The Reason I Quit Chess
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Without Chess you are just Gotham
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Yes 🗿
And without gotham he'd be the entirety of chess then
Without Gotham he is just chess 😔
@@recitationtohear to get milk right, so he comes back someday i bet he's just lost. He'll come back right? Right?
Are you kidding? You went toe to toe with someone 130 points higher and came up just a fraction short. We all feel that pressure and anxiety, I feel it playing at a 700 level. Dude you rock at chess.
I really thought i was alone, i always have anxieties playing some games and it's annoying
@@Snow-ve8vz that's u should at least play for the fun of it, like playing with a friend or something
@@Snow-ve8vz do your absolute best to turn that into something positive. Relax yourself, think the game through, make your moves. If you win, great. If you lose, it doesn't matter but at least you have something to study, find your weaknesses, figure out how to avoid them. If you don't, the anxieties will make things difficult.
He is not happy feeling that way, and in competitive chess you will always face better and better opponents until you are at the top or not. It also is costing him lots of money probably. While his content creation business is at a peak he wants and should capitalize on.
He's not talking about losing due to anxiety, he's talking about the anxiety itself. As someone who has struggled with severe anxiety most of my life, I can completely understand why he quit top-level competitive chess. It isn't about the mistakes you make due to the anxiety, or losing. It's about the fact that the anxiety that's experienced is so intensely unpleasant and upsetting that it makes something you're supposed to be passionate about an absolute nightmare, and it becomes extremely distressing to your mental health. I completely understand his decision to bow out of those situations. Ultimately, if something is having that big of a negative affect on you, you have to choose between the thing you're doing and your own health
Levy, this is one of the best chess channels on YT. You have 1.37M subscribers, this is a winning position. You are a great player, a great teacher of the game and a good person. AND, you are still young. Online you still have a monster rating and, you are liked and respected by some of the world's top players. This is fantastic for your channel, your streaming and your subs who can learn a lot from you. There is a lot of joy, success and career accomplishment ahead in your future.
8 days later he has 1.99M subscribers
he means seriously competitive chess, it's not like he's gonna quit youtube or anything. He can still be a friendly youtube channel, a good teacher, he can sells courses, making money and stuff.
@@phantom9014 how does he gain 700k in a week?
now 2 million
@@aquacuber505 rapid world championship i guess?
Don’t be too hard on yourself man… You’re very talented. And have made idiots like me feel comfortable getting into chess 💯
This. With all the high ELO players gatekeeping the game from New players by making them feel bad about being bad, and then there's this man. Hand extended, better than most, and helping new players and bad players with their chess journey to better play.
i really appreciate you talking about your fears and anxieties so candidly. a positive role model.
If you are a woman, yes.
@@yzfool6639 am I stupid ?
What does being a woman have to do with having a role model?
@@yzfool6639 Dumb comment
emotional bait, keep believing
+100
Anxiety is something we all deal with in some capacity. Taking a step back is often a good thing to do in situations like this. Hopefully you’ll be back one day and snatch that GM title. We’re all rooting for you.
No shot
@@danepotmo2513 okay dane
Live life have fun make videos you have all the norms in that. Don’t beat yourself up. I’m 74 years old and walked away from a 6 figure job without a new one. I can’t express how happy I felt. I was a single dad living pay check to pay check and felt great walking away. I got a 6mo severance package and a new job in a week at the same money. Stress is unhealthy. Be good to yourself.
Whenever you hear top people in almost any field. They usually enjoy the pressure and feel the pressure helps them. You can't really try not to get anxious. Cos that in itself creates anxiety.
@@azlanadil3646 yeah the very top are usually narcissistic individuals who unbalance their lives to a massive extent to achieve success. I'd guess at this point levy is just anxious about being anxious tbh.
Although that said, normal people can learn to embrace pressure. science is showing stress is the same. People trying to avoid stress die MUCH earlier than people who say they work well under stress. That's normal every day people.
Levy, I think this problem comes from hyper self-awareness. It's easier to progress when you don't understand the difference between them and you. "Them" being the greats. It's easier to climb a mountain when you're completely unaware of how high it is and you just assume it's only a few more meters. I totally get the anxiety that actually knowing the difference brings, been there many times. *So how did I get rid of the performance anxiety?* I told myself, "Ok, that mountain's tall but all I really have to do is keep reaching up. There's literally no other way through it." The anxiety dropped off. I stopped caring about the gap. I stopped caring about how long it'd take. I stopped caring about slipping backwards. I just accepted my fate. I've decided I'm on the mountain. I'm climbing. This is how it works. You reach. You reach. You reach. Take a break when you need. Reach. Oh shit. It's the top. No stress needed.
Not to mention hyper self-aware people tend to largely, largely underestimate how talented they truly are, thus overestimate the gap.
Miley Cyrus has made this into a song.
Cheer up Levy! I always tell my self your own words at the beginning of any course when I lose or have a bad game "Chess is hard, and it will beat you down." But also, chess is beautiful and so are you. Keep making this an amazing time and trying to battle anxiety. Love from Mexico.
Levy: Don't look too much into meaningless blitz games.
Also Levy: I'm retiring.
Don’t worry Levon, we all have your back. Never stop being awesome!
yes we have Levon's back, dont worry
Wait his name is Levon?
@@Y.SAIKRISHNA aronian
Get his name right it's not Levon. It's Leverton.
@@Plainshots.oobros Yes, Levon with a "y"
Even if you can't be the perfect chess player, by showing top level chess to all of us and making it entertaining, you're doing something that very few chess players could do.
Levy, it's completely understandable that anxiety can hamper your performance. As some who has general anxiety disorder myself, I know all too well how it can impede my abilities. You're an incredible chess player and your passion and exuberance of the game is unparalled. You have rekindled my interest in the game after all these years and being able to listen and watch you educate people about the finer points is fantastic. There is a time and a season for everything and this may be the signal for you to step away from being the competitive player and being a teacher for the next generation. Being a teacher and coach is just as honorable and respectable as being at the highest levels of any competitive endeavor. Thank you for your passion and the willngness to teach this ancient game.
I miss those recap vids.. some of the best analyzing content you got and definitely the most intimate look into a competitive chess players mental fight..
I really wonder what would happen if you just covered up who you were playing and their rating. That could be interesting.
I like this idea. I think this could also be done by tricking the mind into believing the opponent is only a 1900 level player or something
Same here. It'd be a cool option in the settings, to make your opponent anonymous.
I agree for sure. You remove the stress of playing a great player, and when you check the rating after the game you might not feel as badly if you find out you lost to a GM and not a random 1900
Amazing idea
It’s an option on Lichess called Zen Mode. I’d love to see Levy try it!
as someone who also struggles really bad with anxiety its kinda comforting to know someone as successful and entertaining as you also struggles similarly
I used to compete at a high level in a sport and found myself in a very similar position. I wasn't competitive at the highest international level so that type of competition was fine but just below that, when I had an actual chance to win, I had paralyzing nerves. Everything would shutdown and my body would go into flight mode. I had to tell my coach that under no circumstances would he let me resign from a particular competition and when I made it to the semis, I begged him to let me forfeit. He didn't and I got bronze. It's not joke. I did that sport for 15 years before I had to call it quits, it was just too much for me to deal with and it had become too overwhelming, mental help would take too long to be effective. I know what your going through and definitely don't recommend continuing to force yourself to do it unless you know of a way you can resolved it. I didn't and I can't look at the sport anymore.
I feel you bro. I was national level, but when the championship came round at the end of the season I was fucking wreck
Of course, its very stressful and forcing. You shouldn't force anyone into a state where their anxiety and mental health continue to increase.
Respect. It takes a lot of self-awareness to make a decision like that. We live in a society that always tells you "hey tough it out!" but honestly... that isn't always the best thing. If 'toughing it out' is coming at a high price like your sanity and well-being, it's like any other transaction. You have to determine if it's worth it to continue. Honestly, sometimes it isn't.
I started chess last year because of one of your vids and I just beat a 2000 with your e4 course in 12 moves. Just wanted to say that no matter what anyone else says you're an amazing RUclipsr and an amazing teacher!
This needs a pin of wholesome
Wow!
Agreed
I think this is very personal and I really appreciate that you share it with us! Can't express it enough ... We love you and will support you anytime!
I really enjoyed your tournament recaps and was disappointed when you quit competitive chess, but your happiness and sanity is much more important than my 'entertainment'. Keep up the good work.
Hey Levy - I understand what you're saying, and I appreciate that you're willing to share it. Anxiety sucks, and it isn't anything to mess with. Your love of chess is obvious, and I hope that you continue to find a role in the chess world that is fun, comfortable, and profitable for you. I enjoy your streams and videos, and your recent tournament commentary and recaps were excellent.
I've watched you since you were a small youtuber. You have grown so much, not only in your career but also philosophically. You're inspiring!
As someone who struggles a lot with this anxiety problems on and off the board it feels amazing to hear one of my hero’s talk about it and address it means a lot thank you so much levy ❤
I've also been struggling with anxiety. There are times I want to speak up but I'm unable to since I feel a lot of fear and pressure or even start a normal conversation. I'm so glad to have discovered your channel because you've inspired me to get into chess and chess relives a lot of my anxiety.
U are still an amazing content creator. Genuine love from the bottom of my heart
You're a legend Levy, keep up that selfcare and progression to stay better
Hey Levy, it's really fun watching you, as a chess beginner I wish I was able to play at this level, but im still getting cheesed by early queens. This was really fun to watch, you were so close. You have an enjoyable personality that makes people come for your silly banter, yet we still learn things and laugh along the way. It would be cool to see you compete, don't let your fears burden you brother. Keep up the great content 👍🙂
Honestly, I just found your channel in a hope I could get better while I was just starting to enter the world of chess. As someone with high anxiety and a heart condition, it is incredible to see someone who understands that sometimes something you love takes a tole and that's okay.
Bro! You just took a blitz game to a GM, should be proud of your skills and how much you help all of us learn! Hope to see you back playing sometime if it’s something you want to do… we all support you Levy!
You are an amazing chess player, Levy. You can live the rest of your life making funny, great content and teaching people how to play chess. Something millions of people wish they could do. You don't need to do competitive chess anymore. Live in peace and enjoy life as a top chess content creator.
Very good to see you share this. Very brave i think. Also you are an awesome chess player and got me into chess. Thank you for everything.
I'm in my mid-thirties and for the first time have begun to seriously try to get better at chess. I randomly came across your Wired interview and have been compulsively watching your videos ever since. Aside from my 'Bobby Fischer Teaches Chess' book, you've been my main -- in fact, only -- [online] chess 'mentor.' Not just because you're great at the game, but due to the clarity, insight, humor, and wit you bring to your videos.
And so it breaks my heart to see this video so shortly after becoming a fan of yours. Of course you need to do what's best for your peace of mind, and I don't think chess has to be played at the highest levels to be enjoyed, but this feels to me like a bump in the road and not the end of it, or so I hope.
It's okay and sometimes good and necessary to take a step back from something, and maybe some time away will help rekindle what brought you to it in the first place. Or maybe blitz just isn't a good fit for you (which I only learned about from this video!). Not trying to preach, just hate to see such a talented and charismatic player with so much potential step away from the board, and I hope you'll one day return. Thanks for all your hard work.
First ever official chess federation OTB game for me today. My anxiety was off the charts that my fingers were stiff AF and it made me believe I lost a game I was winning with black (around -1.09). I enjoyed the event tho and that's when it hit me, Chess transcends competition. It is about a community that will understand your "A Caro! I see you're a Levy sub" jokes. Keep your head high Levs.
The anxiety of war is only muted by the acceptance of your own death. Don't run through the pain--run towards it. And if you decide it's all too much, you can always do so without fanfare or announcement. You got this, buddy.
You are an amazing chess player and an even better content creator (subject to your opinion on that I’m sure), I only say that because I am 30 years old, and because of your content you helped bring me into the chess world. I play chess every day, I have looked to all your amazing content to help instruct me, and am on my way up the ELO ladder because of it. I saw this video today and just wanted to say thank you. Love what you do and you’ll never work a day in your life. When work becomes work and you stop enjoying it then you have to do what you did and self evaluate yourself and decide if it’s worth it still. There’s many layers that make you a person and I truly do relate with your reasoning to why you quit “professional” chess. Thank you for sharing and encouraging me even more by expressing yourself as a flawed human. You show a lot of character and please continue with your path to happiness. I’ll continue to watch so long as you create content and I’m here for you.
My anxiety is next level when it comes to Chess, and I think it comes down to the fact that I take a long time to consider each move. It's not the fact that I have to take that long, sometimes I just analyze positions multiple times to make sure it is an optimal move. When playing Blitz, or basically anything besides Classical or Rapid, I feel like my anxiety gets so bad because there is a time limit that seems to move faster than I anticipate, and the feeling of being rushed makes me super anxious and prone to silly mistakes. I used to think that I was a terrible Chess player since I could only physically take playing Classical or Rapid games, but recently I've realized that you don't have to be the fastest, or the most forward thinking to be good, everyone has their own unique talents and style of play and it's all about believing your preparation for each encounter and trusting that you will put your all in every match. You are 1000X better than I'll probably ever be in my life, please don't allow your nerves to make you forget that you are one of the best on the platform and millions of aspiring chess players teacher.
Gotham u have a unbelievable talent in chess. U r in the top 1% of players. Not everybody has that talent . Remember that. Don't throw this away. U r awesome. But whatever u do we will support u either way. Don't fell pressured to make the decision that ur heart says. Hope u read this. Love ur content ❤
He's only in the top 1%? You're not giving him enough credit. There are a lot of chess players. He's gotta be in the 99.9 percentile or higher
u u u u r u r u r nice grammar
@@0de1337 lol
@@0de1337 That's not grammar, it's spelling
@@user-dh8oi2mk4f r u kid ings me im b4 u borned
Dude that game had me on the edge of my seat, and you got him! You had it! I still feel as though you won in this position: Won our hearts with your amazing play and feels. Keep it up man!
you are a great influencer dude...continue and you got our support! one of the coolest guy I have ever seen...and it's a game and know that there is a person beyond a personal nd a sky beyond a sky
Great piece Levy, in all walks of life there is that fine line between very good and great... That's what sets all of us apart. Your chess content is brilliant, and it's so refreshing to see a RUclipsr share their true thoughts, reasonings and inner emmotions. You are a star
Gotham is so sharp, I never know where the humor overlaps the insight. It's appalling how bright he is. Made a wise decision by pursuing streaming over professional chess. Looking forward to seeing Gotham's serious work once he retires from streaming.
Funny thing is; I come from yugioh(I have no knowledge on chess whatsoever) and have played it for about 12/13 years and your videos are really getting me into chess bit by bit, started with a cheater video now I’m watching anything from ghotamchess on my explore page as soon as I see the video. I’m a very anxious person myself and have a lot of trouble keeping focus, I can relate to the problems you mentioned. I also take long breaks from yugioh because when I force myself I just don’t enjoy the game as I should because of missplays and thing that could’ve been prevented but the nerves. Love the content and can’t wait to see more and learn more.
Just started getting into chess and your channel has been an amazing learning tool for me. The way you teach and explain the game really sticks with me. Regardless if you ever play serious chess again, just know that you've helped not only spark, but keep the flame alive for new chess players like me. Thanks Gotham.
I understand you. I have been in martial arts and to loose in chess did more damage to my psyche than any submission I've had back on the days. Now when I play I cover my opponent ranking and do that just for fan. Chess is not for everyone it sometimes cracks a part of your mind that takes day, weeks, to heal. Best wishes for you and keep the channel going, I learn a loot from you.
thats the most honest take ive heared in a long time man. I think livestreaming high level chess matches can be extremely stressfull on top of it. To much meta shit going on there. THE best Move in Situations like that is probably to take a step back man. Love
You didn’t quit chess, you quit competive chess
Can't imagine a non-competetive game of chess
any game of chess is competitive, he didn't quit analyzing, playing bots, covering chess news, being levy and all that.
Being aware of your own weakness is one of the most positive traits you can have
Wow, thank you for your transparency. Not many people are able to keep it that real. Thanks for the content also. Been helping me enjoy growing in the game little by little
We are so proud of how far you have come make your choice but remember 😊 we love you no matter what
My heart was beating so fast in the final part of the recap... Still love you man!
0:35 Courageous of you to say, and kudos for knowing yourself this well. Your talents, skills and your struggles. If it´s important to you to pinpoint it and perhaps live/deal with it in a different way than you´re used to, finding an anxiety-specialized therapist whom you resonate with can be helpful. If you learn to navigate the workings of your mind like you recognize chunks of chess strategy and act accordingly (lovingly, that is), chances are your anxiety will take a back seat. Either way, you make compelling and entertaining content! I love coming back to your channel every now and then, even if chess isn´t one of my hobbies.
PS 16:40 There´s nothing wrong with you, man. That´s your inner critic judging you.
Thanks for talking about your anxiety, it's absolutely great that we can talk it.
I have had some similar experiences and also tried to cope with my anxiety with jokes and commentary, but it never really helped.
I would really recommend seeing a sports psychologist, regardless of whether you want to play competitively.
As everyone else said, you're a great player. Whether or not you want to pursue chess further is entirely up to you to dare and to fail, to compete and put yourself on the line, you've already lived more than most people ever will.
Have you considered the possibility that blitz chess is not for you, considering the emotional toil it has on you? That doesn't mean you can't keep playing classical games. You don't have to quit altogether, maybe adjusting your view of the matter will fork your anxiety. You got this, bro.
I mean blitz and even rapid just stresses me the hell out, so yeah, it's not for everyone. But, I'm also a beginner lol.
Thousands of us are rooting for you man.
Thanks for sharing this. I have the same problem except without the talent or experience. My bot / puzzle games are markedly different from my the live or OTB games. All nerves.
I just started watching you recently, and regardless of the long-term outcome of this decision, I respect the vulnerability you're showing here a ton. Competing is very difficult and painful on the mind, body, and soul. Talking about your own shortcomings when you've invested so much into your improvement is tough, and falling short can feel like the most painful feeling ever.
I hope whatever you choose to do makes you happy and helps you lead a more comfortable life. Best wishes, love the content. Take care!
Thank you for sharing. While it's always awesome to see your recaps of your own games, it's just as fun to see recaps of other tournaments. You gotta take care of yourself and as someone with crippling anxiety, I get it. Keep on making content that makes you happy!
Gotham, pls be yourself and don’t let social media bring you to feel like you have to do things that you don’t.
Watching from Singapore, really enjoy your stuff.
Levy you compete with players we will every only dream of competing with. You are an inspiration and an educator in the world of chess for millions of people. I know that the more you get to the top the higher the stakes and the pressure, I just wanna say that we feel you and we thank you for everything you do everyday to contribute to this community, making it fun and educational for all of us. I have learned so much from your videos. Thank you for sharing with us this vulnerable moment. We all believe in you and support you. I am sure there are many great things awaiting you for the future.
Levy always be happy that you're a wealthy and successful content creator and not a broke GM.
IM*
@@shashwatmishra104 No GM... as in you either have a successful youtube carreer or you're a GM, there are exceptions but they were first GM and then became a content creator.
@@kristianbasile7141 👍👍
@@kristianbasile7141 word.. and to be fair, only two GM truly made it... One via savvy content creator strategizing, and the other... well from the perks of being world champ for so long now
Tough break. Thanks for opening up and sharing. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Man i really feel this . I really appreciate you levy . Thank you
You are an awesome tutor. Love your videos. Dont let small losses undermine how much of a champion you are!
This is the most optimistic version of "If you can't handle the pressure, don't play the game."
bruh, chess is nothing without you...just stay patient and do what u think is best, still remember the 1 million people who daily watch your content love you and want u to be happy💯❤
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Please more of you playing chess live it's so fun to watch your live reaction.
thank you, for shirring this with us, thought it was just me in my head - but aside from the fact that ur videos make playing chess fun again, this video is comforting - all the love
I dont think you should quit, you are just letting your anxiety control you at that point. If you love chess that much, keep playing. Eventually as you continue to be put in those situations your anxiety will lessen. Increase confidence, decrease anxiety. But if you quit for the very specific reason of your anxiety, you are doing to yourself in life what you did to yourself in that game. Dont check mate yourself. Reassess and overcome. We all have faith in you. Think of all the triumphs you may loose out on as a result. They are worth more than any blunders.
This is a good faith message, but pushing people into suffering further from mental health issues is not a healthy idea. Levy obviously made a great choice when he retired, his rating shot up and his chess playing improved as his stress level went down. Maybe he'll come to a better mental place about it, but maybe not, and that has to be fine too. Like your heart is in the right place but don't bust into peoples long-fought life choices to say "well I don't think you should quit, you should question every conclusion you've come to about your own well being"
I don't think he should retire. Take time off? Sure. Learn methods to control anxiety and high stress situations? Absolutely.
I know a lot of competitive people that suffered from anxiety due to self imposed pressure. There are ways to overcome these kind of psychological effects but they require the person to invest time in learning, practicing, and integrating such methods into their daily life.
Still, if a person feels they are done with competing than there is nothing wrong with that. Can always play chess as a fun game with no pressure.
@@nameredacted7622 Yes, but as someone who loves his online career as a personality and doesn't want to give that time up, taking the time to learn that emotional control through whatever many valid methods there are, and these things take A LOT of time, would take time away from his chess, which would end up making him worse due to less practice, and would only end up making him spend MORE time getting himself back into it and then MAYBE that emotional training pays off, or maybe it doesn't work and he wastes his time. The point is that for his life as it is, the time involved is simply not worth it.
@@yuugur666 I see what you are saying but it really does come down to one question. Is he honestly willing to give up on his dream of being a GM?
If he is willing to give up on being a GM and just be a chess social media personality that retiring is the obvious and easy choice. But if even a part of him still wants that dream than I think he ows it to himself to give it his best. He is still relatively young and has a great career ahead of him if he really threw himself at it.
Still, it's his choice and only he know what's best for his circumstances. Just hate to see a dream die.
The more you put yourself in uncomfortable situations, the less uncomfortable they become. Keep at it sir!
You are such a gifted player and teacher, that I barely play chess and you have me hooked! Follow the path that is right for you now, and always.
I have been watching your channel for the last few months and has gotten me interested in getting back into chess. I have learned a lot and seen how the it has changed since the 60's. I hope that you will not quit making your videos as they make chess interesting and are educational. I was a decent player but limited to a few high school and college tournaments.
My comment on this video is you spent to much time on rating points. your opponent could not intimidate you because you were doing so well intimidating yourself. In short, if you get back into the race be confident in your analysis and play the best move no matter what the rank of the other person is.
Have you ever talked about it with a mental coach?
youre playing against the best players in the world that is an incredible achievement and is really really cool.
Even if you never do high level chess completion again you should look into strategies for dealing with anxiety. You'll live longer and be happier. It's definitely a challenge you can overcome, and worth doing just for its own sake. Love your videos regardless, your one of the reasons I took an interest in chess, and it's been a great retreat from the stresses of daily life for me. Good luck whatever you decide to do.
Struggling with Anxiety is something everyone has to deal with differently. Respect for sharing this with everyone. Your content is amazing & helped me get back into chess after years of not touching the board.
I'm going to tell you the reason why you have such high anxiety over chess. It's because no matter how many people claim "it's just a game", It's not just a game. When you play anything you're hardwired to WANT to excel, and in chess that's actually much MUCH more emphasized than in other games. Because unlike other games you are starting off 100% equal on the board. Which means unlike any other given game, in this game you can't claim that some outside force has made you lose, you have to take the full brunt of the loss yourself. And it really does fuck with your morale, and with your self confidence.
You better than most understand that chess is an unforgiving game, you can be on top of the world today and get shattered and crumble tomorrow. This knowledge is in your mind, constantly as you keep playing. However it gets even worse, because unlike other games since you always start even, you are EXPECTED to improve with time. And the pressure of having played for so long and not improving as much as you want or expect to is even more anxiety. All of this on top of the fact that as you keep playing your brain is overloading with a staggering amount of knowledge, positions, and strategies.
If you wonder why people stop playing chess or lose their mind, this is why. It's an enormous amount of compound pressure that gets significantly worse the longer you play.
I’ll add to this and say that because of his RUclips channel, he has a much bigger reputation to uphold. It’s literally his business now. Imagine the kind of pressure when you’re risking your full time job every time you play competitively. Fuck that.
@@nickp3949 all the more reason to deal with it in a manner in which it can apply to all his online playing.
Because society attach results to a person value and self worth. Winner get praised and loser get nothing. People say just ignore those people but can you really? People who are seen as winners are more attractive and people naturally want to get close to them and they get more benefits. People opinion of you determine how they treat you and we as humans do not live alone so people opinion does matter.
If you play chess for fun, it just a game, if you play competitive chess, you are trying to be better than other people. People will judge you based on that.
@@gooddreams8495 the first issue with that statement is that you care what other people think of you. That is a self reflection issue, and should be resolved before anything else. Because if you judge your self worth based on how others view you than you are already never going to get ahead.
@@tactrix1h But his brand is entirely based off what others think of him. He literally teaches people how to play chess. If people see him as incompetent, he’s going to lose his business.
You want things in life right? 99% of the time you need other people to have success in life. People need to think positively of you if you are going to have the success that you want. That’s not a reflection of insecurity, that’s just obvious. Your reputation is your brand.
Keep ur head up man, just cuz he mated u doesn’t mean u weren’t the better player. Ur better than u think. Practice breathing excersizes and you’ll be good Man U HAVE to compete
Terrible thing to say to someone with severe anxiety 'YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT I WANT", what makes people think this kind of message is ok? These comments are unbelievable.
You remind me a lot of myself (except I’m not a chess god like you are) but I was in the competitive gaming scene for 4 years and at a major lan tournament completely choked it. Hit me hard for a long time but I do regret giving up. My point is you have a rare unique skill and ability and I promise you have full support of your family and your fans. Please don’t give up. Believe in yourself the way we all believe in you
I bought the caro course on Wednesday night, already have the D4 and intermediate boot camp courses. I probably wouldn’t have bought more but they’re so much nicer to use on chessly, I’ve been getting a ton out of the d4 course now that I migrated to chessly, far more user friendly.
"I don't know what it is. I can't exactly pin point it, but that really seems to be the epicenter of my failures. "
I felt that shit bro.
Nooo Levy you mustn't quit chess it's your destiny to become the Levi Ackerman of chess
Bro that was ggs tho great game. That's tough but gosh dang bro look how well you're doing. I've been a fan of yours for a long time and always knew you could reach GM level but youre just so busy with so much else and I know you let your mental get in the way but you should be proud of your performances
I can relate. Every once and awhile I have to back away and remind myself to stay chill about things.
Whatever your decision is, I respect you for creating great entertaining and educational contents. Think about hiw mucb contribution you made to the chess community, go Gotham!
8:21 Yes, but thats not a reason to quit chess, since i was stressed my entire 13 yrs of life for every single thing. I felt that stress in stomach every day before school and it was really, really strong when i went to chess tournaments. It passed mee in 14th year. And now i wish it comes back. I feel like it was what was oushing me to prepare 100000000000000% on exams and QnAs and stuff like that. Now its gone and it feels like watever happens doesnt even matter to me. And it doesnt. But thats good right. I feel like for me its not...But it is, so dont quit chess coz of 1 game. I did on 6 months left chess coz i was loosing. But now i am back and its not the same. My rating and my skill could of went up so high if i didnt quit that time. Im now sorry, so ure rating is 2800 and as one comment said: "Without Chess you are just Gotham".
@8:20 yess, I've experienced that specific agony. I went into weird rage mood for the next 3 days
You know, sometimes I like to quit chess because I never get to win matches. The self confidence and over confidence sometimes lead me into losing and thinking is it worth the trouble. And I don't play it professionally you do. I even lost my University chess game and let my team and college down. But still I continue my grinding, and still I am losing matches because it's I think the love of the game, (which I don't even know about till 2 years back). You know coz when I do win I feel validated. And when I lose I look up to your videos to remind myself how fun this game and sport is.
Do I do wish You'll see this comment and realise that it's just a phase and sometime in the future and start over.
Coz I do want to see the GM before GothamChess
Remember when Gotham didn’t clickbait us? Cuz I don’t. It works, that’s why I know the channel exists.
Too hard on yourself. Fantastic game that I barely understand after explanation.
It's the game you love and it means so much to you. It's great to see this passion!! Keep playing, we support chess but we cheer just for you and Magnus!
I totally appreciate you explaining why you get anxious when you’re playing. But you’ve been doing great lately. Something I’ve learned from my work is that I tend to perform better when I stop caring about performing well and just focus on doing me. You’ve been kicking ass lately. You almost won this game. You made a bad call because of a time crunch. If you got back into competitive chess without caring about winning or losing, I think you would shock yourself at how well you do.
Even if you've quit serious chess, achieving IM is still an immaculate achievement. Don't beat yourself up Levy, we still love you
Levy plays 1+0 online: gets good position against magnus carlson, loses on time
I play 1+0 online: blunder bishop, rook and backrank checkmate to some bozo from ohio within 20 seconds
@@dabbinghitlersmemes1762 fucking ohio
The anxiety in high stakes situations is so familiar. The fact you've gone so far with chess while having this condition speaks volumes about your character. You sometimes gotta remind yourself that you're ahead of most people that don't have your disadvantage, which is a far bigger achievement than for those who don't get anxiety attacks under stress.
Thanks for sharing ❤️ Chess is a fight and fights are always scary - it is understandable to get anxious.
Just started watching your videos as well.. don't quit man. You help so many people and tomorrow can bring new things 🙌 🙏
Oh man!!!! That’s so frustrating!!! But don’t sweat it!! Everyone makes mistakes and you played this game great!! Your subscribers like you and your channel and appreciate you bringing chess to the masses!!
Also, I think you and I have the same last name. Haven’t known anyone with the same name outside of my home town/known relatives.
Levy, you are awesome and a great chess player. If you can get yourself to not care and just play chess for the beauty of the game, you'd reach GM quicky :) I'm absolutely sure you can, and I suggest trying to talk about the issue with a psychotherapist. I'd love to see you get that prestigious GM title, and it'd be the greatest redemption story for you aswell. I've studied psychology and I'm sure that all you need is a different perspective on things, which you can absolutely achieve! You made it to IM, you can make it to GM, it's just that last obstacle, and it might look like it's a huge and insurmountable one, but breaking that barrier, launching yourself through it, that'd be a feeling of fulfillment that will empower you a lot and give you not only tons of confidence, but overall quality of life, to know that you fought against your inner demons and won. And even if you lose, even if you don't succeed? What is there to lose? Yes, it might be a struggle, but we could argue life itself is.
You make great content for me and all of us do not let anxiety overcome you good work kepp going
"Anxiety is the epicenter of my failures." Amen.
I saw the live footage of this game (edited down) in a recent Gotham Clips video. Just out of curiosity, why do you sometimes upload clips before the main video and sometimes upload clips after the main video? Not that it matters the order, I'm just wondering.