가을이나 겨울에는 니트로 느낌을 낼 수 있는게 정말 장점인것 같아요!! 특히 언니가 말한것처럼 부츠랑 신으면 너무 잘어울려서 그 점이 너무 좋아요🤍😘 저도 강아지 키워서 강아지 이름이 라떼인거를 생각해서 저도 아이디 라떼로 했어요! 강아지는 생각보다 많이 봐줘야할게 많아서 집을 자주 비우거나 산책을 많이 할수 없다면 좀 더 고민을 하시는게 좋을것 같아요! 저도 집을 좀 비우는 편이여서 항상 미안하더라구요ㅠㅠ 그래도 같이 있는것 만으로도 너무 좋고 특히 너무 좋은점이 반려견은 그냥 어떤 조건 없이 제 자신 그 자체를 좋아해줘서 그리고 유일하게 자기보다 나를 더 좋아해주는게 정말 큰 힘이 되요!! 키우신다면 무엇보다 너무 소중하게 해주시면 좋을것 같아요! 언니라면 너무너무 좋은 주인이 될것 같아요!!!❤️❤️❤️
언니 아이보리 가디건 찰떡이에요 완전 공주님..💓뀨 완전 기요미예요ㅠㅠ더보기란 읽고 왔는데 그동안 영상들에서 강쥐들을 향한 따뜻함과 애정이 눈에 보여서 언니는 분명 반려견에게 따뜻하고 좋은 가족이 되어줄 수 있을 것 같아요!!영상이 올라온다면 환영할 준비 하고 있겠숩니다..😍오늘도 좋은 영상 감사합니다아!!
제가 키우는 강아지랑 뀨랑 비슷하게 생겼어요 반려견 키우셔도 정말 애정도 많이주고 잘 키우실거같아요 ㅎㅎ 언니는 언제봐도 참 여리고 좋은사람같아요 항상 힘내시구 날씨 추운데 따뜻하게 입고다녀요! 댓글 진짜 유일하게 남기는 유튜버ㅠㅠ 성격이 다 느껴져요 영상에서 영상 자주올려줘서 고마워요언니 …❤️❤️
꺅~~~기다리던 언박싱 영상이다!!ㅎ 언니의 영상만 봤는데 우울했던 기분이 풀어지는건 뭘까요?😊💕 연수언니 영상은 진짜 힐링 그자체!!! 더보기에 정성 담아 꾹꾹 눌러적은 거 같은 연수언니의 진심이 여기까지 느껴지네용❤❤ 어떤일에든 매사에 신중하고 남을 배려하는 마음이 있는 연수언니!!진짜 제 롤모델이고 너무 닮고 싶어요ㅎㅎ 연수공듀님 언제나 홧팅하시고 힘내세용👸🌷✨
Oink Oink.. I open the door.. I see large boxes.. two Large boxes enter the first room.. and another two Large Boxes places in the second room.. I see couch.. I see tables chairs.. More boxes comes into the Log Cabin home.. on the Diner room and the living room.. into the kitchen.. I see the Movers walking in and Out of the home.. as I watch the movers walks.. they enter the truck and it goes.. I would be out side.. it feels so good when it is cold.. with my jacket.. I am standing out.. I watch the SUN goes down.. still the SNOW on the ground and I am looking UP to the Sky.. Night Comes and I am looking at the Moon.. I don't know why I think of YOU the most.. especially when I see the Night.. when I look at the MOON.. I start to think of YOU.. do I miss YOU.. I am thinking right Now.. Do you think that I miss YOU.. if you ask Me this question.. standing Out here in the cold.. watching the SUN setting.. as the Wind starts to blow.. the wind chill makes me shiver.. that is how I feel when I think of you.. I get these cold chills.. sending shivers down my spine because I do miss YOU.. feels like when I walk Out.. and I look Up at the Sky.. looking at the MOON.. it is how I feel when I miss YOU.. that I want to see that MOON because I know that down in my Heart.. I think of you the most when I do see that MOON.. do I smile.. I want to smile.. because all I do is smile when I know that YOU are in my Heart.. that you are IN MY MIND and in my soul.. just can't stop think of YOU.. I would look at that MOON.. I am trying to think of the past.. when was the last time I seen YOU.. that I do miss YOU.. I miss YOU more and more.. as I turn to the direction.. I am looking at the door of this Cabin Log Home.. my hand grabs on the door knob and I am wondering.. I have lost my memory.. but I want to know.. I want to know how much did I loved YOU.. YOU would not tell me how much.. if YOU knew me before I lost my memory.. would you not tell me because I asked YOU.. I asked you on the Phone.. How much did I love YOU.. I would wait for your answer.. I just don't remember because I do want to remember.. I asked YOU.. but why can't YOU answer me.. YOU told me that I did Love YOU.. I asked you the question.. DID I love YOU?? there was a short paused.. and a breathing I heard.. I asked YOU the second time.. DID I love YOU?? Please tell me that I loved YOU well.. did I love YOU the way YOU should be loved.. I wanted to know.. I kept on pressing to ask and asking YOU.. I was holding onto the phone.. just waiting for YOU to answer.. there was a short pause and I heard you telling me.. I did love YOU.. and I do remember I just could not say another word.. My Heart.. for some reason it started to Beat faster.. Like I would be running and slowing down trying to catch my breathe and when I stop for a break.. My Heart would beat as like the beat ran faster.. that is HOW My Heart felt when I heard YOU telling me that I did Love YOU.. of course I want to love YOU.. I want to keep on loving YOU.. and I asked again.. How much did I love YOU.. can YOU please tell me.. if YOU answered the first question.. I know for sure you can answer this One.. Please tell me so that I can hear my Heart beat faster when YOU give me the answer.. I heard YOU not say a word.. but why.. YOU told me that I did love YOU.. why couldn't you tell me More.. I want to know.. if YOU can remind me.. maybe I can know.. maybe my memories can come back to Me because I did hear my Heart beat faster when YOU answered the first question.. I really Really want to know.. as I am standing by the door.. MY Hand grab hold unto the Door Knob.. ALL I need to do is turn it and open the door.. I can go into this Log Cabin House.. this New Home that I brought.. before the Movers came.. I do remember One large Box came before the Movers brought many boxes.. smaller and larger into this New Home.. One Large box.. I placed into the ROOM.. the first room.. I do remember opening the top of the Box.. I saw a Picture frame.. it was YOU inside the picture frame.. YOU were sitting on the Couch that just came into this New Home.. I don't remember YOU sitting on that couch.. but YOU were holding the vase.. placing on top of YOUR Lap.. the same Vase that was in the Second room.. but there was a Stem of a Flower.. YOU were smiling and I looked at it.. I don't remember any of it but tears.. there were two lines of tears falling down from my eyes.. as I would look at the picture frame.. inside the picture of YOU siting on the Couch.. I felt so sad because I.. I want to know when was this taken.. I want to know who has taken this Picture.. was it me who was holding the camera.. It must be me because I do know that I loved YOU.. and if that couch came as the Movers brought them into this New Home.. it must been a previous time.. which Home.. whose apartment.. if that Couch belongs to me.. then was it at the old apartment.. was it at a Home.. I just can't remember.. Please help me to remember where and when.. from WHO.. I know that it must be me.. because this One Large Box came yesterday night.. and I brought it into the First ROOM and I opened it to see.. So I know that it belongs to me.. I started to cry when I saw the Picture Frame.. My Heart was shattered because I want to remember.. I want to know when and where it happened.. I know that It was me who took this picture.. why would the Picture frame with YOUR Picture comes inside this Box.. but who had this is the Question on my mind.. was this Box with YOU.. are you the one who send this Box to me so that I can remember.. I did Not want to call YOU.. I knew that YOU wanted to know something but right Now.. I just can't tell YOU because I don't remember.. as I would reach.. my Hands grab onto the Picture Frame.. I am looking at it.. my tears kept running down my cheeks.. I want to remember.. I want to know.. But I do not want to tell YOU anything because if I don't know.. the way My Heart is breaking right Now.. you can feel the say way too.. I looked at the Phone.. I wanted to dial.. but I told myself I am not going to call YOU.. if I don't remember and has NO answers.. I just can't.. if Tears are flowing down my eyes.. I don't want to imagine Your eyes with tears.. If I loved YOU and My Heart still loves YOU.. I just don't want to hurt YOU.. I rather be the one who is hurting.. I want my Heart to be breaking and shattering instead.. SO I decided not to call YOU.. I rather be the One to be hurt.. and feeling hurt by myself.. it is because I love YOU.. that is the only answer I can tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. My hand turns and opens the Door.. and I walk inside the Log Cabin Home.. it feels more alive with stuff inside the house Now.. felt so empty when Nothing has arrived in this Home.. I would walk to the second room.. as I am standing by the Door.. I am looking at the Vase.. in the Picture of the picture frame.. a Flower was inside.. it was a Sun Flower inside the vase.. maybe that is what is missing.. maybe I should put a SUN FLOWER inside the Vase.. is that what was empty in that vase.. maybe that is the answer YOU want to hear.. But.. what if that is NOT it.. I think there is something more deeper than just a Flower.. what do I want.. what do I need from YOU.. why did YOU leave this Empty Vase.. why do I have to question myself if I can just ask YOU.. But I did end UP asking YOU.. YOU told me that YOU are NOT going to give me any answers because it is ALL UP to me to figure that OUT.. WHY would you put this Vase.. an empty Vase in this room.. why not in the first room.. why the second ROOM.. have I been here before.. so much un answered questions I must know.. But YOU would not tell me.. as I am looking next to the Vase.. I put the Picture Frame next.. beside it.. and ALL I am looking at is Your Beautiful Face.. Your Smile.. how this same Vase sitting on top of Your Lap.. with a SUN FLOWER inside.. I want to know.. when and where.. that Couch is in the living room of this House.. I just can't remember.. I want to remember.. why don't you call me.. I don't want to call YOU because YOU are going to wonder do I remember anything yet.. because right Now.. I just don't remember anything at all.. but I do wish I knew.. I wish I know now.. but right Now.. all I can think of is when and where.. I know that I must loved YOU.. the more I keep on looking at the picture in the picture frame.. I want to love YOU more.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. but How.. How can I tell YOU that I love you if I don't remember but my Heart is burning within me to tell YOU that I do.. only thing that I want to tell YOU.. I do still love YOU.. but I don't think you would believe anything at all.. because YOU do know that I don't remember.. but something in me tells me that I do.. How am I suppose to express this Love.. the word and to transfer the word to YOU.. that Even though I may not remember.. and has a memory loss.. something keeps on telling me that I do still.. that YOU did not lose any hope because I never stopped loving YOU.. WOULD YOU believe me.. I want YOU to believe these words of mine.. but what If YOU don't.. you may think that I am lying just to make YOU feel good at the moment.. but.. if I loved YOU once.. and YOU knew that I loved YOU a lot.. or More.. that Love will never just leave without a trace.. I know that if I loved YOU.. I will never stop loving YOU.. but.. would YOU believe in this truth.. would you believe me at all.. I am afraid that YOU would Not believe because I am at lost.. BUT Please.. know that I never stopped loving YOU.. YOU are only going to hurt me if YOU just don't believe my words because ALL I can say is that I do.
MAH MAH.. I am standing by the waters.. I watch the Moon comes UP before me.. My three friends are behind Me.. with four Horses.. I would LOOK up at the Moon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Do you know that it has been a Long time since I loved YOU.. Not with a Day passing me By I just couldn't think of YOU.. I know that I do not deserve to Love YOU.. but what happens when I have broken the Golden RULE.. it does Not matter any more what Happens to Me.. because I came so Far.. and I can't never go back now.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. it does Not matter if YOU don't love me because I have never asked YOU to love me.. but I have come so Far that NOW I just can't stop loving YOU.. I would look at my sheath.. grabbing the back of the Sword.. I pull the sword Out.. and I raise IT UP.. looking at the shine of the Blade of the sword.. I have never stopped practicing the Art of the Swordsman ship.. I have been training for a Long time.. Been practicing over and over because I knew that One day.. I will have to use this Sword.. to fight and to Protect YOU.. even though YOU may Not need me.. I believe that One day.. I can be put into the service to be useful to Protect YOU.. I would watch the Sun set.. swinging the Sword.. left right right left.. I would be swinging through.. as I watch the Sun comes UP until the SUN goes down into the Night where I see this Same Moon.. I told myself that One day.. I am going to enter the Palace.. One day I am going to come and see YOU.. but of course I do not know How long that One day will be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I do remember the day I saw YOU.. My Father wanted to surprise me by taking ME to see YOU.. I would be begging HIM.. as I would be holding and Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. He would look at me asking me.. WHY DO I keep on staring at that Art Sketch Paper.. it is NOT going to come Alive.. it is NOT going to ever hear me.. or will Not answer Me.. why do I keep on looking at the Picture of YOU.. what good is going to do if I only stare.. but unable to do anything about It.. and Knowing that I can't be with YOU.. My Father looks at me.. and He tells Me.. why don't I give that Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU to him.. and He will get rid of It.. He tried many times to get rid of the Art Sketch Paper.. tearing it into the pieces.. or even burning with Fire.. I would watch it get burned and torn into pieces.. I would watch it disappear into the Night.. as I could Not do nothing about the situation.. But.. I would always go.. find a Way.. pay coins giving it to the Boy who draws picture.. and He would always give me a New Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. My Father sees me with another One.. and Yes.. finally he tells me.. He is going to take me to see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I do remember as I was on sitting on the Horse.. He would be pulling the Strings of the Horse.. and He would stop.. and He would turn and by the same waters.. He would pull the Horse and stops here where I am standing.. and He would LOOK at me.. looking at the Horse.. He would turn to look at the MOON.. and look at the waters.. and He would turn to look at me who is sitting on the Horse.. and tells me HOW much He misses my MOTHER.. How much My father loved my Mother.. and How he still loves her till this day.. but did Not want to show any signs and tears.. did not want me to look at HIM as a Father being so weak.. but when He sees me.. and How much I love YOU.. as much he would try to get rid of that Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and NO matter what He does to that paper and turns into the ashes.. just looking at my Will and my Love.. how much I love YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. it is like He is looking at Himself who misses My Mother.. which My father loved Her so Much.. and He knew.. this is the same way He feels about loving someone.. and wanted to show me something.. as I sat on the Horse as the Little Boy.. He would come to this Place.. looking at the waters.. it brings great peace but sorrow of How much He loves my Mother.. My father would spend a day here.. letting me wonder around.. but He would sit still looking at the waters.. after He gathers his thoughts.. he would help me to get on the Horse and a long journey of HIM walking will take place.. as I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. He smiles looking at me.. for a Long time He would go against me loving YOU.. He would spank me.. hit me.. push me to the floor and I would be crying getting UP.. but my hands are always holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU until He finally tells me He has given up trying to force me NOT to Love YOU and has opened his heart for me to Love YOU.. He tells me.. I have such a Strong will power.. that I do not give UP that easily.. and that is what He loves about me as His son.. I remember going to the palace.. He shows his Card to the palace guard and they open the Door.. as the Head of the servants.. he would take me to a different location.. a location or the Place I have never been.. and He stops.. there is a Bar Gate.. It was a training Ground and My Father knew that YOU were here.. as I sat on the Horse.. I saw YOU walking.. there were five men standing behind and they were the TOP Generals.. I saw YOU looking across.. holding a Bow.. and grabbing an Arrow.. I saw YOU pulling the strings of the bow Back with the Arrow in between and YOU were aiming.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I saw YOU let go of the strings of the Bow.. the Arrow releases and it shoots hitting the target.. the MAN who was standing next to the target.. the arrow hits the Red mark.. the Man holds UP the flag and says BULLS EYE.. the Five Men who were with you.. who were standing behind you.. hands were clapping.. knowing that YOU bee practice shooting with the Bow and arrows.. My Father who is standing next to the Horse.. I am sitting On the Top of the Horse.. I wanted this Picture.. I wanted some one.. that Boy who draws sketch paper.. I wanted him here so he can draw me a picture of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. shooting arrows.. My Father looks.. He turns to look at me.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. telling me that a MAN needs to protect who He loves.. and tells me.. looking at YOU.. if I really loved YOU.. I can't be a weak Boy.. can't be weak because YOU are the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the One who is going to rule over the kingdom.. and to Love YOU means to be a real Man.. to Love YOU means to have the Courage to protect YOU.. and my father looks at me.. instead of Looking at the Art sketch paper.. I needs to pick UP a sword.. pick up the sword and to fight for the One who you love the Most.. and I sat there.. but I just want to love YOU.. but my father tells Me.. Be a real man.. not a coward.. but take heart means to have courage.. knowing how to die you love means YOU can live for YOU.. and I sat there wondering what does that Means.. to fight for.. am I a coward.. am I afraid.. and my Father pulls the Horse away and starts to lead the other way.. holding the strings of the Horse.. He would tell me many things as I would spent my time with HIM.. about Love.. what it means to love YOU.. My father also mentions that even the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who is shooting arrows using the Bow knows that to be the Crown Princess.. needs to protect the People that is with YOU.. also practices daily shooting arrows Hitting the target.. because YOU want to rule the Nation.. to be the next to be on the Line to have the kingdom at hand.. I would turn my Head looking back.. sitting on the top of the Horse.. I would hear the top generals clapping Hands and shouting with Cheers as YOU are hitting the target BULLS EYE.. I am sitting.. and I started to ask my father.. I want to protect the Crown Princess.. because I know that I love YOU.. I want to be the One to protect YOU.. is that means I am showing YOU love.. and My Father smiles.. and tells ME he can train and teach me with the basics and I would turn my head to look front.. and I hear my father laughing as He would pull on the strings of the horse as he is walking and I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. just smiling all the way.. as I am standing here.. Looking at the waters.. I lift UP my head Looking at the Moon.. I have been practicing for a Long time.. ever since my Father showed me YOU.. and told me what a MAN must do.. to protect WHO he loves.. Now.. Many years goes By.. I have never changed this Heart of Mine.. that I always wanted to protect YOU and Never stopped Loving YOU.. I am standing at the cross road.. and I have seen many important people coming forward.. they have kissed YOUR HAND.. showing the devotion to YOU.. But I know that I have Not kissed Your hand yet.. I feel so wrong because I have chosen which I know that I can't.. I told YOU how much I loved YOU.. ever since I saw YOU from my youth.. as a young Boy.. I remember YOU turned to look where I was at.. with my Father next to my side.. I was sitting on the top of Horse.. looking at YOU from the distance.. I saw YOU grabbing an arrow.. holding the strings of Bow.. Putting the back of the arrow on the strings of the Bow.. pulling the strings and aiming the arrow and releasing it.. I saw the arrow flies across and it Hits that Target.. right on the middle of the spot.. I would watch the Man on the side of the Target raising up the flag calling out.. the five generals who were teaching
MAH MAH.. and training YOU.. I over head.. YOU are learning so Fast.. you are very quick on picking UP things.. and they would look at each other smiling.. hands clapping and shouting saying.. the Next Ruler.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Next one to sit on the Throne.. I was blown into pieces as I sat on the top of the Horse.. watching the arrows hitting the target on the red mark.. I would begin to think.. How can I ever protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have the top Generals on your side.. YOU have the COMMANDERS and the Chief Generals.. they are the Most fierce fighters and warriors who are with YOU.. How can I even fight if YOU have the best men with YOU.. How can I protect YOU.. but My Heart who loves YOU wants to just do that.. to Love YOU and to protect YOU in any means.. as I would stand.. LOOKING at the Blades of the sword.. I can see the shine.. How can I protect YOU.. but that is the Only thing that I can do.. to love YOU and to protect YOU.. as I am looking at the waters.. I did Not know that you came.. I did not know that YOU were going to come.. as I turn around to look at the three friends.. I see YOU behind the four Horses and YOU were sitting on the top of the White Horse.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would lower myself.. and the three Friends also turns around.. the four of us are on the Ground.. looking at the floor.. did YOU hear what I say.. when did YOU come.. did YOU hear everything that I was sharing.. and all I hear is silent.. I am looking at the ground.. I hear Your Voice.. telling me to get UP.. that I must come back to the Palace.. that YOU have something for me to DO.. but.. I just remained still.. I just couldn't get UP.. because YOU are the Crown Princess.. just give me the permission.. allow me to get UP.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH..I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.. the Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU if YOU want me to kiss that Hand.. I told you I just can't.. if YOU want me to be Your Subject.. I want to live a different life.. I can't spend the rest of my Life just standing here.. Unable to say.. unable to tell YOU How much I love YOU.. I am Not going to live the rest of my life.. just wishing because I just can't.. why.. if YOU are asking me why I can't.. Loving YOU is all I want.. Loving YOU is all I need and all I can do.. YOU can't change my Mind and can't change my Heart because I love you this Much.. and I just can't stand here.. becoming a Part of Your Subject unable to tell YOU.. and to show YOU how much I love YOU.. if I can't express my self.. I rather go.. I rather walk away so that I can move on further.. I rather be in the Mountains.. I rather be alone not seeing YOU.. even if it means to LOOK at that MOON above us.. If I can talk to that MOON about YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. if just to tell that MOON how much I love YOU.. I rather be far missing YOU.. at least I can have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.
MAH MAH.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills
MAH MAH.. me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there.. telling me to get UP.. and the four of Us all get up.. the Crown Princess is calling is what the Messenger is telling.. the three of the friends started to walk forward.. But I stop.. I am not going to walk over.. I can't kiss YOUR HAND if I can't love YOU.. I rather NOT go and just turn the Other way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand.. WHAT happens to me.. HOW about my Heart.. if YOU are going to HURT ME and kill My Heart.. KILL me first.. I am always ready to Die for YOU.. and I see YOU walking down the stairs from the Stage and three friends all stops and turns too look at me.. If I cannot even Love YOU.. what is the Point of me living.. I did not come all the way here to Just kiss Your Hand.. I came here to celebrate with YOU.. it is the Most Beautiful Day but How about Me.. How about my Love.. How about me Loving YOU.. If I can't love YOU now.. I can't love you later.. because it will turn Out to be Never.. that is why I choose to be still here.. How about Me.. tell Me.. give me the answer first.. I rather turn the Other way.. I will go back to the Garden where I belong in the first place.. where I should stayed in the first place.. If this was going to happen.. I do not know why I came all the way down here to cause trouble.. I don't mean to cause any kind of trouble.. because MY true intention is also celebrate.. but IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND..I am looking at a sketch.. someone draw a picture of YOU and gave it to Me.. as I am looking at the Picture of sketch.. it is YOU.. I am sitting in the Garden.. two lines of tears falling.. It is YOU CONGJU NIM.. Now I know that Even though you may be far from Me.. it is this Sketch Picture of YOU.. I can still Love you.. Even though YOU may be at the Palace.. and I am here in the Garden.. I know that Missing YOU would Not be too much because YOU are in my Heart.. I look at the Sketch picture of you.. my lip kisses the Sketch Picture.. my Princess.. YOU are my Princess.. and I am sitting down.. looking down is the Sun Flower.. it is laying down.. I remember that I gave this to YOU.. but why didn't you take this Flower.. I told you that it was made for YOU.. this is the One who I love and gave this Sun Flower to YOU.. why didn't you take this Flower with YOU.. as My hand grabs the Sun Flower.. did YOU drop this Flower along the way.. I did see your hand grab it.. YOU got on the Horse and How did it end UP in this Garden with me.. why didn't you take this Flower.. I wanted you to have it.. when days are sad and gloomy.. it was meant for you to Smile when YOU look at it.. Now.. I don't want this flower with me.. I gave it to YOU because I love YOU.. it was for YOU CONGJU NIM.. it was for YOU MY PRINCESS.. and I am looking at this Sun Flower.. did YOU say something Mean to my princess.. did YOU say something Ugly or nasty for Her to toss you on the Ground.. I place the Sun Flower on the ground.. two hands grabbing this Sketch paper.. someone drew so well of YOU.. It really looks Like YOU.. this Sketch Paper.. my Princess.. my Princess.. CONGJU NIM.. will you ever come back to this Garden.. will you please come.. because after seeing this Picture sketch of YOU.. even though I said I won't miss YOU.. I have lied to myself about that.. because after Looking at this Picture.. this Sketch drawing of YOU.. Now I want to see YOU.. Can you please give me the permission to Love YOU.. will you let me Love YOU.. I want to love YOU my Princess.. then YOU needs to come to this Garden.. and show me that I can or I cannot love YOU.. even though I can love you by looking at this Paper.. sketch picture of YOU.. I can love YOU by looking at this sketch.. but I want to really love YOU.. I feel like something Inside me.. my Heart starts to Miss YOU.. I can feel my heart.. it is hurting.. it hurts because I want to be with YOU.. WHY did you have to Go so soon.. WHY did you even come but had to leave me like this.. WHY show UP Out of nowhere.. and My Heart jumped.. it leaped because of the Joy I felt meeting YOU face to face.. Now I am sitting down here in the Garden.. I am here alone.. with this Sun Flower.. you have left this Sun Flower.. I feel so bad that I had to pull this Sun Flower off.. because I wanted to give you this Flower so bad.. Now.. I am torn into pieces because I wanted to tell YOU and share my Heart love.. and I did see you accept this Flower.. then why is this Flower here with me if YOU accepted.. Are you telling me that YOU have rejected my offer.. that is why my Heart is crying inside.. it hurts because I have told you the Story of this Flower.. and Now.. I am here.. feels so Dead inside without YOU.. but also this Flower being with me.. I feel so Torn into pieces.. it hurts when YOU get rejected by the One who I love.. I have loved YOU before I saw you in the Garden.. I told a Boy.. go find an Artist who can draw a sketch picture.. I saw YOU at the Market place.. and the Boy got an Artist who draws sketch picture and I had to pay a lot of money for this Picture of YOU.. I have been waiting in this garden for a Long time.. waiting for you that One day YOU will show UP.. since I am unable to go and show Up to the Palace.. I only dreamed of being with YOU.. always looking at this Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I wanted to see YOU so bad.. I wanted to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. but when can I say these words to YOU.. CONGJU NIM.. My Princess.. of course a Poor man like myself cannot ever be with YOU but.. I can dream right.. I can dream that One day I can see YOU right.. that I am able to stand on the side line and at least Wave as YOU pass By.. I can at least show YOU.. LOOK.. this Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I have been holding this for a Long Time.. Just wishing and dreaming and loving YOU.. I am not asking YOU to love
There is this Album book.. full of pictures and I am flipping through One page at a time.. looking at the many pictures I have taken of YOU through the Years.. I am smiling as I am missing YOU.. I just came from the back yard.. and I just could not stand out there because I keep on missing YOU.. when you called me on the Phone.. hearing your voice.. I know that I could not tell you how much I loved You.. I know if I asked YOU now.. and what would you say to Me.. I think the time right now is Not.. I am waiting for the perfect timing to ask YOU.. and I would be struggling deep inside when would that time be.. what would happen if I asked YOU and YOU would say.. the Time is Not right.. maybe you are telling me YOU only like my friendship.. but what If I want more than just Your Friendship.. I want more.. I want Your Heart.. I would be looking at the Book of Album.. flipping to the next page.. all these pictures of YOU.. I have pasted so that I can see the different times of your many expressions.. some with a Big smile.. Others with a different smiles.. One or two with tears in your eyes.. and I am just looking.. thinking about the days.. thinking about those days when we use to smile a lot.. I am truly missing YOU right Now.. I keep on wanting to call YOU.. but I know that YOU are busy at this Point.. hearing your voice.. I want to call YOU so I can hear your voice again and I would try to dial but I would pause.. and I turn too look up.. and I see my Bed.. and I see the Pillow.. and I look at it.. did Not think about the Shape of this Pillow.. but.. is it a Heart.. I am wondering.. when did this Pillow came from.. I don't have a Pillow looking or having the Shape of this Heart.. and I am fond of the Shape.. does this means that this is How your Heart has its shape.. and I am wondering.. can I have this Shape of Heart.. I don't need this pillow.. what am I going to do with a Pillow that can not even make the sound of the Beating of your Heart.. I want this Shape of Heart.. not a Pillow but Your Heart.. and I look down looking at a Picture of YOU.. and I am wondering.. if YOU could hear me here in my room.. and I would open my Mouth.. can YOU Please hear me.. why did YOU have to go.. telling me YOU are going some where far and YOU are going on a vacation.. why did YOU not ask me if I wanted to come.. to join you on this vacation.. YOU know in a Heart beat I would gone with YOU.. when I flip the Next page.. and the pages down.. it is blank sheets.. there is NO more pictures after this One Page.. My eyes have stopped on this One Picture.. the Most favorite one.. with a Big Smile.. YOU are holding a Pillow.. the One that is a Shape of a Heart.. when I turn to look at the wall.. and next to the wall is my bed.. I see something that I have Not seen before.. I see a Pillow.. it is a Shape of the Heart.. color is Pink and Baby Blue.. I am looking at my bed.. the Heart shape pillow is sitting on top of the Bed.. Not sure if the Pillow can make the sound of the beating.. but seems like the Pillow Heart shape knows me.. I turn to look down at the Page.. I have pasted a Picture on this Sheet of Page with YOU.. YOU are smiling real big.. arms are holding and wrapping around this Pillow but has a Shape of a Heart.. I am wondering.. are you posing to show me that This is How your Heart looks.. why didn't you tell me that This is Your Heart.. I remember I walked in the room.. and YOU told me that YOU got something.. YOU would sit on the top of my bed and I remember clearly.. telling me to bring the Camera.. Of course I knew what YOU mean.. I left the room.. and Got the camera.. and walked back into the room.. YOU were smiling.. I have never seen such a Beautiful great smile.. and you will telling me to take a picture.. only I thought about at that time was just to take a Picture of YOU because I just love taking pictures when YOU smile.. makes my Stomach.. My Heart jumps with Joy inside when I see YOU smile.. I see the arms wrapping and pressing down on the Pillow.. the Heart shape.. I did not think much of it at that time because all YOU wanted was me to take picture of YOU.. I would press and it clicks few times.. Now.. I am looking at the Pictures.. there are few pictures of YOU holding.. arms wrapped around this Pillow.. of the Shape of a Heart.. I did not know you wanted to tell me something.. show me something.. Now I am noticing everything after YOU are gone.. YOU know that when YOU told me you are going on a long trip.. on a vacation.. I was waiting for YOU to ask me if I could go.. or was it me who was suppose to ask YOU if I was invited to go with YOU.. because I really wanted to go with YOU.. do YOU know why.. If I went with YOU.. I be bringing my Camera.. and I could of taken more pictures of YOU.. there are many empty spaces that needs to be covered by your pictures.. I want to cover this Whole Book Album with YOUR pictures.. think about many places where I can stop to take YOU more pictures.. and I could of collected all the pictures.. and Start too fill in the empty spaces of this Album of Your pictures.. Now.. I just have to wait for you to come back.. But How long will this trip be because I am missing YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to show YOU and ask about this Pillow that is in the top of the Bed.. is this suppose to be here with Me.. because if you are going to leave something behind.. I don't need the pillow One.. the Shape of a Heart.. I wanted to ask YOU.. if this is your Heart.. or the Shape of this Heart is what YOU are trying to tell Me.. at least let me have the Real One.. I don't need a Fake Heart.. I can't even tell this Fake Heart anything.. what am I suppose to do.. Hold this Pillow.. this Shape of Your Heart and cry on it because I be missing YOU.. to tell YOU how Much I love YOU.. and How much I need YOU still.. but I need YOU here.. so that I want to trade this One for the real One.. the One that I need the Most.. I want to ask YOU.. I want Your Heart.. Because I need YOU close.. I want Your Heart so that I can lay my Head of the Heart and ask if It can beat for Me.. can I hear the sound of the beating of your Heart.. if My Head is able to lay on top of Your Heart.. I know for sure I can hear something.. I want to hear Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I need YOU and I miss YOU.. and I want to spend the rest of my life just loving YOU and telling YOU how much I missed you.. to whisper to Your Heart.. do YOU love me too.. will you please give me an answer if YOU can love me too.. I want to hear you say Yes YOU can love me too.. the way I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU but always kept on missing YOU.. as I am looking up and at the Pillow.. I would get UP slowly.. walking toward the Bed.. My Hands grabs and holds.. my arms wraps around this Pillow.. the Shape of a Heart.. why is this Heart here.. I want the Real one.. Your Real Heart.. and My arms would squeeze this Pillow softly and gently.. Why did YOU not take this Pillow with YOU.. why did you leave this Pillow behind.. the shape of a Heart.. what are you trying to tell me.. no matter How many times I ask this Heart.. this Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart.. I can ask million times of words.. will it answer me if I ask that much.. that is why I wanted to know are you trying to tell me something because it already hurts me too much unable to tell YOU how much I want to be with YOU.. it hurts me more than YOU that I can't tell you right Now even though YOU know my Heart.. How much more do I must needs to wait for YOU to know how much I need YOU.. I really need you tonight because My Arms.. My arms wants to hold YOU close.. this Pillow cannot say a Word.. the Shape of this Heart can't tell me NO words but I know that YOU can.. if YOU just leave Your Heart.. your real Heart with me.. I know that I can tell YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. do YOU know How much I love YOU.. can you please tell me that YOU know my Heart.. as I am Holding the Shape of the Heart.. the Pillow YOU have left behind.. I am walking Out of the room holding this Shape of the Heart.. I really want to hold YOU.. if I can only see your Real Heart.. and let it falls into my Hands.. I will gently wrap my around your Heart and I will say to Your Heart.. do YOU know how long my arms been waiting for a day like this.. to tell YOU.. Not just by words but even through my eyes and my arms.. Holding your Heart.. as my hand grab the door knob to turn.. opening the Back door and I walk out side as the door closes behind me.. My arms are holding.. wrapped around this Pillow.. the shape of Heart.. as I look Up.. I am standing out side as I turn to look up the Moon.. the Can of Beer is on top of the table.. and I am looking at the MOON again.. Do you see this.. Look at my arms Please.. LOOK what I am holding.. It is a shape of a Heart.. I never thought it be in my room.. the Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart came to the room.. sitting on top of the Bed.. I never expected it be a Shape of a Heart.. I looked at the Pillow closely and I paused.. My Heart jumped within me saying.. I see a Heart.. the Shape of a Heart.. which YOU have left behind.. why didn't you tell me that YOU wanted to leave this Shape of Heart behind.. are you trying to tell me to catch it.. to hold It.. to Love It.. to take care of It until YOU come back.. I wanted to tell YOU.. confess how much I love YOU.. instead I see a Pillow.. a shape of a Heart sitting on top of my bed waiting for me to see it.. I just drank few beers tonight.. I began to miss YOU and wanted to see YOU.. the Pain of missing YOU really hurts me inside.. so I had to open few cans of beer to ease UP my mind.. I know that even tomorrow I will again start to miss you all over again.. If YOU can see me tonight.
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가을이나 겨울에는 니트로 느낌을 낼 수 있는게 정말 장점인것 같아요!! 특히 언니가 말한것처럼 부츠랑 신으면 너무 잘어울려서 그 점이 너무 좋아요🤍😘 저도 강아지 키워서 강아지 이름이 라떼인거를 생각해서 저도 아이디 라떼로 했어요! 강아지는 생각보다 많이 봐줘야할게 많아서 집을 자주 비우거나 산책을 많이 할수 없다면 좀 더 고민을 하시는게 좋을것 같아요! 저도 집을 좀 비우는 편이여서 항상 미안하더라구요ㅠㅠ 그래도 같이 있는것 만으로도 너무 좋고 특히 너무 좋은점이 반려견은 그냥 어떤 조건 없이 제 자신 그 자체를 좋아해줘서 그리고 유일하게 자기보다 나를 더 좋아해주는게 정말 큰 힘이 되요!! 키우신다면 무엇보다 너무 소중하게 해주시면 좋을것 같아요! 언니라면 너무너무 좋은 주인이 될것 같아요!!!❤️❤️❤️
브이로그랑 언박싱 영상 자주 올려주세요!
그리고 영상에 나오는 목걸이 정보 좀...
헙..! 내 댓글에 하트를!! 감사해요!!
뀨되게 언니가 오랜전부터 키운 강아지 느낌이다ㅠㅠ 말 잘듣는다 😂귀여워요 더오픈 태리언니다 인스타에 올리신거 보고 이쁘다 생각했는데 두분다 너무 잘 어울려요 ❤️ 그리고 니트 베스트 이쁘다 생각했는데 언니가 헤이미 제품이라고 소개하네요 역.시 👏🏻👏🏻 다음 영상에는 브랜드별 룩북이나 왓인 마이 옷장 해주세용 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️
너무 귀엽죠 뀨..
너무 보고싶네요 저도 영상보니까 ㅎㅎㅎ정말..!!
초반부터 2년동안 꾸준히 항상 댓글 달아줘서 고마워요 재리님
제가 제일 많이 본 아이디가 재리님이예요
잊지않을게요🙇🏼♀️🎀🙏🏼
@@seoyeonsu 감사해요 ❤️❤️❣️❣️
수수연수님,,,,, 진짜,,, 프사보고 반해서 들어왔따가,, 영상보고,, ㅠㅠㅠ 아니 왜 섹시 큐티 다하시는거조,..???ㅠㅠㅠ아 멍뭉이 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
연수언니 생일브이로그 ㅎㅎ보고싶어요오
언니 머리 리본 묶은 거 진심 공주님이애••• 사교 파티 놀러가는 재벌집 막내딸 같아요 🖤
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ너무 웃기다
재벌집 막내딸 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 귀여워
현실은 큰딸🥲 고마워요🖤 감기 조심해요!
허어ㅓ 너무 이뻐 맨날 이뻐져..
그럴리가요.......😭🙊😭
고민상담 컨텐츠 좋을 것 같아요! 성공한 자기관리 짱짱걸의 가치관이 담긴 생각,, 너무 궁금해액 !
어?! 제 가치관이 담긴 생각은 Q&A에서 볼 수 있어요 헤헹..🥰
고민컨텐츠 올 해 1월에 해봤는데 또 해봐도 좋을 것 같아요 너무 고마워요!!
언박싱도 좋은데 강아지도 너무 좋아요💕💕 귀여운 애깅이 흐흐 조금 이르지만.. 연말룩 코디 보고 싶어요! 연수님 연말룩이랑 손민수하고 싶어서 미리 적어두고 갑니당💜
뀨 너무 기엽죠🐶
벌써 12월이라니....시간 참 빠르네요 헤헤
연말룩도 생각해볼게요!!!!
얼른 코로나가 풀려야할텐데 감기조심해요😋
언니 아이보리 가디건 찰떡이에요 완전 공주님..💓뀨 완전 기요미예요ㅠㅠ더보기란 읽고 왔는데 그동안 영상들에서 강쥐들을 향한 따뜻함과 애정이 눈에 보여서 언니는 분명 반려견에게 따뜻하고 좋은 가족이 되어줄 수 있을 것 같아요!!영상이 올라온다면 환영할 준비 하고 있겠숩니다..😍오늘도 좋은 영상 감사합니다아!!
좋게 봐줘서 너무 고마워요
정말 진지하고 신중하게 고려중이예요😭
제가 오늘도 더 감사해요 고마워요 빈이빈이😆💜
제가 키우는 강아지랑 뀨랑 비슷하게 생겼어요 반려견 키우셔도 정말 애정도 많이주고 잘 키우실거같아요 ㅎㅎ 언니는 언제봐도 참 여리고 좋은사람같아요 항상 힘내시구 날씨 추운데 따뜻하게 입고다녀요! 댓글 진짜 유일하게 남기는 유튜버ㅠㅠ 성격이 다 느껴져요 영상에서 영상 자주올려줘서 고마워요언니 …❤️❤️
헉.........
프사 미쳐버리게따 너무 기여어여 ㅠㅠ🙊
으아앙 너무 부러워요 너무 귀여워요!!!!!
제가 댓글을 다 남기진 못하지만 이렇게 볼 때마다 꼭 달게요!!!! 제 마음 알아주셔서 제가 더 고마워요 오늘도 좋은하루 보내고 좋은 일 가득하기를🎀
언니 언박싱 영상 너무 좋아요 •• 항상 같이 공유해주려는 마음도 너무 예쁘고 언니랑 찰떡인 것들만 몽땅이라 언니 취향도 더 알게되는 영상인 것 같구 암튼 다 좋네요 💙
언박싱 컨텐츠 너무너무 좋아요!! 그리고 언니 퍼스널컬러도 뭔지 궁금하고 옷장, 신발장 소개하기도 좋을거같아요!!
퍼스널 컬러 나도 해보고싶다아 ㅠ
좋아요 좋아요 고마워요🎀
언니는 참 좋은사람 같아요 진심이 항상 느껴집니다💜
악 너무너무이뻐요💓 연수님 영상만 목빠지게기다리그이써요ㅠㅠ 일상브이로그랑 운동브이로그 마구마구 올려주세요 ㅎㅎㅎㅎ
진짜 매번보면서 미모에 감탄🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
겨울에 입으면 이쁜 옷들 추천해주세욤!! 벌써 날씨가 겨울이에염 항상 감기 조심하세용!! 완전 사랑해여ㅜㅜ💜💜
날씨 많이 춥죠 ㅠㅠ?
감기 조심해요 우리 옥수수💚
나두 사랑해!!!!!
겨울에 입으면 예쁜 옷들 추천 메모메모
@@seoyeonsu 댓글 달아주셔서 감사해욤!
당연히 달아줘야죠!!!
좋은하루보내요옹🎈
@@seoyeonsu 온니도염!
연수님 너무 이쁘고 귀엽고 😍 🙈 쇼핑하울도 너무 재밌어요~ 🛍!!
오늘도 영상 봐주셔서 고마워요💞
역시 패셔니스타는 뭘입어도 잘어울리네요 ❤
감사해요 우진님😆
입고계신 청바지 정보 부탁드려요 >
HEY ME- 프리버튼데님팬츠 아니면 1991콘데님팬츠 인것같아요..!
아놔 ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
이루다님 감동이예요 ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
@@seoyeonsu 헐... 언니 댓글ㅠㅜ❤️
이거 작년 가을겨울 제품인데 품절이예요 죄송합니다 ㅠ.ㅠ
뭐야 언니 더 예뻐졌어요 진짜 한동안 유튜브 못 들어왔는데 언니 영상 보고 싶어서 진짜 죽는줄 알았어여.. 그래서 밀린 영상 다 보고 이영상 보는즁..🙄😶 이렇게 자세하게 리뷰 해주고 언박싱 하니 너무 조아혀~❤️❤️ 앞으로 더 좋게 행복하게 유튜브 해주세요!!응원해여
더 예뻐지진 않았지만 그렇게 봐주는게 너무너무좋은데요 헤헹 ㅠ🎀
앞으로 행복하게 할게요 서현님도 행복하길 바래요 진심이예요 나도 응원할게요 좋은하루보내요 오늘도>3
1:24 공주님의 치근덕을 당할 수 있는 뀨의 견생이 부러워지는 모먼트...🥺❤️
8:29 초코나무 숲의 요정 등장 🌱🧚🏻♂️💚 미쳤다...
뀨에게 치근덕거리고싶오요🥲ㅎㅎㅎ
초코나무 숲의 요정 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 몬살아
못생김도 요정으로 승화시켜주시다니 고마워요😆💚
꺅~~~기다리던 언박싱 영상이다!!ㅎ
언니의 영상만 봤는데 우울했던 기분이 풀어지는건 뭘까요?😊💕
연수언니 영상은 진짜 힐링 그자체!!!
더보기에 정성 담아 꾹꾹 눌러적은 거 같은 연수언니의 진심이 여기까지 느껴지네용❤❤
어떤일에든 매사에 신중하고 남을 배려하는 마음이 있는 연수언니!!진짜 제 롤모델이고 너무 닮고 싶어요ㅎㅎ
연수공듀님 언제나 홧팅하시고 힘내세용👸🌷✨
제 영상으로 기분이 한결 나아졌다면 그걸로 대만족 행복해~~~~>3< 뿌듯하다
더보기도 봐주고 제가 했던 말 잊지않고 신경써줘서 너무 고마워요!!!!
저 남 배려하는 마음 부족해요 ㅠㅠ
저보다 더 좋은사람 될 수 있어요
저도 응원할게요🎀💖
공주같아요 💓
리본삔 어디꺼일까요 ㅠㅁ ㅠ? 영상에서 본거같은데 아닌가욤?
시간 순삭🤦🏻♀️ㅎㅎ 친절 하게 알려줄려는 너무 착한 연수 언니❤️ 월간? 택배 언박싱 컨텐츠 너무 좋은거 같아용🥰
어? 월간 택배 언박싱 너무 좋은데요????🙊
고마워요 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 저 이름이 너무 마음에 든다
다음 언박싱때 쓸래요 고마워요😆
뀨 모야 영상으로 보니깐 더 귀얍네요 😍 뀨량 연뜌씨 넘 잘어울려요
뀨 보고싶어요 너무너무너무너무 눈물나요..😭
썸넬 보고 심장 두꾸두꾸..ㅠ
기여어 ㅋㅋㅋ 두구두구두구 오늘도 영상봐주셔서감사합니다🙇🏼♀️♥️
연수님 오늘도 영상 너무너무 재밌게 봤어요❤️ 집인테리어가 너무 예쁜데 짧게라도 홈투어영상이나 가구추천영상 컨텐츠 조심스레 추천해봅니당🐰
집 인테리어 뭐가 없어요...
다 하얗고 하하하 ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ
그냥 깔끔한 거 좋아해서 소개해줄만한게 있을지 모르겠지만 저도 해보고싶은 컨텐츠이긴 해요🙊
고마워요 조심스레 추천하지말구 팍팍해도 되요 기여어라!! 감기 조심하구요~💜
언니!!! 반묶음하는 방법 영상 찍어주세영!!
오늘도 내 워너비인 수수그자체 연수온니💕💕
고마워요🤍
오늘도 선물같은 나의 옥수수들
언박싱 영상 잘봤어요!!구매하신것 다 조녜,,,,🤤
그리고 뀨 너무 귀여워요ㅎㅎㅎ🐶마음이 참 따뜻하신것같아요 연수님,,👍🏻🥰
뀨 너무 귀엽죠 ㅠ3ㅠ 저 사랑스러운 아가 어떻게해야하나요,,🐶🤍
좋게 봐주시는 그 마음이 저는 더 따뜻한 것 같네요! 감사합니다 좋은하루보내세요🤭🙇🏼♀️🤭
연수님연수님 ㅠㅠ 제 최애쇼핑몰 니어웨어 하울도 한번 해주세요 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
헉 오늘도 짱 이쁘고ㅠㅠㅠ 언니가 구매한 옷들도 이뻐서 후드티 하나 사러 가야겠어요!!> 오늘도 좋은 영상 찍어주셔서 넘 감사해요❣ 그리고 혹시 언니가 오늘 하신 머리핀 정보도 알 수 있을까요?ㅠㅠ 진짜 이쁘고 잘 어울리세요😍
머리핀 정보 알려주고싶은데 오래전에 산거구 w컨셉에서 샀어요 ㅠ 브랜드를 모르겠어요 미안해요 ㅠㅠ w컨셉에 들어가서 머리핀 치면 예쁜거 많이 나와요 맘에드는거 구매하세요옹>.
@@seoyeonsu 헉 친절한 답장에 넘 감동이예요🥺 항상 댓글 다 대답해주시는것도 쉽지않은데 너무 감사해요!! 알려주신 어플 들어가서 이쁜거 득템할게요! 감사합니다💕💕
하나하나 보여줄려고 택배 안뜯고 같이 뜯는 연수 언니 .. 👍🏻💛 울연수언니는 조개목걸이여도 잘 어울릴듯 진챠 … 🖤 맞아 언니 저 라이브때 언니가 면허 응원해줘서 오늘 필기 한번에 합격했어요 💖💖 고마워용 !!
추워지니까 감기 조심해요 💖
맞았어요 ㅠㅠ
하나하나 보여줄라고 택배 안뜯고 일주일동안 냅뒀어요 집에 헤헤헤...🥰
아놔 조개목걸이 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 넘 욱겨 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ기여어
어!! 기억난다 라방에서 면허 딴다했던 분!!
땄어요?? 기특해라 오구오궁 운전조심💓
꺄 언니🧡 사랑해요 언니의 내돈내산은 항상 궁금해에🤍🤍🤍🤍🤦🏻♀️
항상 궁금해줘서 내가 너무너무 고마워용
나두 사당행!!🎈
캬🤩기다렸어요 언니❤❤❤
10월두 마니마니 샀네요ㅎㅎ
아니 뀨>_< 너무 기여워요 so cute😆💛💛💛
아니 언니가 애완견 키운다면 정말 사랑으로 잘 키울거 같아요!!!! 전 대대대 대찬성이요!!🙆🏻♀️💜💜💜
헤헤 니트가 하나도 없어서 사다보니 이렇게 되보렸네용ㅎㅎㅎ🥲☺️🤭
너무 키우고싶고 함께하고 싶어요 나의 반려견!!!
ㅠㅠ💞😆💓
진짜 연수언니……최고🖤🖤 언니 영상은 아무리 길어도 꼭 끝까지 본답니다!!
혹시 언니 귀 어디어디 뚫으셨는지 살짝쿵 여쭈어보아요!!🤔
지루할 법도 한데 끝까지 봐줘서 고마워요😭
영상 지루하지 않게 만들게요!!!🤭
귀는 오른쪽 볼에 2개 왼쪽에 볼에 2개 귓바퀴에 2개 뚫려있네요>ㅁ
목걸이 정보 알수 있을까용?!!❤️❤️❤️
꺄 넘 예뻐요 ❤️ 혹시 착용하신 리본 핀 ? 정보 알수 있을까요
나랑 커플니뚜우우우 💓 뀨 넘 귀여워...
커플니트 입어야지 맨날 엇갈려요 김치김치동김치🙊
민트니트베스트랑 알왕후드 취저에요😍
뀨는 원래 키우던 강아지이신가용?? 너무 귀여워요 ㅠㅠ
뀨 너무 귀옵뀨😻
수수언니 ❤️❤️
뀨 너무귀엽뀨 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 보고싶뀨 ㅠㅠ
언니 영상 기다리고 있었어요!!
그리구 언니 넘 예뻐요❤️
오늘도 영상 잘 보구 가요!
고마워요>ㅁ<
오늘도 제 영상과 함께 해주셔서!!!💞
고마워요 너무너무너무
고맙다라는 말로는 부족해 ㅠㅠ😭🤍
Loveyouuu Yeonsuuuu❤
I really enjoyed watching all your vlogs.😊
아악 언니 영상 기다렸는데 넘우 좋아여🤍💘
오늘도 넘예인 당신…🎀
다음영상도 기다려주실건가용?🥰🎈
고마워요 헤헤
언니 일상 부이로그 많이 올려주세요!!!!!!🖤🖤🖤💗🐰
알렉산더왕 후드티 어디서 구매 하셨어요? 너무 이뻐요ㅠㅠ
공홈에서 구매했어요 고마워요>.
언니 기다리느라 힘들었어용 흑흑 내 인생의 즐거움인데 ㅠㅠ
으아앙 ㅠ 기다리게해서 미안해요
말이 너무 감동이다 ㅠ 내가 인생의 즐거움이라니 나 운다 ㅠㅠ
ur so pretty! i love ur vlogs sm
연슈 온니 오늘도 영상 고마워요💗
내가 더 고마운데 자꾸 고맙다고한다 옥수수들은
😭🥲😭🥲💚
퇴근 길 유일한 힐ㄹ링이다💘😭
감동이예요🤭😭🥲💓
진짜로,,,,,,,,,,,,, 바비 공주 ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, 오늘도 여전히 이쁜 울런니🤍🤍🤍🤍 영상도 좋지만 이렇게 언니 얼굴 보는 맛에 전 살아요 ㅠㅠ 흑킁
헐 언니 영상 기다렸는데 오프닝부터 귀여운 뀨 강아지,, 너무 귀여워요 ㅠㅅㅠ 그리고 저번에 언박싱 영상도 잘 봤는데 이번 영상도 너무 재밌게 잘 봤어용 오늘도 영상 올려주셔서 감사합니당♥️
뀨 너무 기엽죠..🐶ㅎㅎ
언박싱 좋아해주셔서 고마워요 저도 너무 재밌어요 언박싱>.<
제가 더 고마워요🎁
꺅 지친 하루에 선물같은 영상 🤍
옥수수들이 나에게 선물 같아요 정말🎁🎀
어떻게 아시고 저 시험 끝나는 날 딱 맞춰서 올려주시는지 ㅠㅠ
내가 딱 옥수수 마음을 딱 딱 알아차렸지잉!!🎀
언니는 언제나 리즈😻😻
이번 영상두 재밌게 보고갑니다(๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)💕
고마워요 제니찡🙊💞
좋은하루 보내요!!!!!
@@seoyeonsu 매번 답장해주는 슈슈언니💛 감사해요💛
언니도 좋은하루가 되시길🕯✨
언니 화장실 목욕용품? 샴푸 두피관리 이런것도 너무 궁금해요! 머리숱 많은편이에요?!!
영상에 나오는 옷들이 괜찮아 보이네요! 아 그리고 예쁘세요💕
언니 오늘도 넘 이뻐요🤍🤍 혹시 입고계시는 바지 정보 알 수 있을까요 ••? 진짜 다 넘 제스탈 ..공주💛
알림뜨자마자 왔어요ㅎㅎㅎ역시 오늘두 예뻐여❤️
언니이이이 머리리본 어디건지 궁금해용😍
머리리본 w컨셉에서 샀는데 브랜드를 모르겠어요흐어앙 ㅠ 제작년에 사가지구 미안해요!!
W컨셉에 머리핀 치면 예쁜거 짱 많이 나오는데 한번 찾아봐봐요>.
예쁘다 예뻐.....
감사합니다 감사합니다아 ㅠ3ㅠ🙇🏼♀️🤍💜🤍💜
From Hong Kong , you are beautiful 😍 I love you sister !!
Thank you for English subs , I watched with pleasant , you are the best 💘💘💘💘
온니 악세사리 영상 오디가써여..!!!.!!!!?💛💛💛
언니 너무 이뻐서 짜증나ㅠㅠ♥️♥️
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ귀여웤ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
짜증내지 마라요💜💜
좋은하루보내요>3
Travel vlogs with unnie🙌🏻
강아지가 귀여워서 구독 ㅎㅎ
기다려써용❤️❤️
하이루하이루 찐팬옥뜌뜌🙇🏼♀️🥰🎈🎁
너무 이쁘세요,,혹시 처음에
입고 계신 가디건 여쭤봐도 될까요?
일단 댓글달아 사랑애래ㅐㅇ앵엥💕
아놔 기여어 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 일단 쏴리질러 나두 사랑해앵 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
우와 목걸이 연수님이랑 커플템 하고 싶어서 손민수 했어용💗💗💗
미모가 연중무휴에요??ㅠㅠㅠ 진짜 최고 넘 이뻐용💗💗
헝 혹시 목걸이 오디건가용?!!!
언니 코디에서 착용하신 청바지 정보도 알 수 있을까용 ㅠㅠ
청바지 헤이미 제품인데 작년 제품이라 아마 품절일 확률이 99....😭
미안해요🥲
Eonni u look so beautiful...n the haul is amazing
혜미언니가 입은 가디건 ㅠㅠㅠ어디꼰가요ㅠ헤이미 껀가요 정보 넘 넘 궁금래여..
네 헤이미꺼맞아요옹!!!!🙊
하우스 투어 해주세여 🤍
Could you please upload every week on a specific day so that we can wait for your videos🙏🏻🥰
언니 사랑해요💖💖💖💖
나두나두잉~~💖💖💖
언니 혹시 입고 계신 청바지는 어디껀가요~?~?~
헤이미 제품인데, 작년제품이라 품절됬을 확률이 엄청 높아요 ㅠ.ㅠ
미안해용..🥲
입고있던 청바지 정보주세용
name of the first song? pls tell me
당신은 예쁘다😍 나는 당신을 너무 사랑합니다 😘💛🇰🇷🇲🇽💛
Luvvsss so beutyfullllll💗💗💗💗
영상에 입은 검은색 가디건은 어디꺼 인가요?
헤이미 제품입니다😆
Y 목걸이 어디거에요??
Coloque legendas em português 😪
Unnie love your video ❤️
I wish it had eng sub so I understood anything that was said in the vedio
أحبك جدا جدااا 😭❤
I love you so much you are the best
존예
💜💜💜💜
Oink Oink.. I open the door.. I see large boxes.. two Large boxes enter the first room.. and another two Large Boxes places in the second room.. I see couch.. I see tables chairs.. More boxes comes into the Log Cabin home.. on the Diner room and the living room.. into the kitchen.. I see the Movers walking in and Out of the home.. as I watch the movers walks.. they enter the truck and it goes.. I would be out side.. it feels so good when it is cold.. with my jacket.. I am standing out.. I watch the SUN goes down.. still the SNOW on the ground and I am looking UP to the Sky.. Night Comes and I am looking at the Moon.. I don't know why I think of YOU the most.. especially when I see the Night.. when I look at the MOON.. I start to think of YOU.. do I miss YOU.. I am thinking right Now.. Do you think that I miss YOU.. if you ask Me this question.. standing Out here in the cold.. watching the SUN setting.. as the Wind starts to blow.. the wind chill makes me shiver.. that is how I feel when I think of you.. I get these cold chills.. sending shivers down my spine because I do miss YOU.. feels like when I walk Out.. and I look Up at the Sky.. looking at the MOON.. it is how I feel when I miss YOU.. that I want to see that MOON because I know that down in my Heart.. I think of you the most when I do see that MOON.. do I smile.. I want to smile.. because all I do is smile when I know that YOU are in my Heart.. that you are IN MY MIND and in my soul.. just can't stop think of YOU.. I would look at that MOON.. I am trying to think of the past.. when was the last time I seen YOU.. that I do miss YOU.. I miss YOU more and more.. as I turn to the direction.. I am looking at the door of this Cabin Log Home.. my hand grabs on the door knob and I am wondering.. I have lost my memory.. but I want to know.. I want to know how much did I loved YOU.. YOU would not tell me how much.. if YOU knew me before I lost my memory.. would you not tell me because I asked YOU.. I asked you on the Phone.. How much did I love YOU.. I would wait for your answer.. I just don't remember because I do want to remember.. I asked YOU.. but why can't YOU answer me.. YOU told me that I did Love YOU.. I asked you the question.. DID I love YOU?? there was a short paused.. and a breathing I heard.. I asked YOU the second time.. DID I love YOU?? Please tell me that I loved YOU well.. did I love YOU the way YOU should be loved.. I wanted to know.. I kept on pressing to ask and asking YOU.. I was holding onto the phone.. just waiting for YOU to answer.. there was a short pause and I heard you telling me.. I did love YOU.. and I do remember I just could not say another word.. My Heart.. for some reason it started to Beat faster.. Like I would be running and slowing down trying to catch my breathe and when I stop for a break.. My Heart would beat as like the beat ran faster.. that is HOW My Heart felt when I heard YOU telling me that I did Love YOU.. of course I want to love YOU.. I want to keep on loving YOU.. and I asked again.. How much did I love YOU.. can YOU please tell me.. if YOU answered the first question.. I know for sure you can answer this One.. Please tell me so that I can hear my Heart beat faster when YOU give me the answer.. I heard YOU not say a word.. but why.. YOU told me that I did love YOU.. why couldn't you tell me More.. I want to know.. if YOU can remind me.. maybe I can know.. maybe my memories can come back to Me because I did hear my Heart beat faster when YOU answered the first question.. I really Really want to know.. as I am standing by the door.. MY Hand grab hold unto the Door Knob.. ALL I need to do is turn it and open the door.. I can go into this Log Cabin House.. this New Home that I brought.. before the Movers came.. I do remember One large Box came before the Movers brought many boxes.. smaller and larger into this New Home.. One Large box.. I placed into the ROOM.. the first room.. I do remember opening the top of the Box.. I saw a Picture frame.. it was YOU inside the picture frame.. YOU were sitting on the Couch that just came into this New Home.. I don't remember YOU sitting on that couch.. but YOU were holding the vase.. placing on top of YOUR Lap.. the same Vase that was in the Second room.. but there was a Stem of a Flower.. YOU were smiling and I looked at it.. I don't remember any of it but tears.. there were two lines of tears falling down from my eyes.. as I would look at the picture frame.. inside the picture of YOU siting on the Couch.. I felt so sad because I.. I want to know when was this taken.. I want to know who has taken this Picture.. was it me who was holding the camera.. It must be me because I do know that I loved YOU.. and if that couch came as the Movers brought them into this New Home.. it must been a previous time.. which Home.. whose apartment.. if that Couch belongs to me.. then was it at the old apartment.. was it at a Home.. I just can't remember.. Please help me to remember where and when.. from WHO.. I know that it must be me.. because this One Large Box came yesterday night.. and I brought it into the First ROOM and I opened it to see.. So I know that it belongs to me.. I started to cry when I saw the Picture Frame.. My Heart was shattered because I want to remember.. I want to know when and where it happened.. I know that It was me who took this picture.. why would the Picture frame with YOUR Picture comes inside this Box.. but who had this is the Question on my mind.. was this Box with YOU.. are you the one who send this Box to me so that I can remember.. I did Not want to call YOU.. I knew that YOU wanted to know something but right Now.. I just can't tell YOU because I don't remember.. as I would reach.. my Hands grab onto the Picture Frame.. I am looking at it.. my tears kept running down my cheeks.. I want to remember.. I want to know.. But I do not want to tell YOU anything because if I don't know.. the way My Heart is breaking right Now.. you can feel the say way too.. I looked at the Phone.. I wanted to dial.. but I told myself I am not going to call YOU.. if I don't remember and has NO answers.. I just can't.. if Tears are flowing down my eyes.. I don't want to imagine Your eyes with tears.. If I loved YOU and My Heart still loves YOU.. I just don't want to hurt YOU.. I rather be the one who is hurting.. I want my Heart to be breaking and shattering instead.. SO I decided not to call YOU.. I rather be the One to be hurt.. and feeling hurt by myself.. it is because I love YOU.. that is the only answer I can tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. My hand turns and opens the Door.. and I walk inside the Log Cabin Home.. it feels more alive with stuff inside the house Now.. felt so empty when Nothing has arrived in this Home.. I would walk to the second room.. as I am standing by the Door.. I am looking at the Vase.. in the Picture of the picture frame.. a Flower was inside.. it was a Sun Flower inside the vase.. maybe that is what is missing.. maybe I should put a SUN FLOWER inside the Vase.. is that what was empty in that vase.. maybe that is the answer YOU want to hear.. But.. what if that is NOT it.. I think there is something more deeper than just a Flower.. what do I want.. what do I need from YOU.. why did YOU leave this Empty Vase.. why do I have to question myself if I can just ask YOU.. But I did end UP asking YOU.. YOU told me that YOU are NOT going to give me any answers because it is ALL UP to me to figure that OUT.. WHY would you put this Vase.. an empty Vase in this room.. why not in the first room.. why the second ROOM.. have I been here before.. so much un answered questions I must know.. But YOU would not tell me.. as I am looking next to the Vase.. I put the Picture Frame next.. beside it.. and ALL I am looking at is Your Beautiful Face.. Your Smile.. how this same Vase sitting on top of Your Lap.. with a SUN FLOWER inside.. I want to know.. when and where.. that Couch is in the living room of this House.. I just can't remember.. I want to remember.. why don't you call me.. I don't want to call YOU because YOU are going to wonder do I remember anything yet.. because right Now.. I just don't remember anything at all.. but I do wish I knew.. I wish I know now.. but right Now.. all I can think of is when and where.. I know that I must loved YOU.. the more I keep on looking at the picture in the picture frame.. I want to love YOU more.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. but How.. How can I tell YOU that I love you if I don't remember but my Heart is burning within me to tell YOU that I do.. only thing that I want to tell YOU.. I do still love YOU.. but I don't think you would believe anything at all.. because YOU do know that I don't remember.. but something in me tells me that I do.. How am I suppose to express this Love.. the word and to transfer the word to YOU.. that Even though I may not remember.. and has a memory loss.. something keeps on telling me that I do still.. that YOU did not lose any hope because I never stopped loving YOU.. WOULD YOU believe me.. I want YOU to believe these words of mine.. but what If YOU don't.. you may think that I am lying just to make YOU feel good at the moment.. but.. if I loved YOU once.. and YOU knew that I loved YOU a lot.. or More.. that Love will never just leave without a trace.. I know that if I loved YOU.. I will never stop loving YOU.. but.. would YOU believe in this truth.. would you believe me at all.. I am afraid that YOU would Not believe because I am at lost.. BUT Please.. know that I never stopped loving YOU.. YOU are only going to hurt me if YOU just don't believe my words because ALL I can say is that I do.
MAH MAH.. I am standing by the waters.. I watch the Moon comes UP before me.. My three friends are behind Me.. with four Horses.. I would LOOK up at the Moon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Do you know that it has been a Long time since I loved YOU.. Not with a Day passing me By I just couldn't think of YOU.. I know that I do not deserve to Love YOU.. but what happens when I have broken the Golden RULE.. it does Not matter any more what Happens to Me.. because I came so Far.. and I can't never go back now.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. it does Not matter if YOU don't love me because I have never asked YOU to love me.. but I have come so Far that NOW I just can't stop loving YOU.. I would look at my sheath.. grabbing the back of the Sword.. I pull the sword Out.. and I raise IT UP.. looking at the shine of the Blade of the sword.. I have never stopped practicing the Art of the Swordsman ship.. I have been training for a Long time.. Been practicing over and over because I knew that One day.. I will have to use this Sword.. to fight and to Protect YOU.. even though YOU may Not need me.. I believe that One day.. I can be put into the service to be useful to Protect YOU.. I would watch the Sun set.. swinging the Sword.. left right right left.. I would be swinging through.. as I watch the Sun comes UP until the SUN goes down into the Night where I see this Same Moon.. I told myself that One day.. I am going to enter the Palace.. One day I am going to come and see YOU.. but of course I do not know How long that One day will be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I do remember the day I saw YOU.. My Father wanted to surprise me by taking ME to see YOU.. I would be begging HIM.. as I would be holding and Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. He would look at me asking me.. WHY DO I keep on staring at that Art Sketch Paper.. it is NOT going to come Alive.. it is NOT going to ever hear me.. or will Not answer Me.. why do I keep on looking at the Picture of YOU.. what good is going to do if I only stare.. but unable to do anything about It.. and Knowing that I can't be with YOU.. My Father looks at me.. and He tells Me.. why don't I give that Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU to him.. and He will get rid of It.. He tried many times to get rid of the Art Sketch Paper.. tearing it into the pieces.. or even burning with Fire.. I would watch it get burned and torn into pieces.. I would watch it disappear into the Night.. as I could Not do nothing about the situation.. But.. I would always go.. find a Way.. pay coins giving it to the Boy who draws picture.. and He would always give me a New Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. My Father sees me with another One.. and Yes.. finally he tells me.. He is going to take me to see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I do remember as I was on sitting on the Horse.. He would be pulling the Strings of the Horse.. and He would stop.. and He would turn and by the same waters.. He would pull the Horse and stops here where I am standing.. and He would LOOK at me.. looking at the Horse.. He would turn to look at the MOON.. and look at the waters.. and He would turn to look at me who is sitting on the Horse.. and tells me HOW much He misses my MOTHER.. How much My father loved my Mother.. and How he still loves her till this day.. but did Not want to show any signs and tears.. did not want me to look at HIM as a Father being so weak.. but when He sees me.. and How much I love YOU.. as much he would try to get rid of that Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and NO matter what He does to that paper and turns into the ashes.. just looking at my Will and my Love.. how much I love YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. it is like He is looking at Himself who misses My Mother.. which My father loved Her so Much.. and He knew.. this is the same way He feels about loving someone.. and wanted to show me something.. as I sat on the Horse as the Little Boy.. He would come to this Place.. looking at the waters.. it brings great peace but sorrow of How much He loves my Mother.. My father would spend a day here.. letting me wonder around.. but He would sit still looking at the waters.. after He gathers his thoughts.. he would help me to get on the Horse and a long journey of HIM walking will take place.. as I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. He smiles looking at me.. for a Long time He would go against me loving YOU.. He would spank me.. hit me.. push me to the floor and I would be crying getting UP.. but my hands are always holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU until He finally tells me He has given up trying to force me NOT to Love YOU and has opened his heart for me to Love YOU.. He tells me.. I have such a Strong will power.. that I do not give UP that easily.. and that is what He loves about me as His son.. I remember going to the palace.. He shows his Card to the palace guard and they open the Door.. as the Head of the servants.. he would take me to a different location.. a location or the Place I have never been.. and He stops.. there is a Bar Gate.. It was a training Ground and My Father knew that YOU were here.. as I sat on the Horse.. I saw YOU walking.. there were five men standing behind and they were the TOP Generals.. I saw YOU looking across.. holding a Bow.. and grabbing an Arrow.. I saw YOU pulling the strings of the bow Back with the Arrow in between and YOU were aiming.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I saw YOU let go of the strings of the Bow.. the Arrow releases and it shoots hitting the target.. the MAN who was standing next to the target.. the arrow hits the Red mark.. the Man holds UP the flag and says BULLS EYE.. the Five Men who were with you.. who were standing behind you.. hands were clapping.. knowing that YOU bee practice shooting with the Bow and arrows.. My Father who is standing next to the Horse.. I am sitting On the Top of the Horse.. I wanted this Picture.. I wanted some one.. that Boy who draws sketch paper.. I wanted him here so he can draw me a picture of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. shooting arrows.. My Father looks.. He turns to look at me.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. telling me that a MAN needs to protect who He loves.. and tells me.. looking at YOU.. if I really loved YOU.. I can't be a weak Boy.. can't be weak because YOU are the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the One who is going to rule over the kingdom.. and to Love YOU means to be a real Man.. to Love YOU means to have the Courage to protect YOU.. and my father looks at me.. instead of Looking at the Art sketch paper.. I needs to pick UP a sword.. pick up the sword and to fight for the One who you love the Most.. and I sat there.. but I just want to love YOU.. but my father tells Me.. Be a real man.. not a coward.. but take heart means to have courage.. knowing how to die you love means YOU can live for YOU.. and I sat there wondering what does that Means.. to fight for.. am I a coward.. am I afraid.. and my Father pulls the Horse away and starts to lead the other way.. holding the strings of the Horse.. He would tell me many things as I would spent my time with HIM.. about Love.. what it means to love YOU.. My father also mentions that even the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who is shooting arrows using the Bow knows that to be the Crown Princess.. needs to protect the People that is with YOU.. also practices daily shooting arrows Hitting the target.. because YOU want to rule the Nation.. to be the next to be on the Line to have the kingdom at hand.. I would turn my Head looking back.. sitting on the top of the Horse.. I would hear the top generals clapping Hands and shouting with Cheers as YOU are hitting the target BULLS EYE.. I am sitting.. and I started to ask my father.. I want to protect the Crown Princess.. because I know that I love YOU.. I want to be the One to protect YOU.. is that means I am showing YOU love.. and My Father smiles.. and tells ME he can train and teach me with the basics and I would turn my head to look front.. and I hear my father laughing as He would pull on the strings of the horse as he is walking and I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. just smiling all the way.. as I am standing here.. Looking at the waters.. I lift UP my head Looking at the Moon.. I have been practicing for a Long time.. ever since my Father showed me YOU.. and told me what a MAN must do.. to protect WHO he loves.. Now.. Many years goes By.. I have never changed this Heart of Mine.. that I always wanted to protect YOU and Never stopped Loving YOU.. I am standing at the cross road.. and I have seen many important people coming forward.. they have kissed YOUR HAND.. showing the devotion to YOU.. But I know that I have Not kissed Your hand yet.. I feel so wrong because I have chosen which I know that I can't.. I told YOU how much I loved YOU.. ever since I saw YOU from my youth.. as a young Boy.. I remember YOU turned to look where I was at.. with my Father next to my side.. I was sitting on the top of Horse.. looking at YOU from the distance.. I saw YOU grabbing an arrow.. holding the strings of Bow.. Putting the back of the arrow on the strings of the Bow.. pulling the strings and aiming the arrow and releasing it.. I saw the arrow flies across and it Hits that Target.. right on the middle of the spot.. I would watch the Man on the side of the Target raising up the flag calling out.. the five generals who were teaching
MAH MAH.. and training YOU.. I over head.. YOU are learning so Fast.. you are very quick on picking UP things.. and they would look at each other smiling.. hands clapping and shouting saying.. the Next Ruler.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Next one to sit on the Throne.. I was blown into pieces as I sat on the top of the Horse.. watching the arrows hitting the target on the red mark.. I would begin to think.. How can I ever protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have the top Generals on your side.. YOU have the COMMANDERS and the Chief Generals.. they are the Most fierce fighters and warriors who are with YOU.. How can I even fight if YOU have the best men with YOU.. How can I protect YOU.. but My Heart who loves YOU wants to just do that.. to Love YOU and to protect YOU in any means.. as I would stand.. LOOKING at the Blades of the sword.. I can see the shine.. How can I protect YOU.. but that is the Only thing that I can do.. to love YOU and to protect YOU.. as I am looking at the waters.. I did Not know that you came.. I did not know that YOU were going to come.. as I turn around to look at the three friends.. I see YOU behind the four Horses and YOU were sitting on the top of the White Horse.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would lower myself.. and the three Friends also turns around.. the four of us are on the Ground.. looking at the floor.. did YOU hear what I say.. when did YOU come.. did YOU hear everything that I was sharing.. and all I hear is silent.. I am looking at the ground.. I hear Your Voice.. telling me to get UP.. that I must come back to the Palace.. that YOU have something for me to DO.. but.. I just remained still.. I just couldn't get UP.. because YOU are the Crown Princess.. just give me the permission.. allow me to get UP.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH..I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.. the Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU if YOU want me to kiss that Hand.. I told you I just can't.. if YOU want me to be Your Subject.. I want to live a different life.. I can't spend the rest of my Life just standing here.. Unable to say.. unable to tell YOU How much I love YOU.. I am Not going to live the rest of my life.. just wishing because I just can't.. why.. if YOU are asking me why I can't.. Loving YOU is all I want.. Loving YOU is all I need and all I can do.. YOU can't change my Mind and can't change my Heart because I love you this Much.. and I just can't stand here.. becoming a Part of Your Subject unable to tell YOU.. and to show YOU how much I love YOU.. if I can't express my self.. I rather go.. I rather walk away so that I can move on further.. I rather be in the Mountains.. I rather be alone not seeing YOU.. even if it means to LOOK at that MOON above us.. If I can talk to that MOON about YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. if just to tell that MOON how much I love YOU.. I rather be far missing YOU.. at least I can have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.
MAH MAH.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills
MAH MAH.. me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there.. telling me to get UP.. and the four of Us all get up.. the Crown Princess is calling is what the Messenger is telling.. the three of the friends started to walk forward.. But I stop.. I am not going to walk over.. I can't kiss YOUR HAND if I can't love YOU.. I rather NOT go and just turn the Other way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand.. WHAT happens to me.. HOW about my Heart.. if YOU are going to HURT ME and kill My Heart.. KILL me first.. I am always ready to Die for YOU.. and I see YOU walking down the stairs from the Stage and three friends all stops and turns too look at me.. If I cannot even Love YOU.. what is the Point of me living.. I did not come all the way here to Just kiss Your Hand.. I came here to celebrate with YOU.. it is the Most Beautiful Day but How about Me.. How about my Love.. How about me Loving YOU.. If I can't love YOU now.. I can't love you later.. because it will turn Out to be Never.. that is why I choose to be still here.. How about Me.. tell Me.. give me the answer first.. I rather turn the Other way.. I will go back to the Garden where I belong in the first place.. where I should stayed in the first place.. If this was going to happen.. I do not know why I came all the way down here to cause trouble.. I don't mean to cause any kind of trouble.. because MY true intention is also celebrate.. but IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND..I am looking at a sketch.. someone draw a picture of YOU and gave it to Me.. as I am looking at the Picture of sketch.. it is YOU.. I am sitting in the Garden.. two lines of tears falling.. It is YOU CONGJU NIM.. Now I know that Even though you may be far from Me.. it is this Sketch Picture of YOU.. I can still Love you.. Even though YOU may be at the Palace.. and I am here in the Garden.. I know that Missing YOU would Not be too much because YOU are in my Heart.. I look at the Sketch picture of you.. my lip kisses the Sketch Picture.. my Princess.. YOU are my Princess.. and I am sitting down.. looking down is the Sun Flower.. it is laying down.. I remember that I gave this to YOU.. but why didn't you take this Flower.. I told you that it was made for YOU.. this is the One who I love and gave this Sun Flower to YOU.. why didn't you take this Flower with YOU.. as My hand grabs the Sun Flower.. did YOU drop this Flower along the way.. I did see your hand grab it.. YOU got on the Horse and How did it end UP in this Garden with me.. why didn't you take this Flower.. I wanted you to have it.. when days are sad and gloomy.. it was meant for you to Smile when YOU look at it.. Now.. I don't want this flower with me.. I gave it to YOU because I love YOU.. it was for YOU CONGJU NIM.. it was for YOU MY PRINCESS.. and I am looking at this Sun Flower.. did YOU say something Mean to my princess.. did YOU say something Ugly or nasty for Her to toss you on the Ground.. I place the Sun Flower on the ground.. two hands grabbing this Sketch paper.. someone drew so well of YOU.. It really looks Like YOU.. this Sketch Paper.. my Princess.. my Princess.. CONGJU NIM.. will you ever come back to this Garden.. will you please come.. because after seeing this Picture sketch of YOU.. even though I said I won't miss YOU.. I have lied to myself about that.. because after Looking at this Picture.. this Sketch drawing of YOU.. Now I want to see YOU.. Can you please give me the permission to Love YOU.. will you let me Love YOU.. I want to love YOU my Princess.. then YOU needs to come to this Garden.. and show me that I can or I cannot love YOU.. even though I can love you by looking at this Paper.. sketch picture of YOU.. I can love YOU by looking at this sketch.. but I want to really love YOU.. I feel like something Inside me.. my Heart starts to Miss YOU.. I can feel my heart.. it is hurting.. it hurts because I want to be with YOU.. WHY did you have to Go so soon.. WHY did you even come but had to leave me like this.. WHY show UP Out of nowhere.. and My Heart jumped.. it leaped because of the Joy I felt meeting YOU face to face.. Now I am sitting down here in the Garden.. I am here alone.. with this Sun Flower.. you have left this Sun Flower.. I feel so bad that I had to pull this Sun Flower off.. because I wanted to give you this Flower so bad.. Now.. I am torn into pieces because I wanted to tell YOU and share my Heart love.. and I did see you accept this Flower.. then why is this Flower here with me if YOU accepted.. Are you telling me that YOU have rejected my offer.. that is why my Heart is crying inside.. it hurts because I have told you the Story of this Flower.. and Now.. I am here.. feels so Dead inside without YOU.. but also this Flower being with me.. I feel so Torn into pieces.. it hurts when YOU get rejected by the One who I love.. I have loved YOU before I saw you in the Garden.. I told a Boy.. go find an Artist who can draw a sketch picture.. I saw YOU at the Market place.. and the Boy got an Artist who draws sketch picture and I had to pay a lot of money for this Picture of YOU.. I have been waiting in this garden for a Long time.. waiting for you that One day YOU will show UP.. since I am unable to go and show Up to the Palace.. I only dreamed of being with YOU.. always looking at this Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I wanted to see YOU so bad.. I wanted to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. but when can I say these words to YOU.. CONGJU NIM.. My Princess.. of course a Poor man like myself cannot ever be with YOU but.. I can dream right.. I can dream that One day I can see YOU right.. that I am able to stand on the side line and at least Wave as YOU pass By.. I can at least show YOU.. LOOK.. this Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I have been holding this for a Long Time.. Just wishing and dreaming and loving YOU.. I am not asking YOU to love
There is this Album book.. full of pictures and I am flipping through One page at a time.. looking at the many pictures I have taken of YOU through the Years.. I am smiling as I am missing YOU.. I just came from the back yard.. and I just could not stand out there because I keep on missing YOU.. when you called me on the Phone.. hearing your voice.. I know that I could not tell you how much I loved You.. I know if I asked YOU now.. and what would you say to Me.. I think the time right now is Not.. I am waiting for the perfect timing to ask YOU.. and I would be struggling deep inside when would that time be.. what would happen if I asked YOU and YOU would say.. the Time is Not right.. maybe you are telling me YOU only like my friendship.. but what If I want more than just Your Friendship.. I want more.. I want Your Heart.. I would be looking at the Book of Album.. flipping to the next page.. all these pictures of YOU.. I have pasted so that I can see the different times of your many expressions.. some with a Big smile.. Others with a different smiles.. One or two with tears in your eyes.. and I am just looking.. thinking about the days.. thinking about those days when we use to smile a lot.. I am truly missing YOU right Now.. I keep on wanting to call YOU.. but I know that YOU are busy at this Point.. hearing your voice.. I want to call YOU so I can hear your voice again and I would try to dial but I would pause.. and I turn too look up.. and I see my Bed.. and I see the Pillow.. and I look at it.. did Not think about the Shape of this Pillow.. but.. is it a Heart.. I am wondering.. when did this Pillow came from.. I don't have a Pillow looking or having the Shape of this Heart.. and I am fond of the Shape.. does this means that this is How your Heart has its shape.. and I am wondering.. can I have this Shape of Heart.. I don't need this pillow.. what am I going to do with a Pillow that can not even make the sound of the Beating of your Heart.. I want this Shape of Heart.. not a Pillow but Your Heart.. and I look down looking at a Picture of YOU.. and I am wondering.. if YOU could hear me here in my room.. and I would open my Mouth.. can YOU Please hear me.. why did YOU have to go.. telling me YOU are going some where far and YOU are going on a vacation.. why did YOU not ask me if I wanted to come.. to join you on this vacation.. YOU know in a Heart beat I would gone with YOU.. when I flip the Next page.. and the pages down.. it is blank sheets.. there is NO more pictures after this One Page.. My eyes have stopped on this One Picture.. the Most favorite one.. with a Big Smile.. YOU are holding a Pillow.. the One that is a Shape of a Heart.. when I turn to look at the wall.. and next to the wall is my bed.. I see something that I have Not seen before.. I see a Pillow.. it is a Shape of the Heart.. color is Pink and Baby Blue.. I am looking at my bed.. the Heart shape pillow is sitting on top of the Bed.. Not sure if the Pillow can make the sound of the beating.. but seems like the Pillow Heart shape knows me.. I turn to look down at the Page.. I have pasted a Picture on this Sheet of Page with YOU.. YOU are smiling real big.. arms are holding and wrapping around this Pillow but has a Shape of a Heart.. I am wondering.. are you posing to show me that This is How your Heart looks.. why didn't you tell me that This is Your Heart.. I remember I walked in the room.. and YOU told me that YOU got something.. YOU would sit on the top of my bed and I remember clearly.. telling me to bring the Camera.. Of course I knew what YOU mean.. I left the room.. and Got the camera.. and walked back into the room.. YOU were smiling.. I have never seen such a Beautiful great smile.. and you will telling me to take a picture.. only I thought about at that time was just to take a Picture of YOU because I just love taking pictures when YOU smile.. makes my Stomach.. My Heart jumps with Joy inside when I see YOU smile.. I see the arms wrapping and pressing down on the Pillow.. the Heart shape.. I did not think much of it at that time because all YOU wanted was me to take picture of YOU.. I would press and it clicks few times.. Now.. I am looking at the Pictures.. there are few pictures of YOU holding.. arms wrapped around this Pillow.. of the Shape of a Heart.. I did not know you wanted to tell me something.. show me something.. Now I am noticing everything after YOU are gone.. YOU know that when YOU told me you are going on a long trip.. on a vacation.. I was waiting for YOU to ask me if I could go.. or was it me who was suppose to ask YOU if I was invited to go with YOU.. because I really wanted to go with YOU.. do YOU know why.. If I went with YOU.. I be bringing my Camera.. and I could of taken more pictures of YOU.. there are many empty spaces that needs to be covered by your pictures.. I want to cover this Whole Book Album with YOUR pictures.. think about many places where I can stop to take YOU more pictures.. and I could of collected all the pictures.. and Start too fill in the empty spaces of this Album of Your pictures.. Now.. I just have to wait for you to come back.. But How long will this trip be because I am missing YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to show YOU and ask about this Pillow that is in the top of the Bed.. is this suppose to be here with Me.. because if you are going to leave something behind.. I don't need the pillow One.. the Shape of a Heart.. I wanted to ask YOU.. if this is your Heart.. or the Shape of this Heart is what YOU are trying to tell Me.. at least let me have the Real One.. I don't need a Fake Heart.. I can't even tell this Fake Heart anything.. what am I suppose to do.. Hold this Pillow.. this Shape of Your Heart and cry on it because I be missing YOU.. to tell YOU how Much I love YOU.. and How much I need YOU still.. but I need YOU here.. so that I want to trade this One for the real One.. the One that I need the Most.. I want to ask YOU.. I want Your Heart.. Because I need YOU close.. I want Your Heart so that I can lay my Head of the Heart and ask if It can beat for Me.. can I hear the sound of the beating of your Heart.. if My Head is able to lay on top of Your Heart.. I know for sure I can hear something.. I want to hear Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I need YOU and I miss YOU.. and I want to spend the rest of my life just loving YOU and telling YOU how much I missed you.. to whisper to Your Heart.. do YOU love me too.. will you please give me an answer if YOU can love me too.. I want to hear you say Yes YOU can love me too.. the way I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU but always kept on missing YOU.. as I am looking up and at the Pillow.. I would get UP slowly.. walking toward the Bed.. My Hands grabs and holds.. my arms wraps around this Pillow.. the Shape of a Heart.. why is this Heart here.. I want the Real one.. Your Real Heart.. and My arms would squeeze this Pillow softly and gently.. Why did YOU not take this Pillow with YOU.. why did you leave this Pillow behind.. the shape of a Heart.. what are you trying to tell me.. no matter How many times I ask this Heart.. this Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart.. I can ask million times of words.. will it answer me if I ask that much.. that is why I wanted to know are you trying to tell me something because it already hurts me too much unable to tell YOU how much I want to be with YOU.. it hurts me more than YOU that I can't tell you right Now even though YOU know my Heart.. How much more do I must needs to wait for YOU to know how much I need YOU.. I really need you tonight because My Arms.. My arms wants to hold YOU close.. this Pillow cannot say a Word.. the Shape of this Heart can't tell me NO words but I know that YOU can.. if YOU just leave Your Heart.. your real Heart with me.. I know that I can tell YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. do YOU know How much I love YOU.. can you please tell me that YOU know my Heart.. as I am Holding the Shape of the Heart.. the Pillow YOU have left behind.. I am walking Out of the room holding this Shape of the Heart.. I really want to hold YOU.. if I can only see your Real Heart.. and let it falls into my Hands.. I will gently wrap my around your Heart and I will say to Your Heart.. do YOU know how long my arms been waiting for a day like this.. to tell YOU.. Not just by words but even through my eyes and my arms.. Holding your Heart.. as my hand grab the door knob to turn.. opening the Back door and I walk out side as the door closes behind me.. My arms are holding.. wrapped around this Pillow.. the shape of Heart.. as I look Up.. I am standing out side as I turn to look up the Moon.. the Can of Beer is on top of the table.. and I am looking at the MOON again.. Do you see this.. Look at my arms Please.. LOOK what I am holding.. It is a shape of a Heart.. I never thought it be in my room.. the Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart came to the room.. sitting on top of the Bed.. I never expected it be a Shape of a Heart.. I looked at the Pillow closely and I paused.. My Heart jumped within me saying.. I see a Heart.. the Shape of a Heart.. which YOU have left behind.. why didn't you tell me that YOU wanted to leave this Shape of Heart behind.. are you trying to tell me to catch it.. to hold It.. to Love It.. to take care of It until YOU come back.. I wanted to tell YOU.. confess how much I love YOU.. instead I see a Pillow.. a shape of a Heart sitting on top of my bed waiting for me to see it.. I just drank few beers tonight.. I began to miss YOU and wanted to see YOU.. the Pain of missing YOU really hurts me inside.. so I had to open few cans of beer to ease UP my mind.. I know that even tomorrow I will again start to miss you all over again.. If YOU can see me tonight.
Love from Myanmar ❤️ Sweetheart 😽😽
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