I Was Forced To Go To A Mental Hospital |
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- Опубликовано: 8 янв 2017
- A video talking about the time I went into a mental hospital. What a time. #MentalMonday is the new series in which every Monday I talk about a different thing relating to mental health. WHAT. A. TIME.
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I thought that I could get help at mental hospitals, but I was wrong. Personally, I think that place is designed to be dreadful, so people will want to get better and never end up there again.
I find your explanation to be on point. I've also been in a mental hospital and i found the logic and purpose there to be the same. I think their logic of how mental hospitals should make you feel is downright wrong. It's like we're being punished for mental illness as if we CHOOSE to feel the way we do and how it impacts us. Mental hospitals should be reconstructed from scratch of how they go about treating patients and the environment we have to endure
I've been there it's so DAM true
@@wanderingartist5199 Ya it's a living hell like what the hell
There's supposed to be like that people, like prisons you don't want to go there cuz you shouldn't technically have to
Can you tell me how you involuntarily taken to the hospital? I ask because our son is having a manic episode that turned violent last night. Our family did not what to do.
i was in a psych hospital for 6 days and didn't see a doctor ONCE. not once. and i met with the nurse practitioner assigned to me for a total of 30 mins over the course of 6 days. Being in a mental hospital made my depression so much worse, and I'm convinced literally gave me anxiety bc its been 6 months and I still wakeup in the middle of the night scared out of my mind that I'm gonna wind up there again. something about KNOWING you cannot leave a particular place at your own free will is fucking terrifying. checking yourself into a mental hospital takes away ALL of your credibility, and i understand that... i mean, come on, you're in a looney bin, the staff just assumes everyones irrational and lives in the clouds. and thats the scariest part. its like you're instantaneously transported back to childhood where you have no say.. and if you disagree or show ANY kind of anger, the nurses start with the "calm down, you're getting combative" and escalate the situation way more than it needs to be. worst experience of my life. made everything worse for me
How are you doing now?
I'm doing better! Initially after being discharged I was just really happy to be home and out of there, and I stuck to therapy and my medication routine for about 2 months but then basically just stopped everything cold turkey when i was having a good day. Idk, it changes everyday, but for the most part I've been okay! I finally started making my health a priority so thats keeping me busy, cooking more and working out, its also improving my mood most days.. Work in progress, ya know! Thank you for asking :)
Thats good that you are doing well. I have had periods of depression. I have put together two whole folders of vi deos looking at depression froma ll possible angles. I hope they are useful to you and others ? They are in the play list part of my chnl. Thanks. Im Justin :)
Samantha Larson. You words are truth!! This abuse needs to stop!! People need help no traumatized.
I don't fucking understand why a "mental hospital" helps people if they wanna die, LIKE WTF!?!? Jesus Christ
"I feel like I'm jail."
The nurse laughed. "No. Jail is a whole lot worse."
Dumfounded the patient began to undress. "There should be no comparison."
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What i see truly prison...but has lot privacy or can keep item around you
I found jail to be much better and safe, tbh.
I was also forced to go. Due to a false complaint saying I was suicidal. I am now watching your video 4 years after it happened and crying it out. The injustice, the lies, the gaslighting... its all so much. But I am ready to feel it. To heal it. Till this day I meet people who think thay I was having a psychosis due to the narcissistic smear campagne launged at me. Its so painful. My whole life destroyed. My business, family, friends, my dog who got traumatized due to all of it....
Its just so much to process.....😢😢
Thank you for sharing this. It helped me cry and connect back to that time.
@@TheGiftOfGod_Wood still havent fully processed it. Mamy people only want to justify what happened and doubt my side of the story. I prefer to not even speak about it anymore...
@@TheGiftOfGod_Wood Thank you. I am not at a point where I have totally accepted it. I still get angry and sad when I think about all it has costed me, but I am proud I survived it all and I am even more proud that today I am still going strong in overcoming the fear to express my boundaries and confront conflict. (As that was what caused then to lock me up)
As it is written... the righteous fall seven times, but get up eight. I refuse to allow the past to keep me down. I might take a rest on the ground because I am tired, but you bet I will always get up again and overcome.
How are you processing this harsh experience?
@@TheGiftOfGod_Wood Its so hard. I mean.. I go through my daily tasks and I am trying to build up my business again, but when omit comes to fully processing what happened... I am not doing that.
I party in the weekends and I learn to interact with people again, but I still try to push my feelings away with alcohol and drugs.
Last week I told a quite new friend of mine about what happened to me and immediately he started to make up reasons as to why my family had made these alligations against me. It was tpuch, but I stayed calm and tried to not defend myself too much.
But yeah, its hard because most people are picking sides of the opposition without even knowing them.
I think I need to spend some nights alone and perhaps write about it or something. Maybe that will help me to release all the pain and anger.
As for now I am trying to do the best I can although it might be with some "help".
Idgas... if this is the manner in which I will overcome this then so be it.
Unless someone has walked in my shoed they have no right of speaking or judging. I can judge myself well and honestly enough if needed.
I can not remember your story exactly and perhaps I will watch your video again later today. It has been a while since I came across it.
Just know that each step is a step and that we can celebrate it all. Also know that we have to be mindful with who we speak about our stuff. Mamy people mean no evil, hoewever they just lack the capability to understand.
I am sending you so much love and empowerment. You got this, I got this, we got this. Trust no man, but trust yourself and God above all ❤️
takes a lotta guts to tell this story in public. respect for that
You also illustrate really well how mental health facilities in this country operate with much more irrationality than any patient
Lance The Pants. Wow! You nailed it. They really are more irrational than most of the patients.
You didn't even explain why you went there, or anyone for that matter how about someone start with that
+Noah Kirkpatrick thank you
Nic Stewart I love ur fork
Out to get ur $ and not help you at all.
I was picked on, bullied and abused by staff at a psychiatric hospital in Cerritos, CA. They neglected my medical needs. They refused to change my diet to food I could eat. They physically assaulted me. They stole my property.
I was put on an illegal hold. I was coerced into signing papers without reading them because I was about to wet my pants because I hadn't been to the bathroom in hours. They said I couldn't go to the bathroom until I finish my paperwork.
The agencies that are supposed to protect psychiatric patients rights refused to take my complaint.
Melanie Evans A simple liar thing happened to me (tricked into signing papers.) Did you report them to your state’s medical board and get your records?
Is this college hospital? Fucking hate that place They're awful I know most places are but dude some of these places they look at us like animals .
Melanie Evans I am sorry this happened.. they put me on a 5250, and they lie about many things ! They told me I was diabetic which I am not .. and they were giving me stuff for Diabetes and now they’re saying they never told I was diabetic which I had told them I do not have diabetes..
Melissa Manson I went into college hospital in Hawthorne ??? It was bad! They lie lie lie!
Get a lawyer
I was thrown into a mental hospital 5 times, but the biggest one was for me continuously running away from an extremely abusive home. I ways begged the police not to take me back. My father gave me a paper bag of some clothes and had two staff members come grab me at the age of 16. I was there for a week, I wasn't allowed to go outside nor look out windows, no visits, no calls, constant drugs and isolation when you had "episodes". In truth it made me worse, I was really traumatized considering my first few hours was sitting in a dark hallway holding my knees and wiping blood off my arm from the tuberculosis test. Forcing someone to get treatment is sometimes okay, if it's deemed absolutely necessary or voluntary. But being forced into situations like that really messes with your head, I remember us patients looked out for each other behind the nurses backs. One girl had large scabs over the inside of her wrists, and during group she was trying not to freak out and ripped the wounds open. Ultimately we had her hide her wrist and we helped her press on it and hide it in her sweater sleeve. I don't think the psychiatric centers nowadays do anything positive in terms of reinforcement and medical help. Much like prisons, they only contain troubled people instead of truly helping them individually.
Experts say the cruelest thing that can be done to a person is put them in solitary confinement. People are social and need to get to talk to other people.
You are absolutely right about psychiatrists not talking to people. They merely write prescriptions for drugs!
love the idea of mental Monday, mental health needs to be talked about
Don't ever go to any medical person and tell them anything. And never allow them to take you anywhere.
It was a 51/50 that likely means the cops brought her to a hospital against her will.
@@Juliette_Ba no it can be multiple things. PET teams can be called and put people on 5150 holds if they fill the pt is DTO/DTS/GD. They then can request ems to transport instead of police.
@@dontworry9029 I don’t know what is DTS or DTO.
@@Juliette_Ba danger to self and danger to others.
Absolutely!!
For many mid-life people that experiences a psychiatric hospital, it was not a beneficial experience. It may have been a horrific nightmare filled with abuse, torture and much worse than death itself.
Thank you for sharing your story. I was recently hospitalized and narrowly avoided being put on a psychiatric hold. I took a leave of absence from work but couldn't afford to take more time and I'm doing my best to take care. Your story and channel is a great resource, thanks for doing what you do girl.
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also a lot of patients were so sedated that they started sudenly sleeping, barely talked..
They usually don't help the situation
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More precisely, their medication experiments usually make things worse-ALOT worse!
@@ronalddonner3396 exactly and they get away with it
promoting mental illnesses and opening up about your own is so so SO important. I have been in two different facilities for suicidal attempts,social anxiety, and depression. thank you so much for talking about this people need to realize that they are not alone
Abbey Hill bull mental illnes dont exist just that its like were slaves to these psychiatrizts
it most certainly does exist. i get what you're saying about being slaves. we're slaves to this fucking government... but mental illness does exist.i went through it. my sister went through it. a lot of people do
Mental distress, emotional suffering = these exist. The diag-nonsense handed out by the psychiatrists using the DSM is not science, it's social control. We hospitalize people because their behaviour makes US afraid, not because anything is actually fearful. Don't diag-nonsense everything, listen to your friends when they are sad or lonely. Do not complain to doctors of your emotional or mental state.
Riiiight... A person having a psychotic episode threatening to harm themselves and others is something society should not be concerned about. How would you feel about that person having access to firearms?
@@kennygoodman4194
But that's the thing: people don't care about firearms. For some reason people fear others with a "mental illness" because they're "threatening" but guns are legal to literally anyone and with so many mass shootings they're still legal but apparently those are safe! Firearms shouldn't even be legal, the US is broken. What other country, other than the US, do you hear firearm related incidents of? Next to none, right? Guns shouldn't even exist as they were designed to harm another being.
After a suicide attempt a year ago, I was sent to a mental hospital 60 miles away from home. The closest one which was only a 15 minute drive away was "booked" as I was told. I spent a total of 6 days in this hell hole. Other than a group session daily and recreation (which consisted of coloring in books that were about 5 years old and/or going outside to the "smoking yard") twice daily, there was literally nothing to do other than to sit in front of the television, which I could have done at home. Although the food was decent, the line was so long that if you were at the end of it, you had maybe 5 minutes to scarf the food down your throat. My first roommate was a very sweet, soft spoken woman who I got along with great. Unfortunately, she left the second day I got there and then I got the roommate from HELL. Not only was she a big girl that got water all over the floor when she showered and didn't clean it up, she snored so *#(*&* loud all night long. This was not regular snoring, either. It was like a truck revving its engine up. When I told the head nurse I wasn't sleeping due to her snoring and that I would like to change rooms, I was abruptly told the facility was all filled up and therefore I would simply have to "deal with it". Obviously, if you've just attempted suicide, sleep deprivation is not going to improve your mood. I was so tired one day, I didn't make it to group therapy just so I could close my eyes for a few minutes. Then I found out from my husband they said I wasn't "engaging" and would have to stay longer! Overall, one of the worst experiences in my life. It certainly dissuaded me from EVER attempting suicide again; or if so, to get it right! Sad, but true. These places are supposed to help you, not make you feel worse than you did when you got there! This experience left me mentally and physically drained. Maybe it's just a Florida thing, I don't know.
It happened to me in texas too
I am angry and feel empathy for you and all the countless people over history and now that suffer in these systems with "insane" workers/ "therapists" & the so-called "professionals" . I have some mostly negative personal experiences with the "counseling professionals", including psychiatrists and psychologists, because they often have n empathy and healthy & helpful skills and knowledge from what I know since 1980 in my life!
The abuse and neglect in these places & private & community counseling locations are like this most places in the world. Perhaps in dime European & some other places are good, yet I am unaware if that is true. I have a Bachelor's degree (in 1987) in Mental Health/Human Services ( very similar to Social Work) & a minor in Psychology, yet my awareness of these horrid environments, I never would want to work in them for numerous reasons. I work in a childcare & Early Childhood Educator position which is stressful enough for me! Too many people whom are employed to supposedly help people in crisis are unfit, not adequately prepared and educated (not properly, anyway about basic humanity, basic needs, and emotions, etc.).
not just Florida. same shit with me in Illinois. 50 miles away from home, no one did shit.
It's not just Florida
Nope this is an America thing
I experienced the same completely by surprise. I was socially isolated and depressed, but definitely not suicidal. Being involuntarily incarcerated in a mental ward, ie locked up, is severely psychologically damaging if you're feeling down....but nowhere near suicidal.
Same assembly line mental health care, surrounded by severely mentally ill people, and realising you're lumped in with them.
Complete, total, utter uncertainty, and psych interns blithely asking precisely the same questions.....no appointments or "whens" about anything. No books, no visitors, no fresh clothes. No opportunity to call my JOB. For three days....but with the kicker that they could keep you for up to 28 days if THEY decide(?!)
I understand the need for involuntary mental health orders. I really do. They're important. But if you're NOT suicidal, just down and isolating, being thrown involuntarily into that environment is absolutely the most frightening, demeaning, embarrassing, stressful, counter-productive thing one can have happen. It made things...for me....MUCH worse. And extremely reluctant to seek any kind of mental health help.
I know it has been two years since you posted that comment, but I curious about who turned you in, who put you into a psych hospital, if you were just depressed and isolating? I suspect it was your family. That's what happened to me when I made the mistake of telling them that I was depressed.
I just had the most horrific involuntary incarceration on my 49th Birthday weekend four days ago - Saturday October 9th and my actual 49th Birthday on Sunday 10/10/2021... my cats were left locked in the bathroom with ABSOLUTELY NO FOOD FOR TWO DAYS, AND I AM HAVING THE EXACT SAME DEHUMANIZING HUMILIATING TOTALLY SHIT UPON AS A HUMAN ASHAMED AND DIRTY DOWN TRODDEN SUBHUMAN FEELINGS AS WHEN I WAS RAPED AND SODOMIZED AT AGE 17 BY MY SAUDI BOYFRIEND SHEIKH MOHAMED ABULESAN, IN FREETOWN THE CAPITAL OF SIERRA LEONE IN WEST AFRICA, 32 FUCKING YEARS AGO. I HAVE NOT HAD THESE WORTHLESS HELPLESS TREATED LIKE GARBAGE AND TOTALLY SHIT UPON FEELINGS FOR 32 YEARS, BUT BECAUSE I MISSED ONE FUCKING TELEHEALTH THERAPY SESSION ON THE PHONE WITH A BITCH CUNT THERAPIST NAMED CORRIN A. A TEN PERSON TEAM OF COPS AND MOBIL CRISIS UNIT AMD PARAMEDICS AMBUSHED ME HALF AN HOUR AFTER I WOKE UP ON SATURDAY MORNING AND PHYSICALLY MANHANDLED ME AND PUT ME THROUGH SUCH AWFUL EXPERIENCES FOR MY BIRTHDAY WEEKEND I AM STILL TOO TRAUMATIZED TO WRITE ABOUT RIGHT NOW...
I AM GOING TO SUE THIS INSTITUTE FOR FAMILY HEALTH AND ALSO LINCOLN HOSPITAL IN THE BRONX HERE IN NYC FOR MILLIONS OF DOLLARS NOW!!! This unnecessary trauma I was put through will never leave me or be erased from my memory!!!
I've been there too, girlfriend. Love how the staff make everything super stressful by treating everyone like they are a serial killer.
This sounds like a nightmare. I'm happy that you're out of there and you're okay
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Lucky for you. Only 72 hours. If you don't have insurance and happen to be placed in a state hospital, you may have a stay anywhere from 30-180 days. If the can persuade the court, who rules in their favor, you may be deemed disabled and never have a life again. Possibly, they may keep you for the rest of your life. Even have the court to assign a POA/guardian over you. Lead your family to believe how horrible you are and that you can't function in society. You have no rights to make decisions. Lose your job, your friends and family. Even if you simply had a traumatic event and became depressed. The doctors are rarely available and don't listen. No help for what you need. You are treated like a prisoner. Don't do exactly what they expect, you will be strapped down and given injections to knock you out. In addition, they will drug you up orally to shut you up and to comply with the jail like setting. Something has to be done to stop this abuse!! Many are left with bigger issues simply from the admission/stay. Not to mention PTSD. The only thing you learn is to never tell anyone that you are depressed, don't feel like living or any other issue you need to vent about. Others think they are helping. They don't realize they are not getting you help. They are purchasing a ticket for you to go to jail and traumatized........ for life!!!!!
Helen Rogers wonderful. You know pretty much and it's correct. Thanks.
helen your right im currently been going through this for a long time now cant land a job lost all friends and all family members turned there back on me. how can i fix this
Helen Rogers
Helen
Can you help me
Hey Maria. You can message me if you want. Thebethanyh@gmail.com I have gone through the same issue
I know for a fact that when I was kept against my own will it was because I had insurance! I was detoxing off pain meds in a mental hospital in which I was on a pink slip (72hr hold) from a drug treatment center/ mental health clinic.... While others who were clearly mentally I'll were cleaned up, held for 72 hours then streeted! Nope ... in my case I was there for two weeks!!! My children filled a missing persons case on me, detectives were in my apartment and I had no way to call anyone because they wouldn't let me have access to my cellphone to get numbers out. It was actually a nurse aid who saw my daughters pleas on fb who notified her for me. I had to file a case with the courts to get the psych dr to release me! I told her I knew exactly what was going on there and magically I was released next morning at 6:00 am! These places don't care if you have a serious mental issue! They want your Medicaid, Medicare, and private insurance money! Otherwise they wouldn't charge $30 for an 800mg Ibuprofen, and charges for 2 weeks of detox off pain meds from brain surgery 3 months after that surgery was nearly $22,000.00 in a Mental Hospital!!! I along with a few other people who were clear minded in there filed Medicaid and Medicare insurance FRAUD on the facility, but never heard a word after filing!!!!! These places are jokes! And sadly there are people who really need care, but the place I was in wasnt one of them!!!! It felt like an adult 24hr daycare without sugar and caffeine! Oh and I also forgot to mention a few of the people I was there with were cold Turkey taken off their prescription xanax meds and everyone was put on the same three meds.. Ibuprofen, Lexapro, and Trazadone! People who had been on xanax for years were having seizures from suddenly stopping the meds! This place is called Ohio Hospital of Psychiatry or OHP!!!! It's real, and a true nightmare!!!
I know this is supposed to be a serious video and everything
But...
I'm so glad that I found another person who also isn't a breakfast person
Like nobody is a morning person but everyone thinks I'm weird bc I don't like to eat breakfast
S. Collar Breakfast makes me feel sick, like just eating in the Morning is not my thing. So I'm with you Fam
Dude neither do i
Same
I know breakfast makes me sick depending what it is but I still get myself to eat in the morning which is rarely and I'm definitely not a morning person either
Same here. It doesn't make me sick if I eat it but it's early and/or I just woke up and I'm not ready to eat since it feels weird and I have no appetite until lunch.
Take this from a mental person. The public system vs the private mental health system are poles apart. My first day at a public mental institution was being told to strip naked ,in front of staff, to put staff approved clothing on without any underwear and to be locked in a room for 18 hours straight whilst staff shone a torch into a small window whilst i pretty much paced around the room the entire time weighing about 40 kilos. I had no access to water and was not asked at any time whether i needed to use the toilet.
Yep, I was 5150'd. I learned from that, if I'm to take my life, just to do it, and not elude to anyone about it.
I'm sorry this happened, Alivia. I love you.
Hey got a question sorry for bothering u
Thanks u
@Curt Christensen they can say it, freedom of speech.
Guys check my channel it’s intense compared to alivia
Hi nice hair
My husband was admitted on a Friday and was told his team would not be decided until Monday morning so... no one talked to him... other than the people who took his admission stats (blood pressure, temp, etc.)... no one talked to him for THREE DAYS. I am baffled. "It's the weekend, what do you expect?" *EYE ROLL* You're a hospital. You're supposed to operate EVERY. DAY.
This is so accurate to my experiences! A lot of people make videos about their experiences and they arent
Accurate at all! Thanks so much for actually being brutally honest about the lack of appropriate mental health care!
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I was forcibly given an injection of Haldol when I was completely calm at the College Hospital in Cerritos CA. The staff seemed to enjoy my crying because I am terrified of needles. I am still having nightmares and flashbacks about what they did to me.
What the fuck
I wish you to forget that
Can't you sue them for that? You were forced to do something you didn't want or need and now you're still having traumas over it. That's a violation to your basic human rights.
If you were crying and in a panic thats probably why they gave it to you
I had a similar experience. they forced me to take medication that I didn't want to take and I was calm. They threatened me and said if I didn't take the meds that they'd inject me. I told them I'll only take the meds I am familiar with, not random pills they just cocktailed
i was forced to be in a mental hospital too, and it's the worst. it's basically a prison
I’m so so sorry. No one deserves to be sent to those places of torture.
my experience was also a load of shit. the staff started calling people by their room numbers, no one had cleaned my wounds so i was left bleeding through the scrubs and on the sheets for the first two nights. my clothes were dropped off the earliest they could be and i didn't receive them until the evening of the second day. no therapist or doctor talked to me for the first whole day, and so many countless shitty things happened. i had never felt so insane in my life- just from being sent to a 'treatment' center.
Sounds like my experience in a mental hospital. I hated it but I got back on the right track.
We need to all share our stories! They need to stop getting away with neglect and abuse!
You are not alone honey. Doctors do this all the time they call it "psychiatry" but they are really trying to treat patients who they themselves don't understand they are just "fascinated".
Mental and behavioral health centers treat you like an inmate. You were fortunate to be able to shower. They usually have to observe you. Given a bathrobe, that is such a luxury.
Thank you for telling your story. We love you and we appreciate it
Hospitalization at a mental health hospital is probably the worse thing to experience. Forever waiting on the psychiatrist and nurses or they fail to listen to what patients are going through due to the ultimate failure within the psychiatric environment.
You're lucky if you get 72 hours. I voluntarily went but they lied so much in the paperwork I was with-held for two weeks, missed my first week of work, and an upcoming legal case. I didn't freak out at any time, I complied with all medications and treatment, and my hygiene was impeccable. My state is just full of cruel people in "helping" positions.
Appreciate you sharing your story, experience and thoughts. Thank you.
This is literally identical to my experience...it was awful
It was brave of you to share this, i wish you all the best
Hope 2017 is a much happier and healthier year for you❤️ best wishes x
I can relate 2 weeks ago I spent 3 days in a psych ward. The staff was nice but I hated every moment of it. One thing I will never understand about these places is we go there to get help yet they treat us like we committed a crime. The one I went to was actually a psych unit at the hospital I go to not an independent psych hospital. Criminals in prison get more rights then I did when I was in psych. Psych wards aren't the worst I would rather go there than prison and I've never been to jail or prison I've never seen the inside of a holding cell. Psych wards are not a fun place and I don't wish it on my worse enemy.
Facts send me to jail at least I can bail out. Hell on earth.
My ex girlfriend went into one and it was a horrible place and I was stressed for three straight days worried for her and her well being. I’m so sorry you experienced such horrible care. Mental health facilities need some serious attention and revamping
My mom brought me in to a mental hospital against my dad’s, my attorney, and my school counselor’s wishes. The staff were really confused and didn’t understand why I was there. My mom lied to the staff and convinced them to put me in to therapy. She has now gone to the lawyers and said that I’m crazy, physically abusive, verbally abusive, and mentally abusive. She won’t let me live with my dad. I really need advise
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i went through the same thing. my workplace department manager (hospital housekeeping) sent me against my will, with no belongings, for a WEEK from my job for crying from the stress and depression of my mother dying, being diagnosed with scleroderma, being married for the first time at 48, and being bullied at work for years. it was a hospital in inner city chicago, 50 miles from my small illinois town. that manager, who, after going through 7 previous managers over ten years there with no problem, was a dowdy butch bully who had it in for me from the day she started. they dragged me down to the ER where i sat from 2 pm until 10 pm, they made me undress in front of them (major lifelong phobia), and use the bathroom in front of them (major lifelong phobia 2). finally they shuttled me off in an ambulance. i slept on a rubber mattress on the floor with springs sticking through, in a freezing cold room (i have raynaud's - NOT good, they turned black) with a fake window that looked out onto a brick wall in a dark ventilation shaft. my roommate was a crazy homeless woman who pissed in a bucket off the side of her mattress and talked to someone she imagined in the room.
both sexes inhabited the ward. i felt incredibly unsafe. nothing to read, no phone, can't draw, nothing to do. people watching shit like springer in the common room. room next to mine had a TV that they would set up like a theater and play loud, violent action movies well until 11 pm. same thing with the showers - which would leak out onto the floor - you had to press a button and it would only run for 5 seconds. i had nothing to do but sleep. no one came to see me. they threw me an Ambien every night - the only thing i had to look forward to, so i could sleep the time away.
i lost my steady hospital job of ten years, because i could not go back after such a humiliating experience. i lost my insurance and can no longer manage my systemic sclerosis/scleroderma (which my boss mocked), no longer see my rheumatologist, and no longer afford important, very expensive, immunosuppressive medications. my husband lost his insurance through me. my health deteriorated quickly, and am now too sick to work, let alone look for work. my excellent credit , that i established entirely on my own, was now fucked. this situation wrecked me, my finances, my well-being , physical and mental health. i hope you're happy, Stubler. i hope you burn in hell.
urgh! what an awful experience!!! I'm sorry you had to go through it but I'm glad you came out at the other end and can talk about it! whilst it might not help I'm here if you ever need an ear. I'm looking forward to mental health Monday, think it's important for us all to be open and honest about it ❤
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I had to go somewhere for a mandatory “72 hours” but since I showed up on the weekend, I had to be there an extra two days that apparently just counted for nothing and then one more extra day because the discharge lady fell asleep in her office and didn’t finish my discharge papers. I am much better than I was after a year, but that experience set me back more than anything and was pretty much an unnecessary trauma I wouldn’t have had if no one had forced me to get “help” by forcing me there. I also became a smoker for 6 days because that was the only way to go outside....
Why though?
my experience with it was so bad, before the hellish punishment I didn’t have anything wrong with me, now I’m just dead inside and also I’m pretty sure it ripped a bit of my sanity.
Find God i promise you he saved me. I was also tortured. Literal torture for 13 days in one for pleasure to the staff. True evil. God has helped me stay free. I will not let them ruin my life with those memories.
I understand entirely what you mean tjough i havent been the same since either. They tried to turn me to a vegetable. Im here if you ever want to talk about it. Ive never told anyone my story.
Im so sorry that things got to the point of you having to go there. But happy that you're out♡
Wow! Deja Vu! Had some of the same things happen to me. Horrific conditions. No one explained anything to me. Told me I could take a shower. I went into the shower room, no handles to turn on the water. I was very confused. I kept looking out to see if someone could help me. No staff to be found. Finally another patient was walking by and I asked about the shower. She said "Oh, it's just like jail! You have to hold the button in to keep the water on.". Well that was something new I learned. Never saw a doctor or counselor or case worker the entire time I was there. A lot of scary women!
I’m so glad you were able to talk about this
Takes a lot of courage to tell your story especially with the attitude against mental health
AGH Alivia! I'm sorry you got to that point. Sending you mega hugs, and I hope the journey to the future is good for you.
P.S. I know having a peanut allergy sucks, I once went on a long haul flight having not eaten that day, and I couldn't eat any of the plane food. UGH
I can relate to your experiences SO WELL. Thank you for sharing.
This is incredibly relatable, thank you for sharing.
I have severe anxiety, and I'm going through a rough spot this month, and as a 13 year old I hope I don't have to go somewhere like that, although I do like hospitals strangely enough.
The mental health system is disappointing to say the least.
I've been made fun of by the staff in hospitals several times when I was there asking for legit help.
That's fucking horrible I hate shit like that
The very best wishes to you, Alivia! I really like what you had to say beginning at about 8:10 through to the end of the video. Such practical suggestions to attend to your feelings, move on, and get things done in life.
Thank you for making this outstanding video. It takes great courage and bravery to come forward with such a painful experience. I am sorry you had to go through this but hopefully this video will help others. Excellent video. Wonderful speaking skills. We can all benefit from "self-care" and making ourselves a priority in these stressful times we are living in.
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I know its kinda werid to say but this video helped me feel less lonely . Thank you for making a video about this, people don't take mental health seriously so psych wards don't get much funding. When I went the Citrus, in FL, no doctor ever spoke to me and the left me in that huge room for 2 hours (I don't know how you stayed there for 6) and I was losing my mind. They dismissed me after three days without ever seeing the doctor and just sitting in the crafts room doing nothing for most of them. I know where you're coming from, albeit not as extreme. Btw I hope all is good and you get better, hopefully you can find a good psychiatrist and therapist because I know that's what helped me. (P.S. I love your videos even though I'm new here, you are becoming one of my favorites)
robyrobwhat: You think they get no money because it looks like a run down building and the quality of mental health workers attitudes are neglectful. It is just business, old smoke stained buildings are cheap and a shrink with a license and a chip on his shoulder about Americans getting benefits are the only ones willing to work there. Medicare is oblivious, and required to pay if they meet minimum standards. Medicare is a gold mine to them, and your brain is where they have to do the digging.
I'm determined to suffer in silence
Hello. Psych wards get big big funding.
@@ber9313 Yes, they get too much funding in my opinion. They are depriving us of our human rights and of due process in many cases. They are able to do this because of the way the laws have been written, and they get funding in most cases from property taxes. Some federal funding as well. They have enough money to force us into hospitals and to take drugs that cause akathisia, tardive dyskinesia, worsened diabetes and worsened cardiovascular disease. They know about these side effects, but rarely tell us about them, and when we do our own google searches on them to find out what is happening to us because of these drugs, and then complain to them about the side effects, they don't care. They are not the ones experiencing akathisia. I am convinced if they had to experience akathisia for one week, they would never prescribe antipsychotics again, if they have a heart at all.
Oh my gosh, between your story and the stories I am reading below I feel terrible at your experiences! I was in for a week (voluntary) and it was like a hotel. I almost didnt want to go home, back to reality. This is a real eye opener! Thank you for sharing
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the shock of it all is what made me actually get help - like i don't want to ever be here again
Hey Alivia. Thank you for sharing your experience! Mental Health awareness and access to services is something that has never been more important !!! Yessss....great advice too: start out each morning writing down your goals for the day, and journal your feelings! ....never forget to mindfully meditate 5 minutes per day...when your mind wanders from the breath--take note as to where it traveled off too--and this is key--no judgement, no emotion. Let the thought go and return your attention to your breath. Keep putting out positive vibes in the world !!! God Bless You.
Been there. Done that. It was hell. It was a conspiracy. I wasn't ACTUALLY an ACTUAL threat to Myself or to others. 😒
Me too.
Me too also
Me too.
Involuntaries...
They’re real bad asses.
Me too.
I've been hospitalized around twenty times. What you describe sounds a little worse than the mental hospitals I have been in.
I'm glad you got help, and I'm glad you were able to talk about it publicly. I've been in three different psych wards in two different states--the first two of which sucked majorly and the last of which wasn't bad at all--and your experience was similar to the worst one I've been in: shitty showers, not accommodating my dietary restrictions, no entertainment... I literally paced several miles up and down the short hallway each day because there was nothing better to do. I was there for six days, though, so I'm glad you were lucky enough to get out after three. Hope you're doing better!
I truly hope you are feeling much much better, as this is now 2 yrs later. In addition, you are incredibly brave to be able to share your story so publicly. I pray that you never feel alone again, as there is always some one that is there to listen.
I was in a true shit hole. No counseling nothing. I played the game got the he'll out. I was worse depressed and felt humiliated worse than ever.
Yep play there stupid game and get the fuck out.
I'm in no way advocating for nasty bland food, but caffine and salt can raise blood pressure which can exacerbate mental health symptoms
Love your sense of humor. Your story also rings a bell for me, as I was under psychiatry care at one point. Here's where I tell you how smart and essential and pretty you are; last but not least, we all have our low points. But in our brokenness, strength of character increases. Be blessed!
So sorry that u were going thur a rough time sweetie, I pray that u are feeling & doing better. This was a great vid 2 let people know what they could expect if they ever need 2 go into a mental facility. Thank u 4 ur insight.
I overdosed on cold medication.
I went to the er.
I was held there until I could see the doctor.
I asked every day and was told he wasn't in.
Then my sister visited and told me the doctor says he had seen me and blah blah blah I have to go to a permanent facility.
I was livid.
I went to the er willingly.
Anyway this facility was a home for homeless crackheads. Now I don't judge these people, it's just do you get what the establishment was.
I was one of few speaking patients.
While there I made a friend. We walked around the neighborhood and found a video store. He asked me to rent him a Depeche mode video. I created an account and rented it for him and something for myself. We went back and talked for a few. I go to my room. Next day I go to see him. He's gone. No one will tell me where he is. Basically we were separated because what if we sex.
I had to pay for the video.
Anyway deal was they were direct withdrawing the rent from my account but for some odd reason I didn't get my check. Turned out it was sent to the wrong bank.
It took 3 days to get it.
During those 3 days I was repeatedly accused of stealing my own money out of my account so they couldn't be paid. I explained the situation but was still accused. When the money arrived I told them and they got their money. I was again accused of stealing and kicked out.
That ended two months of hell.
Never go to a place like this.
Don't let the people around you convince you you're crazy because they're bored.
Dont have emotional problems.
Life is what it is.
It's fucked up.
Evil thrives,goodness is sheep before wolves.
Don't be a sucker.
Mental problems are a hiding place.
Don't hide.
Life is what it is.
It sucks a lot of the time.
The key is learning to empower yourself.
If you don't know how, read self help book until you figure it out.
Once you're empowered you will never again waste your time with emotional problems.
I agree so much with your final paragraph. Life is what it is, and yes, it is f'd up. There is no point in telling anyone at all about your emotional problems because this is what happens to you if you do. And yes, it is far better to read self help books and figuring it out on your own than going to see these mental health "professionals".
I hope your 2017 goes well ❤️
You are so right! It’s like you just described my experience when I was in the hospital. I’m sending you lots of love and hugs from the UK🙂💝💖💗💜💝💖💗💜
Thank you for your story I just had someone close to me who I just found out is in a similar situation as you and I'm looking for information and ways I can help. Thank you so much for posting this video so I can gain some understanding and help the people I love!
There are some important facts missing here. Listening to an endless "vent" needs to include what happened--at least briefly.
These are evil people
I enjoyed your story. I feel you on never going back. I may share my story soon.
I had a friend self commit herself due to depression. She was underweight because of the depression. The doctors marked on her chart that she should be allowed extra food. The chart said "special diet". Here the staff thought she was on a restricted diet and blocked her from eating certain foods and wouldn't allow her to have seconds. It was insane because you could visually see that she was underweight. Basically, the other patients stole bacon and stuff for her.
Also, she said they mainly watched soap operas 24/7 and that Group therapy was a joke. She had to write goals, such as "i will take a shower" and discuss if she achieved her goal.
Smh. Think about how it is for people who have to actually live there for more than 72 hours.
thank you for talking about your experience i had bad experiences and my life is ruined
Here at Pinellas Park, I was escorted by a police officer to a mental health facility called PEMHS (Personal Enrichment Mental Healths Services) due to my stress in school. Overrral, the place is terrible. Lack of bad medical services, the place is in terrible conditions, even the bathrooms, didn't offer any showers for 2 days. The places even feel like a prison camp.
You are very brave for sharing your story,I myself have been in a mental hospital and when my Dr would come in he would and if I had thoughts of hurting myself or others and leave and that was it!You really just have to make the choice to get better on your on bc most of these places are a joke!Thank you for sharing,you are very brave and I hope you are feeling better!
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I’ve been there. It’s horrible feeling like your freedom has been taken from you. ❤️ Hope all is well!
...that's because it was taken from you.
You're very strong❤
What choice do you have. None hell on earth.
I think you are amazing on RUclips. I love the way you tell your stories
I'm sorry beautiful.,..an experience to teach many. Thanks for sharing and for standing strong.
Atleast y'all got sandwiches for snacks, we got saltines thats it. We didnt get to color, only during art 3x a week and food there was dried to the plate. Decaf is cause they dont want the patients all jacked up. We had 1 group a day an non on the weekends. Full of bordem. There a horrible place but i garuntee jail is far worse.
Ok
I work in an inpatient psych hospital and i work dayshift. I also work on the adolescent unit. There are groups after groips after groups. After breakfast, which is promptly at 0730, are vitals where pts must be in their rooms. Luckily, most of them are sleepy af since wake up call is 0700, so they nap while we get all 17 pts vitals (bp, temp, pulse, resp rate, pain, bowel movents, etc). This almost never goes seemlessly. But whatever. Then we have groups from 845-915. 915-945. 10-1045, 11-1145. Lunch at noon. Phone calls/visits at 1230, which also is free time for them to color, journal, read, play cards and other games, watch a movie, socialize. 1400 is group therapy. 1500 free time. Then 1530 is shift change. My kids are busy. Seeing the medical doc, psychiatrist, and therapists every day, attending groups, attending meals. Not much down time, unless its the weekend. The weekend only has 3 groups during the day shift. I can see the boredom bc i get bored working there on weekends.
I've been to nine hospitals and I feel as though you expected too much...
I was in a psychiatric ward for 9-10 days, I might make a youtube video about it, I was 11, having serious trouble with my life at that moment, if you don't mind me asking, why were you admitted, was it just basic reasons or something different?
8:25 Best advice I have heard in my entire life--thank you!!!!!!
This happened to me too. They hauled me out of my own home that I own in handcuffs they didn't Miranda me or anyting. They put me on a med hold and I couldn't leave. I'm not even crazy so I don't know why they did it I'm a targeted individual so I don't know why they did this.
🤫 hope that you didnt take those 'quik dissolving tabs' eye gave you🤐👁🙄
Ive been in hospital 3 times. First two was 1 week each. Second was a month in the adult section. Hh
Hey, I think you’re super cool!, thanks for sharing your story.
Question: Do you have private health insurance? Just wondering if this would be a factor on care, as in more $$ made through insurance to cover mental health services and so beneficial to the service provider to have you stay longer
*Half the video, her talking about how bad the food was*
That's a big part of it...
It's so disgusting 😵
Hand gestures.....so extra, so extra😂
Thanks for sharing, best of luck to you 😊
I didn't get any lotion, bathroom was disgusting, showers were too hot, i waited hours too until I finally seen him. He diagnosed me right away without really asking questions. I was on hold for 7 days. It was crazy. I never received an actual explanation of what was going on with me, I received all my plan on paper and the paper finally explained to me what was going on yet i was still confused. My family is working more as a therapist than any of these people. Food was good no lie, group therapy was too. We couldn't really go outside much that sucked, I mean idk horrible experience.