I was homeless for six years and it honestly was the best thing for someone like me. Yes I got into some bad things but in the end I came out stronger and understood myself more. Now that I’m living inside again I feel like my life is again harder than it was when I was homeless, if I’m to be completely honest. The freedom I had -even though making money was hard and life was dangerous-Not to mention I had to do a lot of things I didn’t want to do to survive out there-life was exciting, every day I had a goal and stuck to it, I could never just have a break day, or sit inside somewhere on a phone or napping, because I always needed something and had to get it. I miss that life.
Dean it takes a real man to admit something like this publicly. I have a lot of respect for you. Any time you want go for ride or get a coffee and talk let me know please.
Hey Dean, I bet this took a lot of courage to record and post. Thanks for your honesty and I hope you will be better. By the way, you may lose a few subscribers but personally I am tired of all the social media and content creators which appear to be superhuman and never struggle with anything. I rather watch and follow someone that is honest and that I can relate to. Looking forward to watching more of your videos whenever you feel like making some. All the best! Dennis
Thanks Dennis. I don't mind really if people unsubscribe, I don't really want narrow minded people like that following me anyways. Thanks for your kind words and support. It really helps me more than you know. Cheers
Hey Dean, I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. I hope you get the help you need soon it honestly sounds like you are depressed and need treatment for that and fast. You could well have other things going on as well but trying to deal with those when you are clearly so down will be even harder. I have been through a lot of depression in my life and I can give you some hope that there is recovery and things can improve with the right help. As other people have said in the comments things will get better. Hang on to this and keep going for those brighter days.
Thanks so much Jay. I am seeking out assistance and will continue to work on things as well. One day at a time I guess. It has been great to see the support that I have received from a lot of really good people, including you. Thanks my friend.
Dean, thanks for being honest and real. That’s what I’m here for. Quick thought, for your appts, can they not be done virtually with your phone? Our daughter deals with anxiety and ADHD and one of the thankful things that came from the pandemic was a lot more virtual support for this sort of stuff. The more you talk about this and post this, the more others out there feeling the same will not feel alone. It will get better. And it will get worse. But the journey is worth it. Keep on, keepin’ on, brother.
Thanks so much for your support, it means the world to me. Yes I do have some virtual meetings but the meetings I have coming up are for ODSP approval and are in person only. This is definitely something I will always be dealing with so I just have to learn to deal with it better and also getting help is crucial. Thanks again John. Talk to you soon.
Being wired differently than those around you is extremely anxiety producing! I too have never fit in anywhere. What I finally learned when I was 43 years old is that I am autistic. Understanding this has helped me go easier on myself and set expectations accordingly. It’s OK to be different! In fact it’s amazing! I, like you, was also reluctant to take any meds but when I was at my wits end I finally started taking escitalopram and it helped tremendously with anxiety. I love watching your videos and look forward to them. What struck me about you, besides your gentle kindness, is that you seem autistic. This could be a further explanation for your difficulties. Just a thought!
Hello Jennifer. I am in the process of learning to be easier on myself, it is difficult but it is getting easier. There are many things that could be going on with me and yes I suppose autism could be a possibility. I have also suffered several severe concussions that could be a factor contributing to what is going on. I am at the point now where it's more about finding a way to live a live that makes me happy and where I feel appreciated than worrying about being able to put a label on what is "wrong" with me. Having said that it is really awesome to hear the experiences of others and what has worked for them. Thank you very much for taking the time to watch my videos and comment. It means the world to me. Take good care
Sir, keep being awesome, be you, do what you love. You have an amazing community that you have created and we all hope that you can keep showing us how awesome you and you're world is!
God. You just described what I’ve been going through my whole life. I feel like an alien . It never ends. It’s just who we are. We’re born like this and we can’t change it. Constant hardship seems to be the life for us. And I agree, the cycling adventures really help me as well. The independence of it all.
I'm with you man. I too, suffer from anxiety and depression my whole life. My Welsh grandmother gave me some advice that might help you. She once told me to find something interesting and productive that I could immerse myself into whereas I wouldn't have to time to think about anything else and I might even make some money. She was right.
Thanks for watching. It's a difficult road to navigate for sure. For me cycling is what I immerse myself in, it is my only salvation. I wish you all the best with your journey. Cheers
now i may only be 23 years old, but i relate to what you are saying so much i had some anxious traits ever since i was little, but when i went to highschool it developed into full blown agoraphobia. in 2018,i did not set foot outside my house for atleast 6 or 7 months but at some point, i just decided that these anxious feelings are not going to stop me from living my life. i had near constant panick attacks for over 5 years (i felt panic 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, it would even wake me up 4 or 5 times during the night) how i got through it at that time, was pure perseverance. Jump in the Fire if it burns you. get used to the sensation, but know its not harming you,its not dangerous and it will not actually hurt you. now im not going to lie, looking back at that time now, it was a super rough time for me, at some point though i realised that my anxiety was no longer just mental, but my whole nervous system was so shot that my brain kept me in fight or flight no matter what i did, i physically could not relax. These days i have started a Medication called Elavil. it has alot of uses, but is also off label used for panic disorders. (its normally used to treat migraines, and neuropathic/nerve pain which i also struggled with) it was literally like from one day to the next, i felt instant relief. some kind of off switch was hit in my brain,and i can proudly say i have only had 1 or 2 panic attacks in the last year, and the intensity of them has dropped way down. Now im not saying necesarily that Elavil would be right for you, im just saying that medication can be such such an amazing helping tool once youve found the right one. (i took 3 different types of medications before i found this one, and they didnt work for me personally) so if they offer you meidcation and after a month or 2 you feel like it doesnt sit right for you, speak up ! theres hundreds of mental health medications available, sometimes you need to try a few things to see what works.
Thank you so much for your insight into your journey and what worked for you. I was totally against taking any medication for many years but my situation only is getting worse and I don't want to let it control me any longer. Yes I agree we have to be our own advocates when it comes to medications and I will definitely speak up if I feel it's not right for me. Your support means so much to me and I hope we can stay in touch. All the best with your own journey and I'm always glad to talk if you need to. Take good care.
@@WanderingEyeOutdoorAdventures im not a person to watch your type of content, but i have subscribed and will keep my post notifications on, to see how you are doing every once in while
I don’t know why I was led to your video but I feel led to say that vitamin deficiencies can cause horrible mental health issues. If left too long a vitamin B 12 deficiency can cause permanent psychosis. Doctors today medicate instead of ordering vital and life saving labs. A lot of pharmaceuticals cause even more deficiencies. I was medicated the majority of my life but felt led to go slowly off of all pharmaceuticals. I did one at a time and had to cut the dose myself because pharmaceutical companies don’t help when tapering off of their poisons. I started seeing a functional and integrative medicine doctor five years ago and she helped saved my life. I did acupuncture and she told me to do sublingual(under the tongue) B12 and lemon balm for my panic attacks. I had to continue to be patient, it didn’t work right away but in time it worked miracles. I found out I was also deficient in many other vital minerals and vitamins. You spending time in nature is also so healthy for your mind, body and spirit. Do you ever walk barefoot on Mother Earth? Earthing also helps with anxiety. God please bless, heal and protect you!!🙏🏼❤️
Hello! Thanks for all the wonderful information. I have no doubt I may be B12 deficient and have started taking it as well. Yes I often go barefoot at camp at the end of a riding day, it is very therapeutic indeed. I will keep working on it one day at a time. Thanks for taking the time to comment. All the best to you.
Hey Dean, I absolutely love watching all your videos! I envy you for being able to get out and enjoy the rides! Do not put too much pressure on yourself! Mental illness is so common, there are many resources out there that you can tap into! Keep fighting and don’t give up! If riding what helps you cope with your situation then ride and ride your heart out! Can you start a “go fund me” and give back to a mental illness charity? I do not know how to set it up but I do know a lot of people like to help and is easy to use. Cheers buddy! Stay safe and keep your head up! Jeremy
Thanks Jeremy! It means a lot to me to hear that you enjoy my videos. I'm always so apprehensive about asking for financial support of any kind, some people can be so unnecessarily mean. Having said that I do agree something where I give back to mental health would be awesome. Thanks for being a great friend.
Please reach out to the mental health unit and get some support that you need. Your awesome and never forget that! This is how you can help other people suffering as well and at the same time helping you!
For what it's worth: put the magnifying glass away and live one day at a time. Seek out a self-help group that you can identify with and hang with people that have what you want. Everyone needs guidance and direction to live properly. Hopefully you will find it NOW. Good luck!
Thank you so much for your support and I will definitely keep working to make my life better. Sometimes I get overwhelmed but I guess that's only natural. Thanks for your words of encouragement and the support you provided on Buy Me a Coffee!! All the best to you.
Dean. Hang in there and you don't have to please NO ONE in this world, the important is be in good terms with GOD. take one day at the time and one step by step.
Thanks for your words of encouragement and taking the time to watch this video. It was difficult to make but the support I have received has been amazing. All the best.
@WanderingEyeOutdoorAdventures allways look at the bright things in life. 1 you are alive. 2 You cycle and see the wonderful world arround you. And meet a few people along the way. You are free in a way and don't stress out. The ones who loves you they will. The ones who know you are blessed, to see your good intentions in life. We are not perfect we are humans. And sometimes things don't work the way we wanted, but we learn from it and make it better. 💯 ride on and enjoy every minute of it. Cheers is only one life. 👍
Listen to philosophical discourses by Swami Sarvapriyananda. Books on such topics as such.. Tejomayananda. It's a process. Interventional medicine is always the last resort.
It sounds like you have been treated wrongly by people around you. I would suggest that that in itself could be the problem. As humans we need support and genuine connections. As we get older and go through things, it becomes clearer how along we've actually been with disrespectful people around us who miss the point because they don't care. Could it be deprivation of tender loving care? Causing you to feel lost?
Hello. Yes it is difficult when your own family doesn't seem to understand what I'm going through. But one thing that we should keep in mind is that it is a difficult situation for them as well and they may need time to come around. In the meantime all I can do is focus on myself and getting better. Thanks for watching and for your support. Cheers
I was homeless for six years and it honestly was the best thing for someone like me. Yes I got into some bad things but in the end I came out stronger and understood myself more. Now that I’m living inside again I feel like my life is again harder than it was when I was homeless, if I’m to be completely honest. The freedom I had -even though making money was hard and life was dangerous-Not to mention I had to do a lot of things I didn’t want to do to survive out there-life was exciting, every day I had a goal and stuck to it, I could never just have a break day, or sit inside somewhere on a phone or napping, because I always needed something and had to get it. I miss that life.
from one who knows about concussions and mental health, it's tough but you'll get through this Dean, keep it simple friend
Thanks Reece. I am trying to be easier on myself and realize that things will get better.
Thanks for all your support Reece. Cheers
Thank you for sharing! Have a fantastic day and receive warm greetings from Canada!❤❤
Hope you get better
Thanks Gregory. I'll definitely keep battling. All the best to you.
Found you via the Basil Trunk Bag review. Found this. Hit sub. With you in spirit bro!
Thanks Stephen. That means the world to me! Cheers 🍻
Dean it takes a real man to admit something like this publicly. I have a lot of respect for you.
Any time you want go for ride or get a coffee and talk let me know please.
Thanks so much Milan. I will definitely get in touch with you when I'm back in town. All the best my friend.
Prayers for you, my friend.
Thanks Jimmy. Things are looking up!
@@WanderingEyeOutdoorAdventures Glad to hear that!!
Hey Dean. Thanks for opening up and sharing. You are not alone.
Thanks Sean. It means a lot to hear that. All the best to you my friend.
Thanks!
Hello. Thanks so much. Your support is greatly appreciated. Thanks for taking the time to watch the video. Take good care
Your welcome.i wish you the best for future.
Thank you for sharing. I hope you find the help you need and that those around you provide that additional support.
Thank you for watching and for your kind words of encouragement. Cheers
Hey Dean, I bet this took a lot of courage to record and post. Thanks for your honesty and I hope you will be better. By the way, you may lose a few subscribers but personally I am tired of all the social media and content creators which appear to be superhuman and never struggle with anything. I rather watch and follow someone that is honest and that I can relate to. Looking forward to watching more of your videos whenever you feel like making some. All the best! Dennis
Thanks Dennis. I don't mind really if people unsubscribe, I don't really want narrow minded people like that following me anyways.
Thanks for your kind words and support. It really helps me more than you know. Cheers
Hey Dean, I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. I hope you get the help you need soon it honestly sounds like you are depressed and need treatment for that and fast. You could well have other things going on as well but trying to deal with those when you are clearly so down will be even harder. I have been through a lot of depression in my life and I can give you some hope that there is recovery and things can improve with the right help. As other people have said in the comments things will get better. Hang on to this and keep going for those brighter days.
Thanks so much Jay. I am seeking out assistance and will continue to work on things as well. One day at a time I guess.
It has been great to see the support that I have received from a lot of really good people, including you. Thanks my friend.
Dean, thanks for being honest and real. That’s what I’m here for.
Quick thought, for your appts, can they not be done virtually with your phone? Our daughter deals with anxiety and ADHD and one of the thankful things that came from the pandemic was a lot more virtual support for this sort of stuff.
The more you talk about this and post this, the more others out there feeling the same will not feel alone.
It will get better. And it will get worse. But the journey is worth it.
Keep on, keepin’ on, brother.
Thanks so much for your support, it means the world to me.
Yes I do have some virtual meetings but the meetings I have coming up are for ODSP approval and are in person only.
This is definitely something I will always be dealing with so I just have to learn to deal with it better and also getting help is crucial.
Thanks again John. Talk to you soon.
Being wired differently than those around you is extremely anxiety producing! I too have never fit in anywhere. What I finally learned when I was 43 years old is that I am autistic. Understanding this has helped me go easier on myself and set expectations accordingly. It’s OK to be different! In fact it’s amazing! I, like you, was also reluctant to take any meds but when I was at my wits end I finally started taking escitalopram and it helped tremendously with anxiety. I love watching your videos and look forward to them. What struck me about you, besides your gentle kindness, is that you seem autistic. This could be a further explanation for your difficulties. Just a thought!
Hello Jennifer. I am in the process of learning to be easier on myself, it is difficult but it is getting easier. There are many things that could be going on with me and yes I suppose autism could be a possibility. I have also suffered several severe concussions that could be a factor contributing to what is going on. I am at the point now where it's more about finding a way to live a live that makes me happy and where I feel appreciated than worrying about being able to put a label on what is "wrong" with me.
Having said that it is really awesome to hear the experiences of others and what has worked for them. Thank you very much for taking the time to watch my videos and comment. It means the world to me. Take good care
Thanks for sharing your story. You seem like a great person. I wish you well.
Thanks so much for the kind words April. All the best to you as well.
Dean, I think that doc is called " take these broken wings"
Thanks! I will definitely check it out. Thanks for taking the time to let me know about it. Take good care.
Going through some of same things. Riding is what helps me. Gettig wost as i get older. Stay safe
Thanks John. Riding is my savior as well. All the best to you and I'm always here if you need to talk. Cheers
Sir, keep being awesome, be you, do what you love. You have an amazing community that you have created and we all hope that you can keep showing us how awesome you and you're world is!
Thanks Jakeb for such kind words. I will definitely keep trying to build this community. Thanks for your support. Take good care
God. You just described what I’ve been going through my whole life. I feel like an alien . It never ends. It’s just who we are. We’re born like this and we can’t change it. Constant hardship seems to be the life for us. And I agree, the cycling adventures really help me as well. The independence of it all.
I'm with you man. I too, suffer from anxiety and depression my whole life. My Welsh grandmother gave me some advice that might help you. She once told me to find something interesting and productive that I could immerse myself into whereas I wouldn't have to time to think about anything else and I might even make some money. She was right.
Thanks for watching. It's a difficult road to navigate for sure.
For me cycling is what I immerse myself in, it is my only salvation.
I wish you all the best with your journey. Cheers
i dont know you, but you are not alone
now i may only be 23 years old, but i relate to what you are saying so much
i had some anxious traits ever since i was little, but when i went to highschool it developed into full blown agoraphobia.
in 2018,i did not set foot outside my house for atleast 6 or 7 months
but at some point, i just decided that these anxious feelings are not going to stop me from living my life.
i had near constant panick attacks for over 5 years (i felt panic 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, it would even wake me up 4 or 5 times during the night)
how i got through it at that time, was pure perseverance. Jump in the Fire if it burns you. get used to the sensation, but know its not harming you,its not dangerous and it will not actually hurt you.
now im not going to lie, looking back at that time now, it was a super rough time for me, at some point though i realised that my anxiety was no longer just mental, but my whole nervous system was so shot that my brain kept me in fight or flight no matter what i did, i physically could not relax.
These days i have started a Medication called Elavil. it has alot of uses, but is also off label used for panic disorders. (its normally used to treat migraines, and neuropathic/nerve pain which i also struggled with)
it was literally like from one day to the next, i felt instant relief.
some kind of off switch was hit in my brain,and i can proudly say i have only had 1 or 2 panic attacks in the last year, and the intensity of them has dropped way down.
Now im not saying necesarily that Elavil would be right for you, im just saying that medication can be such such an amazing helping tool once youve found the right one.
(i took 3 different types of medications before i found this one, and they didnt work for me personally)
so if they offer you meidcation and after a month or 2 you feel like it doesnt sit right for you, speak up ! theres hundreds of mental health medications available, sometimes you need to try a few things to see what works.
Thank you so much for your insight into your journey and what worked for you. I was totally against taking any medication for many years but my situation only is getting worse and I don't want to let it control me any longer.
Yes I agree we have to be our own advocates when it comes to medications and I will definitely speak up if I feel it's not right for me.
Your support means so much to me and I hope we can stay in touch. All the best with your own journey and I'm always glad to talk if you need to. Take good care.
@@WanderingEyeOutdoorAdventures im not a person to watch your type of content, but i have subscribed and will keep my post notifications on, to see how you are doing every once in while
I don’t know why I was led to your video but I feel led to say that vitamin deficiencies can cause horrible mental health issues. If left too long a vitamin B 12 deficiency can cause permanent psychosis. Doctors today medicate instead of ordering vital and life saving labs. A lot of pharmaceuticals cause even more deficiencies. I was medicated the majority of my life but felt led to go slowly off of all pharmaceuticals. I did one at a time and had to cut the dose myself because pharmaceutical companies don’t help when tapering off of their poisons. I started seeing a functional and integrative medicine doctor five years ago and she helped saved my life. I did acupuncture and she told me to do sublingual(under the tongue) B12 and lemon balm for my panic attacks. I had to continue to be patient, it didn’t work right away but in time it worked miracles. I found out I was also deficient in many other vital minerals and vitamins. You spending time in nature is also so healthy for your mind, body and spirit. Do you ever walk barefoot on Mother Earth? Earthing also helps with anxiety. God please bless, heal and protect you!!🙏🏼❤️
Hello! Thanks for all the wonderful information. I have no doubt I may be B12 deficient and have started taking it as well. Yes I often go barefoot at camp at the end of a riding day, it is very therapeutic indeed. I will keep working on it one day at a time. Thanks for taking the time to comment. All the best to you.
@@WanderingEyeOutdoorAdventures ❤️
Hey Dean,
I absolutely love watching all your videos! I envy you for being able to get out and enjoy the rides! Do not put too much pressure on yourself!
Mental illness is so common, there are many resources out there that you can tap into! Keep fighting and don’t give up! If riding what helps you cope with your situation then ride and ride your heart out!
Can you start a “go fund me” and give back to a mental illness charity?
I do not know how to set it up but I do know a lot of people like to help and is easy to use.
Cheers buddy! Stay safe and keep your head up!
Jeremy
Thanks Jeremy! It means a lot to me to hear that you enjoy my videos. I'm always so apprehensive about asking for financial support of any kind, some people can be so unnecessarily mean. Having said that I do agree something where I give back to mental health would be awesome.
Thanks for being a great friend.
Please reach out to the mental health unit and get some support that you need. Your awesome and never forget that! This is how you can help other people suffering as well and at the same time helping you!
Hope you know I don’t judge you. You are a brave soul and I’m happy that you are my friend.
Thanks Julie. I know you don't judge me and that's why you're such a great friend. ❤️
For what it's worth: put the magnifying glass away and live one day at a time. Seek out a self-help group that you can identify with and hang with people that have what you want. Everyone needs guidance and direction to live properly. Hopefully you will find it NOW. Good luck!
Thank you so much for your support and I will definitely keep working to make my life better. Sometimes I get overwhelmed but I guess that's only natural.
Thanks for your words of encouragement and the support you provided on Buy Me a Coffee!! All the best to you.
You might find Daniel Mackler a documentary on you tube very helpful, it's called," take these wings".......blessings
We miss you! Get another video out of you can!
Hi Jeremy. I'm working on a video as we speak! Almost 5 weeks of material to go through so many videos to come!! I hope you are doing great! Cheers
Dean. Hang in there and you don't have to please NO ONE in this world, the important is be in good terms with GOD. take one day at the time and one step by step.
Thanks for your words of encouragement and taking the time to watch this video. It was difficult to make but the support I have received has been amazing. All the best.
@WanderingEyeOutdoorAdventures allways look at the bright things in life. 1 you are alive. 2 You cycle and see the wonderful world arround you. And meet a few people along the way. You are free in a way and don't stress out. The ones who loves you they will. The ones who know you are blessed, to see your good intentions in life. We are not perfect we are humans. And sometimes things don't work the way we wanted, but we learn from it and make it better. 💯 ride on and enjoy every minute of it. Cheers is only one life. 👍
Listen to philosophical discourses by Swami Sarvapriyananda. Books on such topics as such.. Tejomayananda. It's a process. Interventional medicine is always the last resort.
It sounds like you have been treated wrongly by people around you. I would suggest that that in itself could be the problem. As humans we need support and genuine connections. As we get older and go through things, it becomes clearer how along we've actually been with disrespectful people around us who miss the point because they don't care. Could it be deprivation of tender loving care? Causing you to feel lost?
Hello. Yes it is difficult when your own family doesn't seem to understand what I'm going through. But one thing that we should keep in mind is that it is a difficult situation for them as well and they may need time to come around. In the meantime all I can do is focus on myself and getting better.
Thanks for watching and for your support. Cheers