I Regret Everything《Bukimi ★ English》

DISCLAIMER/WARNING: This series of songs contains dark themes such as self-loathing, anxiety, depression, & vague mentions of suicide. This series of songs is strictly about Peiton, Leigh, and Bukimi and their struggles with mental illness. Also, do not let the colorful fictional lives of fictional characters with mental issues dictate anything you do in your personal lives!
If you are having a rough time, try calling or texting 988 if you need to speak with someone. It is a suicide and/or crisis hotline that is available 24 hours in the day.
[Chapter 2]
Christine had a bad habit of self-destruction. Because of their personal struggles with mental health, it was rather difficult for her to keep friends. Throughout the years, they learned to keep to herself. One day she met Peiton, a seemingly nice and bright young fellow with a seemingly bright future. They didn't immediately jump into a friendship because of self-doubt (on both sides). She began to unlearn her self-destructive behavior, but it was too late by the time she bettered herself. Peiton always kept his cards close to his chest, never showing any weakness, so Chris had no idea Peiton was going through quite possible the worst emotional turmoil he had ever experienced. Chris took notice in this and asked him if he was okay. In a fit of panic, Peiton said, "You aren't helping me right now!" Christine was shocked but she had a feeling she knew what was happening next. Her only friend to last longer than 3 months was about to abandon her, so she had planned to overdose, obviously not telling Peiton or holding that up against his conscience. She was at rock bottom. Regretting everything they had ever done. She wasn't who she wanted to be.
Days later, Chris is sorting through her medicine cabinet to do the unthinkable. Peiton came knocking on Chris' apartment door to apologize to her for having witnessed his mental breakdown, as soon as she heard the knock, she closed the medicine cabinet empty handed. The minute she opened the door, she hugged Peiton and they both burst into tears. They acknowledged that they both had a lot of mental issues to sort out, but they were willing to help each other out if need be. Thus marked the beginning of the process of healing. Christine for the first time in their life didn't regret anything.
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[Lyrics]
[Verse 1]
As bleak as emoting
The sorrows that draw my demise
Bittersweet like an ending
An ending of one of your favorite shows
I'm not who I wanna be
Yet, in my heart I do not grieve
And so I drown in hypocrisy
Of regretting all and nothing
[Chorus]
It's amazing, I regret everything
Yet, I still can't find myself regretting anything
It's a bug in my code
A contradiction, I suppose
I don't know how to cope
Overdose?
No, that was never my goal
Now what?
It's amazing I regret everything!
[Verse 2]
As savage as mankind,
humanity's not hard to possess
If Hell's really waiting for me, I'm
Defined by all of my regret
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
I was over the moon when I had friends
To help me through the good and bad
But nothing ever lasted forever
Cause of my own self-destructive past
[Chorus]
[Chorus]
That was never my goal
That was never my goal
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Great work, once again ;w;b

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banger!

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THEY DID THAT

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REVIVAN A BUKIMI!!!!!!