Hi ❤ Greetings from Espoo ( next to Helsinki). I am a reiki Masters too. Living statue was a lot of fun in Amsterdam. When it was sunny;gonand play...😅 When it is raining; free day❤. A lot of coins, many smiling faces everyday and nice cycling wirh My grazy bike with 7 handlebars....There I had My first mushroom trips. I Even plyed living statue while taking magic mushrooms on a saturday evening, nights at Dam squore....and using music from CD player....😊
@@ristomustakallioOh hello Living Statue..! 😊 You know what; we should give a name to that.. like your alter ego..:) .. But me living in Netherlands; knowing how much is raining there.. I would guess you were free a lot no? 🫣😅 Haha; bikes are story for itself in NL.. 😅 Mushrooms and NL comes together also very well..👌 And if I hear "CD player" my millennial ears are awaken! 🤩 *I miss even walkman heh..
i feel more like disintegrated, and walks also a lot, but unforutnetly in Poland winter is not.. the nicest one. Anyway, this patterns, and things and all of that. I am probably in darkest moment in my life for long time. But somehow still have hope kind of, then maybe there is the light somewhere. Probably it lives within us, we are living light. But it's hard to make it shine through shadows of mind or life in general sometimes. Or i is it? hmm everything best!
@@mariuszd.4909 Dear Mariusz, I do cherish your sharing a lot 🙏 How does your current darkest moments look like..? If you don't mind sharing.. Its such a paradox no; living the hardest times.. yet aqually somehow know "thats not all to it".. it will be over..have to be...sometime... it will happen... That was for me good to remember; it will pass.. doesn't matter how dark it is now... 🖤🤍 Thats beatiful to hear you feel it too😉🙏
@@michaela.seeker I don't know if you want to open this pandora box. I could share, but do you mind if i would write in dm in instagram or somewhere? Still it will be chaotic. Because of adhd, and probably asd - this makes me thinking a lot about things. And it's maybe an answer to my first question i ask myself of the source of my feelings with my first shrooms trip in home it was maybe 2 years ago. And get only as answer " why? why? why? to the point i couldn't write anymore" And if yes this could make me thinking about complex ptsd. And all connected with crisis of identity and not knowing what i want. Not having a job kind of right now. And some maybe ulcers i dont know i always think 0/1 and or i hop in and investigate health or not. .. if i thing its because of anxiety i just ignore it. .. but in past i had some real issues, from broken bone in my shoulder ( that i couldn't recognize with help of doctors) to lyme disease that was diagnosed after a half a year and treated. Then its like my intuition or me is somewhere so much different than other people, that its hard to get to be understood. I did some trips. Even 5meodmt once - that was super hard to grasp. And all of it kind of opens some parts. But still i struggle to find answers. And becuse of life im overwhelmed and now... the best for me would be some simple work with nature somewhere where there is no winter. To i dont know, just reset my mind somehow. But also with at least one person who could be similar or at least empathetic enough to feel understood. But dont have idea what, or where. and kind of hmm... power to look for it. If an "universe" would just pop it some route for me i could probably try to figure out some courage to try it. (but it couldn't be connected to neurotypical norms of reading social cues). I can do it to some degree - but i think this is making my system overwhelmed. Yeah then i cannot talk about it in focused way. It's like everything at once, like a tree. Holistic way, and people dont get it. Or neurotypical people dont get it. I once read this analogy: That neurodivergent people think like a tree. Bottom up or bottom down. I think in my way this is mixed. And that people who are neurotypical, things like a tree but to one branch. Ignoring all the others. as every analogy is not super clear, but yeah. Thats why it's hard for me to write it in the shorter way. And i said dm... and go fully overshare here. haha :D maybe not fully but to some degree. If it's too much then.. sorry. But i thought, why not. If someone ask, i never tried to talk about it openly. Maybe it somehow will help me or someone else in some way
@@brendan6567 My master was focused on therapy.. but to be licenced I need to do like 4 years extra training..there are many types of trainings; but I always feel its not holistic enough..many approaches seems to me limited..Many years since I switched somewhere else...But I don't know; maybe I'll change my mind one day.. or tomorrow.. who knows..🙃
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Hi ❤ Greetings from Espoo ( next to Helsinki). I am a reiki Masters too. Living statue was a lot of fun in Amsterdam. When it was sunny;gonand play...😅 When it is raining; free day❤. A lot of coins, many smiling faces everyday and nice cycling wirh My grazy bike with 7 handlebars....There I had My first mushroom trips. I Even plyed living statue while taking magic mushrooms on a saturday evening, nights at Dam squore....and using music from CD player....😊
@@ristomustakallioOh hello Living Statue..! 😊 You know what; we should give a name to that.. like your alter ego..:) .. But me living in Netherlands; knowing how much is raining there.. I would guess you were free a lot no? 🫣😅 Haha; bikes are story for itself in NL.. 😅 Mushrooms and NL comes together also very well..👌 And if I hear "CD player" my millennial ears are awaken! 🤩 *I miss even walkman heh..
i feel more like disintegrated, and walks also a lot, but unforutnetly in Poland winter is not.. the nicest one. Anyway, this patterns, and things and all of that. I am probably in darkest moment in my life for long time. But somehow still have hope kind of, then maybe there is the light somewhere.
Probably it lives within us, we are living light. But it's hard to make it shine through shadows of mind or life in general sometimes. Or i is it? hmm
everything best!
@@mariuszd.4909 Dear Mariusz, I do cherish your sharing a lot 🙏 How does your current darkest moments look like..? If you don't mind sharing.. Its such a paradox no; living the hardest times.. yet aqually somehow know "thats not all to it".. it will be over..have to be...sometime... it will happen... That was for me good to remember; it will pass.. doesn't matter how dark it is now... 🖤🤍 Thats beatiful to hear you feel it too😉🙏
@@michaela.seeker I don't know if you want to open this pandora box. I could share, but do you mind if i would write in dm in instagram or somewhere?
Still it will be chaotic. Because of adhd, and probably asd - this makes me thinking a lot about things. And it's maybe an answer to my first question i ask myself of the source of my feelings with my first shrooms trip in home it was maybe 2 years ago.
And get only as answer " why? why? why? to the point i couldn't write anymore"
And if yes this could make me thinking about complex ptsd. And all connected with crisis of identity and not knowing what i want. Not having a job kind of right now. And some maybe ulcers i dont know i always think 0/1 and or i hop in and investigate health or not. .. if i thing its because of anxiety i just ignore it. .. but in past i had some real issues, from broken bone in my shoulder ( that i couldn't recognize with help of doctors) to lyme disease that was diagnosed after a half a year and treated.
Then its like my intuition or me is somewhere so much different than other people, that its hard to get to be understood. I did some trips. Even 5meodmt once - that was super hard to grasp. And all of it kind of opens some parts.
But still i struggle to find answers.
And becuse of life im overwhelmed and now... the best for me would be some simple work with nature somewhere where there is no winter. To i dont know, just reset my mind somehow. But also with at least one person who could be similar or at least empathetic enough to feel understood.
But dont have idea what, or where. and kind of hmm... power to look for it.
If an "universe" would just pop it some route for me i could probably try to figure out some courage to try it. (but it couldn't be connected to neurotypical norms of reading social cues). I can do it to some degree - but i think this is making my system overwhelmed.
Yeah then i cannot talk about it in focused way. It's like everything at once, like a tree. Holistic way, and people dont get it.
Or neurotypical people dont get it.
I once read this analogy:
That neurodivergent people think like a tree. Bottom up or bottom down. I think in my way this is mixed.
And that people who are neurotypical, things like a tree but to one branch. Ignoring all the others.
as every analogy is not super clear, but yeah. Thats why it's hard for me to write it in the shorter way.
And i said dm... and go fully overshare here. haha :D maybe not fully but to some degree.
If it's too much then.. sorry. But i thought, why not. If someone ask, i never tried to talk about it openly.
Maybe it somehow will help me or someone else in some way
thanks for sharing it takes courage to admit things so frankly and candidly
@@brendan6567 :) thank you.. As psychologist or therapist you are trained to open up that parts though..
@@michaela.seeker you're a therapist?
@@brendan6567 My master was focused on therapy.. but to be licenced I need to do like 4 years extra training..there are many types of trainings; but I always feel its not holistic enough..many approaches seems to me limited..Many years since I switched somewhere else...But I don't know; maybe I'll change my mind one day.. or tomorrow.. who knows..🙃
@@michaela.seeker gotcha, yes obviously its not