There's no place like the 90$. There was a place where we could just live, and there for the first six years of the 2000s we became teens in a world that shit us out..
Billy Corgan was quoted in an interview about "Disarm" as saying, "I never really had the guts to kill my parents, so I wrote a song about it instead." When he wrote this song, he was at a point where he was really angry at his parents for always making him feel lower than he really was.
Yeah Billy put his heart out there for everyone with this song. Deeply personal. This could have easily just had been a diary entry that nobody ever sees nor knows about.
Still listening to Smashing Pumpkins in 2022! I used to be a little boy... Intense words ring through time. Heartache for the 90's ever drifting away. First time this made me cry. The nostalgia is overwhelming... I don't want to get old and have to leave earth. 🥺
It's okay-you will just go to heaven, and float atop tufts of pink cotton candy, the breeze smelling of freshly baked cookies! Next thing you know Take A Picture by Filter surrounds you in the most incredible surround sound you have ever HEARD, and I'll be darned if Little Nicky's mom doesn't come waltzing gleefully toward you! 😂😍🥰❤
This reminds me of how my parents always made me feel like a burden and every time they disappoint me I feel like a helpless little kid again. This song makes me cry every time and makes me realize how broken I truly am
I’ve always come to this song as a piece of me surviving abuse from a stepfather. I wanted to kill him so bad the pain to stop. I was just a kid and I just wanted a normal childhood
I think this is about child abuse. I get the image of an innocent kid smiling at their parent to try to keep them in a good mood but not working. I'm not crying your crying.
I like to think of it as art and we all interpret it differently depending on the life we have had. But you are right on, he wrote this to his step mum I think. He blames his childhood for making him an a hole.. I think I can relate to that part.
That’s probably an element to it. I’ve always read into it as more generally being about growing up and losing what’s left of your innocence to trauma and disillusionment. “The years burn” comes to mind as an example of this theming
Yeah, it actually is. Billy's parents didn't give two shit about him. IIRC, he said he didn't have the guts to kill his parents, so he wrote this song about how badly they fucked him up
My dad texted me "A killer in me is a killer in you, find it"! Immediately I replied "disarm smashing pumpkins." "A-fuckingmazing, that's my boy music is where we meet" My dad and I have had a rough time bonding my whole life, drastically different worldviews and such. But goddamnit I was raised on the best damn itunes account a boy could ask for. This song now holds a deeper meaning for me, it's as if the child in my father is calling out to me. Almost the reverse of an old soul, letting me know that him and I are more similar under the veil than we can admit.
Being a kid was great for me. I miss it a lot. I know a lot of ppl unfortunately had a lot of trauma and stuff in their childhoods and that really sucks. This song reminds me of being a kid in the 90's and watching mtv with my brother and life being good. To all of you who had bad childhoods, sorry to hear and god bless
The effects of Male childhood sexual abuse are staggering. I lost a friend who always struggled with his sexual identity but in actuality people in his family knew and they didn't speak out. People always made fun of him behind his back but he was the nicest guy.
Siamese dream has always been one of my favorites when I was 16 and now that I'm 45. Billy's writing is incredible and has impacted all of us with imperfect traumatic upbringings.
I once read this lyric although beautiful was indeed very sad. As a child he'd sacrifice being happy (smile) so his parents were content and leave him alone. It's been said that Billy was castrated and disarm is about that. I used to be a little boy...
This is one of his best songs, I'm very proud I've covered it because the songs is like personal to me. The lyrics just get to you, very powerful. It's a sad story of his younger abusive life.
The line at 1:47 - *"The bitterness of one who's left alone"* - really resonates with me. I work with people who take me for granted and occasionally leave me hanging high & dry when I need them to help finish a project. Understandably, that fuels bitterness in me but whenever it gets to me, I think: "Without me, they'd be doomed." Still, while it might sound cliche, I feel as though Billy is singing from my point of view; _Disarm_ will forever be my favorite Smashing Pumpkins song.
Yes, that's my favorite part of the song too. It stands out a lot, with the rest of the verses that follow it. I also interpret the part 'the killer in me is the killer in you.. I'll send a smile over to you' to be a metaphor for someone who is gaslighting, but being able to ward it off with "kindness" so to speak, or awareness.🖤✌🏻
@@OpalMoonstone247 Wow, I never thought of that meaning for "The killer in me is the killer in you; I send this smile over to you" before, but it makes sense. I can also see it as knowing they're gaslighting but smiling to make them think you're unaware of it.
The killer in me is the killer in you...damn that's cold. Sounds like such a personal feeling. Never felt that way but damn that's gotta stem from some shit right there..
Not sure I understand those lyrics. I guess what it means to me is that although his parents didnt outright kill him, their cruelty shaped him into the killers that they inherently are
I took it as the killer in him he learned from his parents, they in a sense gave him that part of his character(not sure that’s the right word). Character is a choice and maybe it was something bad behavior passed down he didn’t let go of yet or never did. Abused kids have a hard time making sense of the world when they’re adults. So many different outcomes.
This song means so many things. The life I endured as a child . My thought and process . The fact of going day to day with out seeming to mean anything but a body in the world . Walking the streets just hoping for a different outcome . If you feel or have been affected by this song , choose your path , you are greater than what you think . Your mind plays the ultimate card . Flip that card and choose to overcome . Godspeed...
I discovered this song 6 years ago when I was 14 from one of my neighbours. This song is perfect. My neighbour died in 2019. The last time I saw him, he gave me an Easter egg. His death was unexpected. R.I.P man. I still think about you.
I remember sitting in the car when I was 7 years old and listening to this before I knew the pain of the world Before my parents died. Before I was severely abused by my mother at the ages of 8-12. Before I stared death in the eyes ages 10-16. Before the death of my first love when I was 12. before I understood the meaning of a medusa tattoo age 9. I remember listening to this when my mother died so I could finally forgive her for the trauma she put me through. I was only 17. So I can finally forgive myself and let go of the anger I've held for years I let it go so I could love myself and now I'm almost 20 years old This life has taken so much but It has given me my fiance and self-worth. This song helped me through the biggest tragiedies in my life and I'm thankful for its existance Edit she did apologize before she died she promised she would try to make it up to me but 2 months later she died before she could
You shouldn't forgive someone who never asks for forgiveness - forgiveness without receiving an apology isn't honorable. If someone assaulted your partner would you tell her to forgive them ? Why or why not ?
@Chonco Ocho forgiveness can be a tough battle, to say the LEAST. We are all absolutely entitled to our feelings that come the trauma and hurt that we experience in life...but resentment can be so incredibly damaging. It wasn't easy and took YEARS of therapy, but for me, finding forgiveness (even in the absence of an apology) helped me to find resolution and peace. It wasn't about whether or not the other individuals involved deserved to be forgiven. It was about me deserving to be free from the toxic burden of having bitterness and hatred in my heart. ❤
@@brandinicole80 Not sure how you can forgive someone without an apology. Forgiveness means to pardon an action, which means you'll accept that action again in the future - for example, if you "forgive" your father for hitting you as a child then you'll "forgive" an abusive partner for hitting you as an adult. Not forgiving someone or resentment is a false dichotomy, but an interesting one. Who put that idea in your head ?
@@choncoocho1392 i figure you probably won't want to hear it but forgiveness is something Jesus wanted us to do. Unforgiveness for any reason leads us to be enslaved to the hurt and pain. We forgive not only because God forgives us but to also help us move on from the pain. Im 32 years old, unmarried because not a single woman on this entire planet wants me and childless and the things I've done and that have been done too me, I have to forgive. Its been hard and I still try everyday but if I dont forgive then ill continue to live with bitterness and resentment. I cant continue living like that anymore.
There is an phenomenal early Pink Floyd song on The Saurcerful of Secrets album. It was written by Richard Wright and called "Remember A Day". So, just like "Disarm" it is a song about the nostalgia regarding the lost paradise of early childhood, I think?
Sorry, this commentary is based on the words- Oh, the years burn & I used to be a little boy- Obviously, the other lyrics are not applicable to lost childhood nostalgia..
Oh wow...my now 30 yr old sends me this saying oh to be 10 again and in fam car or her bedrm as this gem plays. It would make her tear up this song did. Beauty.
@@CapriciousHorses hi. I wasn't crying about having a thirty yr old. It's awesome btw. SHE was wanting to be 10 again w innocence of childhood and listening to this or other fave songs on a fam outing. She's a nostalgic one. But I'm glad you are on a happier path.
I was probably like 8 when this song was released . As a victim of childhood trauma, growing up in a toxic broken home and being sexually, physically, and mentaly abused, this somg really hits my emotions, and i resonate with these lyrics 💯
This song is about the relationship he had with his parents while growing up, he was abused and took alot of pain in his younger years, this song explains everything all too well
‘The bitterness of one who’s left alone‘ blindsides you on so many levels for so many generations and so many situations. This song is pure emotional fallout. The killer in me is the killer in you. 😢
This song brings the emotions and feelings of my younger self. Just a little boy. A little boy with so much hurt, pain and trauma so early in life... The boy has grown alot. That boy is a man now, but the old wounds can still sting. They are more like scars i carry. I have many physical and mental scars from many different life situations. Yet, I can still smile. I choose everyday to follow what makes me happy. Improve things im not doing well, and figure other things out. Life can still be hard, but its no where near the extremes of my childhood. I do mourn it though. I never got to be a normal little boy, I didnt have boy problems, I had situations that were not in my control and would be traumatizing to even an adult. But Im healing, even still, just like physical wounds the mental ones heal. And scars stop hurting after a while but they will always exist. I cant change the past. And tbh ive had my struggles, but Im figuring it out and fighting for a simple thing. Joy, happiness, love, and kindness. To myself and others. I know what its like to hurt. But I also know what its like to laugh. To love and be loved. To help and be helped. To just find and live in happiness is my main objective in life.
We shouldn't have to waste so much energy in our adulthood, recovering from our childhoods...we shouldn't have been back stabbed by 'grown ups' who let us down
I was in love with song, I never understood the lyrics but I knew it was obviously somber. It was until I had a son, that I truly understood every word and my eyes filled with tears. He comes first always.
Damn poor Lem from The Shield. He went out in the worst way, worst than Gilroy imo. Hungry, best friend stabs in the back by placing a grenade on his lap. It took a extra 1-2 minutes for him to pass away.
I relate a lot to Billy. I endured a lot of neglect and abuse. I want to leave it behind me and build a future, but the biting, gnashing ghosts of my past keep dragging me back to the numbing oblivion. I hate it and I want to be better. I'm still fighting, I haven't given up.
Dont give up. Letting go is one of the most difficult of human struggles. I recently stumbled upon this quote that has been somehow helping me to reconcile some parts of my past… “Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.”-David Foster Wallace
I knew I wasn't crazy I saw a cover if this somewhere and I new it couldn't be new bc I heard this for years on the radio and always thought it was smashing pumpkins
@@MyEnemy It's series of books written by Remigiusz Mróz about lawyer Chyłka, this character has very interesting personality and music taste that I can really relate to 😀
Songs like this and Cats in the Cradle make me think about how messed up my parents were to me and how I’m doing the same things to my son, unintentionally and not in the same physical way, but how I’m transferring my bullshit into him emotionally.
Oh to be a teenager again laying in bed with a few candles to light the room while listening to this... take me back to the 90's please!!! 🖤
Take me with you please
Best Decade for music!
@Davis Reid why? I would never hack my wife’s anything. If you don’t trust her move on bro.
There's no place like the 90$. There was a place where we could just live, and there for the first six years of the 2000s we became teens in a world that shit us out..
Brought tears of joy to my eyes. 🙂
Billy Corgan was quoted in an interview about "Disarm" as saying, "I never really had the guts to kill my parents, so I wrote a song about it instead." When he wrote this song, he was at a point where he was really angry at his parents for always making him feel lower than he really was.
Right said Fred
And his step mother allegedly physically abused him a lot.
It's about his parents but his parents are a metaphor for his handlers. The song is about him being castrated.
"I used to be a little boy"....
@@daisy671 that's a heavy assumption there Daisy lol
@@mitchellnelson6249 Yeah, I think it's about the death of his inner child..
"The killer in me is the killer in you, my love."
That's so powerful!
I also think this
I send this smile over to you
❤️🩹😔🤘🏾
To smile in an attempt to disarm....his only defense mechanism as a child...so sad
So true....
Really is when you think about it.
Those same damaged children sometimes grow up to disarm their victims with a smile too. The killer in me is the killer in you.
Yeah Billy put his heart out there for everyone with this song. Deeply personal. This could have easily just had been a diary entry that nobody ever sees nor knows about.
It really truly was. It didn’t work most of the time though. Their anger was too strong.
Still listening to Smashing Pumpkins in 2022!
I used to be a little boy... Intense words ring through time. Heartache for the 90's ever drifting away. First time this made me cry. The nostalgia is overwhelming... I don't want to get old and have to leave earth. 🥺
Still brings a tear too ...
Thank you ..
As long as we have Jesus. And music and so beautiful
We all must though. Make the most of today, it is the only thing guaranteed in this life.
It's okay-you will just go to heaven, and float atop tufts of pink cotton candy, the breeze smelling of freshly baked cookies! Next thing you know Take A Picture by Filter surrounds you in the most incredible surround sound you have ever HEARD, and I'll be darned if Little Nicky's mom doesn't come waltzing gleefully toward you! 😂😍🥰❤
This reminds me of how my parents always made me feel like a burden and every time they disappoint me I feel like a helpless little kid again. This song makes me cry every time and makes me realize how broken I truly am
We so broken
You've always mattered and you are important!🖤🖤
@ciarramcmillan7333 message me sometime
❤ hope you are feeling unbroken…
You and me both mate
Im 51 and yet today... song still gives me the chillzzz
I’ve always come to this song as a piece of me surviving abuse from a stepfather. I wanted to kill him so bad the pain to stop. I was just a kid and I just wanted a normal childhood
Three years later it’s my turn to be 51 and I still relate to this just as much
I think this is about child abuse. I get the image of an innocent kid smiling at their parent to try to keep them in a good mood but not working. I'm not crying your crying.
Youre exactly right
I like to think of it as art and we all interpret it differently depending on the life we have had. But you are right on, he wrote this to his step mum I think. He blames his childhood for making him an a hole.. I think I can relate to that part.
I agree about the child abuse. But I think it's about forgiveness and not being bitter despite what happened.
That’s probably an element to it. I’ve always read into it as more generally being about growing up and losing what’s left of your innocence to trauma and disillusionment. “The years burn” comes to mind as an example of this theming
Yeah, it actually is. Billy's parents didn't give two shit about him. IIRC, he said he didn't have the guts to kill his parents, so he wrote this song about how badly they fucked him up
When I find a good song it’s like finding a part of me I didn’t know was missing
I love that analogy ❤️💔
Interesting analogy.
Found this song yesterday on the radio and my gosh its good.
I’m surprised the radio played a GOOD song instead of 80s rewind or today’s flavor of the week. In any case, glad you like it!
The killer in me is the killer in you.
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Emotional masterpiece.
i cried to this song
The anthem unseen children who grew up too fast and the adults they become, walking around with the burden and sorrow decades later.
38 years and the years still burn.
My dad texted me "A killer in me is a killer in you, find it"!
Immediately I replied "disarm smashing pumpkins."
"A-fuckingmazing, that's my boy music is where we meet"
My dad and I have had a rough time bonding my whole life, drastically different worldviews and such. But goddamnit I was raised on the best damn itunes account a boy could ask for. This song now holds a deeper meaning for me, it's as if the child in my father is calling out to me. Almost the reverse of an old soul, letting me know that him and I are more similar under the veil than we can admit.
Meet him there and find his truth from his childhood and i can promise you that not only will he be your dad but also your best friend forever.
your dad rules
One of the best songs ever written and performed. Just powerfully perfect!
Being a kid was great for me. I miss it a lot. I know a lot of ppl unfortunately had a lot of trauma and stuff in their childhoods and that really sucks. This song reminds me of being a kid in the 90's and watching mtv with my brother and life being good. To all of you who had bad childhoods, sorry to hear and god bless
Same here bro
That’s nice comment 😊
Oh the 90's..still love this song to this day, gives me chills.
The effects of Male childhood sexual abuse are staggering. I lost a friend who always struggled with his sexual identity but in actuality people in his family knew and they didn't speak out. People always made fun of him behind his back but he was the nicest guy.
God this song is so emotional... It’s beautiful, heartbraking, haunting, mesmerizing. I now know why MCR loves this band so much.
Such a moving song
The bitterness of one who’s left alone. That shit cuts deep, man 🥃
Siamese dream has always been one of my favorites when I was 16 and now that I'm 45. Billy's writing is incredible and has impacted all of us with imperfect traumatic upbringings.
I grew up with extreme abuse as well so this song tears me. Amazing song.
❤🫂🥰
Billy Corgan is a genius. Period.
The anthem of the good people that society left behind to rot.
👏🏻🖤💀✌🏻
This song hits deep til this day. Billy just feel pain as deep as I do! I feel every verse in this song!!
You're not alone
Same here buddy.
What a beautiful thing to say, “I send this smile over to you”
I once read this lyric although beautiful was indeed very sad.
As a child he'd sacrifice being happy (smile) so his parents were content and leave him alone.
It's been said that Billy was castrated and disarm is about that.
I used to be a little boy...
This is one of his best songs, I'm very proud I've covered it because the songs is like personal to me. The lyrics just get to you, very powerful. It's a sad story of his younger abusive life.
Makes me cry
The line at 1:47 - *"The bitterness of one who's left alone"* - really resonates with me. I work with people who take me for granted and occasionally leave me hanging high & dry when I need them to help finish a project. Understandably, that fuels bitterness in me but whenever it gets to me, I think: "Without me, they'd be doomed." Still, while it might sound cliche, I feel as though Billy is singing from my point of view; _Disarm_ will forever be my favorite Smashing Pumpkins song.
❤️💪🏻
I can't sing along to this part without tears flowing down my face. This song also resonates with me but for an entirely different reason 😔
@@DragonofDojima_ I can imagine. Billy touched several a nerve when he wrote _Disarm._ He may not have known it at the time, but I hope he does now.
Yes, that's my favorite part of the song too. It stands out a lot, with the rest of the verses that follow it. I also interpret the part 'the killer in me is the killer in you.. I'll send a smile over to you' to be a metaphor for someone who is gaslighting, but being able to ward it off with "kindness" so to speak, or awareness.🖤✌🏻
@@OpalMoonstone247 Wow, I never thought of that meaning for "The killer in me is the killer in you; I send this smile over to you" before, but it makes sense. I can also see it as knowing they're gaslighting but smiling to make them think you're unaware of it.
These lyrics hit me so hard, the spring of 1993. Girl left me and all I had was this introspection.
This song describes my life perfectly sometimes
sometimes - mbv
How?
The killer in me is the killer in you...damn that's cold. Sounds like such a personal feeling. Never felt that way but damn that's gotta stem from some shit right there..
Not sure I understand those lyrics. I guess what it means to me is that although his parents didnt outright kill him, their cruelty shaped him into the killers that they inherently are
I took it as the killer in him he learned from his parents, they in a sense gave him that part of his character(not sure that’s the right word). Character is a choice and maybe it was something bad behavior passed down he didn’t let go of yet or never did. Abused kids have a hard time making sense of the world when they’re adults. So many different outcomes.
Best song ever made, Best Band ever
This song means so many things. The life I endured as a child . My thought and process . The fact of going day to day with out seeming to mean anything but a body in the world . Walking the streets just hoping for a different outcome . If you feel or have been affected by this song , choose your path , you are greater than what you think . Your mind plays the ultimate card . Flip that card and choose to overcome . Godspeed...
I discovered this song 6 years ago when I was 14 from one of my neighbours. This song is perfect. My neighbour died in 2019. The last time I saw him, he gave me an Easter egg. His death was unexpected. R.I.P man. I still think about you.
I remember sitting in the car when I was 7 years old and listening to this before I knew the pain of the world Before my parents died. Before I was severely abused by my mother at the ages of 8-12. Before I stared death in the eyes ages 10-16. Before the death of my first love when I was 12. before I understood the meaning of a medusa tattoo age 9. I remember listening to this when my mother died so I could finally forgive her for the trauma she put me through. I was only 17. So I can finally forgive myself and let go of the anger I've held for years I let it go so I could love myself and now I'm almost 20 years old This life has taken so much but It has given me my fiance and self-worth. This song helped me through the biggest tragiedies in my life and I'm thankful for its existance
Edit she did apologize before she died she promised she would try to make it up to me but 2 months later she died before she could
You shouldn't forgive someone who never asks for forgiveness - forgiveness without receiving an apology isn't honorable.
If someone assaulted your partner would you tell her to forgive them ?
Why or why not ?
@Chonco Ocho forgiveness can be a tough battle, to say the LEAST. We are all absolutely entitled to our feelings that come the trauma and hurt that we experience in life...but resentment can be so incredibly damaging. It wasn't easy and took YEARS of therapy, but for me, finding forgiveness (even in the absence of an apology) helped me to find resolution and peace. It wasn't about whether or not the other individuals involved deserved to be forgiven. It was about me deserving to be free from the toxic burden of having bitterness and hatred in my heart. ❤
@@brandinicole80
Not sure how you can forgive someone without an apology.
Forgiveness means to pardon an action, which means you'll accept that action again in the future - for example, if you "forgive" your father for hitting you as a child then you'll "forgive" an abusive partner for hitting you as an adult.
Not forgiving someone or resentment is a false dichotomy, but an interesting one.
Who put that idea in your head ?
@@choncoocho1392 i figure you probably won't want to hear it but forgiveness is something Jesus wanted us to do. Unforgiveness for any reason leads us to be enslaved to the hurt and pain. We forgive not only because God forgives us but to also help us move on from the pain. Im 32 years old, unmarried because not a single woman on this entire planet wants me and childless and the things I've done and that have been done too me, I have to forgive. Its been hard and I still try everyday but if I dont forgive then ill continue to live with bitterness and resentment. I cant continue living like that anymore.
These responses are deeply concerning and indicative of a lack of healing.
Good luck, everyone.
AM HERE from 2021.. just to remember the simple good times... I need that right now!
😂😂I haven’t heard this song since high school and it was in my head a few days ago 😌😌Cameron Boyce brought me here Paradise City
Oh the nostalgia!! Breaks my heart
There is an phenomenal early Pink Floyd song on The Saurcerful of Secrets album. It was written by Richard Wright and called "Remember A Day". So, just like "Disarm" it is a song about the nostalgia regarding the lost paradise of early childhood, I think?
Sorry, this commentary is based on the words- Oh, the years burn & I used to be a little boy-
Obviously, the other lyrics are not applicable to lost childhood nostalgia..
I ❤️this song but it’s painful too.I miss the smiles.
Oh wow...my now 30 yr old sends me this saying oh to be 10 again and in fam car or her bedrm as this gem plays. It would make her tear up this song did. Beauty.
@@CapriciousHorses hi. I wasn't crying about having a thirty yr old. It's awesome btw. SHE was wanting to be 10 again w innocence of childhood and listening to this or other fave songs on a fam outing. She's a nostalgic one. But I'm glad you are on a happier path.
the song of a survivor who feels the cost of surviving.
I was probably like 8 when this song was released .
As a victim of childhood trauma, growing up in a toxic broken home and being sexually, physically, and mentaly abused, this somg really hits my emotions, and i resonate with these lyrics 💯
heard this song live and cried so hard. its was moving and the set was so pretty!!
I've loved this song for a long time
Remind me great emotionnal sequence from THE SHIELD the best cop show ever.
Yes the shield is the best cop show ever, and paved the way for S.O.A , and Breaking Bad.
Lem!!
Found this today from a woman that does Reaction videos to old songs, it's good 👍
Ppp
The 90s were the golden age of music.....so thankful I was alive to experience it firsthand
One of the best songs ever.
Never paid attention to the lyrics until this year 💀💕
Me neither
This song is about the relationship he had with his parents while growing up, he was abused and took alot of pain in his younger years, this song explains everything all too well
‘The bitterness of one who’s left alone‘ blindsides you on so many levels for so many generations and so many situations. This song is pure emotional fallout. The killer in me is the killer in you. 😢
Why did they have to leave us alone?? We could have been spared so much suffering.
That feeling when someone says out loud your feelings and thoughts
This song still hits hard after all the years
Such an amazing voice
Choose life.
I sadly finally really understand and feel this song now that I’m older. Always loved it but sadly feel it now
I feel left out being a teenager and all but I love this song
Live the life and this song hits home.....
OMG Some of the awesome college memories I have listening to thi've listening to this song with my roommate jamming out and having a good time
This song brings the emotions and feelings of my younger self.
Just a little boy. A little boy with so much hurt, pain and trauma so early in life...
The boy has grown alot. That boy is a man now, but the old wounds can still sting. They are more like scars i carry. I have many physical and mental scars from many different life situations.
Yet, I can still smile. I choose everyday to follow what makes me happy. Improve things im not doing well, and figure other things out. Life can still be hard, but its no where near the extremes of my childhood. I do mourn it though. I never got to be a normal little boy, I didnt have boy problems, I had situations that were not in my control and would be traumatizing to even an adult.
But Im healing, even still, just like physical wounds the mental ones heal. And scars stop hurting after a while but they will always exist.
I cant change the past. And tbh ive had my struggles, but Im figuring it out and fighting for a simple thing.
Joy, happiness, love, and kindness. To myself and others.
I know what its like to hurt. But I also know what its like to laugh. To love and be loved. To help and be helped. To just find and live in happiness is my main objective in life.
I still remember this song for the Shield when Lem was on the run
😢😢😢😢
Great show Shawn Ryan always used great music the entire run of the series
Remember on the show The Shield when they had to get Lem out of town and this played?
bruh I just watched that episode, shit was so emotional. Had to come here and listen. Oh and pls don't spoil i still have to watch the last 2 seasons.
😢😢😢😢😢
Great show
This song means so much to me it cant be appreciated with words alone...
This makes my heart cry😢
Saw them play this live and it was amazing!! ❤
This song speaks volumes.. I'm in general a headbanger, but some songs can't be denied.....
I love this song so much 🥺❤️ fuck, it’s so good.
My mom had burned CDs and this song was on it and after 10 years of searching I finally found it
At 45, this song is eternal and hurts on so many levels. (My Parents loved me and I never hated them) Since my Dad passed, I feel this way....
Learning these lyrics is a worthy venture for those on the path to enlightenment
Misheard lyrics makes this song much darker than it is. I was surprised that some of they lyrics weren't what I thought they were.
The memories 😊🎉
This song hits hard
We shouldn't have to waste so much energy in our adulthood, recovering from our childhoods...we shouldn't have been back stabbed by 'grown ups' who let us down
I was in love with song, I never understood the lyrics but I knew it was obviously somber. It was until I had a son, that I truly understood every word and my eyes filled with tears. He comes first always.
Yep my son as well. Hits hard.
Seriously where has this song been my whole lifeeee
Damn poor Lem from The Shield. He went out in the worst way, worst than Gilroy imo. Hungry, best friend stabs in the back by placing a grenade on his lap. It took a extra 1-2 minutes for him to pass away.
😢😢😢😢😢😢yes
The whole series was amazing
Tears one of the greats
The shield put me on this and breakdown by tantric masterpiece of a show
" . . . to wither in denial . . ." pretty sure Billy's not talking about drowning in a river in Egypt . . .
Lol you caught me off guard in my feelings.
I relate a lot to Billy. I endured a lot of neglect and abuse. I want to leave it behind me and build a future, but the biting, gnashing ghosts of my past keep dragging me back to the numbing oblivion. I hate it and I want to be better. I'm still fighting, I haven't given up.
Dont give up. Letting go is one of the most difficult of human struggles.
I recently stumbled upon this quote that has been somehow helping me to reconcile some parts of my past…
“Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.”-David Foster Wallace
Im not a killer , I’m just sending this smile over to you
the years burn....
RIP good rock music. A gem from the swan song era of great, emotional rock 'n roll.
The Shield ❤❤❤😢
Been looking for this song. 🎉
Terminator has returned again..One more time.
Love that Bell toll😓
Hits deep!
Why does this song sound like a Christmas song
Cause Corgan is a genius
I knew I wasn't crazy I saw a cover if this somewhere and I new it couldn't be new bc I heard this for years on the radio and always thought it was smashing pumpkins
The civil wars did a pretty good cover of this song.
Greatest song ever !
Well... I'm here because of books (this was one of favourite songs of main character).
What a song! 🔥
What book?
@@MyEnemy It's series of books written by Remigiusz Mróz about lawyer Chyłka, this character has very interesting personality and music taste that I can really relate to 😀
@@anngreen2165 Interesting, thank you for the reply.
Bless the children we must protect then & report offends. Amen
From the Paradise City trailer, can’t wait
I love this song it helped me win my mom back thank you for this song❤
Songs like this and Cats in the Cradle make me think about how messed up my parents were to me and how I’m doing the same things to my son, unintentionally and not in the same physical way, but how I’m transferring my bullshit into him emotionally.
Read a book called "the power of showing up".
It takes a very strong person to really look in the mirror, see it, admit it, and hopefully God would be willing - to change it. ❤
The Shield ❤️
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Lem!!
One of the few songs i didn't need RUclips to learn. Peace.
Powerful song