people get banned from image boards all the time, there are so many tutorials to go around a range ban for example. 4chan is the most normie known chan, there aren’t criminals and degenerates posting illegal stuff and bomb tutorials. You can get banned for simple spam, for example.
@@bendykid4908 literally just for being an attention whore and not posting on topic. calm down. She was postig about personal issues and venting on /f/ - a board for flash, not for anyones personal issues. Just read the rules and you will know why you might get banned
The craziest part of Emily’s life to me is how she managed to get kicked out of a friend group that included both the co-creator of Smiling Friends and fucking shadman???
I agree. I worry for those children. Not only for the fear of indoctrination of white nationalist ideology, but for their mental well being and exposure to adult themes
as a csa victim, the playhouse is extremely and painfully relatable, even pretending having a different person in your place, or pretend nothing ever happened, though triggers completely collide your world again. I was also a victim of my father, and some of the deranged things shown in Alfred’s playhouse (sh to get attention and thinking that it was deserved) I find in myself. I do not condone Emily’s behavior, but I can sympathize for her. As of now, I am still trying to heal, and I hope I can learn from this and hopefully grow.
I know everyone wants to hate her husband and I get it because he is a nazi and that's bad. But he's also really grounded her. She is far less unhinged since she married him. More bigoted, yes. But also more happy, calm and much less manic. She doesn't do drugs anymore, make weird animations and from her podcast "dreamweavers" that she does with other girls in that scene she seems to be doing better mentally even if she's more of a bad person.
@@yeager14She’s doing better mentally, sure. But minorities are just the collateral damage for that right? Her beliefs don’t just exist in a vacuum, people like her victimize marginalized people because of their vitriolic, bigoted rhetoric.
Quick note, her mentioning her excessive usage of weed is scary, as weed is known to induce psychosis in people with severe mental disorders such as schizophrenia.
@@purbledude skunk is what's is most likely to cause symptoms of psychosis, hash not so much, but it's easier to get a hold of regular ole bud than stuff like hash soo
@@42seven yeah, as someone mentioned before its only a certain strain, i know hard drugs like heroin etc are more likely to cause psychosis with long term use
Tbf NSFW doesn't always mean porn, it's just a term for content with elements unsuitable for a social setting, like blood and gore, so Vivzie really did follow her advice.
I seriously doubt Viv would just blindly take the advice of an artist who was clearly off her rocker. Plus she previously stated that her dirty and dark sense of humor mostly comes from watching shows like South Park growing up.
@@Cure_Hanathey mean that it’s just ironic, and let’s not forget that emily was still a minor during her early fame and (maybe?) magcon days. it was kinda disappointing to not see viv stand up for a kid:/
What is upsetting is that this series is a genuinely troubling psychological horror, with a lot of artistic choices genuinely being good at portraying panic attacks, overstimulation, trauma, Dissociation, SA, and even DID at times.
@@طلالطلال-غ3ق why would you reply this. I am genuinely so confused how does it tie to the comment 😭😭😭😭 why did you make me remember they fucking comic 😭😭😭
Dude I'm just starting the video and this comment is getting me ready, where the dead go to die, something i haven't heard in years unless it's me talking about it
This is why therapy should be readily accessible. Anyway somehow I'm reminded of something I heard a long time ago. "To a simple-minded child, all support comes from good people, with good intentions. They cannot understand that someone can reach out to cure their loneliness, but poison them in a thousand other ways."
@goyonman9655 No. She is ill, ill. Not a single Trumper out there is sane in any way, shape or form. They're all demented. Anyway, you're clearly not in your right mind either. Get help.
Jesus this one hit hard. I was manipulated by adults into thinking that the "pics" I was sending was good, and I learned that sending those would give me attention.. It makes me sick now. My bf is so supportive and makes me a better person every day. I'm better :>
Emilys saga has always been so interesting to me. Her animations of Alfred are scarily accurate to how people (such as myself) feel during these kinds of mental breakdowns. She was surprisingly in touch with herself and her emotions (albeit sometimes negatively) and I think it’s a shame she went down the path she did. She clearly wasn’t in the right mindset, and I think that community took advantage of that. Also, the tiktok “fandom” enrages me so much, but I digress.
i absolutely agree, I think that having a fandom over what's basically vent art for someone who's dealing with a lot is just really weird. It's odd to see that they're making a fandom out of something like this, and even if there's reasons such as finding a community that you can confine in, a rabbit hole like this isn't actually going to be a place MEANT to find help but rather dwell and fester in ones own mental spiral. I've been in groups similar, and even if it's good to find people who understand, you're not actually getting help because they're just as troubled as you are. in reality, you're just surrounded by a community that's not healthy and you're not getting the help you need. Plus, some people are just into it for the sake of liking the "edgy content", and that's a whole other topic that specifically makes me frustrated to think about. Yikes overall
@@SkeletonMischief I guess i should be glad that im in a fandom that isn't based around something disturbing, even if the fandom im in is about a popular comment thread. I usually joke about how the hell did a youtube argument thread gained a fandom of its own, but i agree with the fact that a fandom that comes from a vent art is kind of... too odd to say the least. No offense to the ones who are in the fandom, this is just my opinion. Making a fandom out of very disturbing vent art is a whole another level, although i wouldn't generalize every person in that fandom is terrible, since i could understand that theres going to be some people that finds genuine comfort in it. However, if a fandom is made out of something disturbing, then i think its doomed to have more creeps that will take advantage of that fact.
Weird shit aside its actually incredible how quick she picked up animation and how good she got at it for 15. Teens in the 2000s/2010s were built different when it came to animation
It's a bit horrifying how similar my situation was to Emily's. I fell into the alt-right pipeline at around the same time because I had childhood trauma and undiagnosed mental illness, and I felt isolated from progressive spaces because I felt that they ignored me and my struggles. I got the help I needed and got out, but it's scary seeing a video essay of the type of person who I would have been if I weren't so lucky. As irredeemable as she has become, a small part of me still hopes she comes out of it eventually.
The alt left pipeline exists too though, but can be more toxic bc it’s so enabled and denied as similarly destructive . Detransitioners are some of the few who discuss it sanely.
Same, but I seriously doubt it she is in too deep. Even if she left her baby daddy is still a devout nazi and she herself was pretty influential in that community, so I doubt they'd ever let her live that down.
From the beginning she has been attempting to appease and gain acceptance/fans among extremely edgy communities online. I think she has fully immersed herself in newgrounds, 4chan, etc. the entire time she has been online and molded her personality to impress them so much and so by extension the extreme political beliefs of those circles are now core a part of her personality. It's the only place that will accept her at this point, so she will double down forever and eternally spiral into her conspiracies and hatred for minorities along with the rest of those in that space. I have a personal theory based on her posts, behavior, and things I've seen in her animations that her sense of self is heavily tied to her relationships to others and she has an obsession with getting positive attention from hateful and edgy individuals. It's kind of sad and pathetic in a way. The people she wants approval from often look down on her, don't respect her, and treat her like a joke. I think in her mind, if she can get people who are so insensitive and give praise and love so conditionally to like her that must mean something and make her special.
the alfred's playhouse "fandom" is a slippery slope. it goes from people enjoying the art, but despising the artist, to literal nazis and necrophiliacs. it's especially bad on tiktok, once i found someone who made alfreds playhouse self insert ocs and had drawings of them doing stuff to dead bodies. it's jarring to see how quickly people can fall down these rabbitholes because of the internet, though i understand what it's like because it has almost happened to me. the internet is an awful place.
I’m in the fandom and Ofcourse like any fandom it has it’s fair share of really bad people but I honestly love the community. people in the community are really kind and have a lot of mutals on tiktok aswell as I’m in a few discord servers (don’t recommend though since I’ve heard gr00ming is common there since there are easy target since mainly the reason why people like aph is because they relate or find comfort within the show (Mainly SA which is one of the things I experienced as a kid)
@@creamcakecoffee what do ppl in the fandom rlly do tho? I’ve seen a few ocs, but what’s the appeal of making ocs for media that is very dark in nature like this? No hate, genuinely curious!
@@puckkrz01I'd image they make that art either to be edgy, out of random interest in doing so, or because they genuinely as bad as what they like and genuinely want to express for attention or something along those lines, which in my opinion makes sense because if you like something or someone fucked up you yourself have to be fucked up just as badly or nearly as badly.
Alfred Alfer is my favorite niche internet thing. It’s terrible but important to learn about the rabbit hole that made Emily what she is today and how her ignored cries for help drove her to seek community with alt right weirdos, it’s a lot more common nowadays than people would like to admit
I went down the alt-right pipeline but it spat me out for being a degenerate but I still hate a lot of the same kind of stuff I did at the Shen Bapiro stage so I'm pretty much sandwiched in between two groups I hate, interacting with members of both and trying to ignore my acute awareness that they are what they are, occasionally being pleasantly surprised when someone isn't as bad as I thought they were or are even like me. I don't have trauma, though, which is probably why I haven't gone full stormfront daught kom
Hmmm… - Make a distrubing yet charming series starring a mentally unstable dog - It becomes popular and you gain a fanbase - Descend into madness mentally - Become a horrible and demented human being - Have a bad reputation, albeit justified, ever since the late 2010s Emily Youcis reminds me of a certain Nickelodeon animator.
“Monsters aren’t born, they’re made” That line hits me hard, seeing how fucked up Emily became because of what she went through and never received help for it, it scares me to think that I can relate to some of her animations with how disassociating feels and mental health spirals, just imagining how I’d end up without having any help is something I often think about and it isn’t a pretty picture
I’ve scrolled through the comments, but haven’t seen anyone mention it, so: the warning about the movie’s depiction of necro**ilia, gore, and SA is at 44:54, but recommends to skip to 35:37, which is earlier in the video. To skip the entire movie segment, go to 50:46.
2nd Edit (so this is above my original comment): Regarding the “if more people stepped in or if she reached out for professional help” portion, while I can’t say for latter, for the former, I have been informed people did actually. (I suggest reading the comment thread below this). Emily’s story is just really upsetting, because I feel like if more people stepped in or if she reached out for professional help, maybe things would have been different. All I can say is that I feel bad for the children of Emily and her gross husband. Thinking about how those kids could very likely have similar views to their parents once they grow up really scares me.
The children are highly likely to also be abused and Emily will call it "tough love" or "traditional discipline". Worse is if the very traumatic things that happened to Emily also happen to her children, creating a harmful cycle.
Yeah. I left another comment. I'm sorry I absolutely sounded hostile but I really, really wish people would try to seek out victims of people before doing vids. She knew me as "Stripe" on Facebook. I was close friends w/ her for years (Though she did also groom me.)
@@Kost1_Boxi'm not getting smart im responding 😭😭🙏 and i call everyone girl dont get your balls in a twist because im knocking your fragile masculinity
@c.capncook I'm not sure a guy who would strut in heels has a fragile masculinity 😭. Plus, you calling everyone girl doesn't make the statement any less than it was, but I appreciate that you explained that! And ur "response" sounded hella rude, and I was alr mad at the time, so I was rude back.
This doesn't have anything to do with Emily or her work but I've watched two of your videos so far and I'm really glad that you're not secretive about being a victim of sexual trauma, especially CSA. I hate that I can't even talk about my experiences without being seen as venting or trauma dumping, even if I just mention my trauma where it's relevant and in a completely neutral manner. It makes people so uncomfortable that CSA victims (at least in my experience/with people I've talked to) are frequently told (directly or indirectly, intentionally or unintentionally) to not talk about their trauma, which just leads to more of us feeling isolated, unsupported, and alone. So, it's good to hear someone else casually mentioning/talking about their own trauma, especially on a widely public video. More people need to talk about it, so more people realize how sickeningly common it actually is, and more can be done to stop it. I hate how it happens to you when you don't have a voice, and then by the time you're old enough to finally talk about it, people ask you why you aren't over it yet, it was so many years ago...
So sorry that happened to you, man. I hope that someday you have people that don't talk like that about such a horrible topic. Everyone deserves to tell their story, no matter how long ago it happened.
It's so weird to me that even though Emily doesn't have DID, she had protrayed a few things that happened to me in terms of alters or switching and being hazy. Dicator Pickles is a (very glorified) version of a persecutor. And, even though people say that they are the evil alter, they can cause you to trust them through a means of lovebombing. They are seemed to be misunderstood and use their way of getting things as a means of protection. When i first watched the three episodes of Alfred's Playhouse, i felt an odd sense of comfort in just Alfred. Not the rest of the show, not the creator. Just Alfred. He acted like me as a kid when i had to deal with some triggering topics no kid should have gone through. Sure, i didn't cause a murder but in terms of outbursts in emotion, it was on the T. Its hard to explain really.
I completely agree, of course I don't support Emily but alfred themselves brought a great sense of comfort to me when I first found Alfred's playhouse. I don't have DID but the outbursts that alfred had are relatable in the sense that they looked like the ones I had when I was younger. Emily captured what it was like to go through things like that as a child and it was a surreal watch because I had never seen anything like it. I dislike how it has a 'fandom' online because I assume that Alfred's playhouse is presumably her way of coping at the time, in my opinion. Even if it wasn't a way of coping, it is a good depiction of childhood trauma.
It's so disheartening to see people like Emily; as someone who was in a similar situation as her, it's also a bit horrifying how I might have turned out like her if the dice rolled a bit differently and I didn't get the help I needed.
its always terrifying seeing internet cases that really resonate with you at the beginning before diving into the deep end. really gives a lot of perspective about how some small key things can completely change your trajectory in life.
I just hope people who are similarly traumatized and don't have access to the resources they need, know that they don't have to turn out like her. They can choose to be better people than her, in spite of all of the suffering they endured. The cycle of trauma doesn't have to be continued.
Another detail I’d like to add is that Emily was once in a relationship with Jimmy Screamerclauz, and made Alfred’s Surprise after their breakup, which is probably why she used his character Labby in that animation who is depicted abandoning Alfred. She uses the soundtrack from the Land before Time in that video too, which she says was the last movie she watched with Jimmy. Further proof that the Alfred animations are probably just a projection of herself. Heres the podcast where she says all this: ruclips.net/video/gBbzigrHt_E/видео.htmlsi=EPDj4O5qjFjD1uAb
Hearing someone talk about Alfred’s playhouse makes me so sad because you can see glimpses of a good idea. I was assaulted as a child and while I’ve never actually watched Alfred’s playhouse, seeing you describe it sounds so familiar. Being forced to rely on media to dissociate and separate yourself from the reality of what happened or regressing into a childlike state to stifle a panic attack is exactly what I do all the time. It’s really on point and it’s a shame that the idea wasn’t used differently. It could have ended up being really therapeutic for some many people. More so than it already is.
It's honestly haunting listening to the "alter ego" scream and cry about having to experience the trauma that the host wasn't around for. Alters definitely do not turn "evil", that's not a thing. But I know for a fact that the trauma that I experience has to easily be just as painful for my alters, which definitely makes me feel guilty. I feel very gross about myself that I am so incapable of handling bad moments that I can't even be around. It's very crazy that Alfred's Playhouse can depict that, despite the offensive nature.
I feel like I could make a joke connecting Emily with H.P. Lovecraft, but my Yithian partner says that it is too soon. I'll come back in a century to say it.
Learning about a infamous person the internet and their derogatory webtoon which involved some of the worst subject matter I've ever heard of while simultaneously witnessing the pyrocynical tf2 clip for the 34th time. THIS.. is the content I signed up for, thanks Quinnamon
Call me a sensitive content viewer or extremely sympathetic/empathetic person, but I'm starting to realize my biggest trigger is cartoon dog characters being portrayed as necrophiles/serial killers/evil people. Ever since seeing "Ren Seeks Help", this type of portrayal in cartoon dogs just makes my stomach churn. Like obviously I don't mind seeing a cartoon dog be a villain like in a kid friendly cartoon way, but once they start doing visually unpleasant things, I draw a line.
@@torytellstales I'm not an easily triggered person, but I totally get where you're coming from. I watched Ren Seeks Help at a young age since I was (and still kinda am) a Ren & Stimpy fan, but that episode really rubbed me the wrong way back then, even now it really freaks me out
I completely get it,as a child those "haunted" animatronic toy dolls/teddy bears used to send me straight to tears and they still make me uneasy idk what it is about seeing such cute things made evil for the sake of it makes me uncomfortable
@@torytellstales dogs are the ultimate form of innocent love. They're unconditionally loving fluffy beings that love to play and will defend their owners with their lives. That's why it feels so perverted to see one act so maliciously.
I don't agree with her actions, but I do feel bad for how those beliefs and actions developed. She had such amazing potential, artistically and musically, and it all went down the drain because she found comfort in something that is (for good reason) frowned apon. I just hope she knows peace in life one day, though that isn't likely due to her husband also being a radical extremist so her beliefs won't be changing any time soon. But from one traumatized person to another, there are better ways of finding community and solace.
If it makes you feel any better, I think her family has been really grounding and good for her. Her husband convinced her to stop doing all drugs and Shes stopped animation all together. from her podcast she did with other nazi wives and mothers it's obvious she's much happier and more stable than she's ever been even if she's more bigoted.
The way i paused what i was drawing when you called out artists who use these types of videos for background ambience like ive never been so scared drawing objects on ibispaintx
This video has been so weird and disheartening to watch. I grew up on newgrounds and I remember watching Emily’s animations. I never dug deep into who she was and just let my too edgy and desensitized teenage boy brain laugh at what was on the screen. It’s so jarring seeing someone I used to watch have such horrible and bigoted beliefs, but I understand how it happens. Being in those spaces can easily lead to falling down the alt right pipeline, especially at that time. I made it out, but it’s a reminder that a lot of others didn’t. Keep in touch with your friends guys, isolation and seeking validation leaves you *very* open to bad actors. Ask them how they’re doing, be a good actor in their life, your support and voice can be all the difference sometimes. ❤️
The audible "oh no..." I let out as RUclips recommended me this... I used to love her work, because it really did portray just how isolation and being easily overstimulated can feel just... like a nightmare. I drew her some fanart back in the day, she even asked me hey I love this, do you do animation because I'm looking for volunteers for the Alfred Alfer movie, I told her that sadly not but I can contribute some drawings; she never got back to me. Sure wouldn't want to work with her nowadays... "I needed to do some research, so I went on /pol" oh nooo...
The fact that dictator alfred/pickles admits that he's the one that takes over alfreds body when he's going through trauma is a horrifying thought when you realize a possible theory. Episodes one and two were happening in alfreds mind, while his physical body (pickles controlling it) was going through trauma in real time. While alfred was getting violated with a popsicle, pickles had probably taken over at the last second so alfred could go to his mental playhouse and not actually physically deal with it, which is why we only see the beginning of it and never what happens during or after. Because alfred wasn't there to physically see it. It was pickles.
Yes, I’m able to understand the Alfred’s Playhouse trilogy for what it is while acknowledging that it’s also just terrible and disgusting and the actual worst thing ever. But it’s so real and just so raw in an unforgiving way that I’m disgusted with myself for how much I can relate to such an awful thing. It messed me up bad for like a week after seeing it and still messes with me to this day and I regret ever watching it and learning more, but I feel that I needed to in a way. It’s helped me understand myself a bit better but of course, that’s not enough to justify its existence or make it ok. But still.
@@aesiro13 Completely valid concern and I appreciate you saying it but just to clarify I do NOT relate in any way to the terrible things she’s done/said and only ever related to theme of trauma from childhood SA in I do NOT agree with any of her opinions or think they’re ok ❌
I feel... God I feel horrible finding out about this. I nearly, NEARLY fell down the same rabbit hole she did and I'm so relieved I avoided it in the end. As a result though I can't help but wish she would have been able to avoid it too. There's something about that sort of absurdly over-the-top offensive way of making art I enjoy, how someone can just let loose and be as vile and gross as they want to be to make a point. It almost guarantees the people who may need to see it will stick around and people who don't will leave quickly. Knowing just a little of what happened to her and of how that came out through her work... It tears me up.
This was fantastically done and I hope this gets far more views. If it helps, the algorithm actually recommended it to me so you're doing something right! Subscribed because of it
@@amusingmoose9924 There's a lot of other debased works like this out there, they're just understandably not talked about often. It's a valid method of expression and can be done in a healthy way, just not one that's liked by a lot of people haha
I was born four days after Emily and spent alot of time on Newgrounds as a kid. Growing up and watching Emily’s downfall in real time was…something, esp as a poc queer person.
As someone with OSDD-1B (a similar mental disorder to DID, with less memory issues), I found Pickles’ story quite gut wrenching (although overdramatized and used for comedic purposes). I have alters that do feel that way, I feel as if I’m responsible for their suffering and that I should’ve been the one to take on all the trauma we experienced. It’s kinda shocking how without having the disorder herself WHILE being in a world that would actively demonize more intense disorders such as DID, Emily was able to portray DID and trauma somewhat accurately. She does have her own trauma which definitely helped that aspect but she had no way of knowing that DID and OSDD have this weird thing of “your mind created me therefore you are responsible for all that I’ve been through” type thing. I dunno if I’m making sense I just am shocked.
i almost cried midway through the video bc of 1. the whole "i hurt myself because this is the only way people show concern about me" thing, and the bit about pickles taking over everytime something traumatic happens so that alfred may live without it. im not a trauma holder myself, but i am an alter in a system, and i am not the og host. so i get it, sort of. and the whole s/h thing. i dont really self harm, havent for 2 years. but i understand the feeling that you have to have something major happen for people to show concern. because you're isolated, and you get so used to the people around you just knowing the carefully curated version of you who has no problems, and is much more mentally stable than you actually are. you start to believe that the people around you arent going to care unless you find a way to make them see how much you're suffering. i dont ever plan on actually enacting any harm on myself. but i get the urge sometimes.
I absolutely can understand this feeling, even if our experiences are different. The urge is always going to linger, but I promise it gets better. Sometimes you're in a place where you don't realize that, but I promise as someone who was once there that things do change and you do grow bigger around that circle of grief, pain, and isolation. I wish you well, and thank you for sharing this even if you just wanted to get something out there. It's a vulnerable thing to admit
As someone with DID (formerly called Multiple Personality Disorder) this is unfortunately not much worse than the average media depiction of it which is usually just "oo scary serial killer alter"
Hey fellow system! I’m hopeful we can get some positive did rep soon, even the best did rep I’ve seen in the majoritypublic (moonknight) involves an alter who kills people fora living. Did systems literally just CHILL and VIBE I don’t understand why people are so convinced we beat ass for a living 😭😭😭 do they realize that the severe childhood trauma we experience will most likely prevent us from being abusive, and the cases like this are so rare that it shouldn’t even be considered for the entire did community. I could talk about this allday lmao 😭😭😭 nice to meet you!
@@mj-sw2nh Yeah, its wild. Ultimately I know it's just reflective of the typical ableist trope of oo mentally ill person is evil and crazy but still its like. We're the way we are because of trauma, why would we want to impart that kinda pain onto others out of nowhere?
@@SkulkOfRoses I don’t have DID, but I can say that sometimes people overlook how offensive something is because it doesn’t affect them, or they won’t see it from the other groups perspective. Have you seen how we treated Japanese people back in the early days of the internet, a lot of people were just treating them as extension of themselves into “Japanese culture”, by that I mean anime. Sorry that we represent you in that way, but we would never do it intentionally
I am currently aggressively drawing The Binding of Isaac characters (and a lot of mlp) Thank you so very much. Though that was scary being acknowledged.
Emily has got to be one of the most interesting yet depraved people to ever leave her mark on the internet. For better or for worse, I hope she knocks off all the right wing bullshit and heals from her trauma.
emily and alfred fascinate me. emily might not *have* d.i.d.- but as someone who was diagnosed late in life that also projected through art long before that diagnosis was ever considered, it. is very reminiscent of that. alfred is very very clearly a vessel for something emily is dealing with, whether or not She is aware of the depths of it all.
Ah yes, Emily: The classic cautionary tale on how edge can go too far Honestly, the internet was probably the worst environment for her to be in general, let alone the Wild West era where slurs and bile were being thrown around like candy. The internet was always a dumpster fire, even long before social media made it worse.
As much as I have a dislike for Alfred’s Playhouse’s “fandom” (primarily on tiktok) and Emily Youcis as a person, I can’t help but acknowledge and appreciate the work that was put into it. And it’s depictions of Alfred’s mental breakdowns and trying to escape reality are scarily accurate to someone like me with similar issues and mental illness. I also can’t help but empathize with Emily during this point of her life making these animations. It was really her own form of escapism. She really had potential with them, and I totally agree her other talents like her singing is beautiful, but it’s a shame how downhill she went. Another thing I wanna say, I think having appreciation for the series is fine, but do I think it needs a fandom? No. It’s been so popularized on tiktok/youtube by ignorant people and wannabe edgelords who are most definitely way too young to be watching it. It feels like a lot of these fans glorify Alfred’s actions and unwell behavior, which kinda defeats the purpose of the whole series. Yes, you’re supposed to sympathize with Alfred. But idolize him and try to act like him? NO. That’s just a thing I’ve noticed with a lot of Alfred’s Playhouse fans, they’re often way too young and glorify his behavior, which is worrying and why I think it shouldn’t really have a fandom. I understand these people probably find comfort in the show, and relate to his trauma (i’ll be honest i do too in some aspects) but I just don’t think making fanart and a community out of it is really, healthy or necessary, but that’s just my opinion.
I find it funny how this is actually somewhat better representation for DID than most things I've seen so far, as yes I know it's actually not that good of a representation because again nobody has a "evil alter" but still
The way Emily talked about making the Albert movie almost reminds me of how Grant Morrison talks about the making of a hypersigil but in reverse, refusing to let it out so that the power remains until the moment its released. Interesting to learn about a creator going down a very bad rabbit hole of nonsense and how it can latch onto ones' mental illness, especially in echo chambers of other weirdos like /pol/, looking forward to seeing more content!
I am studying psychology and this video helped me study more about Emily’s mental state and the decent of her actions due to trauma. Thank you for this video as it has helped me as a student and I will be using this video to help with psych projects!
man, Emily was around the same age as me, was a creator on a website I spent a lot of my time on, and even grew up in the same city as me... I am legitimately surprised I've never heard of her
Honestly I just feel really bad for Emily as dark as her art is she really did have a talent If only she could have got the help she needed who knows what her art would be like by now.
Thanks for acknowledging how different things were back in the peak of newgrounds internet days.. it really was a different time. This kind of behavior was encouraged more than people would like to believe. An entire generation was impacted by it. That being said, the Alfred series did comfort me during a time of extreme distress and abuse. I am so glad to be in a better mental space these days.
I knew what you were saying about Pico’s School being offensive and controversial. However, the game wasn’t made “as a response to the tragedy.” The tragedy happened months after the game came out and the public blamed Tom for inspiring the culprits’ behaviour. Again, I know what you were saying and sorry if it comes off as I’m judging you in any way, the video is really well in depth about Emily and NewGrounds as well as being well edited and presented and you should be proud! I just had this itch to say that Tom was blamed for a game that supposedly influenced murderers but he only wanted to make outlandish projects for like minded people to create their projects.
I relate to Alfred so much that he was somewhat comforting to me, and unfortunately I still somewhat do. Knowing about Emily has ruined it for me and made it impossible for me to find solace in Alfred, all I can feel is guilt for my draw to him and the series. I’m deeply ashamed of how I feel towards Alfred and wish Emily got help
There is nothing wrong with relating to the work a creator creates, no matter how twisted and heinous that creator is. We're all humans, and it's easy to see ourselves even in horrible people. But does that mean we are them? Not at all. I understand what it's like to feel ashamed and embarrassed when you find yourself deeply relating to the creations that someone terrible produces. But that doesn't mean you yourself are a terrible person. Nor does it mean you are supporting their toxicity. What's important, above all else, is knowing to not go down the path that the creator did. Seeking comfort in toxic, cult ideologies that slowly drag you in until you're completely enveloped. As long as you're aware of that: there will never be anything wrong with consuming and relating to media created by terrible people that you acknowledge are horrible.
34:05 when alfred takes the treat and gets that small moment of affection from 'Pickles', and what you said about it, definitely hit deeper than i think some people are willing to admit
In Alfred’s playhouse, I find it eerily accurate with the euphemism of the creatures attacking and torturing him having butterfly wings, including the story of her father abusing her sexually, this could mean the butterflies are insinuating the “feeling”, and the torture they put him through in all of the pain, showing how much it can also hurt, and the traumatic showcase of him after, I would strongly suspect it is true about her father or some adult figure hurting her, very scary
I first watched alfred back in high school and its kind of stuck with me since. my art ive come to realize has some traits in common with youcis and its something I would think about every once in a while. I find it thematically ironic that emily ended up falling into the worst crowd and saying horrible things for, lets me real now, attention and affection. The far right offered her a place of praise and attention as long as she does and says bad shit, and she ate the figurative dog bone; ruining her life and reputation for the sake of feeling seen and loved (even if its not genuine affection).
With the way she writes, emily is clearly a smart person, and the clear air of intelligence present in each passage we get from her adds so much to her story
It’s really a shame, I actually like a lot of the jokes for what they are in these animations. Like the movie having “Where the Dead Go To Die” and “Where the Dead Go To Drink” is honestly really funny
I have DID, to clarify I don’t think people naturally or at all have “dictator alters”. It really sucks because despite how graphic and offensive it is when it’s through episodes 1-3 it’s sadly fucking relatable in a twisted sense. People with DID aren’t violent, very stigmatized and the “series” doesn’t fully help its case. But I do get that even without DID she was using her art to cope. The movie tho really does show her major decline in mental health and it’s sad.
As a older gen whos been around on the internet for a long time. It saddening how many young people- shit people in general. I will come across, making some of the most awful art (not as in style but as in substance.) An how some of the people are actually just screaming into the void from pain. Needing some form of help that will not come until way later or not at all.( An other are just hateful and spitting nothing but venom.) I had hoped Emily would get help. Its so easy for people with bad intentions or bad ideals to root themsleves into the minds of someone who fragile. Her actions now are unforgivable she a full adult. An while I'll mourn the child making edgy cartoons online. I have no sympathy for the adult alt righter. Who dislike poc like myself. In a way she got what she so desperatly was crying out for.
Its really sad how Emily is currently not only denying the fact that those videos were a coping to her being sexualy abused, but also how all this trauma led her to the person she is today. She is openly a racist and a nazi. Thats proof that its really important for a person to get the help they need when they are screaming for it in their own ways (in her case, obviously through the alfreds playhouse videos, where its very clear that the person who made them is really struggling mentally) In my opinion, the way that she is speaking about these animations does not help sa victims at all. Instead of sypmathizing with alfred, she has publicly stated that you should not relate to him, but mock him instead. To conclude, i am deeply sad that she went through all this, and that she never got the help she actually needed. Her art makes people who have gone through something similar feel not alone, as it represents their feelings very well. I just wish that she couls be able to heal, help and accept people instead of blaming herself and being an awful person. People love her because she makes them feel comfort through her videos. That doesnt mean that she is not responsible for her actions, despite what she has gone through.
At one point I talked to her and commissioned art from her. This is how my pitbull fursona came to be. I do NOT and NEVER will share the same political views as her. My character was created by chance. I have no plan on getting rid of her. I am separating the art from the artist. And no, this art in my profile pic is not what Emily drew. But what she DID draw was just a cute picture of Blueberry and Alfred sitting by a fireplace. That's it. No politics or anything disgusting. I stopped talking to Emily and will not engage with her again.
@@codeinexrist Yeah, I guess. To be honest I was afraid of mentioning any of this because people tend to like to take things out of proportion. They like to go over the top and assume things of people who had interacted with certain people in the past. As I said before, I do not share the same views as her. In fact, sometimes I want to go to her socials and tell her that she is wrong and she should really reconsider her views. But it is better to not poke the bear. (So to speak).
It's unnerving to think about how much worse I would've been if I hadn't gotten some treatment in the form of medication. I'm fortunate enough to have a family that can supply me with medication that helps my mental health. Schizophrenia, especially since it was early onset, is a hell I couldn't tolerate going back to. I had a bit of comfort with certain parts of the Alfred story even if it went down the drain by the end. This video was a good listen to have while I can't sleep around 3am. Would recommend for those who can withstand the content.
I put this on to go to sleep to and I blink and now it’s 1am and I want to make an account on new grounds and do a deep dive. Darn you for making such a good video it kept my attention the whole time and left me wanting more. (You did great!)
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@@eyeruscat9439same ):
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I'm sorry but how do you get banned from fucking 4chan.
That's kinda impressive
@@obnox1ous_3fe420 seriously, it is
people get banned from image boards all the time, there are so many tutorials to go around a range ban for example. 4chan is the most normie known chan, there aren’t criminals and degenerates posting illegal stuff and bomb tutorials. You can get banned for simple spam, for example.
I don't know but it must've been something awful.
@@bendykid4908 literally just for being an attention whore and not posting on topic. calm down. She was postig about personal issues and venting on /f/ - a board for flash, not for anyones personal issues. Just read the rules and you will know why you might get banned
The craziest part of Emily’s life to me is how she managed to get kicked out of a friend group that included both the co-creator of Smiling Friends and fucking shadman???
That's actually so crazy
SHADMAN??? HOWWWW?
That’s insane that even shadman didn’t like her 😭
@@F1guRas the internet: bringing edgelord neo-nazi artists together since 1993
@@JAKEYT1.0that just shows how deranged she is 😭
The fact that she has children is horrifying to me, I beg they don't end up like her and can live a better life.
@@3lean0rxoxo She has KIDS..?
Exactly it sounds terrifying I hope they are okay :(
I agree. I worry for those children. Not only for the fear of indoctrination of white nationalist ideology, but for their mental well being and exposure to adult themes
@@spookychords4925 Exactly I really hope they get put into a healthier home if they haven't already even if that is cruel to say.
Fucking WHAT.
as a csa victim, the playhouse is extremely and painfully relatable, even pretending having a different person in your place, or pretend nothing ever happened, though triggers completely collide your world again. I was also a victim of my father, and some of the deranged things shown in Alfred’s playhouse (sh to get attention and thinking that it was deserved) I find in myself. I do not condone Emily’s behavior, but I can sympathize for her. As of now, I am still trying to heal, and I hope I can learn from this and hopefully grow.
Especially the popsicle scene.
I know everyone wants to hate her husband and I get it because he is a nazi and that's bad. But he's also really grounded her. She is far less unhinged since she married him. More bigoted, yes. But also more happy, calm and much less manic. She doesn't do drugs anymore, make weird animations and from her podcast "dreamweavers" that she does with other girls in that scene she seems to be doing better mentally even if she's more of a bad person.
@@yeager14She’s doing better mentally, sure. But minorities are just the collateral damage for that right? Her beliefs don’t just exist in a vacuum, people like her victimize marginalized people because of their vitriolic, bigoted rhetoric.
SO WHEN I WAS 3 YOU CAN [[DIE THE MAIN]] REASON WHY I SAY ALL THIS IS BECAUSE ITS NOT COOL TO BE LIEK THAT Y'KNOW IT JUST AIN'T [[conceivable]]
@@samueldev9137 what are you talking about
Quick note, her mentioning her excessive usage of weed is scary, as weed is known to induce psychosis in people with severe mental disorders such as schizophrenia.
@@spacy256 thats only with smoking certain strains, not just weed generally iirc
@@purbledude skunk is what's is most likely to cause symptoms of psychosis, hash not so much, but it's easier to get a hold of regular ole bud than stuff like hash soo
Where'd you get that information from I've been smoking weed for God knows how long I've never hallucinated lol
no, it's a trigger for schizophrenia, it doesn't usually cause psychosis on it's own
@@42seven yeah, as someone mentioned before its only a certain strain, i know hard drugs like heroin etc are more likely to cause psychosis with long term use
the fear when i put this on in the background while i draw and being acknowledged for it
I'm drawing right now too 👁👄👁 Although I actually often watch while drawing (I have my phone nearby as I listen, so I can glance and see it slightly)
same
Mood
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i was drawing and when quinn said that i got startled
Did not expect to see that many warnings at the start then a minute later hear Skibidi toilet
Gotta catch 'em all
there shouldve been a warning for that aswell /j
yeah
@@alankiittyHello there Dave Strider from the hit webcomic Homestuck
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In all this, her telling Vivziepop to make NSFW to boost her career is just peak comedy. In a way she ended up taking that advice, which is hysterical
Tbf NSFW doesn't always mean porn, it's just a term for content with elements unsuitable for a social setting, like blood and gore, so Vivzie really did follow her advice.
@@aesiro13 im sorry but vivzie's works have got NOTHING on Emily Youcis in terms of fucked up-ness
@@mingotproductions1335 Doesn't really change my point but ok :|
I seriously doubt Viv would just blindly take the advice of an artist who was clearly off her rocker. Plus she previously stated that her dirty and dark sense of humor mostly comes from watching shows like South Park growing up.
@@Cure_Hanathey mean that it’s just ironic, and let’s not forget that emily was still a minor during her early fame and (maybe?) magcon days. it was kinda disappointing to not see viv stand up for a kid:/
What is upsetting is that this series is a genuinely troubling psychological horror, with a lot of artistic choices genuinely being good at portraying panic attacks, overstimulation, trauma, Dissociation, SA, and even DID at times.
"I do not owe you people anything, I do not know who you are, let me be autistic in peace."
Gospel was spoken today
Yes, yes it was. Amen
So the person that made Where the Dead go to Die was friends with Emily who made Alfred Alfer... Not gonna lie this literally explains EVERYTHING.
He was actually her ex.
Oh that movie was freakin nuts got it for my brothers birthday
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@@طلالطلال-غ3ق why would you reply this. I am genuinely so confused how does it tie to the comment 😭😭😭😭 why did you make me remember they fucking comic 😭😭😭
Dude I'm just starting the video and this comment is getting me ready, where the dead go to die, something i haven't heard in years unless it's me talking about it
This is why therapy should be readily accessible.
Anyway somehow I'm reminded of something I heard a long time ago.
"To a simple-minded child, all support comes from good people, with good intentions. They cannot understand that someone can reach out to cure their loneliness, but poison them in a thousand other ways."
Therapy isn't a *fix* when all it is a tool to beat people into a mold. It's fascist and racist and ablist.
@@Emperor-Quill
She's fine.
Probably healthier than you
@goyonman9655 No. She is ill, ill.
Not a single Trumper out there is sane in any way, shape or form. They're all demented.
Anyway, you're clearly not in your right mind either. Get help.
@@goyonman9655💀
Jesus this one hit hard. I was manipulated by adults into thinking that the "pics" I was sending was good, and I learned that sending those would give me attention.. It makes me sick now. My bf is so supportive and makes me a better person every day. I'm better :>
Emilys saga has always been so interesting to me. Her animations of Alfred are scarily accurate to how people (such as myself) feel during these kinds of mental breakdowns. She was surprisingly in touch with herself and her emotions (albeit sometimes negatively) and I think it’s a shame she went down the path she did. She clearly wasn’t in the right mindset, and I think that community took advantage of that.
Also, the tiktok “fandom” enrages me so much, but I digress.
Yeah, Alfred's playhouse is not something that should have a fandom...
It really made me so shocked on how accurate the breakdowns and other things were, especially the sa depiction. It’s so on point.
i absolutely agree, I think that having a fandom over what's basically vent art for someone who's dealing with a lot is just really weird. It's odd to see that they're making a fandom out of something like this, and even if there's reasons such as finding a community that you can confine in, a rabbit hole like this isn't actually going to be a place MEANT to find help but rather dwell and fester in ones own mental spiral. I've been in groups similar, and even if it's good to find people who understand, you're not actually getting help because they're just as troubled as you are. in reality, you're just surrounded by a community that's not healthy and you're not getting the help you need. Plus, some people are just into it for the sake of liking the "edgy content", and that's a whole other topic that specifically makes me frustrated to think about. Yikes overall
Community? What neo-nazi community? If you were on /POL/ you’d realize no one there can agree on anything.
@@SkeletonMischief I guess i should be glad that im in a fandom that isn't based around something disturbing, even if the fandom im in is about a popular comment thread. I usually joke about how the hell did a youtube argument thread gained a fandom of its own, but i agree with the fact that a fandom that comes from a vent art is kind of... too odd to say the least. No offense to the ones who are in the fandom, this is just my opinion.
Making a fandom out of very disturbing vent art is a whole another level, although i wouldn't generalize every person in that fandom is terrible, since i could understand that theres going to be some people that finds genuine comfort in it.
However, if a fandom is made out of something disturbing, then i think its doomed to have more creeps that will take advantage of that fact.
"No, not with a cookie monster magnet" CLASS OF 09 JUMP SCARE😭
FRRR
"Nicoles fault.."
@@Insert.creative_username I'm nicole by the way, hi
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@@alphabloodpaw3233 WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO HIM?!
Weird shit aside its actually incredible how quick she picked up animation and how good she got at it for 15. Teens in the 2000s/2010s were built different when it came to animation
And flash game makers. I took a game design class fivish years ago in college, and it was so hard to for me to understand.
It's a bit horrifying how similar my situation was to Emily's. I fell into the alt-right pipeline at around the same time because I had childhood trauma and undiagnosed mental illness, and I felt isolated from progressive spaces because I felt that they ignored me and my struggles. I got the help I needed and got out, but it's scary seeing a video essay of the type of person who I would have been if I weren't so lucky. As irredeemable as she has become, a small part of me still hopes she comes out of it eventually.
The alt left pipeline exists too though, but can be more toxic bc it’s so enabled and denied as similarly destructive . Detransitioners are some of the few who discuss it sanely.
@tablescissors67 JESUS CHRIST you're spamming comments dude 😭 get better soon
Same, but I seriously doubt it she is in too deep. Even if she left her baby daddy is still a devout nazi and she herself was pretty influential in that community, so I doubt they'd ever let her live that down.
From the beginning she has been attempting to appease and gain acceptance/fans among extremely edgy communities online. I think she has fully immersed herself in newgrounds, 4chan, etc. the entire time she has been online and molded her personality to impress them so much and so by extension the extreme political beliefs of those circles are now core a part of her personality.
It's the only place that will accept her at this point, so she will double down forever and eternally spiral into her conspiracies and hatred for minorities along with the rest of those in that space.
I have a personal theory based on her posts, behavior, and things I've seen in her animations that her sense of self is heavily tied to her relationships to others and she has an obsession with getting positive attention from hateful and edgy individuals. It's kind of sad and pathetic in a way. The people she wants approval from often look down on her, don't respect her, and treat her like a joke. I think in her mind, if she can get people who are so insensitive and give praise and love so conditionally to like her that must mean something and make her special.
Other people mentioned she was already like that beforehand; she chose to become worse
the alfred's playhouse "fandom" is a slippery slope. it goes from people enjoying the art, but despising the artist, to literal nazis and necrophiliacs. it's especially bad on tiktok, once i found someone who made alfreds playhouse self insert ocs and had drawings of them doing stuff to dead bodies. it's jarring to see how quickly people can fall down these rabbitholes because of the internet, though i understand what it's like because it has almost happened to me. the internet is an awful place.
youtube animator ANALBONES is a good example of this 😬 im very worried about him.
the internet boosts the hell out of a whole lot of voices that should absolutely not be in the limelight
I’m in the fandom and Ofcourse like any fandom it has it’s fair share of really bad people but I honestly love the community. people in the community are really kind and have a lot of mutals on tiktok aswell as I’m in a few discord servers (don’t recommend though since I’ve heard gr00ming is common there since there are easy target since mainly the reason why people like aph is because they relate or find comfort within the show (Mainly SA which is one of the things I experienced as a kid)
@@creamcakecoffee what do ppl in the fandom rlly do tho? I’ve seen a few ocs, but what’s the appeal of making ocs for media that is very dark in nature like this? No hate, genuinely curious!
@@puckkrz01I'd image they make that art either to be edgy, out of random interest in doing so, or because they genuinely as bad as what they like and genuinely want to express for attention or something along those lines, which in my opinion makes sense because if you like something or someone fucked up you yourself have to be fucked up just as badly or nearly as badly.
Alfred Alfer is my favorite niche internet thing. It’s terrible but important to learn about the rabbit hole that made Emily what she is today and how her ignored cries for help drove her to seek community with alt right weirdos, it’s a lot more common nowadays than people would like to admit
I hate it.
for real, especially for lonely young men
Its almost like they're normal.
@@GameGuy667 if you're normal why don't you have 100 subscribers at least
I went down the alt-right pipeline but it spat me out for being a degenerate but I still hate a lot of the same kind of stuff I did at the Shen Bapiro stage so I'm pretty much sandwiched in between two groups I hate, interacting with members of both and trying to ignore my acute awareness that they are what they are, occasionally being pleasantly surprised when someone isn't as bad as I thought they were or are even like me.
I don't have trauma, though, which is probably why I haven't gone full stormfront daught kom
Hmmm…
- Make a distrubing yet charming series starring a mentally unstable dog
- It becomes popular and you gain a fanbase
- Descend into madness mentally
- Become a horrible and demented human being
- Have a bad reputation, albeit justified, ever since the late 2010s
Emily Youcis reminds me of a certain Nickelodeon animator.
tbf comparing a nazi to a pedophile is comparing rotten apples to rotten oranges
Which one? I'm genuinly curious.
@@corruptcosplay9501 Pretty sure it's John Kricfalusi, creator of Ren & Stimpy.
@@That1YtUser Ah, why am I not surprised. I honestly forgot Ren and Stimpy were meant to be dogs, or at least one of them.
@@corruptcosplay9501 Ren is a dog, Stimpy is a cat.
“Monsters aren’t born, they’re made”
That line hits me hard, seeing how fucked up Emily became because of what she went through and never received help for it, it scares me to think that I can relate to some of her animations with how disassociating feels and mental health spirals, just imagining how I’d end up without having any help is something I often think about and it isn’t a pretty picture
I’ve scrolled through the comments, but haven’t seen anyone mention it, so: the warning about the movie’s depiction of necro**ilia, gore, and SA is at 44:54, but recommends to skip to 35:37, which is earlier in the video. To skip the entire movie segment, go to 50:46.
Thank you I was about to comment about this
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2nd Edit (so this is above my original comment): Regarding the “if more people stepped in or if she reached out for professional help” portion, while I can’t say for latter, for the former, I have been informed people did actually. (I suggest reading the comment thread below this).
Emily’s story is just really upsetting, because I feel like if more people stepped in or if she reached out for professional help, maybe things would have been different. All I can say is that I feel bad for the children of Emily and her gross husband. Thinking about how those kids could very likely have similar views to their parents once they grow up really scares me.
The children are highly likely to also be abused and Emily will call it "tough love" or "traditional discipline". Worse is if the very traumatic things that happened to Emily also happen to her children, creating a harmful cycle.
@@devofficialchannel That possibility is just as scary to think about too.
We did. We tried to pull her out. She promised she'd stop reading alt right stuff and get out of the pipline but didnt. She chose to be racist.
@@Wulfums Jesus, I’m so sorry, dumb question but are you a former friend of hers?
Yeah. I left another comment. I'm sorry I absolutely sounded hostile but I really, really wish people would try to seek out victims of people before doing vids.
She knew me as "Stripe" on Facebook. I was close friends w/ her for years (Though she did also groom me.)
Rip Daggz for having to edit all of this. I hope his eyes and mind are in peace
It was definitely an experience 😭
@@Daggz
Hope you’re okay after this. Thank you for your contribute 🫡
@@Daggz Hopefully, you weren't too stressed out. Wish you the best.
what an absolute soldier. i wouldn't want my worse enemy to watch any of this shit.
@@Daggz you we're a good one comrade
The warnings had me GAGGED. I DID NOT EXPECT TO SEE ALL OF THOSE WARNINGS FOR A DOG SHOW ON YT!??!?!??!!?
girl its alfreds playhouse
@c.capncook 1. I'm not a girl, 2. I didn't know what Albert's playhouse is, so don't get smart with me, ho 🫰
@@Kost1_Boxi'm not getting smart im responding 😭😭🙏 and i call everyone girl dont get your balls in a twist because im knocking your fragile masculinity
@c.capncook I'm not sure a guy who would strut in heels has a fragile masculinity 😭. Plus, you calling everyone girl doesn't make the statement any less than it was, but I appreciate that you explained that! And ur "response" sounded hella rude, and I was alr mad at the time, so I was rude back.
the show is on newgrounds not youtube, just to let you know
This doesn't have anything to do with Emily or her work but I've watched two of your videos so far and I'm really glad that you're not secretive about being a victim of sexual trauma, especially CSA. I hate that I can't even talk about my experiences without being seen as venting or trauma dumping, even if I just mention my trauma where it's relevant and in a completely neutral manner. It makes people so uncomfortable that CSA victims (at least in my experience/with people I've talked to) are frequently told (directly or indirectly, intentionally or unintentionally) to not talk about their trauma, which just leads to more of us feeling isolated, unsupported, and alone.
So, it's good to hear someone else casually mentioning/talking about their own trauma, especially on a widely public video. More people need to talk about it, so more people realize how sickeningly common it actually is, and more can be done to stop it. I hate how it happens to you when you don't have a voice, and then by the time you're old enough to finally talk about it, people ask you why you aren't over it yet, it was so many years ago...
So sorry that happened to you, man. I hope that someday you have people that don't talk like that about such a horrible topic. Everyone deserves to tell their story, no matter how long ago it happened.
i do actually have you playing in the background while i draw. you cant just call me out like this
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@@-PanPan- I liked the comment too
It's so weird to me that even though Emily doesn't have DID, she had protrayed a few things that happened to me in terms of alters or switching and being hazy.
Dicator Pickles is a (very glorified) version of a persecutor. And, even though people say that they are the evil alter, they can cause you to trust them through a means of lovebombing. They are seemed to be misunderstood and use their way of getting things as a means of protection.
When i first watched the three episodes of Alfred's Playhouse, i felt an odd sense of comfort in just Alfred. Not the rest of the show, not the creator. Just Alfred. He acted like me as a kid when i had to deal with some triggering topics no kid should have gone through. Sure, i didn't cause a murder but in terms of outbursts in emotion, it was on the T.
Its hard to explain really.
I completely agree, of course I don't support Emily but alfred themselves brought a great sense of comfort to me when I first found Alfred's playhouse. I don't have DID but the outbursts that alfred had are relatable in the sense that they looked like the ones I had when I was younger. Emily captured what it was like to go through things like that as a child and it was a surreal watch because I had never seen anything like it.
I dislike how it has a 'fandom' online because I assume that Alfred's playhouse is presumably her way of coping at the time, in my opinion. Even if it wasn't a way of coping, it is a good depiction of childhood trauma.
I love watching hour-long videos on things I haven't heard of, thank you Quinnamon
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Wendy fan!!!!
Same (South park pfp 😋)
ngl but the whole „he has alters that are historic dictators 🤓” bit had me physically cringe
Lmao
For anyone reading the comments.
Take care of yourself, drink water, go outside etc etc.
You’re not alone, talk to others.
You got this.
You know what they say, "The bigger they are, the harder they fall"
I thought this saying was about cocks lmao
Unless your ukulele girl
This biggidy boy’s a diggity dog
@@Wroar2020s true
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It's so disheartening to see people like Emily; as someone who was in a similar situation as her, it's also a bit horrifying how I might have turned out like her if the dice rolled a bit differently and I didn't get the help I needed.
its always terrifying seeing internet cases that really resonate with you at the beginning before diving into the deep end. really gives a lot of perspective about how some small key things can completely change your trajectory in life.
It sucks that you had to go through a similar situation. I'm glad things worked out for you, at least.
I just hope people who are similarly traumatized and don't have access to the resources they need, know that they don't have to turn out like her. They can choose to be better people than her, in spite of all of the suffering they endured. The cycle of trauma doesn't have to be continued.
Another detail I’d like to add is that Emily was once in a relationship with Jimmy Screamerclauz, and made Alfred’s Surprise after their breakup, which is probably why she used his character Labby in that animation who is depicted abandoning Alfred. She uses the soundtrack from the Land before Time in that video too, which she says was the last movie she watched with Jimmy. Further proof that the Alfred animations are probably just a projection of herself.
Heres the podcast where she says all this: ruclips.net/video/gBbzigrHt_E/видео.htmlsi=EPDj4O5qjFjD1uAb
Hearing someone talk about Alfred’s playhouse makes me so sad because you can see glimpses of a good idea. I was assaulted as a child and while I’ve never actually watched Alfred’s playhouse, seeing you describe it sounds so familiar. Being forced to rely on media to dissociate and separate yourself from the reality of what happened or regressing into a childlike state to stifle a panic attack is exactly what I do all the time. It’s really on point and it’s a shame that the idea wasn’t used differently. It could have ended up being really therapeutic for some many people. More so than it already is.
It's honestly haunting listening to the "alter ego" scream and cry about having to experience the trauma that the host wasn't around for.
Alters definitely do not turn "evil", that's not a thing. But I know for a fact that the trauma that I experience has to easily be just as painful for my alters, which definitely makes me feel guilty.
I feel very gross about myself that I am so incapable of handling bad moments that I can't even be around. It's very crazy that Alfred's Playhouse can depict that, despite the offensive nature.
You know it's really crazy when there's a warning
Oh Absolutely, the warning is warranted... Said warning was given once this time too.
Hi Unknowningly :D
Hi. I love your analog horror vids.
@@Unkn0wingly especially if it's RUclips itself giving it. And Jesus. Just holy fuck. That's all I can say.
I feel like I could make a joke connecting Emily with H.P. Lovecraft, but my Yithian partner says that it is too soon. I'll come back in a century to say it.
I will hold you to this. Just don't ask how
Pretty accurate. Both of these people only got their deranged views due to mental illness, with Lovecraft denouncing them when he regained his sanity
@@Vesperad0ill stay for the journey lol
I'll be awaiting for this moment
We'll be waiting
Learning about a infamous person the internet and their derogatory webtoon which involved some of the worst subject matter I've ever heard of while simultaneously witnessing the pyrocynical tf2 clip for the 34th time. THIS.. is the content I signed up for, thanks Quinnamon
The what clip?
@@AwesomeYena1:46
Call me a sensitive content viewer or extremely sympathetic/empathetic person, but I'm starting to realize my biggest trigger is cartoon dog characters being portrayed as necrophiles/serial killers/evil people.
Ever since seeing "Ren Seeks Help", this type of portrayal in cartoon dogs just makes my stomach churn.
Like obviously I don't mind seeing a cartoon dog be a villain like in a kid friendly cartoon way, but once they start doing visually unpleasant things, I draw a line.
@@torytellstales I'm not an easily triggered person, but I totally get where you're coming from. I watched Ren Seeks Help at a young age since I was (and still kinda am) a Ren & Stimpy fan, but that episode really rubbed me the wrong way back then, even now it really freaks me out
I completely get it,as a child those "haunted" animatronic toy dolls/teddy bears used to send me straight to tears and they still make me uneasy idk what it is about seeing such cute things made evil for the sake of it makes me uncomfortable
@@torytellstales dogs are the ultimate form of innocent love. They're unconditionally loving fluffy beings that love to play and will defend their owners with their lives. That's why it feels so perverted to see one act so maliciously.
I don't agree with her actions, but I do feel bad for how those beliefs and actions developed. She had such amazing potential, artistically and musically, and it all went down the drain because she found comfort in something that is (for good reason) frowned apon. I just hope she knows peace in life one day, though that isn't likely due to her husband also being a radical extremist so her beliefs won't be changing any time soon. But from one traumatized person to another, there are better ways of finding community and solace.
If it makes you feel any better, I think her family has been really grounding and good for her. Her husband convinced her to stop doing all drugs and Shes stopped animation all together. from her podcast she did with other nazi wives and mothers it's obvious she's much happier and more stable than she's ever been even if she's more bigoted.
@@yeager14 I'm glad she's found stability, but not at the cost of hatred for other human beings....
The way i paused what i was drawing when you called out artists who use these types of videos for background ambience like ive never been so scared drawing objects on ibispaintx
That scared me too-
This video has been so weird and disheartening to watch. I grew up on newgrounds and I remember watching Emily’s animations. I never dug deep into who she was and just let my too edgy and desensitized teenage boy brain laugh at what was on the screen. It’s so jarring seeing someone I used to watch have such horrible and bigoted beliefs, but I understand how it happens. Being in those spaces can easily lead to falling down the alt right pipeline, especially at that time. I made it out, but it’s a reminder that a lot of others didn’t.
Keep in touch with your friends guys, isolation and seeking validation leaves you *very* open to bad actors. Ask them how they’re doing, be a good actor in their life, your support and voice can be all the difference sometimes. ❤️
I love everything about this comment. Thanks for trying to put good shit out into the world, dude 👌🏽
That's good advice, man.
The audible "oh no..." I let out as RUclips recommended me this...
I used to love her work, because it really did portray just how isolation and being easily overstimulated can feel just... like a nightmare. I drew her some fanart back in the day, she even asked me hey I love this, do you do animation because I'm looking for volunteers for the Alfred Alfer movie, I told her that sadly not but I can contribute some drawings; she never got back to me. Sure wouldn't want to work with her nowadays...
"I needed to do some research, so I went on /pol" oh nooo...
So when I was 9 I had a friend that >>backed up
[[😂😂]] OH YEAH GET YO THICCCNSSS Back here bro[[]]
@@samueldev9137what the fuck
The fact that dictator alfred/pickles admits that he's the one that takes over alfreds body when he's going through trauma is a horrifying thought when you realize a possible theory.
Episodes one and two were happening in alfreds mind, while his physical body (pickles controlling it) was going through trauma in real time.
While alfred was getting violated with a popsicle, pickles had probably taken over at the last second so alfred could go to his mental playhouse and not actually physically deal with it, which is why we only see the beginning of it and never what happens during or after. Because alfred wasn't there to physically see it. It was pickles.
This is the first video ever that made me genuinely go like "ok, that's enough Internet for today."
Yeah, this was kind of scary.
Yes, I’m able to understand the Alfred’s Playhouse trilogy for what it is while acknowledging that it’s also just terrible and disgusting and the actual worst thing ever. But it’s so real and just so raw in an unforgiving way that I’m disgusted with myself for how much I can relate to such an awful thing. It messed me up bad for like a week after seeing it and still messes with me to this day and I regret ever watching it and learning more, but I feel that I needed to in a way. It’s helped me understand myself a bit better but of course, that’s not enough to justify its existence or make it ok. But still.
You shouldn't feel bad for relating to the show or even the creator, just make sure you don't fall down the same dark path.
@@aesiro13I second this
I thrid this
@@aesiro13 Completely valid concern and I appreciate you saying it but just to clarify I do NOT relate in any way to the terrible things she’s done/said and only ever related to theme of trauma from childhood SA in I do NOT agree with any of her opinions or think they’re ok ❌
@@cannibalisticcereal2898 Never said you did, just glad to hear it.
I feel... God I feel horrible finding out about this. I nearly, NEARLY fell down the same rabbit hole she did and I'm so relieved I avoided it in the end. As a result though I can't help but wish she would have been able to avoid it too.
There's something about that sort of absurdly over-the-top offensive way of making art I enjoy, how someone can just let loose and be as vile and gross as they want to be to make a point. It almost guarantees the people who may need to see it will stick around and people who don't will leave quickly. Knowing just a little of what happened to her and of how that came out through her work... It tears me up.
This was fantastically done and I hope this gets far more views. If it helps, the algorithm actually recommended it to me so you're doing something right! Subscribed because of it
I agree with that second paragraph. It’s so fascinatingly raw and uninhibited, and I almost want to encourage this primal level of creation. Almost.
@@amusingmoose9924 There's a lot of other debased works like this out there, they're just understandably not talked about often. It's a valid method of expression and can be done in a healthy way, just not one that's liked by a lot of people haha
17:20 im so autistic i felt my phantom ears perk up when i processed the class of 09 reference
same bro. same.
VERY REAL
Me too man
ME TOO
REAL OMG
I was born four days after Emily and spent alot of time on Newgrounds as a kid. Growing up and watching Emily’s downfall in real time was…something, esp as a poc queer person.
As someone with OSDD-1B (a similar mental disorder to DID, with less memory issues), I found Pickles’ story quite gut wrenching (although overdramatized and used for comedic purposes). I have alters that do feel that way, I feel as if I’m responsible for their suffering and that I should’ve been the one to take on all the trauma we experienced. It’s kinda shocking how without having the disorder herself WHILE being in a world that would actively demonize more intense disorders such as DID, Emily was able to portray DID and trauma somewhat accurately. She does have her own trauma which definitely helped that aspect but she had no way of knowing that DID and OSDD have this weird thing of “your mind created me therefore you are responsible for all that I’ve been through” type thing. I dunno if I’m making sense I just am shocked.
i almost cried midway through the video bc of 1. the whole "i hurt myself because this is the only way people show concern about me" thing, and the bit about pickles taking over everytime something traumatic happens so that alfred may live without it.
im not a trauma holder myself, but i am an alter in a system, and i am not the og host. so i get it, sort of.
and the whole s/h thing. i dont really self harm, havent for 2 years. but i understand the feeling that you have to have something major happen for people to show concern. because you're isolated, and you get so used to the people around you just knowing the carefully curated version of you who has no problems, and is much more mentally stable than you actually are. you start to believe that the people around you arent going to care unless you find a way to make them see how much you're suffering.
i dont ever plan on actually enacting any harm on myself. but i get the urge sometimes.
Hey. I'm just a stranger on the internet but I read all of your comment and genuinely wish you well. 🧡
i hope your doing well now
I hope you are well, fellow pilgrim of the Internet.
May the Force be with you. 💜
I absolutely can understand this feeling, even if our experiences are different. The urge is always going to linger, but I promise it gets better. Sometimes you're in a place where you don't realize that, but I promise as someone who was once there that things do change and you do grow bigger around that circle of grief, pain, and isolation. I wish you well, and thank you for sharing this even if you just wanted to get something out there. It's a vulnerable thing to admit
Much love to you and the rest of y'all in the meat mech
As someone with DID (formerly called Multiple Personality Disorder) this is unfortunately not much worse than the average media depiction of it which is usually just "oo scary serial killer alter"
Hey fellow system! I’m hopeful we can get some positive did rep soon, even the best did rep I’ve seen in the majoritypublic (moonknight) involves an alter who kills people fora living. Did systems literally just CHILL and VIBE I don’t understand why people are so convinced we beat ass for a living 😭😭😭 do they realize that the severe childhood trauma we experience will most likely prevent us from being abusive, and the cases like this are so rare that it shouldn’t even be considered for the entire did community. I could talk about this allday lmao 😭😭😭 nice to meet you!
@@mj-sw2nh Yeah, its wild. Ultimately I know it's just reflective of the typical ableist trope of oo mentally ill person is evil and crazy but still its like. We're the way we are because of trauma, why would we want to impart that kinda pain onto others out of nowhere?
@@mj-sw2nh EXACTLU WJY DO PEOPLE THINK WE KILL PEOPLE 😭😭 WHERE DID IT COME FROM???
@@SkulkOfRoses I don’t have DID, but I can say that sometimes people overlook how offensive something is because it doesn’t affect them, or they won’t see it from the other groups perspective. Have you seen how we treated Japanese people back in the early days of the internet, a lot of people were just treating them as extension of themselves into “Japanese culture”, by that I mean anime. Sorry that we represent you in that way, but we would never do it intentionally
@@smugmari Let’s be honest here, someone who has an alter that kills people, is the perfect set up to a horror movie😂(no offense)
I am currently aggressively drawing The Binding of Isaac characters (and a lot of mlp)
Thank you so very much.
Though that was scary being acknowledged.
which mlp characters i like starlight
I LOVE THE BINDING OF ISAAC THE BINDING OF ISAAAC FAN SPOTTED
@@smugmari I LOVE THE BINDING OF ISAAC TOO GRAHHHH (and omori is an masterpiece)
@@quinnamon yeah, its neat to know oyher interest you may have.
(this ain't an Bot response, I SWEAR!!)
@@smugmariOmori Profile Pic sighted.
Emily has got to be one of the most interesting yet depraved people to ever leave her mark on the internet. For better or for worse, I hope she knocks off all the right wing bullshit and heals from her trauma.
I find the depraved interesting but horribly concerning. Not many people talk about it
@@Sleepykiddoo Real shit! Same with Chris-Chan if you know her, can never skip a video going over all the shit she’s pulled in the past.
7:23 that actually scared me while I was making character references for art fight😭😭
emily and alfred fascinate me. emily might not *have* d.i.d.- but as someone who was diagnosed late in life that also projected through art long before that diagnosis was ever considered, it. is very reminiscent of that. alfred is very very clearly a vessel for something emily is dealing with, whether or not She is aware of the depths of it all.
Watching hour long documentaries is one of my favorite passtimes
Same
Ah yes, Emily: The classic cautionary tale on how edge can go too far
Honestly, the internet was probably the worst environment for her to be in general, let alone the Wild West era where slurs and bile were being thrown around like candy. The internet was always a dumpster fire, even long before social media made it worse.
As much as I have a dislike for Alfred’s Playhouse’s “fandom” (primarily on tiktok) and Emily Youcis as a person, I can’t help but acknowledge and appreciate the work that was put into it. And it’s depictions of Alfred’s mental breakdowns and trying to escape reality are scarily accurate to someone like me with similar issues and mental illness. I also can’t help but empathize with Emily during this point of her life making these animations. It was really her own form of escapism. She really had potential with them, and I totally agree her other talents like her singing is beautiful, but it’s a shame how downhill she went.
Another thing I wanna say, I think having appreciation for the series is fine, but do I think it needs a fandom? No. It’s been so popularized on tiktok/youtube by ignorant people and wannabe edgelords who are most definitely way too young to be watching it. It feels like a lot of these fans glorify Alfred’s actions and unwell behavior, which kinda defeats the purpose of the whole series. Yes, you’re supposed to sympathize with Alfred. But idolize him and try to act like him? NO. That’s just a thing I’ve noticed with a lot of Alfred’s Playhouse fans, they’re often way too young and glorify his behavior, which is worrying and why I think it shouldn’t really have a fandom. I understand these people probably find comfort in the show, and relate to his trauma (i’ll be honest i do too in some aspects) but I just don’t think making fanart and a community out of it is really, healthy or necessary, but that’s just my opinion.
I find it funny how this is actually somewhat better representation for DID than most things I've seen so far, as yes I know it's actually not that good of a representation because again nobody has a "evil alter" but still
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whats going on pap fam!
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zoinks
Jinkies
@@Glub-46 Ruh-roh
The way Emily talked about making the Albert movie almost reminds me of how Grant Morrison talks about the making of a hypersigil but in reverse, refusing to let it out so that the power remains until the moment its released.
Interesting to learn about a creator going down a very bad rabbit hole of nonsense and how it can latch onto ones' mental illness, especially in echo chambers of other weirdos like /pol/, looking forward to seeing more content!
43:17 she got banned on fucking 4chan... What the fuck how 😭
not even the site with the most nazis/racists/homophobes liked her 😭
How do you get kicked out of the internets trash can???
It’s actually quite easy depending on the board you’re on (which is any board that isn’t /b/ or /pol/).
I am studying psychology and this video helped me study more about Emily’s mental state and the decent of her actions due to trauma. Thank you for this video as it has helped me as a student and I will be using this video to help with psych projects!
Samesies!
You know when shit's gone wild when RUclips warns you before even starting the video
So, basically, therapy should be free to prevent this.
And yet, it's not.
Because we live in a Dystopian Society.
The disturbed are comforted by the disturbing, which disturbs the comfortable
Edit:bro wtf I do NOT remember writing this 😭😭😭
"raise your words not your voice. it is rain that grows flowers not thunder." ahh 💀💀
Please for the love of god DO NOT become a writer💀💀💀
@@pridefulkhan Bruh shut up i was tryina sound smart
corny
@@fishbaiter not corny at all gang
Wasn't expecting you of all people to cover this person in particular.
having this play in the bg then hearing "DANCING TO POLKA WITH JERRY SEINFELDS UNICORN" was whiplash in ways i cant describe
man, Emily was around the same age as me, was a creator on a website I spent a lot of my time on, and even grew up in the same city as me... I am legitimately surprised I've never heard of her
Honestly I just feel really bad for Emily as dark as her art is she really did have a talent If only she could have got the help she needed who knows what her art would be like by now.
“The Leviathans are coming for you” phrase should honestly be used more. Its so funny knowing the context XD
Great video! My computer crashed halfway through watching it and I thought it was a part of the video for a good minute 😭
Thanks for acknowledging how different things were back in the peak of newgrounds internet days.. it really was a different time. This kind of behavior was encouraged more than people would like to believe. An entire generation was impacted by it. That being said, the Alfred series did comfort me during a time of extreme distress and abuse. I am so glad to be in a better mental space these days.
I knew what you were saying about Pico’s School being offensive and controversial. However, the game wasn’t made “as a response to the tragedy.” The tragedy happened months after the game came out and the public blamed Tom for inspiring the culprits’ behaviour.
Again, I know what you were saying and sorry if it comes off as I’m judging you in any way, the video is really well in depth about Emily and NewGrounds as well as being well edited and presented and you should be proud! I just had this itch to say that Tom was blamed for a game that supposedly influenced murderers but he only wanted to make outlandish projects for like minded people to create their projects.
I relate to Alfred so much that he was somewhat comforting to me, and unfortunately I still somewhat do. Knowing about Emily has ruined it for me and made it impossible for me to find solace in Alfred, all I can feel is guilt for my draw to him and the series. I’m deeply ashamed of how I feel towards Alfred and wish Emily got help
I wish I could talk about the complex feelings more often but fear being misunderstood or causing trouble or attracting Emily towards me
There is nothing wrong with relating to the work a creator creates, no matter how twisted and heinous that creator is. We're all humans, and it's easy to see ourselves even in horrible people. But does that mean we are them? Not at all.
I understand what it's like to feel ashamed and embarrassed when you find yourself deeply relating to the creations that someone terrible produces. But that doesn't mean you yourself are a terrible person. Nor does it mean you are supporting their toxicity.
What's important, above all else, is knowing to not go down the path that the creator did. Seeking comfort in toxic, cult ideologies that slowly drag you in until you're completely enveloped. As long as you're aware of that: there will never be anything wrong with consuming and relating to media created by terrible people that you acknowledge are horrible.
There's a lot of gross people in this fandom. From nazis to those who make disgusting fanworks
Doesnt surprise me. Emily's one herself.
@@8-ballcoverofleftflanks633 yeah there's one writer that writes cp of the characters... It's gross
No such thing as writing cp, are you under 15 or something?@@ashfur7387
@@ashfur7387What!?
@@ashfur7387 I'm surprised no one is talking about the nazi part of it, I'm seriously horrified
0:48 holy shite , it’s that crazy dog girl who became a specific Austrian mustached man lover
Man with a weird, odd, ugly and even disgusting mustache.. 😰
As a German....he was NOT German ...He was an aussie ....gosh
@@hiimlaury1694 shit you’re right
34:05 when alfred takes the treat and gets that small moment of affection from 'Pickles', and what you said about it, definitely hit deeper than i think some people are willing to admit
In Alfred’s playhouse, I find it eerily accurate with the euphemism of the creatures attacking and torturing him having butterfly wings, including the story of her father abusing her sexually, this could mean the butterflies are insinuating the “feeling”, and the torture they put him through in all of the pain, showing how much it can also hurt, and the traumatic showcase of him after, I would strongly suspect it is true about her father or some adult figure hurting her, very scary
I first watched alfred back in high school and its kind of stuck with me since. my art ive come to realize has some traits in common with youcis and its something I would think about every once in a while.
I find it thematically ironic that emily ended up falling into the worst crowd and saying horrible things for, lets me real now, attention and affection. The far right offered her a place of praise and attention as long as she does and says bad shit, and she ate the figurative dog bone; ruining her life and reputation for the sake of feeling seen and loved (even if its not genuine affection).
With the way she writes, emily is clearly a smart person, and the clear air of intelligence present in each passage we get from her adds so much to her story
It’s really a shame, I actually like a lot of the jokes for what they are in these animations. Like the movie having “Where the Dead Go To Die” and “Where the Dead Go To Drink” is honestly really funny
Not really relevant to the topic, but one time I replied to Emily Youcis' tweet with pregnant Springtrap and she hearted it
Sounds about right
I have DID, to clarify I don’t think people naturally or at all have “dictator alters”.
It really sucks because despite how graphic and offensive it is when it’s through episodes 1-3 it’s sadly fucking relatable in a twisted sense.
People with DID aren’t violent, very stigmatized and the “series” doesn’t fully help its case.
But I do get that even without DID she was using her art to cope.
The movie tho really does show her major decline in mental health and it’s sad.
17:21 CLASS OF '09 REFERENCE??? BASED ALERT???
I'm so glad I could finally find a version about this topic that I could actually watch without feeling really sick
you must be really weak mentally....
As a older gen whos been around on the internet for a long time. It saddening how many young people- shit people in general. I will come across, making some of the most awful art (not as in style but as in substance.) An how some of the people are actually just screaming into the void from pain. Needing some form of help that will not come until way later or not at all.( An other are just hateful and spitting nothing but venom.)
I had hoped Emily would get help. Its so easy for people with bad intentions or bad ideals to root themsleves into the minds of someone who fragile. Her actions now are unforgivable she a full adult. An while I'll mourn the child making edgy cartoons online. I have no sympathy for the adult alt righter. Who dislike poc like myself.
In a way she got what she so desperatly was crying out for.
Its really sad how Emily is currently not only denying the fact that those videos were a coping to her being sexualy abused, but also how all this trauma led her to the person she is today.
She is openly a racist and a nazi. Thats proof that its really important for a person to get the help they need when they are screaming for it in their own ways (in her case, obviously through the alfreds playhouse videos, where its very clear that the person who made them is really struggling mentally)
In my opinion, the way that she is speaking about these animations does not help sa victims at all. Instead of sypmathizing with alfred, she has publicly stated that you should not relate to him, but mock him instead.
To conclude, i am deeply sad that she went through all this, and that she never got the help she actually needed. Her art makes people who have gone through something similar feel not alone, as it represents their feelings very well.
I just wish that she couls be able to heal, help and accept people instead of blaming herself and being an awful person.
People love her because she makes them feel comfort through her videos. That doesnt mean that she is not responsible for her actions, despite what she has gone through.
I clicked on this thinking nothing of it, then saw a paragraph of warnings, and knew i was on THAT side of youtube again
LMAO i was about to write this too
I'm gonna be honest, Rise of Alfred was the only vid I was able to watch without being absolutely horrified afterwards
At one point I talked to her and commissioned art from her. This is how my pitbull fursona came to be. I do NOT and NEVER will share the same political views as her. My character was created by chance. I have no plan on getting rid of her. I am separating the art from the artist. And no, this art in my profile pic is not what Emily drew. But what she DID draw was just a cute picture of Blueberry and Alfred sitting by a fireplace. That's it. No politics or anything disgusting. I stopped talking to Emily and will not engage with her again.
how was she in conversation? id imagine at the time she was much more coherent
@@codeinexrist Yeah, I guess. To be honest I was afraid of mentioning any of this because people tend to like to take things out of proportion. They like to go over the top and assume things of people who had interacted with certain people in the past. As I said before, I do not share the same views as her. In fact, sometimes I want to go to her socials and tell her that she is wrong and she should really reconsider her views. But it is better to not poke the bear. (So to speak).
The Ticci Toby fit goes crazy
It's unnerving to think about how much worse I would've been if I hadn't gotten some treatment in the form of medication. I'm fortunate enough to have a family that can supply me with medication that helps my mental health. Schizophrenia, especially since it was early onset, is a hell I couldn't tolerate going back to. I had a bit of comfort with certain parts of the Alfred story even if it went down the drain by the end.
This video was a good listen to have while I can't sleep around 3am. Would recommend for those who can withstand the content.
I genuinely gasped when you called me out for putting this on in the background to draw 😭
This shit fire and I ain't even started yet
bruh i thought this was an analysis about a horror game😭😭😭
REAL
SAME WHAT 😭
The "the people who put my videos in the background of them drawing" was scary😭, I'm playing with clay while watching this!!
I put this on to go to sleep to and I blink and now it’s 1am and I want to make an account on new grounds and do a deep dive. Darn you for making such a good video it kept my attention the whole time and left me wanting more. (You did great!)