How Paranoid Schizophrenia Impacts My Life
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- Опубликовано: 13 июн 2024
- Allie Burke first started seeing shadows when she was three years old but it wasn’t until she was in her mid-twenties that she was formally diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia.
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0:00 Allie's Hallucinations
1:18 Day to Day Realities
3:45 Growing Up with Paranoid Schizophrenia
5:45 Using the Internet to Connect with Others
6:23 Medication
7:37 Connecting With Others
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I just wanted to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the kindness and support. Thank you so much.
I sincerely hope you’re doing well! Especially during these times
You are beautiful and brave. Thank you for sharing your story . ❤️❤️
I have depression and anxiety. I have friends who have schizophrenia. And I jut want to let you know I realise how strong you are. And you have a beautiful voice!
(Distantly) hugs from Thailand
Thank you for telling us your story! I just wish more people could do the same, it's so important. I hope you're doing well and kicking ass.
You are amazing! I struggled with mental illness as well and hearing other people's stories makes me feel better, like I actually belong in this "place". Thank you
I have paranoid schizophrenia and was on the streets for several years and experienced hallucinations and also voices. Now I'm no longer homeless and I'm doing alot better. :)
I’m unsure if the visions are fake or real. I always suspected that people like you are experiencing a blending of dimensions. Higher densities. But the medical world isn’t ready for that. I think it’s an overactive third eye. The paranoia comes from a lack of trust after experiencing things no one else can understand
Glad you are doing better, Jo!
Yeah!!! I am so very happy for you!!! 🤗
@@ilovesesshomarusama716nahh, its stress sleep deprivation and mental illness. Now that I have stable housing and a better situation I dont have symptoms anymore.,
Got sober?
This woman is very high functioning compared to many schizophrenics. She is a real gift to the world as she speaks so clearly on this topic. My sister has it and I know others with such disorganization/catatonia they aren't able to communicate as well. Having folks like her tell their stories help destigmatize and share awareness. Thank you, Allie.
you have no idea what youre takling about lol. what do u even mean high functioning?
She's really fortunate to find the right meds to help her each day! I feel for her and what's she lives with!!
I have it as well. For me I feel like its easy to tell people. But hard also because you don't want people to fear you.
@@gloomy2735la gente però ti teme perché sei un pazzo delirante schizzofrenico non perché tu sia un boss mafioso
@theamberheardplaylist6768gtfo of here weirdo
"If a shadow could yell" is the most brilliant description of what she must experience I've ever heard. So descriptive. I'm so impressed by this woman for so many reasons...
Yes, she is smart,productive, caring?…so many good qualities. Many people would give up, especially if they couldn’t afford the treatment. Our Government needs to treat mental illness seriously..
Same 😊💯😊
I got diagnosed with it one time after staying up 3 days on phenibut I don't have it but when high yeah duh ....Drs are idiots.
I do have other things though it's all not good in any way and no I wasn't making fun of it sorry if that was implied .
Intelligent people tend to suffer from mental illness
Ugh she puts on a happy face but she sounds so exhausted and sad :(( I hope shes doing okay
AngelTM a lot of it’s the medication, at least for me it is. I do not have schizophrenia, but I have many other disorders (neurological & autoimmune) that manifest in physical and emotional symptoms. The medication makes me so tired and really keeps me feeling like I’m functioning at half the level I really should be. I used to be a fun, spontaneous, energetic person but the medications and constant symptoms (physical and mental) have just worn me down.
I got a disordered call fecalbody odor and smell like shit all the time can’t do shit with my life I might as well die doctor says no cure it’s so rare they never bothered looking for one I’m 1 in a million
Olanzapine is probably the culprit here. It works essentially by slowing down the brain.
I was on same meds plus lithium it makes u sound groggy tirdd
Josue Brown I got told something similar and I went on to have one heck of a good time trying to fit in is not what you should be doing you need to accept that you ain’t well but think about it you have time to exercise with weights assuming that you would like to work on your figure/physique and then you can learn how to repair things and do all kinds of funky cool stuff but no lighting up your farts to impress women as it doesn’t impress them you probably know that already what about riding and repairing bicycles that is fun once you have a good idea about how to change a wheel and an inner tube maybe you can do odd jobs that you can learn from an elder that likes being around you because you have good manners learn how to plumb in a washing machine learn how to paint a room and do it well and you get paid we’ll go on don’t give babe you will learn how to cope you will be the best person you can and when you do that nobody can take that away guess what I am trying to get a valve trombone so that I can go busking to make a little money and meet people that aren’t about your diagnosis try doing something that you have not done in years go and get life by the throat make sure that Josue is a somebody not somebody with a diagnosis but the person that is really good at cheering people up I know that this might sound stupid but as long as you do your best you are as good as anybody else and probably better than many go on don’t give up do be my RUclips pen friend if you want God Bless and Good speed
Thank you for talking about this in an unstigmatized, nondramatic way
Your a cutie you got a Facebook girl
@@romoauer63 aye leave her be
@@DrunkenVtec you sound like a hater piss off
@@romoauer63 you sound like a fucking creep
@@DrunkenVtec you sound like a pussy.
People with mental illness are often very intelligent. You can sense her intelligence and kindness in her voice and reasoning. You go, Allie! You're a great person!
I had a brother who suffered with Schizophrenia. He heard voices. He hear insults and when people laugh, he thinks they are laughing at him. Whenever we were in public, he put on his headphones and turn it up loud to drown out the voices. He had meds, but he said he didn't feel any different than when he didn't take the meds. His disorder doesn't dictate who he was as a person. He loves his family. He loved animals, and he cared about people. When he saw a homeless person, he would give them money if he had some and say God bless. He was smart and compassionate
What happened to him ? Thank you for sharing your story ❤
why do you say “ he was”?
To @eriomnyc6073 and @iriskazanxhi3438 , unfortunately he either passed of natural causes, or ended his life. It is very sad and something lots of schizophrenics due because to live with these things is very stressful.
"I won't be able to work", "I wont be able to qualify for disability". That's not how it should be
They're paranoid because they're afraid illegal immigrants will take away their dream jobs of picking up vegetables for 12 hours a day for $6.50 an hour in the 105°f weather......
Election is coming up soon.
Why cant she work retail or IT from home?
IF HOSPITALS AND DOCTORS CAN GET KICKBACKS FROM BIG PHARMA, WHY CANT VICE?
IF HOSPITALS AND DOCTORS CAN GET KICKBACKS FROM BIG PHARMA, WHY CANT VICE?
Pete T big HARMA
I cannot imagine living this way every single day and wow shes so accomplished. What an amazing woman.
Waking up on antipsychotic medication is so hard, the first months I had my meds it took me between 3-4 hours just to get out of bed, saved my life tho (by making it hell for around a year and a half).
She's a person to admire.
@Kelvin Tse in USA many kids in orphanages , prisoners in jail and elderly in retirement home are unnecessarily forced antipsychotics under false pretense theyre dangerous and mentally ill ..... this is so orphanages, jails and retirement homes can overcharge their insurance... i wish this wasnt reality but it is...
Your an idiot to
@@leafhidden your what? To what?
You're pathetic, by the way.
Living with mental illness is so so hard. Having a job when you have mental illness is incredibly difficult. I thought I could do without medication. I can’t. I hate it. I find it hard to accept. Thank you for sharing how hard it is xx
Most jobs thesedays are nothing more than large corporations exploiting people for profit. Maybe you originally had it right.
@@kennethwyant9813 I’ve been extremely lucky to have jobs that are not that. Still needed it.
I work at amazon. I can't function.
@@pennyp7382 I hope you are part of the Union working to make it better. Sending you strength x
i can NOT function without my pills.... i hate it aswell.
I know how Allie feels. I was diagnosed in 2020 and I got approved for disability and Right now, I am starting to rebuild my life.
I wish you all the best in the world, Max.
You can do it! So proud of you :)
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Congrats on the disability being approved
@@ifeedchickens7387 🫵🖕🏻
Imagine waking up and seeing and hearing shit that isn’t there. My heart goes out to this woman.
Desmond Francis you'll lose your shit easily. That's how I felt when it happened to me
Baked Potato quit doing drugs then. Were we born taking a handful of random pills? No its not natural so get off the dope and ur brain will heal
She's dealt with this since she was a child and didnt start taking meds and smoking until adulthood. So idk why you're trying to blame her condition on drugs.
Oschner paranoid schizophrenia can be caused by a number of factors, but she had it even when she was a kid, as she explained in the video. as a child, she wasn’t on drugs so idk why you’re trying to blame it on that. it could be hereditary or it could’ve happened only to her.
Gabby adrien ur right my bad
My big brother has schizophrenia, it has been a long process for him but now fortunately he is taking the right medication, he's married, has a beautiful baby girl, supports his family with an excellent job, he's a composer and is currently paying his house. I'm so proud of him!
What meds does he take
That is absolutely wonderful!!
Hooray for him and you too because some people would be right jealous apparently
Thanks u testimony of your brother give me closure that they can get help I have a brother struggling at the moment so thank u give your giving me hope
So beautiful! Yay him!
Im a male I have a older brother with parnoid and skitsophrenia before he got section he tried to knife me to death and before that attacked my sister and grandma and me twice and was living homeless its a terrible illness i pray for everyone with this his medication make his belly big drinks 3 energy drinks a day i dont think he willl live very long his diet health is terrible my only brother its the way life goes
This happened to my dad when I was 7 years old. The medication would make him worse, he would sleep with knives, and would wake up in the middle of the night saying people were coming to kill us, 25 years later, my dad is no longer on any meds, now he's 82 years old and just always looking outside the window waiting for me or my mom to come home. He is shy to eat in front of us, doesn't leave the house , and doesn't take showers. I miss my dad. I never had a dad because of this...
I'm sorry to hear that. Feeling like you've been robbed of a real relationship with your father is probably very demoralizing.
Just from reading your comment, you seem to be a caring and empathetic person. I'm sure that your dad is lucky to have you , whether he realizes it or not.
Thanks for sharing ❤
😢❤
I’m bipolar and haven’t had a home until now at 31. I was homeless about ten years, lived in a room a few years, and now I have a place that’s my home.
I’m forever grateful for this
🙏❤️
Congrats brother!
This is wholesome, I'm glad you found a home.
Good for you, I know the struggle is tough. I am bipolar as well and know the struggles very well of what it’s like living with it.
Thats so awesome how did you get it ?
I don't have schizophrenia and this lady has her shit wayyyy more together than me
money does that. If she didn't have it guaranteed she'd be in jail
@@XXXBiTcHpLeAsEXXX most people with schizophrenia aren't dangerous or criminal. Most of the time it just affects thought processes and doesn't affect actions or trigger immoral beliefs. For the most part it will likely to make someone feel depressed or anxious, as a result of the hallucinations and paranoia. People see crazy as a threat and will have this idea that schizophrenics are better off in an institution.
@@helenalexandraaaa tldr but um.... who assumes only dangerous ppl are in jail?? majority of ppl in jail don't belong there genius. AGAIN they just don't have the $$$. $ = freedom
comparing yourself to other people isnt cute
@@helenalexandraaaa People already see crazy as a threat and they do think that schizophrenics are better off in an institution...jail. The woman's parents in this video are obviously wealthy and so the woman doesn't have much stress to begin with IMO.
She’s pretty inspiring not allowing her illness dictate her life. My heart goes out to her.
She'd be a lot more functional if she wasnt on antipsych meds ....now vice comes out with this big pharm propaganda video thats going to make a million hipsters think theyre schizo
@@user-sh1gc3jk7l yup, add/adhd is getting outdated!
Pete T this is such an uneducated, idiotic view. What do you suggest she do- come off her medication and battle debilitating hallucinations? Go back to listening to joe rogan and thinking that big pharma is out to poison everybody. Im sure you know better than experts within mental health and schizophrenia lol
@@user-sh1gc3jk7l yeah man you are so smart and insightful like when my brother is off his meds all those crippling visual and auditory hallucinations and horrifying delusions that cause suicidal ideation make him MUUUUUCH more functional.
@@bendenham5307 they can eat as many as they want, its just my opinion man, maybe she can try behavioral therapy, home natural diet, vegetarian herbal remedies, meditation,mindfulness. Its hard to say medication or not is better in long term bc u cant judge long term, its just a risk more people are being pressured to take... theres also $ incentive for people to take the risk... Your therapists recommends you to see a psychologist,, boom lifelong patient after one hour meeting. Sometimes it happens to fast with the pills...especially antipsychotics..
I have a severe case of major depressive disorder. Suicide runs in my family. It also took me a decade to get adequate treatment. A lot of psychiatrists here in nyc don't take insurance. To make matters worse, I learned I was resistant to several drugs. I did everything except ECT. I qualified for disability a few years ago and that is what allowed me to have better access to healthcare. My current doctor is a genius. Im on 5 different psychotropic meds.
It's fucking hard. Even my close friends didn't believe my illness. They just thought that depression was being sad and it's way more than that.
all people i know that once got a prescription for depression (or simular) are still on those medicine + added other drugs for side effects and such.
Their general life did not improve,they are still depressed and have serious problems functioning in society.
I would strongly advise, try to only use anti-dep med on temporary basis and limit intake asmuch as possible.
Vitamine D will help! Eat beef, nuts,salmon. Get in the sun as much as possible and get a solar bed. (from ebay for cheap)
Exercise!!!! Get rid of toxic relations! improve your skills, learn things,music,painting,whatever. Meet people , allow yourself to fail!!!,praise your accomplishments. AND NEVER EVER LIE TO YOURSELF ABOUT ANYTHING!
This being said, its your life, killyourself if you really want to, dont feel guilty if you do. You are not obligated to live for someone else.
Same story here dear. I'm with u don't worry.
It has been said that about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL !! Unfortunately traditional modern medicine which is only about 350 years old, rejects ancient peoples beliefs (of more than 2,000 years) in the existence of spirits. Nowadays, if you tell a schizophrenia patient he might be influenced by spirits, doctors will think you're also CRAZY ! But no amount of DENIAL can negate their existence ! Like it or not !
Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you, for themselves !! You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. I've had more than 20 years of this experience so I studied/researched them. I know how and why they operate as such.
You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, deadly accident or near-death experience If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs helps block the voices, even drives them far away !! Use a headphone/ earpiece so you don't disturb others. Good luck and Stay Safe.
I have the same diagnosis with psychosis (auditory hallucinations). It definitely is way more than being sad
I'm blown away (inspired) by how productive she is despite having a serious mental illness! I have severe adhd (inattentive) and my life is in shambles, I have struggled for years and I exert so much mental and physical energy to do routine tasks. It's completely overwhelming and gut wrenching.
I feel for you as someone with adhd and anxiety disorder! Stay strong and well wishes!❤️🩹
Every disease is a spectrum
"If a shadow could yell"....that's an intense image.
"I don't know where I would be today without my insurance". All you have to do is look on the downtown streets of any major city in America to see where people who lack insurance and suffer with schizophrenia end up going. It's the state of mental health care in "the greatest country".
@Wuhan Virus Other countries aren't "the greatest country" with the most money and the most military might.
@Wuhan Virus No shit Sherlock. America is the most hated country in the world because we spend most of our money bombing brown people half way across the world. Too bad we don't spend that money on education and mental health care.
@@LesbianNaziHookers seriously if you look behind any conflicts you will find america
My country is far from perfect either but here everyone can and will get insurance and the help they need. Yes we still have homeless people but not nearly as many per capita as the US because we also have a shit ton of programs to help those people in whatever way they need to get them back on their feet.
LesbianNaziHookers so very true. Canada is not as bad in general as most cities in America. Sad that people deny this.
I don’t have the same problem, I have chronic depression, anxiety, PTSD, and OCD, but surprisingly take all the same medication as you do, and while each disorder is different there is a common factor that we all share, stigmatization. Thank you for making this video, the more we talk about it the more we don’t have to fear talking about it in public or to our friends and family. I’m 53, I’ve dealt with these problems since I was a child, but finally I can probably say I’m not ashamed at all, it’s a medical problem just like any other medical problem, and it’s time we stop stereotyping, and started embracing.
Me too. I have been suffering for a year and two months. I gave up on medication as they didn't even help. It's very exhausting for me
@@Kys30388ask to switch meds or say it’s not working. Done this a few times to get the proper SSRI,benzo,stimulant and antipsychotic (in case) for depression,anxiety,adhd and periodic psychosis. (I hope it’s periodic) I had this episode a few months back that lasted around 2-3 months total that consisted of constantly hearing my father arguing in the house - when he is out working. Eventually after a week it got pretty bad and I got dragged to see mental health ER. I got put on this medicine called: risperidone
This one stopped the voices^ though since I’m not hearing stuff again I stopped
I’ve worked in the mental health field for a long time…and I think it takes a ton of courage and strength to be so vulnerable to all of us. 🙏🏻
I had a horrible acid trip once and the psychosis was so bad I can’t actually imagine having schizophrenia. I’m so glad this woman is thriving.
Omg same here!
@@kelli_with_an_I it felt like I went to hell.
@@kmiwachan I felt like I would never go back to normal again cause it lasted like 15 hours lol never again.
@@kelli_with_an_I Had a gummy before. saw the walls were melting and my ears were ringing
SAME. So terrifying. And uncontrollable.
My dad has schizophrenia and grandma did (she's gone). There are so many misconceptions about schizophrenia. My dad and grandma have both been the most giving loving presence in my life. They both taught me kindness, love and wisdom. Ive never wished they were different. They both loved and cared for me so well and im grateful they raised me.
Very nice ♥ heartfelt words.
I read your last name as Bumfield, hehe
💖
It has been said that about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL !! Unfortunately traditinal modern medicine which is only about 350 years old, rejects ancient peoples beliefs (of more than 2,000 years) in the existence of spirits. Nowadays, if you tell a schizophrenia patient he might be influenced by spirits, doctors will think you're also CRAZY ! But no amount of DENIAL can negate their existence ! Like it or not !
Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you, for themselves !! You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. I've had more than 20 years of this experience so I studied/researched them. I know how and why they operate as such.
You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, deadly accident or near-death experience If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs helps block the voices, even drives them far away !! Use a headphone/ earpiece so you don't disturb others. Good luck and Stay Safe.
People like Allie are why I am studying to become a psychiatrist. The science behind these disorders is fascinating but it’s the difference that medication can make in them that really motivates me. Everyone deserves to feel safe in their mind.
My best friend has schizophrenia. He’s found a medicine that works incredibly well for him and he lives a normal life. I’m always hanging out with him when I can. He’s a very down to earth dude. He seems to get better every year.
Hi what medicine please can you ask him
She is such an intelligent, thoughtful and beautiful young lady. I respect people who share their experiences with mental health conditions like this.
Possum Hugs omg boo hoo
James Stevens go eat a rock
I love how she lives with her dad and is 30. Her dad must be very supportive or else she could be homeless with schizophrenia and that would honestly suck
PiLLO Yes, mental illness is as legit as a physical illness. She shouldn’t have to live alone/ completely independent with an illness like that. It could be dangerous
I'm sure an agency would give her housing. I know of a few programs that will give vouchers and even place people in nice apartments if they are mentally impaired
-the Soloist type beat-
Christa Delancy but if a family member is willing to open their door, why bother with an agency. A lot of people who go to agency’s have to because they do not have family.
@Mycel thats 47, rip steelo, i think he had schizophrenia, too
I am so sorry for all the people suffering from this disorder ... their life must be so difficult..I hope they can still find the strength to live and find happiness in many things ❤️
I'm neurodivergent (ADHD: Combo, subs of depression and anxiety) and my family is a poster child for mental health disorders. My great aunt was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia, but this was during a time when her struggles were written off as "crazy" and she was immediately institutionalized. I only heard stories and saw photos of my great aunt and knew her as an amazing musician and had a lot to give back to the world, but people weren't willing to help. My heart is swelling with joy seeing this story, and I needed to hear this today.
Are we the same person? Lol!
@@cherihedgepeth9582 🥰
I wish vice would do updates or “where are they now”.
You can checkout her Instagram! @lovelifelibearation :)
Like: where is the Russian Jesus?!
@@joer-tard2821 Your username really fits you
Joe r-tard That’s not funny.
@@joer-tard2821 such a gross thing to say
It disgusts me that this girl couldn’t get her medicine because there wasn’t a generic form. $1000 a month!? I pay €2 per medication each month in Ireland!
€2 vs $1000
That’s disgusting.
Netta J it’s so vile! I hear stories of the healthcare system all the time yet every single time I’m equally disgusted.
How can a country do that to their own people? How is healthcare not a major priority!? Healthcare and education shouldn’t have extortionate prices.
I really hope that the US gets it’s shit together.
I mean the healthcare system in Ireland can be absolute bullshit but it’s never unaffordable.
I take 4 antipsychotic and antidepressant meds and am very lucky to be in a program that make my prescriptions 5$ each otherwise it would be about 800$ a month!!!
I live in the states, Floridia
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@@MissBlueEyeliner in america people are paranoid about communism to the point where it's self harm. People genuinely don't care about each other herem
If I lived in the U.S. and had some serious disease, I would move to another country, honestly.
This shit with healthcare prices is humiliating and seems impossible to cope with.
This country was made by opioid, cocaine, hemp. 🤔RX is AmeriKKKa home of the slave.
I have had a few very lousy days, recently but then I watch this amazing and inspiring young lady who has to endure so much without relief and feel embarrassed that I dare feel sorry for myself. I couldn't even imagine having the strength to endure what she has to endure every single day and the drain that the medications impose. This video has also shone an incredibly important light on a mental disorder that has been stigmatized beyond measure. When we hear of this disorder, one automatically thinks very negatively. Thanks to this amazing young lady, viewers of this video have been educated that people who have to live with it are kind, highly intelligent and strong beyond anyone could imagine. Hats off Vice for featuring these types of videos.
She just shines, man. Her love for her home and her life in general doesn't fail to make you happy.
I have borderline personality disorder, and it gives me some relief to know that she can be such a gift, even while suffering so greatly.
I've watched literally dozens of documentaries on schizophrenia, and this is by far the most enlightening and emotional one I have ever seen.
look up Jerry Marzinsky for the truth.
@@buddleiabee ...oh yes, the "schizophrenia is what happens when you get possessed by an evil demon because you smoked weed back in college" theory. Very well supported in the scientific literature I've heard.
Awesome! I only know of a handful can you recommend more?
Oh besides that little girl who has it that was on Oprah?
I find it so interesting.
Dinky Me whoa 😮 could you be more disrespectful?
First of that guy is a crack pot
Secondly, this is not the place to even throw that name out there.
You really believe what he says? Cool? I have a bridge I wanna sell ya, sweet cheeks.
Sarah Riedel wow you sound very well read. I’m ngl I’m honestly very impressed! That’s just from reading a couple of your comments. Nice to see someone with a brain in the comment section.
I think dinky me has a dinky brain.
Much love, have a wonderful week cutie pie!
Shout out to the BF for being supportive 🙌🏽. Mental illness is real!
a hermoso gringo would not have put up with it. you know it
@@PHlophe racist...
@@PHlophe that's fucking racist
Lechiffresix six don’t talk about bro like that
Real and sometimes misdiagnosed in case of children adhd and autism
🥺 I wish I could hug her. You can see the pain in her eyes while describing the voices. There needs to be more awareness and care for schizophrenia sufferers. This is so awful
What a strong lady! She's killed it to figure it out so well!
That last statement is crazy accurate. I work for a not for profit organisation that assists individuals living with schizophrenia gain access to disability payments - ndis it's called in Australia. The amount of people who are experiencing homelessness and who also live with schizophrenia is astronomical. No support, no access to treatment, no choice. It's honestly horrifying. So happy that the stigma of mental health illnesses such as schizophrenia are being desensitised. Bravo!
It has been said that about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL !! Unfortunately traditional modern medicine which is only about 350 years old, rejects ancient peoples beliefs (of more than 2,000 years) in the existence of spirits. Nowadays, if you tell a schizophrenia patient he might be influenced by spirits, doctors will think you're also CRAZY ! But no amount of DENIAL can negate their existence ! Like it or not !
Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you, for themselves !! You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. I've had more than 20 years of this experience so I studied/researched them. I know how and why they operate as such.
You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, deadly accident or near-death experience If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs helps block the voices, even drives them far away !! Use a headphone/ earpiece so you don't disturb others. Good luck and Stay Safe.
My cousin was going through schizophrenia for a while. Thinking his family was trying to kill him and sleeping with a padlock on his door. 6 months ago my aunt walked into his bedroom to find he was hanging from his ceiling fan. Rest In Peace Brendan, such a nice down to earth lad.
@@user-br4wl7nl1d You are more insane than anyone else here.
Oh my god. Im so sorry. He isn't suffering anymore. He didnt want to hurt anyone just know that. 💙
🙏🙏😥
Hi Billy, thank you for sharing. I am very sorry for your loss. It's extremely difficult to talk about suicide, and I'm glad that are open to talk about it.
@@chrishandsome6542 People could have helped him but I'm not putting any guilt on relatives. It's just hard to imagine that there is a period of 6 months in which there are such symptoms and nothing can be done.
My mother has schizophrenia, she has had my entire life. Rather than talk about the dark side of it, which there is so much of. I love that you have been confident enough to share your experience with the world. Thank you, you are extremely brave and stronger than you know. Keep on and thank you for sharing. With kindness, Dylan.
My Mum is the same but she has schizophrenic tendencies my whole life. I can relate.
@@PhoenixTubez at least Dylan sounds very nice and warm. You, on the other hand, sound judgmental and cold.
Praying for all of you out there struggling with mental illness/addictions etc. ❤
@@PhoenixTubez she hasn't had schizophrenia her entire life. She has however had it my entire life.
My mom also didn’t have schizophrenia her entire life. She developed it after a traumatic experience.
Mental health is such a serious and important topic that I do not believe it can be discussed enough. I applaud Allie for being so open and transparent. She is very courageous!
Thank you for talking about this in a non-stigmatised way, I’ve been struggling with my mental health for a few years now and I’m going to the doctor about my symptoms next week. You gave me hope by sharing your story, have a good life❤️
-some random autistic teenager✨
Dont give up. It has helped me to deal with my psychosis and autism
It's ok
It has been said that about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL !! Unfortunately traditinal modern medicine which is only about 350 years old, rejects ancient peoples beliefs (of more than 2,000 years) in the existence of spirits. Nowadays, if you tell a schizophrenia patient he might be influenced by spirits, doctors will think you're also CRAZY ! But no amount of DENIAL can negate their existence ! Like it or not !
Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you, for themselves !! You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. I've had more than 20 years of this experience so I studied/researched them. I know how and why they operate as such.
You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, deadly accident or near-death experience If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs helps block the voices, even drives them far away !! Use a headphone/ earpiece so you don't disturb others. Good luck and Stay Safe.
Good video. I hope it helps people see that those with schizophrenia and similar illnesses are maybe more normal than they thought.
@Polyfusia...I sooooo agree with you
We're only human chief
I have a best friend who suffers from schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. She keeps bringing up that I'll leave her.
I never will. I'd be scum if I did, she goes through so much.
@@silkqueen8498 Neuralink will hopefully help this. Once again the white christian or catholic race and structure to the rescue.
I honestly couldn't tell the difference between this dumb joke and the rest of the aimless fucks on this planet wandering to their next TV dinner.
This girl is really living life in hard mode. You are really strong girl, keep it up!
Sounds like she is ignorant to certain things, one being the spiritual nature of hearing voices or seeing shadow people, its spiritual.
@@HOLLASOUNDS that kind of ridiculous thinking is what stops people from getting help they need....id hate to be your kids if you think issues that ACTUALLY require medication can be 'spirited away' - im spiritual af but i also believe in science...you can do both.
@@JAWNDOEmusic Did I say medication and science should be ignored, No I didn't but science cant actually tell us why or where these voices are comming from, they are not comming from the mind of the victims they seem to come from outside of there head often saying things that are highly out of character of the victim and they are often evil in nature like how demons are described in TV, Movies, and spiritual beliefs.
@@JAWNDOEmusic preach
@@HOLLASOUNDS there’s in-tune with the spirit and then there’s something wrong with the brain…
This is an amazing story. I watched the whole video, and there was this heartwarming feeling that showered over me when I knew that you had such a supportive boyfriend. Thank you DeLong for taking care of this young lady! May you two live a happy marriage together!
Thank you for the film you’ve produced here. There’s such a need for the world to see people living life with a mental illness, and what one has to go through. I find the sound track however to detract rather than add to the content. It’s unnecessary. Your experience stands for itself.
Thanks again.
Allie Burke "I'm afraid of people standing behind me"
Vice - Walks directly behind her in the intro, yeah that's quality work right there
That was directed for cinematic effect.
To spur conversation and comments.
Like we were prompted to do here.
too good
imagine if a boy/girlfriend would make it worse or better? I mean obviously better but i mean i dont know cause i dont have schizo i mean wonder how it is with schizo i mean this video explaions how it is with chizo but i mean i dont know what do you think i dont know yeah my name id sagdfdhbgfnjj
You sound triggered buddy, they clearly planned the shoot. She isn't just scared of people behind her she is worried about the unknown behind her so a film crew that she invited over isn't one of her fear.
And she wasn’t scared.
“i hate it when people stand behind me” cuts to camera moving in behind her
I thought that was really insensitive of them to do that...
Perhaps they’ve asked her prior to filming that and talked her through it
Lol, the camera man was literally multiple feet away. His zoom and the editing make it look like they are walking up on her.
God bless you Alfie. I suffer with impaired thoughts and PTSD and other mental health issues from a traumatic brain injury I suffered when I was 18 years old. I can't imagine your struggles but I know how hard it is with mental health. I'm so happy you have not let your mental health get the better of you! I wish many great years for you and your family.
My daughter has schizophrenia and she absolutely refuses to stay on her medication. Every time she goes off, she ends up in a hospital. She just got out of one after a 12 day stay and still refuses to stay on a regimen. We are so worried about her. I'm so very glad that you have a strong support system, know that your medications help you and are willing to take them.
its because she can't tell she's ill. Common symptom. Hope shes ok now
It takes a really really strong person to not be subjected to medicine I don’t recommend it. I’m not schitso BUT I have adhd , bipolar disorder and BDE (borderline personality disorder and I don’t take meds except my adhd medications. I don’t take my meds because I feel like it makes things worse imo but I support medication. I’ve found other ways of fighting these disabilities by prayer and meditation and trying to be healthy (eating wise )and working out. I can’t lie there are tough days where I feel hopeless and it’s a constant battle of fighting yourself.
Why doesnt she want them ?
@@jasminepetal3972 She doesn't really think she has schizophrenia. From other channels I've watched, I've learned about anosognosia and she has it in a huge way, sadly. 😪
It has been said that about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL !! Unfortunately traditional modern medicine which is only about 350 years old, rejects ancient peoples beliefs (of more than 2,000 years) in the existence of spirits. Nowadays, if you tell a schizophrenia patient he might be influenced by spirits, doctors will think you're also CRAZY ! But no amount of DENIAL can negate their existence ! Like it or not they exists.
Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you, for themselves !! You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. I've had more than 20 years of this experience so I studied /researched them. I've been meds free for the last 15 years now.
You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, deadly accident or near-death experience If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs (via earphones) helps block the voices, even drives them away ! BTW this is NOT a substitute for NOT taking your meds. Take them if you need them. Good luck and Stay Safe.
She should get a service dog. It seriously helps. I used to have severe PTSD and my service dog was able to watch my back and alert me to people too close or people who walk up by me and people kinda naturally kept their distance when i was with my dog.
Also, the times i thought I heard stuff but wasn't sure if i really heard those things I'd look to my dog and if they didn't alert me to a sound, then i knew it was all in my head.
As a kid i just thought i could hear ghosts or spirits. Now as an adult it's not as often and its different things you can hear. Part of me was wondering if she was vaping weed. For some, weed can really help one sleep, relax, turns off that part of your brain for a little while, calms the anxiety etc.
For others weed can cause them to have stronger symptoms and make them worse.
weed is generally considered a very bad idea for people with psychotic symptoms
@@bt2212 it depends on the weed (i.e. Sativa, Indica, Hybrid). It depends on what form it is taken it and its source (i.e. oil, shatter, concentrate, bud, bong, joint, tincture, vaped, edible, pill, etc.). Ive known some pretty troubled souls with a lot of mental illnesses and seen how it definitely can have a positive impact on them and improve their mood, lessen psychotic episodes and its a lot safer on your body depending how its taken.
Weed always throws me into an EXTREME panic attack mentally and physically, i would never recommend weed to somehow who has more intense mental issues
The Pawesome adVANturists this is why it needs to be legal so people can know which type is their right type!!
This trips me i think i have this sometimes i be getting all paraniod thinking i hear stuff and like overthinking shit like crazy i smoke alot weed somtimes some weed does make me trip hard and get paraniod but then others be hitting good and im chilling not tripping my question is like do i habe what she has ?
I hope she never listens to those voices in her head that tell her to end everything. She is such a beautiful soul & I will her the absolute best ❤.
Jeannette0890 you are so damn beautiful
@@diodanyc187Oh shut up you fiend.
EARTH CITIZEN you’re just sad
@New Keys you’re idiocy and arrogance will be your undoing
@New Keys pretty ignorant of you.
My mother had paranoid schizophrenia, so my heart goes out to you. This, of course, was back in the 80s when options for treatment were limited and it ultimately cost her her life. I'm glad that you are managing your symptoms and that you are thriving as well. You should be proud!
It has been said that about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL !! Unfortunately traditional modern medicine which is only about 350 years old, rejects ancient peoples beliefs (of more than 2,000 years) in the existence of spirits. Nowadays, if you tell a schizophrenia patient he might be influenced by spirits, doctors will think you're also CRAZY ! But no amount of DENIAL can negate their existence ! Like it or not !
Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you, for themselves !! You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. I've had more than 20 years of this experience so I studied/researched them. I know how and why they operate as such.
You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, deadly accident or near-death experience If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs helps block the voices, even drives them far away !! Use a headphone/ earpiece so you don't disturb others. Good luck and Stay Safe.
Thank you for sharing your personal content, I'm currently on my second year of mental health nursing in the UK, and I have an exam coming up based on schizophrenia, and learn better through visual videos, your very inspiring and strong, thank you for sharing xx
My wife is suffering from this disease and it is really difficult to live with patient but I have not quitted and I am solid as rock and love my wife.
Reading this made my day, i’ll be praying for you!
Inshallah she gets better brother. My mum is also going through the same.
Who’s gonna tell him? 👆🏽
Thank you for this reply. I had it deeply ingrained in me that people experiencing voices or visions are always suffering. This educated me.
@@Angel-ms7sf tell what who? Explain yourself or elaborate because you’re making no sense
She’s actually so strong , I really like how they talk about this in a non- stigmatised way . I think the stigma is definitely the hardest thing .
Charlotte Levy its not stigma.. its called being insecure. Get over it or continue being miserable.
Same here. Thank you for posting this.
@@leafhidden big man hasn't walked in a schizophrenic's boots for a mile.
Strong people face the world for what it is. And they don't live with Daddy at 32 years of age popping pills making excuses not to get a job.
@@pavichtv.4942 you would sound
Less of a fool if you didn’t split people along the lines of strong good weak bad the world needs a bit of everyone
This illness is no joke; scary.
I hope you find peace
My elder bro is diagnosed with schizo. It's a rollercoaster ride. My heart goes out to all people who suffer from this debilitating mental illness.
You know what scares me most? It's the American health system, it's just horrible!
Yet people still want to come here. I wish my family stayed in Italy. We know now this place is NOT paradise.
🤦♀️
LostPrty not where I live it’s not
MONSTER ENERGYDRINKS America is not better than 99.99% of the world.
MONSTER ENERGYDRINKS im not. America is a pretty shit country and thats on Jah
My brother died homeless on a sidewalk found by a person at 10am in the morning in El Paso in 2014. I learned of this in 2016 after looking for him since my late 20's. He was a Vietnam Vet. Had so much promise, so incredibly talented, my big brother, I miss him so.....he was given the shock treatments.....
I’m so sorry to hear that about your brother x
Sad your brother was a hero but left to die on streets God bless you sorry for your loss
ok the shock tratement is not giving to people with schizophrenia.....im recieving ECT its not what you see in tv or hear about.....its one of the most effictive treatment to heal depression ....so stop lying
@@havanaice1004 hey- they did used to treat Schizophrenia with ECT- my aunt had it for this purpose. Why assume they are lying just because this is not your
experience?
@@havanaice1004 i was told by a nurse during a stay at a psychiatric unit, that ECT was used to treat aggression in patients. also, an elderly woman in a wheelchair was receiving regular electro-convulsive shock therapy sessions. make of that what you will. P.S. she didnt get any less bizarre, i can assure you.
So happy she has this kind of support. For her partner to say it comes naturally. What a blessing. Being bipolar, I can understand the struggle with mental health. And to have someone that seems so happy to be there like he seems to be, it makes me so happy for her that it brings tears to my eyes
My grandmother had paranoid schizophrenia in the 1940's, and we think my autistic son has it as well, but he is medicated, at least. I appreciate hearing from you what it is like.
My birth mom has paranoid schizophrenia. I was taken away from her and put into foster when I was four. She was so mentally unstable that she unknowingly almost killed me.
My adopted mom always portrayed schizophrenia as scary. She frequently implied that all people with schizophrenia are crazy and aren’t capable of accomplishing anything in life. Whenever I hear mental health professionals ask questions that pertain to its symptoms, it scares me, even to this day.
My adopted mom frequently told me to keep my mental health in check so I don’t end up like my birth mom. Yet, she was in complete and utter denial that I had mental illness even though I have documented diagnoses for two mental illnesses and one neurological disorder. It’s hard to keep your mental health in check when you have to literally go on your knees and beg your parent to get you professional help. It’s hard to keep your mental health in check when you have go behind their back to get medication that is necessary for you to function even though you’re of age. It’s hard to keep your mental health in check when your parent says that you are choosing to be depressed and live in darkness. It’s hard to keep your mental health in check when you aren’t aware that being anxious, sad, and tired all the time isn’t normal.
Words can’t describe how nice it is to be able to see an unstigmatized perspective about what having paranoid schizophrenia is like. My perspective on this mental illness is forever changed. I’m glad that she is able to get the professional help she needs and has people who genuinely support her instead of dehumanizing her because of her mental health struggles. I hope that she will be able to live the best life possible with the people she loves the most.
Trust me, you are not alone in this. I'm in a similar situation, except I didn't leave my mother until I was sixteen because I have siblings to protect. I now live with my father who doesn't take me seriously. Even if he did, the insurance won't cover medication or therapy. I don't know how old you are, but if you can keep your grades up in high school, you can escape to university for a while. They have temporary counseling services for when you're in crisis. It's not much, but it's better than being stuck in a home with a parent who doesn't take your condition seriously. I'm rooting for you. 💪
Iam sure that no mother will try to kill her baby I really think was somthing manipulating her the divil and his demon rules this world remember that.iam sure that was not your mother but all this demons acting up on her.
Idali Romo What an ignorant and insensitive response.
My heart goes out to you and your birth mom, more than you could ever know. God bless you both.
Yes, empathy goes a long way ❤️
Imagine living with this before modern medicine. That would have been literally hell.
Actually before modern “medicine”, these people were considered “gifted”. “Modern medicine” medicates anything that takes someone outta the herd. People think it makes them “better” because they can be back in the herd again. It’s really really sick and disturbing.
@@notsure5876 I respectfully disagree!
@@sierrachoco5271 thank you. I love individuality. Respect to you as well. My first two sentences were in reference to historical fact. Ancient (and much more advanced civilizations) regarded their “crazies” as the “shamans” of their communities. They held them up rather than try “fix” them like we do today. They were aware that we humans only detect a small amount of the infinitely available information and that a few individuals were able to detect a little more than the others. The larger community respected and trusted these individuals to guide them in areas where the herd lacked those extra senses. There are tribal communities that still do this to this day.
The rest was my opinion about it. Subjective yes. I was born long enough ago that when I was a child and exhibited “symptoms” that were uncommon with the rest, I was tested and moved into a “gifted and talented” class with the other few like myself and our education was highly accelerated and advanced. We were teased by the others much how “elites” (not a bad word btw) are ridiculed in modern adult society today. I’m certain that today id be diagnosed add, adhd, bi-polar, psychotic and schizophrenic. For sure. Probably more.
Instead I spent my life performing a highly intricate trade and acquiring rare skills so, my “gifts” have always been highly in demand amongst discerning individuals. They too say I’m really lucky because society usually “medicates” people like me into nothingness. (Society)
When those people stopped participating in society altogether I didn’t have anything to do, and back out in society I was labeled with all these “illnesses” and I spent a few years diving into the modern industry of “self help”. I went everywhere from mental homes to “healers” and more. I labeled myself with every single label there is. I owned it. I felt “sick” and I was desperate for “help”. I’ve recently gotten back with my flock and I’m back to being around people who value creativity, ambition, drive, etc… and I now see what happened. I’ve put it into a children’s book about an eagle being raised by penguins.
I see how you can disagree with my opinion. We are all unique and interpret things differently. My opinion comes from my interpretation of a specific life experience. Life experience that I felt deeply. Just one perspective on a thing that is not “black and white”. There are many many ways to look at any given thing. We are taking on a platform where the masses have come up with an operating system and based on their understanding of their own invented way… they say people are “sick” and need “help”. I simply shared some historical facts along with my personal experience as just one other way of looking at the same question. Bc in all honesty it is just a question🤷🏻♂️…. Cheers
@@notsure5876 My option comes from my life experience as well, thank you for all of your insight on your own experiences - makes sense based on your perspective, Best wishes!!!
@@notsure5876 damn this hit me in all the right places! Your so fucking enlightened and I just know if we had one conversation it'd be epic. Don't ever stop being you ❤ your on to something
I don’t have schizophrenia but I’m very interested in this disorder because I’m always afraid of ppl behind me and other things mentioned in this video, and I’m very interested in the voices and hallucinations they seem very terrifying seeing or hearing them for the first time. So much respect to those who deal with these mental disorders.
go see a doctor,what you are experiencing could be early signs of schizophrenia
@@jatinpal7735 oh- i thought it was normal-
@@_dorchacht_ dont listen to that guy its most likely not true man I get the same things sometimes I'll get paranoid over ridiculous things but I do experience anxiety so that's probably it
I was talking with my friend earlier she said she gets paranoid too but she has an anxiety disorder and I don’t so idk
@@jatinpal7735 not true, being a bit paranoid is normal. I assume this girl meant like when she’s out walking she checks her back if she hears something etc. and psychosis would most likely be what’s happening if she had extreme symptoms
My dad had this :( it resulted with a divorce and his children being taken away from him and him sleeping with a shot gun :( he died recently
Edit: Just want to say thank you for the majority of nice comments :) regardless of what happened, I don’t wish death upon anyone. However I’m glad it’s over, I can’t imagine what it’s like to live you life in constant paranoia... I’m glad he’s finally at peace x
God Yerin ❤️❤️❤️❤️
oh my :( im so sorry. please stay strong.
Omg i'm sorry. Sure he's in a good place now. Fighting, buddy!
So sorry for your loss. Peace be with you.
So sorry for your loss. I hope he is at peace.
I conduct research on schizophrenia so it is great to see a video on the subject on such a big channel, people don't talk about it enough. I hope the stigma around it will be gone. I wish her all the best.
Vice just made the stigma worse ..This video is bs supporting big pharma Because she is labled schizophrenic she may be required by law to take meds ...Forced antipysch meds in jail and society is modern day eugenics
Your research is bs u are a big pharma pawn
Does your research show which gender suffers the most from this "paranoia"?
Pete T you’ve replied with your same irrelevant opinion on multiple comments. Get a life.
@@ailu5165 ya government forcing pushing antipsychotics is really irrelevant to this video....wake up u dunbass this vid isnt about a sad hipster girl its about government selling pills, end of story.
Thank you for sharing your story. I had to watch this video for school, and I commend what your are doing, educating and just being transparent about your struggles. I will keep you in my prayers. Keep doing what you are doing, you are helping so many people I am sure. 💌💌
that is really scary i cant believe how u cope. im so glad u do and i take my hat off to you. take care and well done for speaking out. :)
Good to see Vice still making cool documentaries. There was a lull but lately I've been very happy to see it coming back strong
Tyler LaRowe one of the better series vice has done!!
Yeah its so cool to see this 32 year old hipster lady forced drugs by big pharma .... shes sick shes dangerous.. big pharm give her more drugs!
Pete T clearly you didn’t watch the video 🙄
@@user-sh1gc3jk7l and this is why 10 year olds shouldn't be allowed on the internet
@@devinkhoury4490 This video is bs supporting big pharma Because she is labled schizophrenic she may be required by law to take meds ...Forced antipysch meds in jail and society is modern day eugenics
As someone who struggles with severe anxiety and depression, I do a lot of these things throughout my day. My life is modeled around my anxiety, I have a late shift at work cause I hate driving in the day. I only go to 24 hour stores so I can go late at night when no one is there. I either have to not be facing someone in a restaurant, or sit with my back against the wall. For those of you that live comfortably, don’t take it for granted.
Int3nseSt0n3r420 anxiety and depression????? Jesus. You just sound like a bitch. Everyone has anxiety and nobody is 100% happy with life. Grow up. Stop being a fucking baby and making excuses. I hate humans. So damn weak
Joe Budden then you don’t hate humans lol. if you hate something you’d do something about it. you don’t even know what you want yourself, and you just said weak beta? you lame as fuck
Joe Budden Hahaha because you’re miserable and have a shitty life you feel the need to project that on other people? The way you speak to someone you don’t know shows volumes about your character. No wonder why you’re bitter, with an attitude like that I wouldn’t have any friends or anybody that loves me either. Don’t worry bud, you’ll stop being angry one day. Whoever hurt you, let it go. It’s alright. Weak is someone who doesn’t know how to deal with or confront their emotions, you embody that. Ha, have a good morning!
Bro just wanted to say this is normal thing every human experiences and you dont need to be on powerful dangerous antipsychotics ... trust me if u go to a doctor they will say u have anxiety illness and must eat pills to help..... its risky bro eating pills...id say your normal bro be careful
Obviously people think having "anxiety" and "depression" is like having the common cold and you'll just get over it in a few weeks. Guess what, I've had the cold for over 10 years. Stop comparing. Please
Thank you for sharing your story my nephew just had his first episode everyone in the family is concerned. This shed a lot of light thank you.
My heart goes put to anyone dealing with this. God bless you
it’s really sweet that the boyfriend is so supportive of her and was respectful of her space when she needed the time apart. it’s very unfortunate that she deals with schizophrenia but at least she’s making the best of it and has the support. definitely one of my favorite vice videos
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She is one of the most emphatic soul I have ever seen. Despite her struggle she feels for those not as privileged as she is. What a heart of gold.
Im a paranoid schizophrenic and i hear voices and see things and its truly terrifying... sometimes i hear them in my head but other times i hear them around me ... i see things that feel real and thats what i struggle with.. when i have an episode i kinda black out and do strange things but i eventually come round with help ... i wont let anyone cook me food or make me a drink i dont like being in public much i tend to lock myself away because its much easier... i take 3 different types of medication and im also on an injection but i still have episodes... watching this breaks my heart for you because i feel exactly what you're going through... stay strong and keep up the battle you are strong and you will beat this ❤ all the best to you and anyone that suffers this horrible illness ❤❤❤
It has been said that about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL !! Unfortunately traditional modern medicine which is only about 350 years old, rejects ancient peoples beliefs (of more than 2,000 years) in the existence of spirits. Nowadays, if you tell a schizophrenia patient he might be influenced by spirits, doctors will think you're also CRAZY ! But no amount of DENIAL can negate their existence ! Like it or not they exists.
Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you, for themselves !! You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. I've had more than 20 years of this experience so I studied /researched them. I've been meds free for the last 15 years now.
You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, deadly accident or near-death experience If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs (via earphones) helps block the voices, even drives them away ! BTW this is NOT a substitute for NOT taking your meds. Take them if you need them. Good luck and Stay Safe.
Thank you for being so open. Thank you.
my mother was a paranoid schizophrenic. She would give me half a dollar so when i came back she could verify who i was, by matching up serial numbers. she would think that if we took her somewhere and then brought her back home, that it was a DUPLICATE of her apartment and that "people" were watching here. This was caused by drugs and my father, and genetic tendencies all mixed together. My father was a piece of shit. So he tells me one day that schizophrenia is hereditary and that i'll probably get it. A doctor told him this. So now when you get intuition you start to wonder................am I going crazy? But this is how my father dealt with people he saw lesser then himself in order to keep them in his sphere of control. Always create doubt about everything but him. it did this sorta alan watts thing to me. Worrying about worrying because worrying is known to lead to serious health issues. Now make someone paranoid about being paranoid, then making them paranoid about themselves when there is no reason either in reality or clinically to be paranoid.
Stay strong. There are many things that can cause illness, if anything you could just have anxiety. You got this. Even with bad anxiety I thought I was going “insane”. I thought I needed to go to a hospital and sometimes I’d feel like I’d see something out the corner of my eye. I personally wouldn’t have been surprised if I had schizophrenia because of how reckless I felt. Don’t worry. Trauma even from someone’s words is a huge thing. In the end these experiences will only make you stronger btw.
I'm sorry you were forced to worry about that. My aunt is the one that stopped me from worrying. She told me that I was too old to worry about having a mental illness. Most people start having symptoms either as teenagers or in their early twenties. After a certain age you can stop worrying because even if it runs in your family the probability is low.
I am sorry. But your dad was a plain dick. But don't worry. Don't get paranoid or push yourself hard. I have elder bro suffering from schizo. It did not affect me in anyway. But I can totally relate, when people feel extremely paranoid.
I had this problem when I was 14. I had a brain surgery and had a brain tumor removed. The brain was a bit swollen for some time I guess and I went trough the worst month of my life. Everything went back to normal after a while as it was induced by the intervention. I remember like living in Alice in Wonderland, just very dark and scary. I remember thinking that my real sickness was hidden from me by my family and I started developing hallucinations were I could see stains and problems on my skin. I am glad it is over it was hell.
You're a mk ultra victim
I am glad that you got better mate and God bless you
Hi I believe my sister might have a brain tumor and that’s why she’s acting schizophrenic they haven’t diagnosed her yet or givin her an mri, did you have any physical symptoms of a brain tumor? My sister is winking when you talk to her and having hallucinations, she’s in a mental institution right now waiting for an evaluation and it’s so crazy you said Alice in wonderland, she is in wonderland right now and my heart is breaking, I just posted something about Alice in wonderland on my IG for her 😥 how long were you having symptoms before you got checked out for brain tumor? And did they know right away?
@@brittanydoll2812 sorry for the late reply. I had bad headaches and couldn't move one of my eyes one day. Then they took me to the hospital and started with all the tests. I was lucky that I lived in Spain at the moment so all the cost was covered and they did all the tests necessary.
My advice is that you seek a doctor as soon as possible.
Listen, to those hearing voices in their heads, like me, you are not crazy. Unless you suffered a horrible head injury
in the past, or you binge on meth or LSD regularly there's nothing wrong with you medically. Don't waste your money on
endless therapy and medicine. The medicines only make you calm, often sleepy. But they are not permanent cures. So I did my
own research and found the root cause of the problem. Like me, you belong to the unique 10 % of the worlds population
that can hear and/or see spirits and entities. Yes, they are real and communicate with us regularly. They speak on a
certain wavelength or channel that only we can hear/see. The spirits belong to three basic groups - angels & demons,
spirits of dead people, and nature spirits or elementals (dwarves, fairies etc). I have already dealt with this sickness
for the last 22+ years of my life, 18 of them - medicine free. I am OK now. Of course, not all schizo-episodes are
caused by troubling spirits, but most of them are.
Spirits talk to us telepathically (mind to mind/or inner voice) and directly(outside voice) or by using mediums/other people.
They can distort speech to give it another meaning. For example, a friend is talking pleasantly to you but instead you hear
curses and mockery. That way you become angry with him/her. Sometimes you think you can read other peoples thoughts when in
fact the spirits are just creating an illusion. This is where your paranoia / persecution complex sets in. The bad spirits
want to make you paranoid, to be isolated socially. They also want to harm you and others physically and verbally.
How do the spirits enter our world ? Normal people are protected by an invisible force-field or an "aura". When you have a sinful
lifestyle/vice, or are a victim of sexual abuse, bullying, or with unresolved anger, bitterness/sorrow, rejection, or suffer great financial loss,
death of a loved one, or loss of faith etc, that aura is affected/broken. Our third eye/ ear is often activated after a traumatic event. When that happens the spirits can get to us. We usually start hearing voices, seeing visions/illusions, imagining things etc. You can also pick up troubled spirits from hospitals, asylums, morgues, haunted houses, dungeons etc - places of great misery & suffering or death.
Like people, there are good and bad spirits. The bad spirits purpose is to isolate you socially and cause depression. My
experience (90%) were mostly bad. Like magicians, the spirits can create all kinds of visual and/or auditory illusions- like
breaking glass, slamming doors, dragging chains, seeing shadows, pounding walls, crying babies, angels appearing, missing small
items etc. The spirits can imitate your parents or friends voices. They can even speak through animals. On the other hand, the
good spirits only intervene when things are life threatening or when you're about to commit a deadly sin. They also give ideas
and inspiration for projects and investments. Some of the good spirits are our own dead relatives or loved ones. You must test
the spirits if they are good or bad. Some bad spirits can also pretend to be good at first.
Most doctors know only the physical/medical aspect of our condition. They ignore the spiritual realm. So they come up with all sorts of
theories about our fucked up brains and bodies, or our past shame/guilt or unconscious desires etc. That we are suffering
from a chemical imbalance etc. They can't cure you permanently because they really don't know what is happening and they
refuse to accept the idea of outside force or spirit activity. Its like the blind leading another blind. But, don't go to
mediums and channelers, they will only bilk you for money. Go instead to a priest or pastor who will help. But beware, a
few of the bad spirits will fight back and may even return later.
I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia about 4 to 5 years ago
It is very difficult to live with
People often ask me about my voices
But I fell like for me the thing I struggle with is the thoughts that come into my head
Yeah people always think its voices. Mines the thoughts. I still think its normal its amazing to now k ow others dont have internal conversations so strange to me
Allie should be incredibly proud of how well she is dealing with this illness.
It’s amazing that she is working with an organisation to help others.
The world’s perception of mental health is getting better as each year passes, we are all paving a way for future challenges being easier to tackle than ever before.
Good luck and health everyone✌️
My uncle dealt with this his whole life and honestly I loved him a great deal. He was a wonderful man and he suffered greatly.
SOCIETY NEEDS TO STOP MASS PRODUCING ANTIPSYCH MEDS THEN GO LOOKING FOR CUSTOMERS!
Pete T thank you of medicine worked people wouldn’t have to take it all the time. Medicine is the work of the devil it’s a sign of the times as well. It’s the “new age hero” but it’s really the great deception that has plagued this earth
@@shaudaeyoakumify true that great deception plague in terms of ant ipsychotic drugs
"No wonder I can't see" *grabs glasses* LITERALLY ME
Thank you for doing this work, folks. It's so so so so needed.
I'm so impressed with her! I have a fraction of her mental issues and have a very hard time dealing with them sometimes. For several years I was dealing with minor psychosis and seeing shadows in corners and hearing a voice that I could never describe very well, but her saying "if a shadow could yell" it was definitely like that. The voice would sound like there was someone right behind me by my ear and would yell-whisper my name very loudly in my ear. Luckily my doctors eventually found the right mix of meds and it has gone away, but it was a very scary time.
i have to say it. she reminds me of sadness from inside out
spaceface 777 unfortunately the anti psychotics really dull your personality/ ability to feel strong emotions.
more like exhaustion. the illness is unbelievably draining.
You did not have to say that. If she sees your comment, she will probably get sad.
I disagree, she reminds me of hope
The clothing colors say it to me to but she’s such an inspiration
I’ve only been diagnosed a few years and I’m 18, but I still have never had the opportunity to talk to anyone with the same thing I have. I have also never heard someone’s story so similar to mine. It makes me feel less alone in all of this mess.
Go talk to a specialist mate! Wish u the best.
Listen, to those hearing voices in their heads, like me, you are not crazy. Unless you suffered a horrible head injury
in the past, or you binge on meth or LSD regularly there's nothing wrong with you medically. Don't waste your money on
endless therapy and medicine. The medicines only make you calm, often sleepy. But they are not permanent cures. So I did my
own research and found the root cause of the problem. Like me, you belong to the unique 10 % of the worlds population
that can hear and/or see spirits and entities. Yes, they are real and communicate with us regularly. They speak on a
certain wavelength or channel that only we can hear/see. The spirits belong to three basic groups - angels & demons,
spirits of dead people, and nature spirits or elementals (dwarves, fairies etc). I have already dealt with this sickness
for the last 22+ years of my life, 18 of them - medicine free. I am OK now. Of course, not all schizo-episodes are
caused by troubling spirits, but most of them are.
Spirits talk to us telepathically (mind to mind/or inner voice) and directly(outside voice) or by using mediums/other people.
They can distort speech to give it another meaning. For example, a friend is talking pleasantly to you but instead you hear
curses and mockery. That way you become angry with him/her. Sometimes you think you can read other peoples thoughts when in
fact the spirits are just creating an illusion. This is where your paranoia / persecution complex sets in. The bad spirits
want to make you paranoid, to be isolated socially. They also want to harm you and others physically and verbally.
How do the spirits enter our world ? Normal people are protected by an invisible force-field or an "aura". When you have a sinful
lifestyle/vice, or are a victim of sexual abuse, bullying, with unresolved anger, bitterness/sorrow, rejection, or great financial loss,
death of a loved one, loss of faith etc, that aura is affected/broken. When that happens the spirits can get to us. We usually
start hearing voices, seeing visions/illusions, imagining things etc. You can also pick up troubled spirits from hospitals, asylums,
morgues, haunted houses, dungeons etc - places of great misery & suffering or death.
Like people, there are good and bad spirits. The bad spirits purpose is to isolate you socially and cause depression. My
experience (90%) were mostly bad. Like magicians, the spirits can create all kinds of visual and/or auditory illusions- like
breaking glass, slamming doors, dragging chains, seeing shadows, pounding walls, crying babies, angels appearing, missing small
items etc. The spirits can imitate your parents or friends voices. They can even speak through animals. On the other hand, the
good spirits only intervene when things are life threatening or when you're about to commit a deadly sin. They also give ideas
and inspiration for projects and investments. Some of the good spirits are our own dead relatives or loved ones. You must test
the spirits if they are good or bad. Some bad spirits can also pretend to be good at first.
Most doctors know only the physical/medical aspect of our condition. They ignore the spiritual realm. So they come up with all sorts of
theories about our fucked up brains and bodies, or our past shame/guilt or unconscious desires etc. That we are suffering
from a chemical imbalance etc. They can't cure you permanently because they really don't know what is happening and they
refuse to accept the idea of outside force or spirit activity. Its like the blind leading another blind. But, don't go to
mediums and channelers, they will only bilk you for money. Go instead to a priest or pastor who will help. But beware, a
few of the bad spirits will fight back and may even return later.
@@nba7776 best comment on RUclips. Much respect!!!!
@@nba7776 in my experience, once I was able to transcend this idea of “good” and “bad”, it took on a whole new dimension. I enjoy my gift to the fullest.
“Good” and “bad” are concepts developed by the same society that says you are sick while they are blind. The only way to really embrace the gift is to try release all the preconceived notions installed in us during our conditioning. All of them.
@@notsure5876 Thanks
I grew up with a uncle that had this condition its hard and i appreciate your story because it will help people understand and raise awareness.
Thank you so much for your bravery Allie! ❤ My husband suffers the same way you do and I watch these things to learn how to better support him. Thank you again!
Finally something not smoking, meme or pop culture related. Keep up the good work VICE!
u forgot about drug dealer related
Or the clown in the white office.
Or that thanksgiving video how to roll a joint shaped like a turkey, Thanks *VICE* ! 🤣🤣
Drug Dealers talk about how to treat drug dealers.
This video is bs supporting big pharma Because she is labled schizophrenic she may be required by law to take meds ...Forced antipysch meds in jail and society is modern day eugenics
Damn, I'm 32 years old too and live with my dad and also am on anti-psyhcodic meds. Feels bad. Like I'm wasting my whole life away.
Mike Suopys You aren’t wasting your life. Never think that. Your life is your own experiences and unique to you.
That’s right it’s your own path and journey
Love yourself don’t compare to other
Love 💕 has the way
Take the medicine and save money and buy some dumbbells then exercise and eat your dinners and stay sober and as time goes by and the exercise starts to work and people that you fancy now fancy you and. ..........
Read.
Mike Suopys don’t give up mate people want to be with you so I will tell you a training secret do if you can save money up buy some weights
But first go to the supermarket and buy extra milk and buy milk powder and a milk shake mixture with added vitamins like vitamin b12 that is the first part then buy unless you already have a big bowl to mix
Your protein shake get a cup or beaker and pour in the milk then add the milk powder in with an egg whisk then that will be about two dessert spoons of powdered milk and then whisk and when it’s frothy add a good bit of milk shake powder like nesquik
About one dessert spoon and whisk until it’s even more frothy and pour it carefully into the beaker or big cup then drink it and rest then after about twenty minutes do deep knee bends or squats do about twelve and then repeat it twice then press ups but against the kitchen sink
Providing it’s strong enough and do that twelve times twice
Then if you have not got weights then improvise with magazines or save drinks bottles of about two litres and try doing a curl it will be difficult at first but don’t get disheartened
It warms my heart so much that she found such an incredible soul to be with. Delon seems like the most supportive, kind, empathetic boyfriend I think I've ever seen. What a great, lovely man.
I've been working in medical detoxes and psych wards for over 9 years now. And I will admit... I never thought I'd see someone who manages schizophrenia so well. I truly can say is didn't know people could. What a strong woman you are and anyone suffering from mental health. I'm in nursing school now and plan on working mental health. I've suffered from ADHD, anxiety, and depression. And I can tell you what! She is so right... the meds will totally kick ur butt. You rock! And you rock too!
I'm afraid of this label. I have kids and I don't want anyone to suggest that I'm a bad mother because of my mental health. But at this age I want to finally address my mental health and help me.
Take care
As a paranoid schizophrenic, I totally understand. I hate the label. There’s such an unfair stigma behind the word “schizophrenia”. So many people would think I’m certifiably insane if I told them what I was dealing with.
Don't be afraid. You can do this.
Though I have Bipolar, I finally had to break down and get help. It helps soooo much reaching out.
It’s okay to be scared. You can do this, you are not a bad mother. You’re a good mother for recognizing that you need help. Take care, you can do it.
Getting help will be the best option for the well-being of your own children. You need to take care of yourself in order to take care of other people.
AWEEEEE HER AND HER BOYFRIEND ARE SO CUTE AND HE SEEMS SO UNDERSTANDING AND SWEET 🥺🥺🥺
The empathy is so strong💞I just want to cry as I have no idea how to explain my experiences and whether they're real or not to be able to tell anyone. No one believes me when I've tried to open up or taken me seriously. I'm so glad there are people who do get help and are able to cope better. It comforts me that maybe it is possible.
The internet is more anonymous and the people commenting on what I'm doing/saying/typing aren’t talking about me.
This is what real journalism looks like
Maybe if vice was not owned by disney it be more believable
DJ Chai Wallah lol no
Poor girl...don't give up. So glad she has a boyfriend and has her dad around . Stay strong 💪
Big pharma is hurting her more then her made up "illness"
This video is bs supporting big pharma Because she is labled schizophrenic she may be required by law to take meds ...Forced antipysch meds in jail and society is modern day eugenics
Pete T that may have been YOUR experience but I see a well functioning woman dealing with her illness
Exactly, as having family & friend's support is critical with any major illness or injury.
I learned this when I was almost killed by a drunk driver and got the opposite of support from my dad and his family...
@@user-sh1gc3jk7l can't tell if stupid or trolling...