In the caverns of your being, a deep well of solitude stirs. It's not a hollow loneliness, but a yearning for the quiet whisper of your own soul. The outside world, once a vibrant tapestry, becomes a relentless march on the path you're not taking. Each figure passing by feels like a wave crashing against the shore of your introspection, a reminder of the connections you've momentarily set aside. It's a bittersweet ache, this need for separateness, a necessary shedding of the social skin to reconnect with the core of who you are.
Men like you don't happen very often Mattsy, your creativity, wit and humour is so unique. Never forget how rare a precious a gift you are to this world
Such a beautiful part of the country and those howls were deeply melancholic, so I appreciate how sad they made you feel. Kind of fitting I suppose, in a metaphorical way - mournful cries from the wilderness that I hope can survive into the future. There's a peculiar challenge to riding the roller coaster of seemingly contradictory emotions that push and pull - especially the tension between seeking solitude and finding comraderie with others (in the right settings). I'm over a decade older than you and still can't lose my ticket to that show ride. I'm glad you decided to share this video and I suspect you really edited out a lot of the more probing, or deeply ponderous bits of your monologue for the sake of your viewers but I hope you realise you don't have to. A lot of us do relate through our own experiences of anxiety. Fascinating though, how you find the nomadic lifestyle has really spoken to you. I grew up fairly nomadic (military family, then we travelled in a caravan for a few years as a family) and it's stayed in my blood. My (other) push-pull anxiety is around wanting to find "home" somewhere, but never feeling quite like I have arrived "there" yet. Anyhow, I think this was a great video and I'm glad you felt ready to edit it together to share. For most of it you looked pretty darned happy - I don't ever want to lose a sense of adventure, and thankfully haven't yet. Be wel Mattsy!
Thank you for that, Fiona 🙏 That’s interesting you saying that about being quite nomadic with the family when you were younger and that push/pull to find somewhere to call home. We weren’t nomadic in that sense but we did do a lot of road trips and they’re by far my strongest and favourite memories, I wonder if there’s a link there. One funny thing I’ve found is that I often have a lot in common with people who really like to drive, like long drives, for the sake of driving even. I can only assume that’s because of whatever is going on inside their head and act of driving, moving between places takes away some of the worry or whatever it might be, because you’re busy doing the only thing you need to worry about doing right now, controlling the car and getting to the destination. Odd thought but there you go haha! Always appreciate your comments and feedback Fiona. I hope you find a place to call home or find a way to free yourself of that push and pull maybe. Thank you! 🙏
After owning my home all my life to becoming homeless and having to give up my beautiful children… I can only describe my experience as shock drop. Life that I always knew will never feel the same. I can appreciate your perspective of hermit life and simplicity. You are not alone there.
Don't give up faith mate , often the view from a deep drop looks impossible, reach in small steps for what you can get , every milestone becomes a victory. You got there once, fight and take back what you deserve , wishing you luck and positivity .
Haha sorry about not answering the phone mate! At the time I was fishing in the high country and had no reception .. I thought I heard your voice carry across the mountain though 🤣 Cracker vid!
I have the same roller coaster in my head. Often I avoid getting myself into social situations and am happy to be in my own company, but at the same time find myself wanting to be with others and wishing I were a more outgoing person. I do enjoy time meeting new people on the occasions I do, but as you did revert back to my usual self afterwards. It’s like it drains me in some way. I think for me it’s partly a lack of confidence in myself especially in groups. From watching your videos I can see you have a great outgoing and humorous personality so I would have never thought you would have a similar problem. Glad you shared the video mate. Keep on doing what you love mate, I hope one day I’ll be out there doing the same.
Thanks for sharing Mattsy. Your content is always honest and genuine, and that's really important to see these days. Keep sharing the highs and lows, we appreciate them both. ❤
You are a classic Mattsy love your honesty I've had depression most of my life and find that of recent times a few people talk about it but not many. Great to hear you tell some of your story and your antics and funny actions and the beautiful wilderness that you take us to helps everyone Just as you I get enjoyment from the mountains, rivers and streams and the solitude of being out there I'm looking forward to watching other videos of yours. Take it easy as that man said
I too get those feelings, and I just recently discovered something called Internal Family Systems therapy. You can do it yourself without a therapist. That's what I've done. Over simplified version, show yourself the same compassion you'd show your friends or family. Talk to the emotional state that's causing you to feel a way you don't like. Say, you "I see you, I love you, thank you for trying to help, but instead of anxiety right now, let confidence take the lead, and we'll all feel better." it sounds weird, but it works. All of our self harming habits are simply our mind trying it's best to cope. So be nice to yourself and it will actually make a huge difference. ❤ Namaste, I bow to the divine within you. Ps I liked and subscribed. Keep up the work!
Thank you for the video, and for early access for Patreon folks. I'm oversharing I guess but I was diagnosed with Autism & ADHD in adulthood (on top of anxiety etc etc) and I can really understand the frustration and difficulty of wanting to go out and get away from civilisation only to bump into a record number of people even on a 'quiet' trail. And the conflict between being thrown off by that while also getting small bursts of enjoyment from some interactions, and trying to appreciate little moments you would definitely be thankful for if they were planned or happened at another time... I don't know where I'm going with this but I can relate to the rollercoaster/reverting to being a hermit. It seemed like you were apprehensive about sharing this one but it turned out great and you needn't be. Hope your permits come through soon and you're somehow staying warm in this weather.
Thank you so much for sharing that. I think it only helps everyone, yourself included. The mind is a complex thing and I believe a lot more of us are dealing with one thing or another than we care to share, but some dealing with much more too of course. It can be a real grind at times just trying to get through it but I have found that the more I share my experiences the easier it has become for me to go through those moments. Less alone or less in my own head I guess. I really appreciate your support and for everything. 🙏🙏
Thanx for the vid! I stayed in Cascade hut 25 years ago with a mate of mine. Next day we did the big drop down to the Murray River. Great trip. My mate recently passed away so this brought the memories back.
Ah mate, I’m really sorry to hear but I hope the video at least stirred up some fond memories of you and your mate sharing some incredible time together in a beautiful part of the world. I hope this hut survives many more years to allow people to have the same memories to look back on. Thanks for watching Bob
Thankyou for deciding to share this video, I can relate to so much of how you were feeling in so many ways. It made me feel as though I am not alone in the way I think. So thankyou for that. And the scenery was absolutely spectacular, I would love to explore that part of this beautiful country of ours. Awesome video, can’t wait for the next one 😁
Thank you Jeanie. And of course you’re not! As much as it feels like it sometimes. The brain just likes to throw curve balls and overthinking at us for fun I think. It’s such a beautiful part of Australia out there in Kosciuszko that’s for sure!
Really enjoyed this one mate, i do enjoy all your vids but this one in particular.The way you present yourself and your thoughts really hits and resonates with me in a way thats hard to explain. I reckon those howls are more likely wild dogs than dingoes, i see and hear them pretty much every time im up there. Keep doing what your doing Mattsy.
Really nice one Silly. Something much more open about you in this. I felt for you, as someone who has also struggled with anxiety, as they call it, which I recognise as fear, in me. Thankyou for the video, and the time for my partner and I to enjoy your spirit, in a place I haven't been yet, and to reflect on what you revealed in yourself, and its presence in us too. I recently watched a video @giantcheerio about her partner and her crossing the border into Iran on bicycles. I found a similar humanity in her openness about her struggle with it too, as she deals with the bewilderment of culture shock. Safe travels. You keep getting better and better at this.
Ahh yes I know the channel, I will have to pop that on tonight! And yes, fear is a good name for it, but it is quite random at times. Starting these videos has definitely helped me understand it and myself a little better that’s for sure. I’m glad you guys got something more out of it than just the nature escape this time round. 🙏
Love your honesty on mental health and your outlook, You are not alone with the thoughts you have and it's OK to crave your own company at times but also so important we connect others to continue our own growth. Enjoy!!!
Thanks Mike! I appreciate it mate. I definitely agree that it’s very important to connect with others for the purpose of self growth but speaking for myself, I have a very social life and heading out into these places is my attempt at disconnecting for a moment, so that’s certainly not the issue for me. But yep, definitely not healthy to just lock yourself up inside your house everyday to avoid social interactions, that’s for sure. Thanks for watching and for the feedback mate 😊🙏
@TheSillySwagman I have my anxiety motto of 101% - When you are at 100% of your coping level and you get that crushing anxiety feeling and you feel that you want to give up then you push the 1% more and you find that a new life exists beyond your mental boundaries, you discover that life, freedom and growth begin at 101%♥️
Haha I love that actually, that makes total sense. Thats a really helpful motto. Thanks for sharing mate, it could help any number of people who read these comments, so we appreciate it 🙏
Your words bring out pride and bravery in me when I watch your videos. I too have suffered from anxiety and mental health but watching your videos makes me fell better for some reason. I live close by the Snowies and soon hope to make my own trip up there in the swag for an adventure of the lifetime!!! Mike... ;)
Up the back of wee jasper in the mountains, David Todd & I planned a 19 day hike & camp in 1982, that took us into the rugged mountains where I recon no man has ever stepped foot. Day 4 for set up camp in this small open clearly & could only have a small fire to keep us warm that first night on this spot.. the next day, we knew we were to explore around this area & after we did so, we cleared an area bigger, dug a could size pit, so we could have a bonfire to say the least. It was freezing by the time we finished, stacking fire wood to last a few days for our return trip. We lit the fire by 5pm & with the sun going down fast, we heated our food & we were just chatting til about 7:30pm, when this large rock hit the fire sending sparks flying everywhere. No way it fell from anywhere, it was tossed up in the sky some distances before hitting. I grabbed the torch & shined it up the ridge. Standing about 20 meters away was this big hairy monster on two legs about to through another rock the size of a football. It let out a roar that still scares me today. We had a ruger mini 14, .223 cal incase we ran into wild pigs. It had a 30 mag, I went to go into my tent as David opened fire on this thing. When I shined the light up the hill, it was ripping out good size trees to get traction in running. We lost sight of it. We were that scared, we stayed up all night until dawn & made our way back towards home. We made it home finally into wee jasper calling the police. They never took us seriously, but I know what I saw. It was a yowie. Massive shoulders & arms. Those legs were like tree trunks. I can see why they blend into the woods. If one was standing still, you would not see it up there. It’s the smell. Like half between a dead rotten fish to rotten cat or dog. A park ranger who we spoke to maybe 2 years later said when they were shooting wild brumbies in those mountains, they found this massive like big birds nest hidden under these rocks with a wild brumbies ripped apart. With the blood being fresh, they left in a hurry. He even said they heard this thing roaring up the mountain further.
I’m appreciating your RUclipss more and more. Your filming locations Your warm and joyful personality , mixed with your in depth thoughts are making your work a must see. Brilliant
So glad you were courageous enough to share this adventure. I understand being torn between peace and solitude, and time with others. It’s a long game that’s for sure. The area you explored was truly magical. We’d love to explore there one day~Nicole
Mattsy, I am glad you’re in a place where you are feeling calm and peaceful. I have always enjoyed your content. Beautiful scenery. Always thought provoking. History with some comedy and some bush philosophy. I also find it really cool to see Australian winter time as I sit here in the sweltering heat of the North American summer. You’ve done it again! Glad I got to go along for the walk. Hope all your vids see the light of day. They are all worth sharing for their own reasons. Appreciate your creativity.
Truly is an incredible bit of country mate. Really loving the poetry or outward thoughts. It's funny all my siblings are very social and outgoing and I've always been the introvert the one who loves been alone and thrives in solitude more then with lots of people,. But it can be easy at Times to ponder and fall into moments of deep over thinking. But I think to be alone and to grow and adapt is a beautiful thing it makes you appreciate conversation when you have it. Blueberry rum sounds delish as.
I could sit here and watch your videos for hours. The scenery is just so amazing and what you say about it soothing the soul would be so true. It sure would be a great way to clear the head. Might just have to give it a go soon. Keep up the great work mate. Loving it 🤙
Thank you for sharing your quest for the peace you can really only find out in the natural world, where stories of yesteryear still reign supreme. How beautiful! 😀 All that peace tugs at my heartstrings.
I have PTSD and what you said about living in a house feeling like you're trapped really resonates. I'm so glad you have been able to leave those trappings behind and that you're finding peace and joy in nature. It's a beautiful journey to watch ❤
So glad you decided to upload this, really enjoyed it as I do all your videos, love the humor and the vulnerability you share with us, thank you. Can definitely relate to that need for solitude but also need for connection. Thank you
Sounds like you’ve been looking inside my brain mate. ….all is as it should be, is how I see the world after I’ve spent time out the back pastures like that…top notch Mattsy🇦🇺👍
Dude, I have those same anxieties when solo camping. I tend to hide out and go into my shell a bit. But once you have a chat you realize that most people out here are doing it for the same reasons as you. Glad you uploaded this one mate. Was nice to know others feel the same as I do around strangers.
Thanks mate. Yeah of course they are and I appreciate that. It’s such a bizarre feeling though the way hits you. Best thing to do just stop thinking about it and crack open some trail mix and see if they want any I guess 😂
Thank you for sharing. I mostly fight the fight in silence, but it is nice to know my thoughts are not unique to myself, and I'm not alone. I love all your videos. They frequently make me smile and laugh out loud.
Thank you Bugsy 🙏 You’re certainly not alone, most of us do fight it in silence but I think as you said just being able to hear someone else going through something similar helps take the edge off a bit hey! Hope you’re doing well though mate Take care 🙏💪
So I finally decided to jump into your channel mate, it kept popping up in my recommendations, I love it, you are a natural, you have a great personality, i can relate to your thoughts etc, and it is great to follow along on your adventures
Hey mate! Ah man, thank you. I’m glad you weren’t disappointed 😅 I really appreciate you taking the time to leave that feedback. 🙏 Thanks for coming watching! Should hopefully have some Tassie content up soon 💪
Nice relaxing video mate. Can relate about the socialising on the trail stuff (or even just in reality). I think it's normal we fluctuate in terms of enjoying/not being up for socialising, no biggy! Cheers
Yeah absolutely hey. I have questioned it a lot since whether a lot of it had to do with the simple fact that I was also out there to film. Just that extra anxiety layered on top of not being able to create what I set out there to do. Definitely bit of both. Thanks for watching man!
Stay strong bro you bring strength to others by just talking about those mongrel black dogs! Funny thing is that mother nature and being grounded is healing.
What a great video Matsy. Thank you. We all fight our demons daily bro. Sometimes they get the better of us, and other times we win. Take care mate and keep getting out in nature. it's healing.
Another great vid Mattsie the high country is a magic place and a place every Australian should visit.A hike to Round Mountain would be great to watch for your viewers.
Gidday Mattsy , great video buddy , awesome photography. Thx for sharing your mind battles , they creep up on us all at the best of times , old brain influences mate , ptsd. Part of beating it is acceptance. .. Breath my friend, it gets better.. About to catch your Chris Bamman interview, like yourself another great person , with similar eye to land attention.. Cheers mate stay well , all the best ..
Thanks a lot mate! You’re absolutely right about acceptance. Since starting this channel I’ve really had a chance to hear my own thoughts out loud while watching the footage back and it’s really given me a way to identify some of the things that occupy my head and it has definitely helped me to accept it and just roll with it that’s for sure. I think that’s why it’s important to just talk about it, saying it out loud kind of takes away the strangeness of it I reckon. Rather than it just sitting in your own head feeling like a weirdo 😂 Thanks for watching and for the feedback mate 🙏🙏
@TheSillySwagman I mentioned I served , 126sigs. Have demons , but 5 years or so ago I finally found a psychologist I could chat with and relate. Identifying, accepting, forgiving and knowing, it has settled my crazy world of alcohol and drug addiction to a calm rhythm, very few lows but now soo many highs .. Believe my friend. try n chat more with guidance. Brains are all beautifully confusing for a reason, no exceptions.....
Enjoyed this video Mattsy, love your open honesty and the fun banter along the way! Looking forward to some Tassie ‘nature emergencies’. Keep up the great work Mattsy 👍⛰️🏕️
That thing you saw is a brumby trap. The grass is low on salt up in the high country, and the brumbys crave it. So they leave salt licks in there to slowly get the horses used to regular access of salt. They then set the trap and the horses get stuck inside. This used to be the method of trapping brumbies for rehoming as they can add a truck ramp however with the culling going on this trap will likely be used for ground culling
Ah thank you so much for clearing that up mate. Thats awesome. Cheers And yep, I figured it was something along those lines. Good to know exactly what and how though. Legend 🙏
Totally feel the same as you about meeting people in the bush. The first few times is pleasant and then my social battery gets low and I don’t want to see anyone. It’s a constant battle but it’s nice to know someone else goes through it too mate.
Wonderful video mate, thankyou for providing this beautiful content, you're an amazing person Matty and it's a pleasure watching your videos. I hope you're doing good bro. Much love from the UK. ❤
Love it Matsy. Beautiful area, The Wildlife is always amazing, I know what you mean about having seen things before but always being in awe of them like it is your first time, Black Cockatoo's is one that always amazes me. Brilliant old huts too, they would be awesome to see and learn about, stepping back into the old world. Those Demons in your head can be a hard battle that's for sure but being outdoors sure does do wonders to help combat them and it is strange how seeing a person can feel so good when you are escaping from everything.
Stunning area and yes! The black cockatoos always give you that feeling don’t they. It’s funny. Such amazing creatures. And not wrong, I can’t imagine never heading out into places like that. Thanks for watching as always Mick 🙏
Wow!! I came to watching your channel through Scotty's Gone Walkabout. Have loved your adventures together. Always makes me laugh :) I always love your poetic take but this video, man it got me! For 4 years I have battled, at times, debillitating social anxiety and panic attacks. I am pleased to say I have come a long way and life is a lot easier now than it was but everything you said resonated with me 100%. Thanks for sharing such a personal experience with us. Helps to know we are not alone - although being alone in the bush is sometimes part of the cure ;)
Thank you Amanda! And I’m sorry to hear that but I’m happy to hear you’ve come a long way! I guess as we get older it’s easier to identify the triggers and when they begin and just acknowledging it can be held the battle sometimes. I’m glad the opening up about it is helping people not feel quite as alone as they may have. Thanks for watching 😊
Thanks mate! Yeah I think it definitely helps and it helps others watching and reading the comments know that most of us deal with something to some extent 🙏
Yes Mattsy! What can I say... cool people go to cool places 😎😆. The coincidental adventure overlaps with you and Luke have been so good to watch with many, many familiar moments and similar experiences. Not sure if you read any more of those visitor book entries but one keen hiker went to the State Library of Victoria to find some papers and info about old mate philosopher Carter to read while he hiked out and camped at the old Tin Mine Huts. That's next level taking yourself back in time and really getting a feel for it!
Hello again from Oregon, USA. The singer I was looking for is the one from your video where your beautiful dog Fango makes an appearance. Thanks again!
Hey mate! Ah yes, that’s actually a friend of mine. She doesn’t have an album or anything out on Spotify so you can’t really look her up. She’s a teacher so it’s not her full time gig unfortunately! Haha Lovely voice isn’t it!
@@TheSillySwagman Hello again Mattsy, The song from the video I'm referring to is the voice of a man. The song talks about working 9-5, let's get out out of the city, one day we can look back and so on. The song is playing at the very end of your video while beautiful Fango and the cows are in the background. However, your female friend's voice is also a lovely voice. Your choice of music is wonderful. Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. Love.
Its interesting that you nearly didnt make the video (although I understand). I actually really enjoyed the rawness of this experience. As an anxious person I can totally relate to a lot of the feelings that came up. Its also uplifting that you acknowledged them and persevered anyways. Another beautiful edit, thanks for sharing your adventure!
Thank you very much mate 🙏 I appreciate that. Yeah sometimes you can feel a bit stuck but I do always find the best thing to do is just commit to moving forward in one way or another and making the most of something even if you’re not feeling quite up to it, it helps get you past the strange moment you’re having. Thanks for watching and commenting too mate 🙏
You've done it again Mattsy! I love your videos because I share the love of nature, just like you. I wanted to know who sings the song in your previous video. If you or one of your followers can please let me know I would really appreciate it! Sending you and everyone lots of love.
In the caverns of your being, a deep well of solitude stirs. It's not a hollow loneliness, but a yearning for the quiet whisper of your own soul. The outside world, once a vibrant tapestry, becomes a relentless march on the path you're not taking. Each figure passing by feels like a wave crashing against the shore of your introspection, a reminder of the connections you've momentarily set aside. It's a bittersweet ache, this need for separateness, a necessary shedding of the social skin to reconnect with the core of who you are.
Wow. I could read that over and over again. Beautifully said. Thank you for sharing 🙏
Sweetly beautiful.
@@Levelz31 wonderful!
@@TheSillySwagmanindeed. I read that over and over …
Beautifully said ❤
Men like you don't happen very often Mattsy, your creativity, wit and humour is so unique. Never forget how rare a precious a gift you are to this world
Oh thank you 😄 I really appreciate that. Very lovely and kind thing to say. 🙏🙏
Thank you for the support
Yes! 💓
Such a beautiful part of the country and those howls were deeply melancholic, so I appreciate how sad they made you feel. Kind of fitting I suppose, in a metaphorical way - mournful cries from the wilderness that I hope can survive into the future. There's a peculiar challenge to riding the roller coaster of seemingly contradictory emotions that push and pull - especially the tension between seeking solitude and finding comraderie with others (in the right settings). I'm over a decade older than you and still can't lose my ticket to that show ride. I'm glad you decided to share this video and I suspect you really edited out a lot of the more probing, or deeply ponderous bits of your monologue for the sake of your viewers but I hope you realise you don't have to. A lot of us do relate through our own experiences of anxiety. Fascinating though, how you find the nomadic lifestyle has really spoken to you. I grew up fairly nomadic (military family, then we travelled in a caravan for a few years as a family) and it's stayed in my blood. My (other) push-pull anxiety is around wanting to find "home" somewhere, but never feeling quite like I have arrived "there" yet. Anyhow, I think this was a great video and I'm glad you felt ready to edit it together to share. For most of it you looked pretty darned happy - I don't ever want to lose a sense of adventure, and thankfully haven't yet. Be wel Mattsy!
Thank you for that, Fiona 🙏
That’s interesting you saying that about being quite nomadic with the family when you were younger and that push/pull to find somewhere to call home.
We weren’t nomadic in that sense but we did do a lot of road trips and they’re by far my strongest and favourite memories, I wonder if there’s a link there.
One funny thing I’ve found is that I often have a lot in common with people who really like to drive, like long drives, for the sake of driving even. I can only assume that’s because of whatever is going on inside their head and act of driving, moving between places takes away some of the worry or whatever it might be, because you’re busy doing the only thing you need to worry about doing right now, controlling the car and getting to the destination. Odd thought but there you go haha!
Always appreciate your comments and feedback Fiona. I hope you find a place to call home or find a way to free yourself of that push and pull maybe.
Thank you! 🙏
Loved the heart ( depth?) in your comment. Totally 👍❤
After owning my home all my life to becoming homeless and having to give up my beautiful children… I can only describe my experience as shock drop. Life that I always knew will never feel the same. I can appreciate your perspective of hermit life and simplicity. You are not alone there.
❤ Yep. Never alone 👍
An important reminder that everyone is facing their own battle in one way or another and at varying scales and levels. The hermit life 💪
Don't give up faith mate , often the view from a deep drop looks impossible, reach in small steps for what you can get , every milestone becomes a victory. You got there once, fight and take back what you deserve , wishing you luck and positivity .
Haha sorry about not answering the phone mate! At the time I was fishing in the high country and had no reception .. I thought I heard your voice carry across the mountain though 🤣
Cracker vid!
Hahaha! Too funny mate 😂
@@craig2795 Actually I caight nothing on that trip haha
I have the same roller coaster in my head. Often I avoid getting myself into social situations and am happy to be in my own company, but at the same time find myself wanting to be with others and wishing I were a more outgoing person.
I do enjoy time meeting new people on the occasions I do, but as you did revert back to my usual self afterwards. It’s like it drains me in some way.
I think for me it’s partly a lack of confidence in myself especially in groups.
From watching your videos I can see you have a great outgoing and humorous personality so I would have never thought you would have a similar problem.
Glad you shared the video mate.
Keep on doing what you love mate, I hope one day I’ll be out there doing the same.
Thanks for sharing Mattsy. Your content is always honest and genuine, and that's really important to see these days. Keep sharing the highs and lows, we appreciate them both. ❤
Thanks a lot Jack. I will remember that. I appreciate you watching and leaving some feedback too mate. 🙏
You are a classic Mattsy love your honesty I've had depression most of my life and find that of recent times a few people talk about it but not many. Great to hear you tell some of your story and your antics and funny actions and the beautiful wilderness that you take us to helps everyone Just as you I get enjoyment from the mountains, rivers and streams and the solitude of being out there I'm looking forward to watching other videos of yours. Take it easy as that man said
I too get those feelings, and I just recently discovered something called Internal Family Systems therapy. You can do it yourself without a therapist. That's what I've done. Over simplified version, show yourself the same compassion you'd show your friends or family. Talk to the emotional state that's causing you to feel a way you don't like. Say, you "I see you, I love you, thank you for trying to help, but instead of anxiety right now, let confidence take the lead, and we'll all feel better." it sounds weird, but it works. All of our self harming habits are simply our mind trying it's best to cope. So be nice to yourself and it will actually make a huge difference. ❤ Namaste, I bow to the divine within you.
Ps I liked and subscribed. Keep up the work!
Thank you for the video, and for early access for Patreon folks. I'm oversharing I guess but I was diagnosed with Autism & ADHD in adulthood (on top of anxiety etc etc) and I can really understand the frustration and difficulty of wanting to go out and get away from civilisation only to bump into a record number of people even on a 'quiet' trail. And the conflict between being thrown off by that while also getting small bursts of enjoyment from some interactions, and trying to appreciate little moments you would definitely be thankful for if they were planned or happened at another time... I don't know where I'm going with this but I can relate to the rollercoaster/reverting to being a hermit.
It seemed like you were apprehensive about sharing this one but it turned out great and you needn't be. Hope your permits come through soon and you're somehow staying warm in this weather.
Thank you so much for sharing that. I think it only helps everyone, yourself included. The mind is a complex thing and I believe a lot more of us are dealing with one thing or another than we care to share, but some dealing with much more too of course. It can be a real grind at times just trying to get through it but I have found that the more I share my experiences the easier it has become for me to go through those moments. Less alone or less in my own head I guess.
I really appreciate your support and for everything. 🙏🙏
Thanx for the vid! I stayed in Cascade hut 25 years ago with a mate of mine. Next day we did the big drop down to the Murray River. Great trip. My mate recently passed away so this brought the memories back.
Ah mate, I’m really sorry to hear but I hope the video at least stirred up some fond memories of you and your mate sharing some incredible time together in a beautiful part of the world.
I hope this hut survives many more years to allow people to have the same memories to look back on.
Thanks for watching Bob
Thankyou for deciding to share this video, I can relate to so much of how you were feeling in so many ways. It made me feel as though I am not alone in the way I think. So thankyou for that.
And the scenery was absolutely spectacular, I would love to explore that part of this beautiful country of ours.
Awesome video, can’t wait for the next one 😁
Thank you Jeanie. And of course you’re not! As much as it feels like it sometimes. The brain just likes to throw curve balls and overthinking at us for fun I think.
It’s such a beautiful part of Australia out there in Kosciuszko that’s for sure!
Really enjoyed this one mate, i do enjoy all your vids but this one in particular.The way you present yourself and your thoughts really hits and resonates with me in a way thats hard to explain.
I reckon those howls are more likely wild dogs than dingoes, i see and hear them pretty much every time im up there.
Keep doing what your doing Mattsy.
You are a fantastic mentor for young men to be real about their emotions. You’re a terrific bloke!
Thank you! I hope so. 🙏 I appreciate you watching 😊
Really nice one Silly. Something much more open about you in this. I felt for you, as someone who has also struggled with anxiety, as they call it, which I recognise as fear, in me. Thankyou for the video, and the time for my partner and I to enjoy your spirit, in a place I haven't been yet, and to reflect on what you revealed in yourself, and its presence in us too.
I recently watched a video @giantcheerio about her partner and her crossing the border into Iran on bicycles. I found a similar humanity in her openness about her struggle with it too, as she deals with the bewilderment of culture shock.
Safe travels. You keep getting better and better at this.
Ahh yes I know the channel, I will have to pop that on tonight!
And yes, fear is a good name for it, but it is quite random at times. Starting these videos has definitely helped me understand it and myself a little better that’s for sure. I’m glad you guys got something more out of it than just the nature escape this time round.
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Love your honesty on mental health and your outlook, You are not alone with the thoughts you have and it's OK to crave your own company at times but also so important we connect others to continue our own growth. Enjoy!!!
Thanks Mike! I appreciate it mate.
I definitely agree that it’s very important to connect with others for the purpose of self growth but speaking for myself, I have a very social life and heading out into these places is my attempt at disconnecting for a moment, so that’s certainly not the issue for me. But yep, definitely not healthy to just lock yourself up inside your house everyday to avoid social interactions, that’s for sure.
Thanks for watching and for the feedback mate 😊🙏
@TheSillySwagman I have my anxiety motto of 101% - When you are at 100% of your coping level and you get that crushing anxiety feeling and you feel that you want to give up then you push the 1% more and you find that a new life exists beyond your mental boundaries, you discover that life, freedom and growth begin at 101%♥️
Haha I love that actually, that makes total sense. Thats a really helpful motto. Thanks for sharing mate, it could help any number of people who read these comments, so we appreciate it 🙏
Your words bring out pride and bravery in me when I watch your videos. I too have suffered from anxiety and mental health but watching your videos makes me fell better for some reason. I live close by the Snowies and soon hope to make my own trip up there in the swag for an adventure of the lifetime!!!
Mike... ;)
Another bloody masterpiece mate. I hear and understand all your words. Laughter and tears all at once. Be safe out there my friend.👍
Thanks a lot Steve, I appreciate it mate. Thanks for watching 🙏
Up the back of wee jasper in the mountains, David Todd & I planned a 19 day hike & camp in 1982, that took us into the rugged mountains where I recon no man has ever stepped foot. Day 4 for set up camp in this small open clearly & could only have a small fire to keep us warm that first night on this spot.. the next day, we knew we were to explore around this area & after we did so, we cleared an area bigger, dug a could size pit, so we could have a bonfire to say the least. It was freezing by the time we finished, stacking fire wood to last a few days for our return trip. We lit the fire by 5pm & with the sun going down fast, we heated our food & we were just chatting til about 7:30pm, when this large rock hit the fire sending sparks flying everywhere. No way it fell from anywhere, it was tossed up in the sky some distances before hitting. I grabbed the torch & shined it up the ridge. Standing about 20 meters away was this big hairy monster on two legs about to through another rock the size of a football. It let out a roar that still scares me today. We had a ruger mini 14, .223 cal incase we ran into wild pigs. It had a 30 mag, I went to go into my tent as David opened fire on this thing. When I shined the light up the hill, it was ripping out good size trees to get traction in running. We lost sight of it. We were that scared, we stayed up all night until dawn & made our way back towards home. We made it home finally into wee jasper calling the police. They never took us seriously, but I know what I saw. It was a yowie. Massive shoulders & arms. Those legs were like tree trunks. I can see why they blend into the woods. If one was standing still, you would not see it up there. It’s the smell. Like half between a dead rotten fish to rotten cat or dog. A park ranger who we spoke to maybe 2 years later said when they were shooting wild brumbies in those mountains, they found this massive like big birds nest hidden under these rocks with a wild brumbies ripped apart. With the blood being fresh, they left in a hurry. He even said they heard this thing roaring up the mountain further.
I’m appreciating your RUclipss more and more. Your filming locations
Your warm and joyful personality , mixed with your in depth thoughts are making your work a must see.
Brilliant
Thank you so much! I’m glad you’re enjoying the adventures and my ramblings 😄 thanks for watching 🙌
4:18 yes for wild horses, seen them in a couple of parks. Not slaughter houses but holding pens
So glad you were courageous enough to share this adventure. I understand being torn between peace and solitude, and time with others. It’s a long game that’s for sure.
The area you explored was truly magical. We’d love to explore there one day~Nicole
Thank you Nicole. Yeah, sometimes you just have to take it as it comes and roll with it 😅
And yes, you have to! It’s stunning out there
Mattsy, I am glad you’re in a place where you are feeling calm and peaceful. I have always enjoyed your content. Beautiful scenery. Always thought provoking. History with some comedy and some bush philosophy. I also find it really cool to see Australian winter time as I sit here in the sweltering heat of the North American summer. You’ve done it again! Glad I got to go along for the walk. Hope all your vids see the light of day. They are all worth sharing for their own reasons. Appreciate your creativity.
Wooo coming to Tassie!!🎉
you always explore such beautiful locations can’t wait for you to come down to my neck of the woods!
Just need my filming license and we’re on 😅
Truly is an incredible bit of country mate.
Really loving the poetry or outward thoughts.
It's funny all my siblings are very social and outgoing and I've always been the introvert the one who loves been alone and thrives in solitude more then with lots of people,.
But it can be easy at Times to ponder and fall into moments of deep over thinking.
But I think to be alone and to grow and adapt is a beautiful thing it makes you appreciate conversation when you have it.
Blueberry rum sounds delish as.
Love your words... Very poetic. The bush is a powerful healer.
I could sit here and watch your videos for hours. The scenery is just so amazing and what you say about it soothing the soul would be so true. It sure would be a great way to clear the head. Might just have to give it a go soon. Keep up the great work mate. Loving it 🤙
I think you might have to mate!
Thanks for watching and for the feedback 🙏😄
Beautiful country and great video mattsy, 😊👍
Thanks mate!
Thank you for sharing your quest for the peace you can really only find out in the natural world, where stories of yesteryear still reign supreme. How beautiful! 😀 All that peace tugs at my heartstrings.
A beautiful place that’s for sure! Watching the footage as I did the edit made me want to go back there so much haha
Thanks for watching 😄
I have PTSD and what you said about living in a house feeling like you're trapped really resonates. I'm so glad you have been able to leave those trappings behind and that you're finding peace and joy in nature. It's a beautiful journey to watch ❤
So glad you decided to upload this, really enjoyed it as I do all your videos, love the humor and the vulnerability you share with us, thank you. Can definitely relate to that need for solitude but also need for connection. Thank you
Thanks Tina, I’m glad I did too. I really wasn’t going to! Thank you for watching and for leaving a lovely comment, it’s very much appreciated 😊
Great video Mattsy. Good on you for openly talking about how you feel. There needs to be more of it in our society.
Thank you Sam! I agree 🙏
Man I’m sooo jealous!! Bloody awesome trip mate 👍
Thanks a lot mate!!
Sounds like you’ve been looking inside my brain mate. ….all is as it should be, is how I see the world after I’ve spent time out the back pastures like that…top notch Mattsy🇦🇺👍
Haha yeah that’s for damn sure, mate. I’m sure too many people can relate to
I love the sound of the Currawongs they always, always remind me of camping and the bush.
Definitely in my three favourite sounds from the bush 😄
Bloody ripper, great video mate.
Thanks brother! 😎🤙
Love your work M@c. Your lessons in philosophy resound in your environment.
Thanks a lot mate, I appreciate that 🙏🙏
Sometimes my insomnia gives me a wee perk. Seeing your vid gave me a happy boost, never disappoints 😊
Getting away from it all, is just the best!
It sure is!
The fresh air and those views are good for the soul. Thanks for sharing mate!
Great vid matey. Hope you enjoyed that -13 morning in Tassie the other day. Looking forward to your adventures in Tassie.
Hahaha thanks mate 🤣🤣 Always!
Can’t wait to start some filming
Dude, I have those same anxieties when solo camping. I tend to hide out and go into my shell a bit. But once you have a chat you realize that most people out here are doing it for the same reasons as you. Glad you uploaded this one mate. Was nice to know others feel the same as I do around strangers.
Thanks mate. Yeah of course they are and I appreciate that. It’s such a bizarre feeling though the way hits you. Best thing to do just stop thinking about it and crack open some trail mix and see if they want any I guess 😂
Nice one Mattsy!
Thank you so much mate! 🙌🙏🙏 I appreciate it brother
Thank you for sharing. I mostly fight the fight in silence, but it is nice to know my thoughts are not unique to myself, and I'm not alone. I love all your videos. They frequently make me smile and laugh out loud.
Thank you Bugsy 🙏
You’re certainly not alone, most of us do fight it in silence but I think as you said just being able to hear someone else going through something similar helps take the edge off a bit hey!
Hope you’re doing well though mate
Take care 🙏💪
So I finally decided to jump into your channel mate, it kept popping up in my recommendations, I love it, you are a natural, you have a great personality, i can relate to your thoughts etc, and it is great to follow along on your adventures
Hey mate! Ah man, thank you. I’m glad you weren’t disappointed 😅 I really appreciate you taking the time to leave that feedback. 🙏
Thanks for coming watching! Should hopefully have some Tassie content up soon 💪
Mate that was honestly fabulous
Thank you 🙏
Ah man, thank you so much mate 🙏🙏🙏
Love the sense of adventure.
The Cliffy shuffle.
Haha that’s it!
Nice relaxing video mate. Can relate about the socialising on the trail stuff (or even just in reality). I think it's normal we fluctuate in terms of enjoying/not being up for socialising, no biggy! Cheers
Yeah absolutely hey. I have questioned it a lot since whether a lot of it had to do with the simple fact that I was also out there to film. Just that extra anxiety layered on top of not being able to create what I set out there to do. Definitely bit of both.
Thanks for watching man!
your a diamond in the rough mate, glad i found the channel.
Thanks
THANK YOU! 🙏🙏🙏
A wonderful video Mattsy. Thanks for making and sharing, and keep fighting the good fight. 🙏👍
Thanks a lot Francis! I certainly will 💪 Hope you’re well too mate!
Stay strong bro you bring strength to others by just talking about those mongrel black dogs! Funny thing is that mother nature and being grounded is healing.
Thanks mate 👍
What a place. Thank u for sharing ❤
I love your enthusiasm and your philosophy. Greetings from Germany.
Thank you! Hello to you in Germany 🙌
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Thanks for sharing! This was an amazing video, and we're all for your thoughts and processing. Great work.
Thanks a lot Mark! I appreciate it mate 🙏🙏
Great Yowie country. Lots of traffic, two & four legged. Looking forward to Tassie. Be safe mate.
Yeah plenty of traffic hey! Thanks mate. You too!
2:06 well put and with no nonsense too
Thanks mate
Love your videos and your thoughts...I get your yearning...peace away is precious! ATB to you! Until next time...
It certainly is isn’t it 😊
Thanks for watching! ATB to you too!
Thankyou for sharing man, for a moment of solace I put my feet in your shoes an pretend I'm their, amazing
What a great video Matsy. Thank you. We all fight our demons daily bro. Sometimes they get the better of us, and other times we win. Take care mate and keep getting out in nature. it's healing.
Ain’t that the truth brother 🙏
Thanks mate. Take care of yourself!
another awesome hike to a place i've not been, thanks!
Always appreciate your infectious enthusiasm and raw honesty ... don't change a thing
Thank you Kate! I shall not! 🙌 thanks for watching 😄
Another great vid Mattsie the high country is a magic place and a place every Australian should visit.A hike to Round Mountain would be great to watch for your viewers.
I couldn’t agree more mate. Spectacular part of the country.
I’ll note that down! Thanks for watching mate 🙏
Three words only.....Brilliant....Just BRILLIANT.👏👏👏
Haha thank you so much mate!!
Gidday Mattsy , great video buddy , awesome photography. Thx for sharing your mind battles , they creep up on us all at the best of times , old brain influences mate , ptsd.
Part of beating it is acceptance. ..
Breath my friend, it gets better..
About to catch your Chris Bamman interview, like yourself another great person , with similar eye to land attention..
Cheers mate stay well , all the best ..
Thanks a lot mate!
You’re absolutely right about acceptance. Since starting this channel I’ve really had a chance to hear my own thoughts out loud while watching the footage back and it’s really given me a way to identify some of the things that occupy my head and it has definitely helped me to accept it and just roll with it that’s for sure. I think that’s why it’s important to just talk about it, saying it out loud kind of takes away the strangeness of it I reckon. Rather than it just sitting in your own head feeling like a weirdo 😂
Thanks for watching and for the feedback mate 🙏🙏
@TheSillySwagman I mentioned I served , 126sigs.
Have demons , but 5 years or so ago I finally found a psychologist I could chat with and relate.
Identifying, accepting, forgiving and knowing, it has settled my crazy world of alcohol and drug addiction to a calm rhythm, very few lows but now soo many highs .. Believe my friend. try n chat more with guidance. Brains are all beautifully confusing for a reason, no exceptions.....
That was a mournful howl towards the end !
It sure was hey… did not like it
Thanks for sharing man well worth it.
Enjoyed this video Mattsy, love your open honesty and the fun banter along the way!
Looking forward to some Tassie ‘nature emergencies’. Keep up the great work Mattsy 👍⛰️🏕️
Thanks a lot mate I appreciate it 🙌
Bring on the tassie wonders!
Brings back memories of doing the AAWT last year. I absolutely loved it.
Amazing! I’d love to do the whole thing one day
That thing you saw is a brumby trap. The grass is low on salt up in the high country, and the brumbys crave it. So they leave salt licks in there to slowly get the horses used to regular access of salt. They then set the trap and the horses get stuck inside. This used to be the method of trapping brumbies for rehoming as they can add a truck ramp however with the culling going on this trap will likely be used for ground culling
Ah thank you so much for clearing that up mate. Thats awesome. Cheers
And yep, I figured it was something along those lines. Good to know exactly what and how though. Legend 🙏
@@TheSillySwagman you’re welcome mate, glad I could impart some knowledge 😂👍 keep it up
The fences you found, they put those up here in Victoria to protect endangered plants
Oh really? Weren’t any in these pens and locals are saying they’re for the horses apparently
I was waiting for a plug for your OF when you were stood next to the hut in your thermals! 😍🫶
Haha!! 😂 Can’t believe old mate rocked up while I was stood there like that 😅
@@TheSillySwagman life has a way of taking the piss out of us Mattsy! I'm convinced from my own life it has a wicked sense of humour! 😂
You're a straight up inspiration Mattsy! Love ya mate!
Thanks a lot Mike!
Totally feel the same as you about meeting people in the bush.
The first few times is pleasant and then my social battery gets low and I don’t want to see anyone.
It’s a constant battle but it’s nice to know someone else goes through it too mate.
Ah mate, that’s it hey. The social battery drains very fast out there when you go for the solitude haha
Great video mate nice bit of history in a stunning place atvb Jimmy 😎😎👍👍
Thanks mate! It is such an amazing place and so much history scattered around the area
Thanks For the Adventure.....From your friends in NE Georgia...
Wonderful video mate, thankyou for providing this beautiful content, you're an amazing person Matty and it's a pleasure watching your videos. I hope you're doing good bro. Much love from the UK. ❤
Thank you very much! I am doing well, thank you 🙏 I appreciate you saying so mate. I hope you’re well too!
glad i found this channel, great video and wise words spoken
Thank you Paul 🙏
how epic. loved it
Love it Matsy. Beautiful area, The Wildlife is always amazing, I know what you mean about having seen things before but always being in awe of them like it is your first time, Black Cockatoo's is one that always amazes me. Brilliant old huts too, they would be awesome to see and learn about, stepping back into the old world. Those Demons in your head can be a hard battle that's for sure but being outdoors sure does do wonders to help combat them and it is strange how seeing a person can feel so good when you are escaping from everything.
Stunning area and yes! The black cockatoos always give you that feeling don’t they. It’s funny. Such amazing creatures.
And not wrong, I can’t imagine never heading out into places like that.
Thanks for watching as always Mick 🙏
Wow!! I came to watching your channel through Scotty's Gone Walkabout. Have loved your adventures together. Always makes me laugh :) I always love your poetic take but this video, man it got me! For 4 years I have battled, at times, debillitating social anxiety and panic attacks. I am pleased to say I have come a long way and life is a lot easier now than it was but everything you said resonated with me 100%. Thanks for sharing such a personal experience with us. Helps to know we are not alone - although being alone in the bush is sometimes part of the cure ;)
Thank you Amanda!
And I’m sorry to hear that but I’m happy to hear you’ve come a long way! I guess as we get older it’s easier to identify the triggers and when they begin and just acknowledging it can be held the battle sometimes.
I’m glad the opening up about it is helping people not feel quite as alone as they may have. Thanks for watching 😊
Did you ever find out what that sad howeling sound was?
Brilliant mate, just brilliant. Thank you
Thanks mate!!
Another great video.
Reminds me i need sime time out in the bush again. Thanks
Sling and Drink! Have not heard that for a while. Thanks Mattsy. Awesome vid mate
Hahaha something about doing that shuffle with a pack on just made it pop up in my head 😂😂 Good times hey haha
Thanks for watching mate!
Awesome video Mattsy, absolutely solid! Enjoy your trip down to Vic mate, keen to see your next video. Stay safe legend 👌🏽
Thank a lot brother! I appreciate it 😄
Keen to rip into some tassie goodness 🙌
@@TheSillySwagman I was in Tassie 2 winters ago camping on the west coast, gets cold down there mate! Smash some of those hot choccys 👍🏼
Good video mate & stay strong
Yep I could live in those huts for sure. Looked like gods country. Good vid mate.
Absolutely mate. As could I. It really is 💪
Dunno if it helps or not mate but you aren’t alone! Thanks for sharing!
I can relate with everything you said!
Thanks mate! Yeah I think it definitely helps and it helps others watching and reading the comments know that most of us deal with something to some extent 🙏
Yes Mattsy! What can I say... cool people go to cool places 😎😆. The coincidental adventure overlaps with you and Luke have been so good to watch with many, many familiar moments and similar experiences. Not sure if you read any more of those visitor book entries but one keen hiker went to the State Library of Victoria to find some papers and info about old mate philosopher Carter to read while he hiked out and camped at the old Tin Mine Huts. That's next level taking yourself back in time and really getting a feel for it!
Oh wow, that is commitment and dedication! How awesome!
And yeah, how funny is all of this haha!
What a ride hey! Safe travels out there my friend 🙏
Hello again from Oregon, USA. The singer I was looking for is the one from your video where your beautiful dog Fango makes an appearance. Thanks again!
Hey mate! Ah yes, that’s actually a friend of mine. She doesn’t have an album or anything out on Spotify so you can’t really look her up. She’s a teacher so it’s not her full time gig unfortunately! Haha
Lovely voice isn’t it!
@@TheSillySwagman Hello again Mattsy, The song from the video I'm referring to is the voice of a man. The song talks about working 9-5, let's get out out of the city, one day we can look back and so on. The song is playing at the very end of your video while beautiful Fango and the cows are in the background. However, your female friend's voice is also a lovely voice. Your choice of music is wonderful. Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. Love.
new to the channel love ya work, cheers Kev and Crissy
Cheers matey and thank you again 🙏🏼
Thank you mate!
Good work Matty. Glad you pushed through brother.
Thanks a lot mate!
Readout enjoyed this video, beautiful scenery and words.
Thank you mate! Such a beautiful area
Bloody Ripa mate 👍🏼
Good on you for deciding to share this mate. You bloody legend 🤝👍💪🇦🇺
Thanks brother! 🙌
Beautiful stuff mate
Its interesting that you nearly didnt make the video (although I understand). I actually really enjoyed the rawness of this experience. As an anxious person I can totally relate to a lot of the feelings that came up. Its also uplifting that you acknowledged them and persevered anyways. Another beautiful edit, thanks for sharing your adventure!
Thank you very much mate 🙏 I appreciate that. Yeah sometimes you can feel a bit stuck but I do always find the best thing to do is just commit to moving forward in one way or another and making the most of something even if you’re not feeling quite up to it, it helps get you past the strange moment you’re having.
Thanks for watching and commenting too mate 🙏
You've done it again Mattsy! I love your videos because I share the love of nature, just like you. I wanted to know who sings the song in your previous video. If you or one of your followers can please let me know I would really appreciate it! Sending you and everyone lots of love.