I Challenged My Eating Disorder For 60 Days
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- Опубликовано: 3 окт 2024
- "Every moment that you have free of your eating disordered thoughts... that's progress."
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If you are a parent. Learn a lesson from her parents. Being present and supportive when someone is struggling is so helpful. If you are the person struggling, you aren't alone and you are stronger than this
yes but.. saying “that’s a big bowl of ____” is so so damaging.. that’s coming from someone who used to have a binge disorder that turned into anorexia.
When I was younger I was not as good at hiding my purging sessions and one day my mom made a joke when I finished eating. Laughed at me and said “what? Are you going to go throw that up?” It really hurt my feelings and so I never opened up to my parents because of feelings of shame. My moms always been a bitter and angry person and understanding mental illness never a priority for her. Very black and white.
@@Artemis_jay I'm so sorry, that is so hurtful!
I really wish if my parents could really talk to me rather than blaming me for eating less ! I can't help it btw I have avoidant or restrictive food Intake disorder
ARFID !
@@Artemis_jay I understand that and i’m sorry :(
My brothers and mom used to (and sometimes still do) mock me for purging constantly.. Gesturing sticking their hands down their throats, making references to it whenever i’m eating, etc. I hope you’re doing okay 🖤.
she's so self aware of the fact that binging is a coping mechanism to mask the real issues. so proud of her! and thank you for being vulnerable for us
It’s like she was talking to me the whole time. It felt like i was talking to a friend. 💕
I agree💖💖💖
i’m very proud of her for being so brave to talk about it and battle it, ur doing amazing, keep it up ❤️
Same! She’s amazing and so brave for doing this.
thank you so much ❤️
@@arianaginspired wait are you mei?? i’m so proud of you 🤍💞
@@jennie7810 i am :) thank you so much!
@@arianaginspired your welcome!!
ok. to most people, this video will look like someone overcoming and starting to recover from an eating disorder and maybe not like a lot. but if you’ve ever been through one, no matter what it is... this is HARD. it’s not just rethinking your body image, it’s so so much and trying to resist purging, binging or starving is really hard. hope you’re doing ok and well done for the progress!
Thank you for your comment! As someone who has struggled with this, I can confirm that you are absolutely right.
food isn't a "deserve" thing -- it's a "need" thing... but then the eating disorder is like: yeah, for people that matter, soooo
For so long I’ve literally convinced myself that I’m “different” from other people and c*lories affect my body differently. So crazy
THISSSS.
thats true i noticed she uses the word deserves alot
Mental illness makes you feel like you are less than a human and undeserved of anything. I have anxiety and depression, they make me feel like I am not worthy of people’s attention, that I am too bad to deserve love. I know it is not true but it is so hard to make my mind follow that correct path of self-thinking
10/10 comment. That‘s hitting the exact spot.
She is definitely one of my favorite buzzfeed creators. I've struggled with an ED since I was 12 and recently have been challenging it. This video could not have been uploaded at a better time. Thank you for ur courage💚
this made me so happy to read, thank you!!
@@arianaginspired This is the best video I've seen on Buzzfeed for so long. I hope it gets the numbers it deserve, and that we see more content of this quality from you and others. Wishing nothing but the best for you!
Me too literally same story (my planned recovery just started today!!)
@@nellieb2690 So proud of you! Sending you all my courage 💚
Honestly over the lockdowns my diet has been a mess one day I’ll eat tons then the next day or two I eat literally nothing. But guys its alright you can beat it ❤️
we got this!!!
Same.
You’ve got this QUEEN ✨
SAME
awww 🥺 i hope u feel better and i also love ur username
Positive ED content is so important! This “ internal” dialogue is so good to hear!! So much of the ED videos posted on yt are so toxic and talk about getting over an Ed and that’s just not it.
yes this exactly!
Imagine disliking this video instead of giving people hope and being happy for them trying to overcome this
Facts but there’s always people who are gon hate😔....this world is cruel what do you expect ...😔
Right?? I can only imagine how much these people are unhappy with themselves. Send ‘em love and light❤️
It was probably people who don’t wanna accept their own eds
Here’s what you need to do to deserve the food you eat: have a body
Ruth Puglisi no everyone deserves food to LIVE or we will be dead. Ok mate???
@@tiffanyroseangeles7517 they said that everyone deserves food.. because everyone has a body which needs it.. u missed the point ig.
@@tiffanyroseangeles7517 you missed the point...
@NCT_ LOVER_ chill mate, it was a mistake...
I feel her. The pandemic has been so hard to almost everyone who has some kind of disordered eating.
The pandemic has been hard to anyone. I've had breakdowns because of having mental health and it sucks.
it's gonna be okay my love 🥺❤️
❤️
Mei Eldridge She's flying like 🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊you go girl....Soul made of pearls,don't let anyone bring you down or discredit that well earned crown!!!
@@tiffanyroseangeles7517 wait she passed away?🥺
@@olivias3336 no
@@sylvie2140 oh thank god
All I can say is thank you Mei. Thank you for educating me on what a person with an eating disorder goes through and how you feel. I will of course never truly understand it because I haven’t gone through it but you have brought me closer to understanding. Thank you for educating me
thank you for listening 🤍
Not gonna lie....I needed this. I've gained a lot of weight during quarantine and I've been struggling with not eating for days then eating too much for days. And also working out obsessively, then not at all. It's nice to know I'm not alone..
Brigida Olmsted stranger things have happened" for some of my mall friends ( that work in there) they've gained or lost) try & not be too hard on yourself. Everyone has a different coping mechanism) many,than it is food.
Brigida Olmsted why do I feel "you are me". Its exactly what I feel and experience and seeing someone else experience the same hurdles ....making me realise that I am not alone. THANK YOU!!
Omg same with me
I’m currently having some form of issue with my weight and I don’t know what exactly it is. I was very certain that it wasn’t an eating disorder but a lot of the things I saw in this video were worryingly relatable. I’m glad that her and this channel made this video because it has offered a bit more perspective from another angle that I didn’t have before I started watching. Thanks
A lot of times eating disorders just sneak up and you don't even realize it. The sooner you get some help the less hold it will have on you. Sending all the love! Please tell those around you about your concerns and ask for help. The longer it sticks around the harder it will be to get rid of! You are strong, you got this, fight for yourself!
Practically Balanced just bc a couple things your finding similar...if it were me,of course it's not.....I'd see my Dr before thinking things that maybe a fallacy I'm on your side 🌹🌹🌹
I’ve have an ED my whole life ...starving to binging to starving binging I would lose some weight when I “starve”...basiclaly eat less not enough calories...& people would compliment me for losing some in the summer2020 ...I started to eat more til I’m full ive been for months ....now I eat without guilt no matter what food I make sure I eat veggies fruits which I’ve been doing for almost 2 years tbh I I always try eat salad at school...fruit an apple ....or afterschool but then struggle lose weight cuz my school was cooking/baking school (culinary)...I would eat the foods we made ...sometimes binge on it it was hard...cuz I’m not tryna get acne ...Bt also bc I want have healthier body so I eat an oatmeal which gets me full ..I still eat carbs I eat rice with beans to get my protein in & chicken & pasta ik more carbs....but carbs are important ....the problem not the food always is mostly the amount you eat...I always track my calories still but to make sure i don’t binge or I don’t starve myself....I’m fat....I have photos I look big in ive been tryna lose weight since the 6th grade .....I started gain so much weight cuz my grandma parents force me as I grew to eat a lot when I didn’t want to eat as much it was jusy my body😔....they fed me wayy too much when I didn’t want to ....I get nauseous when I eat too much or when I feel too full...I use to throw up my food .....my problem is I get nauseous when I don’t eat & if I try to eat .....but I’ve tried to eat enough...there’s been times I ate more until I was full didn’t feel guilt .....anyways I’m glad this video came to you girl🥺...it came to my recommended too
Practically Balanced I need to think about that too. Over the summer I went through a phase of obsessively exercising and now I’ve caught myself skipping meals.
Thank you for showing this. Ive felt so alone about my eating disorder thinking that no one else felt the way I did. But seeing this gave comfort and peace that there others like me fighting.
def not alone. you got this
I am hopefully starting therapy next month... I am so looking forward to it, cause I don't want to do this anymore... Don't give up, we can do this.
Omg I was shaking when I saw this. I’m so incredibly proud of her this is the most inspirational video🥺 I’m a pastry chef and that’s like the craziest thing to people that someone whose whole job is making unhealthy food has an ED
thank you! rooting for you love
Best of luck ,but perhaps after awhile,the smell/ sight may just possibly sicken you, Not purging manner.
You'll go yuck"! Choosing healthy options instead. Example: my sister when she was younger formerly worked in a classy Chocolate Place where they sold high end chocolates,mint, plus also various ice creams. In a ritzy upper class Canadian mall.
My sister is Diabetic ) however way way back then nobody knew least of all her)
Anyway,at first she'd take a nibble here & there.
My sister UNLIKE MY YOUNGER BRO a& MYSELF ( FYI YOUNGER BRO BORN LATER WHO CARES)
JUST TRYING TO MAKE A IMPORTANT POINT PPL
WAS NEVER EVEN LATER IN LIFE finding out she was I THNK type 2 diabetic - she NEVER HAS SWEET RELATIONSHIPS "
MY Younger brother who is now in his mid 40s don't wanna do his age dirty ) sheesh! BUT HES HIGH BP & CHLOLESTEROL )
LIKE ME AT IN MY 50s ADORE OUR SWEETS I HAVE HIGH HEART RATE BUT GOOD BP a& GOOD CHOLESTEROL
@@tiffanyroseangeles7517 I’m anorexic, I don’t have a binging disorder. I struggle to be surrounded by all the food I bake
Hope it gets better! You deserve and need food remember that.
*waves* Hi and much love from one chef with an ED to another.
I know nobody asked but I’m really happy because I’m almost 2 weeks clean of purging!
Edit: you all are so sweet *virtual hugs* 😊 Thank you so much.
Yessss 👏That’s awesome ☺️ You can do it!
@@woin9361 thank you
IM SO PROUD OF YOU
that's amazing!!!! I am so proud and I really hope you're too!!
That’s amazing proud of you!
This is a prime example of how you never know what someone is going thru even if they seem to show so much of them on the internet. Be kind to yourself and each other. ♥️ and keep going girly, you’ve got this!!
I’m dealing with the other end of the spectrum in that I am morbidly obese and use food as an emotional support or eat out of boredom, so I can sympathize with what she’s going through in a way. Hope she continues on her road to recovery as I continue on mine. I had weight los surgery in 2015 and lost a bunch of weight, but have started regaining, but now I’m back on track with losing in small increments.
Proud of you
Im proud of you, and thank you for sharing your experience. Please be gentle with yourself
I am not obese and I TOO binge eat for emotional support or out of boredom. And I feel disgusted with myself every day, when I know I should not. I am glad you're not making yourself feel bad for it. Eating is not a crime. More power to you.
i'm overweight and have struggled with periods of no food followed by binges. i gained 20lbs because of all the uber eats i ordered recently. i think it's time to get back on track and make actually good decisions lol. best of luck to you
You should check out overeaters anonymous :) its a support group and can be helpful, it helped me with my undereating
I'm in recovery from hard drugs... different, but very similar. proud of you. stay strong. you're a very beautiful girl, by the way.
You can do it. My ex struggled with hard drugs and its a hard journey but your so capable of doing it. Be gentle on yourself
@@aliciaryan3361 this is the first time in my life I have over 3 years clean. I remain humble and never ever forget where I came from.
and I'll tell you what helped me more than anything. a daily yoga practice. I suggest it to anyone who's struggling in recovery.
thank you for your kind words. ❤❤
#wedorecover
Food is a drug.
Proud of you love💕✨
@@imarockstarification no its not??? its literally something you need to survive!!!! hope you're okay
I’m so happy that eating disorders are more openly discussed nowadays
In the past it used to be such a taboo topic or like no one would speak out about it because it wasnt that week known most people don’t know they have it to
One of the most important moments for me as a viewer was the “what a big bowl of oatmeal” statement. We never know what someone is going through, we don’t know how are seemingly innocent statements effect others. We do know that words do matter. I’m definitely going to try to check my language regarding food (especially portions).
i’m so happy you were able to take something from this. that is such a small change that can make such a massive difference!
You guys really read my mind with this post. I feel as if I’m struggling with an ED but haven’t been fully diagnosed. This video gives me hope ❤️
Allison Hom thank you so much!!! ❤️💗
Liz Beth great! Don't stop thinking about tomorrow "🎼🎼🎸🎸🎤
TIffanyrose Angeles Thank you so much!! You guys support is great!
There are also ED outside of bulimia or anorexia. I have ARFID, a recent addition that stands for 'avoidant restrictive food intake disorder'. It's an eating disorder that means I have 'safe' foods, and unknown or disliked foods will cause anxiety, stress, textural/smell/taste reactions, even anxiety attacks for some people. It's being a 'picky eater' but to the max. I have been doing well in self imposed food exposure therapy, it's just hard to deal with the anxiety of eating all the time.
Zoey R Wow I have never heard of it until now. Stay strong! We can’t be afraid of FOOD of all things. 💗💗 don’t forget to always nourish your body
I'm so proud of you for sharing your journey with us, this really helped me. When I was really little I also had a problem with eating. I was never diagnosed with an eating disorder and I never told anyone about it or reached out to anyone because I felt ashamed, embarrassed, and disgusted. I was obese when I was really little and my own family members saying things to me would provoke and lead to my eating problems. I never really felt good enough because It hurts especially when it's coming from your own family. Basically I wouldn't eat everyday and I'd get these terrible headaches and heat flashes and about a year later I had a iron deficiency and this terrible anxiety attack that lasted for a week and I couldn't go to school. Now as a teen, I'm happy to finally say that I'm in a good place with my body image but sometimes I do restrict myself but I've improved a lot and I'm discovering myself and I feel so happy.
idxntknowhy I also had a problem but not being overweight. Being underweight & a picky" eater.
I as a baby,mum told me,was compulsively a colicky baby,screaming my little blonde head off! Keeping my parents up most of the nite ....until,mum gave me magical potions" as a baby I got this the UK version, I tried to locate it here where I've lived all my life in Canada but she got hers from the UK or something)
Called Woodwards Gripe Water,those days ) it did contain a small shot,too.
Now,there's no Woodwards brand & theres nothing alcoholic !!!!!
However,it does actually help me as a adult!!! It tastes like Anise flavour)
I had/ still with gagging on food when 😩 stressed.
So generally during those times eat things I call safe" like good old organic applesauce!!
I detest breakfast!!!
I'm a very visual person, so if the food is presented nicely ,
Arranged pretty no clutter.
Going back to the clutter bc I've rapid cycling BIPOLAR my brain is forever CLUTTERED
Ok
That's all.
TBH i never wrote this to trigger" anyone heavier.
Its my real truth,hands down.
I'm a honest lady.
Keeping it real here as we all are.
I've nothing against anyone else
BC I've felt the burn of being attacked myself as a child - adult.
So much of this is amazing! Normalizing the conversation and openness of eating disorders and seeking help, asking for help, and talking to a therapist/counsellor to aid in your recovery mentally. Beautiful! And I know a lot of people will be able to relate to your internal struggles and see that it is ok to talk about it and ask for help! You are gorgeous and I know you can keep with it!
thank you so much love
I’m so proud of you Mei. You’re beautiful and powerful and strong. You are not your eating disorder.
Her dads face was so pure and proud when he had the bowl of food!☺️ you got this girl, be patient with yourself❤️🌻🌱✨
as a restrictive binge eater who is now getting help, I'm really happy Mei was brave enough to record herself. It's really given me the strength to work hard on not restricting and binging and feeling shame for eating food. Food is energy. That's it.
Oh my god why do I relate to this so hard. Literally just the whole thought of eating gives you such horrible anxiety. And you’re always so weak you can hardly get out of bed and sometimes you pass out. Haha good memories
I hope your getting help and u can do this. Dont let your mind control u. Know that you deserve food every single day. No matter what. You need at least 3 meals. I hope u get better soon.
Jesus loves you so much that He died for YOU!! you are so so loved and your body is a temple 1 Corinthians 6:19 “do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own” you’re created in the image of God and He loves you so so so much. “You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you. Song of Solomon 4:7 “ you are so beautiful and i hope and pray that if you haven’t you would step into Gods love for you!! i pray you just invite God into your life, things won’t be perfect but His love is eternal. the cross is eternal. life with Jesus is better, great are His promises. john 3:16 “ For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”
It took me a few months to over come Bulimia. Some of my hardest moments came when I had to just sit with my food and not purge it. The cycle is terrible but not impossible to overcome, I’m so proud of you!♥️
to me if i cannot purge, i start crying and i’m covered in my drool and it’s really gross. it’s so hard and i feel so trapped in this cycle of restricting, binging, purging
@@kay-wj3jx try eating safe foods at your cal intake for your healthy age & height range it might seem like a lot of food but you should love the fuel so that but you can stop the cycle also avoid overeating processed or junk food xox stay safe
Thank you for posting that. I've been struggling with ED half of my life. It started with binge eating, then starving, then binge again, then I had short period of time when I threw up after binging. Now I barely eat, part of it is because I don't want to gain weight again, but also I have chronic illness that literally make me gain weight out of thin air. It's constant battle. I'm in my 30s and my body looks horrible, my skin lost flexibility. I'm 168cm/5'6, and I'm going from 49kg/108lbs to 70kg/154lbs in a second. Sending love to everyone struggling with any kind of ED ❤️
You got this!!! Sending love back ❤️
Its soooooo cool that she came up to try and help herself
thank you!!
So proud of you Mei, and every one of you out there going through this! Cheering you all on ❤️❤️❤️
I am so proud of you. You’re incredible.
You’re so brave by being a spokesperson for perseverance through the struggles of eating disorders. The transformation of your strength in the beginning vs the end is inspiring.
Continue to be strong and remember that YOU are in control, not the eating disorder. *hugs*
Absolutely amazing.
honestly it takes real bravery to document this so be proud of yourself!!! ur all amazing
Thank you so much for posting this! So proud of you! Currently in rehab for my ED and it makes me feel less alone xxx 💕💕
i have anorexia and this was really helpful to watch. i’ve been in recovery for awhile now but miss my eating disorder so freaking much. it’s exhausting and i related to almost everything she said. i’m inspired by this to keep going and be easier on my mind and body.
You're doing so well. You got this. ❤️ Something that might help when you feel like binging, get a silicone chewy toy, they're made for people with ADHD/autism/oral fixations so that you've got something to do with your mouth. They're pretty great alternatives to nail biting or mindless snacking.
Wow I had an eating disorder for years and she is so strong! I never could have done what she did in that state. To those struggling: you will make it out, you will find peace, and your relationship with food will better. Something that helped me was mindful eating.
"Don't be afraid of being afraid"
Lindsay Fraser brilliance breeds brilliance"
I relate so hard to this video to the point where the realization of 90% of the things that are coming out of her mouth and how it's okay to do certain things is literally making me cry 😭💕
I don't have an ED, but I've been working through a lot exercises with my therapist about self-validation. Hearing Mei repeat mantras like she "deserves to _____" hits close to home and really reinforced to me how we have to tell ourselves these positive statements constantly, even if we don't believe them ourselves. Wishing her all the best. ❤
Seeing this makes me want to cry. Not because of her but that I haven't been as brave as her for my own different situation. She's such a beautiful person for achieving so much. Thanks for making this video, it is helpful for someone to even start thinking about the first step.
Honestly when I saw this video, I wanted to watch it because I thought it would be interesting to learn what a person with a eating disorder goes through... but now after watching it, I’ve realized how many characteristics, thought and actions I have in common... The binging then, starving, the constant negative thought around food and my body, and so much more... Idk, not to say I have a disorder since Im not a professional but watching this honestly made me cry thinking that maybe I need to get some help too and honestly just thank you. I really didn’t think anyone went through someone of the same feels/actions I have -or if they did we didn’t talk about it... but you showed there is a way out, all it takes is dedication and time 💗
Good job! It's so hard to get over an eating disorder. I know you didn't GET OVER it but you hit a milestone. I'm so proud of you to try your best to get over it!
I dont even know you, but I stumbled upon this video and I am so proud of you. I can't relate to specifically this, but I do have probably anxiety and depression because I struggle a lot. This video helped me in a way. We are stronger than what that mean voice in our head tells us.
I know about eating disorders but you verbalizing what you go through mentally everyday made me truly understand how maddening it can be. Wow 🥺
I literally binged about 30 min ago, ( then this video randomly showed up in my recommended ) and now I feel guilty, like I didn't deserve the food because "I was doing so good" I had been about a month without binging, and now I feel like I ruined everything. This video helped me so much, thank you!
This was so informative into the experience of someone with an ED. One of my friends struggled with one in college. I remember bargaining days of joining her for meals. I remember trying to understand as she explained some of her tactics so as to share and no longer hide it. I have my own issues with food, but you never know how deep someone's struggles go until they share it with you. ❤
Awh I literally love watching any of your vids you seem like the sweetest soul ever🥺 And I truly truly pray that you heal yourself. I hope that even on the hardest, greyest days, you have the strength (which I know you have) to overcome this disorder. Celebrate the small victories along the way, at the end you’ll win the war ❤️
thank you so much ❤️
@@arianaginspired 💗🖤💗
this is such an important thing that more people should know about. also, happy they put the trigger warning - I couldn’t watch past around the 2 minute mark but will save it to come back to!
Sending you love and support❤️
proud of you for knowing your limit. thank you for the support nonetheless 🤍
damn, this video made me cry so much. thank you for being so vulnerable mei, know you are not alone. i've been challenging mine during the pandemic, and learning about intuitive eating has helped a lot, maybe it'll help you too. we are all proud of how far you've come, you are 真的很美
Good for you sweetheart, you’re stronger than you think you are. Your incremental progress is going to keep growing! You have people that love you and I’m glad you’re here on this earth, even though we don’t know each other. I believe in you!
We are here, and we support you. This was incredible, and the fight happens everyday, especially when trying to bounce back from a bad day. Keep on keeping on Queen! ❤️👑
This is so amazing. I love how open you're being with your family and your girlfriend and how supportive they are, and...I love this. You're working SO HARD, and showing SO MUCH DEDICATION. Did filming, knowing that you were going to put something out on the internet from the footage, help you to be kind to yourself and say the positive things that your brain doesn't believe?
I can’t imagine being her gf, I’m a stranger to her & it hurts me to see her not see how perfect she is
I’m so amazed by you and your maturity. I am 45 years and feel like you taught me so much about being honest and accountable with yourself. Thank you for being so brave and transparent. I feel like I have greater strength to tackle my mind and my eating.
I'm so proud of you for facing your ED like you did in this video. As someone who has struggled with an ED herself and knows how hard the things you went through in this video can be, I think it is absolutely impressive that you managed to talk yourself out of ED behaviour, go to your family for support, and challenge yourself with new foods. Thank you for sharing this video and good luck on your recovery journey!
Looking at this, it makes me think about where I was 10 years ago ! She is really brave and strong, especially dealing with this during a pandemic. Don't know her but I'm so proud of her !
i’ve been struggling with a ed similar to yours for about 6 month now. and because of this video i decided to talk to someone and get help. so thankyou ❤️
Thanks for making this video even though it must have been really hard. It opened my eyes to see what people with an eating disorder can go through that I didn’t even realize ❤️
I felt this on another level. Grown up with my mother having anorexia. The mental strenght you need to have fighting an eating disorder is insane. So much respect to you. I wish you just the best🙏🏻
Love this video! I struggle w/restrictive ed and personally found it tough during the holidays. I found myself having realllly similar thoughts as you described so seeing you identify and challenge those thoughts is a real motivator in my recovery
I love these videos. Recovering from an eating disorder is a lifelong battle. Unlike drug or alcohol. We need food to live so we cannot just stop eating. I struggled with my eating disorder for 20 years. A different points in my life it was different types of eating disorders. I would consider myself recovered finally. But mentally I still have the thoughts I think those will never go away but it’s just not acting on them
Thank you for sharing this! A year ago I wouldn’t have been able to watch this without falling back into old patterns. I’m really encouraged and inspired by your journey, and it’s wonderful to know that we’re not in this alone. Also the gas tank thing made me cry and was a reminder I really needed to hear ☺️☺️
so proud of you!!
please make this a series because i can tell that filming the process really helped her. pwetty pwease :)
I started my recovery in January 2020 as well with intensive outpatient & this video was amazing to see! I really appreciate you documenting all of your successes/struggles. You're doing awesome
Just wanted to say thank you for sharing this with so many people. Having my own issues, I think it's awesome how well you dealt with all of it. Lots of hugs!!!
This is so inspiring for me because I just got in the hospital for anorexia and I’m under a meal plan that I get to pick but it’s hard because I want to pick foods that I used to like but I’m to scared to so this is really helping me through this and I’m facing one of my fears today and eating a quesadilla!
As someone who went through a very dark period with a very restrictive ED, can I just say WELL DONE! You did amazing. In lockdown I was going down a dark path again, but have instead started working out. And I have managed to recognise that part of working out is needing protein for muscle building and carbs for energy. I'm not going to try and sustain myself on veg and fruit, I'm going to eat balanced and work on making my body stronger and more toned (not thinner). Food is fuel. Food is also delicious and you should never, ever be ashamed of enjoying something and having seconds. Sending love to anyone who is struggling but also telling you: STRONG is best. Be your strongest self!
I am so so so proud of you. It's like seeing myself 5 years ago. Things will get better as we push ourselves to conquer the fear food every day. I now truly understand I worth so much more than my weight and food is not the only thing in my mind anymore. You can do it. It's gonna take time but you are stronger than your eating disorder!!
this hit home for me 🥺 i’m so glad she’s talking about this
I hope you discover your balance, keep your head up and love yourself!
Thank you for your emotional labor and vulnerability. I respect you and your journey. Know that you are making a positive impact in sharing this with others.
thank you so much!
Proud of you for being vulnerable and sharing like you have! You’re on a journey and you’re learning how to undo a lot, and that takes time. So keep being gentle and kind to yourself. ❤️
The eat with me part gave me so much comfort fr that was so nice. I am so proud of you for talking about this, it is SO HARD. You're so wonderful Mei.
YAY come back and watch it whenever u need :)
Sending love and anyone else struggling I’m proud of you for just being here please keep trying your best, take your time and you are worthy and loved! It won’t always be easy but I see strength in you ❤️
She is so brave to share all off that with all of us and I am so thankful for her doing that.
Mei, your resilience is so commendable. Documenting so honestly about these feelings was so beautifully done. Thank you for sharing your truth and progress.
3.5 years ago, my video would have looked almost identical to this. Now, I am so, so happy. Every day is different, but I need you to know that someday, the good will more than outweigh the bad! It's hard work, but it is so worth it. You can do this! Everyone struggling can do it! I believe in you all!
this gives me so much hope, thank you for sharing this with me ❤️
Needed this rn. I made and ate a full meal for the first time in 3-4 months yesterday. And I've been fighting the urge to restrict today. Thank you for this video and the motivation to keep going. I'm proud of you, and I'm proud of myself.
i'm so proud of you
@@arianaginspired thank you :)
The part that really got to me was how open you are with your family about your ed🥺 I honestly believe that your family is so important to recover, and o think my lack of ability to be open with them the first time hindered my recovery. Also, I’m inspired by how you were able to sit with yourself after your dinner, because I often find that I try to overstimulate myself to forget❤️❤️❤️
You are amazing, I went through the same things. This truly is a never ending battle, it is so easy to slip back. I'm proud to say food and I have a complicated but great relationship now. You are so strong! This is beautiful and powerful ❤❤❤❤
i’m happy she made this it really helped and it didn’t make me feel so lonely about stuff like this. also another thing saying that some people need more fuel the others like gas tanks really made me think and it helps
This video helps me support myself for struggles like this. I like this girl for so many reasons even with the minimal amount of videos I’ve seen from her but the big boy important stuff: you’re willing to vlog your personal journey to being better than now. Showing how hard it is, but still trying. What it can be like with family and friends/your partner, how weird and difficult it is mentally...But you do it, and you talk about how it feels (for you) and I bet a lot of what you said connected with so so many people (including myself). It’s kind of sad that so many could relate but my hope is that for those who do, it brings comfort and courage to do the same as you when they’re ready, as it has for me. I hope things keep up and you get to where you want and can be happy, healthy and obsessive thought free and just live your life to the absolute best it can be! Thank you for this, to the account and the individual. Good luck to anyone who needs it.
100 x thank you for being transparent with us about this topic. It’s so so so important to bring light to this issue because so many people are struggling in the same exact way. Keep fighting and if you need your online community for support we are here ☺️ I struggled with my self image for a long time and it took a lot to get to where I am to feel comfortable eating without worrying about the consequences later.
I am 14 with a binge disorder, so I find your story very helpful for me.
thank you for sharing this! i know it must’ve been hard. you will recover and we’re all here supporting you!!❤️
YAASSS! Thank you for being so open and honest.
I have been working on overriding some of the negative things my mind tells me about myself, and your exploration of your experience in fighting those thoughts is so inspiring.
Thank you!
A quote from my therapist is "Stop should-ing all over youself" 💗
you’re so strong sweetie 🤍
Some of the things you said hit me so hard. The Prius metaphor made me start crying because it’s so true. 😭😭😭 thank you for posting this.
I love your profile picture ❤️
This video is one of the most beautiful honest videos on RUclips. I have never felt more scene, I felt like she was my friend. I am wishing you all the love for you and your recovery queen 👑
"I'm full, and my brain is yelling at me to do dumbsh*t ,but I'm not going too".love that 💖😂
Mei, thanks for making this video. I have had my own mental issues concerning food. I have been on a three-year weight loss/fitness journey and that has meant I have had to relearn how to have a balanced relationship with food that doesn't involve stressing or feeling triggered over portion sizes and "good foods/bad foods." It isn't easy because my anxiety/OCD can make me feel like if I don't maintain my figure, I am not only failing myself, but everyone else who has admired my weight loss efforts. It's an exhausting responsibility that I don't need. So, thank you for reminding me that I am not alone. I won't claim that my issues are equal to yours, but seeing you be brave enough to challenge your ED makes me feel braver too.
As someone who has struggled with food throughout my life and have dealt with non-diagnosed eating disorders, I just want to give you the biggest hug possible. You are so brave for doing this and sharing your journey with the entire world. You are such a inspiration for so many people out there, and you will be OK. Food is a great part of life and sometimes although we let our minds tell us otherwise, you are letting your heart lead the way and bring yourself into a positive relationship toward it.
Stay strong and proud. You are awesome.
I cannot express how incredible this video is. I am so proud of Mei, and so proud of anyone that this video resonated with. Absolutely powerful .Thank you.
As someone who has struggled with an ED since high school, I LOVED this video. It was real and raw. I want to make the commitment to do the same. Here's to loving our bodies and not thinking so much about food!
Wow this hits home! I had a very bad day yesterday binging/purging (had three episodes one after another). It was very hard mentally and I felt gross and depressed and guilty. I’ve been off and on for years. My ED never truly disappears but I noticed when I’m feeling lower about my self it’s becomes quite prominent. I wake up and think about food until I go to sleep. Try to stay strong guys I know it’s tough...thankful for this video for bringing awareness.
i'm so proud of you. i wish more people were this open about this times where it is not easy to recover 'cause a lot of times i just see people good and feeling well after recovery but it's not that easy to me, i've been getting better everyday for the last three years but i'm not 100% over my ED.
Right now i'm at university doing research on anorexia and bulimia as a occupational therapy student and i'm very proud of me too, and i wish someday my research help other people with ED as i'm sure your video is.
It's not easy to talk about it but we need to and there is so much beauty in this strengh. I really happy for you and to know i'm not alone.
Hope your doing fine, you have my best wishes.