As a kid I loved building tree-houses, making brooms out of pine needles, and drum kits out of bowls and pans. I also loved all my mums makeup, powders, creams, etc. - not to wear but to make a potion out of. I would also dunk felt tip pens into cups of water, colouring it green or blue and imagine I was drinking some kind of exotic elixir. Barbie dolls were only fun to pull apart and put back together. I was often called bossy and talkative. I feel like no one would ever call me that now.
I grew up with narcissistic abusive parents so the only time I was let outside was to go to school, I think even though I'm an istp I haven't done I can't seem to reach my full potential because of the trauma that was inflicted on me by them. Even though I live in my own house now I constantly feel a sense of " oh god, they're going to come in and berate me for whatever I'm doing". I'm 32 and I don't think I can do another 30 years of this.
As a kid I loved building tree-houses, making brooms out of pine needles, and drum kits out of bowls and pans. I also loved all my mums makeup, powders, creams, etc. - not to wear but to make a potion out of. I would also dunk felt tip pens into cups of water, colouring it green or blue and imagine I was drinking some kind of exotic elixir. Barbie dolls were only fun to pull apart and put back together.
I was often called bossy and talkative. I feel like no one would ever call me that now.
I grew up with narcissistic abusive parents so the only time I was let outside was to go to school, I think even though I'm an istp I haven't done I can't seem to reach my full potential because of the trauma that was inflicted on me by them. Even though I live in my own house now I constantly feel a sense of " oh god, they're going to come in and berate me for whatever I'm doing". I'm 32 and I don't think I can do another 30 years of this.
So sorry you're carrying this weight! You deserve peace and happiness as you move forward.
@StudentSuccessSpacecom thank you 😞