being always the second option with ryunosuke akutagawa (𝓪 𝓹𝓵𝓪𝔂𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓷𝓲𝓮𝓼)
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- Опубликовано: 9 апр 2021
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0:00 ''it's not fair'' hey kids - molina ft mikan tsumiki
5:12 i just want to be the one you love - cryst
7:34 4 morant - doja cat
10:28 play date - melanie martinez
13:47 somebody that i used to know - gotye
18:35 ykwim - yot club
22:07 always forever - cults
25:52 hopelessly devoted to you - olivia newton john
29:38 young - vacations
32:47 yeah right - joji
36:00 looking out for you - joy again
39:16 washing machine heart - mitski
42:16 i can't handle change - roar
46:15 lovely - billie eilish ft. khalid
around 10:30 is playdate by melanie martinez
@@ashleyhuang388 thanks i forgot it:))
when this is the first playlist that you listened to every song while not skipping any AND the entire time you took a kinnie test and you got akutagawa: 👁👄👁
i will never forget that scene aku jumped for the phone since dazai was on it and as soon as he caught it, he heard dazai hang up.
i just wanna hug him
same, i felt so bad for him
I was so sad for him
same it was not nice.:(
😭 SAMEE I FELT HIS PAIN 😩
I ALMOST STARTED SOBBING OMFG THAT HURT SO MUCH
"being always the second option" i don't even know if im a option lol
SAME
Same
I agree loll
So true 💀
Same
That one dislike is from Akutagawa bcs he
thinks he's not good enough for Dazai...
the second one is is Higuchi being on Aku's side
Is this supposed to be funny? :( I’m literally crying 💔🤺
yeah, dazai is great --- but the way he acted to akutagawa was just really mean ..
It’s the same way dazai was treated when the victim doesn’t heal they turn into the abuser.
the 29 dislikes are akutagawa on 29 different accounts
I'm not just the second option, I'm the last resort. Sometimes I'm not even an option
I cried cuz same
Felt that but hey at least we’re still alive ig 😭😭
Lmao same
same
.. ratio
literally every person akutagawa met mocked him, i feel terrible for him, he deserved so much better than this
as an aku kinnie i just wanna hug him and tell him he is good enough
Please, I love aku so much and I can't stop crying at the scene where dazai just hangs up on him after aku jumped to catch the phone
@@IvanTGCF he deserves better
I honestly love him sm although I don’t relate to him,I just want to give a huge hug to anyone who kins him
He deserved the world
I'm sad, Aku does not deserve everything that is happening to him.
_-Aku kinnie_
1k likes and no replies? Let me fix that.
"I hate you for making me hate myself."
It is something that he would probably say to Dazai once he realized the damage that being with him in the Mafia caused him.
Chuuya’s the second option....
Akutagawa’s not an option at all 🥲
Still hurts to be the second option tho. Im just gonna go give aku a hug
L Akutagawa, W Chuuya.
you do your very best trying to impress them and improve for them fixing yourself and changing yourself for them only for them to forget you and move on without you - an akutagawa kinnie with personal experience
Same thing here, I can see why much people don't really like him it's because not much people relate to him
You are enough and you deserve so much better
I sometimes lay in my bed thinking if this is the real me cause i have so many personalities for so many different people so many that i have forgot who i really am
PLS I FEEL LIKE IF AUKUTAGAWA AND ATSUSHI HAD A BETTER RELATIONSHIP THEY WOULD BOTH SAY SMALL THINGS TO LIFT EACHOTHER UP
They already do It in their way imo
Nah atsushi littlerally said that the fact that akutagawa kills everyone is the reason dazai left him
It was painful to read.
ah yes- always being the second choice. not even my own friends would pick me for anything
- akutagawa kinnie :P
don’t forget, that you deserve to feel accepted, loved and understood < 3
- 𝐚𝐤𝐮𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐰𝐚 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐞 .
me looking over at my Aku plushie and feeling bad.. for anyone wondering, I gave him a hug, dont worry 😔
g o o d
@@ashleyhuang388 omg love the pfp bestie 👀
@@hummienoon thank you bestie!! It’s cute right 😊😊
@@ashleyhuang388 yep, chibi aku is very cute 😤
i wanted an aku plushie for sooo looonggg, can u tell me where u got it from?
LOOK: DAZAI IS NOT A GOOD PERSON
Ever since odasaku's death, the person we've been seeing is a dazai that's TRYING to be better, good, and somewhat kinder. It's a promise he's made to himself and, of course, oda. it's a whole life as well as a version of himself that he's trying to get away from.
The reason he can't for the love of him treat akutagawa better as well as apologize -- because it would warrant that he spend more time than necessary with him. akutagawa is the very embodiment of all the evil he was back in port mafia. So what does he do instead? Dazai makes up for all his fuck-ups by treating atsushi better. I'm sure some part of his rotten heart regrets and now realizes just how twisted he was. but it's just too much for dazai to retrace his steps and let akutagawa be the recipient of all that change. the ada gets to have "that" dazai. i'll go out on a limb and say shin soukoku is part of his efforts as well but never //just// akutagawa.
it's not the same as the way dazai treats chuuya because chuuya got to be his own person. he was already his own person. on the other hand, dazai has made it especially so that akutagawa would NEVER be that. aku's reason to live was dazai. the man has gotten himself so deep into what makes akutagawa, akutagawa. and while he never directly did so, boy did he fuel the fire.
It's not just a matter of akutagawa being the "second option". he's also a very painful reminder of what dazai wants to distance himself away from. and as much as he's changed, i think it's very canon that dazai will never be the one to apologize (abuse, gaslighting, manipulation, and all). there's just too much in it. too much weight, and so SO much unsaid between the two (especially now that we have a "changed, better person" dazai) for akutagawa to ever be "the first option". because dazai would have to acknowledge EVERYTHING.
so atsushi gets become the first choice. and hopefully through him, akutagawa gets a second chance to become a better person (him not killing anyone, him working with and saving atsushi multiple times, and eventually dying for him). it's dazai's own way of coping and still having a hand in helping akutagawa. unfortunately, dazai's help THROUGH atsushi is the only thing he's gonna get.
YESS im kinda happy theres other people who acknowledge how manipulative dazai is
@@user-gc8pg2gx7w thanks! I'm happy too.
wait is this a manga spoiler that akutagawa dies? ill be so sad lol
@@lindsrins unfortunately 😭 (I haven't read the manga myself yet but it's kinda hard to avoid spoilers sometimes)
I'm just gonna....chill here...yeah.....
- a dazai kinnie
Lemme just.. stay here with you.. fellow Dazai kinnie...🤗
Hey. How is it called when you try to k1ll yourself in the sewers?
🌸✨Sewercide✨🌸
Sameee
When your a dazai and akutagawa kinnie *Manic Laughter*
@@Anxious_Clown444 bro you ok?
sewerside lmao
i honestly feel like akutagawa and atsushi are " unlike soulmates " they both go thru different problems but in the end they both have one goal and its to have the acceptance of the world
akutagawa is literally my highest kin. i've been summoned here.
same
same :/ well, my second is kazutora from tokyo revengers 😃
I will do a fukuchi to you to make you leave
I have been Akutagawa's kinnie since I watched BSD for the first time. It was strange for me, becouse there was no a reason for me to like him that much. Now I understand. We are the same, I feel the same pain of never being enough to person you trust.
He was always a second option. Maybe Mori and Dazai knew how strong he is but they never treated him well.
Please, someone show him that he IS enough and that he DESERVES to be on first place.
(English isn't my first language)
He really deserves better. I love dazai but he really messed up aku ;(
the same happened me with both dazai and aku, first i found it strange too because i didnt like them for their looks, there was something else, btw your english is so good even its not your first language (*´▽`)ﾉ
@@iwillburnyourhouse OMG thank you (´∩｡• ᵕ •｡∩`)
I tried to don't make any mistakes in my grammary so I'm really happy that you understand what I mean ♡
Same here except I didn't realize I kinned him till end of season 3. Maybe that's why I have such an unexplainable hatred for atsushi
sorry but can someone tell me what 'akutagawa kinnie' means?
( ^▽^)σ)~O~)
But ...... Akutagawa isn't even an option most of the time. QwQ
Even though he suffers a lot, I'm glad that Chuuya at least treats him well (reference to drama CDs)
aww, where can i find these cds?
Kinning dazai and akutagawa is like fighting to be worthy enough for yourself, its a never ending war in your head.
Never being an option, yet always being the option.
For me personally, i have a problem where i build up my emotions until i explode and it looks terrifying. Being quiet until that one moment.
So people take me to be the last option because they fear me, it doesn't feel human.
Oh god then the ever lasting suicide methods thats i come up with in the matter of seconds, its a game.
-A dazai, akutagawa, kundikida, and light kinnie
Hi just wanted to say that you deserve the world and that you're perfect in every way possible ily
i love it and i feel so bad for aku, dazai really fucked up tho
🚶♀️As an Akutagawa kinnie, this hits-
Very close to home.
Good day/night to the Atsushi kinnies reading this!
good day/night for you too :) (an atsushi kinnie)
@@cecirculo Same for you!
me being both atsushi and akutagawa kinnie 🕺
Pov: I'm aku and Atsushi kinnie 💀💀💀
Good day/night to you Atsushi and Akutagawa kinnies- Dazai kinnie
For all the Aku kins who think they’re never enough, you will always be more than enough 🫀 -some random Atsushi kinnie
A lot of you kin Akutagawa, but I personally kin Dazai, so maybe I should hand out some validation. You're all more than worthy of it. So first things first, you're stronger than you think. The stories I've seen in these comments are heavy, but you all carry the weight so well. It seems like a lot, and maybe it is, but you *will* make it through there. It *won't* be like this forever. Change is a fact of life, after all. Your situations are often not except from that fact. Even if the change you long for seems far away, sometimes the best option you have is to wait it out and that is a perfectly fine thing to chose. As for being the second option, I can sympathize. I myself was not the first option for the longest time, and I know it hurts. You try for everything. To understand everybody, to accommodate their needs and still feel like you disappear like a ghost in the background. Some of you may even take up different personas to further accommodate people or you might go far past your limits to impress them. It sucks and I know it does, after all it’s something but I and Dazai do. However, my advice is to stop wasting time on people who won't bring you that same energy. Reciprocate the energy you are given to you, and if it isn't an energy you fuck with, leave. If it ends up with you standing alone, remember that it’s better to be in solitude than to pretend you have people when not a single one of them were actually standing by you in the first place. You owe no one in this world anything. I advise becoming your own first option. Be someone who you'd admire and adore. Be yourself, because I do adore you as you are. Be the main character. And I know it's hard, especially at nights when those thoughts seem to be especially loud and incessant, but hold onto whatever hope you may have kept or anything that keeps you going. The fight in you, the desire for change, the need to live, those feelings are a treasure. Those of you who’ve given up, I understand. I want to as well. Your efforts in staying here day by day or even minute to minute are recognized by me. I think you’re brave to continue this unpredictable and scary journey of life. Hang in there for as long as you can for whatever you can. I believe in you, I just want you to believe in yourself. One day all of this will be a bitter nostalgic laugh, but for now play your music loud and watch your favorite comfort shows. Make your comfort meals and treat yourself well. If it makes you happy, chase it. Be a child, be a teenager, an aspiring adult. Women, men, my non-binary and transitioning folks, you’re valid. All of you, be whoever you know yourself to be deep down. And if you’re unsure of who you are, spend some time with yourself. You’re lovely company. Validate yourself when you look in the mirror or even silently before you go to sleep. Allow yourself to cry, allow yourself to laugh, and let yourself celebrate because above anything else, I am proud of you. I’m proud of all the impressive individuals who find themselves reading this and one of these days, I hope to find you proud of yourself too. This was a lot longer than I thought it'd be and it might be nonsense, but I hope it can help out at least one person. I love you all and have a fine day and or night
i kin dazai and aku ✋💀
Even if I'm not an akutagawa kinnie, it help me to understand some part of me, so I'm going to try your advices, thank you so much ^^
this is a really nice thing to hear. thank you.
as someone who kins poe and akutagawa seeking validation to others thank you
AAAAAAAAAAAA what a lovely person /cry in aku, atsushi kinnie
I really did my best to prove myself to everyone at school and even at my cram school, I did a pretty good job. But it seems like I didn't impress anybody with my success or attending social activities. For example, at Math class, I talked all the time. I did almost every question our teacher gave correctly. But after that I kinda started to have an attack for no reason. I give my best to hide my tears and my shaking hands and I think I did a good job because my teacher didn't notice it. But there was that popular pretty girl, she just talked less in that class and my teacher was like 'Are you ok, Is there anything I can do for you'. I was literally having a breakdown and I'm sure it was obvious but nobody in that freaking class cared about. Maybe I'm just selfish but just for once, I want to have all the attention and I want somebody to tell me that I've been doing a good job because I'm literally mentally harming myself while trying to be the best so at least give me some little compliments and stuff like that. I'm really sorry for bothering you with this comment and making no sense at all.
Hey I don’t know if you’ll read this, but I’m proud of you for doing your best to keep it together even when you feel like falling down, that’s not a simple task to act like the strong person. I hope you’re having a good day, if not hope you do, I wish you the best in your journey in this crazy life. You are enough and you better look in the mirror and say it loud and proud. You matter
I M SO PROUD OF YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF I LOVE YOU OKAY ?! DONT LOSE MOTIVATION, RIGHT ?!
i'm with you.
Hey, I've had the same experience, I quite literally was having an attack in a class and when it got bad I quite literally excused myself and ran almost crying to the bathroom (this being my first attack I didn't know what to do) and came back and no one questioned it.
So from an Akutagawa and Dazai kinnie, it does get better, and the hard moments will leave. It's not selfish for wanting someone to notice.
I mean I don't even know why I'm replying, but I related and knew if I posted the same thing I would want someone to reply too.
Have a nice day and I hope I didn't bother you with this comment :)
I feel u bro :/
Relatable af, I'll be finishing my Maths homework in like 3 mins, got all of them right while I was at it, and don't even get a point for that, like man, at least tell me I did a good job, I mean yeah, it was basic fractions questions, but could you at least tell me I did a good job? It's not that hard to walk up to me and tell me 'Good job on doing the homework in 3 mins and getting them all right', on the other hand, like, please, just tell me I did a good job, I really need the ego boast
i did not just sit through this whole playlist and cry-
i started to tear up reading the title 😍🤞🏼
I hate it when people hate this baby, he was shaped to be like this, Atsushi chose to be kind, Aku didn't have a choice. As someone that kins both, it's alright to be selfish, to want to hurt people, to want more, to feel desperate, but it's not alright to call your self worthless.
Im a Dazai kin and Akutagawa kin too but I really feel sad about Akutagawa and what Dazai did to him especially that time when Akutagawa jump to catch the phone hoping to talk to Dazai. That part made me cry for real.
saaaaaame
truly "if im not the first option im not an option"
me being the middle child: this is accurat-
Here is a small story from my life
I love writing stories and when I was in highschool I showed some of my works to my teacher. They didn't seem so interested but I didn't mind cause I loved writing. It was the only thing that I was good at, to me at least.
There was a girl in my class, who liked writing same as me. And I was friends with her. But whenever something about writing (competetion etc) came up they always asked her. And most of time I was like ''Can I apply too?'' They always chose her, not me.
But after a while, I stopped asking.
Apperantly I wasn't good at it. I just thought that I was, made myself believe.
No wonder I'm such an Akutagawa kinnie.
(I may have grammatical mistakes, English is my second language)
I have a similar story. Our English teacher wasn't in the class that day.( English is my second language) Someone had to write the new words we learned from a short story. Everyone picked the popular girl in the class even tho I was the best at English. I just ended up giving her my notebook to write everything from it on to the board because she didn't know anything. I am still the second option in our neighbourhood games with the kids.
@@marinavuleta3302 being the second option breaks your heart... I kinda know how you felt, those popular girls steal all the spotlight even though they're not good at it. But don't worry cause in the end, when the lights are out you're still better then her 😌
I have a pretty similar story. Since i was 4 i was best friends with the popular girl i was always the shy girl was basically only a ghost besides her. My only talent was drawing and it still is one of the only things im good at. After all were my drawings the only thing i got attention for . Then there came a girl in my class that was basically good at everything and better than everyone so she got all the attention, my only friend left me (the popular one ) at that time i didnt really realize that i lost my best friend and thought that i could get her back or something. But it was already too late
im so sorry for that, I can understand what it feels like to think that you're not good enough. But see the thing is that everyone has different views for different things, just bcos they chose her doesnt mean your writing isnt good! Tbh I would love to read your writing if you're comfortable sharing, it sounds very fancy ~
@@Sophia-lq6zj omg thank you so much for your kind words😊🥺 I'm still trying to write tho cause my mind is full of ideas about stories. But I can't share with you cause most of my stories are in my mother language. The only story I wrote in English was a fanfic and It's pretty bad lol
this isn't related to being the second option, but i need to vent.
i hate who i am. well i kinda like my personality, but it's mostly my appearance. i have body dysmorphia and i really want help but if i tell my mom about the countless times i check myself in the mirror and judge she will say "i do that too, it's all in your head." so i'm stuck constantly thinking. how i could be better, or how i could feel skinnier, slimmer, just anything. i just want to hide. i hate it. i also have gender identity issues which link to my body image. i'm a girl, but i look absolutely disgusting in woman's clothing. so i wear more masc things, like oversized shirts and long shorts. which confuses me thinking that maybe i wanna be a boy, but then i see these other girls that look so pretty in their skirts and crop tops and shorts, and i wanna dress like them and be a girl. so then i think im non-binary. but i just don't know. it's so hard it hate it so much. it makes me so upset, i just don't even wanna think about it. i hope one day i will be okay, okay will who i am and how i look.
I totally understand you, I also hate my body because I have gender dysphoria and most likely I'm trans. I try to dress in femenine clothing but I just feel terrible doing so. I don't want to tell anyone because they might not take me seriously and some others will hate me and treat me bad because of it. I just want to cry because I want to be a boy so bad but everyone sees me as a girl and it's so frustrating. I dress masculine but it's still not enough for me to be satisfied. I hate the fact that my chest is too big and even if I dress in men's clothes people don't treat me as that because of my chest. I unfortunately can't help you but I can tell you that you're not alone and I hope you can find yourself
oh :( don’t worry, you’ll find yourself eventually. i don’t know my gender either atm, and it scares me but nobody will judge you for it bc it’s valid to not know. and about your appearance, just do and wear what you’re comfortable with because at the end of the day, something may come along and you’ll know right away what you gotta do.
im so sorry, i freaking suck at giving advice.
@@isaak1748 bro i fully understand you, gender dysphoria is so fucking hard to deal. every person around me are transphobic and i even give them hints, they dont understand that i hate my body and want to cover up my everything. i wear as the way i can cover up myself but they fight me for it and at the end, i end up going out with my disgusting body, i sometimes dream of cutting my body's top before i die
okay i vented so much sorry- english is not my first language tho
but i wish you the best!! i hope you can deal with it
and hey dazai i think you might be genderfluid! dress and act as you want at any time if you can and it will make you happy!! i hope you will find yourself soon, take care
@@ri-bq2dp I understand you, I really hope you can transition someday!
I was always the second option for my friends and now I’m someone’s first to my girlfriend, I hope everyone finds someone who appreciates y’all just the way you appreciate them
THIS IS SO UNDERRATED OMGG
When you realize no one ever saw you as an option anyways :( this playlist slaps
as an akutagawa kinnie, i love this so much!!
Hey . May I ask you ! What does kinnie mean?
@@ilhamhanhani6532 it means a character you relate to / have very deep personal or emotional connection with a character from fiction. to kin someone = to form or have that kind of connection [please correct me if i’m wrong and i hope this helps! :) ]
@@fairyuls thank you so much I really appreciate it 🤌
i dont know who 'ryunosuke akutagawa' is but this is a great playlist omfg
He's from a anime called bungo stray dogs and honestly it's sad to see the guy not even be a choice for dazi😭
Being a second option???
Ayo.. I’m not even an option in the first place.. 😀
my brother started calling me an akutagawa kinnie bc i have asthma but bro, i don't think its a joke anymore.
me, an aku kinnie, listening to this while waiting for my friend(that told me she kins dazai some time ago) to finally come over after months. We live so close to each other, no idea why its so hard to meet. ANYWAY, WE GONNA MAKE A CAKE TOGHETER. I hope nothing comes up so she cant come over anymore, like the 2 last times. I really look forward it.
Update?
Btw if she didn't come then atleast you had more cake for yourself
@@oliwia6199 i think yes, it was 1 fuckinf year ago tho, i might mistake it for another day 💀
Listening to this while waiting for the sun rise to start at 4:16 am and the sun rise starts at 5:42 👍 👍
Ooo sounds calming I might do that tonight!
We all had that experience in gym class. Being picked last when assigning teams. Being the second option in relationships. You always work to be the one everyone wants to pick. But it never works out for you. All the "cool" people get picked first always and even though you work for it, you'll never achieve what you really want.
I just want every Aku kinnies out there to know that you are doing great and I'm very proud of you. I hope you have a wonderful day, dearie - from Chuuya and Aku kinnie
overthinking and realizing u were never the first choice for any of ur friendships and they will always have someone else more important than u could ever be.
POV time because I'm actually sad now :(
Your door creaked open, 'What's not fair?' your dad asked sternly. Silence fell over you as he looked at your tears stained cheeks, he acted as if he cared but he really didn't. 'I get it, you just want to make everything about you so you're blasting this stupid music to make it seem like your depressed. Well guess what, you're not, get over it!' The door slammed, tears once again poured from your eyes.
Why are teenagers treated like this now a days?
Why did no one really care?
Why do our parents think its us seeking attention?
Your eyes fell to your phone, you picked it up and went straight to your group chat. You had ignored their texts for about a week, the only people who asked if you were okay are the people you weren't close to and rarely spoke to. Since school was starting up again you felt worse, were your friends still going to talk to you and want to hang around you. I mean you haven't been active recently unless your best friend had text you but those conversations weren't too long. Your best friend goes to a different school so obviously you couldn't go to them at breaks or lunch.
Scrolling on Instagram you saw a picture of your friend group hanging out, except you weren't in the picture - you hadn't even bee invited to hang out with them. You liked it and commented 'looks like you had fun!' Again you started crying. You decided to listen to more music, you went to your go to playlist by 'itsnotniicole' on RUclips - they always cheered you up. The playlist you were playing before was unfinished so you clicked on it and lay in bed - hoping to wake up in a different reality with your favourite anime characters.
You finally fell asleep, tears in your eyes, wishing you'll wake up and everything would be better although you know deep down it wasn't going to change.
I҉t҉'s҉ n҉o҉t҉ l҉i҉k҉e҉ t҉h҉e҉y҉ c҉a҉r҉e҉d҉ a҉n҉y҉w҉a҉y҉
(I had to edit it because a paragraph turned red and then disappeared)
this was really good- are you feeling better now?
This is so perfect of me… my sister is always the first option… it’s always about my sister… when I accomplish something my parents are just like”cool” or just ignore me… but when my sister accomplished something it’s always “good job” or “ continué the great work”… what about me why can’t they see me why won’t i be notice… at school im known everywhere all teachers know me as the “Avid Runner Up Student” because of my high achievement or they would call me an overachiever, but it’s not enough for my parents it’s never enough… so POV your good but not enough… it’s always about my sister because she has such a good personality… I’ve been my parents honor student, I’ve been an honor student my entire life, my sister never gotten good grades until now… but even so even if I got good grades or awards or trophies or medals they won’t care… all their attention goes to her. ITS ALWAYS ABOUT HER BUT NOT ME
Hi random stranger on the Internet I'm just here to say that I'm really proud of you! And you're doing a really amazing job! You're enough and you shouldn't push yourself too hard you are already trying your best please take breaks too
@@KaeSparrow my friends tell me the same thing and I sometimes have a hard time listening to them 🥲
@@djfirefox1342 I’m your new mom now *kidnaps*
I can not tell you how much I relate to Aktugawa. I’m not even the second option I’m the third. No more like “if I have no one with me I’ll just come to you.” It gets tiring and I don’t have mental energy for it. I love Aktugawa and what Dazai did was so wrong on many levels-
I just realised I commented 4 months ago as well-
THIS IS SO GOOD AND UNDERRATED PLS
I love your Venti pfp
@@t.k.m6341 tyyy!
It's just a fact for me. I've gotten so used to it it stopped hurting lmao. I guess some of us just..
Didn't get that luck
I wish it would be more popular. I am in love with the playlist...
I enjoyed this, I’m sure many others will also. Good job :)
All of my life, I’ve been the second option, even with my parents, my own bestfriend of nine years, my siblings, and to my ex girlfriend, I was still a second option, and that made things so hard for me, especially last year, but now even if I’m treated like a second option, I choose not to care, and I just show them that they’re an option to me too, even when deep down, they really aren’t…
I was working on my portfolio and I really wanted to listen to hey kids, so I went on youtube and I saw this. I clicked it without thinking and the first song is HEY KIDSS OMG THIS PLAYLIST HITS HARDD
I probably shouldn’t be in the comments because I haven’t finished it yet AND this is pretty much the only one that hasn’t been spoiled for me🙂
I'm always the second or third option. Sometimes even the last. I feel him.
as an akutagawa and mikan kinnie, i appreciate that it's not fair x hey kids is here
To all Aku kinnies in the comments, I'm sorry
- Dazai Kinnie
BRO THIS HURTS
grabs my megaphone ALL OF YOU HERE ARE WORTHY OF LOVE HEALTH AND HAPPINESS AND ONE DAY YOU WILL FIND AT LEAST ONE PERSON WHO MAKES SURE YOU KNOW THAT!! HERE ARE SOME VIRTUAL HUGS TO MAKE YOUR DAY BETTER (hopefully)!!! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 there's enough for anyone anytime so take as many as you want!
-sincerely, an atsu kinnie
if you feel like akutagawa, you do enough :) people do recognise your achievements :)
kin moment 😭
this
i relate so much to him and it hurts
"My therapist will hear about today." B]
When you kin Aku and you know how he feels, but Dazai/Chuuya just hits different and Aku is the 2nd option (for you) again
Aku kinnies deserve all the hugs and validation in this world - Atsushi kinnie
listening to these povs while walking to school are the best
Forget being the second option, I'm the first option, but only conditionally. The moment I stop being useful... Well.
-Aku kinnie
I just want to comfort him while I hug him...
I feel bad bc he's my second choice but to the guy I love I'm not even an option
thanks to my dad for ignoring my suicide, depression, dissociative but caring about my uncle for being him psychotic.
When they leave you without a word because you try to hard to please them- aku kinnie.
my baby aku deserves better :(
which is worse.
always being the second option meaning you're never good enough
or
always being the last option meaning they don't trust you
well, Akutagawa is not only my favorite character from BSD but also my favorite writer (real life Akutagawa) so...well, this hits hard
This was EXACTLY the playlist I needed rn to cry to.
everyone says I'm a drama queen because I cry all the time and they don't even take me seriously anymore, but I cry because they don't take me seriously and don't see me for who I am
I love Akutagawa. He reminds me of myself.
such a good playlist, from an atsushi kinnie :)
PLS THIS IS SOOOO GOOODDDDD
i relate so much to aku and this playlist it hurts my heart
I actually love thisss
PLS- ILY AND THIS 😭
when I first started watching, I didn't really like aku that much. but as I watched more, I slowly felt really bad for him, and realized we're both second options 😀. I just wanna give aku, and ppl like him a hug, I love every single one of u in the comments :0
- atsushi kinnie
i listen to these songs everyday thank you
“Being always the second option with Ryuunosuke Akutagawa” Baby, I’m not even an ✨option✨
I'm always a second option. And I can't change that. And the worst part of all is that he can't even go a week being single and goes with my friend/best friend and its pain inside you.
My friend went to my school because I went there… now she calls others her best friend, she loves them more, I’m not even a choice anymore… I am not I’m her videos as best friend but all the others are… how did this happen?
i relate to aku so much and i hate it like i always feel useless unless a certain someone praises me ,shows me their approval and atleast acknowledges my hard work like they literally said "ILY" to someone when i was the one who did all of the work and i just wanna cry and kms and i feel like im always their second choice although we literally have each other added as "the best person in the world
Thanks for this I definitely needed it
Omg the beginning hit different 🤤
"your my first choice but will i ever be yours? will i ever be anyones." - me some random Tuesday afternoon
this is my go to playlist for crying
as an akutagawa kinnie.. this playlist hits-
It hurts😭
*GIVE AKU THE LOVE*
when i cant handle change came on- i felt so much emotion like damn ok time to move aku up on my kin list fine 🥲
this has been on loop all night,,
dont think im okay,,
Yeah, I love our Akutagawa ❤ Amazing playlist, Mikan's voice surprised me at the begining though LOL
Peaceful.
i love aku so much
It’s funny because I was never an option I was just a last resort