This is a vent I suppose :) Ever since the death of my father when I was a kid my mum blamed me. I was only 3 so I didn't know what I did but it was no excuse. So then after that we moved countries to start again and away from bad memories. I grew up with non-stop babysitters. She never made an effort into raising me herself. So I saw the nanny as a mother, my only mother. Then when I was old enough and could look after myself (age 6) she stopped paying the nanny to come over. I learnt to cook, clean all the basics. My mother was home less and less when I was around 11 but when she was, I always tried to get along with her but she shut me down. I worked my butt off in primary school and passed with 98%. But she told me I could've done better. I hated her. But when I was 14 she said she found a boyfriend. I didn't care much but she introduced us after a bit. Her boyfriend was a predator. A freaking creep. He kept eyeing me out each time he came over, but then one day she invited him over and got a work call and was put on night shift so I was left with the boyfriend. That was the day I got r@ped. I. Was. 14. I felt all sorts of dirty. I cried all night cause of it. When my mom finally came back the next day I told her about it but she told me off. She said I was lying. I hated how neglectful she was towards me. I needed a caring mother. So slowly I fell into depression, scars on the wrist, thighs and neck. After a while shxt stared to slip and my mother noticed the scars. She took me to therapy. I took it for 2 years, I stopped last year. The same year my mother told me she got engaged. And it was on my birthday, she got all the attention I wanted. What I deserved on MY birthday. So she and her fiancée moved to America and just left me with my aunt. Never once did she think of checking up on me. Not even a hello text for nearly a year. Without the reassurance I fell Ingo the wrong crowd. My friends always commented on how I looked, ate etc. And then I got a boyfriend. He wasn't much different, but he was constantly on about my weight. I was relatively in good shape, not a perfect hourglass but yeah.. we broke off. But then I met someone, we started speaking and they were perfect. We started dating a bit (online) but then he asked me for nxdes. I wanted to keep him happy so I sent them, again and agin. I started to think he was using me so I eventually thought of leaving him but he threatened to leak the photos if I did. So we stayed together. Luckily he wasnt so obsessive and possessive I was actually able to talk to other guys and met a nice guy. He knew codes, systems, he basically was an IT specialist it still studying. so he helped me my boyfriend. He backed into his phone and got rid of the photos. I was extremely happy. Aris (IT guy) and I started to get along, he really was a sweetheart. But only thing was that he was older than me, I didn't want to get him in trouble so we just stayed friends. Or at least that was the plan. This year I would've been old enough to date him but we fell off because of me. I don't know if i was being pick me or childish with this but sorry❤️
Holy sizzle hot dogs , I’m am so sorry. I’m only 12 yet I understand everything ur going through I’ve been there too . And that was absolutely filthy of ur mother . To be lucky and blessed to have a daughter or son ( I do not know ur gender) she has missed out on sm . Ur lovely I can tell. Stunning. And I wish u the best in future.. also I apologise abt my language .
Omg I can slowly relate to u, I was a year clean and now I am a few weeks😢 but I really hope u heal quickly and u realise ur worth. U deserve it like everyone else.
i hate to vent but im gonna make myself let it out. i hate myself i hate how sad i am i hate how i push everyone away at my lowest i hate how im always in my room i hate how im not enough i hate how no one cares i hate how i can’t talk about emotions i hate my suicidal thoughts
literally cant, hes literally perfect. His random silliness, gets over excited over things (LEGIT ME TOOO??), shares the same interests and is the most handsome motherfucker. Yeah he has a gf, im happy for him; i hope they never fall out :33 i love them both so much omfg. im too scared to ruin stuff between them or us. hes the main reason i havent off and done something to myself. knowing ill see him again soo sooon makes me shit and giggle. only guy whos ACTUALLY made me feel smthin, I'D FUCKING CRASH OIUT IF HE HAD TO LEAVE AGAIN. IF I COULD, I WOULD GIVE HIM EVERYTHING. dont eveng et me started on his gf, this girl is MWUAHH... SHES FUNNY AND JUST SO YAAYYYYGHHH. ID KILL FOR THEM OMG. sometimes i wish just to b alone with them, all the assfucks talking shit about him. like who gaf hes a furry, WHO GAF HES WEIRD??? HES LITERALLY AWESOME. IF U CANT SEE THAT UR LITERALLY BLIND. FUCKING DORRKS OMD ABOUT IT LIKE SHUTT UP BRO. HES HUSB MATERIAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIS GF IS SO LUCKY, AS MUCH AS I LOVE HIM I WANT THEM TO HAVE THE BEEWWST RELATIONSHIP... ;-;?? ill keep sittin by his side and giving him relationship advice. Till theyre complete >w
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This is a vent I suppose :)
Ever since the death of my father when I was a kid my mum blamed me. I was only 3 so I didn't know what I did but it was no excuse.
So then after that we moved countries to start again and away from bad memories. I grew up with non-stop babysitters. She never made an effort into raising me herself. So I saw the nanny as a mother, my only mother.
Then when I was old enough and could look after myself (age 6) she stopped paying the nanny to come over. I learnt to cook, clean all the basics.
My mother was home less and less when I was around 11 but when she was, I always tried to get along with her but she shut me down. I worked my butt off in primary school and passed with 98%. But she told me I could've done better. I hated her.
But when I was 14 she said she found a boyfriend. I didn't care much but she introduced us after a bit. Her boyfriend was a predator. A freaking creep.
He kept eyeing me out each time he came over, but then one day she invited him over and got a work call and was put on night shift so I was left with the boyfriend.
That was the day I got r@ped. I. Was. 14. I felt all sorts of dirty. I cried all night cause of it. When my mom finally came back the next day I told her about it but she told me off. She said I was lying.
I hated how neglectful she was towards me. I needed a caring mother. So slowly I fell into depression, scars on the wrist, thighs and neck. After a while shxt stared to slip and my mother noticed the scars. She took me to therapy.
I took it for 2 years, I stopped last year. The same year my mother told me she got engaged. And it was on my birthday, she got all the attention I wanted. What I deserved on MY birthday.
So she and her fiancée moved to America and just left me with my aunt. Never once did she think of checking up on me. Not even a hello text for nearly a year.
Without the reassurance I fell Ingo the wrong crowd. My friends always commented on how I looked, ate etc. And then I got a boyfriend. He wasn't much different, but he was constantly on about my weight. I was relatively in good shape, not a perfect hourglass but yeah.. we broke off. But then I met someone, we started speaking and they were perfect. We started dating a bit (online) but then he asked me for nxdes. I wanted to keep him happy so I sent them, again and agin. I started to think he was using me so I eventually thought of leaving him but he threatened to leak the photos if I did. So we stayed together.
Luckily he wasnt so obsessive and possessive I was actually able to talk to other guys and met a nice guy. He knew codes, systems, he basically was an IT specialist it still studying. so he helped me my boyfriend. He backed into his phone and got rid of the photos. I was extremely happy.
Aris (IT guy) and I started to get along, he really was a sweetheart. But only thing was that he was older than me, I didn't want to get him in trouble so we just stayed friends. Or at least that was the plan. This year I would've been old enough to date him but we fell off because of me.
I don't know if i was being pick me or childish with this but sorry❤️
Holy sizzle hot dogs , I’m am so sorry. I’m only 12 yet I understand everything ur going through I’ve been there too . And that was absolutely filthy of ur mother . To be lucky and blessed to have a daughter or son ( I do not know ur gender) she has missed out on sm . Ur lovely I can tell. Stunning. And I wish u the best in future.. also I apologise abt my language .
Thank you very much. It means a lot and I appreciate your kind wordings
Omg I can slowly relate to u, I was a year clean and now I am a few weeks😢 but I really hope u heal quickly and u realise ur worth. U deserve it like everyone else.
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I do everything I can to not bring attention to something somebody else has but everybody else just shows off with what I don’t have.
i hate to vent but im gonna make myself let it out.
i hate myself
i hate how sad i am
i hate how i push everyone away at my lowest
i hate how im always in my room
i hate how im not enough
i hate how no one cares
i hate how i can’t talk about emotions
i hate my suicidal thoughts
literally cant, hes literally perfect.
His random silliness, gets over excited over things (LEGIT ME TOOO??), shares the same interests and is the most handsome motherfucker. Yeah he has a gf, im happy for him; i hope they never fall out :33
i love them both so much omfg. im too scared to ruin stuff between them or us.
hes the main reason i havent off and done something to myself. knowing ill see him again soo sooon makes me shit and giggle. only guy whos ACTUALLY made me feel smthin,
I'D FUCKING CRASH OIUT IF HE HAD TO LEAVE AGAIN. IF I COULD, I WOULD GIVE HIM EVERYTHING.
dont eveng et me started on his gf, this girl is MWUAHH... SHES FUNNY AND JUST SO YAAYYYYGHHH. ID KILL FOR THEM OMG.
sometimes i wish just to b alone with them, all the assfucks talking shit about him.
like who gaf hes a furry, WHO GAF HES WEIRD??? HES LITERALLY AWESOME. IF U CANT SEE THAT UR LITERALLY BLIND. FUCKING DORRKS OMD ABOUT IT LIKE SHUTT UP BRO. HES HUSB MATERIAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIS GF IS SO LUCKY, AS MUCH AS I LOVE HIM I WANT THEM TO HAVE THE BEEWWST RELATIONSHIP... ;-;??
ill keep sittin by his side and giving him relationship advice. Till theyre complete >w
Hello,, everyone! I hope you're all having a wonderful day today. If necessary,, feel free to vent here! I will try my best to support you all💗 Remember to take care of yourself! I'm proud of you.
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