Try switching to CBD /CBG for a bit, which is better for anxiety, and can leave you more clear headed compared to THC. And since you're doing okay financially, try saving up for mental health therapy and diagnostics, even if a remote thing is all you can afford. Trying to recover from recently being homeless while also juggling multiple responsibilities with no help is definitely a lot to handle.
I tried CBD for a bit when I couldn't get normal smoke back in 2019 pre having a card ect and it just didn't do anything for me tried it a few other times same thing. That was a decently dark time for me when I couldn't use my meds I had no motivation and ran myself out of money living on my cousin's couch and in rat motels for a year. With the bi polar I can't control my emotions very well soo having like a reset button in my pocket helps put the reggae music on try to breathe. They want like 300$ a month to talk to somebody and other than the odd carrot on the stick thing I get for myself to keep me motivated. Leaf blower to clean my PC for black Friday I don't have the money or feel i have the money. I make 2500 a month bills are 1100 a month gas food car most of the things fit into that number then the rest of ideally 1k a month I put towards my house. Next year this time I'll have been working at my job for 2 years the longest I've worked anywhere and one of the worst jobs I hope to have in my life. but next year as long as my car makes it I should have 25-30k in cash and be looking to buy a house probably a loan ect but I have no family no friends I don't want women or men or anything to do with anyone anymore I just want to feel free and I have no idea how to get any closer to getting there before I have a home a safe place somewhere I actually can be. a job that gives me purpose or at least makes me not feel like a pos and then maybe just maybe I can work on my mental health care. I'm even willing to stick it out at my job for 5-10 years till I get all my medical things and life in order if my quality of life goes up I hate to be the boo hoo person but they put me to do things they don't make anyone else do and when I complain I just get put on something equally crappy. not good with people I can barely look up long enough to see where I'm going sometimes soo just alot of issues and trying to keep my head down and just go the only route I see to maybe be free. I have some decently serious medical issues that most people would be worried about but I just don't have time for it if it's not killing me Right now it's irrelevant. I appreciate the comment brother and the watch wanted to try and give a bit more context to life and things in the reply I'm pushing forward out of spite of everything for the hope that one day maybe il wake up and be like yoo it's not soo bad.
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Try switching to CBD /CBG for a bit, which is better for anxiety, and can leave you more clear headed compared to THC. And since you're doing okay financially, try saving up for mental health therapy and diagnostics, even if a remote thing is all you can afford. Trying to recover from recently being homeless while also juggling multiple responsibilities with no help is definitely a lot to handle.
I tried CBD for a bit when I couldn't get normal smoke back in 2019 pre having a card ect and it just didn't do anything for me tried it a few other times same thing. That was a decently dark time for me when I couldn't use my meds I had no motivation and ran myself out of money living on my cousin's couch and in rat motels for a year. With the bi polar I can't control my emotions very well soo having like a reset button in my pocket helps put the reggae music on try to breathe. They want like 300$ a month to talk to somebody and other than the odd carrot on the stick thing I get for myself to keep me motivated. Leaf blower to clean my PC for black Friday I don't have the money or feel i have the money. I make 2500 a month bills are 1100 a month gas food car most of the things fit into that number then the rest of ideally 1k a month I put towards my house. Next year this time I'll have been working at my job for 2 years the longest I've worked anywhere and one of the worst jobs I hope to have in my life. but next year as long as my car makes it I should have 25-30k in cash and be looking to buy a house probably a loan ect but I have no family no friends I don't want women or men or anything to do with anyone anymore I just want to feel free and I have no idea how to get any closer to getting there before I have a home a safe place somewhere I actually can be. a job that gives me purpose or at least makes me not feel like a pos and then maybe just maybe I can work on my mental health care. I'm even willing to stick it out at my job for 5-10 years till I get all my medical things and life in order if my quality of life goes up I hate to be the boo hoo person but they put me to do things they don't make anyone else do and when I complain I just get put on something equally crappy. not good with people I can barely look up long enough to see where I'm going sometimes soo just alot of issues and trying to keep my head down and just go the only route I see to maybe be free. I have some decently serious medical issues that most people would be worried about but I just don't have time for it if it's not killing me Right now it's irrelevant. I appreciate the comment brother and the watch wanted to try and give a bit more context to life and things in the reply I'm pushing forward out of spite of everything for the hope that one day maybe il wake up and be like yoo it's not soo bad.