I cried with you throughout this video. Being a mama is hard when you're trying to stay strong for everyone but you're breaking down inside. But the love we have for our children keeps us going. My prayers are with you and your family!
Same here 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️ We we’re just 3 nights in hospital with my 1 year old son who had pneumonia and I was feeling like I was going insane as well and still have ptsd whenever he coughs but what you went through Sarah, feels a million times harder and my heart is with you! Cried soooo much watching this 😭 and sending you and your family so much love and strength! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ ps: so happy to see you happy and at home at the end though 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
You’re amazing. As a nurse who knows how scary it is to save a life (let alone your own babies life) and a mom who has sat rocking my baby while we both cry for hours on end, I feel for you. I don’t cry often but this whole video had me choked up. It will be ok. This too shall pass. In the blink of an eye you’ll be rested, he’ll be grown a bit and you’ll all be together. You did great.
I soooo relate to those tears of frustration of a baby not sleeping in hospital. It’s isolating, exhausting and pushes you beyond what you feel like you can handle. Thanks for sharing. You’re incredible. God has a beautiful plan for Malakai x
Oh Sarah, how incredibly scary, stressful and draining. Having kids is simultaneously the most wonderful and terrifying thing ever, especially that first year of life. 3 hospital visits in 10 weeks plus sleep deprivation on top of those blue episodes - that’s so overwhelming! I’m so sorry it’s been such a hard time. I hope there’s no more blue episodes and you guys can catch a break soon xx
I just wanted to wrap my arms around you when you were crying. Utterly heartbreaking. You are probably the only “social media influencer” person that I genuinely enjoy following. Your realness is so relatable and I feel like we’re friends and you don’t even know me. Showing the good, the bad and the ugly makes you one of the special ones, keep doing what you’re doing. You make the sometimes lonely mothering journey a lot less lonely 💗x
I am speech-language pathologist. I understand hearing things from random people isn't always helpful but Sarah I see this all the time and so many medical professionals are not caught up with the research yet. I will let you educate yourself if you are inclined but if you begin to research tongue tie and frenectomies- you will learn it is linked to breathing issues, fluid issues, sleep issues (sleep apnea is always ruled out but it's almost always ends up being diagnosed 5-6 years). I can tell when you breast feed ( I hear it and see it). His tongue is restricted. The frenectomy procedure is so easy and very minimal risk. It's such a shame so many mothers are not educated about this. Along with medical professionals. The research is catching up though and I pray babies with tongue tie will be diagnosed and we can eliminate this hidden pandemic.
@@avaglynn1 It really can be instant with breastfeeding. I'm so happy you had that experience! I'm 34 and just had my frenectomy at age 31. MY sleep has improved as well as my posture.
Oh hunny, you have every single right in the world to be complaining - this is scary, exhausting, and so stressful! Anyone who "comes at you" for venting or complaining can't possibly know what it's like to be a mother. Thank you for sharing with us. You may just be the reason another baby survives or another Mom feels like they can survive, please remember that! Praying for all of you and most especially Malakai!
I'm so glad he's okay! The owlet sock is a life saver, literally. My daughter stopped breathing one night around 6 months old. The sock let us know and it saved her life. I still have ptsd from that alarm going off, but I'm so grateful we had it.
As a nurse I wanted to thank you so so much for the message at the end of the video. It is really important to refresh your memory on CPR. Even if you think you won’t need it for your kid or anyone in your family, remember that you can still help others who do not know how to do CPR. We, as a medical staff, have at least 3 times in a year like this course to refresh your memory, learn something new if the guidelines changed (in Europe). I’m so sorry you and your family had to go through this. I pray and hope they malakai will be okay and safe from now. Lots of love ❤️
As a stay at home mom the only classes near me are for 8 hours a day for two days. I’m curious on if you have any resources as I can not just leave my kids for two days 🙈
@@ristopherobbins in that situation I would recommend doing research on internet as well as RUclips from like legal source. Yes, it is better when you go to a class, because you have a professional watching you and giving advice but if it’s on possible for you, doing good research is okay
As an American I couldn’t imagine having to pay for this without insurance or before meeting your deductible. I’m so glad you were able to get his care pretty much for free.
SO glad you know (paediatric) CPR, we unfortunately lose too many babies because of the delay in CPR. You absolutely saved his life. And as (understandably) difficult it is for parents to learn I really encourage people to do so!!!!
I love you Sarah. God has already fought and won this battle for you. He is refining you and He is going to pour out more blessings of His supernatural anointing and Holy Spirit presence over you and your family. When we are weak we are strong.
I cried with you 💔😭 my mama heart broke knowing exactly how overwhelming that situation is and how insane you feel but you’re so strong I’m happy you guys are home now ❤️❤️
Sarah, all I can say is- being a mum of a little one myself (and even if I wasn’t). I’ve cried for you - I’ve prayed for you, and continue to pray for you and little Kai. So much of this is relatable - so much love to you xx
I remember watching the vlogs if the first time we met Kurt. And seeing him comfort you in the hospital just really hit me how long you guys have been together and it’s amazing to see everything work out for you. 💕🥺😭
I’ve always admired mothers so much and this vlog has given me a whole new level of respect for moms. You’re doing incredible Sez thank you so much for being real with us always. I will continue to pray for you and your beautiful family ❤️
I love that you mentioned Medicare. We have it here in Canada and it is SO important. Private health care can ruin a family’s welfare. Everyone should have access to healthcare that won’t empty their pockets.
Oh sweetie, I know, in Australia is amazing, I almost become citizen then I had to go back to Switzerland where there’s no public health insurance, just private... :( I wish I could come back. Be strong and healthy again ❤️😭
This is heartbreaking, I couldn't stop thinking about how this would cost me probably $300,000 where I am, no kidding. Its absolutely horrible, and can put you in debt for life
@@donatina1987 well.. it is mandatory and if you are out of job the state pays it for you and there is a (high standard) minimal coverage for everybody so any illness is covered, you do not get a 300k bill. Aso for all children there is private care, irrespectice of the policy you have with the provider. Miles away from the backward system in the US or any country without mandatory coverage: it is so important that everybody who needs it just gets the necessary care!!
Girl, complain. Don’t worry about everybody..just because you’re over it doesn’t mean that you hate motherhood. It’s literally so hard and the presence of frustration doesn’t mean the absence of love. You’re doing amazing and so many moms are with you. Praying for you and for your boys. ❤️
Thanks so much for posting this ! I have a 1 year old that I was diagnosed at a week old with a rare condition and have spent more time in hospital in the last year than at home and I just relate to this so much ❤️ thanks for highlighting this reality because your helping others ❤️! Your so strong and both your boys are very lucky to have you as their mum ! I’m praying for you and your family 🙏🏻
stay strong! and also, just because i only really see comments about sarah, i also want to give major respect to kurt for not only staying so calm in such a stressfull situation but also for staying home witth fox and pretending/trying to stick to a regular schedule for fox…that must have been extremely difficult
Sarah I've followed you for years. My son is 15 months old and has been a high needs child since birth. I've been tested in ways I've never thought and everyone I know with littles doesn't relate. Watching your vulnerability holding and rocking after an hour and crying just made me crumble and bawl. I don't know how many times I've been in that state, and seeing someone validate that... just hit. Praying for your family Sarah. We're all rooting for good health. ❤
Sarah, your story is going to become someone else's survival guide. Thank you for this ❤️ From being a fan to now working with mums as a job, I have really enjoyed how your channel has naturally evolved with you xx
My son turned blue and stopped breathing when he was 6 weeks old!! I had to call 911 and they were able to bring him back right away but it was one of the scariest moments of my life! It turns out it was nothing , they think he may have aspirated, and sometimes that just happens to tiny babies but none the less… so scary! Praying for you and your family always! ❤️
I have been in and out of the hospital the last few weeks with heart complications and I just seriously appreciate you posting this. It is such a lonely experience and I just felt so isolated, so watching this just really validated the way I was feeling. oh my goodness and exhausting, the amount of times I had to explain what had been happening was ridiculous. But you are so right, I am from NZ and just felt extremely blessed that I don't have to pay for it. Thank you for sharing this, thank you for being you, you are not complaining, you are sharing a light on some really important matters. xxxxxxxxxxx
The Mama Hospital breakdown… My sons were in hospital a several time for bronchitis with a really close following (nurses every hours). You don’t sleep well, your children neither, you’re stressed about your children health situation and if you’re lucky, the icing on the cake, you’re having your periods! Perfect cracking recipe…
I can't even comprehend how scary this must be to go through. Thank GOD your baby is okay, and well done mama for acting fast and saving baby's life! But just because baby is okay, it doesn't mean you won't have suffered immense trauma from this event. Thank you for sharing
I just wanted to say this vlog was so eye opening! I’m not a mum but I still found this so interesting and I now have a whole new appreciation for what mums do. Super interested in having Kurt give his point of view about how he coped having you and Malakai in hospital by yourselves and him at home alone with fox. Just an idea for a future video 😌
Shhheeeeeshhh! This was hard and painful to watch - heart wrenching - I cried with you and kept shaking my head through out this video at how this whole journey has been for you - my little boy is the same age as Fox. And I can't imagine the toll this would have taken on your mental and emotional health. The fear for your baby, concern about Fox and how this might have affected him and your lack of sleep and sitting in a dark room with a baby who won't sleep is just enough to break any mother. I felt how isolating this was for you despite having family and friends and your community. You are so strong and I'm in awe of your ability to weather these storms. Thank you for sharing these real raw motherhood moments with us. It is so needed. I remember the prayer you posted on your stories for Malakai during this time and it made me weep. It was such a moving prayer, it covered so much all mothers wish for their babies when sick. A mother's prayer. Here's to nothing but health for Malakai and no more hospital stays for you both. You're an incredible Mama, such a blessing to your boys.
That smile from little M when he knows he's going home *sigh* soooo sweet! I definitely cried along with you throughout this video. The sacrifices that are made when children come into our lives are so instinctual yet challenging. You are such a wonderful, present mum and I hope you know that God wouldn't have given you those 2 sweet little gifts if He didn't think you could handle it! Keep it up, Sezzy!
oh my gosh Sarah! thank you for being so open and honest and real with us. you are such a strong amazing women and mother. the tears are draining down my face. so amazing. i've been watching you insta stories religiously and to see you and Malachi home safe and sound is so special xx I know i'm a stranger and it probs doesn't mean anything but far out I couldn't be prouder of you all sweetie xxx
My oldest son was a twin, we delivered them at 25 weeks, they were micro preemies. One of our twins went to be with the Lord two days after he was born and the other spent 3 months in the NICU. I remember feeling all of the same feelings you’re going through, I think I cried the entire vlog 😆. Thank you for sharing your story, you’re a great mama Sarah! Also, we have 4 sons now and our twin is now 8 and thriving! Our 2nd son who’s 6 is named Malachi 😉😉 praying for you and your malakai!
Tear jerker. My heart just goes out to you. The fear of the unknown of the illness and the stress of everyday pressures of being a Mum with a baby who won’t settle. Real and raw. Thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing such a personal and traumatic experience Sarah. It means so much (and I’ve just booked a baby first aid course). Sending so much love to you, Malakai and the rest of your fam. Thanks again for sharing x
Sarah please don’t ever feel guilty for complaining- anyone would in that situation. You are strong, positive and an amazing mum. Honestly inspiring. So glad Malaki is well
I didn’t think I would be able to get through this vlog but I’m so glad I did. My son was sick and in hospital sporadically before he turned one and my hubby and I still have slight ptsd from it. Watching this made it all come back but also made me appreciate how far we have come as a family. Our little human is almost 3 and is thriving and is now all fine (touch wood). You’ll get through this and you’ll come out stronger. Trust your mumma bear instincts and give him lots of cuddles. Sending all our love to you guys and sweet Malakai ❤️❤️
Couldn’t stop crying throughout this video. The constant anxiety of the unknown, being scared to do anything without him by your side.. Not being able to be home with your family.. You are such a strong mama! The amount of love that is so very visible even in difficult times is amazing! 💓
You are one AMAZING mom! I am so inspired by you’re courage and faith. I spent a chunk of time with my newborn boy at our local children’s hospital here in Memphis, TN USA and I was a complete wreck! You are so strong and so is little Mal! Lifting you and you’re family up in prayer ❤️
I have followed you for a LONG time now and sincerely love all of your videos. I am a mom of 2 little boys myself (7 and 2) and they are the light of my life!!! You never know the meaning of true, unconditional love until you have babies of your own! It's truly the most special feeling the world. I teared up listening to your story about Malakai and I know that you probably feel at times like you're failing at being able to give Fox the attention he needs as well...but as mom's, we do all that we can for our babies and even though we FEEL as if it's not enough, I truly think our babies realize our efforts and we ARE doing enough! Prayers for your sweet baby boy and for your family.
Thank you so much for sharing Sarah, it’s so raw/ real life and so appreciated. We will continue to pray over Malakai’s health and that he doesn’t suffer anymore blue episodes. Much love
Thank you for showing EVERYTHING. I’m a mother of 2, one with a disorder. He has “episodes.” It’ll never be a walk in the park. I understand the mental, physical, and emotional exhaustion, but from those “hard” times good things come out. One thing I learned is that in the end everything will be okay. He’s a strong baby boy and has an amazing set of parents. I pray for your family and baby’s health. ♥️
Malakai is precious! I am so sorry to hear that you guys have had such a rough start! Thank you for sharing these important videos and not just "the highlights reel".
Sarah, I am so happy you are home with your family. I have been praying for you guys and been thinking of baby Malakai. I wasn't sure if you already addressed this, but I noticed a bump on Kurt's neck when he came to visit you guys in the hospital. I would recommend getting it checked if you guys haven't already. Thank you for sharing and please do not apologize for complaining. Any person would! Love you guys.
Hello, I watch her Instagram stories and in one of them weeks ago, she addressed that and said they know about it and he checked it out before. Just wanted to let you know:)
Cried long ‘n hard. You’re such an attentive, Intentive ( can’t forget attractive) parent. I’m so glad you checked on your boy and saved his life. Way to fight instead of freeze.
I’m glad you shared your story. I just had my first baby in December, and felt like I never hear these types of stories enough. I ended up getting really sick at about 30 weeks and had to have an emergency cesarean at 33 weeks, my daughter was 4 lbs and 17 in. I was so sick I was sedated for the birth and was in a coma for five days. We came home on the same day, the day after Christmas. And it took me several months to recover and I am still recovering. Thankfully there was no health problems with my baby and she is perfectly healthy and completely caught up on growth. She will be six months at the end of this month. These types of situations truly bring a bit of trauma, they are not very common but people are always afraid to share because they don’t want to scare people. However I felt so alone and dealt with a lot of anxiety and it has brought me so much comfort hearing other people stories of dealing with emotions and trauma that comes with a scary birth or scary situation with a newborn. Again, thank you for sharing I know it’s not easy but you’re a good mama and doing everything you can. Your boys are precious and I love following your journey 💙💙 Much love and prayers your way 🙏🏼
You are so inspiring. This brings back a lot of memories of our NICU stay with my newborn son several months back. That constant alarm, sitting in a room with no windows, being away from home, and the tests...it's all so much. I'm so glad that his tests came back normal. What a sweetie he is. Sending you and your family healthy thoughts.
We love you so much Sarah, thanks for being so vulnerable. You manage to be such a strong and inspirational mother and one of the most positive person regardless of the hurdles. we always love your vlog as you are always real.From your French followers 😇
I teared up so much during this vlog. Honestly felt for you and how hard it must have been for you all during Malakai's 3rd hospital stay. So glad they were able to give you some answers and you're all happy at home now xxx
Thank you for sharing the update including your real and raw emotions. I'm so glad Malakai is feeling better and you did amazingly! Such a strong mumma. I just sat here watching this video with tears in my eyes holding my 11 week old that little bit closer. 💕
I’m so happy Malakai is safe Sarah! Been watching your channel since before Kurt was in the picture and over the years I have become emotionally connected to everything you go through. I cried at this videos intro as if this happened to my besties baby. Sending you and Malakai love from Far North Queensland xx
As a mom of 3, my heart goes out to you. I could relate to all the emotions you expressed in the video. You've shown yourself to be an amazing loving mother doing the hardest job on earth. Praying for continued health for Malakai.
How terrifying!! So happy for you no major issues were found. Motherhood certainly keeps us on our toes and keeps us guessing hey..I hope you got some quality sleep without reliving the event over and over. My heart goes out to you guys for having to go through that, and hope Fox gets to the zoo 😉 xx
You are so strong, and I really respect you for being so honest and vulnarable! The people that don't get it, just wont. Remember how much of a good and positive impact you are making. I am not a mother yet, but I love seeing your whole journey - with Foxy and Malakai, and I really appreciate how honest you are, and that you also let yourself complain, because you ARE ALOWED TO. People need to stop with their toxic posititivty standards, and setting people online to higher standards also. THANK YOU for sharing Sarah
Sarah, you are incredible. The fact that you justify your actions breaks my heart 💔 don’t babe, you are doing so great! Kurt, fox, and Malachi are so lucky to have you. You are so strong! 💪🏼 Praying that better health is coming for Malachi and some calm and happiness is coming for you. Keep fighting and being you Sarah, you are amazing, we all love you so much 🤍🤍 xxx
Ever since I first found your channel, you’ve been a warrior and an inspiration in every area of life. 💕 praying for you and your family! Love you so much ❤️❤️🥲
I completely understand and sympathize with you. I had my first baby on March 9th of this year and she had to have heart surgery 1 week after birth. I stayed in the hospital 28 days with her before she was able to come home. It was absolutely the hardest time of my life being in that room and the constant sound of monitors, nurses/doctors coming in and out…it was A LOT to handle postpartum. I was just like you, crying and frustrated but I always prayed and asked God for patience and to heal my baby. She is now a thriving happy almost 3 month old little blessing!! You will get through this…”this too shall pass.” You are doing AMAZING…know that us moms out here are praying for you and baby. You’ve got this sis!!!
Oh Sezzy. I feel your pain and was crying with you. I didn't have a sick child, but I've been very ill myself and spent weeks in hospital. I also had postnatal depression and know that draining, can't catch a break, all consuming feeling. I've been thinking about you all constantly. I pray that you and your family experience nothing but health and happiness in the future xoxo
You are not alone. This video was one heck of a flashback for me. When my daughter was 2 months old we had a very similar experience with two separate weeks in the hospital. She had severe reflux and I didn’t sleep well until she was a year old. Now she is nine and amazing. I want to be her when I grow up. Good luck to you and your family. I hope in 8 years and 10 months, you’ll feel the same for Maliki.
Just saying this: complain as much as you want. Having a baby is hard, having a sick baby is harder. Having a sick baby during/after covid is even harder. I was in hospital for 8 days by myself, unable to leave my room. I cried every night. I just wanted to go home. Then cried again when we had to go back in after only being home for less than 24 hours. I get it mumma.
Omg, your tears brought me back to my 21 day stay on the hospital. I felt like I was losing my mind. I felt for you 100%. And who cares of your complaining, your not in the comfort of your home with your family. Anyone would feel that way, confined to a room and can’t go outside!
My 11 month old daughter had liver disease and since birth we have been in hospitals non stop and it’s such a stressful and defeating thing. I feel for you so much! My baby never sleeps in hospital either and it’s just soooo hard. My prayers are with you. I hope everything is smooth sailing from here xx
I feel you on each level here! Our sweet baby had a severe brain hemorrhage and stroke when she was 10 days. Being in the hospital for the next ten days… non-stop crying, checking the monitors constantly, getting about 1 hour of sleep per night. I grew a new wrinkle in the ten days we were there! It was awful but Remi is a year old now and is doing wonderfully! Malakai will be perfect soon! Thank you so much for sharing! So grateful for our hospitals and healthy babies! Remember, this is just a phase and it will pass!
So so scary! Really feeling for you, ended up in hospital with my 7 month old at the same time. It's the absolute worse feeling seeing you kids unwell and not knowing the reason! Sending all my love and prayers for a happy healthy rest of his life! x
Im not even a mum and I cried throughout this video, my heart went out to you and so happy baby Malakai is heathy and well again :) All the the love from the UK xoxo
You are so strong, momma! I know Kurt is doing a ton with Fox but I’m just struck by how every other video is you and Malakai at hospital alone. Keep up the good work…you’re an incredible woman!
Oh Sez, this vlog had me in absolute tears. My mom had two kids back to back and I often watched her have the same overwhelm in her whole body that you have here. I'm becoming a mom soon and just knowing that having these fearful and overwhelming moments is normal does make me feel more "understood" and less alone. I'm so sorry that your family has had such a rough go with Malakai, I hope you'll catch a break soon and you can all rest easy. It will come Sarah ♥
I am so glad that the tests came back okay. My daughter stopped breathing at 6 weeks of age, after many tests in hospital, it showed she had sleep apnea and shallow breathing when she went into REM sleep (dream sleep). Her brain waves would become abnormal during this time and she would stop breathing. She wore a monitor for 13 months and she then grew out of the condition. She is now 28 years old. I still remember how scary those 13 months were. sending you virtual hugs.
Sarah. My heart. I know this pain. I was crying with you. All I can say is, I know. You are not alone. You have been Malakai’s beacon of light through this. He must be so proud of you. X x
I can’t imagine. Not only how awful it is for your baby and family but fkr the toll it takes on you. I feel you so much on the rocking your child to sleep and not going down. Nvm in the hospital. Sending you so much love and hope it just gets better from here
You are the best mum. Your family will have the strongest bond and a deep love that will last forever from all of this crap time. You are stronger than you could ever have imagined. You saved his life. You are a wonderful person.
I held it together until Kurt came to visit at the Children's Hospital😢 you're both amazing parents. Nothing bad or scary should ever happen to our babies
Sarah this truly breaks my heart. God sees you and your struggles, just know that He is there right beside you. Will be praying for you and your family. Lot's of love xx
Sending you a big hug Sarah ❤️❤️ can’t even imagine how hard everything has been for you, hopefully in front of you and Malakai there’s just gonna be good health ❤️
Aww my dear Sarah (and Kurt) watching this made me cry so hard, being in that position is something every parent fears. I hope you all heal from the trauma, and I hope baby Malakai stays strong and healthy in order to be a part of many adventures to come. All my love to you guys.
Hiiii, I usually never comment on videos but for some reason today I am!! You are amazing and so powerful!! Glad these 2 boys have you as their mother!! God gave you so many gifts and you are using them effortlessly in His Glory!!
A mothers love can move mountains! You’re an incredible mother & your boys are so lucky to have you. As a mum of a 1&3 yrold I understand how stressful those times are when you feel like you can’t catch a break, but you handled it amazing & stayed strong! God is so good & im so glad he’s kept you and your family safe. I hope Malakai continues to thrive 💛
I sobbed watching this Sarah… My son is 10 weeks old and he spent the first week of his life inside the NICU, so I feel your exhaustion and heartbreak on a molecular level. Some nights I still close my eyes and hear the buzzers and alarms from hospital. I’m so insanely grateful to have been in such a fantastic hospital, but unless you’ve experienced it, you really don’t know what an emotional roller coaster it is. You’re in just straight survival mode. It’s SO hard. I can’t imagine experiencing that week over and over again like you have, my heart just absolutely feels for you. You’re an incredible Momma! Thank you for sharing this with us. ❤️
Omg when you were drained and crying rocking him to sleep and he kept waking up. That brought me back to when my daughter was a newborn, and it was so unbelievably hard. You are doing an excellent job, this is no easy feat!
2 seconds in and i’m trying to not cry at work. it’s crazy how most of us have never even met your family or let alone you but we’ve followed you along for so long that you literally feel like my older sister who lives abroad. man those hospital clips hit home. my daughter was hospitalized last year over christmas for 6 days and of course with our current global situation. no one could visit, i was alone. they didn’t have any answers for us and being quarantined in a room was the worse and the best. i have 3am dance parties and 2am fever scares as memories from those 6 days. having a child is the most rewarding but also the most emotionally taxing job ever. so glad Malakai is feeling so much better! your birth video inspired me to have the most natural birth ever 2 years ago with my daughter. that’s how i found your page. love from california ☀️
Sending all my love and prayers Sarah, we also had this happen to us with my 2nd bub however she was about 7months old…happened 3 times within the span of 2 months was sooo scary and they couldn’t find out what happened after all her tests. She’s now 3 and half and its hasn’t happened again thank the lord ❤️
Sarah… I’m so sorry! I cried with through this video!! A moms worst nightmare! thank you so much for sharing this personal time. This can test anyone and you have the right to complain and cry as much as you want! Sending you all the prayers!
I cried with you throughout this video. Being a mama is hard when you're trying to stay strong for everyone but you're breaking down inside. But the love we have for our children keeps us going. My prayers are with you and your family!
Me to 💓💓😇❣️❣️
Me too! 🤍🙏
Same! I was a mess!! Oodles of love to Sarah and her beautiful family. ♥️
Honestly same .
Same here 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️ We we’re just 3 nights in hospital with my 1 year old son who had pneumonia and I was feeling like I was going insane as well and still have ptsd whenever he coughs but what you went through Sarah, feels a million times harder and my heart is with you! Cried soooo much watching this 😭 and sending you and your family so much love and strength! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ ps: so happy to see you happy and at home at the end though 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
You’re amazing. As a nurse who knows how scary it is to save a life (let alone your own babies life) and a mom who has sat rocking my baby while we both cry for hours on end, I feel for you. I don’t cry often but this whole video had me choked up. It will be ok. This too shall pass. In the blink of an eye you’ll be rested, he’ll be grown a bit and you’ll all be together. You did great.
I soooo relate to those tears of frustration of a baby not sleeping in hospital. It’s isolating, exhausting and pushes you beyond what you feel like you can handle. Thanks for sharing. You’re incredible. God has a beautiful plan for Malakai x
YES!
Oh Sarah, how incredibly scary, stressful and draining. Having kids is simultaneously the most wonderful and terrifying thing ever, especially that first year of life. 3 hospital visits in 10 weeks plus sleep deprivation on top of those blue episodes - that’s so overwhelming! I’m so sorry it’s been such a hard time. I hope there’s no more blue episodes and you guys can catch a break soon xx
I just wanted to wrap my arms around you when you were crying. Utterly heartbreaking. You are probably the only “social media influencer” person that I genuinely enjoy following. Your realness is so relatable and I feel like we’re friends and you don’t even know me. Showing the good, the bad and the ugly makes you one of the special ones, keep doing what you’re doing. You make the sometimes lonely mothering journey a lot less lonely 💗x
I am speech-language pathologist. I understand hearing things from random people isn't always helpful but Sarah I see this all the time and so many medical professionals are not caught up with the research yet. I will let you educate yourself if you are inclined but if you begin to research tongue tie and frenectomies- you will learn it is linked to breathing issues, fluid issues, sleep issues (sleep apnea is always ruled out but it's almost always ends up being diagnosed 5-6 years). I can tell when you breast feed ( I hear it and see it). His tongue is restricted. The frenectomy procedure is so easy and very minimal risk. It's such a shame so many mothers are not educated about this. Along with medical professionals. The research is catching up though and I pray babies with tongue tie will be diagnosed and we can eliminate this hidden pandemic.
Thanks for your comment! I had both of my girls get a frenectomy!
Yes my daughter had the frenectomy and nursing her got so much better! Light night and day!
@@avaglynn1 It really can be instant with breastfeeding. I'm so happy you had that experience! I'm 34 and just had my frenectomy at age 31. MY sleep has improved as well as my posture.
Yesss! Came here to comment exactly this! Thank you ❤
Yes! Thank you for commenting this. It’s not well known yet but this can definitely be what is going on
Oh hunny, you have every single right in the world to be complaining - this is scary, exhausting, and so stressful! Anyone who "comes at you" for venting or complaining can't possibly know what it's like to be a mother. Thank you for sharing with us. You may just be the reason another baby survives or another Mom feels like they can survive, please remember that! Praying for all of you and most especially Malakai!
I'm so glad he's okay! The owlet sock is a life saver, literally. My daughter stopped breathing one night around 6 months old. The sock let us know and it saved her life. I still have ptsd from that alarm going off, but I'm so grateful we had it.
As a nurse I wanted to thank you so so much for the message at the end of the video. It is really important to refresh your memory on CPR. Even if you think you won’t need it for your kid or anyone in your family, remember that you can still help others who do not know how to do CPR. We, as a medical staff, have at least 3 times in a year like this course to refresh your memory, learn something new if the guidelines changed (in Europe). I’m so sorry you and your family had to go through this. I pray and hope they malakai will be okay and safe from now. Lots of love ❤️
As a stay at home mom the only classes near me are for 8 hours a day for two days. I’m curious on if you have any resources as I can not just leave my kids for two days 🙈
@@ristopherobbins in that situation I would recommend doing research on internet as well as RUclips from like legal source. Yes, it is better when you go to a class, because you have a professional watching you and giving advice but if it’s on possible for you, doing good research is okay
As an American I couldn’t imagine having to pay for this without insurance or before meeting your deductible. I’m so glad you were able to get his care pretty much for free.
SO glad you know (paediatric) CPR, we unfortunately lose too many babies because of the delay in CPR. You absolutely saved his life. And as (understandably) difficult it is for parents to learn I really encourage people to do so!!!!
I love you Sarah. God has already fought and won this battle for you. He is refining you and He is going to pour out more blessings of His supernatural anointing and Holy Spirit presence over you and your family. When we are weak we are strong.
Yes!!! Amen 🙏
We are strongest when we are weak because then the Lord is our strength:)
I cried with you 💔😭 my mama heart broke knowing exactly how overwhelming that situation is and how insane you feel but you’re so strong I’m happy you guys are home now ❤️❤️
I wanted to give her the biggest hug ever. 🥺 Being a mom is so taxing especially when they are sick or in a situation like this 🥺
Sarah, all I can say is- being a mum of a little one myself (and even if I wasn’t). I’ve cried for you - I’ve prayed for you, and continue to pray for you and little Kai. So much of this is relatable - so much love to you xx
I remember watching the vlogs if the first time we met Kurt. And seeing him comfort you in the hospital just really hit me how long you guys have been together and it’s amazing to see everything work out for you. 💕🥺😭
I’ve always admired mothers so much and this vlog has given me a whole new level of respect for moms. You’re doing incredible Sez thank you so much for being real with us always. I will continue to pray for you and your beautiful family ❤️
I love that you mentioned Medicare. We have it here in Canada and it is SO important. Private health care can ruin a family’s welfare. Everyone should have access to healthcare that won’t empty their pockets.
Oh sweetie, I know, in Australia is amazing, I almost become citizen then I had to go back to Switzerland where there’s no public health insurance, just private... :( I wish I could come back. Be strong and healthy again ❤️😭
@@donatina1987 we have it in Canada where I live! So I’m very blessed and grateful
This is heartbreaking, I couldn't stop thinking about how this would cost me probably $300,000 where I am, no kidding. Its absolutely horrible, and can put you in debt for life
@@donatina1987 well.. it is mandatory and if you are out of job the state pays it for you and there is a (high standard) minimal coverage for everybody so any illness is covered, you do not get a 300k bill. Aso for all children there is private care, irrespectice of the policy you have with the provider. Miles away from the backward system in the US or any country without mandatory coverage: it is so important that everybody who needs it just gets the necessary care!!
@@GastedFlabber I’m so sorry :( that is awful. No one should have to decide between saving their baby and going into lifelong debt.
Your so brave. I couldn’t imagine how hard that must’ve been. Stay strong Sarah! We’re all here for you 🤍🤍
Girl, complain. Don’t worry about everybody..just because you’re over it doesn’t mean that you hate motherhood. It’s literally so hard and the presence of frustration doesn’t mean the absence of love. You’re doing amazing and so many moms are with you. Praying for you and for your boys. ❤️
Thanks so much for posting this ! I have a 1 year old that I was diagnosed at a week old with a rare condition and have spent more time in hospital in the last year than at home and I just relate to this so much ❤️ thanks for highlighting this reality because your helping others ❤️!
Your so strong and both your boys are very lucky to have you as their mum ! I’m praying for you and your family 🙏🏻
Me too!
I'm so sorry to hear this, I hope your little one lives a long and healthy life ❤❤❤
stay strong! and also, just because i only really see comments about sarah, i also want to give major respect to kurt for not only staying so calm in such a stressfull situation but also for staying home witth fox and pretending/trying to stick to a regular schedule for fox…that must have been extremely difficult
Sarah I've followed you for years. My son is 15 months old and has been a high needs child since birth. I've been tested in ways I've never thought and everyone I know with littles doesn't relate. Watching your vulnerability holding and rocking after an hour and crying just made me crumble and bawl. I don't know how many times I've been in that state, and seeing someone validate that... just hit. Praying for your family Sarah. We're all rooting for good health. ❤
Sarah, your story is going to become someone else's survival guide. Thank you for this ❤️ From being a fan to now working with mums as a job, I have really enjoyed how your channel has naturally evolved with you xx
My son turned blue and stopped breathing when he was 6 weeks old!! I had to call 911 and they were able to bring him back right away but it was one of the scariest moments of my life!
It turns out it was nothing , they think he may have aspirated, and sometimes that just happens to tiny babies but none the less… so scary!
Praying for you and your family always! ❤️
I have been in and out of the hospital the last few weeks with heart complications and I just seriously appreciate you posting this. It is such a lonely experience and I just felt so isolated, so watching this just really validated the way I was feeling. oh my goodness and exhausting, the amount of times I had to explain what had been happening was ridiculous. But you are so right, I am from NZ and just felt extremely blessed that I don't have to pay for it. Thank you for sharing this, thank you for being you, you are not complaining, you are sharing a light on some really important matters. xxxxxxxxxxx
A lot of young healthy people having heart issues these days?!!
@@SydneyConnectsDots yeah, pretty scary! But I've had it since I was little xx
So glad he’s home now 🥺💙 you are incredibly strong Sarah and Kurt 🥰
The Mama Hospital breakdown… My sons were in hospital a several time for bronchitis with a really close following (nurses every hours). You don’t sleep well, your children neither, you’re stressed about your children health situation and if you’re lucky, the icing on the cake, you’re having your periods! Perfect cracking recipe…
Gosh I felt the emotional release you had hugging Kurt when he came to the children’s hospital ❤️❤️❤️
Look how big Fox is getting. Such a sweet big brother 🥹🥹 I felt your tears & overwhelm. You are doing so well. The best mum!
Sending so much love to you mama! Don’t apologize for complaining. It’s okay to be upset, stressed, frustrated, and emotional.
foxy saying 'yeah the boys!' while cuddling malakai just makes me melt! hope you and your family are thriving now sezzy xx
I can't even comprehend how scary this must be to go through. Thank GOD your baby is okay, and well done mama for acting fast and saving baby's life! But just because baby is okay, it doesn't mean you won't have suffered immense trauma from this event. Thank you for sharing
I just wanted to say this vlog was so eye opening! I’m not a mum but I still found this so interesting and I now have a whole new appreciation for what mums do. Super interested in having Kurt give his point of view about how he coped having you and Malakai in hospital by yourselves and him at home alone with fox. Just an idea for a future video 😌
Shhheeeeeshhh! This was hard and painful to watch - heart wrenching - I cried with you and kept shaking my head through out this video at how this whole journey has been for you - my little boy is the same age as Fox. And I can't imagine the toll this would have taken on your mental and emotional health. The fear for your baby, concern about Fox and how this might have affected him and your lack of sleep and sitting in a dark room with a baby who won't sleep is just enough to break any mother. I felt how isolating this was for you despite having family and friends and your community. You are so strong and I'm in awe of your ability to weather these storms. Thank you for sharing these real raw motherhood moments with us. It is so needed. I remember the prayer you posted on your stories for Malakai during this time and it made me weep. It was such a moving prayer, it covered so much all mothers wish for their babies when sick. A mother's prayer. Here's to nothing but health for Malakai and no more hospital stays for you both. You're an incredible Mama, such a blessing to your boys.
That smile from little M when he knows he's going home *sigh* soooo sweet! I definitely cried along with you throughout this video. The sacrifices that are made when children come into our lives are so instinctual yet challenging. You are such a wonderful, present mum and I hope you know that God wouldn't have given you those 2 sweet little gifts if He didn't think you could handle it! Keep it up, Sezzy!
oh my gosh Sarah! thank you for being so open and honest and real with us. you are such a strong amazing women and mother. the tears are draining down my face. so amazing. i've been watching you insta stories religiously and to see you and Malachi home safe and sound is so special xx I know i'm a stranger and it probs doesn't mean anything but far out I couldn't be prouder of you all sweetie xxx
My oldest son was a twin, we delivered them at 25 weeks, they were micro preemies. One of our twins went to be with the Lord two days after he was born and the other spent 3 months in the NICU. I remember feeling all of the same feelings you’re going through, I think I cried the entire vlog 😆. Thank you for sharing your story, you’re a great mama Sarah! Also, we have 4 sons now and our twin is now 8 and thriving! Our 2nd son who’s 6 is named Malachi 😉😉 praying for you and your malakai!
Tear jerker. My heart just goes out to you. The fear of the unknown of the illness and the stress of everyday pressures of being a Mum with a baby who won’t settle. Real and raw. Thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing such a personal and traumatic experience Sarah. It means so much (and I’ve just booked a baby first aid course). Sending so much love to you, Malakai and the rest of your fam. Thanks again for sharing x
Sarah please don’t ever feel guilty for complaining- anyone would in that situation. You are strong, positive and an amazing mum. Honestly inspiring. So glad Malaki is well
I didn’t think I would be able to get through this vlog but I’m so glad I did. My son was sick and in hospital sporadically before he turned one and my hubby and I still have slight ptsd from it. Watching this made it all come back but also made me appreciate how far we have come as a family. Our little human is almost 3 and is thriving and is now all fine (touch wood). You’ll get through this and you’ll come out stronger. Trust your mumma bear instincts and give him lots of cuddles. Sending all our love to you guys and sweet Malakai ❤️❤️
Couldn’t stop crying throughout this video. The constant anxiety of the unknown, being scared to do anything without him by your side.. Not being able to be home with your family.. You are such a strong mama! The amount of love that is so very visible even in difficult times is amazing! 💓
You are one AMAZING mom! I am so inspired by you’re courage and faith. I spent a chunk of time with my newborn boy at our local children’s hospital here in Memphis, TN USA and I was a complete wreck! You are so strong and so is little Mal! Lifting you and you’re family up in prayer ❤️
I have followed you for a LONG time now and sincerely love all of your videos. I am a mom of 2 little boys myself (7 and 2) and they are the light of my life!!! You never know the meaning of true, unconditional love until you have babies of your own! It's truly the most special feeling the world. I teared up listening to your story about Malakai and I know that you probably feel at times like you're failing at being able to give Fox the attention he needs as well...but as mom's, we do all that we can for our babies and even though we FEEL as if it's not enough, I truly think our babies realize our efforts and we ARE doing enough! Prayers for your sweet baby boy and for your family.
Thank you so much for sharing Sarah, it’s so raw/ real life and so appreciated. We will continue to pray over Malakai’s health and that he doesn’t suffer anymore blue episodes. Much love
Thank you for showing EVERYTHING. I’m a mother of 2, one with a disorder. He has “episodes.” It’ll never be a walk in the park. I understand the mental, physical, and emotional exhaustion, but from those “hard” times good things come out. One thing I learned is that in the end everything will be okay. He’s a strong baby boy and has an amazing set of parents. I pray for your family and baby’s health. ♥️
Forever keeping you and your beautiful family in my prayers! ❤️
Malakai is precious! I am so sorry to hear that you guys have had such a rough start! Thank you for sharing these important videos and not just "the highlights reel".
Sarah, I am so happy you are home with your family. I have been praying for you guys and been thinking of baby Malakai. I wasn't sure if you already addressed this, but I noticed a bump on Kurt's neck when he came to visit you guys in the hospital. I would recommend getting it checked if you guys haven't already. Thank you for sharing and please do not apologize for complaining. Any person would! Love you guys.
Hello, I watch her Instagram stories and in one of them weeks ago, she addressed that and said they know about it and he checked it out before.
Just wanted to let you know:)
@@joudnjd8610 Thank you!! That gives me a peace of mind :)
You are the most amazing mom I have ever seen. Your strength, courage and spirits are truly incredible. Thank you for sharing!
So glad to hear hè is okay now and you guys are at home together again ! Sending your family all the love 💖
Cried long ‘n hard. You’re such an attentive, Intentive ( can’t forget attractive) parent. I’m so glad you checked on your boy and saved his life. Way to fight instead of freeze.
I’m glad you shared your story. I just had my first baby in December, and felt like I never hear these types of stories enough. I ended up getting really sick at about 30 weeks and had to have an emergency cesarean at 33 weeks, my daughter was 4 lbs and 17 in. I was so sick I was sedated for the birth and was in a coma for five days. We came home on the same day, the day after Christmas. And it took me several months to recover and I am still recovering. Thankfully there was no health problems with my baby and she is perfectly healthy and completely caught up on growth. She will be six months at the end of this month. These types of situations truly bring a bit of trauma, they are not very common but people are always afraid to share because they don’t want to scare people. However I felt so alone and dealt with a lot of anxiety and it has brought me so much comfort hearing other people stories of dealing with emotions and trauma that comes with a scary birth or scary situation with a newborn. Again, thank you for sharing I know it’s not easy but you’re a good mama and doing everything you can. Your boys are precious and I love following your journey 💙💙 Much love and prayers your way 🙏🏼
You are so inspiring. This brings back a lot of memories of our NICU stay with my newborn son several months back. That constant alarm, sitting in a room with no windows, being away from home, and the tests...it's all so much. I'm so glad that his tests came back normal. What a sweetie he is. Sending you and your family healthy thoughts.
Watching this with tears in my eyes. I have a 14week old and I cannot even imagine what you are going through.
You are soooo strong Sezzy!
We love you so much Sarah, thanks for being so vulnerable. You manage to be such a strong and inspirational mother and one of the most positive person regardless of the hurdles. we always love your vlog as you are always real.From your French followers 😇
I teared up so much during this vlog. Honestly felt for you and how hard it must have been for you all during Malakai's 3rd hospital stay. So glad they were able to give you some answers and you're all happy at home now xxx
Thank you for sharing the update including your real and raw emotions. I'm so glad Malakai is feeling better and you did amazingly! Such a strong mumma. I just sat here watching this video with tears in my eyes holding my 11 week old that little bit closer. 💕
I’m so happy Malakai is safe Sarah! Been watching your channel since before Kurt was in the picture and over the years I have become emotionally connected to everything you go through. I cried at this videos intro as if this happened to my besties baby. Sending you and Malakai love from Far North Queensland xx
As a mom of 3, my heart goes out to you. I could relate to all the emotions you expressed in the video.
You've shown yourself to be an amazing loving mother doing the hardest job on earth. Praying for continued health for Malakai.
How terrifying!! So happy for you no major issues were found. Motherhood certainly keeps us on our toes and keeps us guessing hey..I hope you got some quality sleep without reliving the event over and over. My heart goes out to you guys for having to go through that, and hope Fox gets to the zoo 😉 xx
You are so strong, and I really respect you for being so honest and vulnarable! The people that don't get it, just wont. Remember how much of a good and positive impact you are making. I am not a mother yet, but I love seeing your whole journey - with Foxy and Malakai, and I really appreciate how honest you are, and that you also let yourself complain, because you ARE ALOWED TO. People need to stop with their toxic posititivty standards, and setting people online to higher standards also.
THANK YOU for sharing Sarah
Sarah, you are incredible. The fact that you justify your actions breaks my heart 💔 don’t babe, you are doing so great! Kurt, fox, and Malachi are so lucky to have you. You are so strong! 💪🏼 Praying that better health is coming for Malachi and some calm and happiness is coming for you.
Keep fighting and being you Sarah, you are amazing, we all love you so much 🤍🤍 xxx
I just feel so sorry for the both of you. He is absolutely stunning. He's such a beautiful baby. I'm praying for you and your family.
Ever since I first found your channel, you’ve been a warrior and an inspiration in every area of life. 💕 praying for you and your family! Love you so much ❤️❤️🥲
I completely understand and sympathize with you. I had my first baby on March 9th of this year and she had to have heart surgery 1 week after birth. I stayed in the hospital 28 days with her before she was able to come home. It was absolutely the hardest time of my life being in that room and the constant sound of monitors, nurses/doctors coming in and out…it was A LOT to handle postpartum. I was just like you, crying and frustrated but I always prayed and asked God for patience and to heal my baby. She is now a thriving happy almost 3 month old little blessing!! You will get through this…”this too shall pass.” You are doing AMAZING…know that us moms out here are praying for you and baby. You’ve got this sis!!!
Oh Sezzy. I feel your pain and was crying with you. I didn't have a sick child, but I've been very ill myself and spent weeks in hospital. I also had postnatal depression and know that draining, can't catch a break, all consuming feeling. I've been thinking about you all constantly. I pray that you and your family experience nothing but health and happiness in the future xoxo
You are not alone. This video was one heck of a flashback for me. When my daughter was 2 months old we had a very similar experience with two separate weeks in the hospital. She had severe reflux and I didn’t sleep well until she was a year old. Now she is nine and amazing. I want to be her when I grow up. Good luck to you and your family. I hope in 8 years and 10 months, you’ll feel the same for Maliki.
Just saying this: complain as much as you want. Having a baby is hard, having a sick baby is harder. Having a sick baby during/after covid is even harder. I was in hospital for 8 days by myself, unable to leave my room. I cried every night. I just wanted to go home. Then cried again when we had to go back in after only being home for less than 24 hours. I get it mumma.
Omg, your tears brought me back to my 21 day stay on the hospital. I felt like I was losing my mind. I felt for you 100%. And who cares of your complaining, your not in the comfort of your home with your family. Anyone would feel that way, confined to a room and can’t go outside!
My 11 month old daughter had liver disease and since birth we have been in hospitals non stop and it’s such a stressful and defeating thing. I feel for you so much! My baby never sleeps in hospital either and it’s just soooo hard. My prayers are with you. I hope everything is smooth sailing from here xx
I feel you on each level here! Our sweet baby had a severe brain hemorrhage and stroke when she was 10 days. Being in the hospital for the next ten days… non-stop crying, checking the monitors constantly, getting about 1 hour of sleep per night. I grew a new wrinkle in the ten days we were there! It was awful but Remi is a year old now and is doing wonderfully! Malakai will be perfect soon! Thank you so much for sharing! So grateful for our hospitals and healthy babies! Remember, this is just a phase and it will pass!
So so scary! Really feeling for you, ended up in hospital with my 7 month old at the same time. It's the absolute worse feeling seeing you kids unwell and not knowing the reason! Sending all my love and prayers for a happy healthy rest of his life! x
Im not even a mum and I cried throughout this video, my heart went out to you and so happy baby Malakai is heathy and well again :) All the the love from the UK xoxo
I can’t imagine how hard that must’ve been not just for you but your whole family, at least everything is ok now! Stay strong Sarah 💗 xx
You are so strong, momma! I know Kurt is doing a ton with Fox but I’m just struck by how every other video is you and Malakai at hospital alone. Keep up the good work…you’re an incredible woman!
Oh Sez, this vlog had me in absolute tears. My mom had two kids back to back and I often watched her have the same overwhelm in her whole body that you have here. I'm becoming a mom soon and just knowing that having these fearful and overwhelming moments is normal does make me feel more "understood" and less alone. I'm so sorry that your family has had such a rough go with Malakai, I hope you'll catch a break soon and you can all rest easy. It will come Sarah ♥
I am so glad that the tests came back okay. My daughter stopped breathing at 6 weeks of age, after many tests in hospital, it showed she had sleep apnea and shallow breathing when she went into REM sleep (dream sleep). Her brain waves would become abnormal during this time and she would stop breathing. She wore a monitor for 13 months and she then grew out of the condition. She is now 28 years old. I still remember how scary those 13 months were. sending you virtual hugs.
Sarah. My heart. I know this pain. I was crying with you. All I can say is, I know. You are not alone. You have been Malakai’s beacon of light through this. He must be so proud of you. X x
Sending so much love to you mama! Don’t apologize for complaining. It’s okay to be upset, stressed, frustrated, and emotional.
I can't even begin to imagine what you went through! I hope I am as brave as you when I have kids!! Sending you guys lots of love and prayers!!
I can’t imagine. Not only how awful it is for your baby and family but fkr the toll it takes on you. I feel you so much on the rocking your child to sleep and not going down. Nvm in the hospital.
Sending you so much love and hope it just gets better from here
Sending all my love, strength and prayers to you and your beautiful family ❤️❤️thank you for sharing your story xx
You are the best mum. Your family will have the strongest bond and a deep love that will last forever from all of this crap time. You are stronger than you could ever have imagined. You saved his life. You are a wonderful person.
I held it together until Kurt came to visit at the Children's Hospital😢 you're both amazing parents. Nothing bad or scary should ever happen to our babies
Sarah this truly breaks my heart. God sees you and your struggles, just know that He is there right beside you. Will be praying for you and your family. Lot's of love xx
Sending you a big hug Sarah ❤️❤️ can’t even imagine how hard everything has been for you, hopefully in front of you and Malakai there’s just gonna be good health ❤️
Aww my dear Sarah (and Kurt) watching this made me cry so hard, being in that position is something every parent fears. I hope you all heal from the trauma, and I hope baby Malakai stays strong and healthy in order to be a part of many adventures to come. All my love to you guys.
Literally crying watching this vlog! This would have been so scary to go through! Sending you and your family lot's of love and hugs girlie! xxx
Hiiii, I usually never comment on videos but for some reason today I am!! You are amazing and so powerful!! Glad these 2 boys have you as their mother!! God gave you so many gifts and you are using them effortlessly in His Glory!!
A mothers love can move mountains! You’re an incredible mother & your boys are so lucky to have you. As a mum of a 1&3 yrold I understand how stressful those times are when you feel like you can’t catch a break, but you handled it amazing & stayed strong! God is so good & im so glad he’s kept you and your family safe. I hope Malakai continues to thrive 💛
I sobbed watching this Sarah… My son is 10 weeks old and he spent the first week of his life inside the NICU, so I feel your exhaustion and heartbreak on a molecular level. Some nights I still close my eyes and hear the buzzers and alarms from hospital. I’m so insanely grateful to have been in such a fantastic hospital, but unless you’ve experienced it, you really don’t know what an emotional roller coaster it is. You’re in just straight survival mode. It’s SO hard. I can’t imagine experiencing that week over and over again like you have, my heart just absolutely feels for you. You’re an incredible Momma! Thank you for sharing this with us. ❤️
Thank you for sharing this, I felt like I was the only one when going thru this. Postpartum is hard enough. I wish the best for your family!
Omg when you were drained and crying rocking him to sleep and he kept waking up. That brought me back to when my daughter was a newborn, and it was so unbelievably hard. You are doing an excellent job, this is no easy feat!
Sending you hugs Sarah💛 I wish you and your family the best
2 seconds in and i’m trying to not cry at work. it’s crazy how most of us have never even met your family or let alone you but we’ve followed you along for so long that you literally feel like my older sister who lives abroad.
man those hospital clips hit home. my daughter was hospitalized last year over christmas for 6 days and of course with our current global situation. no one could visit, i was alone. they didn’t have any answers for us and being quarantined in a room was the worse and the best. i have 3am dance parties and 2am fever scares as memories from those 6 days. having a child is the most rewarding but also the most emotionally taxing job ever.
so glad Malakai is feeling so much better!
your birth video inspired me to have the most natural birth ever 2 years ago with my daughter.
that’s how i found your page.
love from california ☀️
Sending all my love and prayers Sarah, we also had this happen to us with my 2nd bub however she was about 7months old…happened 3 times within the span of 2 months was sooo scary and they couldn’t find out what happened after all her tests. She’s now 3 and half and its hasn’t happened again thank the lord ❤️
Sarah… I’m so sorry! I cried with through this video!! A moms worst nightmare! thank you so much for sharing this personal time. This can test anyone and you have the right to complain and cry as much as you want! Sending you all the prayers!
I'm so glad he's okay Sarah, you're incredibly strong, sending you all so much love ❤️
You need to be strong.Being a mother isn't easy.may God continue to bless all mothers out there