Healing my body in a quiet, secluded place - relapse, recovery, and forgiving my ED
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It took me a long time to let go of the resentment I held for an illness that I had never asked for. I never wanted to experience a disorder of any kind. I felt like I could never be normal, eat normally, feel normally, or look normal to my own eyes. I am still on that journey, but the progress I’ve made is astronomical, especially since at my worst I truly believed things would not change. But they can, and they do ❤️
I used to pray that I could erase those years spent in the grips of a problem that was often invisible. But now I have taken back those memories and given them meaning and purpose by sharing and mentoring young people in my life who are experiencing similar issues. It has allowed me to forgive my illness, and use the experience to motivate me to keep building the life of my dreams: one of peace, of love, of appreciating the beauty of each and every day.
I truly believe your body is the least interesting thing about who you are, and as both men and women we can struggle with our image of ourselves, especially in a world where photos and videos are so often filtered and edited to a point that they no longer represent normal human faces, shapes, skin tones and textures. I am seriously concerned about how so many individuals showcase images of faces and bodies online that are separate from reality, selling a narrative that our bodies are only worthy of being seen if they look a certain way. “Consequently, we have more worth if we are attractive, and more deserving of love and happiness”. This is a terrifying message that makes my heart ache for the young teens growing up believing this is true. It will never be, and our worth must come from a belief in our own individual beauty, a sacred recognition of our absolute and unique majesty. True beauty is something that cannot be taken away.
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I’ve raised two kids whom I love deeply, separated from my marriage (but we remain good friends), and sold my home…now renting a 1950s fixer upper on the river in Florida, and I’m just soooo content being alone, putzing around the house, painting, decorating, gardening, exercising, watching a squirrel play, experimenting with power tools, taking lazy kayak trips down the river, or waving from my coffee cup at others as they joyously paddle by. Although we may be in very different stages of life, your words and videos resonate in my heart. God bless you, beautiful girl. ❤️
You're living the dream :')
Can I ask how you found the home to rent?
love the peacefulness in your message Jenny B. May you have many years of joy savouring that sweetness, you sound like someone who truly appreciates your life. Beautiful.
@@Elizabeth-de1uv awwww thank you so much for your kind words. I wish the same for you🙏🏼❤️
As years go by, I believe the feeling of been more content and feeling at peace with yourself increasing, the need to be surrounded by people decreasing, at least that's my experience.
Paola, you're beautiful. Never underestimate the power of your beautiful videos, your lovely voice and your gentle message. At 76 years old, I am not too old to learn, and you are a beautiful teacher as well as a beautiful human being.
Aww such a lovely comment! 💕💕
Your dog's face when you asked, "I wonder what happened?", he immediately looked for Mr. Darcy to blame, lol. So innocent 😇 ❤🥰🤗
Hehe he definitely tried to convince me of that 🤣 sneaky boy
I'm 62 and have struggled with not accepting myself as I am. Your videos touch all ages. They bring a different perspective to all the negativity on social media. Thank you❤
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Don’t give up! If you have a ED and you’re reading this, we want relief for you. Others may not understand what you’re going through, but we care that you’re hurting. Keep going, you are worthy and loved more than you know.
Today my husband and I both make the biggest change of our lives, moving to a small rural town next door to Yellowstone National Park for my dream job, working with animals, like otters and wolves, and helping educate about conservation. Your videos have been an anchor when I have, historically, been Extremely Bad TM at change. There’s going to be a lot different, especially the winter, but you’ve helped me so much to remember to be brave and not scared of the future. Now, I’m on the way to my dream job. If you’re ever up Montana way, message me! Thank you so much! The next time I watch your video, I’ll be IN MONTANA!
That fantastic, what an amazing job. A vlog from you when you settle into it would be wonderful. Congratulations from Scotland. 👍- Frances
Wow!! Congratulations and Best wishes in your new home and life
Welcome to the Big Sky! It's a lovely place to be. If winter gets you down too much, seek a hot spring.
Just remember spring will come..❤
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One last thing I just have to mention: As a kid, my Aunt Paula wrapped Christmas presents so beautifully, while opening we were always careful to preserve as much of the wrapping as possible. Hers were the most exquisitely decorated presents I had ever seen, until I saw yours - so good anything wrapped by you deserves permanent display in the living room.
Your description of Christmas present wrappings transported me to past Christmas with friends and family whose wrappings were as much a gift as the item waiting to be revealed.
I love your name. My favorite moments of the day are often sunsets at Lake Michigan.
@@patriciamoran9143 My Grandparents had a cottage on the 'Big Lake' where our family spent its summers. Designed & built in the Tudor Revival style by my Grandfather, it was truly where his & Grandma's hearts were. And as kids every night weather permitted, we would all stop everything to watch the sun set - & as it disappeared into the waves, Grandpa would ALWAYS remark, "Just as pretty as a picture".
Now that's what I say.
@@lakemichigan6598 what a treasure that you're grandfather built and shared. For decades, going down to the beach with my kids, I always say, "most beautiful place in the world". Of course, that's what my heart feels, and they may not have always felt the same, but as adults I suspect they may agree. ❤️
@@patriciamoran9143 Our time at the cottage with our Grandparents is seen today as our family's 'Golden Age'. As a group, we were never happier, more content, or more in sync with each other. And our conversations about being with Grandma & Grandpa at that beautiful cottage have always been imbued with warmth, great reverence, & profound gratitude. I hope & expect your kids will come to those very same conclusions.
My sister once told me that as a very young girl, she just assumed EVERYONE had a cottage on Lake Michigan.
@@patriciamoran9143 One very last comment: I think we never felt more deeply loved than we did while with our Grandparents at the cottage. I know that was definitely my experience. And it seems to me wherever it is you feel or have felt the most deeply loved is truly the 'most beautiful place in the world'.
I totally laughed so hard when the “weird” cookie eating incident happened at the end. Oh dogs, ya can’t live without them and their shenanigans.
Haha well if you ask me he was clearly being framed…we all know that Labradors aren’t greedy don’t we🤷🏻♀️😏🤣🤣
He was like: yeah what happened there???
My dear Paola ,I'm a romanian soul ,50 years old and you made me pause this video several times to reflect and take some notes in my daily devotional journal.Is so much beauty and peace in pure and simple things.You are like that song inside of us that warms our hearts. I feel so blessed finding you beautiful girl ! Can't wait to dig into my forgotten drawers of crafts,books,you know,all the hobbies that you're putting on the side in hopes that one day ,you'll come back for them ,but never do , because you are so busy making someone else dreams possible ,and then you,re passing by a mirror and ask yourself ;who in the world is that mature looking woman,when inside you feel like 20 with unfinished projects ? Thank you ,and may Lord Jesus guide you,and bring you in that stage of complete stability in peace,health and joy.Love , Sorina.
Amen
What a beautiful reply to read on a beautiful winter morning here in New Zealand.
I haven't met anyone from Romania.
But I watched a programme where a lovely NZ guy was helping people like himself who had been adopted by various couples to find out and hopefully find their parents.
I loved seeing the families of the children who were adopted by Kiwis.
It was very sad listening to the Romanian mother's.
Anyway, back to the present...
From a Kiwi soul.
Paola- normally, I have your videos on as an audio background to my morning routine, reminding this ADHD extrovert that it’s okay to take things slowly sometimes. I happened to watch the first part of the video just now, of you brushing your hair. My eyes filled with tears. “What a beautiful woman.” was all I could think as my eyes welled up. That combined with the matter of this video, wow. Thank you for your vulnerability, sister. Love from an LA City Girl, living an almost exactly opposite lifestyle from you. You speak to my heart ❤️
Yes, she is beautiful inside and out. I love her hair and her braids.
Maybe it’s a sign for you to consider a lifestyle like hers?
I too play her for rest at night when the world has been too much. I’m ADHD adult also. Still fighting it :(
Am too, loved the clip of her rabbit in the garden and the present wrapping I’ll come back to cause I like the pressed flower idea a lot 💛
Thank you 😊 I inherited a very prominent nose from my First Nations side of the family. The other side was from the British IsIes. I was told when I was young that I ought to get it fixed. It was never broken. But I was told that I might actually be pretty if I did. But I have always believed in the spirit world and life beyond the body. Because of this, I refuse to consider rhinoplasty because I was and am still adamant that when I cross the bridge and meet my Native grandparents, they will know I never denied their part of me. It hasn't always been easy but I feel a strong conviction about it. Now that I am a senior, I am glad that I had the courage to follow through rather than give in to pressure.
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life ❤✝️🙏 John 3:16
I am glad! I spent my childhood listing to my aunt tell me I'd be pretty if only I lost weight. Now I don't care what others feel! I like who I am even if I'm a plus size girl!!
Long squiffy nose and big, really big, ears. But my eyes made up for it.
Thanks for your comment. Bravo for your bravery to keep your beautiful nose and for knowing yourself and standing up to social pressures.
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Imagine saying to someone to fix your nose. That's outrageous.
Having a super stressful day but just sat down for a minute to do some crochet while I drink my coffee, turned RUclips on aaaaand yes, there is it, almost 14 minutes of bliss and that's all I need ❤️
Agree best moments in time are her videos coming through. 💜
Movie: Secret of Roam Inish.
You make me want to live alone and bake cookies, slow the pace down and just "live" quietly, peacefully, enjoying nature and feeling safe. Many of us do not take the time to stop and smell the roses. Love your videos and love the prints that I sent for. Sounds to me as though you are extremely well adjusted. TFS x
My daughter was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis at the age of 29 18 months ago. She lost her sight and although it has mostly returned, it’s the first thing that goes when she is relapsing. She lost her job, her boyfriend , he instead they quickly sold their home and she came home to live with me- not something that she wanted as she’s always been fiercely independent.I know she is in the middle of a huge grief, for the life she had planned and worked so hard for and I’m struggling to support her as well as I want to as I ,too, am dealing with grief for the life I wanted for her. It’s comforting to watch another young person dealing positively with their own problems. I wish you well.
Reading your story. How is your daughter doing.....sending so much love
Success is not final, failure is not fatal, it’s the courage to continue that counts. That reminds me of your videos,thankyou
I love your videos. Your voice is so calming. I tell people to never say goodbye. In my 79 (soon to be 80) years I have lost so many loved ones, including my husband of 51 years and the most recent, a grandson from a drug overdose, so I never say goodbye. Just “see you later” or “take care”. Something along those lines. You can end your videos with something like “until we meet again”. Just a thought. Stay well. Looking forward to your next video.
So sorry for your losses
Until we Meet Again!! I like that!!
I love " take care "😊
Thank you for sharing this...it could save someone...I am a recovering alcoholic and being transparent can help others😊
That’s what I hope, it gives that time so much meaning when you realize you may be able to help others, or at least connect. Wishing you the best ❤️
Your dog eating the cookies was the best part! When you said to the dog I wonder what happened and your dog looked away so guilty was just precious! I'm a dog lover and I lost my dog a year ago today. Thank you also for showing us the creative way you use nature in gift giving. Such beauty!!
im becoming more like you each day. i take great comfort in my own pace. i just hope one day i can be more independent than what i am used to now.
I've been in the process of recovering from an0rexia for the past 8 years, I have ups and downs but it's getting better every day. Hiking has been really therapeutic, it helps me see the value of my body. Feeling my muscles work to carry me on top of a mountain is incredible. Take care ♥️
Paola, the most important thing I've learned in recovery is that "I don't have to". I don't have to take part in addictive behavior. I don't have to be ashamed of myself. I don't have to hide my emotions, or use other negative behaviors to hide my emotions. And most importantly: I don't have to beat myself up anymore over what I do or how I feel. Wishing you peace. You are so inspiring to me and I watch every video you make (sometimes I wait for quite a few days after they come out for the perfect moment to treat myself to some peace and your genuine message)
Beautiful encouraging comment. Thanks. Maybe it’s ok to make mistakes and not be perfect or feel guilty. ❤️
Correct, you don't have to. Chill, look in wonder at flowers, bees, spiders. Whatever it is that you think you "really should do" don't.
Thats called humillity
Same!
I love the care and detail that you put in to wrapping those gifts. It's like a gift within the gift. :)
I just reread some of my favorite “children’s”
books: The Secret Garden, The Wind in the Willows, The Phantom Tollbooth, A Wrinkle in Time and the Narnia Series by C.S. Lewis. These authors all have such a masterful quality and amazing philosophy of writing that adults readers will find them highly moving and entertaining. Also, reread Tolkien’s The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings as I have done so before and enjoying every poetic paragraph. One of my other favorite English authors is Thomas Harding.
Those are totally part of my childhood library too… and books I still have and reread ❤️
@@Theravadinbuto Same. Delightful to find others who have been similarly shaped.
I'm a child of 57 (!!!) and love similar children's books. A C.S. Lewis book i adore is The Voyage of the Dawn Treader.
I am certain i have read the Phantom Tollboth when a child (a true child!) but must read it again, so thank you very much for your suggestion.
@@cycleSCUBA I adore Phantom Tollbooth with Rhyme, Reason, Tock and Milo. Your comment made me smile. Thank you for that.
I always had a copy of phantom tollbooth but never got around to reading it! I never heard anyone mention it until your comment! Really is it that good?! Insightful? I will read it now!
I found your channel at the perfect time. I've been in a relapse for about a year. I live alone in a cottage as well but mine is a mess right now. You are inspiring me to walk away from my computer and take care of myself again.
How are you doing now?
Best wishes, Sally 🙏🏼🍃🌻🌱
You’ll be in my thoughts today
Take care of yourself.
Sending you good wishes from Japan to get through this!
Take care!
Im a 72 year old widow,who lives alone. I'm so grateful for this channel. I m very lonely, lonely means believing no one loves you. Unfortunately, that's how I feel. However, iam realizing that i should love me, regardless of other people. Your a good inspiration. God Bless You.
This reminds me of my mother....
Living as a widow alone in a big house, and many days she hadn't talk to anyone when I call her in tve evening.
I myself enjoy beeing alone, there are so many nice things to spend with, and I love to build a cozy Home and do art.
Living with your own thoughts, you can get really depressed and lost- but you also are able to create a wholesome universe just in your mind, and you can relive lovely moments of your past again and again. I wish you the very best!
I’m 65 and lonely also. I am working at studying the Bible and learning to be content whether abased or abounding. Bless you
Sending you lots of love, wherever you are ❤
I don’t know you, but I’m sending you lots of love and good thoughts. It may seem silly, but a stranger on the Internet wishes you well.
I’m age 71. Going through a divorce. Feeling horrendous anxiety. I’ve had a heart attack, but I may be okay if I take care of myself. One thing I’ve learned is that it is very important to love yourself.
I didnt know you struggled with an ed. I struggle with anorexia, and i get what you’re going through. You are beautiful and strong. I hope to live like you one day.
I've had a really bad day today and suddenly You came and changed it. Thank you Paola for what you are doing.
Wishing you all the best and greetings from Poland ☺️🌾
Finally, I am 24yrs also have been waiting for this, I have been rewatching the other videos alot they help calm my mind and I tend to fall asleep faster. Lots of love from Kenya💖💖💖
I have found my twin , you are literally my twin in many ways, I cry every set you make, may the peace of Jesus Christ be upon you always.
Young lady, you are a beautiful blessing to this world!! ❤ Such a loving, gentle soul!! Blessings to you
I recommend "The Secret Life of Walter Mitty" the Ben Stiller version. It was so inspiring and fun to watch and the scenery was truly amazing. The whole film is aesthetically pleasing.
Oh yes, one of my favourites ♥♥
The world would be bleak in deed if your not in it because u are magic.. u are calm sweet peaceful and hopeful full of faith and spiritual.. my u are beautiful and truly an artist. I am 71 and love the way u live. My husband passed away and just make my heart calm. Thank you sweet princess for making this old women happy..may u and Your sweet man always be happy..
You are a precious soul. The world and its quiet beautiful magnitude has a way of smoothing the damage that we and others do to ourselves. Reflect on God’s peaceful kingdom and your place in it. It is significant though small; the blessing of God’s peace is with you.
I was literally smiling the whole time during that sit down chat. Aah the power of smile. Your smile is contagious. Sending you warmth from the other side of the world^^
At the end when you came back to your cookie, it reminded my of when, at Easter, my grandson and I were making a Bunny cake and the two layers were cooling. We went outside to gather some daffodils and yes our boxer Buddy ate 1/2 of one layer! Such sweet memories. Buddy passed away last summer and we still giggle about his cake theft! ❤️ It’s hard to be annoyed with such things. 🤷🏻♀️
Oh my hope his tummy wasn’t upset by eating cake.
@@jodobie6157 Hi there.. not at all, it was a yellow cake. So glad we didn’t do chocolate!
I'm really glad you've learned to love yourself just the way you are. Sometimes I still think I dislike certain aspects of my body, but when I think of being like someone else, I realize I actually prefer to be me and not change anything. I love myself, "flaws" and all. Prayers you find a great deal on a home perfect for you as your heart desires.
I haven’t seen your videos in a long time. I love the way you are and think. You are beautiful in every way. God bless you
Even when you wrap presents they look beautiful. I don’t think for a moment you’re average. 😂
Everything about you is elegant and pretty. Your calm nature is so wonderful to watch and listen to. Hope your Christmas is magical and cheers to your new home adventure with your sweet man. 💕❄️
Growing up out west I always enjoyed watching the snow line work down the mountains until it inevitably snowed in my valley town. I expect part of this progression indicated that Christmas wasn’t far off.
I struggle with and ED and hearing you talk about this and how far you have come on your journey somehow helps me, thank you.
I too have dealt with both an ED and cystic acne (when you talked about your face being so swollen you couldn't open your eyes, I instantly teared up, I remember that unique kind of pain all too well) and it was eye-opening to hear someone so obviously gorgeous talk about struggling with the very same things that have made me feel bad about myself at times. Really goes to show that the way you see yourself can be so different from the way others see you. Thank you as always for sharing your insights, gifts and talents with the world 💛
I also had cystic acne. It is terrible. I had it at 19-20 yrs old.
I’m so sorry, I also had cystic acne so bad that I could barely sleep bc I’d wake up in pain every time my face turned to the side 😓 A lot of people who haven’t experienced extremely aggressive acne can’t imagine how bad it can be
So true, and I'm so sorry you both went through that too. People think it's so superficial but it is hugely painful and scarring, both physically and emotionally. I developed a habit of constantly covering my face with my hands, and although it's been several years since I had to deal with that level of acne (which I am SO thankful for) I still do it and probably always will. Sending love to you and to everyone who struggles or has struggled with this. 🤲🏼💛
So beautiful young women! People sense of beauty is spoilt with plastic surgery today. They make no difference: small nose, very full lips, big breast. I've got a nose bigger than normal, but what it means normal...I have never wanted to be a model or TV star.
I think you’d like the Octopus Teacher. It’s about a guy who befriends an octopus and visits her everyday and films it. You learn a lot about these amazing beings and the images are beautiful, very calming.
You are beautiful... you have a amazing calmness... thank you for that quality in this world of only loudness.
Always so happy to see a new video popping up dear Paola ♥️ Thank you 🙏🏼
🍂🤎Thank you for expressing thoughts and feelings that I haven’t been able to put into my own words. Sometimes it may take 50 years to realize our self worth is from the inside. Beautifully expressed. 🤎🍂
As a young child, I took my naps on Bo, my Dad's black lab, and he was my best friend. Your dog is so cute, even when pretending he was looking for whoever had got into the cookie dough as you were talking. LOL - I would love to see a video of you making those cookies. You always do such interesting things. Your presents look so inviting and heart felt. Lucky friends and family!
Im in bed sick with the flu and your videos have gotten me through. They’re so calming . Even if I can’t open my eyes I can just listen to it and fall asleep because it’s so relaxing. God bless you 🙏🏼🙏🏼
A woman is naturally beautiful just as she is, and yet, society places so many unnatural expectations on beauty. Love, and the expression and sharing of love, is the most important and essential facet of beauty.
I'm addicted watching your all videos.. its make me calm.. 🌻
You are such a gentle soul. ED is horrific, it consumes us and can destroy us. I have had an Ed since I was an early teen and I am now 51. I have dealt with all the physical and emotional aspect of this horrible disease. It has taken its toll on my body and I now have long term medical issues. We are strong, warriors that can beat it and survive. Your holistic healing approach is wonderful. The beauty of nature and animals is therapeutic. I have come to a point and understand I can have a relationship with food as I see it as my fuel, to keep me healthy and alive. Food is required for our bodies to function and survive so I have tried to change my though process and see food as a friend, that nurtures, cares for and helps me. Your chanel is wonderful and uplifting. Very calming and creative. Thank you for sharing your private experience, it takes courage. X
You are such a lovely person, both inside and out. Thank you for sharing💕💕💕
I applaud you on making this channel in which you so very often film yourself. For me it's tough to look at images of myself, and you are editing images of yourself constantly! For me I believe that's already fantastic; you're accepting yourself, and showing yourself to the world.
Snow is so beautiful and spiritual. Its God's way of reminding me that He is always lovingly there for me and He can make my life refreshed.
Thank you for sharing your struggles. You may help someone know they are not alone. I have a family member with an ED it's hard to watch them go through it and it seems to get better but then something else will trigger it again. I've tried to research as much as I can to understand more especially "the why".
Congratulations on your new home . All will be well. 💕
It's wonderful that you're on this hopeful journey of healing and that you have someone dear to share it with🌿 Hope the plumbing issues are solved and Mr. Darcy stays healthy and well❤️
Thank you from an old man living in a cabin here in the UK, your softness and gentleness warms my heart, and... you have a beautiful nose, God bless you x
"...not to expect perfection..." as she finishes wrapping the most perfect bundle I've ever seen. 😍
They say with ED to allow yourself to feel. The feelings, emptiness or boredom can surface and that’s when when the issues with food come up. Life is a marathon. And yes I do see that feelings can change. It’s important to have connections with people. Although being alone is helpful, having social connections also is healing. Although, we introverts resist. Much love to you 💕
Nice video, the snow always looks amazing, we picked up our new Labrador a few days ago an 8 week old female named Gabby . Stay safe cheers from Australia 🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺
Hello Paola, It is so healing to watch your videos, I live in India.The enormous population puts the children to go through an unhealthy kind of competition to build a respectable living.your video provides hope to our future generations to get rid of rat race,live life following the passions and live with freedom.Thanks for showing us the way.Bless you
I just love you for you. When you smiled at the camera and said hello. My heart and my face lit up with a smile and I said Hi right back! It feels as if you are right here with me and I have shared many of the same issues you have gone through with my skin and my self-esteem. I am 63 and I still get breakouts but I've learned to love who I am and not what I look like. Thank you for your honesty. That is perhaps the most beautiful thing of all about anyone. Blessings upon blessings to you.
I’m loving your videos right now. My dear brother has just passed away & I want to grieve peacefully away from people. No social media no gatherings just me my dog & my husband who is busy working at his office. Your peaceful life your leading in the cottage is beautiful. 🧚🏼♀️💖
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Hope you have an enlightening read. Hope time eases your heart!
I hope you are doing better. ❤️
@@returnoftheromans6726 your so kind thank you. I’m doing my ok. It’s difficult but I’m getting there. Hope you are doing well yourself x
Thank you once more for a beautiful, caring video with such a poignant message. Ed's seem to malnourish our mind, body and our souls too. Such a vitally important yet beautiful video, that I have no doubt will comfort and restore many. It has certainly restored me on a chilly afternoon in England, as I grieve the sudden loss of a much loved pony a few days ago ❤️ thank you with warmest wishes for bringing some light my way. Love to you and the beloved family of pets ❤️ Xxx ps: The Railway Children with Jenny Agutter as 'Bobbie' is a lovely old time cosy film Xx
❤️ I’m sorry for your loss.
@@rachelvanwilligan2383 that's very kind. Thank you for your care Xxxx
Paola, thank you.
Your story this morning touched my soul.
As a person with an intestinal autoimmune disorder, my relationship with food has dipped into disordered eating at times, my weight has fluctuated wildly over the years, and I constantly struggle to love my body.
This morning, in my struggle, I was tempted to look into yet another diet to try to manipulate my body to look "better".
Then, I paused, and unexpectedly found your story; a calm, healing balm of truth, beauty, and peacefulness .
I feel refreshed with renewed perspective for my day.
Thank you.
P.S. I am under the care of a mental health provider and much-appreciated therapist (in addition to my GI specialist), to allay any concerns on that front. 🙂 My loving, supportive family also help me moment by moment in my journey toward self-love.
I wish you the best on your journey to healing. I have chronic gastro-intestinal issues caused by hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and Mast Cell Activation Disorder. I was just diagnosed, and I think it's going to be a long journey to be able to add in more foods. I've only got about 10 I can tolerate right now. You'd think I'd be stick thin, but many of my tolerable foods are high in fat or carbs. Looking forward to starting work on fixing all that. So I have disordered eating, in a way. My relationship with food is very unhealthy, I have OCD and a great fear of food, medications, supplements, anything ingestible. I, too, have a good therapist, but this road can be long!
Anyway, here's to learning how to love the bodies we have for all they can do for us, even when they are unhealthy or somehow compromised. They carry our souls and our hearts, and that's the important thing.
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Thank you for the understanding and encouragement! It's nice to know we are not alone when the journey gets hard. Compassion and support make all the difference. I pray your journey will be rich in hope and healing. 🙏
I am in a quiet place in my life. I like it. Even in brokenness, separation from my prodigal son. You are an inspiration!
I am just shy of 80 years. You are a great inspiration to me. Your soul is lovely. I have watched a lot of your videos, I hope you can stay just as you are.
My soul yearns to meet yours, beautiful Paola. Sending my love
I am really excited on your wedding. I am looking forward on how will it look like and I think it will be magical. Congratulations in advance Paola and to your future Hubby💚
As always, I feel so connected to you! I was diagnosed with an ED at 13, and still struggle 11 years later. Thank you for sharing your weekly words of wisdom- you have no idea the healing they have brought me 💕 love from Idaho
Wow. I praise God for leading me to your channel yesterday. I can relate to you in so many ways and have found your videos calming and healing during a critical time in my ED recovery. After 14 years, God has finally given me hope I can see it through this time, and your story has provided such hope of the life I feel called to as well. (I actually found you because my husband and I desire a "simple country life" - but I've discovered you are helping my ED healing journey now as well.) You radiate true, eternal beauty that captivates. Sending love and prayers to you today, sweet Paola. ❤️🙏🏻
The sweetest, most gentle old soul...
You bring beauty, serenity and peace in many ways. Yiur choice of music is lulling my emotions to calm 🤍💙
Thank U❤️
I love the 'weird cookies'! This is another thought provoking and peaceful video that I truly enjoyed. For what it's worth (and I mean this in an 'appropriate' way), I believe that you are beautiful in so many ways. I'm sorry you were led to think otherwise at some point in your life. The peace that you convey in your videos is quite healing to me, and I thank you for that. On another note, I recently ordered some prints from your Etsy shop for my daughter who also follows you. She was thrilled to get them! Have a wonderful week!!
Thank you for sharing the true realities of your life including all of the struggles and feelings that we all go through. This video really helped me today, I woke up with anxiety and this was very calming. It is so helpful knowing that I'm not alone in this world and not alone in the feelings I have about this world we live in, because it can be scary at times but those feelings don't last forever and it's wonderful we can all share and relate to that. Thank you so much, your video gave me so much comfort today. God bless ❤️🙏
I love your channel. 😭😭 Thank you for the reminder to slow down and embrace the peacefulness around me. To remember that little joys are all around me. ❤️
You are such a beautiful person inside and out and have gifted me such peace watching your videos. I'm so grateful for that. I'm a new viewer and see myself being one for as long as you make the videos. I'm so happy for you and your new husband and wish you all the greatest things in your new life.
I stopped eating sugar 22 years ago through Overeaters Anonymous --- I attend 1 meeting a week and make phone calls to others in recovery during the week if I am feeling that I am going to pick up the first compulsive sugar bite. Sugar was my first addiction and it took awhile for me to recognize it but grateful I did so and glad to have the loving support of others. Addiction disorders are a disease of isolation --- but in recovery we do together what I could not do alone.
Best wishes to you ✨❤️✨
Interesting phrase 'Addiction disorders are a disease of isolation'. Its made me think, why I continually bite my nails, pull out my eyebrows/lashes and eat sugary things daily - because I'm lonely! I'm a very sociable person, yet have lived on my own for 28 yrs!
Beautiful video my friend. I had terrible cystic acne too for many many years. I really appreciate you speaking up about it because I know that when I was troubled with it I felt very isolated in my experience. My acne really impacted my felt sense of my beauty and I feel like it kind of forced me to opt out of beauty culture because I felt like I could never belong. I think this was a bit of a blessing in disguise thinking back on it. I chose people in my life who I felt could see and love me regardless of what I looked like. Now I feel beautiful in a complex and multifaceted way.
Anyway, I really love the movie “the fall”. It might be a little hard to find but it’s incredible. It’s very imaginative and has some parts about silent movie stunt men. I highly recommend it. ☺️
Thank you for sharing your beautiful self ..inside. and out. I really mean that 💟
I can't tell you how much I appreciate the comment about how you've come to love your nose because I have a large ethnic nose too and it was hard to accept when I was a kid but I too have come to truly embrace and love my features and its SO VALIDATING to hear someone else feel that way too
Paolita, tu eres una mujer bellísima con un corazón de oro. Que Dios te bendiga siempre preciosa flor!!💐 🙏🏽🕊
I just reminded myself that once I keep going my time will come. My time of growth, my time of healing, my time of recovery, my time of blessings, just my time…
Dear friend, your time will come! ❤️
Your video popped up and I’m so happy I watched it. I’ve been having a very rough time with chronic pain and your video with its serenity, gentleness and beautiful music has soothed my mind and brought me some mental peace. I love that you have a black Labrador and ours would have totally demolished cookie dough as well! They are the most faithful and loving creatures. My heart smiled when you mentioned that your rabbit is Mr Darcy - Pride and Prejudice being a favourite book of mine for decades. When it comes to books and movies, I confess to being a sucker for a happy ending … with so much fear and anxiety in the world for so long, I need all the happy endings that come my way. I’ve been rewatching The Good Witch on Netflix - everyone deserves a friend like Cassie. I’ve subscribed to your channel
because you’re bringing a special kind of magic of your own to the world. Blessings to you and your fiancé as you get your own home organised. There’s magic in that as well. 🌷🌱🍃🌷
Your videos bring me so much joy!! I am actually moving to a big city and having trouble adjusting to the stimulation and pace. These know these videos will make me feel so calm and grounded. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope to have a quiet, beautiful life like this once day!! I really see myself in you 💕
When i watch this fine young Lady I sense an old and wise soul in a young body. If You feel stressed, sad and blue just watch and I guarantee You it will have a positive effect on You! Thanks a !ot young Lady
I aspire to bring peace, joy, a calm feeling and love to others the way you do so with your videos. I feel all of these emotions and so many more when I watch your videos. Thank you so much for sharing with us! 💛
Dear Paola,
Thank you so much for each one of your videos you’re posting here. I truly appreciate how much effort, time and passion you put into realizing these peaceful and aesthetically beautiful videos. I’m amazed by the number of different angles you shoot, would be fun one day to see the begin the scenes of making these videos.
As a movie recommendation I’d highly advise The Departures, it’s a beautiful Japanese movie with English subtitles. It’s a very peaceful, insightful, emotionally beautiful, the story of a cellist who changes career and becomes a “accompagner for the departed”. An exquisite cinematic masterpiece that touches the heart with its treatment of beauty, music, death, and abandonment.
A warm hug from Switzerland and looking forward to your next videos. Sending you and Luke much love and peaceful thoughts. 🧡🧡🧡🧡
You're sooo lovely. I hope your fiance know thath. God bless you and him be patient and courageous. Just wait. I love the boxes you make with flowers and erves it such kind. Be safe.
I just found ur channel dear iam struggling this past month with so much anxiety. It's taking a toll on me , I felt so exhausted but that's when I found this channel, I watched like 4 videos of yours continuously strangely my anxious heart become peaceful ... Iam feeling so much at peace after watching ur videos dear. Iam so thankful for this.
What peace it will feel to be by your side. wow so nice
I loved this! I've struggled with an ED in the past and even though I've mostly recovered, I still have that nagging voice in my head trying to seduce me back into relapsing. Especially now as the days get darker and more gloomy I find myself falling back into old patterns. However, I'm doing much better than I thought I would be doing and it gets a little better for every year that goes by. Thank you for this video!
Greetings from New Zealand, your videos are wonderful. !!
Thank you, as always, for your soft honesty and realism as well as your creative visionary gifts. Loved seeing the munched cookies and Darcy hopping, too!! Wonderful suggestions for people struggling with ED.
I.... I dont really know how I found some of your videos yesterday... or why I clicked to watch this one this morning in the middle of a rough morning and in the middle of work.... but tears are streaming down my face and their is nothing sad here... its doing something to me. I am recognizing something without words or something is opening inside me that I have not let out recently... These are, this is... opening up something inside my chest and its breathing for the first time in some time.. its the soul. You've made room for the soul to be out, and mine... wants to be out and loving, and not fighting some war or cause anymore... not hurried nor afraid anymore. she wants to feel wholeness and purness and soft loving feelings. Which all of your motions and words convey. Its beauty, a soft full beauty and I am, inside is thrilled to be feeling it.. Thank you for finding that inside you and sharing it, something inside me is recognizing it, is improved by it this moment. I saw your hands work the dough into the mold and they.... were my hands and I started to sob. (ha, it was a 'strange' moment). Maybe it was a release. ... Thank you. You've shown me something of my own heart.
You are perfect !
& inner strength like other. You a perfect cookie for young woman who May be afraid to simply be oneself. So true life, we have upset & downs but progress is what I tend to think as that little that safe heaven, our little homes.
Blessings!
I love the Enchanted Cottage, not the new one but the old black and white one with Robert Young. There's a charm in that one that the new movie didn't capture. And the voice of the blind composer is beautiful!
My favorite
This is my first time commenting on a RUclips video and I just wanted to take a moment to tell you that I’m so grateful that the universe made it so that somehow your video popped up on my RUclips page. As I listened to you speak and saw you live your life it was like witnessing the life of the sister I never had. I won’t go into details about the many things that we have in common but I just wanted to share that The electrical life of Louis Wain is a movie that I really enjoyed recently and perhaps you might too. Take care!
A good friend of mine struggles with an eating disorder and it was fascinating and shocking at the same time to know how many different forms exist and how it affects her mind and percpetion of food. Thank you for sharing this intimate impressions :)
How wonderful presents! I hope your dog be OK. Thank you for your videos. Lovely. ⚘
Hiatchi: A Dog's Tale Oh, what a beautiful story. This one really touched our hearts.