"Far too many a time I have seen my mom cry More than you, I presume 'Cause your dad didn't die" Madeline, I hope you see this because this hit me hard. I'm new in my journey, my dad died in August. I'm older than you but the truth is you're never old enough to lose someone or see your mom go through something like this. Couple grief with dating, it's hard to even feel vulnerable enough to talk about my grief with him. We're taught that grieving is something we should do in private and as quickly as possible but the truth is, sometimes all I want to talk about is how it feels. To talk about sitting in the parking lot three hours after he died listening to the same song on repeat as my mother picked out a wreath. To talk about how it felt watching him slowly die for 20 months until I forgot he was dying, only to be blindsided by it. To talk about the uncomfortable mundanity of grief. Grief is nasty and so isolating. We deserve to be able to talk about it without people treating us as if it's something they can fix. As if we can just ignore that the man who raised us is gone. As if that void coud ever be filled. I don't want to not grieve. I don't want to ignore how I feel. I love my dad so much, if grieving is how I have to experience that love for the rest of my life... I'm more than happy to make that sacrifice. I refuse to hide my feelings away. I'm sorry for unpacking all of this in a comment you may never see, but I want you to know how much this EP has resonated with me and I feel understood.
Those words hit just as hard as that mother trying to raise those kids who grieve together. Forever. Thirteen years now. I hear my daughter in Madeline So much. So grieve out loud and never allow anyone to silence what you feel💗 Just never let what you feel define you. Much love to all facing grief head on. Sing it, speak it, write it, draw it. Just share it. Well done Madeline🙏
I can't tell you how much this song means to me Madeline! Its been impossible to mask my depression since I moved to a new state on my own. All I want is someone to be patient and stick around, and love me even though I'm a downer. Everything sucks, but I shouldn't have to be perfect to be loved. But I love you Maddie!
I had that same experience when I moved to Arizona and left all my friends and chosen family behind. It’s such a hard transition and I still have so much complex grief from it. Good luck to you
@@fp1912 I've been out here for 10 months, its especially difficult cause of covid. I'm hoping it gets easier once school starts. I'm also starting tms therapy soon and I'm really hopeful about that!
@@fp1912 lol I'll try to remember to keep you updated 😂 I hope I get good results too. Been depressed since forever. Would be crazy not to have it as bad anymore.
Heartbreakingly beautiful. Losing my dad when I was 11 years old changed my entire life and who I am. This song so perfectly encapsulates the horrible struggle of carrying on as a child whose world has been devastated. The frustration and difficulty dealing with others who could never understand your feelings and why you're no longer the same.
this made me cry so much i screamed, i'm glad no one was home when i had the breakdown because i would not have hesitated to scream either way, i don't know why this hasn't blown up yet but shared it with all my friends and they all said they cried when they got to the 2nd verse.
looks straight at me and just try to say something you mean I'm a puppet tied up stuffed with anxiety No, I won't go to dinner you won't watch me eat In 5 years you'll still wonder if I have real feet Far too many a time, I have seen my mom cry More than you I presume cause your dad didn't die So I'll tell you the secret to staying alive You just laugh and cry harder and scream to survive Don't you know how to make me happy You let me weep and you do it so gladly Follow me as I tread water and start to believe that I'm floating above all these monstrosities On your left, you'll see colors that don't yet exist On your right is the home to all lone pacifists Far below is the black hole that wants me to drown and the bad things I've done that always stick around In your mind do something that you cannot hold It's a world and you have it until you grow old Don't you know how to make me happy You let me weep and you do so gladly Don't keep me sweet and toss out the rest even though its what you do best You cant keep me sweet and toss out the rest I'll never stop making a mess Don't you know how to make me happy You let me weep and you do so gladly
I had to look you up on RUclips coz tic tok ain't long enough... I need more! .... I've seen so many live acts over the years... No one comes close.... Your amazing! ... You've got it all Lyrics, voice , the look... You've blown me away
This girl is the definition of my feelings sometimes and I needed to know someone understood the way I felt but I wanted a sentence but y'all we gotta song outta our sadness thank you for understanding the way others feel! I am here for your ride.
I’ve never bought music so fast in my life. As soon as I heard her and her lyrics, I was so excited to hear music like it. I’ve been waiting so long for something like this to come along!
I am so beyond happy I found you, your music brings something out of me that I can’t express. I just resonate to your music so much and you are going to help and save so many people through your music and I can’t wait to see you get big.
Okay, I typically don’t make comments but I fell in love with this girls voice after her cover of “The Chain by Fleetwood”, I replayed it over and over and over again. To see her now making HER music and me being able to connect so well it’s just very beautiful. My heart goes out to anybody dealing with the powerful process of grieving. I lost both of my parents and there’s not a day that I don’t run through the cycle. I just want to say thank you and keep going guys!!!!! ❤️
You are seriously the next superstar of this generation .. Your voice is beyond amazing. The soul and the meaning of your songs are incredibly emotional . You have something sooooooo special and i cant wait to see you grow as an artist ! Keep this colorful and wonderful mind of yours ♡
I just found your song "mean" and ive been binging your music. Its exactly the music ive been needing for a really long time but couldnt find and i couldnt write it without being violent and correlating it to the problems with the whole world and forgetting its me i need to worry about... :D
Very perceptive AND good music, not just the same repeated riff. I hope you have a superior career doing it your way. (From a former radio music director who still loves discovering good new music.)
I love the aesthetic you kept throughout this entire venture! It makes me jealous it's so pretty😍And your voice is so beautiful, it's like you're brimming with emotions and at the same time, you're calmly sorting through them, I love it! I hope we hear more from you!!!
I know how parts of your brain people want you to just get rid of or don't show but most people don't wanna get close to me because when they do they see all my darkness and when you decide to go in deep to try to find the light you just find it gets darker I act happy but if you get to know me then you will find out that I am never happy even when I find someone in this world loves me so you see inside my brain no one should try to open it up or it just hurts more. loved the song i feel it so deep inside of me.
As a fellow songwriter and colourful weirdo, i love that I've discovered Madeline! One thing I find crazy though is I wrote a song called "colours that don't exist" and yesterday when I first heard this song I was like NO WAY I thought of that tooo
Thank you for this song and your music Madeline❤️ I remember when you posted a clip of As A Child for the first time. So proud of you for making your dreams come true and thank you for sharing your gift with us! I may have listened to your EP 100+ times by now
i’m crying this girl has always understood the assignment 😩
Madeline, you have a gift for exploring necessary mourning and bringing sincere healing.
She really does I connect with every song she put out.
I’m just here before ppl find out how amazing she is
Fr
Yes
She’s amazing
You won't be there after ?
I know right!?!!
Her vocal range is wider than me after thanksgiving🙌
and the lyrics are so well thought, how is she so underrated???
I can listen to this song over and over, but it hits every time. Her lyrics are incredible and this song is one of a kind.
"Far too many a time
I have seen my mom cry
More than you, I presume
'Cause your dad didn't die"
Madeline, I hope you see this because this hit me hard. I'm new in my journey, my dad died in August. I'm older than you but the truth is you're never old enough to lose someone or see your mom go through something like this. Couple grief with dating, it's hard to even feel vulnerable enough to talk about my grief with him. We're taught that grieving is something we should do in private and as quickly as possible but the truth is, sometimes all I want to talk about is how it feels. To talk about sitting in the parking lot three hours after he died listening to the same song on repeat as my mother picked out a wreath. To talk about how it felt watching him slowly die for 20 months until I forgot he was dying, only to be blindsided by it. To talk about the uncomfortable mundanity of grief.
Grief is nasty and so isolating. We deserve to be able to talk about it without people treating us as if it's something they can fix. As if we can just ignore that the man who raised us is gone. As if that void coud ever be filled. I don't want to not grieve. I don't want to ignore how I feel. I love my dad so much, if grieving is how I have to experience that love for the rest of my life... I'm more than happy to make that sacrifice. I refuse to hide my feelings away.
I'm sorry for unpacking all of this in a comment you may never see, but I want you to know how much this EP has resonated with me and I feel understood.
Have you heard her song 'as a child'
In it she says " all that I've wanted is to talk to someone who is dead, but unfortunately I can't call him so I sing instead.."
Those words hit just as hard as that mother trying to raise those kids who grieve together. Forever. Thirteen years now. I hear my daughter in Madeline So much. So grieve out loud and never allow anyone to silence what you feel💗 Just never let what you feel define you. Much love to all facing grief head on. Sing it, speak it, write it, draw it. Just share it. Well done Madeline🙏
This actually gave me goosebumps the first time - well done.
That first verse is perfect.
I can't tell you how much this song means to me Madeline! Its been impossible to mask my depression since I moved to a new state on my own. All I want is someone to be patient and stick around, and love me even though I'm a downer. Everything sucks, but I shouldn't have to be perfect to be loved. But I love you Maddie!
I had that same experience when I moved to Arizona and left all my friends and chosen family behind. It’s such a hard transition and I still have so much complex grief from it. Good luck to you
@@fp1912 I've been out here for 10 months, its especially difficult cause of covid. I'm hoping it gets easier once school starts. I'm also starting tms therapy soon and I'm really hopeful about that!
@@fp1912 I hope that your grief becomes easier to handle, and you make new friends and family.
@@amandajensen4966 omg I want TMS so bad! Hope you have the kind of transformative experience I’ve heard from others who’ve had it.
@@fp1912 lol I'll try to remember to keep you updated 😂 I hope I get good results too. Been depressed since forever. Would be crazy not to have it as bad anymore.
Heartbreakingly beautiful. Losing my dad when I was 11 years old changed my entire life and who I am. This song so perfectly encapsulates the horrible struggle of carrying on as a child whose world has been devastated. The frustration and difficulty dealing with others who could never understand your feelings and why you're no longer the same.
dude you’re literally so talented I’m obsessed!! 😘 have a good day to anyone that reads this :)))
this made me cry so much i screamed, i'm glad no one was home when i had the breakdown because i would not have hesitated to scream either way, i don't know why this hasn't blown up yet but shared it with all my friends and they all said they cried when they got to the 2nd verse.
looks straight at me and just try
to say something you mean
I'm a puppet tied up stuffed with anxiety
No, I won't go to dinner
you won't watch me eat
In 5 years you'll still wonder if I have real feet
Far too many a time, I have seen my mom cry
More than you I presume cause your dad didn't die
So I'll tell you the secret to staying alive
You just laugh and cry harder and scream to survive
Don't you know how to make me happy
You let me weep and you do it so gladly
Follow me as I tread water and start to believe
that I'm floating above all these monstrosities
On your left, you'll see colors that don't yet exist
On your right is the home to all lone pacifists
Far below is the black hole that wants me to drown
and the bad things I've done that always stick around
In your mind do something that you cannot hold
It's a world and you have it until you grow old
Don't you know how to make me happy
You let me weep and you do so gladly
Don't keep me sweet and toss out the rest
even though its what you do best
You cant keep me sweet and toss out the rest
I'll never stop making a mess
Don't you know how to make me happy
You let me weep and you do so gladly
i’ve never been so in love with a person i’ve never met
I had to look you up on RUclips coz tic tok ain't long enough... I need more! ....
I've seen so many live acts over the years... No one comes close.... Your amazing! ... You've got it all
Lyrics, voice , the look...
You've blown me away
This girl is the definition of my feelings sometimes and I needed to know someone understood the way I felt but I wanted a sentence but y'all we gotta song outta our sadness thank you for understanding the way others feel! I am here for your ride.
I’ve never bought music so fast in my life. As soon as I heard her and her lyrics, I was so excited to hear music like it. I’ve been waiting so long for something like this to come along!
This hurted
I am so beyond happy I found you, your music brings something out of me that I can’t express. I just resonate to your music so much and you are going to help and save so many people through your music and I can’t wait to see you get big.
i lost my dad august 2021, i love this song so much
Okay, I typically don’t make comments but I fell in love with this girls voice after her cover of “The Chain by Fleetwood”, I replayed it over and over and over again. To see her now making HER music and me being able to connect so well it’s just very beautiful. My heart goes out to anybody dealing with the powerful process of grieving. I lost both of my parents and there’s not a day that I don’t run through the cycle. I just want to say thank you and keep going guys!!!!! ❤️
Currently crying my eyes out, this song is POWERFUL
This is one of my faves. Gping through a shitty time and your music gives me so much. You are the cutest and one of the most talented humans around
You are seriously the next superstar of this generation .. Your voice is beyond amazing. The soul and the meaning of your songs are incredibly emotional . You have something sooooooo special and i cant wait to see you grow as an artist ! Keep this colorful and wonderful mind of yours ♡
This is hauntingly beautiful
I just found your song "mean" and ive been binging your music. Its exactly the music ive been needing for a really long time but couldnt find and i couldnt write it without being violent and correlating it to the problems with the whole world and forgetting its me i need to worry about... :D
This song is just beyond good, it brought back emotions I’ve spent years trying to put away. Thank you for that, I didn’t know I needed it❤️
Very perceptive AND good music, not just the same repeated riff. I hope you have a superior career doing it your way. (From a former radio music director who still loves discovering good new music.)
Made me feel overwhelming emotions🍃✨️♥️
I have your EP on repeat, gal. This is REAL music.
fav song on the ep
I love the aesthetic you kept throughout this entire venture! It makes me jealous it's so pretty😍And your voice is so beautiful, it's like you're brimming with emotions and at the same time, you're calmly sorting through them, I love it! I hope we hear more from you!!!
Your description perfectly summarises this music. Thank you for your kind and apt comment. 😊
I know how parts of your brain people want you to just get rid of or don't show but most people don't wanna get close to me because when they do they see all my darkness and when you decide to go in deep to try to find the light you just find it gets darker I act happy but if you get to know me then you will find out that I am never happy even when I find someone in this world loves me so you see inside my brain no one should try to open it up or it just hurts more. loved the song i feel it so deep inside of me.
I saw this on a RUclips ad and watched it now I am obsessed with her songs ❤
This is colorful 🌊
As a fellow songwriter and colourful weirdo, i love that I've discovered Madeline! One thing I find crazy though is I wrote a song called "colours that don't exist" and yesterday when I first heard this song I was like NO WAY I thought of that tooo
This song has touched me in a way i can’t put into words. just thank you. and please make art for a long time.
I- I think I found my new favorite artist 😏😏
Thank you for your voice Madeline. 🥲🥲🥲 I have never felt music resonate with me like yours does.
YES I WAS WAITING AHHHHH I'M SO PROUD
Thank you for this song and your music Madeline❤️ I remember when you posted a clip of As A Child for the first time. So proud of you for making your dreams come true and thank you for sharing your gift with us! I may have listened to your EP 100+ times by now
so ready for her to take over the world
You never miss
People need to find out how ✨ Amazing ✨ this girl's talent is
bro I can't even sing along without crying and breaking down to all your songs!!!
So relatable.sixteen and suffering from anxiety.hit me back please 🙏🥺 Madeline
This song is so relatable ❤❤❤❤❤😢😢😢😢😢❤😢❤😢❤😢❤😢😢❤😢❤😢❤😢❤😢😢❤😢❤😢❤😢❤😢😢❤😢❤😢❤😢😢❤😢❤😢❤😢😢❤😢❤😢❤😢
This is easily my favourite song !!
Hi I'm from germany and my english isn't the best so I'm gonna write it in german
It's really one of the purest and most beautiful music's pieces i have ever heard...❤️
I love the song. The fur room with the bathtub however gives me anxieties I didn't know I had.
I love her! She's definitely going places. ! I hope she keeps moving forward and doesn't let the industry change her beautiful soul.
i can hear almost all of her songs on pretty much any coming of age movie ever.
it’s me i’m trying to help u zion! ❤
I just discovered her music im so glad i did
I think this one is my favorite of all of them...can’t wait for the rest of the tour
Bro im glad I got the ad for this song her music is great
chills. i have all of ur music on repeat, your music never fails to make me cry.
I've been binging your ep! Your voice and song writing speaks to my soul. 😭💕
I started crying after the first verse..just WOW. You are amazing.
Your music is like no other, im 23 and havent heard music ive related too more in my life
Omg i just found madeline, she is amazing! I love her songs.
I have just discovered you and WOW what a discovery..........YOU are amazing
This is amazing ahhh I can't wait to hear more music from you 💕❤🌈
im literally obsessed youre so talented and i love this soo much!!
Yes yes yes I was so excited for this one!
❤❤❤ thank you ❤
😭😊
Love her. Yep. Here before everyone else realizes how great she is. An artist. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
What?! How have I not seen this before. Your lyrics are extraordinary. As are you!
It’s been up 14 hours and has zero dislikes💜 That’s how amazing this is🧡
IM CRYING THANK YOU ❤
Makes me feel less alone
Madeline.....thank you. This is so, so wonderfully exquisite.
this whole ep gives off nostalgic feelings
I needed to hear this today! I needed this. Thank you! I love you! ❤️
On repeat I had an instant connection with this song
this is so amazing and beautiful! thank you so much for it
This was beautiful and so genuine
omg i love you and this
Im obsessed 😍 can’t wait till you make it
The chills, the woman, the entire song 🥺💗
Just sitting here so grateful🎶 listening to this wonderful rhythm of yours! May all God's angels watch over you always little darling! Love, Johna.🌻
I really love her 🥰
oh my god every lyrics of your song really hits different. I love your songs!
This is so good
In love with this song. You’re so talented💜
u kill it every time
Omg amazing. This is calling to my inner soul. Thank you so much.
Your voice and lyrics are just something else
the outfit is so beautiful!
thank u for saving my life
Thank you
I cant stop listening to her music. Amazing.😲
does anyone know why most of her music isnt available on apple music?
You are the best person I've seen and heard, beauty defined as you are and will be.
everything about this is beautiful
Jeeeeeez i can’t. You are so wonderful
ok...why is this so underrated....bruh this is like relatable 😭
This song really hit me
This is seriously beautiful, wow!!!