brave to do this, that you’re trying to get better. I just wanna tell you to first get professionally diagnosed before concluding anything. Whatever you’re going through, you don’t have to go through this alone and suffer any longer. If possible at some point, let your parents know about this too, I know initially its not gonna be easy but hey they love you and all they will try is to help. So yes get professional help based on your needs. Take care of yourself.
@@amitkerurkar8685 Hi, thanks for noting my comment, I appreciate it. I just wanted to say that I understand what you mean, and there are many people who, because they are not professionally diagnosed, will never know that they have OCD or that they don't have OCD but something else. And I appreciate the advice. But there's also a lot you don't know about my situation (obviously). And I don't want to be here telling my whole life and I know I don't even owe you an explanation but I don't want to seem ignorant about this (because once again I am grateful for your attention). It was through a psychologist that I heard about the "world of the OCD" and this psychologist was not even the one accompanying me at the time, so my parents didn't know anything about it. Again, thanks for the comment. P.S- sorry if this sounded like a bible or something.
Thank you for sharing.. I bought your book and it makes me feel less alone in my thoughts. OCD is ridiculously taxing on the mind and body, but I’m glad to know I’m not the only one.
I did this. Intrusive thoughts from hocd suck. At this point, Im convinced that Im gay. I feel aroused by gay materials, and I feel like im not attracted to women. But it's almost definitly ocd. Iv'e had this for months. Any ideas are helpful.
Your convinced because of what you brain is sending .. remember you are not the brain and the brain is not you. Check out that book by dr Jeffery Schwartz Are minds can convince us of anything but it’s you awareness being aware that the thoughts feelings and sensations are ego dystonic.. if you enjoy all of this and don’t mind all of these feelings and thoughts that it may be something else.. but ocd= ego dystonic
Every time a friend of mine get married I start to think that I’ll never be loved and get married like them, and I become so jealous of them it made me feel so bad about myself, I’m really starting to believe that I don’t deserve Love and will never ever receive it Can you please do a video about this topic? :(
Is this like what she is talking about? It feels like I have the thought in the back of my mind but then I intentionally bring it fully to the front of mind by choice and decide to fully think it and I get an excited feeling with it. Is this considered thought checking cause in the moment it doesn’t feel that way.
Thankyou so much for your time and information. I dont want to take your time, but what do you think of when we get over a few intrusive thoughts , and you realize you are not bad like you thought, and now you feel so normal or "perfect" that you feel afraid and like you can't really trust that you are so normal and "good". Is there any chance you might be able to make a small video introducing such a topic? Thank you for listening like you do for so many , Godbless
It’s awful. I’ve been dealing with harm ocd since April. It’s gotten so bad that it feels like me acting on the thoughts are inevitable. Anyone else feel this or have felt this
so chrissy this is coming at the right time.. i i wanted to Let you know That im really better since I was in therapy. The only thing is that I spiralled again cause I had some fights with my bf which I really care about and I want to stay with him but he had some issues and this gave me a lot of anxiety. Also now he is away abroad on a holiday with some friends and I’m really anxious with panic attacks cause I have some trauma with disco due to my previous experiences. Anyway I started to spiral again with anxiety and I’m stuck again in fears and thoughts. Anyway the other day I had an intrusive thoughts both tinder since I was thinking “ what If I just install tinder and scroll the home and then talk with boys just to prove myself that I care about him and I really love him cause I do care and want him”…. But now I have this image of me cheating and I’m stuck in this Thought and I began doing this compulsion again “ am I gonna download tinder ? No!, am I gonna sleep or talk with other boys? No!… and now it cause me a lot of anxiety cause I don’t know if I’m gonna do it but I know for sure I can’t sleep or talk to another boy because It disgusts me .. but I’m afraid I’m gonna do also because I’m really anxious because of his holiday … which makes me mad …. Cause I know I’m weak because I have trust issues … but I’m also so scared I’m gonna do this … like I’m gonna do it … it’s driving me crazy cause it’s like so fucking easy .. I get so trigger when someone talk about tinder or I see the App Store and I’m avoiding the App Store …. anyway my therapist is on holiday so I can’t even like confess to my therapist 😭😭… what should I do ? Am I cheater ? Am I gonna be a cheater ? Omg im so confused and it’s also really bad for me … cause I don’t know … it makes me so mad … I have this fucking things in my head .. I have images of me that go on tinder and just fuck with boys but I’m not like this I swear to god 😭😭
The thing is that I just want my bf but why I have this urge to know if I going to tinder is gonna make me think I still want him… and the thing I’m gonna do it is killing me … and Im thinking I’m a cheater ..😞 it's painful and scary and i don't want to leave him cause i'm not a cheater but i'm so afraid ..my gosh i hate my brain sometimes...
Thoughts about things you gotta do in the future .. ( I get stuck on a loop thinking about.. ) like wrapping gifts 🎁. Or working at a certain time . On a certain day for example… or wrapping gifts at a certain time and it’s so hard to get those thoughts out of my head . There’s other thoughts 💭 but those feel really bad . 🫤
I’ve literally been doing compulsions for two days straight and I’m so tired I’m laying down in bed trying to sleep but I can’t because the intrusive thoughts are still there. Idk what I feel anymore and you’re right, this is an exhausting illness.
I have been stuck on a loophole of 2 months now with a thought that got so debilitating. By debilitating, I mean DEBILITATING. Lost interest for things and found myself in a really dark place. I have been feeling better now, but I realize that I often go back to the thought to try and check that's "for sure" what I don't want. And it has made me feel confused because the thought I am fixated, is not even a bad thought at all. It's a good thing, but not something I want to do ("Do you really NOT wanna do that?" -my brain right now lol). Recently I have been thinking about the points you talk about here: "do i really want that?" "I must want it so bad if I continue thinking about it." "Well, you just thought about it and it made you feel a certain way." "You don't even feel interest in the things you like to do." are some of the things that I think. I started to wonder whether that is even part of OCD, and after watching this, I do feel a bit better.
I have sexual intrusive thoughts as well as some much worse. I call them “IT”.
Occasionally I can have a break from IT for a couple weeks, up to a couple months. I also have mild autism, which doesn’t help. IT can be debilitating.
Often, not an outwardly noticeable effect, but IT hit. IT fracture reality. IT can make you think dark thoughts that can worry you about yourself.
Yes IT can be rough.
This is one of yout most brillant videos Chrissie, unbelievable. If have a huge admiration for you, i hope one day i can help people like you in my country,
This video gave me so much relief. I think I have HOCD and I’ve had INTENSE ocd and doubts and compulsions 24/7 for a few weeks to the point I would break down crying because I’m in a long term relationship with a man I love, and now it feels like I’m starting to like the intrusive thoughts
Yeah I’m exactly in that same place. But then they disappear when I stop thinking about it because I got distracted or had to pay attention to something else. Thus makes me realise that perhaps is the illusion of OCD
I feel you sister ❤
The most devestating part of pure o is that you can be in the best mood ever appreciating all the great things in your life then you yourself conjure up these thoughts that have hooked you hoping that you can just think of them and feel good and go on with your day but instead it bums you out totally and your like WTF it's an endless cycle .,. You are the only one who understands this Chrissy I think it's a form of checking always checking wether the thoughts still bother you
I felt like i purposefully thinks my ocd thoughts its like self generated not intrusive thought now i felt better after watching this
This is exactly what I felt like too, so you’re not alone ❤
You’ve saved my life so many times, with your videos. Thank you for everything you do for the OCD community. OCD fucking sucks but we can overcome this. We deserve to overcome OCD and be happy.
Same problem I’m having. Been stuck on a three-week loop and now I can’t distinguish between thoughts and my own voice 😢. I’m also suffering from burnout by the way.
can u explain what u meant by "voice"??
You mean you true will?
OCD is very persuasive that's one of the nature of it?
If OCD would not feel real you would believe in it.
Sometimes I can't even explain OCD is very confusing.
Even when I go to church for confessions. It feels so real.
So I say if I don't know if I sin I would say I didn't because I don't no for sure, I can not sin by being unsure.
So I would apply the rule to OCD if you question your self if you have OCD or did you like your thoughts or experience.
OCD is lying to you don't have it . So don't try to talk to OCD. Just believe you are a good person.😊
@@quorauser-b1t just seeing this. I meant my thought vs OCD thoughts but thankfully I’ve grown past it
My Brain does my brain in. I get paradox thoughts. I dream about having dreams.Reality becomes phantasy, and phantasy becomes Reality. I have no job, and I sleep all day like a sloth. Maybe that was my past life.
This video came along right when I needed it. The last point hit hard. I’m really struggling at the moment, and I feel so lost.
I'm sitting here crying so scared, exhausted. I've been crying on and off all day everyday. I'm so done, probably going to the hospital. No idea what is going on.
I hope you feel better.
Videos are amazing. thanks for sharing your knowledge and experiences.
I’ve dealt with fear to vomit ocd, rocd and self image ocd, now hocd and self image ocd or I guess you can BDD Which I became intensely obsessed with negative thoughts and gradually even developed social anxiety as well.
Hocd or SO-OCD is by far THE WORST I’m dealing with this now. It’s devastating.
I know it won’t last forever.. but then ocd comes in and says “what if it does? 😭😔
I thank you for these videos means a lot to anybody going through any subtype of ocd.
Thank God you exist👑, i´m only 13 and nobody in my family knows that i deal with OCD since 7. Forever gratful. 💗
Hey, you’re brave to do this, that you’re trying to get better. I just wanna tell you to first get professionally diagnosed before concluding anything. Whatever you’re going through, you don’t have to go through this alone and suffer any longer. If possible at some point, let your parents know about this too, I know initially its not gonna be easy but hey they love you and all they will try is to help. So yes get professional help based on your needs.
Take care of yourself.
@@amitkerurkar8685 Hi, thanks for noting my comment, I appreciate it. I just wanted to say that I understand what you mean, and there are many people who, because they are not professionally diagnosed, will never know that they have OCD or that they don't have OCD but something else. And I appreciate the advice. But there's also a lot you don't know about my situation (obviously). And I don't want to be here telling my whole life and I know I don't even owe you an explanation but I don't want to seem ignorant about this (because once again I am grateful for your attention). It was through a psychologist that I heard about the "world of the OCD" and this psychologist was not even the one accompanying me at the time, so my parents didn't know anything about it. Again, thanks for the comment.
P.S- sorry if this sounded like a bible or something.
Thank you for sharing.. I bought your book and it makes me feel less alone in my thoughts. OCD is ridiculously taxing on the mind and body, but I’m glad to know I’m not the only one.
Chrissie gets it every time! ❤
Thank you. Ma'am a most encouraging video. OCD is a draining illness for real.
This topic is so important, so thank you, Chrissie. You're awesome and we love you. ❤
Chrissie..I've just watched this again..thank you for being there and bringing sense to this hell of a disorder xxx
Thank you for the video solely because you explain my feelings so accurately.
Yeah fuck me, this is me. This is a living hell with pocd.
Chrissie has pocd closed groups
@@calila650 how can i join
I did this. Intrusive thoughts from hocd suck. At this point, Im convinced that Im gay. I feel aroused by gay materials, and I feel like im not attracted to women. But it's almost definitly ocd. Iv'e had this for months. Any ideas are helpful.
Your convinced because of what you brain is sending .. remember you are not the brain and the brain is not you.
Check out that book by dr Jeffery Schwartz
Are minds can convince us of anything but it’s you awareness being aware that the thoughts feelings and sensations are ego dystonic.. if you enjoy all of this and don’t mind all of these feelings and thoughts that it may be something else.. but ocd= ego dystonic
a quote from one of my favorite video games really helped me with this, “despite everything, it’s still you”
Every time a friend of mine get married I start to think that I’ll never be loved and get married like them, and I become so jealous of them it made me feel so bad about myself, I’m really starting to believe that I don’t deserve Love and will never ever receive it
Can you please do a video about this topic? :(
Thank you so much for these videos.
I LOVE YOU! THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH!
And, btw, have just ordered your book. Cannot wait to have it in my hands.
Thank you soooo much for your work. Everything you're saying is so spot ON!
@@ehms430 It's a great book. Ive read it twice.
Is this like what she is talking about?
It feels like I have the thought in the back of my mind but then I intentionally bring it fully to the front of mind by choice and decide to fully think it and I get an excited feeling with it. Is this considered thought checking cause in the moment it doesn’t feel that way.
This is exactly what I do and I’m so relieved to know it’s not just me because that means there’s more chance it could be OCD.
Great video. Thanks
Thankyou so much for your time and information. I dont want to take your time, but what do you think of when we get over a few intrusive thoughts , and you realize you are not bad like you thought, and now you feel so normal or "perfect" that you feel afraid and like you can't really trust that you are so normal and "good". Is there any chance you might be able to make a small video introducing such a topic? Thank you for listening like you do for so many , Godbless
It feels like I’m thinking them on purpose because I want them. It doesn’t feel like I’m testing myself. How do you know?
It’s awful. I’ve been dealing with harm ocd since April. It’s gotten so bad that it feels like me acting on the thoughts are inevitable. Anyone else feel this or have felt this
Nice Video it helps 💯
so chrissy this is coming at the right time.. i i wanted to
Let you know That im really better since I was in therapy. The only thing is that I spiralled again cause I had some fights with my bf which I really care about and I want to stay with him but he had some issues and this gave me a lot of anxiety. Also now he is away abroad on a holiday with some friends and I’m really anxious with panic attacks cause I have some trauma with disco due to my previous experiences.
Anyway I started to spiral again with anxiety and I’m stuck again in fears and thoughts.
Anyway the other day I had an intrusive thoughts both tinder since I was thinking “ what If I just install tinder and scroll the home and then talk with boys just to prove myself that I care about him and I really love him cause I do care and want him”…. But now I have this image of me cheating and I’m stuck in this Thought and I began doing this compulsion again “ am I gonna download tinder ? No!, am I gonna sleep or talk with other boys? No!… and now it cause me a lot of anxiety cause I don’t know if I’m gonna do it but I know for sure I can’t sleep or talk to another boy because It disgusts me .. but I’m afraid I’m gonna do also because I’m really anxious because of his holiday … which makes me mad …. Cause I know I’m weak because I have trust issues … but I’m also so scared I’m gonna do this … like I’m gonna do it … it’s driving me crazy cause it’s like so fucking easy .. I get so trigger when someone talk about tinder or I see the App Store and I’m avoiding the App Store …. anyway my therapist is on holiday so I can’t even like confess to my therapist 😭😭… what should I do ? Am I cheater ? Am I gonna be a cheater ? Omg im so confused and it’s also really bad for me … cause I don’t know … it makes me so mad … I have this fucking things in my head .. I have images of me that go on tinder and just fuck with boys but I’m not like this I swear to god 😭😭
The thing is that I just want my bf but why I have this urge to know if I going to tinder is gonna make me think I still want him… and the thing I’m gonna do it is killing me … and Im thinking I’m a cheater ..😞
it's painful and scary and i don't want to leave him cause i'm not a cheater but i'm so afraid ..my gosh i hate my brain sometimes...
You are charming
Ocd is the doubting disease haha 5alas mt faker de8re bta3ref
Thoughts about things you gotta do in the future .. ( I get stuck on a loop thinking about.. ) like wrapping gifts 🎁. Or working at a certain time . On a certain day for example… or wrapping gifts at a certain time and it’s so hard to get those thoughts out of my head . There’s other thoughts 💭 but those feel really bad . 🫤
i had bad intrusive thoughts but now it’s like i barely feel anxiety n now it feels like i want ts but im starting to believe i fr want men 🧍🏾♀️
Thank you so much for this ♥