I want you to pause and to thank yourself. You’re still here, you’re fighting and you’re trying to cope. You’re trying your best to resolve your trauma, so thank yourself for doing so. Don’t be mean to yourself, you’re trying your best ❤️ and I know not everybody understands your behaviors and your feelings, but that’s because they don’t have the same past as you ! You’re extremely courageous, never forget that !!! and I want you to be proud of yourself. Just know that I understand you and I love you, fellow human. Don’t you worry, just keep trying, everything will eventually fall in place and you’ll feel better soon. ❤️❤️❤️
@@aquamarineblue8690 Please don't give up. Yes I know it is hard but I also know you re going to make it through!!! You are loved, awesome , enough. If you feel that things are getting too much to cope with, please seek help, there is always hope. Best wishes and I hope you re well right now!
@@aquamarineblue8690 I’ve asked myself that question a lot of times because I was really suffering and I felt like everything was hopeless... but I swear to you it’s so worth it !!! A day will come where everything will seem so much more clear and peaceful. I swear to you, just continue doing what you do, you’re so brave ! Life is soooo beautiful, I began to see it only lately. I may never understand how you feel, and I’m sending you love because you may be in a really tough situation or feeling really really down. I’m so sorry and I’m just here to tell you, go on my friend, one day you will thank yourself ❤️ have a beautiful day ✨
As a child growing up witnessing my mother being beaten by my father, I was numb. So numb. It only took me 7 years later in university, to acknowledge that I was indeed traumatized. I was regaining memories; both positive and negative only as an adult that my childhood self had repressed. Watching videos like these videos to scientifically figure out about what had happened to me psychologically is REALLY difficult, because I just start crying no matter how many times I acknowledge that it has happened. Its emotionally draining as it leaves me thinking about it the whole day. But, this decision to study it as a self-learning path to recovery is worth it. That way I will finally understand why I am, me today.
"I stayed there for the children" .... the lamest excuse ever. - I can understand that a woman is frightened to leave or has Stockholm Syndrome - but one should not let co-dependent women get away with that self deception
you might want to check out EFT regarding your trauma (you can also use it for self help - and there are therapists who use it as additional tool to boost conventional therapy). As practicioners who also supply instructions, articles, info I can name eftuniverse run by Dawson Church - that's is a good adress (also about PTSD, veteran's project etc). Julie Schiffmann has some good videos on youtube (I think on the Mercola channel). Good beginners explanations and tap alongs - EFT is meridian tapping). Or Karin Davidson, Alina Frank, Gwyneth Moss, Andy Hunt. And last but not least of course Gary Craig who gave EFT to the world (good info but for beginners maybe a little too deep digging - the other names keep it more simple for beginners). just avoid the "salesy people" (I read the title "Shamanic EFT for wealth" - or 6 figures or something on a youtube video recently - from THAT kind of instruction you want to stay away !) eftuniverse will send you plenty of mails, to be sure - but they will respect your unsubscribe, and are honest players. The site offers a lot of value - and someone HAS to pay for the scientific studies etc. The names I gave you - off the cuff - know what they are doing, and are well trained, responsible practicioners. Take care !
Below Freezing see also Dr. Peter A. Levine for Somatic Experiencing...his method of getting rid of trauma in his patients! He has written many books & there are about 12,000 practitioners! Best wishes!
Wow, this explains why memory is decreased in a traumatic event. Thank you for making such a complicated effect understandable, thus hopefully, leading to a more compassionate response in those of us working with people who have experienced trauma in their lives.
There are no less memories in trauma. It's just whether one can access them. Traumatic amnesia is when your mind can't handle recalling a memory or memories. You could say decreased access to memories.
It is like a living nightmare that you have to experience alone. You have to put on your everything's normal face and try to cope. It sucks and I hope this video makes people understand what it's like. It's not a light switch you can just turn on or off.
Religion drove me crazy too. It taught me to hate myself to the point I have tried to murder parts of my self. I once did five cases of beer and 3 large whiskeys a few summers ago. I had to stop because I almost suffered a coronary infarction. If I see parts of my self in others and they are within my boundaries I will go into a bi polar manic depressive rage right at them. That's how much I have learned to hate myself. I too have started to fear hell to the point I question my existence. I believe myself to be evil and dammed and that's why things go wrong in my life. I believe God is punishing me for being a terrible child to my mother and if this is the case I fear what God will do to me if I stray. I am thinking about writing a book on every terrible bratty thing I did to my mom. Like the time I messed up the nice wooden council TV she worked hard for so we could have it nice. I put flies in the tv and a frog and some how I believe flys go in the picture tube because a big fly shadow would show up and tv would go bizt. Finally it blew out and all that was left was sound. My mom told me one day we are going to Port Town TV to have it fixed she said it was a long drive. She said I had to come with. She said we are going to Port Town TV and I said "You son of a bitch!" It's like that song by Faith No More, I thinks it's called caffeine. He sings "It's not funny any more. As suffer karma to the point I can't take it no more It's like the part in the song as he says do got something to tell me and yells "I'm warning you, I'm f'king you I'm warning you.
But your not alone. Because I am right by your side. I have experienced it and put the mask on for years. Now I am devoting my life to help others through it so they are not alone and helping educate families so they know how to help there loved ones. Smile you are loved!!
Oh my god, this video is so important. I dealt with a lot of childhood trauma, and most of the time I isolate myself to keep from making others upset. Yet, I get called a terrible person for isolating myself. I try to tell people why but they don't understand. I'm going to share this because this is super important, thank you for making this video !!
i can't tell how much i relate with what you say, i isolate myself too and get called selfish or addicted even to being alone, even though all i want is for me to stop making people upset. :(
I can't say how many times over the years I asked my partner not to yell my name in the house. It made me jump no matter how she tried to do it. I have had others "scare me" or jump out at me and I have asked them not to do that. Most people who have never experienced trauma like I have, are clueless. My startle response is off the charts and it sucks but luckily the people who love me listen. I left the one who wouldn't after 15 years, thank God.
@@Mushroom321- I'm so glad you said this. I'd never have thought that classical music would've been something that calmed me but I noticed a couple of months ago how relaxed I felt when trying to deal with whatever was going on and it's been amazing. I'm a 31 Scottish guy listening to classical music, who'd have thought it haha
@@purplefish0947 I agree, people can be very rude. I also hate whenever people are like this. I don’t have PTSD, but something happened when I was 10, and seemingly out of nowhere, plain effects of trauma pops out of the blue. Kinda scared that if I tell anyone else (specifically an adult, or someone who deals with trauma specifically) then they won’t believe me.
I suffered from PTSD as well so I can relate to being triggered. Fortunately, there are many great interventions such as EMDR (highly recommend), CBT, REBT etc... that can address the triggers. CBT/REBT is great for addressing the triggers and EMDR is great for reducing/diminishing physical symptoms such as anxiety, disorientation, dissociation etc.. If you are spiritual I recommend transmutative healing (process of taking out negative energy and transforming it to positive energy). There are many amazing things to help it's just a matter of finding what works best for you :) Recovery is possible! Sending love and healing your way!
I was traumatized many times before age 9. But at age 9, I was driven to strangers home and never given back to my mother. I was a foster kid. The trauma of that first night in a strange home away from my mother is one of the major traumas, however, there are many more I somehow live with. I’ve become schizophrenic and PTSD is annoying. I cannot stop feeling fight or flight in every situation.
That explains a lot with reactions. I never understood why I froze that time, and it always made me feel horrible that I did instead of fighting, but now I feel relived to know it’s normal to freeze in a traumatic moment. Thank you.
I can't remember the past much from blocking out so much abuse in life 😢 I am very forgetful and still have a lot of pain inside I pray everyday just to be healed from the pain
I always had a sense that trauma changes how your brain works but I could never really explain it to someone I was talking to and I remember being told to just let go of my past and stop thinking about the incident years later (which I don't) and now I know why that didn't sit right with me. I know they were coming from a place of love but it just shows they lacked understanding. I have major social anxiety and now I understand my brain has just been in constant survival mode and I know very well where it stems from. I also realized that I have anxiety of sleep or falling asleep, I've been trying to understand where that comes from. But going back I uncovered memories of people who hurt me and remembered why I distanced myself from them and how they made me suicidal
I vividly remember the day after I found my dad face down in a puddle of his own blood and I was at school (nobody could look after us as they were all at the hospital) and a teacher literally said "just go in and act like nothing has happened", I was 13 - my best friend (dad) was in a coma with little chance of waking up. Took me over 15 years to come to terms with it all, still feel guilty about possibly sleeping through cries for help but that moment the teacher said that changed me forever. I'm not a year away from qualifying as a mental health nurse 😀
as someone whos had to survive psychosimatic trauma. this not only does the subject and the people suffering from trauma justice, but helps those who see it and dont recognize it to identify and assist the people in their lives. to the people who worked hard on this i say: thank you.
As a victim of sexual assault through out my life staring at about the age 9, this video is very important. I wish schools would show more things like this maybe I wouldn’t have felt so alone and gross and helpless if someone was there to show me that my freeze response was normal and that it’s not my fault. I wish the world didn’t cover these things up because they are “inappropriate” or children to see you know what is inappropriate telling a child that if there bra strap is showing they are asking to be raped I was 10! I shouldn’t have been happy when I found out breast cancer runs in my family and that if I got it I would have to get my breasts removed I shouldn’t have had to worry about if my training bra fit right or if the strap slipped I shouldn’t have been scared when I stared to develop breast faster than the other girls. I shouldn’t have been scared of my own body
I was in a bad car accident where my husband was driving. This was years ago, but to this day if we’re driving and I fall asleep in the passengers side and I feel him “brake,” I without fail LEAP out of my seat and gasp for air. My whole body goes into flight mode and I feel like I’m about to die. This video is extremely helpful to learn about the science of trauma!
Wow same here! I have been through a very similar situation. I was the passenger as well. Til this day i will never go to sleep in a car again and i hate road trips.
Very well done. I think this video is a clear and non-patronizing presentation on the effects of trauma, including complex trauma. Thank you for this resource.
My father was very abused and abused our family. He had substance abuse issues (massive drinker) and was verbally and physically abusive. I have no memories the first decade of my life. Found out he sexually abused my sister and tried to kill my mom. Later in my life, living in denial, I tried to have a relationship due to the emotional connection from said abuse. It's very confusing. Anyway my biological "father" completley intoxicated was bragging about how he use to sexaully abuse me and even said "that I liked it" ...I froze and glad i did. Today I am learning to trust and trying to balance the feelings and thought of what it would feel like to eradicate him and others like him. ~Enter God and forgivness.
Wow.... as someone just recently diagnosed with ptsd this really helps me put the pieces together. I've been struggling to grasp what exactly is happening to my brain, some days I've even felt I was losing my mind but this has given me a greater understanding of exactly what's happening. Thank you so much. I have learnt a great deal from this video
I once watched a car accident - nothing really bad happened luckily - but the rush of adrenaline when I saw that car turn over on the highway made me unfit to be a witness. I should have been able to tell who did what in the lanes at the highway - but I literally couldn't. The adrenaline had swept my higher brain empty - so to speak. What I do know - there was plenty of traffic cars were driving in a sort of convoy, some switching of lanes going on, they all had sort of too little distance for the speed - so I asked the driver to keep some distance and we continued to chat - served us well, we could avoid the collision.I think one minute later the crash happened.
I have a history of trauma and have been diagnosed with CPTSD as well as a dissociative disorder.I also deveoped TLE(simple partial,complex partial,and grand mal seizures) as the result of trauma(I believe) which caused bipolar and ADHD symptoms(I have diagnosed with both).After decades of healing I am seizure free,medication free,and happy and healthy.Healing is not easy but so worthwhile and most importantly you deserve to be free from your traumatic past!Namaste
This really helped explain all of my childhood symptoms and experiences... I REALLY REALLY WISH I could remeber anything. Anything that would be useful but I always give everyone a blank face and come out the same way I came in. Thanks anyways
My husband and I teach pure and applied self defense and the beginning of the video explaining adrenaline and brain function is something we teach in first hour of classes and our entire curriculum is how to manage and navigate this in a violent confrontation or attack. We also discuss survival mindset and how to access it under extreme stress and our psychological tools. And we always address trauma and educate the facts on this topic. Education is key! This is a fantastic video! Well done!
The worst thing is not being able to explain why you get agitated or what happens when you dissociate to your lived ones. You have to carry the extra guilt of hurting the ones who love you most.
I grew up with a controlling mom, was constantly bullied at school, and was married to a person like my mom for 41 years before I left the marriage. I have been triggered for the last couple of months and had a meltdown last week. Watching this video is very helpful. I now understand myself a bit more. Thank you
🙂alot of people are going through trama and they don't even know it im glad that I knew what was going on with me an I can change it so I can change for the better... I tstruggle with trama an I will over come
great video. people going through trauma can also try to go for healing. I have personally healed many people from childhood traumas to accident traumas and many more.
Thank you for making this, it's so important that we understand what is happening, and then we can share with our family's. We are the first generation with this information and we need to be able to go from recovery to remission, and able to explain what is happening for us. Recovery is definitely possible.
I think of it like a seed of problems later on, not the lone cause. I had many problems, troubles and more traumatic experiences as follow ups, cause nobody knowed what was going on. When ther're no classical/logical memories of times/events, there're often memories of feelings and maybe pain or discomfort in a affected area of the body. I finally go through therapy and we tried it over this affected areas to reach for the old stuff. Events happening in my infanty, before the age of 1. We succeeded. It feeled quite easy, in comparison, at activation but troubled me the whole week since. What means, it's probably a good thing to work with later. But first it hurts like hell and startled the whole squad of mental illness I have, by making it resurface. It's a bunch of feelings, sensations and pain that where ever there, but now lay more bare and visible. Letting me understand many things about me even better and giving a opportune to work on the whole thing from the roots up too the veins that hinder myself to function and thrive in everyday life. The body remembers too but different than the concise way we're used to experience and work with.
This was incredibly helpful in understanding myself after trauma. I had 2 traumatic events happen to me 2 months apart & I’ve felt a change in myself. Thank y’all
this video is so much needed. thank you so much i’ve had so many trauma’s in my life.. i still don’t understand how i’m still here on earth on my own two feet. trauma has made me such a different person :( but also i know how to make better or wisely choices. much love to all my survivors of traumas
Growing up with narcissistic parents ， I have been so traumatized to the point that I can’t function , can’t even walk or take a shower, and my father enjoys this so I am totally depend on him so he can do and say what ever he wants to me. He gets jealous of my achievements ,he put me down, stop me from graduating stop me from making friend and work . I have so much trauma but the memories are fragmented, I don’t know how can I recover , and how long will it take while I am trying to hide from my father
Complex PTSD from childhood abuse can be from emotional, mental, physical or sexual abuse....not just sexual abuse. Apart from that bit this is an excellent video about trauma and it's effects on a person. Good job :D. Love
This has been my major problem caused by years of trauma from abuse. I always freeze and when I freeze my brain does to and I could not think for the whole day. Thus, it made me immobile even when I have lots of things needed to do as an adult. But I got help from Sovereign Health, they knew wht they were doing the programs helped my mental being and me to be able to react properly on situations where I used to just freeze and shut down. Truly helpful to get help from proper treatment facilities.
I've been in therapy to understand my traumas. My last relationship caused me so much trauma that my underlying issues surfaced enough to warrant a Borderline Personality diagnosis. For a while, if I wasn't numb and apathetic, I was angry. I didn't know any other way to exist because my other emotions were too difficult to handle. I was easily overwhelmed and triggered into irritation by the simplest things (even considering my ADHD). Those close to me told me that they were concerned because I'd become so hateful, and I tried to explain to them why. They tried their best to be patient and understanding, and I always apologized if I lashed out. I've made progress.
Right after my traumatic event when it ended i felt numb, guilt, anger. Áll of these feeling at once and about 2 hours later my brain was completely weird and i began to laugh at it. 7 months later i taught i was over it and when someone mentions it or someone calls me who i dont know i get massive anxiety. Beacuse its linked to my traumatic event (i prefer not to share it)
This hits home so much is hard to watch, the kid's clip were really relatable, i feel better to know more but also sadder to face those things. The most elucidating part was "the perspective creates the trauma" reminded me stoicism too and made me want to hit myself for forgetting. Excellent production, just so good, one of the most important videos ivee saw.
I was listening in the background while getting ready for work. My first thought was, "I know I've seen that police procedural before" and I was trying to figure out which show it was. Well done production and very complete. I'm glad to see that law enforcement is getting some training in this. It should be part of basic training for the entire educational, criminal justice, legal and medical systems - not just us mental health workers. In my experience, everyone experiences some type of trauma - both first hand and vicarious - at some point in their life. The younger you are when you experience it and the more trauma you experience, the greater the damage and the harder the work of recovery. And yet, recovery is always possible. If you've been suffering with it, find a competent professional who can help you through it because you are worth it. To paraphrase something the main character in one of my favorite movies said, "Everything will be alright in the end. If things are not alright now, you aren't at the end yet."
I have to tell my dad what happened because it impacted my grades this semester and hes livid and im terrified. Ive been watching videos on telling people about rape and its not really been helping. But hearing "Its a normal reaction to an abnormal action" really calms me for some reason. My councilor says I did "surprisingly well" and "all the right things" and I think she is trying to make me feel strong but that just makes me scared I wasn't hurt as much as I feel i have been, that I dont deserve therapy or help because I can function better than some people after rape. Im so anxious all the time. I dont want to tell him.
Suffered a tramatic knee injury a year and a half ago, had surgery and invested lots of time and work to get back to normal. Have had many flashbacks and mini terrors of the accident and pain I endured that dreadful day, and just as I was finally getting over it and putting my fears behind me it happened again last week... Heck' I have a fear of walking now and it's sucks!!!
Hi I am just checking expert advice on the brain regarding my personal experience of hearing my mom pass and my legs were like the scarecrow from the wizard of oz. I could not stand for two hours then suddenly I became the strong link in my family when I am normally the more sensitive sibling. I know my mom was there to give me strength.💕
i hate the sound of doorbells. everytime i hear our doorbell i get panicky and nervous. whenever i hear the sound i immediately go to my bed and pretend to be asleep afraid that if they hear any sound or movement they might do something (not physically but verbally). is this a form of trauma?
Why are some psychologists denying that memory repression is possible? Are they being paid by somebody to do that? This video is easy enough and obvious enough for anyone to understand, thanks for that
My trauma survival mode gets activated in many situations which are not threatening always. I act in a very intense weird ways and I don’t even understand why I do that.
I had a tbi at 19 yrs old (front lobe); I'm 28 now. I can Remember everything I did before that event and that week. Once I bit the honda crv everything went blank. All I remember is waking up in a hospital after 7 days, then took me out of a medical coma, Everything was a blur at that point in time. I remember telling brain surgeon that the president was Ronald Reagan, and I said I hurt I hurt. It is a hard thing to explain best way of describing it is; ground hog day movie. Where he is stuck and knows everything for that day but no other day.
I had a recent event that flashed me back to teenage years when I was bullied… my nervous system went into complete shock, felt like a lightning bolt hit me, I have had migraines every day since and neck tension. This has been the worst thing I have ever gone through…. I am trying! Every day is a struggle.
This is an excellent video to introduce the concept of trauma. I couldnt find fault with it. Ive seen too many videos on trauma with errors. Errors that can cause harm to people who have PTSD/CPTSD. Well done.
Thank you for this video. It helps me understand alot of why I am like I am from my childhood and adult trauma. I'm finally at a point in my life and I'm getting help.
Yes I’ve suffered physical all over body pain (like flu but worse, crippling, exhausting, seeps out through skin, sore to move even slightly) in episodes lasting between a few days to a few weeks, on and off regularly for last 4 years and linked to DV - I’ve come to realise its CPTSD... doing everything I can to recover from it atm...
It still ain't gonna work, I've been going on with trying to be normal and not overthink sudden noises like it's a gunshot or something is gonna go down. I've been trying since I was 6 or 7 when the many traumatic experiences that happened started. It's whatever at this point, I'm stuck with this for the rest of my life, even if it's teenage-ish to say. I can't see a way to get out from drowning. It's gotten so bad that I've been diagnosed with severe depression, and severe generalized anxiety, insomnia. Start having vivid nightmares when I do sleep. It's only a matter of time before...
All I can do now is to love and care for the little me, I do not want any to remember but these memories come back out of nowhere and then the cycle starts all over again!
thanks for posting this i deal with ptsd when the clock truck 10:00 and the dong occocured i have my flashbacks triggered by chruch bells werid i know. i dont know why i feel as if i am at the real place but everything is exadurated and more nightmareish. a little like the upsidown in stranger things but just worse. i have alot of audio halucinations aswell
I have a set of questions about one of my own experiences... I remember being left out of everything social in high school, so I don't think I ever developed adequate social skills. As a result, I've totally isolated myself socially, despite strongly desiring some kind of meaningful relationship outside of my family. *Could this technically be accurately labelled as trauma, or am I overreacting, or what's going on?*
It's very simple : you want a relationship because 1)you miss feeling close to someone 2) you want to please people because you were left out in high school. Yeah I know it doesn't make sense but think this through: you were sad because of what people did to you which made you more sensitive than before which mean that you developed empathy. And empathic people love to please people because it makes them feel good. And why are you empathic ( a bit more than before)? Because you were hurt. But in the mean time your brain wanted to defend himself so you started to stay away from people because you were afraid about the past and you didn't wanted this from happening again. You became an introvert. I think I helped a lot.
I remember being younger and growing up with this guy.. i always found him creepy.. really creepy.. I remember being like 2 - 3 and him being like 24 - 26? I cant remember but he always wanted me to sit on his lap and when he would tickle me he would get really close in between my legs. I hated it.... I cant remember much from my childhood at all and i dont know why... I remember staying overnight at his house once and sleeping with jeans on. then waking up with my fly down. He was always weird with us.. he scared me and i didnt like being alone with him. The scariest thing i remember was going over to his flat alone and he wanted to take a shower i asked if i could use the restroom first, and he had this thing idk what it was at the time but i know now. It scared the SHIT out of me and i was only 12 - 13 at the time. I wanted to get OUT i was so scared.. but i just walked out and sat on the couch and he acted normal the rest of the day. Im now 15 and im still scared to be alone with this man. and we still associate with him.
Im in grade 11 and two weeks ago we had a burglary and it was just mum and i in the house. At the end of the first week i started June Exams. Wrote the first and second test since it didnt require much of my memorising things, but when it got to Bio it took me 5 hours to learn 5-7 pages. And note, it used to take me approx 1 hour to learn 3-5 pages.
Am I the only one who quickly understood his trauma (took me less than a year) and the only thing he's struggling with is to make yourself understandable or to adapt yourself to others? I find normal people pathetic sometimes..
I want you to pause and to thank yourself. You’re still here, you’re fighting and you’re trying to cope. You’re trying your best to resolve your trauma, so thank yourself for doing so. Don’t be mean to yourself, you’re trying your best ❤️ and I know not everybody understands your behaviors and your feelings, but that’s because they don’t have the same past as you ! You’re extremely courageous, never forget that !!! and I want you to be proud of yourself. Just know that I understand you and I love you, fellow human. Don’t you worry, just keep trying, everything will eventually fall in place and you’ll feel better soon. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you!!
Thank you so much 🥺💕
@@aquamarineblue8690 Please don't Aquamarine. Stay with me. We can still pull through and make it better.
@@aquamarineblue8690 Please don't give up. Yes I know it is hard but I also know you re going to make it through!!! You are loved, awesome , enough. If you feel that things are getting too much to cope with, please seek help, there is always hope. Best wishes and I hope you re well right now!
@@aquamarineblue8690 I’ve asked myself that question a lot of times because I was really suffering and I felt like everything was hopeless... but I swear to you it’s so worth it !!! A day will come where everything will seem so much more clear and peaceful. I swear to you, just continue doing what you do, you’re so brave ! Life is soooo beautiful, I began to see it only lately. I may never understand how you feel, and I’m sending you love because you may be in a really tough situation or feeling really really down. I’m so sorry and I’m just here to tell you, go on my friend, one day you will thank yourself ❤️ have a beautiful day ✨
As a child growing up witnessing my mother being beaten by my father, I was numb. So numb. It only took me 7 years later in university, to acknowledge that I was indeed traumatized. I was regaining memories; both positive and negative only as an adult that my childhood self had repressed. Watching videos like these videos to scientifically figure out about what had happened to me psychologically is REALLY difficult, because I just start crying no matter how many times I acknowledge that it has happened. Its emotionally draining as it leaves me thinking about it the whole day. But, this decision to study it as a self-learning path to recovery is worth it. That way I will finally understand why I am, me today.
"I stayed there for the children" .... the lamest excuse ever. - I can understand that a woman is frightened to leave or has Stockholm Syndrome - but one should not let co-dependent women get away with that self deception
you might want to check out EFT regarding your trauma (you can also use it for self help - and there are therapists who use it as additional tool to boost conventional therapy).
As practicioners who also supply instructions, articles, info I can name eftuniverse run by Dawson Church - that's is a good adress (also about PTSD, veteran's project etc).
Julie Schiffmann has some good videos on youtube (I think on the Mercola channel). Good beginners explanations and tap alongs - EFT is meridian tapping). Or Karin Davidson, Alina Frank, Gwyneth Moss, Andy Hunt. And last but not least of course Gary Craig who gave EFT to the world (good info but for beginners maybe a little too deep digging - the other names keep it more simple for beginners).
just avoid the "salesy people" (I read the title "Shamanic EFT for wealth" - or 6 figures or something on a youtube video recently - from THAT kind of instruction you want to stay away !)
eftuniverse will send you plenty of mails, to be sure - but they will respect your unsubscribe, and are honest players. The site offers a lot of value - and someone HAS to pay for the scientific studies etc.
The names I gave you - off the cuff - know what they are doing, and are well trained, responsible practicioners.
Take care !
Same here her father used to be beat my mom and me. Check it out for peter k. Gerlach to reduce the wounds
Below Freezing see also Dr. Peter A. Levine for Somatic Experiencing...his method of getting rid of trauma in his patients! He has written many books & there are about 12,000 practitioners! Best wishes!
That's awful, I can relate w/ seeing a family get beat too. 🙁😔
Wow, this explains why memory is decreased in a traumatic event. Thank you for making such a complicated effect understandable, thus hopefully, leading to a more compassionate response in those of us working with people who have experienced trauma in their lives.
Thanks for your feedback
There are no less memories in trauma. It's just whether one can access them. Traumatic amnesia is when your mind can't handle recalling a memory or memories. You could say decreased access to memories.
It is like a living nightmare that you have to experience alone. You have to put on your everything's normal face and try to cope. It sucks and I hope this video makes people understand what it's like. It's not a light switch you can just turn on or off.
I'm still coping with the effects of my abuse. It's crippling.
Religion drove me crazy too. It taught me to hate myself to the point I have tried to murder parts of my self. I once did five cases of beer and 3 large whiskeys a few summers ago. I had to stop because I almost suffered a coronary infarction. If I see parts of my self in others and they are within my boundaries I will go into a bi polar manic depressive rage right at them. That's how much I have learned to hate myself. I too have started to fear hell to the point I question my existence. I believe myself to be evil and dammed and that's why things go wrong in my life. I believe God is punishing me for being a terrible child to my mother and if this is the case I fear what God will do to me if I stray. I am thinking about writing a book on every terrible bratty thing I did to my mom. Like the time I messed up the nice wooden council TV she worked hard for so we could have it nice. I put flies in the tv and a frog and some how I believe flys go in the picture tube because a big fly shadow would show up and tv would go bizt. Finally it blew out and all that was left was sound. My mom told me one day we are going to Port Town TV to have it fixed she said it was a long drive. She said I had to come with. She said we are going to Port Town TV and I said "You son of a bitch!" It's like that song by Faith No More, I thinks it's called caffeine. He sings "It's not funny any more. As suffer karma to the point I can't take it no more It's like the part in the song as he says do got something to tell me and yells "I'm warning you, I'm f'king you I'm warning you.
@@LordVoltRod2c What is the the starting point?
But your not alone. Because I am right by your side. I have experienced it and put the mask on for years. Now I am devoting my life to help others through it so they are not alone and helping educate families so they know how to help there loved ones. Smile you are loved!!
Veterans Transformed hello do you suffer from PTSD? Depression?
Oh my god, this video is so important. I dealt with a lot of childhood trauma, and most of the time I isolate myself to keep from making others upset. Yet, I get called a terrible person for isolating myself. I try to tell people why but they don't understand. I'm going to share this because this is super important, thank you for making this video !!
I’m the same way. It’s better knowing I’m not the only one when everyone else misunderstands my behavior.
i can't tell how much i relate with what you say, i isolate myself too and get called selfish or addicted even to being alone, even though all i want is for me to stop making people upset. :(
Yes they don't understand and they never will. That's the sad truth. But there are good personalities with enough empathy to somehow understand..
Unless some one has actually walked in your shoes, they can’t really understand trauma
@@Xxsorafan same
I can't say how many times over the years I asked my partner not to yell my name in the house. It made me jump no matter how she tried to do it. I have had others "scare me" or jump out at me and I have asked them not to do that. Most people who have never experienced trauma like I have, are clueless. My startle response is off the charts and it sucks but luckily the people who love me listen. I left the one who wouldn't after 15 years, thank God.
Rob Lewis thank you!
I second that motion regarding EFT - see my longer comment to user Briony above (regarding free resources to learn and inform yourself).
Oh my gosh yes!, relatable.. Having white noise or classical helps..
I tried to tell my wife about my startle reflex but she doesn’t care. She doesn’t take my trauma seriously.
@@Mushroom321- I'm so glad you said this. I'd never have thought that classical music would've been something that calmed me but I noticed a couple of months ago how relaxed I felt when trying to deal with whatever was going on and it's been amazing. I'm a 31 Scottish guy listening to classical music, who'd have thought it haha
I believe complex ptsd is the most painful thing to live with, an unexplainable fear and pain.
I absolutely hate it.
I agree!
I agree!
yes! It’s terrible
Now this is really how you understand the science of the human behavior.
I have PTSD. I have triggers, and every time a trigger is set off I freeze; I'm sent back to those moments. It's honestly horrible.
Same. People have made fun of me because of it. People are so cruel. I hate them all.
@@purplefish0947 I agree, people can be very rude. I also hate whenever people are like this. I don’t have PTSD, but something happened when I was 10, and seemingly out of nowhere, plain effects of trauma pops out of the blue. Kinda scared that if I tell anyone else (specifically an adult, or someone who deals with trauma specifically) then they won’t believe me.
I suffered from PTSD as well so I can relate to being triggered. Fortunately, there are many great interventions such as EMDR (highly recommend), CBT, REBT etc... that can address the triggers. CBT/REBT is great for addressing the triggers and EMDR is great for reducing/diminishing physical symptoms such as anxiety, disorientation, dissociation etc.. If you are spiritual I recommend transmutative healing (process of taking out negative energy and transforming it to positive energy). There are many amazing things to help it's just a matter of finding what works best for you :) Recovery is possible! Sending love and healing your way!
@@christinerosas5018 Thank you! It means a lot.^^
@@calliethewolfcat2183 No problem. This is your sign to let you know that everything is going to be ok :)
I was traumatized many times before age 9. But at age 9, I was driven to strangers home and never given back to my mother. I was a foster kid. The trauma of that first night in a strange home away from my mother is one of the major traumas, however, there are many more I somehow live with. I’ve become schizophrenic and PTSD is annoying. I cannot stop feeling fight or flight in every situation.
I was abused for more than 10 years someone other than my dad threatening my life kinda made the damage irreversible.
"You have to engage with her feelings to get to the fact." Never push away your feelings!
Just control them in the good way.
That explains a lot with reactions. I never understood why I froze that time, and it always made me feel horrible that I did instead of fighting, but now I feel relived to know it’s normal to freeze in a traumatic moment. Thank you.
I can't remember the past much from blocking out so much abuse in life 😢 I am very forgetful and still have a lot of pain inside I pray everyday just to be healed from the pain
I always had a sense that trauma changes how your brain works but I could never really explain it to someone I was talking to and I remember being told to just let go of my past and stop thinking about the incident years later (which I don't) and now I know why that didn't sit right with me. I know they were coming from a place of love but it just shows they lacked understanding.
I have major social anxiety and now I understand my brain has just been in constant survival mode and I know very well where it stems from. I also realized that I have anxiety of sleep or falling asleep, I've been trying to understand where that comes from. But going back I uncovered memories of people who hurt me and remembered why I distanced myself from them and how they made me suicidal
I vividly remember the day after I found my dad face down in a puddle of his own blood and I was at school (nobody could look after us as they were all at the hospital) and a teacher literally said "just go in and act like nothing has happened", I was 13 - my best friend (dad) was in a coma with little chance of waking up. Took me over 15 years to come to terms with it all, still feel guilty about possibly sleeping through cries for help but that moment the teacher said that changed me forever. I'm not a year away from qualifying as a mental health nurse 😀
as someone whos had to survive psychosimatic trauma. this not only does the subject and the people suffering from trauma justice, but helps those who see it and dont recognize it to identify and assist the people in their lives. to the people who worked hard on this i say: thank you.
my father is deeply hurt when he sees what i go through. i think this will help him understand
As a victim of sexual assault through out my life staring at about the age 9, this video is very important. I wish schools would show more things like this maybe I wouldn’t have felt so alone and gross and helpless if someone was there to show me that my freeze response was normal and that it’s not my fault. I wish the world didn’t cover these things up because they are “inappropriate” or children to see you know what is inappropriate telling a child that if there bra strap is showing they are asking to be raped I was 10! I shouldn’t have been happy when I found out breast cancer runs in my family and that if I got it I would have to get my breasts removed I shouldn’t have had to worry about if my training bra fit right or if the strap slipped I shouldn’t have been scared when I stared to develop breast faster than the other girls. I shouldn’t have been scared of my own body
I was in a bad car accident where my husband was driving. This was years ago, but to this day if we’re driving and I fall asleep in the passengers side and I feel him “brake,” I without fail LEAP out of my seat and gasp for air. My whole body goes into flight mode and I feel like I’m about to die. This video is extremely helpful to learn about the science of trauma!
Wow same here! I have been through a very similar situation. I was the passenger as well. Til this day i will never go to sleep in a car again and i hate road trips.
as a rape crisis counselor and a nurse, this is an AMAZING RESOURCE. will be sharing to the ends of time.
Very well done. I think this video is a clear and non-patronizing presentation on the effects of trauma, including complex trauma. Thank you for this resource.
I wanted to see what was happening to my brain when I was dealing with a traumatizing event. Informative video!
One of the best videos I have seen on the subject.
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Same!
My father was very abused and abused our family. He had substance abuse issues (massive drinker) and was verbally and physically abusive. I have no memories the first decade of my life. Found out he sexually abused my sister and tried to kill my mom. Later in my life, living in denial, I tried to have a relationship due to the emotional connection from said abuse. It's very confusing. Anyway my biological "father" completley intoxicated was bragging about how he use to sexaully abuse me and even said "that I liked it"
...I froze and glad i did. Today I am learning to trust and trying to balance the feelings and thought of what it would feel like to eradicate him and others like him.
~Enter God and forgivness.
I'm so, so sorry. Praying.
Wow.... as someone just recently diagnosed with ptsd this really helps me put the pieces together. I've been struggling to grasp what exactly is happening to my brain, some days I've even felt I was losing my mind but this has given me a greater understanding of exactly what's happening. Thank you so much. I have learnt a great deal from this video
I once watched a car accident - nothing really bad happened luckily - but the rush of adrenaline when I saw that car turn over on the highway made me unfit to be a witness. I should have been able to tell who did what in the lanes at the highway - but I literally couldn't. The adrenaline had swept my higher brain empty - so to speak.
What I do know - there was plenty of traffic cars were driving in a sort of convoy, some switching of lanes going on, they all had sort of too little distance for the speed - so I asked the driver to keep some distance and we continued to chat - served us well, we could avoid the collision.I think one minute later the crash happened.
I have a history of trauma and have been diagnosed with CPTSD as well as a dissociative disorder.I also deveoped TLE(simple partial,complex partial,and grand mal seizures) as the result of trauma(I believe) which caused bipolar and ADHD symptoms(I have diagnosed with both).After decades of healing I am seizure free,medication free,and happy and healthy.Healing is not easy but so worthwhile and most importantly you deserve to be free from your traumatic past!Namaste
Tremendously I am Grateful for the clarity that you bring to this complex issue...Thank You!
Extremely helpful presentation of what occurs in the brain when experiencing trauma. Thank you for assisting me to understand this complex process.
This was so beautifully explained. The human brain amazes me❤️
This really helped explain all of my childhood symptoms and experiences... I REALLY REALLY WISH I could remeber anything. Anything that would be useful but I always give everyone a blank face and come out the same way I came in. Thanks anyways
My husband and I teach pure and applied self defense and the beginning of the video explaining adrenaline and brain function is something we teach in first hour of classes and our entire curriculum is how to manage and navigate this in a violent confrontation or attack. We also discuss survival mindset and how to access it under extreme stress and our psychological tools. And we always address trauma and educate the facts on this topic. Education is key! This is a fantastic video! Well done!
Excellant video! Thank you! I will be using this is my human trafficking training!
Living with cPTSD is damn hard, but there's hope and it's always there. It's called Neuroplasticity.
I'm using that to treat mine. It works!
He is called JESUS
@@jaredmeridy2794 No IMAO
@@craz4jaymz can you tell me more how neuroplastisity work's
The worst thing is not being able to explain why you get agitated or what happens when you dissociate to your lived ones. You have to carry the extra guilt of hurting the ones who love you most.
This was made 8 years ago,way ahead of it's time.
Thank you
I grew up with a controlling mom, was constantly bullied at school, and was married to a person like my mom for 41 years before I left the marriage. I have been triggered for the last couple of months and had a meltdown last week. Watching this video is very helpful. I now understand myself a bit more. Thank you
Great that there were no stereotypes. Thank you so much.
🙂alot of people are going through trama and they don't even know it im glad that I knew what was going on with me an I can change it so I can change for the better... I tstruggle with trama an I will over come
great video. people going through trauma can also try to go for healing. I have personally healed many people from childhood traumas to accident traumas and many more.
Thank you for explaining what Trauma is.👍👍👍
For being such a brief video, this is such a wonderfully summarized description! I applaud the team that put this together!
Thank you for making this, it's so important that we understand what is happening, and then we can share with our family's. We are the first generation with this information and we need to be able to go from recovery to remission, and able to explain what is happening for us. Recovery is definitely possible.
Thank you for mentioning CPTSD!
What about early infant trauma? Before they can speak. Before their nervous system is matured. How do you help those trauma survivors?
Great question. Perhaps someone should research this.
I think of it like a seed of problems later on, not the lone cause. I had many problems, troubles and more traumatic experiences as follow ups, cause nobody knowed what was going on.
When ther're no classical/logical memories of times/events, there're often memories of feelings and maybe pain or discomfort in a affected area of the body. I finally go through therapy and we tried it over this affected areas to reach for the old stuff. Events happening in my infanty, before the age of 1.
We succeeded.
It feeled quite easy, in comparison, at activation but troubled me the whole week since. What means, it's probably a good thing to work with later.
But first it hurts like hell and startled the whole squad of mental illness I have, by making it resurface.
It's a bunch of feelings, sensations and pain that where ever there, but now lay more bare and visible. Letting me understand many things about me even better and giving a opportune to work on the whole thing from the roots up too the veins that hinder myself to function and thrive in everyday life.
The body remembers too but different than the concise way we're used to experience and work with.
EMDR therapy can treat very early trauma... specific memory content is not required to do reprocessing with an early trauma protocol.
No surprises this came out of Scotland using a glassing as an example of trauma. Priceless !
This was incredibly helpful in understanding myself after trauma. I had 2 traumatic events happen to me 2 months apart & I’ve felt a change in myself. Thank y’all
this video is so much needed. thank you so much i’ve had so many trauma’s in my life.. i still don’t understand how i’m still here on earth on my own two feet. trauma has made me such a different person :( but also i know how to make better or wisely choices. much love to all my survivors of traumas
Thank you... I will be using this in my Trauma workshop training Social Service Staff. Thank you for your contribution to the field of Trauma research
Thank you for posting this, mediaco-op! 😀
Growing up with narcissistic parents ， I have been so traumatized to the point that I can’t function , can’t even walk or take a shower, and my father enjoys this so I am totally depend on him so he can do and say what ever he wants to me. He gets jealous of my achievements ,he put me down, stop me from graduating stop me from making friend and work . I have so much trauma but the memories are fragmented, I don’t know how can I recover , and how long will it take while I am trying to hide from my father
陈溪 please speak to someone some kind of authority and let them know what you’re afraid of
Complex PTSD from childhood abuse can be from emotional, mental, physical or sexual abuse....not just sexual abuse. Apart from that bit this is an excellent video about trauma and it's effects on a person. Good job :D. Love
Indeed! I have PTSD from my childhood. It was horrible...
This has been my major problem caused by years of trauma from abuse. I always freeze and when I freeze my brain does to and I could not think for the whole day. Thus, it made me immobile even when I have lots of things needed to do as an adult. But I got help from Sovereign Health, they knew wht they were doing the programs helped my mental being and me to be able to react properly on situations where I used to just freeze and shut down. Truly helpful to get help from proper treatment facilities.
I've been in therapy to understand my traumas. My last relationship caused me so much trauma that my underlying issues surfaced enough to warrant a Borderline Personality diagnosis. For a while, if I wasn't numb and apathetic, I was angry. I didn't know any other way to exist because my other emotions were too difficult to handle. I was easily overwhelmed and triggered into irritation by the simplest things (even considering my ADHD). Those close to me told me that they were concerned because I'd become so hateful, and I tried to explain to them why. They tried their best to be patient and understanding, and I always apologized if I lashed out. I've made progress.
Thank you for this amazing and accurate explanation. I work in the mental health field and this will be a great tool that is practical!
“You have to engage with the feelings t’get t’the facts.” 💯
Right after my traumatic event when it ended i felt numb, guilt, anger. Áll of these feeling at once and about 2 hours later my brain was completely weird and i began to laugh at it. 7 months later i taught i was over it and when someone mentions it or someone calls me who i dont know i get massive anxiety. Beacuse its linked to my traumatic event (i prefer not to share it)
This hits home so much is hard to watch, the kid's clip were really relatable, i feel better to know more but also sadder to face those things. The most elucidating part was "the perspective creates the trauma" reminded me stoicism too and made me want to hit myself for forgetting.
Excellent production, just so good, one of the most important videos ivee saw.
Clear, comprehensible and informative. Thank you very much
Wow, a lot of people need to watch this and be more compassionate
This video made me feel more assured about my experience.
Thanks for this. I kept getting abused and told l was evil when they made me traumatized to not be able to think properly. ✌
I was listening in the background while getting ready for work. My first thought was, "I know I've seen that police procedural before" and I was trying to figure out which show it was. Well done production and very complete. I'm glad to see that law enforcement is getting some training in this. It should be part of basic training for the entire educational, criminal justice, legal and medical systems - not just us mental health workers. In my experience, everyone experiences some type of trauma - both first hand and vicarious - at some point in their life. The younger you are when you experience it and the more trauma you experience, the greater the damage and the harder the work of recovery. And yet, recovery is always possible. If you've been suffering with it, find a competent professional who can help you through it because you are worth it. To paraphrase something the main character in one of my favorite movies said, "Everything will be alright in the end. If things are not alright now, you aren't at the end yet."
this is much better and more engaging than all other documetrys i have seen :)
I have to tell my dad what happened because it impacted my grades this semester and hes livid and im terrified. Ive been watching videos on telling people about rape and its not really been helping. But hearing "Its a normal reaction to an abnormal action" really calms me for some reason. My councilor says I did "surprisingly well" and "all the right things" and I think she is trying to make me feel strong but that just makes me scared I wasn't hurt as much as I feel i have been, that I dont deserve therapy or help because I can function better than some people after rape. Im so anxious all the time. I dont want to tell him.
Suffered a tramatic knee injury a year and a half ago, had surgery and invested lots of time and work to get back to normal. Have had many flashbacks and mini terrors of the accident and pain I endured that dreadful day, and just as I was finally getting over it and putting my fears behind me it happened again last week... Heck' I have a fear of walking now and it's sucks!!!
excellent video. Sharing it with my students tomorrow. Thanks a lot
This video perfectly explains a lot of things for me and my upcoming school projects!! good work!
Hi I am just checking expert advice on the brain regarding my personal experience of hearing my mom pass and my legs were like the scarecrow from the wizard of oz. I could not stand for two hours then suddenly I became the strong link in my family when I am normally the more sensitive sibling. I know my mom was there to give me strength.💕
i hate the sound of doorbells. everytime i hear our doorbell i get panicky and nervous. whenever i hear the sound i immediately go to my bed and pretend to be asleep afraid that if they hear any sound or movement they might do something (not physically but verbally). is this a form of trauma?
Jesus. No one has the decency to give you a simple answer? wtf...
Yes! This is a sign of trauma.
I have the same problem with the telephone.
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Thank you for this video it is excellent and very well done . Helped me a lot in my assignment on trauma .
Why are some psychologists denying that memory repression is possible? Are they being paid by somebody to do that? This video is easy enough and obvious enough for anyone to understand, thanks for that
My trauma survival mode gets activated in many situations which are not threatening always. I act in a very intense weird ways and I don’t even understand why I do that.
I had a tbi at 19 yrs old (front lobe); I'm 28 now. I can Remember everything I did before that event and that week. Once I bit the honda crv everything went blank. All I remember is waking up in a hospital after 7 days, then took me out of a medical coma, Everything was a blur at that point in time. I remember telling brain surgeon that the president was Ronald Reagan, and I said I hurt I hurt. It is a hard thing to explain best way of describing it is; ground hog day movie. Where he is stuck and knows everything for that day but no other day.
I had a recent event that flashed me back to teenage years when I was bullied… my nervous system went into complete shock, felt like a lightning bolt hit me, I have had migraines every day since and neck tension. This has been the worst thing I have ever gone through…. I am trying! Every day is a struggle.
This is an excellent video to introduce the concept of trauma. I couldnt find fault with it. Ive seen too many videos on trauma with errors. Errors that can cause harm to people who have PTSD/CPTSD. Well done.
THIS IS SO HANDY. Thank you SO much for this.
This is brilliant. Thank you!
+laughablespirit Thank you, glad you like it.
Thank you for this video. It helps me understand alot of why I am like I am from my childhood and adult trauma. I'm finally at a point in my life and I'm getting help.
Really information and excellent video! Thank you!
Yes I’ve suffered physical all over body pain (like flu but worse, crippling, exhausting, seeps out through skin, sore to move even slightly) in episodes lasting between a few days to a few weeks, on and off regularly for last 4 years and linked to DV - I’ve come to realise its CPTSD... doing everything I can to recover from it atm...
Interesting approach with the animation - I liked it. Thanks.
It still ain't gonna work, I've been going on with trying to be normal and not overthink sudden noises like it's a gunshot or something is gonna go down. I've been trying since I was 6 or 7 when the many traumatic experiences that happened started. It's whatever at this point, I'm stuck with this for the rest of my life, even if it's teenage-ish to say. I can't see a way to get out from drowning. It's gotten so bad that I've been diagnosed with severe depression, and severe generalized anxiety, insomnia. Start having vivid nightmares when I do sleep. It's only a matter of time before...
All I can do now is to love and care for the little me, I do not want any to remember but these memories come back out of nowhere and then the cycle starts all over again!
This makes so much sense... Thank you for this video!
2 months left before 2022, I'm glad I've watched this
Thank you very much for this Video,.
Severe trauma destroyed me forever! 😰🇦🇺
thanks for posting this i deal with ptsd when the clock truck 10:00 and the dong occocured i have my flashbacks triggered by chruch bells werid i know. i dont know why i feel as if i am at the real place but everything is exadurated and more nightmareish. a little like the upsidown in stranger things but just worse. i have alot of audio halucinations aswell
What is the root cause?
Amazing video! Complex concepts explained easily for all to grasp! Great work!
Thank you so much
Excellent explanation! understandable and useful.
Thank you for this video.
I have a set of questions about one of my own experiences...
I remember being left out of everything social in high school, so I don't think I ever developed adequate social skills.
As a result, I've totally isolated myself socially, despite strongly desiring some kind of meaningful relationship outside of my family.
*Could this technically be accurately labelled as trauma, or am I overreacting, or what's going on?*
It's very simple : you want a relationship because 1)you miss feeling close to someone 2) you want to please people because you were left out in high school. Yeah I know it doesn't make sense but think this through: you were sad because of what people did to you which made you more sensitive than before which mean that you developed empathy. And empathic people love to please people because it makes them feel good. And why are you empathic ( a bit more than before)?
Because you were hurt.
But in the mean time your brain wanted to defend himself so you started to stay away from people because you were afraid about the past and you didn't wanted this from happening again.
You became an introvert.
I think I helped a lot.
@Hello there, how are you doing this blessed day?
Yes this is complex trauma. I was bullied chronically by one person for 8yrs and felt left out everyday so that I stopped trying....🙏
Thank you for sharing
and all the best to you!!
This was spot on.
Great explanation - easy to follow and convert into practice.
This was really well done! Thank you.
I like the statement, "Trauma is a Normal Response to Abnormal Events".
Thank You, well done.
Very helpful and well explained. Thank you.
I remember being younger and growing up with this guy.. i always found him creepy.. really creepy.. I remember being like 2 - 3 and him being like 24 - 26? I cant remember but he always wanted me to sit on his lap and when he would tickle me he would get really close in between my legs. I hated it.... I cant remember much from my childhood at all and i dont know why... I remember staying overnight at his house once and sleeping with jeans on. then waking up with my fly down. He was always weird with us.. he scared me and i didnt like being alone with him. The scariest thing i remember was going over to his flat alone and he wanted to take a shower i asked if i could use the restroom first, and he had this thing idk what it was at the time but i know now. It scared the SHIT out of me and i was only 12 - 13 at the time. I wanted to get OUT i was so scared.. but i just walked out and sat on the couch and he acted normal the rest of the day. Im now 15 and im still scared to be alone with this man. and we still associate with him.
Im in grade 11 and two weeks ago we had a burglary and it was just mum and i in the house. At the end of the first week i started June Exams. Wrote the first and second test since it didnt require much of my memorising things, but when it got to Bio it took me 5 hours to learn 5-7 pages. And note, it used to take me approx 1 hour to learn 3-5 pages.
Am I the only one who quickly understood his trauma (took me less than a year) and the only thing he's struggling with is to make yourself understandable or to adapt yourself to others?
I find normal people pathetic sometimes..