[TamnHYO EP.7] Ditched by my Bird Friends in Jeju✿ Getting run over on the flower path...? (ENG SUB)
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- Опубликовано: 9 фев 2025
- I want to introduce you to the bird friends I made in Jeju.
Do you want to hear their brave and precious story together?
Let's walk the so-pretty-make-you-go-crazy red(?) carpet together too~
The camellia field that paints Jeju Winter pink is a legend photo spot!
I'll only make you walk the flower path(✿❛ ֊ ❛„)
*This video was filmed prior to high level COVID restrictions
*This video was made under guidance of the Jeju Special Self-Governing Province Tourism Association
#JejuVacationStartTamnaHYO #TamnaHYO
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Hyo is always full of energy. I hope she can do many travel shows and daily vlogs 😚 Love you, Hyo
I would like to try all the food she’s been eating since ep 1... looks yummy!!!
Omg another treat for SONES. Thank you, Hyo!
Thanks for vlog hyoyeon
my free spirited queen hyo, always refreshing to see her
So pretty!!!
I love how she promote her song than her company!!!
HyoYeon💓💓💓
You know what’s fun watching hyo show? It’s just being herself, talking to herself, doing her things, making fun of anything she would come up with. So please bring tamnahyo back for season 2 😊🙏
she looks beautiful😀😀
Hope to see Soshi in "TamnaHyo"😊
We love youuuu
We're already full and happy to see you eating and enjoying those food 🖤 Cheeky smile is always waving to us
Hyoyeon is prettier than those flowers. 💗💗
Queen Hyo annyeong 😍😘
I love the way you are🥰
효연 ♥ 제주도 가보고싶다 ㅎ
wow those shots of the flying birds from the video in the museum were awesome
Good eating show! Love you HYO❤️❤️❤️
love you
hyo was so cute heree
Her vlog has become a mukbang XD
HYO's happiness and smile warms my heart 😭💗
효연이 예쁘네😘
제주도는 벌써 꽃이 많이 폈너
I am waiting for this episode.
Unnie you are amazing.
❤❤❤
Miss you already 😢
I wont to jaju island
So beautiful place😍
언니 너무 예쁘다 어떻게 😍🥰
The birds are so cute
Oh, Jeju Island is so beautiful 😊😊😊🥰🥰🥰
so refreshing. 🍃
Love hyo❤️
I love you hyo!!! More vlogs pls. We miss you so much 😭😘
Unnie you still my Bias since then🥰 i always looking for your camback songs❤️❤️❤️
지금은 제주에 가지 않았다고 화가 났어요
Thank you Hyo 🤍
hyoyeon please walk flower road 🌸❤️
💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
Hyo enjoying her time 💖
always hungry whenever i finish watching an ep
So pretty 💞 Hoping for more travel vlogs! If happen, would love to see with other girl's generation member 😍😍😍😍😍
울 횬니언니 진짜 너무 재밌엌ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 웃겨줄려고 한말 아닌데도 너무웃곀ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 진짜 같이 캠핑하면 너무 재밌겠자나효❤️ 내가 스텝할래 나 시켜줘!! 내가 오름도 같이올라가고 야외 영하 3도에서 같이 해산물 먹어쥴께!!!!
효연 누나 사랑해용
HYOYEON MY BABE🥺🤧
glad that the ads are longer than the video *-*
or that there are more ads than there are more sone :{
aww so cute when you talk to the camera
كيووت😁اوني هيويون استمري هوايتينغ😚😚😚
7:46 hahhaha sugenn💙💖
Hyo the best 🤩💖
😍😍😍💃
효연이 정말 잼있음 :) 젤 웃겨 ❤️😘
Cute
Hyooooo 😍😍😍
Thank you~Hyobeauti~😉👍💖💕😘😘
sones! where are you?
Stay healthy, Nonna.. ❤️😊
아구 예뻐네 횬니💜
사랑한다 김효연!
우리 효연이 누나 최고다.
Have fun baby
Thoroughly enjoying these episodes. And wishing to take a trip to jeju. Also wishing GG can make an appearance on Hyoyeon’s channel
ilysm
i'll miss this series 🥺❤
TamnaHYO is perfect it's relaxing makes you smile throughout the whole show I love it ❤
Hope Hyoyeon will do more shows like this.
오옹...그러고니 동백꽃은 향이 그렇게 진하진 않았던거 같기도 하구...아니 나긴 났었나...??
제주도 부러워효..
I love Hyo(ü)😚
good job to the staff responsible for editing and putting music in these video is so good and all the bg music is suits the mood really well also to our talented and energetic vlogger Hyo, despite the cold weather she made the atmosphere so alive.
so sweet
I love you so much Eonnie
6:36 - 6:44 this is mood!! :DD 11:56 and this is so Hyoyeon unnie!!! kwkwkw
Mukbangers Hyo 😁😆
Hyoo 💕💕 trip with SNSD members pleaseee
Is this a Jeju Trip or a food trip
I'm sad..wish this would go on for a lot more longer.😢...anyway,I had to freeze the screen several times...keeps wondering how on earth this girl looks like still on her twenties...soo young and so pretty. And am so proud the province of Jeju gave you this opportunity to promote their tourism industry.God bless you always.Loves
Legit would love it if they made a VR version with one of the lovely staff carrying a 360 cam so we could just virtually hang out with Hyo, walking and hiking amongst the flowers and trees! Wind and birds and husky Hyo voice ASMR! More than a meokbang, like a walk-bang? Lmao 😅
Unnie
just start a mukbang show already 😹
need tamna hyoo seasson 2345😭😭
gomawo eonnie^~^
Aprudo Sonyoshidae
효연언니 배일리 와 바바라 와 비너스 와 같이 제주도 여행 유튜브 잘 부탁합니다.🥰♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
نحبك بزاف هيويون
Clown hyo match with clown Sones 😂😂
Uh-Oh This Is Not Good Ms Hyoyeon Hi I'm Letting Your Boss Lady Commander In Chief T Manager Of SNSD Know That You Are Not Wearing Your Face Mask While You Work And Travel And Going Out In Public But Your Good I Love You So Much Please Stay Safe Out There Due To Coronavirus Quarantine That Is Going Around All Over The World Even In South Korea🇰🇷 God Bless You Hallelujah In Jesus Name Amen Good Day 🙏🏻☺️😷❤️🤳🏻
Oink Oink.. Feels like the Spring time.. as I am holding the Empty Glass Jar.. around my arms.. I am thinking of Your Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. I want to see your Heart.. WILL you let me see that Heart of Yours.. and I am walking and I stop by this Tall Tree.. and I am wondering if it is this Tree.. I been waiting for this very day.. the weather Out side has been very cold.. looking at the Snow falling.. even it has been raining a lot around this time.. I could Not come to this Tree.. I do missing this Tree.. which I received a Note.. YOU be telling me to come to this Tree.. and I just could not come around for a while.. But.. I am here today.. wondering.. DID YOU leave your Heart here.. I had a dream.. dreaming of the day.. my arms can wrap around.. looking at YOU.. but.. asking if I can see your Heart.. if I am allowed to speak to your Heart.. will you let Me.. will you allow me to talk to Your Heart because that is all I want.. that is ALL I need.. I want to first tell Your Heart.. how much I love you.. but I needs to say It.. I needs to tell It to your Heart.. without Your Heart.. My Love will Not last.. it cannot go very far.. that is why I am asking first for Your Heart.. so Please.. tell me that YOU have left your Heart behind.. as I would sit on the ground.. I would pull out the Paper which was inside this Glass Jar.. I started to Miss you Last Night.. for some reason.. I started to Miss you all over again.. I would be sitting at the desk.. and ON the corner of the Desk.. I would put your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK at the corner of the Desk.. I would grab Your Picture and I would take a closer LOOK at YOU.. looking through the Picture.. I would say to YOU.. even though YOU may Not hear me.. YOU may never hear my voice.. I would look at Your Picture.. looking at YOU.. I would smile and say to YOU LOOKING at the Picture.. I miss YOU.. and I do Love YOU.. but first.. why do I keep on missing YOU even though I have your Picture with me.. why do I keep telling myself but Looking at YOU through this Picture.. I know that YOU can't hear me now.. But I know.. I believe that One Day YOU will hear me Loud and clear.. Holding YOU close in my arms.. I will say to YOU.. LOOKING at and asking.. is this YOUR HEART.. can I tell YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. will you please let me say it.. that I love YOU.. as I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. I be very sad.. because when I start to think about missing YOU.. I really really do Miss YOU.. and I would pull out a clean piece of paper.. there is nothing written but just a Blank sheet.. I would grab me the Pencil.. and of course I have Never seen Your Heart.. but start to draw a Picture of Your Heart.. thinking maybe this is How YOUR Heart Looks Like.. the shape and the size of It.. I wish that I can have a picture of Your Heart.. How Big is it.. the shape of It.. can I take A picture of It.. only If I can see YOU.. and YOU holding a Heart in the hands.. I want to click to take a Picture with the camera.. but.. only thing I can do at this Point.. just draw a Picture.. Picture of Your Heart.. and I would put.. Can I write My Name in Your Heart.. would you say something about It if I do.. Please tell me if YOU don't want me too.. because I want to write my Name in your Heart and speak to this Piece of paper of drawing of Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I want to say It.. and tell YOU what My Heart truly feels.. I received few months back.. a Note from You because I have been asking for Your Heart.. that I want to see your Heart.. I been calling YOU On the Phone.. only hearing your Voice.. that is all I can receive from YOU.. but.. I want More than just hearing your Voice.. that is why I started to ask.. If I can see Your Heart.. will you allow me to see Your Heart.. can I get close to Your Heart and Know what is really in your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even though it can be very far.. even it can be from a long distance.. but I am just asking for this One thing.. Can YOU Please tell me where is Your Heart.. and I be putting YOU on the Loud speaker.. wanting to hear your Voice.. and YOU telling me you be sending me a Note.. when the Note arrives.. YOU are going to tell me where to GO.. and There.. YOUR HEART is going to be there too.. after I heard this from your voice.. I waited for the Note.. day would go by but it be very long as I would wait for the Note.. the Note comes and it arrives.. as I received the Note from YOU.. I open the front door and some one put the Note on the ground.. I do remember when I opened the front door.. I only found the Note on the ground.. I would go to the Note to pick It UP.. as I hold on and looked at your writing on the Note.. I would read it.. It is at the Park.. there is a Tree.. on a top of the Branch.. the Heart is there waiting.. I should of gone when I received it.. I should of walked right when I received It.. but it was raining Hard and I would hear the wind blowing Hard.. and I wanted to go but why on this day.. and I would just close the Door behind.. I do regret not going at that time.. I should of Gone because It is YOU.. I even told YOU that I be waiting for YOU.. for the Note which it came to me.. I do remember grabbing the Note.. walking into the House.. the Next day.. the Snow comes.. and It be very cold.. for weeks it would be cold with the Snow falling from the sky.. I should of Gone is what I should of done.. the weeks turned into Months now.. I would be waiting for the Snow weather to die down.. But why did I not come at the time YOU send the Note to Me.. as I am sitting on the Ground.. I am just looking UP at this Tree.. hoping maybe your Heart is still here.. am I just too Late.. did I come at the wrong time.. It is because I did Not come right.. I am looking at this Note.. with the Date YOU have written it to tell me when.. But.. LOOK at the time now.. I have decided to wait a little more longer.. and I should of come at the time.. at the Moment YOU wanted me to come and to show the Heart.. as I am sitting.. I would pull the Paper.. the Drawing of Your Heart.. I am still wondering.. will YOUR Heart be here.. I know that deep inside YOUR Heart is not going to be here.. because it is ME to be blamed for Not making it ON time.. I am the One to be blamed.. I was asking YOU.. I was begging for a Chance to see Your Heart.. I wanted too.. I also even brought the Camera with Me.. it has the straps around my Neck so that I can take a picture of Your Heart.. Just in case Your Heart falls from the Branches.. I can catch YOUR Heart with the Glass Jar.. as I would sit on the ground.. I feel so Sad.. I feel so Hurt all of a suddenly.. because I missed Out.. was I afraid to come because of the rain.. if it did Not rained at all.. I know that I would of showed UP 100 percent.. and I would push back saying.. maybe tomorrow.. but even when the tomorrow became today.. the weather did Not help me at all.. I should of still gone.. I should of come even though it could of delayed just for one day.. I choose not to come because of the weather.. but if I should of known that I would Not see your Heart here today.. then I could of made up my mind to show UP.. because do you not see that Now I am here.. I have come to see your Heart.. prepared and brought everything I told you that what I am going to do.. I told you that I wanted to take a picture of Your Heart.. to get the closer look.. I even told YOU that I drew a Picture of Your Heart.. Not sure the shape or the size but I wanted to know if it is going to be the same imagine of the drawing and Your Real Heart.. I want to see It.. I want to see Your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even it can be at the Way top of the branch.. as long as it is You.. it is Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Piece of paper.. looking at the drawing of Your Heart.. I wish that I came sooner.. I wish that I came early.. I wish that I would of walked and ran in the rain.. Just to see Your Heart.. just to see the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. no Matter How wet I be.. or can be sick from the rain.. I could of catch the flu from the cold rain.. but at least I could see Your Heart.. taking the Picture of it.. your Heart.. and when I get the Photo picture of your Heart.. I would of pulled Out the Blank sheet of paper.. and LOOKING at the Photo picture of Your Real Heart.. I would try to draw the One that is in the Photo picture of Your Heart.. and let you see that this is the Heart I see on the Top of the branch and I would of called YOU and ask YOU.. sending the Picture of it.. and I know that at least YOU will know that I came and saw It.. I would be standing in the cold rain.. as I would lift UP the Camera.. as the rain waters would hit me.. I would be standing still.. cold and wet.. but.. as Long as I am Looking at Your Heart.. even for few seconds.. just for blink of an eye.. and I am able to lift UP too take the Picture .. ZOOMING in closer and I would hit the click of the Button of the camera.. I be standing still.. crying in the rain.. and I be saying to myself.. I have been waiting for this very day.. just to look at your Heart.. even from the far.. the distance that leaves me cold and wet.. but I have showed UP.. I have come because I wanted to look at Your Heart.. to see your Heart and to say loud from the afar.. I love YOU.. I came to tell Your Heart.. it is standing on top of the Branch.. so Beautiful.. I want It.. I want that Heart and I would scream from my Heart.. I want It.. I want Your Heart.. Please.. Please give me YOUR Heart because I love YOU.. why can't YOU give me Your Heart so that I can tell YOUR Heart and say to your Heart How much I truly.. really really love YOU.. but the feeling would be at the Best as I would be able to turn the other way.. after I get to see Your Heart.. after I get to LOOK at the Drawing Picture of what I think your Heart looks Like and looking UP at the TOP Branch of this tree and looking actually at Your Heart
MAH MAH.. I am Looking Up at the Moon.. the Seven Men are behind Me on Watch Guard.. the New Recruits are in the tents and they are all sleeping.. I would unroll the Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my hand runs over.. Looking at How Beautiful YOU are.. I have Never seen such a Great Beauty.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am getting the New Recruits.. the New Young Men.. So many people are waiting.. the Fences are blocking More New Recruits.. and I am Not sure where all these YOUNG MEN came from.. but.. Many wants to Join this Military Arts.. wants to join the Circle.. But it is YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. these are YOUR YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits who are.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I only saw you this Morning.. watching More YOUNG MEN.. the New RECRUITS.. By the Fences.. trying to get in.. but the Fences would Not let them Pass through.. as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. the training will start when the early Morning.. when the Sun comes UP.. I am going to prepare these YOUNG NEW RECRUITS.. they are going to come to this training Ground.. the Ones who passed the examinations and now.. ready to pick UP the WOODEN SWORD STICKS.. and I would be turning Back.. Looking at the Seven Men.. the friends of Mine.. and they all look at me with a SMILE.. and I turn to LOOK UP.. looking at the MOON.. Just thinking of YOU.. HOW far I came.. and How it is because I love YOU.. I never stopped Loving YOU and that is the Driving force behind of Never giving UP Hope.. it is because I love YOU.. I wish that WANGSEJABI MAH MAH knows this Heart of Mine.. that I would see.. A Messenger comes.. I hear the Horse running.. and the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets Down from the Horse and LOOKS at me and the Seven Men.. He shows me a Scroll.. and the Enemies are going to Come Back again.. and they want to fight again for this War.. it is Not Finished Yet.. and the Messenger tells me.. get the YOUNG MEN RECRUITS also ready for the war.. I watch the Messenger gets ON the Horse and He leaves out of sight.. as I am thinking about Another War.. I am Not sure if I will make this One alive.. But.. For YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we Must Win for YOU.. so that YOU WILL BE our QUEEN.. and to make this Nation stronger and the People.. the New Recruits stronger to protect YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. DO YOU remember.. When I first came.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture.. as I am speaking looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture.. drawing picture of YOU.. and I would say to your Drawing Picture.. DO YOU NOT remember when I first came to the Training Ground.. I wanted to come.. I wanted to be the part of the Military Arts.. but My Heart.. I always believed that I will meet YOU one day SOON.. that I get to show YOU my Face.. I get to draw Near.. to get closer to YOU.. I remember it was in a Night like this.. and as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. I would go back to the Good Ole Days.. I am sitting in the ROOM.. with the Closet Friend.. I am looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. and I would smile.. I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please be Patient and wait.. I know that I be meeting you so SOON.. I lost my Father.. but there was a Older MAN who became Like a Father.. taught me the Arts of Swordsmanship.. and has told me.. it is TIME for me to enter the training Camp.. the Training Ground.. and Gave me a Letter.. with the Stamp.. I would be looking at the Letter.. and His Mark of stamp.. on the Other Hand is the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I can't believe this Teacher gave me this Stamp Letter.. which Allows me to go direct into the Training Ground.. and I know.. the Next day.. Many are going to enter the training Ground.. or the Camp which YOU MUST pass in the Camp to go into the Ground.. but This Letter.. with the Stamp.. for Many Years.. I have been waiting for this day to Come.. for Many Years.. I would be coming Out side.. and I would LOOK UP to the MOON.. and I would ask.. I will be there very SOON.. I know that the distance between YOU and I seems a LONG WAY.. but I believe.. I know.. why.. because I know my Heart.. My Heart which Loves YOU.. I have Never stopped thinking of YOU.. I have never stopped Loving YOU.. YOU may Not know It.. when YOU LOOK at the distance between YOU and the MOON.. it is very Far to touch that MOON.. but I know.. Because I love YOU.. it does Not seems so Far any more.. as Long as I believe and I know.. I will be seeing YOU SOON.. I will be meeting YOU so SOON.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. the Closest friend would look at me.. but I never get tired of LOOKING at YOU.. even though the Drawing was when YOU were much more Younger Years.. I do remember that with out YOU.. I know that I can't dream of coming this Close.. dreaming of getting close to YOU but I never stopped dreaming of Us.. of We.. that One Day.. I will see you and meet YOU.. I be close to YOU that I am able to speak and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. as the Next Day Comes.. me and the Closest Friend are standing in the Line.. the Line is so Long.. too many Young Men.. waiting in the Line to either go into the Camp or to the Ground.. and My Heart is beating.. It is beating so fast because I know that I am getting Close to YOU.. I see about one Hundred Young men standing.. waiting for their Time to enter.. I am so excited.. but also.. My Heart keeps on beating just too Fast.. I would be holding the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I would be looking at YOU.. YOU do Not understand How Long I waited.. I had to count for many Days.. Many Weeks and Many Years.. and was Not sure at First.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I am here on the Line.. I am right Close.. and I just can't believe that I had to wait this Long just to stand Even in this Line.. but also.. this Letter is the way I can see YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. few days Ago.. even just the few days ago.. I felt like I was very far.. that I wanted to say.. Maybe I am thinking just too Hard.. or Just the dream is Non Sense.. WHO is going to believe me that I can get close to YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would be staying with the Older Man.. who was my teacher.. I was living with Him for awhile.. in the WOODS.. where there was nothing to DO.. NO dreams to think about.. Just be chopping down woods.. and getting the water in a bucket.. doing a lot of chores for this Older MAN.. who was a teacher.. Like a Father Figure to Me.. I would be walking Out side.. In the Night.. I would stand Out side.. LOOKING UP.. looking at the MOON and I would ask.. after looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. am I NOT allowed to dream.. Can a fellow Like me dreams TOO.. because maybe I am Not suppose to dream anything.. living as a Slave Boy.. But I do Have a Dreams.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and I would say to YOU in the Picture.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why can't some one like me dream.. will YOU laugh and Mock at me if I tell YOU these dreams I have.. and It is ALL About getting closer and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't I even share this Dream to YOU.. WILL you allow me to share it what I have IN my Heart.. will YOU open your ears to listen to My Dreams.. will YOU hear it and give me permission to Speak and to share this Dream of Mine to YOU.. is it truly wrong to Love YOU.. Please tell me that I am right.. I told YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. ever since I was A Boy.. walking with my Father.. another BOY who drew a Picture of YOU.. He fell before me while He was running.. He tripped and the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU came.. and When I bent over to pick up the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. My Heart.. I could Not tell my Heart to stop Beating.. I don't know why my Heart kept on beating fast.. I would be asking my Question.. Maybe My Heart is broken to act this way when I looked at the Drawing picture of YOU.. I can hear it.. my Heart.. which It kept beating over and over again.. My Father who was alive at that time came close.. and LOOKED at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and told me WHO YOU were.. the Crown Princess of the Nation.. I just could Not believe It.. How was it that I was able to look at this Picture drawing of YOU.. if a Peasant.. or a SON of a SLAVE looks.. He can be arrested and be put to death.. I was told.. but I just did Not care at all.. I mean my Heart.. it must be broken to act this way.. I just knew when I saw the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I am a Dean person any ways.. and I only live Once.. but Loving YOU.. and just missing YOU.. How is it my fault.. WHY would you blame someone who Loves YOU just because I just do.. the other Boy let me have this Picture.. the drawing of YOU.. and ever since I had it in my hands.. I would never let this drawing picture go.. because I just Love YOU.. I would be waiting in the Line.. with the Closest friend.. but the Line would Not Move.. Just too many Young Men has all shown UP for this Once a Year event.. and I know If I don't make it this Year.. I know I have to wait Next year.. but this Letter is only for this Year usage.. so I would wait and wait.. even though the Line would Not Move.. few days ago living with the Old Teacher.. I would be cleaning.. and the Old Teacher asked me to come Closer.. and I just could Not believe what He wanted to show Me.. and Showed Me.. the Letter.. when the Old Teacher gave me His Letter to me.. I would sit in the ROOM and I would cry.. alone I kept ON crying because
MAH MAH.. Or just missing YOU.. I would pull and unroll the Paper.. and I would look at the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would say.. I want to see YOU SOON.. I want to be close to YOU SOON.. but I would say this and believe it.. but it seems like It is never going to happen to me.. but I want to get close.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. when can I tell YOU these words of Mine to YOU.. but it seems like it is so Far.. Just like when I come Out side.. and LOOKING up to the MOON.. it is so far for my hands to touch that MOON.. the long distance.. which it is IMPOSSIBLE for me.. when will that day be when I can see YOU and be close to YOU.. when my arms can hold YOU near and I am able to say.. how much I love YOU.. but.. when the Letter came.. and the Old Teacher tells me.. when He stamps on the End.. That I am going direct to the Ground.. Not the camp site.. and I saw the Stamp He put.. I would cry in the ROOM.. just could Not believe It.. that HE is letting me get close to YOU.. without this Stamp and this Letter.. I would be still waiting.. and Only LOOKING at the MOON wishing every night.. but feeling that distance that IT is Never going to happen.. but when the Stamp was set.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would run Out side.. and I turn to LOOK at the Moon.. holding the Stamp Letter in my Hand and I would be waving the Letter.. telling that MOON.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Just Wait.. I am coming.. I am going to get close to YOU.. I am going to be there very SOON.. I know that One day soon.. I will tell YOU how much I love YOU because I know that I do.. I never stopped believing that I will love YOU and I can say it to YOU SOON.. as I am standing in the Line.. with the Closest friend.. I begin to see the Men moving forward.. and yes.. Finally I get to enter the Ground.. I will see you soon Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will see you soon.. because I love YOU..I am with the Seven Friends of Mine.. in the training Camp.. as I am looking at these New Recruits.. More young men are flocking.. filling up the training Camp.. as I watch more then One Hundred new young Men and More Men are waiting by the fences.. wanting to Join in the Military Arts.. I just can't Believe what is going On.. these are Your New men HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. these are new Recruits who wants to Fight For YOU.. and On your Behalf ready to Die for this Nation.. and They are Not afraid of the War.. I am holding the Wooden Sword Stick.. with the Seven Men behind Me.. and they are ready to Train these Young Men.. and I am looking at more than One Hundred Young Men of recruits.. and I can feel the tears in my eyes.. I remember I was One of those Men.. I am Looking over and around.. and My Hand touches the Chest.. I remember I was standing in the way Back.. I saw YOU at the training Camp.. with the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. with the Trainers of the Art of Swordsmanship.. I saw YOU sitting on the Chair.. and YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who was looking saw me at the end.. and YOU stood UP and noticed Me.. I was way in the Back with the Number On the Back of the armor.. I just could not believe that YOU would let me come to the front.. and to see my Face.. I would walk up from being way behind.. More than One Hundred men because I was the 100th men.. the Number was written.. as I walked to the Front.. I saw YOU after a Long Time.. I wanted to say something to YOU WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. but CROWN PRINCESS.. what words would I say to YOU at that time.. I had to prove myself which I can be a Part of the Member to Fight.. as I saw YOU stand there.. YOU also holding a Wooden Sword stick.. and told me.. and I had to come before YOU.. and With the WOODEN SWORD.. YOU wanted to challenge Me.. But I just could Not fight YOU.. instead.. I let YOU Hurt Me.. I placed the WOODEN SWORD DOWN.. and Yes.. I just could Not hit.. as YOU would strike me with the WOODEN STICK SWORD.. and I fell to the ground after getting Hit several times.. I saw YOU stand there with NO WORDS.. and I saw YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. walk away.. and told.. One of the men.. the Chief General YOU knew to Challenge Me.. I would stand UP.. and YOU stood with the Other Chief Generals and the Commanders.. with the TOP GENRALS on the Side.. I held and grab the WOODEN STICK.. and the Chief General.. He grabbed and we were facing each Other.. I knew that If I could Not beat HIM.. I would Not be able to get It as the Palace Guard.. as I stood here with the Seven Men.. who is behind Me.. I am standing here in tears.. I just could Not believe that I am here today.. For your Kingdom.. and For your Nation.. and YOU gave me the Command to Teach and to train the New Young Men.. the New Recruits.. How is it that I can do this.. I just could Not.. as I watch the Faces of these New Young Men.. and they are all in the single line.. standing side to side.. and as I turn to look.. I see YOU sitting ON the Horse.. with the White Dress and the Big Crown on top of the Head.. as the Seven men with men.. we would all turn to Give YOU the attention.. and I would be on the two knees.. arm forward and head looking at the Ground.. the Seven men also gets down on two knees.. arms forward and heads looking on the ground.. and the New Recruits all turns too look.. the CROWN PRINCESS.. It is the WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and all the new Recruits all gets down on two knees.. arms out forward Heads all look on the Ground.. and I shouted to YOU.. CHOONG CHOONG CHOONG and the Voices of more than one hundred men all shouts to YOU the Crown Princess.. CHOONG CHOONG CHOONG.. as the WOODEN STICK HITS the ground.. and I would close Both eyes.. and going to the Meeting of the council.. the Meeting Board.. YOU.. the crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. sitting on the King's Chair.. on the Right Side.. from the eldest to the youngest.. Six Princes were standing.. the Prime Minister.. and the 12 council of noble Men.. from the eldest down.. and on the Left side is the Chief Commander.. to Commanders.. Chief Generals to TOP General.. 2nd General to the 3rd General.. as I am on the two Knees.. my arms out forward.. my Head looking on the Ground.. with the Seven Men who are my Friends in the same Position.. as the Messenger of the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. He is reading from the Scroll of what YOU have written.. and Now.. YOU are telling me that I am Not the palace Guard any More.. that Now.. I am a Special Guard for the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and also shared that I am now the trainer for the New Recruits with the Seven Men who are with me.. as I lifted UP my Head.. what is this MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why are you promoting Me.. I rather be the Palace Guard but Now.. YOU are telling me that I can be the special Guard.. who is to protect YOU.. I always wanted to protect YOU but even as the palace guard I can.. YOU do not have to promote me for anything.. as Long as I can protect you with the Sword.. the Only One sword I can.. and Now.. YOU are also giving me a chance to teach.. to share.. even though I may not be that GOOD.. why are you being so good to Me.. I know I can't do much.. but also.. for this CHANCE of a Life time.. I just wanted to thank YOU from my Heart.. and I can hear.. the men behind me starts to cry.. they just could Not believe what they are hearing with me.. why is it that it be so Hard for me to accept this.. I know that I am not that GOOD at Art of Swordsmanship.. why are you giving me this chance.. and I would LOOK at the ground.. watching the tears hit the Floor.. WHAT is it that I have done.. I only wanted to let YOU know that It is my Heart.. My Heart who has been loving YOU for so Long.. I guess if YOU Love.. does Not matter what comes before your eyes.. YOU just don't get scared if YOU know How to Love.. but it is YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is YOU who has taught Me How to Love.. I just can't Love YOU unless YOU give me the Chance to Love YOU.. How is it that I can without Your Permission.. without Your consent.. I need Your approval for this can Happen. as My hand would be wiping the tears from my eyes.. why are YOU being so Nice.. so Kind to Me.. why are YOU being so gentle with me.. when I first Met YOU.. when I first saw YOU.. when YOU came across and I saw YOU.. I only felt something in my Heart.. I only wanted you to KNOW.. can I show you something that I felt in my soul.. that I felt in my Heart.. How am I suppose to show YOU something that is Unseen.. YOU can't see love.. YOU can't even know what Love is unless YOU learn.. and start learning HOW TO LOVE.. I began with the Art Sketch Paper.. I started when I saw a Boy.. He was running.. and He fell on the Floor.. and out of his hand the Art sketch paper came off and I was walking with my Father.. he was telling me He had to go to the Meeting Board.. the COUNCIL OF BOARD MEETING.. I stopped and I looked on the Ground.. an art Sketch Paper was near at my feet.. I went on the ground and I saw a Face.. it was a drawing and my two hands grabbed unto and I looked at the Picture of YOU.. Crown Princess.. and My Father who was standing next to Me saw the same Picture.. he tells me it is the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I looked at it.. How did it come to my hands.. How did this Picture.. this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the Drawing of YOU.. and I looked at it.. the CROWN PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. and the Boy gets UP and looks at me.. telling me He drew it.. and that I can have it just like that.. ever since I saw this Picture.. my eyes were glued to this Picture.. YOU took my Breathe
MAH MAH.. From the Fence.. I would Raise UP my Voice and would SHOUT.. MANSAE to the CROWN PRINCESS.. I hear the voices of all of the Men in the training Camp.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would be loud and clear.. raising UP the WOODEN STICK SWORD.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. all of the MEN in one Voice Shouts.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. as I am looking at the Horse walking off while YOU are sitting on the Horse.. I go back to the War.. watching YOU on the Horse.. I see you pull the Sword Out of the Sheath.. and Your Arm moves Down.. blade striking down one enemy at a Time.. the battle is so fierce.. and I see More of the enemies.. LOOKING and Pointing the Swords at YOU.. Crown Princess.. and I turn to LOOK back.. as I am swinging the Sword.. and I look at the Seven men who is with me.. telling Them.. the ENEMIES are charging.. they are going after the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGJABI MAH MAH.. GO and protect.. and I see the Seven Men.. running towards YOU on the Horse.. as YOU are sitting on the Horse striking down One enemy.. but the ENEMIES starts to gather.. More and they rush at YOU.. and I turn to LOOK back.. and I start to RUN TOWARDS you.. and Me and the Seven Men makes a Circle around YOU.. and with are Backs we would lean on the Horse to PUSH it back.. More of YOUR MEN comes out of the fortress to JOIN and they gather around YOU MAKING MORE bigger circles and Pushes with the backs on the Horse so that It can go into the FORTRESS.. and I see and I jump forward.. with the Sword I strike and I swing.. going forward as More ENEMIES are approaching.. Blades are hitting Other.. and YOU go in safely.. as I am on two Knees and arms out forward and Head looking on the ground.. I see YOU and the Horse disappear.. HWAANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have done so well.. I just wanted to say Thank YOU.. the DAY I first entered the Training camp.. the DAY YOU saw me in the way of the back of the Line.. I was waiting for the number and the Name to be called.. I watched for days sitting on the way Back on the Line.. I would wait.. as the detour happens.. I had to leave without my Number and my Name being called.. wondering will I even enter this Camp.. for the few days I was sitting back of the Line.. I did Not see YOU sitting with the CHIEF GENERALS and the COMMANDERS.. it was like the 5th day.. when YOU came to sit on the Chair to Judge the new Recruits.. I was just waiting.. until YOU saw me.. and YOU recognized me at the way in the Back.. It was YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it was YOU who gave me this One Shot.. this One Chance.. I could of waited and just gone back HOME without ever entering.. but the day I saw YOU.. I saw Your eyes looking at ME and YOU recognized Me.. I just could Not believe that YOU would recognize me even though it has been so Long ago I met YOU.. when I was very YOUNG.. but Many years went down the Line.. and of course people changes.. But YOU recognized Me when YOU first took that glance looking at me sitting alone in the back.. but able to give me this One Shot.. I wanted to say thank YOU.. if YOU did Not recognized me.. I would of never made it to the camp.. and I would be shouting.. CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HOORAY TO the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. and I would be crying as I am LOOKING at the MOON staring down at Me into the Night.. I am standing Out of the Gates of the Fortress.. the Seven Men.. the Friends are all behind Me.. and I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. sitting On the Horse.. All the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. More Foot soldiers are walking Out of the Fortress gates.. the Six Princes are inside.. Soldiers pushing the Big Canons.. and Men sitting on the Horses.. with Bows and Arrows.. I turn to Look at YOU.. and I am on the foot.. I see YOU raise UP the Bow.. and Other side are the Enemies lined UP.. generals On the Horses.. I see YOU grabbing the Two Arrows.. Putting on the End of the strings of the BOW And pulling it back.. I turn.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please wait.. Please CONSIDER.. and I see you turn YOUR head and looks at me.. and YOU look forward.. and the aiming the Arrows and hand let goes and It shoots Out and fires.. I can't believe it.. I just can't and I see the two Arrows and It hits two enemy soldiers and they both Die.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Chief general ON top of the tower raises UP his Right hand with the Sword and Blows the Horn.. Arrows shoots fires and I can see it UP in the air.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. consider.. and I pull out the Sword.. looking at the Blade.. and the Seven Men behind Me all pulls Out their swords.. For HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Let us Fight and Protect.. and I see the enemies soldiers running.. and I would start to run with the Seven Men.. and the Two sides clashes.. I am swinging the Sword.. just thinking about YOU.. I can't let YOU down.. Let us fight and Protect the CROWN PRINCESS.. it is for YOU.. and I am swinging the sword.. the blades hits each Other.. and I see one enemy soldier.. He looks at me.. and I jump UP and swing the Sword and goes across his Neck.. My seven Friends are surrounding and they are all close to Me.. as I hear them shout OUT.. and I turn to look back.. I see Arrows flying Out.. More arrows flying across.. I see two Large Canon Balls with Fire falling from the Sky.. killing Many Enemies who are running across.. I see YOU on the Horse.. MAH MAH.. It is HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I look at three of the closest friends.. My sword points Back.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Please go and be close to you.. and the three friends looks at me.. and they turn to go back to YOU.. and I just can't.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't focus when YOU are Out here.. I can't even fight right.. I asked YOU to consider.. It is so dangerous OUT here.. LOOK at this raging war.. and I turn to LOOK back.. I see One enemy running at me.. with the Sword I would jump and move back.. I swing the Sword and it hits the blades.. and I move forward and Bash into him.. and I jump swing the Sword and it strikes him down.. I turn to the Left.. to the right.. so many Men fighting.. I see many enemies are falling by the sword.. I just can't go ahead.. I turn to look back.. I see YOU still on the Horse.. with the Armor and Sword.. and YOU are swinging as riding on the Horse.. I see More men running towards you.. I grab the Sword and I run after.. I can't let Them go attack.. I need YOU to RULE.. I need YOU to be the Next On the Line.. I would RUN and RUN.. I can see the backs.. I would start to swing the sword.. and Hitting One Back to the Next.. to the three and four Men falls by the Sword.. and I would say.. Protect the Crown Princess.. I am yelling Out Loud.. and Screaming Out Loud.. Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and More of the Men turns.. and LOOKS at YOU on the Horse.. as YOU are swinging your sword looking down.. as all of the Seven of my friends.. and I would surround making a circle.. as One Enemy approaches I would jump forward and swing the sword and He swings back.. blades hitting each Other.. the Chief Generals are raising the swords.. telling the Men to Protect YOU.. More men would surround YOU.. as we would push back.. and I am on the front Line.. swords hit and blades making sound.. and I would say.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect.. and as more Men comes.. they are able to lead YOU back into the Gates.. inside the Fortress.. and I turn to LOOK back.. and Men starts to run Out.. I can't see YOU out here.. I just can't breathe the same air when we are at War.. How can I fight with this Sword if YOU are fighting this Battle.. if I love YOU.. I can't see YOU hurt.. I can't see YOU wounded.. and the seven Men runs Out.. with the Swords and together.. we would run out on the Front Line.. Swords are hitting.. I see More enemies running towards.. the Arrows are flying High and Canon balls flying.. the More Canon balls flying and falling from the sky.. I see more enemies men falling and dying on the Field.. as I would look.. they start to look and start to run Off.. I hear the Horn Blowing.. I just can't believe me eyes.. is this real.. and I raise UP my Right hand.. with the Sword in my Hand.. and we have WON the battle Again.. and I can feel the tears.. I am in so much joy.. the soldiers.. we have WON.. and I raise UP the Sword.. MAN SAE to Crown Princess.. the Seven Men behind Me.. wiping the tears with me.. they raise the swords with right HANDS.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. and I raise it up the sword and SHOUT.. MANSAE to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Seven MEN raises the sword with right Hands.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. we have WON.. and I turn around.. and the seven Men turns to look at the Gates of the Fortress.. I see YOU coming out of the Gates.. Your RIGHT HAND.. holding the Sword.. and I just can't believe my eyes.. as YOU are on the Horse.. I see More Horses.. the six Princes has joined the Battle to help YOU to WIN this War.. the Chief generals and Commanders.. they all line UP.. as YOU raise UP the Sword.. the MEN all shout.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would run UP.. and two Knee on the ground.. with the arm up and Head looking down.. the Seven men runs UP.. two knees down.. heads looking on the ground.. arms UP and all of the MEN.. COMMANDERS.. CHIEF GENERALS.. GENERALS.. Soldiers
MAH MAH.. Of YOU.. I would hold both hands and My lips touch Your Lip of the paper picture.. and I would Place the Art sketch Paper on the Ground.. and I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. If this Arrow does NOT hit the red Dot.. right IN the Middle of the spot of this target.. I may end UP not going to become this warrior.. but to fold my dreams for Good.. I would grab the Bow.. pulling the strings of the Bow.. I may have to bury my dreams forever.. Always wanted to be by Your Side.. to Protect YOU.. to serve YOU and to be a part of Your Life.. but If I can't even hit the target right.. what good is it for trying.. I would hold the BOW in front of me.. grabbing the Arrow on the Ground.. LOOKING straight down at the target.. I would put the end of the ARROW and PULL it back with the strings of the BOW.. and I am aiming.. I feel the tears falling from my eyes.. I always wanted to be by your side.. even though YOU may Not love Me.. I am Not asking YOU to love Me.. because it does NOT matter for Me.. as Long as I KNOW that I love YOU.. just to stay and be close to YOU.. your presence means everything to me.. that is what Love does when YOU love.. and I would let my hand go.. the Arrow shoots and Flies across and it hits something.. I grab another Arrow.. putting at the end of the Strings of the BOW and pulls the strings back and I am aiming the arrow.. I can't let my Dreams go.. because I need YOU close.. I need YOU here with me.. YOU know that I love YOU that is why I can't ever give UP and My hand lets go and when my hand lets go of the strings of the Bow.. the arrow shoots Out the second time.. and I hear it hit something.. I am Not sure if it hit the target Or not.. I would drop the Bow on the Ground.. and I look on the ground.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU.. and I would hold with both hands and I am walking looking at YOU through this Picture.. DO I have to let my Dreams Go.. dreams of letting YOU go.. and as I walk and stop by the Target.. I lifted UP my Head to look at the Target.. I just couldn't believe It.. I see two Arrows Hit right ON the red Dot.. and as I am looking at both arrows.. My tears.. I feel my tears running down both cheeks and I would cry Loud.. I can't believe it.. after trying so many Months.. Many nights.. broken nights.. thousands of arrows would fly.. Never heard it hit anything.. passing by this target many times.. But Now.. finally.. as I lift UP both hands.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU.. I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I wish that YOU were here with Me.. what YOU could see.. I can't believe It.. ON this very night.. I was ready to fold My Dreams.. I was ready to give UP my Dreams on trying to be the swordsmanship for YOU.. so that I can go TO you.. to Protect YOU.. to fight the battles for YOU.. so that YOU do NOT have to enter any Battlefields.. to protect with this Sword.. with this Bow and Arrow.. to show you how much I love YOU and will Fight for YOUR NATION.. even if I die in the Battlefield.. YOU will know that I will Never stop Loving YOU.. as I am looking at the two arrows.. I did Not expect it to Hit the target.. I had a feeling that I would fail again and this time it is for good.. that maybe it is NOT right for me to ever see YOU.. live a life like a MONK instead.. But I gave this One Last try.. Knowing I will fail.. but I had to try one more time before I bury it in my heart and to never look back.. LOOKING at this Picture of YOU.. this Art Sketch Paper.. I knew.. this is it.. the last chance I can go.. the last chance I can try.. even told my father.. If He can make two last arrows for me.. if I can't hit the target that I am giving UP my Dreams of Swordsmanship.. He was behind me as I would shoot the last two arrows.. He started to cry.. when he walked to see me.. my both hand grabbing HOLD onto the end of the Arrows and it hit the target on the red DOT.. I have never seen such a MAN cry but He cried with me.. telling me.. MY DREAMS will come True.. that ONE DAY I will see the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. that as LONG as I KEEP ON trying.. I can see YOU one day.. and HE cried Loud with me.. we both wept bitterly because I love YOU so Much and HE KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. as I am looking on the ground.. I am here.. Just can't believe this second war.. and once again WE have won.. and YOU are here.. CROWN PRINCESS IS here this TIME.. YOU have see US fight and WON this war together.. I have dreamed for this DAY TO HAPPEN..I see you Point the sword at ME.. telling me to speak.. SO I lift UP my head and I look UP.. and the Other hand goes Back and I pull out the Ark Sketch Paper.. and If may I.. and I see you point the sword again.. Both hands grabs the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would say.. I kept this For a Long Time.. I was ready to give UP my dreams of the Art of swordsmanship.. I remember the Night that was the last.. I saw the Art sketch paper it was on the ground.. I would lower to Pick it UP and I saw this Picture.. it is YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I wanted to be Close to YOU.. even though I was far Off.. that I was living so far and I knew that I just could not go IN like this.. to prove that I can be a soldier who can Protect.. to be a warrior who fights.. I knew I had to do something.. I was about to give UP on that dreams.. I saw this Art Sketch paper.. I took hold of it with Both Hands.. and I would KISS the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. before I let it go.. before I give UP my dreams.. to become a MONK instead.. I saw it.. I saw YOU.. and I would say.. the last two Arrows is all I need.. is all it is going to tell Me.. but when I saw the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. in my Heart.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. I did not want to let It ever go.. and I cried that night because if I failed.. I will let it go and bury it forever in my heart.. and never look back.. the two Arrows is all I needed to see and I saw It hit something.. on the red DOT.. my father cried with Me.. and He told me this.. that I will see YOU.. that I will be close to YOU and will fight on the Battles for Your Behalf.. for the Nation and for Your People.. I am here right Now.. and we have WON together.. but all it took is looking at this Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I came here because I knew.. But I am here because I love YOU..I am looking back.. thinking about the Time.. both eyes would close.. I am standing by the Horse.. and in my both hands.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I just wants to be with YOU.. Missing YOU.. I just wants to go back.. looking at the Picture of YOU.. the art sketch paper.. and my Father walks and stops next to me.. and He has the Bow in his hand.. and Pulling the strings of the Bow back.. my father looks at me.. and I turn to LOOK up at him.. what if I never see YOU again.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am so Little.. I am so weak right Now.. there is Nothing that I can give YOU.. what am I suppose to do because I know that I am powerless and useless right Now.. all I can do is just pull out this Art Sketch Paper.. my eyes would look at this Picture of YOU.. but there is NOTHING THAT I can do.. that is Hurts my Heart so bad.. but Just loving YOU.. can it really work.. can anything truly work Out like this.. Look at me.. I am so Poor.. I am uneducated.. I am so weak and so Little.. have NO power or NO strength.. what can I do.. and I be looking.. tears would fill my eyes and it starts to roll down my two cheeks.. what do I do.. I just can't give UP right Now.. do I suppose to give UP now.. and my Father looks at Me.. He grabs an Arrow.. put the end of the Arrow.. pulling the back of the string of the Bow.. and He aims.. the target in center of the Tree.. and He lets go of the string and the Arrow Flies and It hits the Middle.. BULLS eye of the target.. I am wondering.. what do I do Now.. I can't think of anything else.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH has become so Big.. become so Great.. My Father.. which he takes out another arrow and Put the end of the arrow of the Strings of the Bow.. and He pulls back and aims.. and I lift UP to look.. He releases and the Arrow flies and Hits the Middle of the Target again.. I am looking UP at my Father.. He smiles.. and I am wondering.. when can I ever be good like my Father.. I want to learn to shoot the arrow Like this.. I see my Father turns away and He walks Off.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I know that my Father wants to show me and teach me something.. and I look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU again.. I really want to protect YOU.. I really want to be there for YOU.. I wish that It is ME who can truly Love YOU and that YOUR HEART can open UP to accept.. but I know that even though I want to give YOU all my Heart.. all my Love to YOU.. I look at myself.. I am a Low Born.. I know that I can't afford to be with YOU.. WHO am I to Love YOU.. I have Nothing.. what can I give or bring which YOU have already just too Much and plentiful.. My Father stands behind.. and I would turn to LOOK back.. I see his Figure but could Not see HIM.. but I hear his voice.. telling me.. If I love YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am not afraid to Die for Love.. It should NOT matter at ALL because Love comes from the Heart.. if I truly Love YOU.. I will do anything to be close to YOU.. if I truly choose Love and Death.. and if it does not scare me.. I can just truly Love YOU forever.. does Not matter about what will happen to me.. if I can only Protect YOU.. and that is the Mighty Weapon I carry just to be with YOU.. Just to be close with YOU.. Just to get to know YOU little.. that is all it matters.. because Love is the greatest gift that A HEART
MAH MAH.. Can know it Now.. I wish that I can show YOU.. Open your Heart.. Open your eyes and see How much I have never stopped loving YOU.. will you ever Know.. I want it to be known.. will you know It.. I would fold the Art Sketch Paper into Half and Put it on the Ground.. and I would say.. I love YOU WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I would grab the Bow in my Hands.. if the Only thing I can do is protect.. If the Only thing I can do is Shoot these arrows off the Bow with Arrows.. if the Only thing is holding a sword and use to fight Off the Enemies which comes across the Lines.. if this is the Only Way.. the Only will I can help and to Protect YOU.. I know as long as It comes from my Heart.. maybe you will see my Heart.. My Love of being next to YOU and close to YOU.. Just be standing in a distance and to love YOU.. I will offer as it is.. my tears would fall from both eyes.. But I love YOU.. Do you not know.. can't you feel this Heart of Mine which I have never stopped Loving YOU.. as tear drops hit the ground.. I grab the Arrow.. putting the end of the Arrow of the String and pulling it back.. I wish that I can give More.. or I can do More for YOU.. but I am limited right Now.. that is why My Heart breaks so easily.. I want to give YOU so much More.. give YOU more and more of my Love.. but.. there is NOT much I can do to show YOU what I can do.. I am aiming the Arrows.. hand pulling back the String and hand lets go the string and the arrow shoots.. but it goes far off.. Missing the target.. It Breaks.. It hits and I hit my own Chest.. I missed the Target.. I can't even shoot the arrow correctly and I would stand there.. MOON comes UP into the Night.. and I am crying.. balling with tears and weeping.. I can't even shoot the arrow correctly.. and I would say.. I want to protect YOU.. I want to protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. my arms are so weak to pull back the strings of this Bow.. and It just can't go far.. and I would lift UP my Head.. looking UP at the MOON.. How am I suppose to protect YOU.. I want to protect to show YOU that this is all I can do because I love YOU.. but I can't even shoot and aim the arrows.. I have tried five arrows.. but ALL of them I missed.. my arms are in pain right Now.. just killing me deep within Me.. I have to get this One Right.. and I would pull out another Arrow.. now My arms.. I can feel of too much pulling far.. It aches Now.. but I have promised and Made a promised to YOU.. that right Now.. I may be very weak.. can't give YOU anything.. can't do anything right.. can't even pick UP the wooden stick.. can't even grab the arrow and shoot.. PULLING the strings of the Bow.. can't even pull far.. but I have made a Promise.. that promise is to accomplish this so that I can go to YOU and that I get to meet YOU soon.. as a Warrior.. I want to show YOU that I be Your Man.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am always coming out to this WOOD.. full of trees.. and I would stand at the same Spot.. grabbing the Bow.. pulling the strings.. and grabbing More arrows to shoot and trying to Hit the Target.. My Father is always there.. and He sees Me as he stands Behind.. giving a space and distance watching Me.. before I would start to Use the Bow.. I would always unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. the Picture of YOU.. I would stare at your Picture.. Into the Night I would LOOK at your Beautiful Face.. I would first thing about the TIME.. I would smile and say.. I want to be there soon.. I would like to join YOU soon.. I am Not sure when that TIME would be but I know that TIME will come SOON.. I wish that It can be Now.. I wish I can go to YOU NOW.. but.. I know that right NOW there is Nothing I can do.. Nothing I can give to YOU.. I feel useless and I feel so Little and so Weak.. I don't want to show UP when YOU see me at my Lowest.. but when I become a real MAN for YOU who can say.. I can Love you Now.. I can use and be helpful to YOU.. to support Your Kingdom.. your Nation and to be part of Your Team so that YOU can launch Out to go further.. I want to see YOU at the Highest Level.. at the Best stage of Your Life.. at your Strongest.. and I would look at your Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. as I would take a Look.. my hand touch my Chest.. HWANGJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. do YOU know that I am touching my Chest.. where I can feel my Heart beating inside when I think of YOU.. when I call your Name.. CROWN PRINCESS.. and I will ask the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of YOU.. can YOU hear my voice.. Can YOU hear me Now.. I am looking at the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU and I am asking YOU.. DO you hear my voice.. can YOU hear my Words because right NOW I am speaking.. but I know that I can't hear YOU.. NO Matter How many times I say and call Out your Name.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU.. or DO YOU HEAR me Now.. I wish that YOU can tell me that YOU do and YOU can hear me.. but ALL I hear on this side is silent.. But I want to hear YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to hear YOU say something back to Me.. when there are NO words of exchange or I don't hear anything.. I feel so Sad.. like YOU are ignoring me for some reason even though YOU are Not.. and I would be looking at the Picture drawing of YOU.. I would hear the foot steps and My Father stops next to Me.. He has his Bow.. and He would always stop by to show Me How to shoot.. PULLING back the strings of the Bow.. grabbing the Arrow.. the End of the arrow and PULLS back the strings of the Bow.. ARROW aims.. and HE lets go of the strings of the Bow.. I stand next to HIM.. the Arrow hits the Target and hits on the spot.. BULLS EYE and shows me the Mistakes I am making.. and I grab the Bow.. my arms are so weak.. and it is hurting because of too much pulling back of the strings of the Bow.. But I must over come and endure this suffering and this Pain.. to let my Arms be strong.. and I would be thinking of Your Picture.. I would be looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. the Picture of YOU.. My Heart.. I know that I must.. so that I can go to YOU.. I must win.. I must conqueror the Pain.. I must because this is WHY I am here to Love YOU over and Over again.. it is because I love YOU.. as I am Kneeling.. on two knees.. behind me are the Seven Friends and they are all on the two knees.. arms forward and head looking on the ground.. YOU are on the Horse.. and the Horse raises up two legs.. but I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. Hear my Words.. Please.. hear the Plea that is coming Out of my voice.. I just can't see YOU out on the Battlefield.. YOU know that I would rather choose to DIE if I see you Out there.. Please consider and reconsider.. I can't let YOU go out there.. I just can not see the One who I love.. going on the battle and putting death first.. I am asking YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please consider and think about the future of Your Kingdom.. I do not want any one to see YOU fighting.. I am Not going Out to that Battle if YOU go Out there.. YOU are telling me that to put a SWORD INTO MY CHEST first before I use the sword to fight against Your enemies.. who is going to let their Ruler.. their leader to go OUT when YOU have many men behind Your Back.. You have plenty of soldiers and warriors.. chief Generals and Commanders who are willing to fight ON your behalf.. WHY do you break My Heart and Our Hearts.. Please consider and reconsider.. and ALL the Voices of Men would raise and say.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please reconsider and do Your Nation the favor.. and ALL the MEN ON two knees.. Heads looks ground.. arms forward.. Please Consider.. Please reconsider for YOUR MIGHTY MEN OF WAR..I am taking you to the Garden.. I want to show YOU something.. and I am walking.. my hand on the Strings of the Horse.. and YOU are sitting on the Top of the Horse.. with Your White Dress.. as I am walking.. hand grabbing unto the strings and the Horse is walking next to me.. I see the Garden.. and Closer and closer we are getting.. I would turn my Head looking UP toward YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU know that YOU did not have to do this.. YOU are in the Royal Blood Line.. and I am a son of a servant.. but why do you want to go with me here.. you know that I am a low Born.. from the lowest clan.. but tell me Why.. all you need to say is one word and I can just die in the streets.. and No one would know my Name.. would ever recognize me.. but why do you want me to take YOU back to this Garden.. and I would turn my Head looking straight and I went into the Garden.. hand grabbing unto the strings of the Horse.. I don't hear any words from YOU.. as YOU are sitting.. with a Crown on top of Your Head.. with the most beautiful white Dress.. My eyes.. which I just can't keep it still.. My eyes just kept on looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. MAH MAH.. My Princess.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. why are you asking me to take YOU back to this Garden.. I told you that my Heart left this Garden long ago.. the day I left was when I saw YOU with another MAN.. the royal Prince.. it hurts me when I come back to this Garden.. it hurts me of the bad memories I had when My Heart would torn into pieces.. knowing that I am so little.. I am so lost.. I was so confused.. even though I knew that I could never be with YOU.. but still.. my Heart was torn when I saw YOU standing with the Royal Prince.. How small and little I felt when I saw YOU holding his Hand.. I would stop.. the Horse stops.. and I am looking at the Bed of flowers.. and I am not sure why you wanted to come to this Flower.. as I would stand next
Oink Oink.. I want to ask you this Question.. I want to be your Angel.. how can I be your Angel.. I know that the Angels don't have a Heart.. maybe has NO emotions or any feelings to express right?? of Course I would Not know How to answer this kind of a Question because I am Not an Angel.. but I do wonder sometimes if they do Not have any Heart.. NO emotions and NO feelings to express.. then How about Love.. and YOU are wondering then WHY do I want to be Your Angel.. these things ARE not required to Have.. and it would NOT hurt me this Bad.. Yes.. I am going through a lot right Now because I love YOU.. I feel like My Heart is like this BIG BALLOON ready to Pop any moment because it is FILLED with just thinking of HOW to love YOU MORE.. and to love you more means More Heart.. More emotions and feelings of expression to tell YOU HOW much More.. and sitting by this Lake.. I am looking at an EMPTY BOTTLE which is finished by Now.. sitting here in the Dock of the Lake.. and thinking of YOU.. LOOKING at my phone and Looking at the screen is the Picture of YOU.. of course I need my Phone and I really Need your Picture there too.. if I don't see your Picture and I can't see YOU.. I know I go crazy.. feels like something is Missing.. My Heart feels like I am MISSING YOU More.. because of the Picture on the Phone Screen and I get the time to check.. whenever I think of YOU.. whenever I start to miss YOU over and Over.. when I try to sleep at night and I just can't.. I would LOOK at the Phone and the screen turns ON and I would switch the Screen and I see your Picture.. I want to hold YOU and tell YOU that I love YOU.. when I look at your Picture on the Phone Screen.. I want to Hold you and tell YOU that I miss YOU.. and that it is MY HEART telling me Arms.. My Arms which feels cold and empty.. my arms wants to HOLD YOU and I would tell you again.. I love you and I miss YOU.. why does these words comes OUT like it is twin words to Me.. that I want to say to YOU.. it has been since so Long.. and I been missing YOU like crazy.. why couldn't you come to Me sooner.. why couldn't I tell you this SOONER and say to YOU that I love YOU again.. as I am sitting on the Dock of this Big Lake.. watching the waves and waters.. and I lift UP to LOOK at the MOON.. and I am thinking of YOU.. on the Other side.. what If I be Your Angel instead.. will you Let me be Your Angel.. can I walk next to YOU even though YOU may Not see me.. as long as I can see YOU and be close to YOU.. I would Open my arms wide.. But will I get to Hold you close.. wrap my arms around YOU and whisper and tell YOU that I love YOU.. and YOU are wondering why do I want to trade this OFF.. why be an Angel who has NO HEART.. NO EMOTIONS and Feelings to express to YOU.. It hurts Me More when I tell YOU how much I love YOU.. YOU may not know it unless YOU are in my Shoes.. but YOU have to always remember that I am sharing to YOU HOW MUCH YOU means to Me.. How much I love YOU and letting YOU know that a Part of loving YOU means that I needs to HIT HARD.. that It hurts Most nights without YOU.. it is dreadful and in pain that I feel when I can't be close to YOU.. It crushes me that I want you here with Me but I know that the timing is difficult at this Point and that is why It kills Me more than YOU.. when YOU Put your Heart and GO ALL in to Love YOU.. when it takes days.. and goes into weeks and into Months and to years of telling YOU.. it feels like I am sitting in the winter time most.. everything is COLD outside and YOU feel lonely most days because of MISSING YOU.. the sharp pains I feel inside.. I can feel it hurting me More and More as time goes By and YOU are wondering.. if it hurts me this Much with being cold and lonely and feels these sharp pains inside.. why keep on telling YOU.. that is why I know that I needs to DIE for Love.. LOVE just do NOT happen or appear any where.. when YOU love it needs to grow and expand to KNOW that it is the real DEAL.. I want to Love YOU as a REAL MAN.. not be someone who tries but who DOES IT.. I want you to Know that I am Not a PHONEY person but truly the REAL DEAL that YOU CANNOT FIND OUT OF any MEN out there.. that YOU will say ONE DAY.. I am the real Deal that NO WOMAN can just be with because when I love YOU.. I know that I will never stop until I am the One who will be the ONE to die for in the end.. I have this Kind of Spirit.. because the LOVE is a real kind of Love that ONLY a person can experience ONCE in a Life time and that is it.. I want to Love YOU where YOU can NOT go find it from any Man out there and I want to be the ONE to see YOU later down the road.. that ONE day YOUR HEART opens and YOUR eyes opens to see that I really did Love YOU.. Love you where YOU will say.. YOU LOVE ME TOO.. that YOU NEEDS to be with Me.. I believe that day will find.. I be asking the Angel.. if I can change to be an Angel.. and the Angel changes me to be YOUR ANGEL.. when YOU finally see it to believe that I really truly Loved YOU.. and NOW I am YOUR ANGEL.. what will happen then is then YOUR EYES will open and once YOU see the truth of My Heart of just loving YOU and just love that I have for YOU.. when Your eyes finally sees because the Heart opens to receive it.. YOU will see me standing there Next to YOU.. but when YOU see me.. the Only thing that I can do is to write YOU more Letters which I been all this TIME.. when YOU see me.. I am Not the Man before because I asked the Angel to be Your Angel.. which I will lose my Heart.. Lose my emotions and feelings of expression because I love you just too much of this Pain.. this suffering that I can't take it any more of missing YOU.. YOU do not know how many nights of PILLOWS I must hold with tears in my eyes.. crying because I am missing YOU.. when I miss you it hurts.. it hurts me to death that I needed to say to the Angel.. can YOU make me into YOUR ANGEL.. the day will come when YOU WILL see me but I am NOW your Angel.. only to Protect and to defend YOU.. but YOU will not be able to hear me.. and I will say.. It is Me but Now.. I have two wings.. I can't tell YOU WORDS because I been muted.. I loved you so Much that I needed to change to be Close to YOU.. I needed to be near you or I feel like I am going to Die.. that is why I made this One wish and the Angel came and heard my prayer.. of course I may not be able to say much to YOU.. but as Your Angel.. you can see me staying close by your side.. to be close to YOU.. even though I may not be able to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I know that YOU Heard me before.. you Heard through the Letters that I wrote to YOU.. how much YOU means to me that I am everything to YOU.. that YOU are my everything that I love you forever.. I had to make this Choice.. because I couldn't take it any more.. sitting along and just telling YOU.. I wanted it More.. I wanted to see YOU close by.. so that if anything ever happens.. I can use this Sword.. only the Angels can receive to Protect the ONE WHO I love.. and It is YOU who I want to protect and to Love in silent.. I be crying as I watch you close by because.. I know that when YOU stand near me.. I want to say the Words.. to tell YOU that I Love YOU.. to tell you that WHY can't I say these words to YOU.. I feel it inside.. I feel it in my Heart.. will you please listen to the Words because it is really Important me to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. I would stand there as YOUR ANGEL.. wanting to describe and express.. the deal with the Angel would be taking away My Heart.. MY EMOTIONS and My Feelings to tell you that I love YOU.. the Words I must say to YOU.. the WORDS that I want you to Hear from Me and I know that being Your Angel can also kill me if I just stand there as the Mute Angel.. as I am sitting on the Dock of this Big Lake.. I am thinking of all these things LOOKING UP at the MOON.. wondering if it be a Good trade or Not.. wondering If I made this Trade will YOU be Happy.. WILL I be Happy as your Angel.. But I know that for a Moment I will feel happy just being close and Near YOU.. But if I can't tell YOU MY Heart.. my emotions and express my Own feelings to YOU that I love YOU.. I think I would rather NOT make that Kind of trade because I rather be who I am who was made to be.. a MAN WHO just Loves YOU.. who is just waiting for that Right time to see YOU ONE DAY.. as I am LOOKING UP at the MOON.. and I look at the second Bottle of SOJU.. I am thinking.. should I open this Bottle.. Should I start to drink this Second Bottle.. when I sit out here alone.. and I am Looking at the Phone and LOOKING at the screen.. I swipe to see YOUR PICTURE.. I would LOOK and I would smile.. and I would start to say to the PHONE SCREEN.. to your Picture that I miss YOU.. and I would turn to LOOK UP at the MOON and ask.. WHY can't YOU see my Heart.. WHY can't you understand my Heart.. Can you truly relate with what I am going through.. knowing How Painful and How it can Hurt when It comes Loving YOU.. It hurts because I want to be with YOU NOW.. that is the truth.. that I want to see YOU here with me.. taking you to this Dock by the Big Lake.. and Watch the waters together.. and I would ask YOU.. can YOU Please LOOK UP at that Sky and when YOU LOOK at the MOON UP in the sky.. I would say to YOU.. I have come to this Big Lake by the Dock many times and from time to time the MOON will come UP to visit.. I would bring some Bottles of SOJU with me.. and with the Phone.. I would LOOK at the Phone Screen and Swipe to see Your Picture.. I would OPEN one Bottle of SOJU and start to drink.. the More I would sip and drink the Bottle of SOJU till it goes empty.. I believe that MOON UP there is waiting for me to speak to It because It stands UP there waiting for me to speak About YOU.. I can feel
MAH MAH.. My Heart chest be burning.. Missing YOU starts.. I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. in the Prison.. I am missing YOU already.. even though YOU just left HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. if you never came to visit Me here in the Prison.. I think I would not feel this Hurt in my Heart.. even though I love you where It has end me here.. I know that I must face what is ahead of Me.. but I wish that YOU came remember Me if I die in here.. if I do not get Out of here in the Prison and I know that I am ready to Die if I have too.. it is all UP to YOU MAH MAH.. it is ALL UP to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am going to go where I needs to go if there is NO NEXT.. and if this is where I am suppose to end right here.. I know that I did my Best to get where I am at.. but if there is Next.. Please HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. please reconsider.. Please think of Me HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. know that I get do and go a little More for this Nation.. for this Country if YOU are willing to help Me.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. you know that I did ALL this because I love YOU.. even to able to write and to tell YOU a LOVE STORY that I needed to share.. I needed to tell YOU THIS in a way that ONLY YOU can receive.. How can I tell YOU and write YOU this Kind of a story.. it is because I loved YOU when I first saw YOU.. of course I did NOT KNOW what it was at first.. but I knew that there was going to be some kind of a story I wanted to tell YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU this because It comes from the Bottom.. the very soul and the root of my Heart.. I just could not get YOU OFF my Mind when I saw YOU smile.. I just could not believe you even came to the Garden.. in the Garden is the Poorest Place.. at the rock Bottom of People.. that NO ONE looks for and NO ONE cares for.. it is a place where I came from.. I knew that I was at the Most Poorest place that NO ONE thought about.. But when YOU came to visit the Garden the first time.. I am here sitting in the Prison.. having this Much time gives me the space to think about the very first day.. I am looking at this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and given me this much time here.. I am able to think about the first day.. before It was so busy of trying to bring people together.. MEN to train and practice for the War.. but I had no time to really think about anything then.. but here in the Prison.. sitting here and LOOKING at the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. it gives me more time of HOW Important it is for me to have this space.. to really think of YOU MAH MAH.. to Know that I been loving you for such a Long time.. that I been always loving YOU but never given a time like this to think of HOW much I love you.. I asked the Prison Guard for a sheet of Paper.. and with the brush and Ink.. and I am putting the time to write you this Letter.. if it is time for me to go soon.. if My time is coming to the Close.. coming to the end and I am suppose to die here anytime soon.. before I breathe my Last breathe and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you can't get me Out.. then I want to tell YOU through this Letter before I go.. before I am gone.. and to tell YOU this Heart of HOW MUCH I Love you.. YOU know this MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know this as much as I know.. the First time YOU came to the Garden.. I was on the UP HILL.. standing by the tree.. Looking at the Bed of Flowers.. that was the day that changed the COURSE of my Life.. I never thought or even dreamed of YOU.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN ever visiting the GARDEN.. when I heard from the friend calling me to get down.. and that IT was YOU MAH MAH.. I thought it was a prank.. a JOKE.. why would HWANG WOO MAH MAH come visit the MOST LOWEST PLACE.. why come to this GARDEN when YOU belonged in the Palace.. where ALL of the People who are looking for work.. they would ditch and relocate to the Palace.. asking the KING.. your FATHER.. PEH HA for a place of work.. NO ONE LIVES in the Garden and everyone who does lives here wants to escape the Life of this POOR.. the most poorest poverty and they go.. and I am thinking.. WHY MAH MAH.. the NEXT SUCCESSION.. after watching YOUR FATHER PEH HA.. the KING.. walking alone with YOU.. I knew at that TIME.. something very important MESSAGE is being passed down to YOU THAT DAY.. why would the NEXT RULER on the LINE come to a place.. there are so many people from the TOP NOBLE FAMILIES that goes to the Palace.. wanting a Place of seat to be close to the RULER.. the SUCCESSION.. and I came down thinking.. if this is a prank.. I am going to choke and WHEN I SAW YOU on the SAME HORSE that day.. sitting and waiting.. I fell down.. my face flat touching the ground.. I just could NOT BELIEVE it is HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. is it really HWANG WOO.. IS IT REALLY MAH MAH who is sitting on that HORSE and I am thinking to my self.. WHY WOULD YOU COME to the GARDEN.. and of course I never knew because I Heard you walked in that Garden before I was called by the friend which I was at the HILL TOP by the tree.. HE called me when YOU were leaving the GARDEN.. of course I did Not know any of this but after YOU departed.. after I gave you the FLOWER and before YOU left for good.. the Guard who put the sword on my neck which HE could of executed on that spot.. when YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH told that GUARD not too.. my eyes both closed SHUT.. and when I opened the eyes to LOOK.. I saw you on the HORSE.. sitting on the TOP of the Horse and I saw the Guard behind walking.. following the Horse.. and I knew.. there must be a reason WHY you came.. WHY WOULD HWANG WOO MAH MAH come to the Most LOWEST PLACE like here in the Garden.. I heard also.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH went to the VILLAGE and has visited the People there too.. and you.. MAH MAH looked around the Place.. just like here.. the VILLAGE is like the POOREST.. the second too.. so the Poor people are always fighting against each Other because we just can't live like this.. and WHEN I saw YOU on that HORSE.. and HOW you commanded that GUARD not to strike Me.. I went into the TENT.. like the HUT HOME and I sat to think about this Situation and It really touched my Heart.. some one told me in the Garden that YOU are looking for the People who can join the Military Arts and looking at the YOUNG BOYS the Next in line.. to help to rebuild the Armed forces.. the MILITARY MEN.. giving them ranks in the future.. WHEN I heard this News from the Friend who called me.. because HWANG WOO MAH MAH spoke to HIM.. I was truly alarmed at the News because it became a GOOD NEWS.. and I knew at that moment.. YOU are giving the POOREST YOUNG MEN chances to do something for the future.. the NOBLE FAMILY MEMBERS are the Lucky Ones I would think and yes.. many of them get the better shot of making it.. but I heard.. many people who grew UP Here in the Garden.. when they go to the Palace asking for a place of work.. they get declined and many dies living in the Poverty unable to feed the families.. and I would sit crying.. and I would be thinking of YOU.. that It must be true.. that how MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is giving this chance for Us.. YOU look at the Hearts of young MEN TOO who are uneducated and who are the POOREST who has no chance at anything.. WHEN I HEARD from the Close friend of MINE.. I would cry in the Night.. because I know that there is a way.. there is a DREAMS even for the MOST UNWORTHY PEOPLE.. that there is a HOPE and a WILL.. Dreams can come true when YOU MEET the right person who wants to give and NOW I am sitting here in the Prison.. of course I did NOT think of this because long time has passed.. but when I am sitting here alone.. and LOOKING at this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the DRAWING PICTURE OF YOU.. and Just thinking of the beginning.. and it takes me here to think back and to appreciate and to thank YOU for that chance.. and when that came UP.. and when I was told about how YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is also opening the DOOR for the People who lives in the Garden and even in the VILLAGE.. a great celebration has taken Place.. feast was happening and hearing songs and dancing going On.. the fathers in the garden looks at their young sons.. the CHANCE to change to live a better life.. and people celebrated all through the Night.. I did Not join in the celebration but I saw the MOON.. the MOON APPEARED very big that NIGHT and that is when I saw the SIZE of your HEART.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. I would stand still and say.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. your HEART is so BIG.. I believe your FATHER.. the KING.. PEH HA knows that YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it is the ONE with the BIG HEART for the People.. RICH or POOR.. NOBLE or the GARDEN.. it does not matter what families you come from but.. as long as it is People who YOU LOVE.. the SIZE OF that BIG HEART.. and I would fall on the two knees and Head LOOKS UP at the MOON.. is that HOW BIG your HEART is.. can I touch that BIG HEART.. will my arms NOT be able to go around that BIG HEART that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH HAS.. but even the Broken People.. who has no chance.. means there is NO CHANGE.. but when YOU OPEN the door and even allow the Poorest people to come.. and to accept.. I believe it starts with YOUR BIG HEART.. I love that BIG HEART.. the MOON SIZE HEART that YOU HAVE HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Now I am thinking about why so many men has come.. More people are coming all over the world just to join the Military Arts.. and there is NO ROOM for these New Recruits.. but when the NUMBERS keeps on growing I
MAH MAH.. That UNITY is what is going to HELP YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH to win this WAR.. even the CHILDREN are ready to fight.. and I was crying watching little boys walking ahead.. holding UP the sticks to fight.. I could NOT stop the tears because I was truly Moved.. touched in my Heart because I would ask.. YOU are just too young and I hear.. for the LOVE of this NATION and for the TRUE SUCCESSOR.. we must fight to live if I SHALL DIE and I would cry Harder because even myself feels this way.. I WILL FIGHT for YOU MAH MAH.. and I will die if I have too for YOU and for this NATION.. but I don't want to just die yet.. I want to first see PEACE JOY LOVE AND UNITY in the LAND before I die.. and I believe.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. TO MY QUEEN.. HOORAY.. and I am in the Prison alone.. two knees down.. both eyes closed.. Head looking down.. arms raising UP for YOU MAH MAH.. for MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would shout in the Prison ALONE.. IF I DIE.. Please remember these words of MINE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. arms raises UP.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. HOORAY.. ARMS raises UP and in tears I am crying thinking of YOU.. HOOR RAY AND MAN SAE to My QUEEN.. to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am sitting Down in the Prison.. Shouting Out Loud.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I love YOU.. Please reconsider and Help me Get out of this Prison.. YOU know that deep inside.. It is because I love YOU.. ALL this time I been telling YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please reconsider and Get me Out of this Prison WALL.. after the War.. you can put me back into the Prison and I call be executed as the TREASON if you still want to put me to Death but I am asking YOU.. Please reconsider.. I can at least take some Men down in the War.. YOU know that I have been here all along.. just to fight On the Behalf of this Nation.. for this Country and I know that I can be a help.. a useful some How.. and my Hands holding onto the Prison Bar.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. why are you doing this to Me.. why are you.. YOU know that I have made an Oath.. a Promise to the KING.. Your Father.. I have made the Promise to your FATHER PEH HA.. when I was young.. YOU do not remember.. but you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU told me that YOU do remember when I came on that Horse.. I made and swear an Oath.. Not just to YOU MY QUEEN.. but to your Father and to My Father.. after the Peace of this Country and the Nation.. YOU can put me to death or let me fight in the BATTLE FIELD and if I die there.. at least I have serve my Nation.. the Country to help to Build for YOU.. I just can't die here in the Prison WALLS.. at least give me the chance to fight if I shall pass as Treason.. I rather die with the Men out who fights with me and for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I would sit.. letting going the Bars of the Prison.. and I would turn to LOOK DOWN.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I start to cry.. MY FIST hitting my Chest.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. at least I want to die as a soldier.. I came this Far for this reason.. for this Purpose.. I came out of the Poorest Place.. and I had to come this very far so that I can serve my Country.. My Nation to love YOU.. after I started to find Out that I loved YOU.. I wanted to do much more than This that I too have my own worth and value.. to be a Soldier so that I can at least be a help to fight.. to fight on your Behalf.. HELP ME to finish the reason WHY I am here.. Please reconsider so that I can fulfill my purpose who Loves YOU to fight on your Behalf for this NATION.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please consider and reconsider for Me.. and I am Looking down.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I am touching.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. why are you making me to suffer like this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I am hearing some kind of noises and Loud sounds out side.. like a CANON BALLS hitting against the Walls.. and I would lift UP.. and I am looking around.. WHAT IS that Noise.. what is happening.. and I hear the PRISON DOOR OPENS and and I turn around.. a Prison Guard with the Keys and I lift UP to look at.. the Closest friend of Mine comes with the Prison Guard and He looks at me.. that the QUEEN is allowing me to step Out.. and fight in the WAR.. I Just can't believe it.. and I start to cry MORE AND MORE.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thank YOU so Much to do what I am called here to DO.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I would fold the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I would get up and walk Out of the Prison DOOR.. and with the Closest Friend behind me.. I step Out side.. and I see you standing there.. In the White Dress with the BIG CROWN ON top of your Head.. and YOU are standing with the TOP MILITARY OFFICIALS and Officers.. and I look MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would drop on two Knees.. and My Head looks Down.. my arm stretches Out forward.. and I see that YOU PULL out the King's swords and points to Me.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I can't stop my tears and I am looking at the Ground.. giving me the Permission to speak as I am shedding my Tears.. I thank YOU.. you know that I love YOU.. and that is why the main reason I was able to get out from the Garden is because I knew that I started to Love YOU.. there was NO Other way to express to get it Out.. when I find Out that My Heart started to Love YOU.. I knew that I was going to face the Prison.. and Yes.. the Prison was the Only door that was looking for Me.. I knew that One day I was going to go to prison.. even the great warning sign came to me from my Father.. my Father told me that if I keep on loving YOU.. how he showed me the grave of my Mother and I saw my father come in a wagon but it was his dead body that came to the garden.. I lost both parents at the young age and I remember my father's words telling me.. if I continue to love YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the Prison Door awaits for me and Death will come knocking on the door.. Many people that I knew warned me when they saw the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I was told by many elders growing UP.. if I keep up loving YOU.. the Prison is waiting for me and I shall die in Prison.. even though I heard many words and faced so much oppositions.. I just could not stop give UP loving YOU MAH MAH.. I went to Prison Once and going back twice.. and I knew this time I will not get Out.. and I was ready to Die.. but never imagined that YOU would become HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and yes.. My Heart.. I knew if I die today and to die in the Prison.. I would be the Happiest to made it to this Place but what Got to me before I would die.. the WAR.. I wanted to finish one last time before I take my last breathe which kept up late into the Night.. that I could Not sleep.. If I would choose to die.. I wanted to Die in the Battlefield in the War.. with the MEN who came out with me.. to die as Brothers in band and I would say.. at last Breathe I served my Country.. I die for a great cause and THAT is to serve my country and to Let YOU SEE.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I wanted to show you at least I fought hard to get to the Place I am at and to show YOU HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. it started with finding out that I loved YOU or else I could Not come this very far.. thinking of you many Nights.. far and distance YOU were at.. and thinking of ways HOW TO get to you and to be close to YOU MAH MAH.. I never gave UP the dreams of getting close and to let YOU KNOW MAH MAH.. what is in my Heart.. to let YOU know.. even though I can die by your SWORD as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE.. at least I can share and show YOU.. even though I can die in your hands.. let me tell you before I die was the only thing that was in my Heart.. I was never afraid to tell YOU because I always loved.. I was never afraid to go to Prison walls because If I had.. I would of never started in the first place.. which it leads me where I am at now.. to show YOU that I never stopped loving YOU.. I already been in this Prison WALLS twice but I am asking for a permission.. to allow me to finish the WORK that has been placed in my hands.. I rather die serving my country as the Military soldier who fights for YOU.. MY QUEEN.. on your Behalf.. I am NOT afraid of anything NOW because.. I do remember leaving the Garden and I was set alone.. I lost everything when I left that Garden.. I had to face the WINTER storm all alone with me there was NO ONE.. Most people left the Garden and I had to leave too.. facing the storm all alone.. only place I was thinking was the Palace.. I will try to go and ask the help there.. and I would walk alone.. it was cold and scary at first but I had YOU IN my MIND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO.. I had YOU in my Heart.. walking into the woods.. LOOKING UP AT THE sky.. looking at the stars leading the direction.. did not think that the WINTER would come so soon and so fast.. snowing did not help me.. and I could not eat for many days.. it got to the Point my Body just could not go ON.. so I knew.. I can't go on and I would fall in the SNOW.. with me I would say.. AM I going to die without ever seeing YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I could Not move.. and I would close my eyes thinking that I am going to die here.. I knew that it was my last.. and I was thinking in my mind.. I should not of left the Garden if this was going to happen.. if the WINTER was coming soon.. I should of waited.. I heard the People in the village next to the Garden came to attack and raided.. most people in the garden died of the raided Band of People
MAH MAH.. Garden.. either way.. But I woke UP and was in a Home.. and I am looking at the ground.. the tears would not stop because.. I knew.. and I would lift UP my Head to show you my tears.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I faced many difficulties.. many obstacles against the ODDS.. I had hard time coming to this Place.. I lost many people along the way but I never lost the HOPE and the WILL.. because of this.. and behind me I take out the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would unfold and place in on the ground.. I would remember two things.. My Heart for always LOVING YOU.. and the Promises I made to the Fathers.. My Father and Your FATHER the KING.. PEH HA that I am going to be next to you.. that I will be a soldier who will protect and to defend and also to serve the NATION to HELP you to build.. I had those to things set in my MIND and My Heart and I would look at this Picture.. the Drawing picture of the days I wanted to lose hope or wanted to give UP.. Looking at this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. the BOY WHO lost his life for drawing this for me to show me because he believed that I will love YOU always More.. I never gave up.. I just can't because the Promises.. the first is to ALWAYS LOVE YOU.. NO Matter how hard or challenging life can be or bring.. to never stop Loving YOU and to promise to protect and to defend YOUR NATION to help to build.. YOU are the ONLY ONE who can help me to keep on going at it.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just wanted to say.. thank YOU for allowing this day to happen.. THANK YOU for reconsidering and helping me to get out and helping me to finish the task that is up ahead of me.. I love YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I LOVE YOU and I thank YOU.. I am surprised right Now MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I truly thought YOU did Not know who that Little Boy was.. I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. watching YOU turn away and Leaving.. the Prison Wood Door closes.. I did Not show you the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU was hidden below the Paper I drew of the two Horses.. the One YOU were sitting Down and your Father PEH HA.. the King walking with the Bare Feet.. My Heart.. I can't believe that YOU knew who I was at that Time.. I only thought that I am the Only One who knew.. then if I were to ask YOU.. did you know that I was the One who has been living in the Garden.. even though I was very Poor.. the Boy with the Flower in his Hand.. it was me who wanted to give you that Flower and It was I who gave it to YOU for you to smile as YOU went back to the Palace.. Ever Since that Day.. the Day I saw you sitting on that Horse.. with your Father.. PEH HA.. the King beside YOU.. My Heart.. I did Not know what I was feeling that day.. I felt so Stuffy inside and it was hardly that I could Breathe.. I don't why it was Hard to breathe.. I went with my Father back to the Garden that Night.. I just could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. asking when can I see you Again.. I would RUN up the Hill Top.. going to the Tree and the Bed of Flowers that was planted.. another Bed of Flowers was there beside it and I wanted to give you this ONE that kept on looking at me and I felt this is the way YOU made me feel HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. It was the One SUN FLOWER I kept on looking.. Every Morning when I would wake UP.. I would get Out of the Hut my Father build.. a shelter only for two People.. and I would LOOK UP to the HILL TOP.. running Up there in the garden.. and Next to the Tree the Bed of Flower.. That One SUN FLOWER.. I would smile.. and I would say.. IF I EVER Meet the QUEEN.. MAH MAH.. if YOU ever come to this Garden for some reason even though I knew YOU would Not.. I am going to show YOU my Heart.. this is HOW MY HEART Feels when I see YOU.. even when it is cold Out side.. even when It snows Out side.. LOOKING UP to the HILL TOP.. running UP even though I would sometimes slip and fall.. I would get Up.. I want to see that SUN FLOWER.. determined that I was then.. I would grab HOLD UNTO the ROCKS and PUSH up my Body thinking of YOU.. and I would CLIMB UP to the TOP of the HILL.. and I would LOOK at the SUN FLOWER.. when I would stand by the Other Bed of flowers.. I can see the View of the Royal Palace and I would shout.. and say.. Even though YOU may Not see me Close.. I will go to that Royal Palace.. I can be a Guard.. by the Door of the Palace.. even you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. You may never notice me.. but I will be around enough to see YOU there.. and I do remember.. I hear the friend I grew UP.. telling me that the People from the ROYAL Palace has Come.. of course I thought He was joking.. and when I went Out the Door gates of the Garden.. I just can't believe that what he said was true.. YOU were sitting On the Horse.. just like the first time I saw YOU by the Ocean waters with YOUR FATHER PEH HA beside YOU.. I trembled and FELL before YOU... face looking at the grounds.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. is it really YOU.. is it the ONE WHO I LOVE.. even though I never told YOU.. but I knew.. this was the Only time to tell YOU what My Heart felt.. ever since I saw YOU with Your FATHER PEH HA.. the KING besides the waters.. I wanted to show YOU the Joy that I felt in my Heart.. and I asked YOU for the Permission.. asking YOU.. MAH MAH.. can I show YOU something.. before YOU go I wanted to show you something.. I wanted to show you the SUN FLOWER.. when I see it.. the way that FLOWER made me feel inside is the same way I feel when I SEE YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. PLEASE.. allow me to get you what I wanted to show and share.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I heard your Voice telling me to go.. and I get UP from the FLOOR.. facing looking at the ground.. and I turn to run the Other Way.. running UP the Hill and ran to the TOP.. and I would run to the tree.. next beside.. MY HEART was beating so Fast.. My Heart just could NOT BEAT FAST BUT I can hear My Heart running like my FEET going UP to the HILL to the TOP FAST.. I looked beside the Special Flowers.. there.. the SUN FLOWER was there.. I took by the END of the stem and pulled if Out slowly.. and ran down the HILL.. I could Not believe that YOU waited.. you were still sitting on the Horse.. and I stood next to the HORSE you were sitting down.. this IS what I wanted to give YOU.. can YOU please MAH MAH.. take a LOOK at this Flower.. OH PLEASE.. LOOK at it closely and tell me MAH MAH what do you see and what do you truly FEEL.. my Heart was racing fast when I saw YOU.. and even when I ran UP the HILL to the TOP.. My Heart was still racing very FAST.. still my Heart just can't stop running fast.. PLEASE take this Flower with YOU.. because It belongs to YOU.. it is YOU that I saw in YOU.. this SUN FLOWER gave me the Joy that I need.. Please.. OH HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN please take this flower away from Me because IT is YOURS.. I saw you LOOKING at me.. and Your eyes Looking at the SUN FLOWER.. YOUR HAND opens and grabs the stem of this SUN FLOWER.. and My eyes.. it ran Tears from my eyes.. and I see you turn away and watching the Horse starts to leave.. I would fall on the ground.. MY HEART.. It keeps on crying for YOU.. when I saw that SUN FLOWER.. it brought me that joy to get me through the Day.. because I was thinking of YOU that ONE DAY.. some day Just in case YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH come.. even though I never had any kind of Hope you would come.. but.. just wishing and Hoping that YOU would one day.. some day come to visit this Old Garden.. and I would watch YOU leave sitting on the Horse.. and with Many Guards beside you.. I wanted to say something.. I wanted to tell YOU that It needs water.. and I would get UP.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please.. Wait and I would start to run towards.. there was one guard who turns around to block me coming to YOU and I would scream.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. OH PLEASE.. wait.. and the Horse stops.. as YOU raise your right hand and turn to look back.. the Guard would Not let Me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that Flower Means that I love YOU.. that YOU gave me the SUN like Life.. it means that I love YOU.. shouting Hard for YOU to hear my Voice.. I don't care If you kill me right Now.. but that FLOWER.. the SUN FLOWER.. when I saw it the first time.. My Heart started to race Hard.. I did Not know what that mean at first.. but the More I would RUN up to the HILL TOP to look at that SUN FLOWER.. WHY my Heart raced so Fast when I saw it beside the Other Flowers and wanted to give you this ONE SUN FLOWER.. right Now I am telling YOU when I ran UP.. and ran down the Hill with that SUN FLOWER.. my Heart kept on racing Hard and racing fast.. I did Not know it at that time but NOW I know it.. it is because I wanted to tell YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I love YOU.. I know that I should not tell you this in front of all these important People.. if YOU want to put me into prison for this.. PLEASE let me die here and I would get down on two Knees.. My Arms stretched Out forward and My Head looking on the ground.. the Guard turns to LOOK at you sitting on that horse and He pulls out the Sword and puts to my Neck.. and I would close my two eyes.. ready to Die even though I made a Promise.. that I am going to protect MY QUEEN and serve the QUEEN for the Nation.. but if I can't.. I rather die here and just break the Promise.. and I am just waiting for that BLADE to strike my Neck and I would say.. PLEASE KILL ME and Let me die right NOW HERE.. I would wait and I would wait.. but.. when I opened both eyes.. and I lift UP to look.. YOUR
MAH MAH.. RAISED and showed NOT TO KILL ME.. the Guard puts his sword back and He turns to walk away following.. I am crying watching YOU on that Horse.. and I see the Horse moving forward.. I knew that I was going to love YOU MORE.. I knew that It was a LIFE or DEATH situation.. because I knew I should of NOT said it in front of all of the top Officials but.. It was My Heart which it moved me to tell you what I was truly FEELING inside and I kept on crying with tears falling down my face.. watching you Vanish as the Horse kept on walking forward.. I am sitting in the prison.. LOOKING at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I just can't believe that day.. that Guard wanted to strike me for disrespecting the QUEEN.. MAH MAH.. But to be honest with YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I was Not trying to ever disrespect YOU or to dishonor YOU IN any ways.. My Heart was moved and It kept on beating so fast.. when I saw the SUN FLOWER.. My Heart would be moved and Kept on moving so Fast because it made me to come Alive.. just the way YOU make me feel when I see you.. that I would come Alive.. that I can do anything even it can cost my own Life that I can die right Now and I am Not afraid to die because the Chance that YOU gave me.. that Day.. I knew I was going to die but I was ready.. if I can't keep the Promises.. what was the reason for me to live any ways.. if I were to be Homeless and Only can live in the Poverty in that Garden with the Poor People.. it was better for me Not to even have a chance at Life.. so I wanted to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if I had NO chance to succeed.. why Life with Nothing.. can't even Dream or go anywhere but to always stay POOR AND DIRTY.. I saw so many people give UP their Lives in that garden because they had NO chance.. NO shot for anything.. even they would murder each Other in that Garden or starve to death.. that day I knew.. when I saw YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I was on two Knees.. ready to die like a soldier even though I had NO chance at that time.. I knew I would Never made it to be but.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. that Day I saw something different about YOU.. YOU told that Guard Not to KILL me even YOU had all of the rights.. the Guard would be shouting at ME saying I am dishonoring and disrespecting the QUEEN.. and even that Guard Knew that YOU were to be the QUEEN.. and I cried when YOU told him not to kill me.. when I got UP.. and as I am staring at your Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. sitting in this Prison.. my hands holding unto the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. YOU had all of the rights.. you had the Power with the words to tell that Guard.. to Kill me.. and I am wondering why did YOU not.. I am sitting here in the Prison.. and I am locked in chains at this Point.. and I am facing the death penalty for Treason for this Nation.. if YOU.. MAH MAH.. told that Guard that day.. I know that I would Not come this very far.. I only wanted to do what was right.. and I saw YOU that day leaving with the SUN FLOWER.. and I knew.. One day.. some day YOU are truly going to know my Heart.. going to understand my Heart.. maybe connect and relate with My Heart.. but YOU have let me live that Day.. that Is why I wanted to always keep that Promises that I made to YOU.. to Your FATHER PEH HA the King and My Father too.. I just wanted to keep my promises to the End.. when I gave you that SUN FLOWER.. that was the Mark of my Promises to YOU that I would always love YOU and would keep my word to the End.. Maybe you did Not know at that time.. but I am glad that NOW you know.. when I saw you come visit me and I told YOU who that BOY was.. and that same boy was the One in the Garden.. and the ONE who gave you that FLOWER.. the SUN FLOWER.. I made the promises looking at the SUN FLOWER.. I was standing by the Tree asking My Mother if she can help me in this One.. that I wanted to give this Flower as a PROMISE to always Love YOU and to always keep my Words that I made the DAY I first time saw YOU beside the waters and Now.. I am glad that NOW YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN knows all these truth.. I wanted you to Know before I be executed.. before I die very soon.. that I always loved YOU and always wanted to keep my part of the Word because now I am telling YOU.. I love you Now.. and still I will always love YOU MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that it was me all this TIME who never stopped loving YOU.. I am looking at the Wall of the Prison.. my back on the Bars and I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. and also I drew the Picture I was thinking about My Father and me.. also YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH and your Father the King with the Ink Pen in my hand.. I remember it was the Most Happiest time in my Life.. the first day I saw YOU.. and How.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH has taken my Breathe away.. I wanted to serve YOU and Protect YOU all through my Life.. even in this Prison Time I am sitting.. and I hear the Prison Door Opens and it closes behind Me.. DID not expect anyone to visit Me and I would hear the Foot steps behind me and stops.. and I would turn around slowly to Look.. I just could Not believe who is visiting Me.. it is YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would move Back.. and face looking at the Floor.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it is pretty Late and I know that YOU are suppose to be sleeping.. why would you come to visit Me here in the Pitch dark of the Prison.. YOU know that I am life in Prison and ready to face death soon.. for Treason.. and I would hear the Sword touch the Bar.. and I would lift UP my Head.. and YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the sword points at the Picture of the drawing.. It is YOU.. My QUEEN sitting on the Horse.. Your Father the King holding the strings of the Horse on bare feet.. me and my Father.. Face DOWN before YOU and Your Father who was the Late King before His Passing.. and I would.. both hands grab hold unto the Drawing picture that I drew when I first Met YOU.. and I would Lift UP with both hands UP to show YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am Not sure if you ever remembered this time.. and It was the First time I ever saw YOU.. My father was appointed by your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA at that time to be Head over the servants and He was celebrating with Me.. telling me that He just became the Head over the servants and who was at that Time serving YOU as the Head servant.. and He wanted to take me down this Road and wanted to show me who you were.. and that is when I saw YOU.. sitting on top of the Horse.. your Father PEH HA.. the King who was walking bare feet.. holding on the strings of the Horse.. He wanted to be left alone with YOU where there was the Ocean waters.. it was the day when I first saw YOU but also the day I fell in Love with YOU.. I never told my Father this at that time because I did Not even know it for myself.. I saw you and I wanted to serve.. I wanted to Protect YOU for some reason.. of course I was just too young to know the Life that would be leading me here.. but that day I saw YOU.. I do remember.. My Father and I.. I saw my Father falling before the King.. YOUR FATHER PEH HA.. as the Head Servant.. head looking to the ground.. and I knew.. this must be the King.. Must be the ruler of the Nation.. Must be the One to rule over and Must protect and to defend and I knew.. I got of that horse and ran where My Father was at and I fallen.. looking at the Ground.. My Heart wanted to be a Part of the Nation that was rebuilding for the future to come.. I remember that day.. for some reason I wanted to be a Military Soldier.. wanted to be a warrior.. a Guard.. some one to be very Close to YOU but to have a part to protect the NATION you.. my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH was going to build.. I am not sure what it was when I saw YOU.. but I saw your Father.. I saw the KING.. PEH HA.. I saw him walking alone wanting to spend TIME WITH YOU.. which it moved me.. Behind the HORSE you were sitting On.. I saw large companies of People who belonged to the ROYAL PALACE and I just knew.. there must be something very SPECIAL about YOU for the FATHER to care and Love so much that HE had other sons too is what I heard.. but.. walking the Horse alone and pulling it by himself with the Large COMPANIES to leave YOU and your Father.. I knew that YOU were going to be HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I was Not sure HOW you were going to get there but.. I just knew that YOU were going to do something BIG for this Nation where People are going to see and I just wanted to be a PART to help to Build a stronger Nation helping and Supporting you all the way.. I remember that DAY.. your FATHER the KING.. PEH HA TOLD both Me and my Father to stand UP.. my father stood UP before the King and I did Not.. two Knees down.. my Head looking at the ground.. arms stretch forward to salute that I am going to be a military soldier who will serve the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH was my Heart showing YOU.. My QUEEN and your Father the KING.. I remember both.. the Fathers looked at me.. my father smiled and the KING.. your Father has spoken out loud and said.. He can see me protecting YOU and being by your side rebuilding this NATION to make it more stronger for YOU TO RULE and to CONQUEROR.. your Father.. PEH HA said.. a YOUNG BOY like myself has Courage.. has BOLD HEART and smiled LOOKING at me as I am LOOKING at the Ground.. I remember that DAY.. I made a Promise to YOU from my Heart.. that ONE DAY we will see.. that ONE DAY I will see the QUEEN
MAH MAH.. That I will be close to the QUEEN.. and I would say to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I made a promise to be here because I knew YOU are going to make this NATION stronger.. I just want to be a part to HELP YOU to build it.. I needs to see it so that I can finally let go of.. BUT I can't let it go unless I see it what I truly Believe to come this Very Far for YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground of the Prison and tears fills me eyes and I see the Tear drops running down and it hits the Prison Floor.. I have made this Promise to YOU and I have come so Close.. LOOK at it when YOU GO back.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am so CLOSE to see YOU rebuilding this NATION.. I have made this Promise to be BY your Side.. to defend and to Protect YOU.. to HELP YOU.. to SUPPORT you for your People.. that my Dreams has come true where I get to see YOU as the RULER.. YOU are the TRUE CONQUROER.. YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA saw it that YOU were going to take his Place.. and WHEN HE saw Me.. and HE LOOKED at me when I was very young.. before the KING.. PEH HA.. I raise UP me voice to YOUR FATHER that day.. to PEH HA the Late King that I have made the Promise to this NATION to serve YOU and to Protect YOU and to LOVE YOU forever.. but when I am chained UP in Prison.. and now I am being punished to death for Treason when I have done nothing Wrong but to fight ON your BEHALF MAH MAH.. Before I die.. before the sentencing to put me to Death HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I have made a Promise to YOU.. and this is the Picture which I drew.. when I saw you the First time.. and How my Father has lead me to YOU.. I made a Promise to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I even made a Promise to Your Father PEH HA.. and even to this NATION.. YOUR FATHER PEH HA.. the KING has received my Words when I spoke.. after HE said LOOKING DOWN ON ME that day.. He sees that I will be there for YOU.. that I will help YOU as My QUEEN.. so Please reconsider and HELP ME to finish what I have started.. help me to KEEP MY promises that I made to YOU as the QUEEN.. as HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. even to your Father PEH HA.. my Father who is in the grave.. I know that My time is very short and that Is why I need Your Help.. that is why I need you to HELP me so that I can keep my promises that I made to YOU.. that I know I may not be able to be with YOU.. But I can always Love YOU from the Far.. and I can be close to watch the rebuilding of the NATION to grow stronger.. YOU have the WORDS to do.. YOU have the power in your Words to help me to keep my Word I have made to YOU since when I was very YOUNG.. when I came into this Prison WALL.. I would sit quietly and as I close both of my eyes.. it took me back when I was with my Father.. How my father wanted to tell me something very Important.. and it was when I saw you for the first time.. I remember sitting on the TOP of the Horse my Father who had the strings pulling it forward.. tells me.. that is the KING and His Daughter.. and He goes over to Lower himself.. I just knew at that Moment.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is going to rule.. that YOU are going to take over your Father's Place and be the One to rebuild the NATION in the greater Heights and to make it more stronger than what it was at that TIME.. I wanted to be a Part.. I wanted to see it Happen.. I wanted to be there to HELP YOU.. to FIGHT FOR YOU and to protect.. to defend if it means something to YOU because that day is when I saw myself just falling and my Heart be saying to ME that I love YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I love YOU and has never let that GO and still.. as I am here in the Prison.. and YOU can see the chains on both of the wrists.. I can't do anything if I am here with the chains in my wrist and that I am locked UP.. I know that the War is coming SOON.. and Like I said to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. please reconsider.. I have already made a Promise to YOU and for the NATION you are trying to Build.. Please let me be a part to see it happening with YOU.. Please HELP ME so that I can too help YOU to conqueror and for YOU to RULE all the way.. and I see your hands.. as the Paper that I drew of YOU and Your Father.. PEH HA.. and Me and my Father by the Ocean Waters.. I see you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN looking at the paper which I drew with the Prison Ink and I am LOOKING at the Prison Floor.. and I would say LOOKING at the FLOOR.. DO you remember that time.. I am Not sure if YOU remember back then because Now.. I remember the Promise.. but One thing that I do know is that I am here.. I have seen you become the QUEEN.. my eyes has seen that YOUR FATHER'S Words were true and He was right about what HE has decided at that TIME.. also.. My Heart was right when I saw you the first time.. and I fell in Love with YOU.. and when I did.. I knew I had to give it ALL IN and just go ALL IN for YOU.. YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA was right about me too.. that I was to help YOU.. to support and to defend and to protect YOU.. HE was right when he saw me that I was going to be Close to YOU.. that I be your Soldier and which I am NOW.. but Only YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH can change what is to COME.. you.. MY QUEEN has the Power with your Words to HELP ME to keep my Promises to Finish the Promises that I made to YOU LONG AGO.. I am still willing to go fight and to Protect.. to defend ONLY if you are WILLING MY QUEEN.. that is why I am begging here on two knees to HELP me to keep my WORD before I die.. I want to die with peace.. I don't want to die like this if I did NOT FINISH.. or ACCOMPLISH the Promises I made to YOU and for YOUR NATION.. so you are the ONLY ONE who can change the times which I am at the TIME OF DEATH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. PLEASE help me to keep my Word I made to both Fathers.. My Father and Your FATHER PEH HA.. as I watch YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I would lift UP my Head to LOOK at YOU.. and I see you.. the QUEEN.. YOU would sit on the Floor.. and point at the HORSE where I was sitting.. and point at ME as I am looking through the Prison Bars.. and I would tell YOU YES.. that I was the ONE who sat on that Horse.. I am sure if YOU saw ME sitting on the TOP of the Horse as my Father was the ONE who was pulling the strings of the Horse walking forward and I see YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I see you with Tears.. and I am not sure is it for JOY or sadness and I see your Head telling me yes.. that YOU do remember that DAY.. and It was ME who was the ONE to show you that I WILL PROTECT YOU always and be by your Side and also to LOVE YOU forever in my Heart.. and I would start to cry looking at your crying.. It was me that DAY.. My Promises I made to YOU has come true this Far.. and I am sure YOU heard what YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA said that day because I saw YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. sitting on the top of the Horse and YOU LOOKED at me and gave me that smile.. I still remember YOUR SMILE.. How can I NOT.. I WILL NEVER forget that day because it is YOU who I love.. it is YOU who I wanted to protect and to be close to YOU and to help you to rebuild this NATION.. because I never stopped Loving you and still I love you this Day.. and as I would look at you through the Bars.. I see you crying LOOKING at the Drawing Picture of and NOW you remember.. NOW THE QUEEN REMEMBERS.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH remembers Me.. that was ME and Now here I am in the Prison.. ready to DIE.. but before I die.. let me keep my Word.. my promises I made to YOU.. Just please HELP ME HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HELP ME.. YOU are the Only ONE who can Help me.. so that I can still have the time to Love YOU MORE.. I just want to love you until I die.. My QUEEN.. I am looking at the Bow.. I am pulling the strings of the Bow.. wondering if I can shoot this arrow correctly.. How can I protect YOU.. How can I defend YOU and fight the Battles.. the UP coming Battles if I cannot shoot these arrows correctly.. as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I would put the Bow down after pulling the strings.. My hands grabs the Art sketch paper.. and I would LOOK at You.. LOOK at your Beautiful Face.. MAH MAH.. and I would Lower.. both on knees.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and I would LOOK across.. the Board.. the Target that is ON the Middle of the Tree.. I have been trying.. trying to shoot these arrows.. I would pull on the strings of this Bow.. that is LAYING on the Ground.. I been in this forest.. inside the forest are these trees.. which I would come at Night.. and I would look at the Target.. I would pull on the strings of this One Bow.. and my Father made this Bow for Me.. He has made the arrows.. and would give it to me.. and I would grab these Arrows and walk for few Miles.. It becomes Dark when I arrive to this Forest.. Having your Picture.. the Art sketch paper with me always.. On my Side.. On my Chest.. I think of YOU.. and I would say.. One Day I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I will see you One Day.. I will meet YOU some Day.. just wait and see.. and I would always Unfold this Art Sketch Paper.. and I would look at YOU.. the Drawing of YOU and I would say.. WHY does my Heart hurt so Bad.. is it because I am missing YOU right Now.. and I would put the arrows on the ground.. and My Father would tell me.. first I needs to warm It UP.. PULLING on the strings of this BOW.. and I would PULL the strings till my hands.. my arms would hurt.. I would keep on pulling and Pulling it many times before I would shoot the arrows.. I remember I pulled it too many times
Oink Oink.. No matter How much I been waiting.. it seems like YOU never Come.. Am I suppose to be waiting.. sometimes I would wonder.. if I am doing the right thing.. because NO matter How much I ask.. is asking you wrong on my part.. I have been looking for answers.. But No matter How much I ask.. YOU never answer.. So I would sit.. pulling the chair and I am looking at the desk.. looking at the clean white piece of Paper.. there is Nothing written.. just a blank sheet of paper.. I would be looking at the Mail box.. I would open the Mail Box.. wondering if YOU would read the Letters I wrote to YOU.. I would walk.. opening the front door.. after I would sit.. for hours I would sit still.. picking up the pencil and I would have an eraser next to Me.. Just in case I make an Mistake after writing on the Piece of Paper.. some words are Not written right.. in is incorrect.. picking UP an eraser.. I would rub on the Pencil Mark and it disappear.. blowing the Dust off which it remains.. as I would sit on the chair.. looking at the desk.. I would see Your Picture.. I have to always have a picture of YOU.. I needs to take with me where ever I go.. I would pull the Picture.. looking at YOU.. I would say YOU are so Beautiful.. I can even rub my eyes many times.. blinking my eyes fast and I would take a LOOK at you in the Picture.. whenever I miss YOU.. I would look at you through the Picture.. when ever I want to love YOU.. I would pull out the picture.. staring at YOU in this Picture I have.. I would say to the Picture of YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. why can't I see YOU in person.. why can't I say this IN person of YOU.. I would hold YOUR hand.. asking YOU first.. would YOU Please let me hold Your hand Please.. can I tell YOU that YOU are so Lovely.. YOU are so Beautiful to Me.. I want to tell YOU this in person.. but I know that I can't.. I wish that I can see you in person to say to YOU.. to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. how much I missed YOU over the years.. years go by so fast.. and I know that I am getting older just like YOU.. what if YOU will never be here with Me.. as time goes by so fast.. and I am aging as well.. what if YOU never want to show UP to see me in person.. I would wonder many times.. asking this question.. there are times I would doubt and question.. but I would also say.. WHO can Love YOU.. I know that deep inside.. I know I can't be with YOU.. but.. at least I can tell YOU through these letters how much I adore YOU.. How much YOU inspire Me.. admire by Your Beauty and Grace.. that YOU look so wonderful tonight.. as Long as I can transfer.. what is in my Heart.. to type and write to YOU.. I am still here.. I have Not lost the touch.. I have Not lost the counting of the stars.. If you can look UP and count the stars up in the sky.. in the dark night.. I want to be the One to tell YOU this.. I love YOU.. many times More to tell YOU this that I love YOU.. as long as I know that in my heart.. I can transfer what is deep within me.. to express and share to YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. I would sit on the chair.. looking at the Picture of YOU.. just enjoying Your great Beauty.. the Joy that is set in my Heart because I am able to tell YOU.. Looking at the Clean piece of Paper.. I am holding the pencil.. with me is the eraser next to the paper.. as I am writing on the paper.. to able to tell YOU.. IS it okay if I can love YOU.. will you please let me Love YOU.. there is Nothing else I can do or say to YOU but just to tell you the three letter Words.. I love YOU.. Looking at your Picture of YOU.. makes me smile.. I am always smiling when I get to look at the Picture.. I smile because I would say.. I get the chance to tell YOU this.. to tell YOU that YOU are the Most Beautiful.. YOUR beauty.. why are YOU so beautiful to Me.. and as the Pencil write on the Piece of paper.. I would keep on pressing with the tip of the Pencil.. telling YOU when Can I see YOU.. would you please allow me to visit YOU once.. all I need is few Hours from YOU.. and I will not bother YOU much with Your Time.. will you let me see YOU just for One day.. I want to show YOU in Person.. How much I been waiting for YOU.. waiting for the Answer from YOU.. I would grab the envelope and I would fold the Piece of Paper on Half.. putting the Letter inside this envelope and I would stick it together.. and I would look at the envelope wondering.. will this Letter get to You.. did you give me the right address so that this Letter can get to YOU.. I would stand UP from sitting on the chair.. I would walk to the front door.. opening the door.. I am looking at the mail Box.. and I would walk to the mail box and put the envelope into the Mail Box.. as I am waiting outside.. I see the mail man driving his little truck.. and I would smile at the man.. and He looks at me.. the timing is perfect because he comes when I would put the Letter.. this envelope inside.. and I would open the mail Box.. pulling out the envelope inside.. and I would give it to HIM.. and I would smile.. this is for the One who I love.. I have written a Love Letter.. Please give it to YOU.. and the mail man smiles as He leaves driving the little truck.. I would be waiting.. as I would sit in the room.. looking out the window.. I would be waiting for Your answer.. I would see the little truck that the mail man drives.. He puts something inside the Mail Box.. I am waiting and wishing that It is YOU who read the Letter.. I even asked in that letter.. can YOU please write me back.. and I be waiting to see.. I am so happy that the Mail man came to drop something and putting into the Mail Box.. I would stand UP.. walking out the front door.. and I would walk to the mail box.. for some reason this mail man came pretty late dropping off something.. so it was Night when I went to the Mail Box.. I walked to the Mail Box.. wondering if YOU read the Letter.. wondering if YOU wrote me back.. wondering is it the letter from YOU.. as my Heart starts to beat faster.. I open the Mail Box.. I pulled Out.. there was NO letter from YOU.. I would just stand there.. Maybe tomorrow night.. I will have to wait for another night.. so I would be holding other letters.. But I wanted Your Letter.. bunch of paying for bills.. as I would wait.. I don't want to wait for another day to Come.. but I know that I had to wait.. there is nothing else I can do but just wait for YOU.. I would be waiting for few days.. about four days went by.. and there was NO Letter from YOU.. and I started to feel like maybe the Letter I wrote to YOU did Not get to your address.. How Long must I wait.. if there is NO answer on the Other side.. How long must I wait for an answer.. are you ever going to tell Me or am I suppose to just guess by Now that YOU are Not going to write me anything.. every night I would Open the front Door.. the MAIL man has been coming pretty Late.. so I would walk to the mail Box.. another Letter I wrote.. putting into the envelope.. just waiting for him to come as I wanted to give YOU another letter.. the mail man comes.. and I am standing by the Mail Box giving him the envelope with the Letter inside.. he smiles and tells me that He saw YOU.. and he gave the Letter to YOU.. and Another Letter will be given to YOU again.. so I would smile.. knowing that this is the answer I wanted to hear.. that I wanted to hear that YOU are truly receiving these letters.. it is Not easy to write YOU a Letter.. takes me a lot of hours to write just to show YOU.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and How much I miss YOU too.. the mail man tells me.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I would pulled the Picture and show the mail Man the Picture of YOU.. and He looks at It.. looks at the picture.. looks at YOU.. tells me it is YOU.. the woman who received the first letter.. it is the same person in that picture but tells me.. YOU are so much more beautiful in person.. picture is nothing compared to YOU when looking at you in person.. I wanted to see.. I wanted to go with the mail man.. to see How beautiful YOU look.. what does this Mail man means.. but of course.. I know that I have to just wait for YOU.. I don't want to go yet.. as I hand him the envelope.. with the Letter written inside for YOU.. He takes it with HIM.. I am smiling.. I am in such a great joy because as long as YOU receive the Letter.. it means everything to Me.. all I want to hear.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. all I want to know.. How much I need YOU and how much I miss YOU.. that YOU are doing just fine and that YOU know who is the person behind the ONE who is writing you these Love Letters.. all I want to hear.. YOU know it is Me who be loving YOU all along and never stopped loving YOU till this very day and that I will Not stop loving YOU.. as I would turn around.. LOOKING at the house.. I would walk to the front door.. open the door.. as long as I get this chance to write to YOU by telling YOU.. that I will keep on telling YOU that I love YOU.. I have not lose any hope but will continue to always love YOU.. and I would open the front door.. closing behind the door.. I would walk into the room.. looking at the chair.. looking at the desk.. I would sit on this chair.. pulling out the piece of paper.. with the pencil and eraser next to the paper.. and I would pull out your picture.. looking at YOU through this Picture.. I would say.. I can't stop.. because the More I see YOU.. the More I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't I stop loving YOU.. why can't I just stop.. but when I see your picture.. YOU touch my Heart and my soul to death.. that I needs to tell YOU what is in my heart and in my soul.. in my mind.. that I needs to be with YOU.. when can I see YOU.. I heard from the Mail Man.. YOU are so much beautiful in person.. so amazingly Beautiful that it takes Your Breathe away and leaves
I am waiting for you.. How long has it been since I saw you last time.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding in my hands.. by the table.. I am waiting for YOU.. you told me that YOU are going to come.. I just received a message.. sending me a text message.. and I have been waiting but now it is getting later in the Night.. I would walk to the side where I would sit.. I would sit on the chair.. putting two plates.. I was in the kitchen.. cooking for few hours because I received your message.. My Heart.. I have never felt this Heart Beat hitting.. and for a long time I could not even hear from YOU.. I called you many many many times.. for more than weeks went by.. I even left you my voice on the message at the end.. asking YOU and begging YOU please to answer.. asking YOU that I wanted to hear you on the Other side.. I would call.. hearing the ringing.. and even typed a message on the Phone.. but for a long time now.. I have not received.. I even took pictures of the Plates.. different nights and I would send it to your Number.. and I know that YOU received it.. I been waiting for the answer.. just been waiting for YOU.. it seems like it has been years on my part of waiting.. asking YOU to come Home.. but YOU never answered and Finally I got Your Message.. and YOU even texted message me back telling me you are coming Home.. I even fell off the chair I was sitting on because I just could not believe.. I wondered if this was a Joke.. maybe a prank.. but I knew that It was YOU because it came from Your Number.. garlic Bread.. green beans with Corn and a Steak.. placing the Plate On your side of the table.. and I was so happy.. I would go across my side of the table and I sat down.. of course YOU never told me the hours when YOU would come Home.. I sat down just waiting.. as I pulled out your Picture.. I would be staring.. looking at Your Beautiful Face.. your Smile so Gorgeous and it lights My Heart on fire.. I would watch the Clock on the wall.. as it went from 30 minutes and it hits to about a hour.. I watch the time.. the clock keeps on ticking.. AS I sit on this Chair waiting for YOU.. but I do not hear anything from YOU.. I would lift UP the Phone.. I am dialing up your Number ON my phone.. but I decided to stop calling YOU.. as I would look at your Picture.. I would have to face another day.. another night comes.. I sit here alone without YOU.. I been waiting and waiting for YOU.. why don't you want to come Home.. why did YOU leave me a message telling me YOU were coming Home.. I even took the Picture of the Plate.. the Dinner I made for YOU so that we can eat together.. I send the picture to YOU.. I know that YOU received it.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. are you playing games with my Heart.. do you want to hurt Me because I know that I am hurt so Bad.. without YOU.. my days goes so Long.. it drags and the Clock stops ticking in front of Me.. YOU know that I been missing YOU.. I been needing YOU.. is it because YOU know How much I miss YOU.. that you are causing this Heart ache.. is it because YOU know How much I love YOU.. you are causing my Heart to cry inside.. I want to run in the rain.. I want to be washed UP by the waters of the cold.. soaking me to be wet.. my eyes would weep as I would stare into the night.. LOOKING at the walls asking for YOU.. begging for YOU to come Home.. why don't you want to see me.. why don't you want me to love YOU any more.. YOU know that I will love YOU.. you know how much I love YOU.. but why don't you come closer.. please tell me.. help me to understand why YOU want to put this distance between Us.. if YOU know.. I am like a lone wolf.. by myself I am howling loud for YOU.. wailing in my Heart.. screaming from my Lungs.. I need YOU.. I miss YOU.. I love YOU.. why don't you want me to Love YOU.. please tell me.. please help me to understand.. I been waiting for YOU.. YOU told me you were coming Home.. now four hours has gone by.. and my hour.. the time has pass by for me to sleep.. but I am still sitting here.. I am looking across.. looking at the Plate.. looking at the Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. I feel so Bad because Now I am only looking at the chair.. that chair once that gave me the JOY.. the true happiness.. the smiles.. of course I did not know how much NOW I miss you.. and Now I see how much I love YOU because I am only looking at the Chair.. the empty chair where YOU sat down Once.. I do remember my friend came Over.. He looks at me and I was crumbling inside.. holding UP the Hard liquor and taking Shots from the Shot glass.. and He looks at me asking what is wrong.. and I would turn my Head.. and I would be looking at Your Chair.. which He saw me and He knew what I meant.. what My Heart was missing is YOU.. and He did come around when YOU were there.. knowing How much I am torn into pieces.. and I am crying in front of HIM because this Heart.. I was aching inside.. this Pain.. it felt like something sharp plunging into my stomach.. it hurts so bad.. I just couldn't breathe well and He knew.. My Pain.. and losing YOU how it affected everything I had.. and I saw the Chair.. now that chair is empty.. It hurts.. WHY does it hurts so bad.. it hurts me because I now know how much I love YOU.. and the Friend told me He can introduce me but I told that friend.. I don't need another.. I wanted YOU.. it does not matter how many sits on that chair.. it does not feel the same because I want YOU.. only YOU can sit on that chair and I would look and say to You.. I love YOU.. Now I am sitting here alone.. watching the Clock as it keeps on ticking slowly and waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I am looking at Your Picture.. I would say looking at your Picture.. did YOU just lied to Me.. were you not serious about coming Home.. why did YOU tell me through the text message that YOU are coming Home.. asking me to make Your Favorite Dish.. I even wrote back the message that I am going to the kitchen so that I can cook for YOU.. and I even took the picture of the Plate.. your favorite Dish and YOU also send two thumbs UP saying it is YOUR Favorite dish.. what you did not see is that I smiled when I received the two thumbs UP.. my Heart beat so fast because it is from YOU.. and I just could not believe that YOU send me text message.. it has been a while since I heard anything.. and after I took the picture and send.. I sat on my side of the table.. and kept on looking at the clock.. as the clock kept on ticking.. I wanted to ask when are YOU coming Home.. but I told myself just to be patient and just to wait.. Now I am looking at the Clock.. it has been five hours since the last message.. the text message I received.. I wonder if YOU are going to come Home tonight.. feels Like I needs to go to my Room and sleep through the Night.. will I see you tomorrow if I wait UP.. will you be here when I get UP to a new day or do I have to wait all over again.. it repeats over and over.. of course this time is a little different since I did received a Text Message.. a lot better than previous days.. weeks.. NO answer was such a Harsh reality to wake UP too.. but I do feel a little better because I know that it was YOU who sent me the message.. I guess I just needs to wait for More.. just give YOU more time.. and I believe the Time is the Only way it can heal what is going On.. because NO matter where YOU at.. I am always here waiting for YOU.. looking at your Picture.. telling You in the Picture How much I love YOU.. that I will always love YOU.. as I would get UP from the Chair.. I would look across.. the Plate.. and I see two Chairs.. I am wondering where did that Other Chair come from.. and I do remember that YOU brought another Chair.. Next to Your Chair.. YOU would sit the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I do remember you be playing with that Giant Teddy Bear.. telling me that YOU are her Friend.. and I would watch you holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. as YOU were sitting ON your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear had her own Chair too.. and I am smiling.. I do remember YOU telling me.. bring the Camera.. the Picture I am holding.. there was another Picture behind It.. I never knew that there were two pictures I was holding.. when I looked at the second Picture.. It was YOU smiling.. and YOU were sitting on your Chair.. and Next to YOU.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. How you asking me to bring the Camera and to take picture of Both.. YOU and Your Friend.. I never knew that This was the last picture I would take before YOU would be gone.. I stood there.. looking at the two empty chairs.. I can feel my tears.. filling UP my eyes and two lines of tears streaming down.. only if I could go back to this time.. to be more careful with my Words.. Not to tell YOU anything that would Hurt YOU.. why did I say those words to YOU when YOU treated me with kindness and How much YOU put a smile ON my face.. why did I say those ugly words to Hurt you when NOW it is destroying me for Hurting YOU which made you walk Out the front DOOR.. as I am holding the Camera.. I would look through the Lens.. I am only seeing two empty Chairs.. DID YOU not ask me to bring you the Camera.. I would zoom in to get closer Look.. but ALL I see is two chairs.. both are empty.. and I start to cry.. as my tears would flood out from my eyes.. I just can't believe it.. and My hand lets go and the camera goes off my hand and lands On the floor.. if YOU are here.. I know that I would Not drop this Camera.. what good is this Camera Now if I can't even take YOUR picture any more.. why do you have to leave me like THIS.. I feel like my whole body is rotting.. it is decaying slowly
AS I would Open my Mouth.. last night I could Not sleep.. I was struggling so much trying to get some rest.. I don't know why but I was toss and turning around.. I would close my eyes.. my eyes would open.. both eyes looking up at the ceiling.. I am wondering.. I am so tired.. but why couldn't I fall asleep.. there is my Pillow.. I would grab and hold unto the pillow.. thinking that it be YOU.. and try to fall asleep.. my Heart was telling me.. There is One Picture that catches My eyes.. and I would stop.. taking a Look.. it is YOU.. but.. it is the first Picture of YOU.. before I ever met YOU.. and it is a Picture which my Friend would show Me.. as I am walking out of the Room.. after Looking at the Giant Teddy Bear and I stand by the Door.. looking at the empty Chair.. I have in my hand the first Picture.. which I had to travel far.. my friend wanted to introduce YOU to me.. and as I am looking at this Picture.. WHY did I let YOU go.. I remember that My friend told Me.. YOU are so Dear to HIM.. I was not thinking.. I did Not know what He meant by YOU were so Dear.. until the day YOU are gone.. When YOU left.. I only saw the Bag and YOU looked at me.. and only told me that YOU were leaving.. and told me.. it is going to be only few days YOU were gone.. I am thinking.. Maybe YOU went to My friend.. is this the reason WHY you have Not answered My call.. I just could not believe what I am dealing at this Point.. WHY would you tell me you will be Back.. that it would only take few days and Now.. weeks went By.. and now it is going on a month since YOU are gone.. I call YOU on the Phone.. I only hear the Phone ringing.. that means YOU are receiving.. knowing that It is Me who is calling YOU.. but.. why don't you pick UP.. why can't you tell me that YOU are doing just fine.. that YOU are doing alright.. I am still wondering.. and I am standing by the door.. LOOKING at the Chair.. the empty chair you sat.. WHY are you hurting Me.. why are YOU breaking my Heart.. can't you be honest with Me.. Please answer the Phone.. Please answer when I call YOU.. but every time I call YOU.. I only can leave YOU the voice Message.. if YOU know and YOU are able to hear me on the Other side.. WOULD YOU please call Back.. if NOT.. Please answer.. I am beginning to worry more about YOU.. because I am not sure what is going On.. Help me to Know that YOU are doing well.. that YOU are doing good.. WHY do you have to hurt me this way.. WHY are you punishing me because It truly Hurts YOU know.. Please tell me something.. as I am looking at the Old Picture.. the first Picture I ever saw.. It just drives Me crazy because I know that it was my fault.. I should of held Back.. should of been patient with YOU.. and just cool off before I speak to YOU.. I never thought that it would end up this way.. I really thought YOU are going to come back after few days.. Now it has been a Month of waiting.. I don't even know where YOU are so How can I do the search for YOU.. YOU don't pick UP the Phone.. NO answer.. don't even message me back.. I am asking YOU How you are doing.. I even leave my voice on the message.. But it is now killing Me.. killing me because YOU do not know how I am feeling right NOW.. what I am dealing with.. YOU know that I love YOU.. YOU know that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much time of waiting.. I am waiting for YOU.. but the time keeps ON going.. and I don't see you.. I need YOU here.. I want YOU close.. Where are YOU.. tell me please.. where are YOU because I am missing YOU right Now.. I take a look at the Old Picture.. the first Picture.. my Both eyes closes and Now.. A Phone rings.. and I pick up the Phone on the Other side.. My friend told Me that He knows another and.. It is YOU who he wanted to introduce.. I remember I would ask HIM if He knew someone because I was ready to Love.. I wanted to meet someone.. and He called Me.. telling me that He has a Picture.. and wanted to show me WHO YOU were.. I remember I was ready.. I would look at the Mirror and I smiled.. Meeting YOU for the first time.. I wanted to see who My friend was talking about.. and this excitement.. this rush in my body came.. I wanted to Love.. to Love YOU.. as I got ready.. I had the Train ticket in my hand.. and with a Bag I left the House.. I do remember I am standing by the train station.. I just couldn't believe It.. finally something is going to happen.. I been waiting for a long time.. Just that the situation of my life would Not lead me anywhere.. as I would go into the train.. giving the ticket.. the Man takes it and it shows me the NUMBER to seat.. I would walk to the seat.. with my bag I would sit by the window.. I just could Not stop smiling.. WHY am I smiling so Much.. but I would be thinking.. WHY smile Now if YOU would reject me.. if YOU don't like me at all.. But.. I do remember to shake it Off.. as I am looking through the Window.. I see a Beautiful woman.. and I see this WOMAN boarding into the train.. which caught my eyes quick.. but of course.. what am I going to do because I am meeting someone else.. I hear the foot steps and stops next the the seat I was sitting.. and I see YOU.. and I see you sit right next to me.. I am wondering.. WHY do my Heart.. WHY do I feel like I am getting a Heart attack.. WOULD my Heart stop attacking me from the Inside.. Please Stop jumping.. My Heart feels Like It is Jumping UP and DOWN so fast.. I wanted to hit my chest.. But.. A Beautiful woman Like you.. if YOU turn your Head and looks at me.. I think you would say I am Crazy.. like something is wrong with my Head.. so I would sit still.. and my Head turns to LOOK at YOU.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. so Amazingly Beautiful.. so Lovely INDEED.. as the train starts to Go.. I feel so Happy.. Happy that I get to see YOU.. even though I have Not met you yet.. as the train starts to pick up the speed.. the ride is bumpy and I am moving side to side.. I would bump on the side.. I see your Head turning.. Keeps on looking at me that I needs to stop.. I needs to control myself.. and I am trying.. but this Ride.. this Train.. it is going pretty fast and I think lots of small rocks.. because I would be moving side to side.. and the train would slow down its speed and I see that the BUMPY road stops.. I would turn my head.. I just can't stop looking at YOU.. I wanted to ask.. where are YOU going.. because I wanted to tell YOU.. I am going to meet someone so Special and that I am so excited to meet.. my friend is going to introduce me to my Love.. of course I did Not care what if it did Not work Out because I believe that it is going to be good.. it will work Out because I want Love.. I want to share my love.. speak of Love and tell about How I feel when I am in love.. as long as I am able to love YOU.. it did not matter if it is NO.. I am ready to Love YOU know.. but.. I see that YOU would be looking straight.. did NOT even turn aside.. did NOT even turn to look at me.. I am wondering Are you a sad Person.. must be a tragedy what YOU are going through.. I would turn my head towards the window.. and looking through.. and it would be hours of riding on this train.. but I did not care.. I am so happy anyways.. it can go for days and still I be happy to see YOU.. and for some reason I turn my Head to look.. I see something.. YOUR hand was holding something.. I am wondering.. what is that In your hand.. can I please take a Look.. It is a Picture.. But ALL I see is the Back.. the front.. I just can't tell.. as the train keeps on going.. and it would be about three hours of train ride and I see that the train would stop.. Now.. my two eyes would open.. and I am looking at the empty Chair.. WHY am I going back.. if I know that YOU are not coming.. YOU have been gone for about a Month.. what am I going to do if I go back to those beautiful Days.. and LOOK.. I am hurting so bad.. I feel like I should Not go back.. all it does is give me More pains.. I would be holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would be crying TOP of it.. because I would miss YOU.. I would be sobbing.. just raining down my tears as I am holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. getting everything out.. but still I have more tears to rain down because Now.. I feel so Sad that YOU are gone.. why can't you come back.. is it really that Hard for YOU to come back.. YOU know that my arms are open wide.. YOU know that I will open the door for YOU.. and I will tell YOU how much I am so sorry.. that I am Not going to yell at YOU anymore.. of course YOU gave me so much chances.. I know How I screw up.. telling YOU that I am not going to yell.. telling YOU that I am going to change.. but the words.. I know YOU don't believe me Now.. waiting for YOU for weeks.. days goes By I would look out the window from the inside of this House.. I would also be walking out side.. waiting for YOU.. but.. I do not see YOU at all.. Only thing is that I can go back.. going back to the memories where YOU are living in my Heart.. I just can't wash YOU away.. that is why it
Hurts Me so Much.. all I do is think of YOU.. I am so tired of only thinking of YOU.. I want to be with YOU.. be with YOU by your side and to tell YOU HOW much I love YOU.. AS I close both eyes.. I am going back to the train.. I am sitting down.. the train has stopped and I am waiting.. as I see YOU get UP.. I turn to LOOK out the window of the train.. I see my friend waiting.. of course I would smile so big.. I know that he has a Picture to show Me.. I am waiting for the Line of people to go down.. some How.. You are able to pass through the Lines of people standing.. I see you walking Out.. as I am watching YOU leave.. I see you stop.. and YOU are next to my friend.. I am wondering.. what does this Means.. and I am thinking.. NO.. it just can't be.. is my friend who knows YOU.. is it YOU who has the Picture.. I am thinking.. it just can't be.. and I am able to stand UP.. I see the People leaving.. and I get behind.. with my bag.. I am able to get off the train.. as I am getting closer to my friend.. I see you turn around and I see YOU.. YOU are surprised because we have already met in the train ride.. and My friend looks at me and Looks at YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU.. and I would hear YOU.. that YOU wanted to come Home.. and I am telling YOU to come home.. because in this house I am waiting for YOU Only.. I am looking at the Phone.. able to look at the screen.. I see your Beautiful Face.. I just can't believe YOU have finally answered.. but why did it take this long for YOU to tell me How you are doing.. why can't you tell me sooner.. I have brought the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wanted to show YOU something.. and Placed the Giant Teddy Bear on your Chair.. able to switch it where YOU are able to see it as I am showing you How much this Giant Teddy Bear been missing YOU.. I am sure more than Me.. usually YOU would sleep with this Giant Teddy Bear and I know without Your Presence.. it does Not feel the same.. and I am showing YOU.. LOOK.. who is waiting for YOU.. as much as Me.. and I see you smile looking at the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on Your Chair.. and I am able to focus on your Plate.. I am not sure if I am dreaming right Now
Because I know that right Now.. I am talking some Shots from the Shot Glass as I am pouring the Bottle on the Shot Glass.. I am hurting so Much.. this Pain does not leave me because I need YOU here.. I need you close to Me.. I am missing YOU.. and I can feel the tears running down my cheeks looking at YOU on the screen.. I been waiting for YOU.. day by day goes By.. it does Not feel the same because YOU are the love of my Life.. do you know how it feels to sit on this side of Chair.. every night.. I am making something to eat.. I am thinking of YOU too.. and I am wondering.. will YOU come Home.. will you eat from this Plate.. what if YOU don't show UP.. it breaks my Heart each time I come Out of the room in the morning.. looking at the table.. looking at the Empty Chair.. I am always looking at the past memories.. YOU be laughing.. telling me too salty.. or too dry.. some times a meat ball flies and hits my face and YOU smile.. just these little things.. I would be laughing too because I am at the most happiest when YOU are smiling.. able to smile back.. grab a meat ball and throw back at YOU.. of course I would of missed YOU.. I just can't help it any more.. I was really thinking maybe it should be the last Dinner plate I should make because may be YOU are Not going to ever come Home and just forget me for good.. as I am looking at YOU through my Phone Screen.. I have missed YOU so much.. I would grab the Shot Glass.. filled with the whiskey and Open my mouth to take another Shot.. I know that My Head is about to fall off.. I can see everything circling around Me.. I know that I can't stand UP straight.. and I know that when I wake UP the next morning.. My Head is going to kill me.. rather this is a dream or Not.. I am smiling looking at YOU through the screen of my Phone.. My Heart been aching for a Long time.. just missing YOU.. why I keep on missing YOU.. I now know how much I love YOU.. because of looking across is the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat.. I am looking across.. the Giant Teddy Bear is sitting there who is waiting for YOU to come back to Her.. all I can say is that I am so Sorry.. and that I love YOU.. as the Phone shuts off.. I would put my head on top of the table and I would sleep.. My Heart hurts.. it feels like something shot inside of me because I need to see YOU.. I need you so Close.. I want to hold YOU once More and tell YOU how much I need to be with YOU and to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. as my both eyes opens.. I would lift UP my Head from the Table.. I know that the Chair is going to be empty again.. the Chair YOU sat down.. and I look across to see.. I just can't believe it.. Is it really YOU.. is this a Dream or am I seeing what I am seeing in reality.. I see YOU sitting on Your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your lap.. the Plate.. the Dish I made for YOU.. YOU have ate the food.. and I am wiping my tears.. I just can't.. I can't believe that this is you.. it is really YOU.. YOU know that I sat many nights.. just dreaming for YOU to be here.. but ALL I saw on the Other side is the Chair.. it be empty and lonely just like my Heart felt when YOU were not there.. I missed YOU and I love YOU too.. Now that MOON has become My friend and times like this.. this pain and aching in my Heart.. when I feel like I want to die from the Inside.. and How much I missed YOU.. I just had to tell that MOON like a friend.. How much I missed YOU.. Yes.. I made Dinner for few days straight.. and for those past few days.. YOU have not shown UP.. I only saw the Chair.. Your Chair which has been empty.. I would sat the Plate with the Food on the side Of Your table.. but ALL I can see is Your Chair is empty.. I would just look across.. I wanted to reach Out my hand.. I wanted to touch YOU.. but How can I when I see the Chair.. I don't see YOU but only the Empty Chair.. I wanted to call Out your name.. But what can that do.. YOU would not hear me anyways because the Chair YOU sat when we ate together.. It was empty.. I would to say Your name.. call Out and reach to touch YOU.. my arms wanted to hold YOU still.. wrap around YOU but all I see is the Empty Chair.. I see the Food and Your Plate but I don't see YOU.. do you know how it feels to be sitting on the other side of the Chair.. I have my Plate and food.. and try to sit there alone.. eating by myself and all I could do is look across.. I see the Empty Chair.. I would have your Picture.. Put it on the TOP of the table and I would LOOK at it.. I would LOOK at YOU through this Picture.. it is not the same as I am looking at YOU right Now Face to face.. it does not feel right.. I would be asking Your Picture.. DO you even Love me.. if YOU love me why Hurt me like this.. if YOU Know how much I love YOU.. why keep on hurting me like this.. YOU know that I love YOU.. if YOU know that I love you a lot.. it is Not fair to hurt me in a way I should feel like this.. WHY hurt me knowing I love YOU.. that is why I am asking YOU right Now.. do YOU love Me.. if YOU love me.. Please don't hurt me because I am not here to be hurt BY you.. I also need to be loved as much as YOU do.. as I am looking at YOU.. YOU know that my Heart felt like burning.. and it would shattered into pieces.. because I love YOU.. as I look at YOU.. YOU still looks so beautiful.. is.. I even took a picture of YOU sitting with that Huge Bear.. I am over here just missing YOU.. WHY did you have to do this to me when YOU don't love me.. I told you that I love YOU.. I told you my heart and my soul.. that I wanted you to be the one who join in forever with me.. As I sat there on the Chair.. looking at the Watch.. Looking at the clock on the wall.. as it was getting late into the Night.. I get Up from the Chair.. my tears just flowing down.. I would walk out of the front door.. as I stand late into the Night.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am wondering.. WHAT DO I must do to earn YOUR LOVE.. Help me to understand.. If I love YOU.. and I am asking you to stay with Me.. why is it so hard for YOU to know that My Heart and what I say is true.. I am Not lying to YOU at all.. I am only expressing of How Much I love YOU.. why don't you trust My Heart.. WHY don't you know that It is me who Loves YOU the most.. I know that I can love you more.. I can love you where you know I can.. as I am looking at that Moon.. I want YOU to be close.. I want to tell YOU that it is Me who YOU need.. it is me who loves YOU the best.. all you got is to trust me in this.. YOU do not know how long of a flight I had to fly.. the years of coming.. Now.. I am here.. please.. just give me Your Hand.. and I will show YOU HOW MUCH I love YOU.. as long as YOU can trust me and understand.. when YOU give me Your Hand.. once I hold the grip of your Hand.. I will never let Your Hand to go because I love YOU.. and as I turn to walk into the House and I come over to sit on the Chair.. I looked UP.. wiping my Tears.. I see YOU.. I see you sitting there on the Chair.. Holding the Huge Bear.. with red ribbon.. smiling.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. One minute YOU are gone.. Next minute I see YOU.. then YOU are gone.. I cry and Now.. I see you again.. as I sat there.. Putting down the Camera.. I see YOU.. I smile.. even though YOU are NOT THERE.. YOU Live in My Heart.. even though YOU may be so Far.. I see the Chair empty.. but also.. I can close my both eyes.. when I open and LOOK.. I see you sitting on that Chair.. it is because I love YOU.. NO matter How far YOU are.. IN MY HEART.. I know YOU live in.. all I do is say.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. it is Your Chair.. the chair YOU sat down when we would eat together.. I did not know why YOU left.. I am so sorry for letting YOU down.. but I saw YOU angry at Me.. I know that I am Not perfect.. I make a lot of Mistakes.. of course I do because I am also imperfect Human Being.. But there are times I know I just can't say the right Words to YOU.. making YOU angry and frustrated with situations I am not use to with.. When YOU get mad.. or Angry.. I see the Great storms coming.. it hits my Heart like a Hurricane.. and it blows me to the Floor.. But.. I want the best for Us.. I want us to win in this Life.. YOU know How hard and tough Life can be.. it is Not easy for Me.. But YOU know that NO matter the wrong words I would say to YOU.. I know I should Not say.. which It makes YOU to storm Off the room.. it is because I know that I am Not perfect.. But.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have Never stopped Loving YOU.. it only grows with Time because I know YOU are the One for Me.. and YOU are wondering.. WHY do I choose the wrong Words to say and tell YOU.. because also I go through a lot myself.. I deal with such Hardship.. sometimes It is Not easy to say when I feel unappreciated.. I get hurt Too.. I feel Hurt inside as much as YOU do.. and Yes.. I do regret when YOU walk off the room.. Leaving me just standing here.. I can't explain it sometimes but.. I know that deep inside my Heart.. I do truly love YOU.. I am so sorry for Hurting YOU.. I am so sorry that YOU got Up and left because I could Not say the right words but has chosen to say the wrong words to Hurt YOU.. Now.. I am here all alone.. I been looking at the
Clock.. only thing I see is the Clock ticking.. and I am just waiting for YOU to come back Home.. Now I feel so Lost.. I feel so Hurt.. I feel like I know I have wronged YOU but it is because I wanted to say I love YOU.. YOU are wondering.. If I love YOU.. why choose words to say what Hurts YOU the most right.. WHY choose those makes YOU angry and bring frustrations right.. It is because I know I can't make it right.. because I know it is my fault.. I am the One who made the mistake.. so sometimes I would try to say something so that YOU would not respond in a defense.. I know that when YOU fire back.. it hurts Me.. It makes me want to cry but In front of YOU.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. I have already shown YOU enough tears but wants to show YOU smile.. bring a smile to your face.. that is why.. I am waiting for YOU.. I even left a message.. I am not sure if YOU got the Message because I am thinking.. right Now is Not the time.. YOU are truly angry at me.. but.. why did YOU leave without saying a Word to me.. when are YOU coming back.. How far are YOU going.. Are you going to be leaving Me behind.. Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. did YOU go out for some fresh of air.. I am over here.. only wondering where YOU are.. wondering if YOU went Out for a walk.. so Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. I am sitting on the chair on the Other side.. the Chair I been sitting when we would eat together.. But.. it seems like it has been awhile.. I would turn a side to look at the Clock.. the Time has been dragging.. sitting here and just waiting.. the Time seems like it is going by so Slow.. and looking across.. I see the Chair.. Your Chair which YOU sat down.. when I watch YOU in the kitchen.. I see YOU smile when YOU are making a meal.. but.. YOU would also call out to me.. asking if I can be by your side to help YOU in cooking.. I don't like to cook at all.. but.. I know that I love YOU.. I would join in just to be by Your side and to help you to finish.. I would be washing the dishes when we would finish eating.. putting the dishes and cups.. utensils back to its place.. wiping the table to make it clean.. wiping down the counter top when It is wet.. I do love the washing part because I am able to do something that I know I can be a part to help YOU.. but On this very night.. I saw YOU packing UP a Bag.. and I saw YOU out the front door.. YOU did not say a word to me.. Not even said Good Bye or Good Night.. I was shocked.. because I never thought YOU had this in your Mind and Heart.. I think it was a build up on your Part.. and Now.. YOU are gone.. I am looking across.. only thing I see is the Chair.. the Chair is empty.. I don't see YOU across this table.. I am thinking.. is this a Dream.. or is this really happening to me.. WHY is it has to end this way.. why tell me that YOU love me and Now.. YOU are Gone with the Wind.. I can't help myself but my eyes are looking at this Chair.. But what good is it when YOU just had to hold back but only showing tears in the eyes.. it is hard when you just can't say a word and just hold back.. Kills you from the inside.. SO I had to close my eyes.. counting the stars for the chance to come.. asking the Moon.. How long does it take.. How long must I had back the years showing tears to YOU.. so.. if you look at my shoes.. it is not easy of waiting and waiting for the TIME to come.. it is hard but.. I am looking at Your Heart.. I just could not believe.. I see Your Picture too.. looking at YOU and looking at Your Big Heart is like a Dreams come true.. but in reality.. I know that I am not dreaming any more.. Now.. I know that I want to say some much to This Heart of Yours.. what is holding YOUR HEART back of receiving.. I want to give.. I just want to pour out and give YOU all of my Heart and my Love to YOU.. and to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for this very day.. that is why I am Not going to hold anything back.. I want to tell Your Heart.. How much I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. then I loved YOU.. Now.. I love YOU.. still I love YOU.. and More I love you every day.. it is Not going to stop me to keep on loving YOU more every day.. because I have been waiting for YOU.. for Your Big Heart.. for this Heart.. I miss YOU and I love YOU still.. because YOU are my everything.. my forever and ever love in my Heart.. I waited.. Now.. I know I can love you more because I love you.. I am standing Outside.. I just could Not stay Inside because I started to Miss YOU.. sitting on the Chair.. I am looking across and I still see the Empty Chair.. I am waiting for YOU.. looking at the two Plates.. after making Dinner for us.. I just could not stay inside any longer.. I want you Close.. I want YOU near.. I walked Out the Door.. and I am staring out.. Looking at the Moon.. I am asking myself.. Where are YOU.. WHY don't you want to Come home.. is it because what I said to YOU.. but YOU know that sometimes I would say things I should not say.. but also YOU would tell me things that WOULD hurt me as well.. I am waiting for YOU.. Please Come HOME.. I think the Food on the Plate is getting cold.. I have waited and waited.. Looking at the watch.. Looking at the clock.. I see that YOU are Not here yet.. It is pretty cold Outside.. pretty Chilly this very day and I am still waiting for YOU.. WHY don't you want to come Home.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. Please Come Home.. as I am standing there.. I have your picture in my hand.. and I take a LOOK at your Picture.. What have I done.. WHAT did I say those words to YOU.. I am so sorry.. Please forgive me.. because I am Now sorry for the Words I say to YOU.. DID NOT mean to say it in a way to cause YOU to cry.. I know that the damage is already Done but.. I am hurt too.. YOU know that I am not feeling right.. so Please.. Pretty Please come Home to me.. and tell me.. tell me that YOU are coming Home.. as I stand here IN the Night.. it is getting colder outside.. can feel the blowing of the Wind.. as I stand there.. I look UP to the Moon.. and I just can't take this Pain any more.. I can't take this ache in my Heart.. because I am missing YOU.. YOU know that I have not seen you all day.. did not even see YOU last Night or before that Night.. it has been few days that it went By.. and Yes.. I called YOU on the Phone.. but I see that YOU just don't want to talk to me.. I can hear the ringing on the other side.. but.. I only can leave a Voice message.. I am wondering now.. DID YOU get my Message.. I told YOU on the Phone.. left YOU a Message that I am so Sorry.. that I am not going to do that again.. and Now.. days passes by.. still No answer.. YOU have Not left me any messages.. I am wondering about YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and it drives me crazy because I am not sure what is going through Your Mind and heart.. Please tell me.. so that I don't have to worry about YOU.. I am Looking UP at the Moon.. Can you Hear me.. even though I called Your Phone.. even today this Morning I left a message on Your Phone.. did YOU get the message.. did YOU hear my Voice on the other side.. and yes.. every Night.. for the past few days.. I would clean UP the food ON your Plate and make a New Dinner.. Just in case YOU show up this Very day.. Do you know what Hurts me the Most.. that I would have to get UP from the Chair.. and I have to look across and I see Your Chair.. that chair has been empty for few days Now.. I would sit by myself.. I ache in my Heart as I am eating alone.. just for one meal.. I wanted to take my time to share with YOU.. and I would be looking across.. as Your Picture is laying next to the Plate.. I would take a Look at the Picture of YOU and I would touch my Chest.. telling Your Picture.. while looking.. I would stop eating and say TO your Picture.. How sorry I am and that I love YOU.. you would Not answer me and it hurts because I am missing YOU not wondering what YOU are doing.. I be eating.. Looking across.. Looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. how YOU sat down and we would look at each other.. smile and eat.. just for that One night.. for that Dinner.. I would cook so that YOU know this is what I can give YOU to tell YOU.. I may not be able to give YOU much.. but.. I want to give YOU something from my Heart.. it is a meal for two of us.. But Now.. I sit there alone.. and I hear nothing.. so quiet.. and just silence in that ROOM.. I would get UP after I finish eating alone.. my Plate would be done.. as I walk across.. I would grab Your Plate.. still has Food on the table.. and I would go into the kitchen.. and it goes into the trash.. I would stand and I would wash the Plates and put back into the cabinet.. as I turn around.. I would look at Your Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. and Now I am just missing Your presence.. and I would ask looking at Your Empty Chair.. where are YOU.. DO you know that I am missing YOU.. I just can't believe YOU are gone and has not come home yet.. what If YOU never come Home.. what is going to happen to this Chair.. I don't want this
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