Nisha, thank you very much for sharing your story. Depression is so hard to understand unless you have experienced it. your comments are so true. We all love your honesty and bravery. I suffer from depression like so many others and understand some people just do not feel comfortable sharing. The more who do share, the more understanding there will be. xoxo
I had depression for years before I got help and it was horrible. You are right about people saying, what have you got to be depressed about, there are so many people that have bad things going on in their lives but the thing is, because someone else is feeling pain doesn't make our pain any less. It is something you can't help and you can't control and just make it go away. I so understand everything you are saying and you're so brave to let people know that anyone can have depression but there is help out there.
I have had depression and anxiety my entire life. I was diagnosed when I was 10 years old, but did not start taking medication until I was in my late 20s. I am 46 now and have tried many times to stop relying on the medication, but not possible. I also had post-partum depression when I had my one and only daughter, but thankfully, I did not disconnect from my child. My daughter's * father * abandoned us after she was a couple of months old. He moved to another state and has been completely absent in every way, no child support, etc. Now she is 9 years old. So in addition to having depression and anxiety, dealing with being a single mom working full-time, with struggling in so many ways. I have endured countless hardships as well. Thank you for sharing your story. * Love + Blessings to You *
I'm not sure you'll ever see this since it's such an old video of yours but I happened on it tonight after watching your latest video and I'm gobsmacked! So much of what you've said here resonated with me. The depression, the shopping for that temporary high, the feelings of isolation when you're feeling so low. It seems to me I've been fighting depression much of my life. I think the first time I felt it was when I was six and my beloved uncle died. I'm going through a huge metamorphosis these days and I truly believe "accidentally" finding this tonight is an important part of my journey. Thanks!
You are both brave and inspiring to share your story. And by doing so you are helping others who deal with this debilitating condition. No one can understand the pain of living with this day-to-day unless they have experienced it. It can, and does, change your entire personality and you can go from being happy and social to that of a hermit. The best thing we can do is reach out to those who love us so we have a good support system in place. Those we trust to and those who can can help us see the blind spots in our behavior we may have missed. There is a lot of trial and error in the medication route so it's critical to find a good doctor who will work with you. You are not on an easy path. Bless you for sharing and reaching out to others. ❤️ thank you Nisha. I, too, battle this and every day I learn new ways to beat it.
Good lord! For the past 10 years I have been depressed off and on and didn't even know it. Your discussions have totally lifted my heart. How can I ever thank you? I wanted to see what other women were doing on here as "how to" for women who are getting older. I have a heavy background in beauty, health, and anthropology so I think I may have some things (not competing with you but enhancing and crediting you) on RUclips. And, I never expected to come across this. what I'm most shocked with is finding out that anti-depressants masks symptoms, they don't cure them. Wow! You are the only woman I have been watching on here and believe me when I say that's a real compliment. I rarely find new products or learn new things & here I am, learning from someone ultra special. Thank you so very much for all you do for women. I hope I can be half as informative as you. I know you have touched more lives than you think. I didn't know how to even leave a message until I pressed on everything and lost you several times. I'm very glad our paths have crossed and I believe they will again. Thanks for all you have given the world. Keep up the good work!
Nisha, you are a very unique, are entertaining, and are the wittiest. Best of all, you are genuine and by sharing your life you help us in every way! I pray God rewards you with every happiness and all of your dreams come true! Thanks again!
I just saw the title of your video. I will be watching tonight but wanted to get this off to you right away. You are so encouraging just to see that someone who has depression is brave enough to share about it. I too have depression and have since I was in Kindergarten I believe. It has impacted my life in horrible ways. But the GOOD news is that with the right treatment there is hope for all of us to feel better and be productive and feeling good. I will share my story with you another time. But for now, just be really kind to yourself and remember it is your brain that is not firing properly and it can be made to be healthy again. You are NOT alone. Give yourself what YOU need. Gail USA
Sorry you are suffering from depression but we are not the only ones and talking about it helps. I am glad that your husband is understanding- it is important. xoxo Nisha
What an honest talk on this topic.Thanks for being so open about this.I'm sure you helped not one,but hundreds of women in this situation. Your an angel
Nisha, you are so brave to share your story with us, thank you! I too struggle with depression and understand the rollercoaster ride of depression and anxiety. I hope you have more good days than bad, you're such a sweetheart and seem to be beautiful inside and out. thank you again for sharing and for all the hard work you do for us to enjoy your videos.
+chriswyf2011 Thank you, that is an old video, I am very well thank you and I am currently slowly coming off of them, we will see how it goes xoxoNisha
I, too, want to thank you, Nisha, for sharing your experience. I know now that I've experienced several depressive episodes in my life, but this last one, after I lost my parents, hit me hardest and literally shut me down. I've just come off almost 3 years of being on disability as the depression got so bad that I couldn't work, leave my house for days at a time, or deal with people. I'm now back at work, and on antidepressants, but cognitive behavioral therapy was what really worked for me.
The truth is, being a woman is hard. If you don't meet Mr right and don't marry and don't have a family, you also get depressed because you feel like you're a failure. There's no way to win this battle
Hi Nisha I have depression too I have done for years. I'm also on medication. I really do think it is an invisible illness. I have so many people say to me, "you don't look depressed" But Nisha,how are we supposed to look. Listening to your story of how yours start after having your baby boy. I can totally relate to this as the same thing happened to me and yes you do feel incredibly guilty. The smoking story, my god, this sounds like me. I'm in a terrible vicious circle. My daughter is now 27 and I'm still depressed and still on medication. I've also become addicted to internet shopping because I don't want to go out. There is no reason or rhyme to my depression, I can't stop it, I have to just roll with it. I really don't know how I found you on RUclips but my god I'm so thankful that I did. Your makeup tutorials I love. They pick me up. I stopped wearing makeup 10 years ago because of my depression, I just couldn't be bothered to put it on. One day I might start wearing it again but I'm nearly 50 in October! So for now I am buying makeup and storing it. Xx
I know how you feel I have been dealing with depression for 43 years. I have one coming on starting two days ago I am in the tearing stage now I hope this one get over fast. Thank you for sharing it helps to know others feel this way.
I have suffered from depression for 20 years. I do take meds but at times that doesn’t work. I have been working for a psychiatrist all my career. I didn’t recognize it even being in the field. I have had several med changes over the years. No one ever knew except my boss. I finally explained to my family and to this day it’s why are you depressed. What’s to be depressed about.
OMGosh, I do the same exact thing and I know exactly how you feel!! It is so frustrating to feel so down. I have had to go on medication also so I am doing much better now. Thank you for talking about this problem!! So many of us suffer in silence not wanting anyone to know but we should be able to talk about it and not be afraid of judgement by others. ❤
I have backtracked to this first set from the recent video you posted a few days ago. I had NO idea you suffered as well. I greatly enjoy your videos and you are the only RUclips page I've mentioned to my husband, and in fact it was just this last night! I cried watching this video because you spoke for me. I have never smoked but I'd always bounce around new hobbies that were always short term and unfinished. The shopping is going on currently, by bouncing from miniatures to now beauty products. I've steadily gained weight over this last year and now 40-50 pounds over weight. I have no clothes that fit any longer and I'm borrowing my husband large tshirts that he doesn't wear as he they are too large for him. I feel horrible. Thank you for this video. I did share this to my husbands Facebook messenger do he can see it. I'm hoping he'll get a better understanding of what is going on with me.
Thank you for your video this hit home for me I've always been slightly depressed but hit menopause I'm now almost 51 and wham! Big time depression and anxiety ! Thank you for letting us know we are not alone !
Thank you Nisha -you are a beacon in the lives of many woman! ! Stigmas should not exist but sadly they do amongst those that do not understand causing others to feel they are perceived as weak and "less than". Terrible, because those that suffer from depression do not have a control over it in that , it is not something that can be willed away any more than kidney disease or heart disease. Thank you for your openess, caring and sharing. You are a beautiful, fun, intelligent individual whom I very much enjoy watching on RUclips! ! take care!
You are so brave! You inspire me :-) I suffer with depression as well due to degenerative brain disease. Your videos bring me a lot of happiness and make me feel beautiful - finally! Keep on keeping on my girl!
I can relate with every single thing you said. Good for you , you have loving husband. My husband doesn't want to see, hear, me talking about my feelings, my depression. Love you !
awwh Nisha ....like you I have struggled for years and everything you said is so true . like you I am on citalopram and have been for 3 1/2 years. my doctor is happy to keep me on it indefinitely. thanks for sharing your story .....you are not alone xx
I am so sorry that you had such bad time with it , it is crippling illness , I am so lucky that i have a understanding family because so many people don't get it. Look after yourself love Nisha xxx
Nisha, I thank you so much for this video.. I knew I related well to you..I too suffer from depression.. I think my children think Im crazy..But, I remember the bad moods, and snapping.. I got so sick I was literally shacking.. It's a very hard thing for some people to understand, especially when you look fine on the outside..
Thank you so much. Shame about your husband but we depressed people do need a lot of support and understanding. I am sure that we are not very easy to live with when we at our lowest. Hope you are well love Nisha
I'm glad you brought up exercise. It is the only healthy cure for my anxiety. I'm sure people use cigarettes, alcohol, and shopping to get that same "boost." Good for you sharing your story!
I have just found your videos and wish you well. I am also a sufferer of depression and anxiety and just started to reduce my meds. I love your positive attitudes and your great makeup/style videos. Thanks and good wishes xx
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I also suffer with depression and your story is so similar to mine. I quit smoking 2 years ago and as crazy as it sounds I felt like my best friend died when I quit smoking. I can't take antidepressants because they make my TMJ worse so needless to say I am still on the journey to happiness,
Thank you so much for sharing your story in an honest and frank way. Many of us have experienced the same thing and usually end up keeping it all to ourselves. It's very refreshing to hear your experiences. Love all your videos about makeup and wigs too...i am learning such a lot!! 💕
I have had depression all my life, make-up is a great diversion, I use it to relax. It's great you are sharing, keep taking the tablets, don't come off them, accept you need help to raise your serotonin levels. Sending you love and hugs 🌟🎈💖
Congratulations on your courage Nisha to sit and talk about your pain! Keep up the good work and look to the universe for support and love. You can do it! Love and best wishes!
Thank you for sharing your story with us. Everything you said made so much sense to me. You have a gift for sharing in a clear, honest way that can reach people. I hope things are going well for you at this time.
You are not alone. I've lived with depression and anxiety all of my (almost) 52 years. God gets me through each day and He will do the same for you my beautiful friend :)
deperssion is such a huge part of our life- this runs in my famly!- i remember picking up my mother telling her when i was 5 it will be OK then there was my grandmother- this is a wonderful video THERE is no controlling it- no snapping out it- it takes over- much love from me-- x shelly
Congratulations on this wonderful and honest video. Sometimes the only good that comes from suffering Depression is developing more empathy and a keener desire to help others who are also suffering. As we both know, the "not knowing " is so frightening. Our journeys are very similar. I quit smoking over six years ago but will never, ever part with my antidepressants (after 15 years).
I can relate to everything you said. Thank you for sharing and being so very open with what you're going through. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. :)
Bless you Linda , there is nothing wrong with taking them. I have just been to see my doctor and she said that i might have to stay on them for life and i said "GREAT"!!! because now i can enjoy my life and she said that there is nothing wrong with taking the meds all the time.Look after yourself xxxx Nisha
Your videos are absolutely wonderful and this one is amazing! Thank you for sharing your story it means more than u will ever know! Your beautiful and stay strong xo
Hi Nisha thank you for sharing your story. I recently tried to come off of my antidepressants but had to start taking them again. I realized that it's ok to take medication so I can feel my best and take care of my family.
I've only recently found your videos and enjoy them! I face the same issues. I see you said that you're coming off your antidepressants and I'd like to encourage you to not do that. People tend to feel better and they no longer need the meds. Unfortunately that means you need to be on them. I've been on the same cycle for years and eventually learned that I MUST stay on them. I've been faithful in the regime for years and there's nothing magic that makes it better overnight. Perhaps you need to find a doc that SPECIALIZES in this sort of situation. Perhaps I read what you said incorrectly but it's worst to go on and off the medications! Exercise and many things can help but you have to get a baseline to support the med therapy but unfortunately it's not short term..long process but worth it. After a long time I found out I'm bipolar..nuts as my family puts it..people don't understand how hurtful those comments are. It's horrible dealing with these issues and you have a lot of support in the RUclips community. Please please don't give up on the meds just yet!
Janet Johnson I totally agree mist people I know that get off there meds have to go right back on them I think of my meds as vitamins for my brain .I won't let my mental illness define me .I have bpd too and it's very difficult to treat but I take it day by day .stay strong girls
SugarPuffAndFluff thank you for uploading this I just came accross your channel I was trying to find older make up tutorials for huded eyes and I found you, I think you are great. I suffer from deppresion all my life, in 2012 I had and anyrism and that made it worst now I think I will be on intidepresent for the rest of my life because of it. Thank you for sharing your story with us all your new follower Maria
I've only just found your channel, the way you are describing your depression is just how I'm feeling. I've been to the doctor who has stated I'm perimenopausal but I've felt like the way you've been describing some of your feelings for well over 20 years !!! thank you for being so open its made me realise I'm not weird or strange and I can now start to fix it xx
Thank u so much for this, I suffer from bad depression an I feel nobody understands, I lost my husband 4 years ago an I just can't find myself anymore, I started watching u two days ago an it's really helped, thanks so much:)
Leighann Mcgowan i guess just time, then after mths of being a puddle on the floor in our new house alone. my son introduce me to his boss and we hit it off like crazy he wanted to get married I didn't had took my guns away from me and he walked in there one day and just shot his self in the head while I was cooking supper right in front of my face. Don't mean to freak you out but I haven't been the same since all that you know it's just so hard to understand why people do some things they do. thank you so much for reaching out to me I'm very lonely and I appreciate it
Debbie Stanford I'm so sorry this happened to you .time will heal I'm here anytime you need to talk I've been thru hell and back in my life and there's always hope never give up
Depression is something that so many people suffered from it. Sometimes for no specific reason. We need to reach out to others and get help.....I am glad I listen to your story.....be blessed......MINDY
I hope you do see that someone writes a comment in an older video. I was reading some of the comments and I totally agree to stay on them, you feel better because it's working and it's working because you using them. Seems odd that a psychiatrist would have you go off and on them, that of itself can make you feel worse.. My thoughts and prayers for you.
I know what you mean , for years and years , and yes all the signs are right . And yes people don't see it , it's just one those things "you don't look sick" , I know the feeling . Try and be strong x
It is a tough affliction, but thank you Nisha for sharing with those of us who understand because we also have depression. (I am sure there are those that don’t have depression, but are involved in one way or another.)
Thank you so much for sharing your story.. I have yet to see part II.. but I felt like I was hearing my life story.. We share so many things in common. I have struggle with Depression for the early part of my 20's, and now at 44, finally, got it treated... I am so happy that you shared your story.. because, believe me, you are helping many people out! Hugs, Laura
Hi Nisha!!! Love your channel..you are beautiful inside and out!!!! I too have lived with anxiety and depression and went off of antidepressants in 2013 after being on them for a while. I am going to start them again and am kind of freaking out about the weight gain and the libido issue. I am also on hrt and a huge fan of Meno barbie!! Just had a one on one consult with her yesterday!! But this constant worrying and obsessing is getting too much for me to handle. And not sleeping well on top of that. I have a very supportive man in my life he just wants me to feel good!! But i worry about the bedroom issue some...Oh that worrying is awful. This last year has been crazy with life issues and alot of stress!!! I think that has what brought me back to this. Are you still on your antidepressants? How do you deal with the weight gain issue? I eat well and my weight is the best it has been in a long time. Thank you for being so honest about your journey. Sincerely Jennifer
Hi Jennifer, isn't getting older and dealing with depression at the same time a real pain. I am still on antidepressants and don't ever plan on coming off of them. I never put weight on due to them or my HRT. When it comes to low libido, I am on testosterone gel which helps. I don't know if you watch my channel regularly because I talked a lot about those issues. The video you are commenting on is very old. If you are subscribed to my channel, please make sure you click on the bell next to the subscription button, so you get notified every time I upload a new video. I am going to make another video on depression very soon. Take care xoxoNisha
Nisha, I see the pain in your face...and I feel it too. My first depression also occurred 2-4 months after the birth of my first child at 23. I'm 58 years old now and have never been able to come off antidepressants though some of them helped me become well for pretty long periods. I worked in the medical profession all my life but 4 yrs ago I lost my career and have had to go on permanent disability. Obviously our lives changed drastically for the worse.Now I have what they call treatment resistant major depression and have tried ECT for two years, a total of 37 times.Lately I've been pretty good (on 3 meds) but the past 2-3 days I'm depressed and can hardly can get out of bed. I guess I just needed to listen to someone who goes thru the same thing. It hurts so much. I hope you are much better.
Thank you so much for showing your true self and your story who I know doubt know many many others out there suffering with this despicable ailment. I too experienced post natal depression when I had my daughter but I also got a pro lapsed disc in my back which was double harder. Not only had I the postnatal depression now I had this back thing to deal with, and I couldn't look after my baby. Yes unfortunately there is a stigma around depression, however no one can really judge those you go through it unless they have walked those shoes themselves. I look forward to watching the second part of your video. Oh by the way I have just stumbled over your channel because I wanted to see how you covered eye bags lol. What nationality are you. :-)
Hello... I am so so glad you posted this video... I suffer also... It is diffficult for people who aren't depressive to understand us... you bring light to many women watching this... some who maybe are suffering but now can realize it, also for women who don't , maybe they can now understand their friends... stay on the meds that keep you up...
Dear Nisha you are very brave and open I like that. I'm the same. I didn't struggle with depression but when taking the pil I had many blue days. I stopped taking it. I went on a diet and lost 15 kg. I'm very proud. And I'm so happy I discovered your videos 'cause I also have hooded eyes. Thank you 😘😘😘
Nisha, I understand so well about depression. During an abusive marriage where all my teeth were knocked out, he then sexually abused my daughter who was 7 at the time. I would take a lot but when I found this out I called the police. I was at the point by that time that I felt worthless. You could say I was a shell because everything inside me had been beaten out. The end of that situation was in 1994 but to this day I still have days where I feel worthless and blame myself for the evil that touched my child. Every time I look in the mirror I know I have false teeth and remember the pain. I am on and off of meds all the time and at this time I am trying to stop smoking for what seems like the millionth time. Weight, OMG I am at the highest I have been ever at 190 when I was always 120. Right now I hate myself but try and keep fighting on. Always remember you are not alone, that keeps me going. We must stand strong and share what we deal with to help others. Love to you my friend xoxoxo
Nisha Thank You so much for sharing your truth and how your trying to deal with your depression.You don't realize how you sharing and being honest really helps all of us who struggle with this disorder.Thank You,Jackie
You are a warrior woman from America!!! I have a large family they thought seeking help was weak, most of them aren't with me anymore. I sought counseling and medication. I am leading a much better life. You are helping many, many, thousands of people. Look how Prince Harry, Duchess Catharine, Prince William and now Meghan are tackling this horrible disease. I have been on meds. for many years now. Are you going thru menopause? My mother used to talk of horrible headaches going thru "the change".
This is such a good raw. very open description of depression Nisha! I have gone back tsee some of your videos I have never seen before and you hit the nail right on the head with symptoms and that its nobodys fault it's not something to snap out of people are worse off than you...comment being bad for depressed people. Well done! I am off to watch part two.
Ive suffered all my life with it god its awful i have had to go on antidepressents and feel brighter before i didn't want to get out of bed so fatigued and down. Think menopause has made it worse
Thank you sooooooo much for sharing about your depression,it IS a hard topic to discuss and I was amazed at the similarities of your depression and mine. As a nurse you think I would know better than to stop taking my medication but that was not the case! It is so very common for people to stop taking their depression meds once they start feeling better and its the worst thing you can do b/c there's a reason you feel better and its the medication!! I KNOW this isn't the case for everyone of course but for people like us who suffer with chronic depression staying with what works is vital! I am also very disappointed in family doctors in regards to treating depression but I think they just aren't as educated in that area therefore don't understand it or quite how to treat it long term. Another thing they don't understand is how hard it is to even get out of bed some days let alone go see a psychiatrist on as regular basis that as you mentioned are not always available. I could go on for days about this lol!! I just wanted you to know it DOES get better and that your videos have helped me find my passion and love of all things make-up! It is so nice having a passion and interest in life and wanting to feel beautiful again! Thank you for sharing your life and love of all things beautiful:) Sincerely, A kindred spirit, Jennifer
Thank you Nisha for sharing your story with us. You are human like all of us. More people who are going through hard times can look at talking with others as well. Sending hugs.
Silvia, I truly believe in a higher power, and that God is watching over me, but all the prayer in the world didn't help me when I was suffering the worst dealing with depression, agoraphobia, and anxiety attacks on top of menopause. Chemically I was really off so meds helped, but getting the right help through therapy was what I needed. At many points, I honestly felt that God had abandoned me as a loving God would not make my life this painful and sad.
Oh. My. Gosh. My anxiety/depression began right after my baby girl was born in 1988. I hear you saying the same thing that happened to me. I came home from a hair appointment and my friend had stopped by with her mother to see our new baby. I walked in and they were holding my daughter. I was so rude to them. I walked over and took my daughter away. I made it so uncomfortable for them, that they just left. I have been on Citalopram for years and I never want to go off of it. When I asked my doctor if I could, she said "why?" Why would you want to.
Hi Nisha, thank you so much for this video, very helpful. Funny though, I too first got my depression after the birth of my first son who's now 14. Obviously the docs at the time said it was post natal, but every since then, whenever I go through a stressful event in my life, I get the same symptons and I now when it's coming on. Very similiar to yours, do you feel exhausted too? I hate it, and want to stay in bed for ever. Horrible illness, but it's so good to hear others who suffer the same x
oh Nisha I do hope you feel better soon. I watch you alot and your lovely funny clever and very open with us all. you don't deserve to be depressed nor does anyone! thankyou for sharing your story it made me cry!!! all my love hugs and thoughts are with you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I really and truly hope you're doing better these days. I see this is an older video. But I have heard it said that those who bring so much happiness to others cannot keep it from themselves. That's not to belittle depressing. In understand it all to well. It's just to say it saddens me to know that someone who makes others happy is not happy herself. I'm praying you fell joy in your life now.
You are so unpretentious( did I spell that right)so real and genuine.,..I thank God for you...do you talk to Jesus about this issue.? I am on 20 mg. of Celexa every day,..have been for many years,..I do not struggle with depression,..and I am going through menopause.
Hi Nisha. I suffer from MS and depression is one of the symptoms. I have been on many anti depressants. I hate to say it but paleo eating has helped me immensely! Anti inflammatory foods work! I have been eating this way for over a year and I will never go back to processed foods. Our ancestors were a lot healthier....because they had clean food. I love watching you!! PS I was on antidepressants for almost 20 years and now nothing!! xo
Oh thank you sweetie. Shame about your husband , but some men are not very good at all that feelings stuff , that doesn't mean he doesn't care love Nisha
The worst thing is when people say " just snap out of it " or " pull yourself together " GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Ohhh Nisha you described everything perfectly. A huge big hug to you for being so open about this.
Nisha, thank you very much for sharing your story. Depression is so hard to understand unless you have experienced it. your comments are so true. We all love your honesty and bravery. I suffer from depression like so many others and understand some people just do not feel comfortable sharing. The more who do share, the more understanding there will be. xoxo
Thank you so much xoxoNisha
I had depression for years before I got help and it was horrible. You are right about people saying, what have you got to be depressed about, there are so many people that have bad things going on in their lives but the thing is, because someone else is feeling pain doesn't make our pain any less. It is something you can't help and you can't control and just make it go away. I so understand everything you are saying and you're so brave to let people know that anyone can have depression but there is help out there.
I'm glad I watched this, I suffer from depression and the anxiety is awful.xx
SR2ify Rhodiola herbal tablets. Holland & Barrat. Xxxx
I have had depression and anxiety my entire life. I was diagnosed when I was 10 years old, but did not start taking medication until I was in my late 20s. I am 46 now and have tried many times to stop relying on the medication, but not possible. I also had post-partum depression when I had my one and only daughter, but thankfully, I did not disconnect from my child. My daughter's * father * abandoned us after she was a couple of months old. He moved to another state and has been completely absent in every way, no child support, etc. Now she is 9 years old. So in addition to having depression and anxiety, dealing with being a single mom working full-time, with struggling in so many ways. I have endured countless hardships as well. Thank you for sharing your story. * Love + Blessings to You *
I'm not sure you'll ever see this since it's such an old video of yours but I happened on it tonight after watching your latest video and I'm gobsmacked! So much of what you've said here resonated with me. The depression, the shopping for that temporary high, the feelings of isolation when you're feeling so low. It seems to me I've been fighting depression much of my life. I think the first time I felt it was when I was six and my beloved uncle died. I'm going through a huge metamorphosis these days and I truly believe "accidentally" finding this tonight is an important part of my journey. Thanks!
You are both brave and inspiring to share your story. And by doing so you are helping others who deal with this debilitating condition. No one can understand the pain of living with this day-to-day unless they have experienced it. It can, and does, change your entire personality and you can go from being happy and social to that of a hermit. The best thing we can do is reach out to those who love us so we have a good support system in place. Those we trust to and those who can can help us see the blind spots in our behavior we may have missed. There is a lot of trial and error in the medication route so it's critical to find a good doctor who will work with you. You are not on an easy path. Bless you for sharing and reaching out to others. ❤️ thank you Nisha. I, too, battle this and every day I learn new ways to beat it.
Good lord! For the past 10 years I have been depressed off and on and didn't even know it. Your discussions have totally lifted my heart. How can I ever thank you? I wanted to see what other women were doing on here as "how to" for women who are getting older. I have a heavy background in beauty, health, and anthropology so I think I may have some things (not competing with you but enhancing and crediting you) on RUclips. And, I never expected to come across this. what I'm most shocked with is finding out that anti-depressants masks symptoms, they don't cure them. Wow!
You are the only woman I have been watching on here and believe me when I say that's a real compliment. I rarely find new products or learn new things & here I am, learning from someone ultra special.
Thank you so very much for all you do for women. I hope I can be half as informative as you. I know you have touched more lives than you think. I didn't know how to even leave a message until I pressed on everything and lost you several times. I'm very glad our paths have crossed and I believe they will again.
Thanks for all you have given the world. Keep up the good work!
Thank you so much for your sweet message, I am glad that you are enjoying my videos. xoxoNisha
Nisha, you are a very unique, are entertaining, and are the wittiest. Best of all, you are genuine and by sharing your life you help us in every way! I pray God rewards you with every happiness and all of your dreams come true! Thanks again!
I just saw the title of your video. I will be watching tonight but wanted to get this off to you right away. You are so encouraging just to see that someone who has depression is brave enough to share about it. I too have depression and have since I was in Kindergarten I believe. It has impacted my life in horrible ways. But the GOOD news is that with the right treatment there is hope for all of us to feel better and be productive and feeling good. I will share my story with you another time. But for now, just be really kind to yourself and remember it is your brain that is not firing properly and it can be made to be healthy again.
You are NOT alone. Give yourself what YOU need.
Gail
USA
Thank you xoxoNisha
Sorry you are suffering from depression but we are not the only ones and talking about it helps. I am glad that your husband is understanding- it is important.
xoxo Nisha
What an honest talk on this topic.Thanks for being so open about this.I'm sure you helped not one,but hundreds of women in this situation. Your an angel
Nisha, you are so brave to share your story with us, thank you! I too struggle with depression and understand the rollercoaster ride of depression and anxiety. I hope you have more good days than bad, you're such a sweetheart and seem to be beautiful inside and out. thank you again for sharing and for all the hard work you do for us to enjoy your videos.
+chriswyf2011 Thank you, that is an old video, I am very well thank you and I am currently slowly coming off of them, we will see how it goes xoxoNisha
I, too, want to thank you, Nisha, for sharing your experience. I know now that I've experienced several depressive episodes in my life, but this last one, after I lost my parents, hit me hardest and literally shut me down. I've just come off almost 3 years of being on disability as the depression got so bad that I couldn't work, leave my house for days at a time, or deal with people. I'm now back at work, and on antidepressants, but cognitive behavioral therapy was what really worked for me.
Depression, menopause, and a needy family drains the life out of you!
I don't tend to run depressed.
Since menopause Some days wake up feel sad.
Don't understand it. thanks Jennifer
The truth is, being a woman is hard. If you don't meet Mr right and don't marry and don't have a family, you also get depressed because you feel like you're a failure. There's no way to win this battle
Hi Nisha I have depression too I have done for years. I'm also on medication. I really do think it is an invisible illness. I have so many people say to me, "you don't look depressed"
But Nisha,how are we supposed to look.
Listening to your story of how yours start after having your baby boy. I can totally relate to this as the same thing happened to me and yes you do feel incredibly guilty. The smoking story, my god, this sounds like me. I'm in a terrible vicious circle. My daughter is now 27 and I'm still depressed and still on medication.
I've also become addicted to internet shopping because I don't want to go out.
There is no reason or rhyme to my depression, I can't stop it, I have to just roll with it.
I really don't know how I found you on RUclips but my god I'm so thankful that I did.
Your makeup tutorials I love. They pick me up. I stopped wearing makeup 10 years ago because of my depression, I just couldn't be bothered to put it on.
One day I might start wearing it again but I'm nearly 50 in October!
So for now I am buying makeup and storing it. Xx
I know how you feel I have been dealing with depression for 43 years. I have one coming on starting two days ago I am in the tearing stage now I hope this one get over fast. Thank you for sharing it helps to know others feel this way.
I have suffered from depression for 20 years. I do take meds but at times that doesn’t work. I have been working for a psychiatrist all my career. I didn’t recognize it even being in the field. I have had several med changes over the years. No one ever knew except my boss. I finally explained to my family and to this day it’s why are you depressed. What’s to be depressed about.
OMGosh, I do the same exact thing and I know exactly how you feel!! It is so frustrating to feel so down. I have had to go on medication also so I am doing much better now. Thank you for talking about this problem!! So many of us suffer in silence not wanting anyone to know but we should be able to talk about it and not be afraid of judgement by others. ❤
I feel your pain I'm 43 and been through alot there's a light at the end of the tunnel .keep fighting
I have backtracked to this first set from the recent video you posted a few days ago. I had NO idea you suffered as well. I greatly enjoy your videos and you are the only RUclips page I've mentioned to my husband, and in fact it was just this last night! I cried watching this video because you spoke for me. I have never smoked but I'd always bounce around new hobbies that were always short term and unfinished. The shopping is going on currently, by bouncing from miniatures to now beauty products. I've steadily gained weight over this last year and now 40-50 pounds over weight. I have no clothes that fit any longer and I'm borrowing my husband large tshirts that he doesn't wear as he they are too large for him. I feel horrible. Thank you for this video. I did share this to my husbands Facebook messenger do he can see it. I'm hoping he'll get a better understanding of what is going on with me.
Thank you for your video this hit home for me I've always been slightly depressed but hit menopause I'm now almost 51 and wham! Big time depression and anxiety ! Thank you for letting us know we are not alone !
Thank you Nisha -you are a beacon in the lives of many woman! ! Stigmas should not exist but sadly they do amongst those that do not understand causing others to feel they are perceived as weak and "less than". Terrible, because those that suffer from depression do not have a control over it in that , it is not something that can be willed away any more than kidney disease or heart disease. Thank you for your openess, caring and sharing. You are a beautiful, fun, intelligent individual whom I very much enjoy watching on RUclips! ! take care!
You are so brave! You inspire me :-) I suffer with depression as well due to degenerative brain disease. Your videos bring me a lot of happiness and make me feel beautiful - finally! Keep on keeping on my girl!
Jennifer DeWald,- Kia kaha (stay strong) dear xoxo
I can relate with every single thing you said. Good for you , you have loving husband. My husband doesn't want to see, hear, me talking about my feelings, my depression. Love you !
Ive been like it for years.......
Just found your RUclips and I am ADDICTED... I love it..........My Dad is from Hungary, pretty close to Poland...
Thank you so much xoxoNisha
awwh Nisha ....like you I have struggled for years and everything you said is so true . like you I am on citalopram and have been for 3 1/2 years. my doctor is happy to keep me on it indefinitely. thanks for sharing your story .....you are not alone xx
Thank you so much xoxoNisha
I am so sorry that you had such bad time with it , it is crippling illness , I am so lucky that i have a understanding family because so many people don't get it.
Look after yourself
love Nisha xxx
Nisha, I thank you so much for this video.. I knew I related well to you..I too suffer from depression.. I think my children think Im crazy..But, I remember the bad moods, and snapping.. I got so sick I was literally shacking.. It's a very hard thing for some people to understand, especially when you look fine on the outside..
Thank you so much. Shame about your husband but we depressed people do need a lot of support and understanding. I am sure that we are not very easy to live with when we at our lowest.
Hope you are well
love Nisha
I'm glad you brought up exercise. It is the only healthy cure for my anxiety. I'm sure people use cigarettes, alcohol, and shopping to get that same "boost." Good for you sharing your story!
I have just found your videos and wish you well. I am also a sufferer of depression and anxiety and just started to reduce my meds. I love your positive attitudes and your great makeup/style videos. Thanks and good wishes xx
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I also suffer with depression and your story is so similar to mine. I quit smoking 2 years ago and as crazy as it sounds I felt like my best friend died when I quit smoking. I can't take antidepressants because they make my TMJ worse so needless to say I am still on the journey to happiness,
Thank you for sharing such a private thing.
Thank you so much for sharing your story in an honest and frank way. Many of us have experienced the same thing and usually end up keeping it all to ourselves. It's very refreshing to hear your experiences. Love all your videos about makeup and wigs too...i am learning such a lot!! 💕
I have had depression all my life, make-up is a great diversion, I use it to relax. It's great you are sharing, keep taking the tablets, don't come off them, accept you need help to raise your serotonin levels. Sending you love and hugs 🌟🎈💖
You are what courage looks like❣
Gail Whisby. Perfectly said. ❤️
Congratulations on your courage Nisha to sit and talk about your pain! Keep up the good work and look to the universe for support and love. You can do it! Love and best wishes!
Thank you for sharing your story with us. Everything you said made so much sense to me. You have a gift for sharing in a clear, honest way that can reach people. I hope things are going well for you at this time.
Nisha just found this x.. going to watch part 2 right now x. Take care everyone 😉
You are not alone. I've lived with depression and anxiety all of my (almost) 52 years. God gets me through each day and He will do the same for you my beautiful friend :)
deperssion is such a huge part of our life- this runs in my famly!- i remember picking up my mother telling her when i was 5 it will be OK then there was my grandmother- this is a wonderful video THERE is no controlling it- no snapping out it- it takes over- much love from me-- x shelly
Thank you , I am feeling much better now i am back on the drugs . Look after yourself
love Nisha xxx
Congratulations on this wonderful and honest video. Sometimes the only good that comes from suffering Depression is developing more empathy and a keener desire to help others who are also suffering. As we both know, the "not knowing " is so frightening. Our journeys are very similar. I quit smoking over six years ago but will never, ever part with my antidepressants (after 15 years).
I can relate to everything you said. Thank you for sharing and being so very open with what you're going through. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. :)
I love this video. So many truths, my truths. Thank you for sharing. Aloha!
Bless you Linda , there is nothing wrong with taking them. I have just been to see my doctor and she said that i might have to stay on them for life and i said "GREAT"!!! because now i can enjoy my life and she said that there is nothing wrong with taking the meds all the time.Look after yourself xxxx Nisha
You are a lovely and refreshing kind of lady. I like your videos so much.
Thank you so much xoxoNisha
Thank you Nisha. It's good to know I'm not alone...
Your videos are absolutely wonderful and this one is amazing! Thank you for sharing your story it means more than u will ever know! Your beautiful and stay strong xo
+Jen Boudreau Thank you xoxo Nisha
Hi Nisha thank you for sharing your story. I recently tried to come off of my antidepressants but had to start taking them again. I realized that it's ok to take medication so I can feel my best and take care of my family.
I've only recently found your videos and enjoy them! I face the same issues. I see you said that you're coming off your antidepressants and I'd like to encourage you to not do that. People tend to feel better and they no longer need the meds. Unfortunately that means you need to be on them. I've been on the same cycle for years and eventually learned that I MUST stay on them. I've been faithful in the regime for years and there's nothing magic that makes it better overnight. Perhaps you need to find a doc that SPECIALIZES in this sort of situation. Perhaps I read what you said incorrectly but it's worst to go on and off the medications! Exercise and many things can help but you have to get a baseline to support the med therapy but unfortunately it's not short term..long process but worth it. After a long time I found out I'm bipolar..nuts as my family puts it..people don't understand how hurtful those comments are. It's horrible dealing with these issues and you have a lot of support in the RUclips community. Please please don't give up on the meds just yet!
Janet Johnson I totally agree mist people I know that get off there meds have to go right back on them I think of my meds as vitamins for my brain .I won't let my mental illness define me .I have bpd too and it's very difficult to treat but I take it day by day .stay strong girls
Yes very true all you have wrote about the subject
SugarPuffAndFluff thank you for uploading this I just came accross your channel I was trying to find older make up tutorials for huded eyes and I found you, I think you are great. I suffer from deppresion all my life, in 2012 I had and anyrism and that made it worst now I think I will be on intidepresent for the rest of my life because of it. Thank you for sharing your story with us all your new follower Maria
Thank you for sharing your story. I also suffer from depression...BTW Your makeup looks amazing!
I cried watching this , I hope you are well xx
Oh thank you Jackie , i am glad that i can help.
love Nisha
Thank you for sharing your story. I can certainly empathize. Been there.... Hugs.
I've only just found your channel, the way you are describing your depression is just how I'm feeling. I've been to the doctor who has stated I'm perimenopausal but I've felt like the way you've been describing some of your feelings for well over 20 years !!! thank you for being so open its made me realise I'm not weird or strange and I can now start to fix it xx
Thank u so much for this, I suffer from bad depression an I feel nobody understands, I lost my husband 4 years ago an I just can't find myself anymore, I started watching u two days ago an it's really helped, thanks so much:)
im sorry. i too feel lost after a horrid divorce. us girls need to stick together.
Debbie Stanford it will get better please believe me I've been thru hell and back and I'm still standing
Leighann Mcgowan i guess just time, then after mths of being a puddle on the floor in our new house alone. my son introduce me to his boss and we hit it off like crazy he wanted to get married I didn't had took my guns away from me and he walked in there one day and just shot his self in the head while I was cooking supper right in front of my face. Don't mean to freak you out but I haven't been the same since all that you know it's just so hard to understand why people do some things they do. thank you so much for reaching out to me I'm very lonely and I appreciate it
Debbie Stanford I'm so sorry this happened to you .time will heal I'm here anytime you need to talk I've been thru hell and back in my life and there's always hope never give up
Leighann Mcgowan thank u, something keeps me moving r not:(
Depression is something that so many people suffered from it. Sometimes for no specific reason. We need to reach out to others and get help.....I am glad I listen to your story.....be blessed......MINDY
Thank you so much xoxo Nisha
I hope you do see that someone writes a comment in an older video. I was reading some of the comments and I totally agree to stay on them, you feel better because it's working and it's working because you using them. Seems odd that a psychiatrist would have you go off and on them, that of itself can make you feel worse.. My thoughts and prayers for you.
You are an amazing lovely lady. Thanks so much for sharing x
Thank you so much for this video. I love that you had the courage to talk about depression. Thank you Cheryl
Thank you and i hope you are doing ok. xxxxx
I admire you so much. It's not an easy thing to do to show all of yourself especially online. Thank you and I wish you well.
Thank you so much xoxoNisha
Thank you xxxx
I know what you mean , for years and years , and yes all the signs are right . And yes people don't see it , it's just one those things "you don't look sick" , I know the feeling . Try and be strong x
It is a tough affliction, but thank you Nisha for sharing with those of us who understand because we also have depression. (I am sure there are those that don’t have depression, but are involved in one way or another.)
I relate completely. Thank you for sharing this.
Thank you so much for sharing your story.. I have yet to see part II.. but I felt like I was hearing my life story.. We share so many things in common. I have struggle with Depression for the early part of my 20's, and now at 44, finally, got it treated... I am so happy that you shared your story.. because, believe me, you are helping many people out! Hugs, Laura
Hi Nisha!!! Love your channel..you are beautiful inside and out!!!! I too have lived with anxiety and depression and went off of antidepressants in 2013 after being on them for a while. I am going to start them again and am kind of freaking out about the weight gain and the libido issue. I am also on hrt and a huge fan of Meno barbie!! Just had a one on one consult with her yesterday!! But this constant worrying and obsessing is getting too much for me to handle. And not sleeping well on top of that. I have a very supportive man in my life he just wants me to feel good!! But i worry about the bedroom issue some...Oh that worrying is awful. This last year has been crazy with life issues and alot of stress!!! I think that has what brought me back to this. Are you still on your antidepressants? How do you deal with the weight gain issue? I eat well and my weight is the best it has been in a long time.
Thank you for being so honest about your journey.
Sincerely Jennifer
Hi Jennifer, isn't getting older and dealing with depression at the same time a real pain. I am still on antidepressants and don't ever plan on coming off of them. I never put weight on due to them or my HRT. When it comes to low libido, I am on testosterone gel which helps. I don't know if you watch my channel regularly because I talked a lot about those issues. The video you are commenting on is very old. If you are subscribed to my channel, please make sure you click on the bell next to the subscription button, so you get notified every time I upload a new video. I am going to make another video on depression very soon. Take care xoxoNisha
Thank you so much!!!!
Nisha, I see the pain in your face...and I feel it too. My first depression also occurred 2-4 months after the birth of my first child at 23. I'm 58 years old now and have never been able to come off antidepressants though some of them helped me become well for pretty long periods. I worked in the medical profession all my life but 4 yrs ago I lost my career and have had to go on permanent disability. Obviously our lives changed drastically for the worse.Now I have what they call treatment resistant major depression and have tried ECT for two years, a total of 37 times.Lately I've been pretty good (on 3 meds) but the past 2-3 days I'm depressed and can hardly can get out of bed. I guess I just needed to listen to someone who goes thru the same thing. It hurts so much. I hope you are much better.
Thank you so much for showing your true self and your story who I know doubt know many many others out there suffering with this despicable ailment. I too experienced post natal depression when I had my daughter but I also got a pro lapsed disc in my back which was double harder. Not only had I the postnatal depression now I had this back thing to deal with, and I couldn't look after my baby. Yes unfortunately there is a stigma around depression, however no one can really judge those you go through it unless they have walked those shoes themselves. I look forward to watching the second part of your video. Oh by the way I have just stumbled over your channel because I wanted to see how you covered eye bags lol. What nationality are you. :-)
Hello... I am so so glad you posted this video... I suffer also... It is diffficult for people who aren't depressive to understand us... you bring light to many women watching this... some who maybe are suffering but now can realize it, also for women who don't , maybe they can now understand their friends... stay on the meds that keep you up...
Just watched. Wow you've helped me. Thanks 👍🙏
Dear Nisha you are very brave and open I like that. I'm the same. I didn't struggle with depression but when taking the pil I had many blue days. I stopped taking it. I went on a diet and lost 15 kg. I'm very proud. And I'm so happy I discovered your videos 'cause I also have hooded eyes. Thank you 😘😘😘
Nisha, I understand so well about depression. During an abusive marriage where all my teeth were knocked out, he then sexually abused my daughter who was 7 at the time. I would take a lot but when I found this out I called the police. I was at the point by that time that I felt worthless. You could say I was a shell because everything inside me had been beaten out. The end of that situation was in 1994 but to this day I still have days where I feel worthless and blame myself for the evil that touched my child. Every time I look in the mirror I know I have false teeth and remember the pain. I am on and off of meds all the time and at this time I am trying to stop smoking for what seems like the millionth time. Weight, OMG I am at the highest I have been ever at 190 when I was always 120. Right now I hate myself but try and keep fighting on. Always remember you are not alone, that keeps me going. We must stand strong and share what we deal with to help others. Love to you my friend xoxoxo
I can so relate I just lost my mother and got really sick afterward Keep up the GOOD work!
Nisha Thank You so much for sharing your truth and how your trying to deal with your depression.You don't realize how you sharing and being honest really helps all of us who struggle with this disorder.Thank You,Jackie
You are a warrior woman from America!!! I have a large family they thought seeking help was weak, most of them aren't with me anymore. I sought counseling and medication. I am leading a much better life. You are helping many, many, thousands of people. Look how Prince Harry, Duchess Catharine, Prince William and now Meghan are tackling this horrible disease. I have been on meds. for many years now. Are you going thru menopause? My mother used to talk of horrible headaches going thru "the change".
This is such a good raw. very open description of depression Nisha! I have gone back tsee some of your videos I have never seen before and you hit the nail right on the head with symptoms and that its nobodys fault it's not something to snap out of people are worse off than you...comment being bad for depressed people. Well done! I am off to watch part two.
Ive suffered all my life with it god its awful i have had to go on antidepressents and feel brighter before i didn't want to get out of bed so fatigued and down. Think menopause has made it worse
Well said. 👏🏼👏🏼 I also have depression/anxiety
Thank you sooooooo much for sharing about your depression,it IS a hard topic to discuss and I was amazed at the similarities of your depression and mine. As a nurse you think I would know better than to stop taking my medication but that was not the case! It is so very common for people to stop taking their depression meds once they start feeling better and its the worst thing you can do b/c there's a reason you feel better and its the medication!! I KNOW this isn't the case for everyone of course but for people like us who suffer with chronic depression staying with what works is vital! I am also very disappointed in family doctors in regards to treating depression but I think they just aren't as educated in that area therefore don't understand it or quite how to treat it long term. Another thing they don't understand is how hard it is to even get out of bed some days let alone go see a psychiatrist on as regular basis that as you mentioned are not always available. I could go on for days about this lol!! I just wanted you to know it DOES get better and that your videos have helped me find my passion and love of all things make-up! It is so nice having a passion and interest in life and wanting to feel beautiful again! Thank you for sharing your life and love of all things beautiful:)
Sincerely,
A kindred spirit,
Jennifer
Jennifer Wines Thank you Jennifer I am so happy that my videos bring you a little bit of happiness
xoxoNisha
They do and I watch them all of the time:) its like having a friend abroad which just sounds cool!! LoL
Vitamin B12 deficiency makes people be in a depression state. Vitamin B12 is so important for the human body!!!
Thank you Nisha for sharing your story with us. You are human like all of us. More people who are going through hard times can look at talking with others as well. Sending hugs.
Silvia, I truly believe in a higher power, and that God is watching over me, but all the prayer in the world didn't help me when I was suffering the worst dealing with depression, agoraphobia, and anxiety attacks on top of menopause. Chemically I was really off so meds helped, but getting the right help through therapy was what I needed. At many points, I honestly felt that God had abandoned me as a loving God would not make my life this painful and sad.
Yes please read it , I found it very helpful
Oh. My. Gosh. My anxiety/depression began right after my baby girl was born in 1988. I hear you saying the same thing that happened to me. I came home from a hair appointment and my friend had stopped by with her mother to see our new baby. I walked in and they were holding my daughter. I was so rude to them. I walked over and took my daughter away. I made it so uncomfortable for them, that they just left. I have been on Citalopram for years and I never want to go off of it. When I asked my doctor if I could, she said "why?" Why would you want to.
Aw i am sorry to hear that. I hope you are doing OK.
love NISHA xx
Hi Nisha, thank you so much for this video, very helpful. Funny though, I too first got my depression after the birth of my first son who's now 14. Obviously the docs at the time said it was post natal, but every since then, whenever I go through a stressful event in my life, I get the same symptons and I now when it's coming on. Very similiar to yours, do you feel exhausted too? I hate it, and want to stay in bed for ever. Horrible illness, but it's so good to hear others who suffer the same x
oh Nisha I do hope you feel better soon. I watch you alot and your lovely funny clever and very open with us all. you don't deserve to be depressed nor does anyone! thankyou for sharing your story it made me cry!!! all my love hugs and thoughts are with you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Thank you Laura , I am just affraid that I will have to be on meds for the rest of my life and i am not sure how i feel about that...
love Nisha xx
I really and truly hope you're doing better these days. I see this is an older video. But I have heard it said that those who bring so much happiness to others cannot keep it from themselves. That's not to belittle depressing. In understand it all to well. It's just to say it saddens me to know that someone who makes others happy is not happy herself. I'm praying you fell joy in your life now.
+Salliekins Thank you so much, I am very well and I have actually started to come off my antidepressants so we will see how I go xoxoNisha
You are so unpretentious( did I spell that right)so real and genuine.,..I thank God for you...do you talk to Jesus about this issue.? I am on 20 mg. of Celexa every day,..have been for many years,..I do not struggle with depression,..and I am going through menopause.
Hi Nisha. I suffer from MS and depression is one of the symptoms. I have been on many anti depressants. I hate to say it but paleo eating has helped me immensely! Anti inflammatory foods work! I have been eating this way for over a year and I will never go back to processed foods. Our ancestors were a lot healthier....because they had clean food.
I love watching you!! PS I was on antidepressants for almost 20 years and now nothing!! xo
Thank you for sharing ❤
Thanks honey xxx
Oh thank you sweetie. Shame about your husband , but some men are not very good at all that feelings stuff , that doesn't mean he doesn't care
love Nisha
Thank you Shelly