You Are somebody’s son, somebody’s brother, somebody friend, and also an incredible teacher, you’re on a extremely difficult path and yet here you’re not giving up ever , and sharing all your ups and downs, you’re a beautiful soul and an incredible person, thank you for not giving up not matter what🙏🏼
I had 17 years sober and relapsed during the COVID lockdown. I’m still battling big time, so I totally understand what you’re going through. Thanks for sharing your story. It makes me feel less alone in this battle. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers. Don’t give up!
Great to hear how everyone got in touch with you during your time in hospital. It’s a community. Everyone has each other’s back and that a kind of power. Chin up man. You will crack this. Sobriety will stick. You have what it takes. I can just tell.
It’s beautiful man it really is. I think it’s pretty awesome, it’s definitely becoming its own genre on RUclips and that’s exactly what we need!!!! People need to wake up to the hard truth about addiction and alcoholism. Much love to you and everyone in the community 🙏🖤
Dude I am terrified listening to your story. It brings back such gut wrenching memories (or lack thereof due to the blackouts). I’m quite certain that it’s by Gods grace alone that I’m not the one telling it. Hang in there buddy - your tales of brutal honesty really speak to us and, at least for me, help me to keep that chain jerked nice and tight.
Don’t take this the wrong way brother but I’m glad it terrified you lol, that’s what we need sometimes to keep our heads clean. It’s the main reason I create these videos bro if I can just help one person from stopping that drink, mission accomplished. Good to see you here as well man, you’re an old time subscriber and me never of the community!!! 🙏
Glad you made it through that last relapse alive!! And that you went back to the hospital and got your potassium back up. It’s great you have LD in your corner - he’s a real straight shooter and has such a good perspective on this disease ❤
Thanks so much Leo me too!! LD is absolutely awesome, a true friend and warrior. This disease is cunning and baffling to say the least!!! Much love to you!! 🙏🖤
@Slayer-7373 let me tell ya bro. I struggle with a lot of shit. So no judgement. We know what we want at the end of the day. So sobriety and peace and be with our families and people. And I think this is important man. I think that doing what you want work wise is really important. You know I mean if you're an artist, it's hard to be happy in the workplace. So I guess I'm trying to say keep that in mind cuz sometimes that could cause you to fall off too like you're still young bro I can see. Just like don't get too old and like oh s*** I'm doing a job. I hate you know what I mean. I feel like that's what or why I fall off sometime. You know like damn dude I'm not happy with my work and killing me. It's really physical blah blah blah. I don't know. I guess that's my two cents on advice and also man don't let anybody ever judge you. All right brother, onward my friend
I still say sobriety is like boxing. In the beginning you might take a lot of hits, you might get knocked down. But, the important thing is to get back up, and keep fighting. You learn by experience, new techniques and strategies to combat your opponent (alcohol). In boxing you never quit, never give up, never surrender. Eventually, you get that "kill or be killed" mentality. You got this champ🔥🔥🥊🥊🥊
Well, I'm glad you're out of the hospital and you've put the relapse behind you. What's done is done, so there's no need for anymore self-pity, just get back up and keep moving forward, my friend! As always, I appreciate your honesty in these videos. You bring a lot of awareness to this disease and I know it will help so many people out there who are struggling! Keep taking care of yourself and I will keep those prayers coming! 🙏❤
Praying for you J, Godspeed brother. We love ya, have a blessed Christmas and happy new year man. We'll get through this warfare all in time. Christ has got us!
I relapsed also this month and had a week long bender! No need to go to the hospital for me but the first day sober was a bear. We can do this brother, and your channel is great support and I thank you. God Bless
We can do this man!!! I’m glad to hear no hospital visit and it sounds like your on the up and up which is awesome!! Let’s keep conquering thing thing one day at a time 🙏 god bless.
Glad your still alive brother, that's one crazy relapse story, sad and all but kinda funny too, I can picture your brother hitting you in the head and you drunkenly falling backwards into the buildings Christmas tree
Sweetie-you’ve got this!! You know what you’ve got to do now. You can NEVER, EVER drink again. You know that as a 100% FACT. Believe in yourself. I believe in you. You and LD are helping so many people. Use that strength you’ve been blessed with now and put that into this Sober Journey. So happy you’ve come out of this last ordeal, ready to fight! Stay strong and don’t ever go back. You may not get another chance🙏
So I was there and then I was diagnosed with Bipolar depression. I was put on Latuda and it’s a mood stabilizer. I seriously never felt like I do now. I don’t feel I need something to feel “normal” I was hospitalized twice for pancreatitis. If I drink even one sip I will die. Literally my inside are so fragile after years of self medicating. It’s an absolute train wreck. It’s a cycle and it doesn’t stop until you mentally can handle it.
13:10 good God, glad you were ok from that. My friend died that way: got so drunk after going to a bar he froze to death trying to find his way back to campus. DEMONIC SUBSTANCE man!!!
Slayer, I'm so thankful you are out of the hospital, and also thankful to see your video. I will continue to pray for you, that the lord 🙏will continue to heal you. God bless you 🙏❤
Hey Slayer, Jersey girl here. Sending strength in prayers. Lots of love also. This disease is the worst thing I've ever been through in my life. Every single day I think about drinking. It's total madness 😢 I'm rooting for your sobriety. It's a struggle every single stinking day! Stay strong. Surround yourself with a few good people. Much love 😘
You are a bloody legend coming on here and talking your truth… this is what EVERY alcoholic/problem Drinker needs to take heed too… your story is similar to mine and I am sure slayer… a lot of us brothers and sisters who share the same disorder. You are a gem. Praying for your wellness from now and forever. You’ve got this brother. You do. ❤🎉
Thanks so much sober reality this was really sweet of you to say :), I hope I’m helping. If I just help one person out there then mission complete. Much love 🖤
Oh, Slayer, you're helping so many people with your honest videos! Kudos to your dad for being your guardian angel! Stick close to him!!!❤❤❤🙏🙏💘💘💘🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
I hope this stories are helping I really do 🙏, I’ve said it before but if it can help just one person turn from this crazy path then that’s a success. Much love to you as always 🖤
Good to see you back .. brother you’re not just a drunk on RUclips ! You’re a child of the most high god . All of heaven went bankrupt at the cross so you could live
You’re so well spoken ! Please this Mom is asking you to never go back to that poison ☠️ My Son is so sick , right now he is yellow . He is my baby and I’m waking up to a nightmare everyday . You’re putting poison in your body ! I really want to see you get well Slayer ! Slayer if you have faith as small as a mustard seed . God is walking beside you , know this . I lost my husband in 2007 to Alcoholism. I hate it , it ruins people . God is stronger ! Keep getting help Slayer ! Keep talking . It’s ruined my mental health because of my loved ones issues . It just doesn’t affect you but everyone that loves you . 😢❤
I honestly hope you can better man, you aren't the only one. I totally get it being the type that cannot shut it down. One freaking drop and everything spirals out of control. Luckily I'm reminded of how awesome it feels once those toxins have been removed from your life.
One drink brother and that’s all it takes for people like us. It’s INSANE, it starts something that we just can’t stop. What you said about when the toxins are finally out is 100% true. It’s like true peace because you’ve felt that horrid withdrawal. Much love brotha, one day at a time.
I’ve heard good things about naltrexone. We just gotta keep taking this thing one day at a time and more importantly not ever give up. It’s a battle, but one that can be won. Thank you for the prayers my friend 🙏🙏
Glad you are relatively okay & especially glad to hear you didn't hurt or kill someone else. I'm not sure how I came across your channel but can say you do seem like a good person & have akot going for you even if you can'tsee it. I'd hate to see you continue to suffer- or wind up in jail. I get the struggle w depression & anxiety. I hope you can find treatment, therapy or a good rehab program....something to give you some extra support & direction so you can get a handle on things. You deserve better than this. You have alot of life to live & lots of good things to look forward to once you turn things around. Today is a new day.
I appreciate this more than you know man. When I start to get down I need to come and read comments like yours. You guys as well as some good people in my life show me true love. I need to stop before like you said I wind up in jail or suffer even more. Thank you for being part of this journey and helping 🙏🙏
I am so sorry, Slayer, that the dragon got you again. Seems he got you bad this time. I don't have any words that will make this journey easier for you. I can only put you in God's hands.
Hang in there slayer. Trust the process. You can do this. I am now 13 months sober from a fifth a day and about two decades of alcoholism. You definitely want it, I can tell. You got this.
13 months is beautiful man and makes me smile, good on you my friend if no one has told you lately I’m proud of you. I will keep fighting, as long as we never quit quitting. I do want it and I’m gonna get it this time. God bless
@richardking2489 congratulations on 13 months, Richard!! ❤️🎉🎊❤️ wow. I feel reassured reading this, and it wasn't directed at me!! Haha so, wonderful wrords of encouragement. 😊
@@amandaflaherty7528 thank you! I never thought I'd be able to climb out of that hole. You just have to really want it bad for yourself. For me, I knew if I kept drinking I'd be dead before 40 and that's not fair for my children. They deserve to have a coherent and present father. I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe holiday! We can have fun without booze.
I get so mad at myself when i let my mind convince me it's okay to have some drinks..... I feel like what kind of idiot falls for the same trick over and over! I don't remember what it feels like to feel good about myself. Lord, save us!
Appreciate your videos more than you know. I've been through all the same things you describe. From pissing myself to ruining relationships to walking miles to get a drink. It's all part of the disease. Alcohol hijacks our brain and we are no longer in control at that point. Thanks again for your videos. You're helping so many people.
I had to relapse like you, over and over, to prove to myself I couldn’t consume alcohol at all, to any degree. I understand the stubbornness. I hope you find your way to peace without it.
I am on my third attempt at sobriety. Currently 11 months! January 15th will be my one year mark. Super stoked to hit that milestone. I hope you are sober as well.
Stubbornness indeed my friend. Like banging our heads against a wall over and over and expecting different results. I’ll get it brother, I’ll get it. Much love
Slaaaayyyyeeerrr!! First off, I'm so sorry for this whole ordeal. I'm so glad that you're here and that you're talking and sharing your pain. The biggest mistake I ever made was to bottle it all up and pretend to be fine. That kept me on the fast track to binge drinking and misery. I'm sure you have plenty of people to talk to in the real (every day) world, but I'm sure it's easier to vent when you know someone's listening, but they're not right in front of you. Secondly, it's okay to feel like you're falling apart. Let those who love you catch you. I can imagine how mad you were at your dad for trying to get you to leave with him. He is literally following you around... because he very obviously loves you!! Lean on those you love and who love you. I will pray for you every day until you're on the other side of this thing. Then i will thank god for seeing you through this dark time as he's watching over you even now and sharing in your pain. I know what it feels like to think that nothing is working and everything is hopeless. It is not, my friend!! I promise that you will one day look back on today and be so grateful for your freedom. It's yours for the taking. NEVER give up!!! Also, maybe until you're in a secure place with your sobriety, have your dad come to you or meet him somewhere that doesn't trigger you!! I literally hermited for the first month (possibly 2?) of my sobriety lol and even after that time, i protected myself vigilantly... I still do in some ways. Some places, events, activities, and people just aren't for me anymore. Slayer, you will be okay if you follow your own advice to never quit quitting. I'm sending you an email again so that you have a tether should you ever need anything. No expectations for what you're doing, what steps you're taking, etc. Just a tether for if you ever need extra support. I'm always wishing for the best for you, my friend! Much love 😊❤😊❤😊
@Slayer-7373 you're so welcome, my friend!! Im so happy to be here for you just as you are for us 😊🙏❤️ your soul is golden, my friend. Never forget that. email sent!
@amandaflaherty7528 just reading this melts my heart ❤️ in 10 degree weather, brrr I must have commented early, so many sharing their stories these days I can't keep up!! With Slayer LD, Shades!!! Etc!!! Sooo glad I gave this up ,will be 2 years in April !!
Being in the hospital sucks! I just got done with a surgery about 10 weeks ago. I was glad to get my surgery and was glad I was in and out of there quick. Finally I'm almost healed and fixing to be released back to work! I really hope I find a job with solid people. My professions are riddled with alcoholics and drug addicts! I pray God leads me to a group of good people
The people you are around can definitely influence you. Unless you have really strong will power. It's nice to find a good tribe of true friends to be with. I hope you find that person or those people. :)
It does absolutely suck!! I’m glad to hear you’re almost healed my friend!! 🙏 that is awesome. Can I guess is your profession the food industry? I’ll pray for you too brother. God bless and let me know how things go.
Hey I don’t even know u but I’m one of you never give up I can tell u really just want to help others but u share many alcoholic s are different please don’t give up we would be heartbroken if u died
You are right-it’s a disease and the devil. When I quit drinking, on day 3 I had a dream that I walked into the most beautiful bar with high pillars of the most beautiful wood. The bartender looked like a guy but what he said to me is, my name is Lucy….he turned to his left and back to me and said Lucifer…do you want a drink? I was like noooo way! It was a surreal dream-I’ll never forget it. Big prayers for you to get and stay sober🙏🙏🙏
Woah that is wild!!! I believe it tho 100%!! It’s demonic!! When you push it to the limits. Small amounts no I don’t think so but when you drink heavy like us it turns demonic!!’ Stay safe and god bless! 🙏
Yep definitely demonic! I’ll never ever forget that dream! I can still see it so vividly in my mind. Wish I could portray it visually. I think it’d help people. Maybe I can find someone to help me with that!
So happy to see you out of the hospital, I was really worried for a while. I also want to say this: you have more balls than most of the people for being able to make these videos (sorry, language😅).
Bat country and LD are two of the strongest mfers I’ve seen on yt. I live their content. We need a three way collab with all of you guys, that would make my day!
I’ve been through the exact same thing. I had many months of sobriety and ruined it. The withdrawals hit me so much harder than ever before. Crazy how all that time off doesn’t change it. I felt in my soul that if I ever touched the bottle again, I’d die and I’ve been over 5 years sober since. 9/30/2019
I drank daily in college and never took any days off. Had to be put on benzodiazepines when I entered rehab. My pancreas was swollen and my liver had mild scarring. I still can’t sleep well to this very day. I average about 4 hours per night
Brother it helps me to know I’m not alone. Also I want to say if no one has told you recently I’m proud of you my friend over 5 years sober is an absolute accomplishment and achievement. Let’s keep taking it one day at a time brotha. 🙏
Your still young, Slay this before you get any older.ive watched people go down from this in mid age. My🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼✌🏼May you be blessed with an amazing life no matter what.
Dude …. I so appreciate your total honesty about the absolute horrors of full blown alcoholism, and the complete chaos that comes from it . Trust me man , you do not want to get a DUI. I am 58 , and I have had 3 of them in my life . The depression that comes from losing your license is so horrible, and especially if it’s your 3rd one. I am so absolutely grateful that I never hurt or killed anyone while driving intoxicated. I know for fact I would have never forgiven myself if that would’ve happened. I am so glad to be almost 29 months sober now and although I still deal with some depression, it is nowhere near as bad as it was when I was drinking everyday. Please take care man ! 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks Slayer . It’s such a much more stable , less stressed , healthier life , and the really good thing is that the women much prefer the sober Andy . lol. 👍😄
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you man . I am finally living the better version of me and have been dealing with the depression and other issues that were causing me to go off the rails on the Crazy Train in the past. I feel so much freer ( did i spell that right ? Lol …freeer) & have much less anxiety. 🙏👍✌
just get back up and try again. as long as you’re trying, there is hope. you are strong and you can do it. get right back on the wagon and try again. don’t give up, you are worth the fight.
Keep it up man. I promise when you get out of the storm, it feels 10x better because you know you did it yourself, because no one else can. God is looking over you and giving you that strength. All you need to do is stay consistent as possible. And that isn’t always linear. Sometimes we slip up. But make the goal to do it less and less. Find something to distract yourself….i promise the temporary pain of changing your life will be worth the long term sunshine that comes with it. You just gotta live to see it through. Wishing you the best my man.
Appreciate you man, I gotta listen to people like yourself because you’re telling me the TRUTH!! god is here. I’m ready for that change and that sunshine, I’ve been in the darkness far too long. God bless 🙏
many manyyyy prayers -- you'll get through this - it's a process do NOT be hard on yourself -- You are Special -- ♥♥♥ don't think otherwise --- everyone has problems --- this or that -- you're NOT alone -- stay strong -- the toxins crush our self esteem but it's not who you are -- you are VERY ALIVE ---- when you come out of this you'll be & feel magnificent
This is a really beautiful and uplifting comment, thank you 🙏🖤. I gotta remember that the toxins like you said in this stage make life really hard but I’ll make it through. God bless
Just spent yesterday detoxing at home after a ~5 day bender, barely any food and super dehydrated. First time in a while. I was on the verge of going to the hospital, had all the symptoms. Worst 24 hours in years. We can't do that again
WE CANT DO THIS AGAIN exactly zack we’ve gotta stop torturing ourselves brother!!! We don’t need to anymore!!! One day at a time man lets keep pushing forward. I know exactly what you’re going through, I don’t eat for days when I’m drinking it’s totally insane.
Hey thank you brother!!! Addiction of any kind is a MONSTER! Let’s keep taking it one day at a time. As long as we keep trying we aren’t failures. God bless man
I'm so sorry for your struggle. My son died suddenly, his body destroyed by addiction of every kind. But he was beautiful and kind, funny and smart. What a waste. You have to beat this...alcohol ca not take another beautiful young man.
Slayer you're cute, intelligent and deserve for you to reach your goals. I'm always here in lincoln if you wanna hang out or talk. Lapses happen. My last one was Oct 2023. You're strong. Just reach out and we'll hang out sometime and hopefully it won't be so bad. :) you need good influences In your young life. You have so much more to do and experience. Don't give up and very much love ❤❤❤
I can totally tell how it takes a lot of courage to tell this story on RUclips. I am glad you did. Can you share what you’re currently doing to remain sober? It would help me!
Hey man, I wish the best for you. I was a hard drinking alcoholic for thirty years and I never thought I would be free from it but now I've gone thirteen years without a drop! I'm not saying this to brag, I'm saying this because I want you to know it's possible. Even more than that, it's really awesome. Once you get to the other side life gets so much better, you can appreciate the gifts you have been granted and explore the potential of your life. I don't know if AA is for you or church or friends or something else. Whatever you use to get and stay sober. People out here care. Good luck!
I need prayers. Things in my life have turned bad the last few days beyond my control, and my mind is bad I just want to forget it all, I'm planning to buy a bottle tomorrow. I even dreamed about it. I just can't take it anymore and don't care about the consequences. Being sober and suffering is to me just as bad as what a relapse will cause in suffering but at least I'll have some calm for a bit. I HAVE tried facing my mental health issues, treatment, meds, exercise etc. but nothing is helping.
I will pray for you Eric --- Nothing is in our control, I hate to break that secret to you my friend. But what is bad will not stay bad forever. I hope you will reconsider that bottle. You will feel horrible after wards. Come here instead. I will chat with you if I see you --Sure you can endure another day sober. OF course you can. Try to not Identify so much with your mind maybe // it's all concepts anyway ... man made blah blah / not true in other words -- The Buddha taught the Law of Impermanence ---meaning, we try to cling to certainty and safety -- good luck with that .. the most useful advice I ever heard was make friends with UNCERTAINTY and JUMP INTO THE FEAR With BOTH FEET and be afraid. Cry out and ask for help -- life cycles both Joy and Sorrow ... that's a fact .. I will pray
@@judithnicholais1492 I made it! My 112th day sober. I pass by the liquor section but resisted. I still feel like shit tho and always thoughts of unaliving
You should be so proud you are able to stand up, admit failure, and keep on keeping on. I drank tonight too- should not have. I’m pissed at myself. It sucks.
Hey don’t be upset at yourself!! I know how hard it is, we are in this together!!’ It does help knowing we aren’t alone. One day at a time, one minute at a time if that’s what it takes! 🙏 much love
I'm so sorry Slayer! Bless you for being so honest...My heart honestly breaks for you because although life and age is so different from yours, I feel I can understand, infact I bet many people on here do. If I'm honest though, you probably need real help. Probably for a longer period of time than a detox. Can you get a rehab somewhere or sober living? Your family ( dad etc) sounds so much like they care for you. That was such a heartfelt and heartbreaking post. Please keep showing up and keep trying! Never give up! 💞
Hey my friend 🖤🙏 first off thank you for the care. I am currently looking into some intensive care/help, possibly even inpatient. It’s not been totally decided yet but I’ve gotta stay off the booze….. I can’t go back!! Much love ❤️
I effen relasped 😢. Been on a bender after a horrible hospital experience. I wish everyone sobriety and peace. Im in a miserable ruckus. I empathize with you slayter. Been watching your vids and hope you and anyone going through this disease recover.
Hey brother hang in there man and keep your head held high king!! It happens to the best of us. You know what this is, you know how to get out it just like me. Do whatever you gotta do to break out those chains man. I’m here with ya. You’re not alone. Pray to god brother I know it seems cringe but call out to him. You will be alright. Much love and keep me updated! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373I appreciate the words of encouragement and have tried prayers. Its a tough debilitating experience going through the consumption and withdrawals. Thank you for making these videos they truly help a lot of us feel like were not alone.
You are clearly intelligent. You clearly want a more in depth relationship with God. Lean into him. He's obviously not letting go of you. I can see a good, happy future for you. God bless you!!
I've heard of people who go out of town for a one year stint in rehab. Certainly takes you out of your comfort zone, but separates you from the people, places and things. Just a thought.
Peniel in Johnstown PA. I can vouch, they're good people. You will not be able to drink, you can't leave the grounds and they're on you all the time. It's not pretty, but it may help.
Prayers for everything your going through slayer. The addiction is so hard. I managed to severely cut back, but now that the holidays hit am back on the vodka full force. Cutting back isn't enough. Have to quit entirely which is easier said than done. Best of luck to u
Hey friend, man oh man, 😔 this literally has me crying. I visualized the different scenes that led you back to the hospital. I’m so glad your dad has a way to find you. So many people are not as lucky. Thank you Poppa Slayer ❤. This is definitely a disease 💯 but you can find your way out of it. You have to find the best route to address what haunts you and release it. You’re playing the same record in your head and it’s time to forgive yourself. You can’t change the past. I just wish you would see that the “situation” that happened was divine intervention of sorts (in a messed up way). That was not your fault and you should see that you’re so much better off. You have responsibility for not being the best version of yourself but you’re not responsible for the actions of others. People show us who they are and we need to see it. Period! Anyways, this comment is way long, but I’ll end by saying this. I just want to see you on the other side of this. You have an opportunity to make a decision to live your best life but you have to leave the bottle behind. You can do this…let’s not think 6 months down the line or one month or weeks, let’s just focus on today. Break it down to hours or minutes if you have to. I appreciate your vulnerability and allowing me to see you, the good and bad. I believe the bad just can’t deal with all the light and love you have to give. Let’s not let them win. As always much love my friend. I’m here if you need anything.
Thanks for sharing this story. I had a recent mini relapse. 2 steel reserve 24 ounces. I had the worst headache that day, no withdrawal. Couple days later I had 4 steel reserve 24 ounces. The only way I was able to buy it is because I used the 7 eleven app to order it and pick it up. Didn't need my physical credit card. Only reason I stopped is I got a phone without an NFC chip. I drank 1 24 ounce bud light and felt horrible since then. I have a high alcohol tolerance so I was really surprised these small amounts of alcohol make me feel so horrible. I have severe depression now. I have the urge to "drink normally" like all alcoholics do. I tried to do that but I felt like shit after drinking just 2 beers so I don't even think that's possible any more. At least the cravings and withdrawal weren't as severe but having a couple drinks isn't even worth it any more. I know I can't have 1 drink but I don't know if total abstinence is possible for me. I think having 2 beers once in a while while I'm being supervised by my girlfriend with no access to money may be the only thing preventing me from having a full blown suicidal relapse. I don't really know what else to do at this point. Good luck bro
I can totally and 100% relate to everything that you said in this comment man. We both need to replace that’s urge for that drink with something positive, that will give us that same feeling but from something good. I try to focus on God and I know that’s not for everyone. For some it’s working out, or videos games, or cooking, or AA we just gotta find that thing. When I truly focus on God it works, I stay sober and I feel fulfilled. It’s when I drift away that things get bad. I wish you luck as well brother, please keep me updated on your journey. 🙏
I relapse recently as well just gotta stay strong and pick yourself up before going back to that bottle. Remember that it’s only going to make things worse and you will regret it. Now I’m a workaholic I’m addicted to making money when you quit alcohol you have to find a replacement and honestly I’d rather be a workaholic or gym rat before an alcoholic
We are in this together brother, as long as we don’t stop trying we aren’t failures. Just gotta take things one day at a tine, we will soon be exactly where we want to be my friend. Much love to you 🙏🙏
I found you through bat country he gave a shout out on his videos. Often you see people in recovery in their 40s, I like you was a drunk from my teen years and in about a decade long merry go round. Even if you relapse don't stop posting cause that's what's relatable honestly. Keep coming back.
@@Helena-ix8wx shout out to bat country!!! Thanks so much Helena this is a really sweet comment. You guys have shown me time and time again too that I’m not alone in these thoughts and feelings. I’ll definitely keep posting, much love. 🙏
Good to hear from you my brother in our shared affliction - this rotten addiction that is rooted in the disease of the mind. I believe what we fight against whether alcohol or some other substance is rooted in deep mental health issues . I managed to hold a job down in mental health for over 22 years and the disease of addiction ran in my family. This time last year I was in hospital for the second consecutive 10 day detox.. I came straight out and drank again.. last February/ March I was placed in a Mental Health institution and detoxed again.. came straight out and drank!! I decided to do a stupid thing in July and went cold turkey - after praying hard. I knew it would either kill me or I’d make it through. It nearly did kill me.. but I made it. I relied on something OTHER than my OWN abilities..( Psalm 55 vs 22, byington)… and since then apart from a 3-4 day slip on beer, I’ve managed to stay focused and sober each day. Take care my friend and ALL who are fighting out there.. remember you - WE.. are not losers in this as long as we keep fighting! I’m 63 now and over the years have lost the trust of 2 wives and 5 children through my addictions.. some hopefully will come back if I endure and keep fighting. 👊🙏🙏❤️ “ Silvo” ( UK)
Totally agree and can relate to everything in this comment silvo. Thank you brother for being on this journey with me and giving me hope. You seem like a really good dude. God bless 🙏🙏🙏
Years of drug addiction. The beginning of this year i decided to finally put an end to it. Started sticking to sobriety. After many years of my chick sticking by me. She finally decides to leave me when i sober up. I wouldn't wish that pain on my worst enemy. Dealing with staying sober is one thing. But losing the love of ur life on top of already struggling is a torture that is insane. Feels like a nightmare i can't wake out of.
@bigdog-n1o thank u homie....I appreciate your words ma boi! I'm gonna soon start talking about my addiction on my channel.....I've been thru some stuff man....as we all have.
That's what made me go on my 10 year relapse. My ex fiance left me RIGHT AFTER I got out of treatment...straw that broke the camel's back... I've been broken ever since, dysfunctional ass family doesn't help either.
Hey man, I hope this come across the right way but as someone who has also driven drunk in my life when I was younger one of the best things you could do is hand off your car to someone else you trust for a while until you get some time of sobriety under your belt. Use public transport, use a bike walk anything. If you were convicted under the law there is no way in hell you would have access to a car at this point. It would also be a great way to reward yourself by getting your car back after a while. There I no excuse and I know you know that already, being proactive is the best way to protect those around you. Sorry for the tough love but it needed to be said nonetheless. Stay safe man 👍 and proud of you for your honesty.
You are 100% right brother, I plan to actually making a video on this. I’m never drinking and driving again man, I WILL NOT let it happen. It upsets me Any time it’s happened. By the grace of god I’ve never hit anyone or hurt myself. I need tough love bro, no worries at all. God bless and much love 🙏🖤
Hey man, story sounds familiar. Happy you are doing better again. For me it started 2 days ago. Didn’t had the urge to drink but after hitting the gym for some stupid reason i bought a bottle of whiskey. I could figure out my inner problems but I think work, girlfriends outer things led me to it. Now starring at a bottle of wine trying to taper off. Just people like us know the hell of withdrawal. That’s the only thing I’m super afraid of. But I’m feeling I can handle it. Keep up your content. I also opened up with the people around me, it’s actually helpful. God bless man
What’s up brother it’s always good to hear from you man. It happens, we are both in this together. I ask you to please be careful my friend because yes I know how absolutely awful withdrawal is. People who haven’t experienced it just don’t understand. Thanks for being here man, keep me updated and good luck. God bless
@smittywerbenjagermanjensen6011 you've got this, Smitty!! Be strong and know that there are others out there who understand and are wishing for only n the best for you! 😊❤️
Sounds like you learned a ton from this experience. Alcohol is the devil. Another step toward sobriety. You are helping THOUSANDS of people by sharing this!
I did, I definitely did!!! Which is good but I wish it would just stick you know?? But it will, WE got this. One day at a time we will get there, god bless 🙏
We practice in order to get better at anything. If we wanna learn to play an instrument, we practice. If we wanna learn martial arts, we practice. If we wanna learn a new language, we practice. Same thing with beating addiction. The mind can often be our greatest enemy. You can train & strengthen it just like your physical body. You're strong because God made us that way! You can do this!!!
What's wrong with wanting your time . . . and your peace? We choose bad objects to bring that about, but there's nothing wrong with wanting your time . . . your peace . . . your freedom. "Addiction is a greater and greater narrowing of the things that bring you pleasure".
2 thing's... 1. Try to cut your alcohol with water. 2. If you were sentenced to prison for years you would have no choice but to quit. Think of those of many who have gone through sudden withdrawal because of lock up.
As a fellow believer, there's so much of this I can relate to. Being a believer doesn't mean we aren't just as broken and full of sin/temptation as anyone. Sad part is we know the solution (full faith and submission to Gods way).....and in some ways, knowing the answer makes it all worse....because we're choosing our flesh........but we either don't know how to do that (fully submit to Christ).......or don't really want to do that. And I have to admit....sin is a comfortable place. You feel lost without it. As sad as it is for me to admit that, I believe in Christ......but based on my actions.....I have to question just how much of my flesh am I willing to give up to truly live for him? And FYI......this applies to any addiction of the flesh. I used to struggle with alcohol........but now it can be any other flavor of the day that serves my flesh...........food, gambling, distractions, etc. And daily I'm disappointed with myself because in most causes I willingly choose the fleshly desire over living for Christ. And this all feeds into maybe the root cause......maybe for both of us...........I don't like myself. Maybe you don't like yourself. I don't forgive myself often......but even when I manage to.......my behavior is such to where I don't like the person I am and so I don't forgive myself very often. It's a destructive cycle. And the more you know and still choose sin, the more frustrating it can be. But I would say....especially in the spirit of the season........we both need to learn to fully accept Gods gift of Jesus and forgiveness. I know we aren't worthy. I know we suck. But maybe if we can learn to forgive and love ourselves and see ourselves through his eyes........and allow him to flow through us (full submission)............maybe the desire for the harmful behavior will slowly start to fade. That's my hope brother. But we have to keep fighting and we have to keep forgiving ourselves and others.
This comment was me, like totally me brother. I can relate to pretty much every single thing you said, seems like we are in the same battle right now. It’s like you said we know…. Once you know we are held To a higher standards. It doesn’t mean we won’t fall of course we will sin but it’s striving to keep his commandments and it’s like you said fully giving ourselves to Christ. THATS MY BIGGEST BATTLE, like you said it’s the flesh and it’s a battle every single day.! Keep me updated and best of luck, god bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 well lets start today brother. Lets forgive ourselves. God used some pretty rough characters in the Bible......so he can use us. I truly believe that. I'll be praying for you. This is a spiritual battle and I think we both need God to free us from whatever spiritual attack is on us.
Prayers for you. You have a good heart. Hang in there. You’re stronger than your weaknesses. We all have them to fight. You’re doing that. Keep talking to the world. You are making a difference. ❤🙏
Thank you for your video your honesty and your courage for not giving up.You will always have my love and support. Please take care and realize what a good person you are in your heart. 🙏💙 Debbie
You have a great dad it seems. You need to work out a strategy to block yourself from obtaining alcohol when the crisis hits you. Set up a meeting with your dad and couple of friends and work out a plan. Make them help you. You yourself need to eat more, eat 4-6 meals, make sure you are never hungry. We crave alcohol on an empty stomach mostly. So use biochemistry to your advantage. Eat. Get back to basics, listen to awesome podcasts by Bardia Rez, The stop drinking coach, read Allan Carr book Easy way to stop drinking. Take care of your hygiene, shower and eat wholesome meals.
15:42 slayer would follow sherpa’s up Everest to get booze if it was the last bottle on earth. This story is wild man. I don’t know how the cops were not called.
We love you Slayer❤! When the mind is trying to kill you, that’s more then tough! That’s why they call it “spirits”! We are all in this with you Slayer❤! Get up, brush yourself off & get back on that horse! You know the rule if you have horses, you have to get right back on the horse!
I have struggled with substance abuse disorder for sooo long. I come from a long line of addicts on both sides of my family (a family where people die young, not surprising). I am so proud of you for discussing this horrible disease publically (because it can be very embarrassing for many people to be so raw and honest about this. I am in your corner, rooting for you, man. Never give up. You are very loved, SO much more so than you may realize
I find it hard to believe you were not arrested after all that happened, you were drunk, and the police got involved. You are very fortunate. Praying for you and your family. Eventually they are going to have to cut you loose before you drag them down with you. Hope you get the help you need.
By the grace of god bro, I live with my Older brother but sometimes stay with my dad, but I see what you mean man. My dad coming down there, putting all that stress on him…. It’s beyond messed up and really hurts me when I’m sober and clear beaded. Drunk me I’m running wild. Luckily this relapse I only drove like 2 times, I stocked up pretty heavy. I’ve long boarded to get booze as well. It’s all bad news. I look forward to a sober future. God bless 🙏
Please Lord, free Slayer of the grips of addiction. May his brain no longer crave alcohol or use it to cope w life. May he find PEACE
🙏🏼may he be freed from this🙏🏼
Amen 🙏, thank you Debrah 🖤
@@debrah4241 amen! ❤️🙏
Amen
You Are somebody’s son, somebody’s brother, somebody friend, and also an incredible teacher, you’re on a extremely difficult path and yet here you’re not giving up ever , and sharing all your ups and downs, you’re a beautiful soul and an incredible person, thank you for not giving up not matter what🙏🏼
🥲🖤🙏thank you Giselle this was very sweet of you to say.
I had 17 years sober and relapsed during the COVID lockdown. I’m still battling big time, so I totally understand what you’re going through. Thanks for sharing your story. It makes me feel less alone in this battle. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers. Don’t give up!
Seems like that period of time had a terrible effect on a lot of people. You’re not alone. ❤️
We will both get through this music maker 🙏🖤, we just gotta believe and ever stop fighting. This is a battle ⚔️!!! You’re definitely not alone!!
@musicmaker4him901 you are 100% not alone, music maker!! So glad you found this channel ❤️😊 keep kicking aud in the shins!!
Glad to see that you’re safe. I enjoy your videos and get value from them, wishing you nothing but the best in your recovery journey. We Do Recover.
🖤one day at a time my friend. Thank you
Great to hear how everyone got in touch with you during your time in hospital. It’s a community. Everyone has each other’s back and that a kind of power. Chin up man. You will crack this. Sobriety will stick. You have what it takes. I can just tell.
It’s beautiful man it really is. I think it’s pretty awesome, it’s definitely becoming its own genre on RUclips and that’s exactly what we need!!!! People need to wake up to the hard truth about addiction and alcoholism. Much love to you and everyone in the community 🙏🖤
Dude I am terrified listening to your story. It brings back such gut wrenching memories (or lack thereof due to the blackouts). I’m quite certain that it’s by Gods grace alone that I’m not the one telling it.
Hang in there buddy - your tales of brutal honesty really speak to us and, at least for me, help me to keep that chain jerked nice and tight.
Don’t take this the wrong way brother but
I’m glad it terrified you lol, that’s what we need sometimes to keep our heads clean. It’s the main reason I create these videos bro if I can just help one person from stopping that drink, mission accomplished.
Good to see you here as well man, you’re an old time subscriber and me never of the community!!! 🙏
Glad you made it through that last relapse alive!! And that you went back to the hospital and got your potassium back up. It’s great you have LD in your corner - he’s a real straight shooter and has such a good perspective on this disease ❤
Thanks so much Leo me too!! LD is absolutely awesome, a true friend and warrior. This disease is cunning and baffling to say the least!!! Much love to you!! 🙏🖤
LDs the man. If you fall keep getting up brother. Never quit getting up my man.
Yes!! Shout out to LD!! Keep fighting!! ⚔️⚔️ one day at a time brother.
@Slayer-7373 let me tell ya bro. I struggle with a lot of shit. So no judgement. We know what we want at the end of the day. So sobriety and peace and be with our families and people. And I think this is important man. I think that doing what you want work wise is really important. You know I mean if you're an artist, it's hard to be happy in the workplace. So I guess I'm trying to say keep that in mind cuz sometimes that could cause you to fall off too like you're still young bro I can see. Just like don't get too old and like oh s*** I'm doing a job. I hate you know what I mean. I feel like that's what or why I fall off sometime. You know like damn dude I'm not happy with my work and killing me. It's really physical blah blah blah. I don't know. I guess that's my two cents on advice and also man don't let anybody ever judge you. All right brother, onward my friend
I still say sobriety is like boxing. In the beginning you might take a lot of hits, you might get knocked down. But, the important thing is to get back up, and keep fighting.
You learn by experience, new techniques and strategies to combat your opponent (alcohol). In boxing you never quit, never give up, never surrender. Eventually, you get that "kill or be killed" mentality.
You got this champ🔥🔥🥊🥊🥊
Love this comment bro 💪merry Christmas. Thanks for the wisdom man.
Well, I'm glad you're out of the hospital and you've put the relapse behind you. What's done is done, so there's no need for anymore self-pity, just get back up and keep moving forward, my friend! As always, I appreciate your honesty in these videos. You bring a lot of awareness to this disease and I know it will help so many people out there who are struggling! Keep taking care of yourself and I will keep those prayers coming! 🙏❤
You’re always bringing wisdom David and love man and i appreciate that brother!!! Thank you for being on this journey with me man! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373No doubt, Slayer! ❤
Praying for you J, Godspeed brother.
We love ya, have a blessed Christmas and happy new year man.
We'll get through this warfare all in time.
Christ has got us!
🙏🙏
I relapsed also this month and had a week long bender! No need to go to the hospital for me but the first day sober was a bear. We can do this brother, and your channel is great support and I thank you. God Bless
We can do this man!!! I’m glad to hear no hospital visit and it sounds like your on the up and up which is awesome!! Let’s keep conquering thing thing one day at a time 🙏 god bless.
@brians712 you can both do this, Brian!!! Go you for picking yourself right back up. ❤️🎊🎉❤️ I wish for freedom and joy for all of us 😊
Glad your still alive brother, that's one crazy relapse story, sad and all but kinda funny too, I can picture your brother hitting you in the head and you drunkenly falling backwards into the buildings Christmas tree
@@amandaflaherty7528 Thank you so much for the support.❤ God Bless
@brians712 God bless you as well, Brian!!
Sweetie-you’ve got this!! You know what you’ve got to do now. You can NEVER, EVER drink again. You know that as a 100% FACT. Believe in yourself. I believe in you. You and LD are helping so many people. Use that strength you’ve been blessed with now and put that into this Sober Journey. So happy you’ve come out of this last ordeal, ready to fight! Stay strong and don’t ever go back. You may not get another chance🙏
🖤🙏thank you.
It's not a disease, it's a weakness, period. It's up to you to gain the strength to overcome.
I respect that opinion. 🙏🙏
So I was there and then I was diagnosed with Bipolar depression. I was put on Latuda and it’s a mood stabilizer. I seriously never felt like I do now. I don’t feel I need something to feel “normal”
I was hospitalized twice for pancreatitis. If I drink even one sip I will die. Literally my inside are so fragile after years of self medicating. It’s an absolute train wreck. It’s a cycle and it doesn’t stop until you mentally can handle it.
Very well put, it’s total insanity indeed. 🙏
13:10 good God, glad you were ok from that. My friend died that way: got so drunk after going to a bar he froze to death trying to find his way back to campus. DEMONIC SUBSTANCE man!!!
Yea man that was NO JOKE!!!! Thank God he got me through that night in one peace. Definitely a demonic substance
Slayer, I'm so thankful you are out of the hospital, and also thankful to see your video. I will continue to pray for you, that the lord 🙏will continue to heal you. God bless you 🙏❤
Tom brother the prayers mean the world to me, THANK you. You guys have been more than amazing 🖤🙏
You are more than welcome ❤
Hey Slayer, Jersey girl here. Sending strength in prayers. Lots of love also. This disease is the worst thing I've ever been through in my life. Every single day I think about drinking. It's total madness 😢 I'm rooting for your sobriety. It's a struggle every single stinking day! Stay strong. Surround yourself with a few good people. Much love 😘
Thanks so much jersey girl 🙏🖤
I am wishing you all the best man. You are in my thoughts and prayers 🙏❤
Thank you so much brother 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 You’re welcome. 👍
Keep fighting brother never stop fighting
As long as we don’t we quit we don’t fail, much love brother 🙏 one day at a time
You are a bloody legend coming on here and talking your truth… this is what EVERY alcoholic/problem
Drinker needs to take heed too… your story is similar to mine and I am sure slayer… a lot of us brothers and sisters who share the same disorder. You are a gem. Praying for your wellness from now and forever. You’ve got this brother. You do. ❤🎉
Thanks so much sober reality this was really sweet of you to say :), I hope I’m helping. If I just help one person out there then mission complete. Much love 🖤
Oh, Slayer, you're helping so many people with your honest videos! Kudos to your dad for being your guardian angel! Stick close to him!!!❤❤❤🙏🙏💘💘💘🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
I hope this stories are helping I really do 🙏, I’ve said it before but if it can help just one person turn from this crazy path then that’s a success. Much love to you as always 🖤
Good to see you back .. brother you’re not just a drunk on RUclips ! You’re a child of the most high god . All of heaven went bankrupt at the cross so you could live
🖤🙏god bless you Marcus and thank you man.
@ you are welcome little brother life is good
You’re so well spoken ! Please this Mom is asking you to never go back to that poison ☠️
My Son is so sick , right now he is yellow .
He is my baby and I’m waking up to a nightmare everyday .
You’re putting poison in your body !
I really want to see you get well Slayer !
Slayer if you have faith as small as a mustard seed .
God is walking beside you , know this .
I lost my husband in 2007 to Alcoholism.
I hate it , it ruins people . God is stronger !
Keep getting help Slayer ! Keep talking . It’s ruined my mental health because of my loved ones issues . It just doesn’t affect you but everyone that loves you . 😢❤
this is what im sayin! come on slayer u got this!
Thank you so much 🖤🙏 this is so sweet of you to say. God bless you and I’m so sorry about your husband, this disease is horrid
I honestly hope you can better man, you aren't the only one. I totally get it being the type that cannot shut it down. One freaking drop and everything spirals out of control. Luckily I'm reminded of how awesome it feels once those toxins have been removed from your life.
One drink brother and that’s all it takes for people like us. It’s INSANE, it starts something that we just can’t stop. What you said about when the toxins are finally out is 100% true. It’s like true peace because you’ve felt that horrid withdrawal.
Much love brotha, one day at a time.
Hang in there Slayer. I tried moderating my drinking many times. I once considered Naltrexone as a treatment path. Prayers up for you brother!🙏🏼
I’ve heard good things about naltrexone. We just gotta keep taking this thing one day at a time and more importantly not ever give up. It’s a battle, but one that can be won. Thank you for the prayers my friend 🙏🙏
Glad you are relatively okay & especially glad to hear you didn't hurt or kill someone else. I'm not sure how I came across your channel but can say you do seem like a good person & have akot going for you even if you can'tsee it. I'd hate to see you continue to suffer- or wind up in jail. I get the struggle w depression & anxiety. I hope you can find treatment, therapy or a good rehab program....something to give you some extra support & direction so you can get a handle on things. You deserve better than this. You have alot of life to live & lots of good things to look forward to once you turn things around. Today is a new day.
I appreciate this more than you know man. When I start to get down I need to come and read comments like yours. You guys as well as some good people in my life show me true love. I need to stop before like you said I wind up in jail or suffer even more. Thank you for being part of this journey and helping 🙏🙏
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼Stay strong Slayer Sober, you can do this.
One day at a time Christina, one day at a time. 🙏 always good to see you here
I am so sorry, Slayer, that the dragon got you again. Seems he got you bad this time. I don't have any words that will make this journey easier for you. I can only put you in God's hands.
For some reason I thought you were going to say "I can only put you in God's mouth." haha. idk. I'm sure it would feel nice. :)
Wise words...trust God alway
The Lord takes care of his children 🙏, thanks Ron’s mom as always 🖤
Hang in there slayer. Trust the process. You can do this. I am now 13 months sober from a fifth a day and about two decades of alcoholism. You definitely want it, I can tell. You got this.
13 months is beautiful man and makes me smile, good on you my friend if no one has told you lately I’m proud of you. I will keep fighting, as long as we never quit quitting. I do want it and I’m gonna get it this time. God bless
@richardking2489 congratulations on 13 months, Richard!! ❤️🎉🎊❤️ wow. I feel reassured reading this, and it wasn't directed at me!! Haha so, wonderful wrords of encouragement. 😊
@@amandaflaherty7528 thank you! I never thought I'd be able to climb out of that hole. You just have to really want it bad for yourself. For me, I knew if I kept drinking I'd be dead before 40 and that's not fair for my children. They deserve to have a coherent and present father. I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe holiday! We can have fun without booze.
@richardking2489 yes, I wish for the same for all of us. And you are absolutely right 😊❤️😊❤️
I get so mad at myself when i let my mind convince me it's okay to have some drinks..... I feel like what kind of idiot falls for the same trick over and over!
I don't remember what it feels like to feel good about myself.
Lord, save us!
Same man, same!! It’s total insanity!!! We’ve gotta remember how horrible it is!!! One day at a time man we will get there 🙏. Much love
Appreciate your videos more than you know. I've been through all the same things you describe. From pissing myself to ruining relationships to walking miles to get a drink. It's all part of the disease. Alcohol hijacks our brain and we are no longer in control at that point. Thanks again for your videos. You're helping so many people.
I appreciate you being here more than you know brother. One day at a time 🙏
I had to relapse like you, over and over, to prove to myself I couldn’t consume alcohol at all, to any degree. I understand the stubbornness. I hope you find your way to peace without it.
I am on my third attempt at sobriety. Currently 11 months! January 15th will be my one year mark. Super stoked to hit that milestone. I hope you are sober as well.
Stubbornness indeed my friend. Like banging our heads against a wall over and over and expecting different results. I’ll get it brother, I’ll get it. Much love
@@DATONEGAMER25 Nice! I just surpassed one year on Dec 1st. Year #2 let’s go!
Slaaaayyyyeeerrr!! First off, I'm so sorry for this whole ordeal. I'm so glad that you're here and that you're talking and sharing your pain. The biggest mistake I ever made was to bottle it all up and pretend to be fine. That kept me on the fast track to binge drinking and misery. I'm sure you have plenty of people to talk to in the real (every day) world, but I'm sure it's easier to vent when you know someone's listening, but they're not right in front of you. Secondly, it's okay to feel like you're falling apart. Let those who love you catch you. I can imagine how mad you were at your dad for trying to get you to leave with him. He is literally following you around... because he very obviously loves you!! Lean on those you love and who love you. I will pray for you every day until you're on the other side of this thing. Then i will thank god for seeing you through this dark time as he's watching over you even now and sharing in your pain. I know what it feels like to think that nothing is working and everything is hopeless. It is not, my friend!! I promise that you will one day look back on today and be so grateful for your freedom. It's yours for the taking. NEVER give up!!! Also, maybe until you're in a secure place with your sobriety, have your dad come to you or meet him somewhere that doesn't trigger you!! I literally hermited for the first month (possibly 2?) of my sobriety lol and even after that time, i protected myself vigilantly... I still do in some ways. Some places, events, activities, and people just aren't for me anymore. Slayer, you will be okay if you follow your own advice to never quit quitting. I'm sending you an email again so that you have a tether should you ever need anything. No expectations for what you're doing, what steps you're taking, etc. Just a tether for if you ever need extra support. I'm always wishing for the best for you, my friend! Much love 😊❤😊❤😊
🥲🖤Amanda I can never thank you enough. You’re literally the best. Your soul is sweet, thank you thank you thank you
@Slayer-7373 you're so welcome, my friend!! Im so happy to be here for you just as you are for us 😊🙏❤️ your soul is golden, my friend. Never forget that. email sent!
@amandaflaherty7528 just reading this melts my heart ❤️ in 10 degree weather, brrr
I must have commented early, so many sharing their stories these days I can't keep up!! With Slayer LD, Shades!!! Etc!!! Sooo glad I gave this up ,will be 2 years in April !!
@CraigFox-lt6lt awww, Craig, Thank you!!! You're so close to 2 years!!! Congratulations!! ❤️🎊🎉❤️
Being in the hospital sucks! I just got done with a surgery about 10 weeks ago. I was glad to get my surgery and was glad I was in and out of there quick. Finally I'm almost healed and fixing to be released back to work! I really hope I find a job with solid people. My professions are riddled with alcoholics and drug addicts! I pray God leads me to a group of good people
The people you are around can definitely influence you. Unless you have really strong will power. It's nice to find a good tribe of true friends to be with. I hope you find that person or those people. :)
It does absolutely suck!! I’m glad to hear you’re almost healed my friend!! 🙏 that is awesome. Can I guess is your profession the food industry? I’ll pray for you too brother. God bless and let me know how things go.
You’re a great story teller, this deserves more views. I really hope you stay clean, you sound like a decent person.
Thank you so much my friend!! 🙏🙏 I hope this message gets out to as many as possible!! It can save lives!!! Much love to you.
I agree with this
Hey I don’t even know u but I’m one of you never give up I can tell u really just want to help others but u share many alcoholic s are different please don’t give up we would be heartbroken if u died
Hey Bonnie this was really
Sweet of you to say 🙏🖤, I’m not going anywhere!! Trust me! God bless
You are right-it’s a disease and the devil. When I quit drinking, on day 3 I had a dream that I walked into the most beautiful bar with high pillars of the most beautiful wood. The bartender looked like a guy but what he said to me is, my name is Lucy….he turned to his left and back to me and said Lucifer…do you want a drink? I was like noooo way! It was a surreal dream-I’ll never forget it. Big prayers for you to get and stay sober🙏🙏🙏
Woah that is wild!!! I believe it tho 100%!! It’s demonic!! When you push it to the limits. Small amounts no I don’t think so but when you drink heavy like us it turns demonic!!’
Stay safe and god bless! 🙏
Yep definitely demonic! I’ll never ever forget that dream! I can still see it so vividly in my mind. Wish I could portray it visually. I think it’d help people. Maybe I can find someone to help me with that!
So happy to see you out of the hospital, I was really worried for a while.
I also want to say this: you have more balls than most of the people for being able to make these videos (sorry, language😅).
Hey ILAA thank as always, makes me smile seeing you every time. And don’t apologize for it haha 🖤🙏 I just know these will help someone out there.
You are the Demon Slayer. God has chosen you for this.🎉❤❤❤❤
🙏🖤⚔️⚔️⚔️
Bat country and LD are two of the strongest mfers I’ve seen on yt. I live their content. We need a three way collab with all of you guys, that would make my day!
@@petergriffin680 love those guys!! That would be awesome to do a collaboration with all 3 of us! Maybe one day you never know……
without slayer and LD id be lost
@ appreciate you bro. 💯
I’ve been through the exact same thing. I had many months of sobriety and ruined it. The withdrawals hit me so much harder than ever before. Crazy how all that time off doesn’t change it. I felt in my soul that if I ever touched the bottle again, I’d die and I’ve been over 5 years sober since. 9/30/2019
I’m young like you by the way. I’m 28 and got sober at 22
I drank daily in college and never took any days off. Had to be put on benzodiazepines when I entered rehab. My pancreas was swollen and my liver had mild scarring. I still can’t sleep well to this very day. I average about 4 hours per night
Brother it helps me to know I’m not alone. Also I want to say if no one has told you recently I’m proud of you my friend over 5 years sober is an absolute accomplishment and achievement. Let’s keep taking it one day at a time brotha. 🙏
You are special 💖 don't think that you are not !You have the loveliest energy..you will be ok .
Honestly you will be ok xxx
🙏🖤
I feel his energy as well ! Very good energy and person ❤
@mojavewolf1 💯 xxx
Your still young, Slay this before you get any older.ive watched people go down from this in mid age. My🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼✌🏼May you be blessed with an amazing life no matter what.
Exactly Christina it’s time to end this!!! ⚔️⚔️it’s a battle!! But it’s a battle worth fighting. I won’t give up, much love and god bless
I always think I can have one, but I don’t think I’ve ever been able to have just one. Ever. Yet I think this time will be different
Same here brother, same here. But it’s never just one, one is too many and a thousand isn’t enough. It’s a powerful but true saying
Dude …. I so appreciate your total honesty about the absolute horrors of full blown alcoholism, and the complete chaos that comes from it . Trust me man , you do not want to get a DUI. I am 58 , and I have had 3 of them in my life . The depression that comes from losing your license is so horrible, and especially if it’s your 3rd one. I am so absolutely grateful that I never hurt or killed anyone while driving intoxicated. I know for fact I would have never forgiven myself if that would’ve happened. I am so glad to be almost 29 months sober now and although I still deal with some depression, it is nowhere near as bad as it was when I was drinking everyday. Please take care man ! 🙏🙏
I appreciate you bro and yes no more drinking, no DUI, that’s all coming to an end!! 🙏🙏 god bless you
Congratulations as well on your continued sobriety, that’s what’s up!!! 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 ❤
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks Slayer . It’s such a much more stable , less stressed , healthier life , and the really good thing is that the women much prefer the sober Andy . lol. 👍😄
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you man . I am finally living the better version of me and have been dealing with the depression and other issues that were causing me to go off the rails on the Crazy Train in the past. I feel so much freer ( did i spell that right ? Lol …freeer) & have much less anxiety. 🙏👍✌
Just saw this pop ip. Have therapy then I will watch it. Thank you for posting Love and support for you always.Debbie ❤
Much love Debbie 🖤🙏
What a story! Thanks for sharing, Slayer.
Thank you nes for being here and watching my friend 🙏🙏
just get back up and try again. as long as you’re trying, there is hope. you are strong and you can do it. get right back on the wagon and try again. don’t give up, you are worth the fight.
Exactly grace, never quit quitting. We only fail when we stop trying. I’m gonna keep battling this thing. It’s a war ⚔️. Much love
Keep moving forward. Grateful to be sober today
You’re 100% right man, one day at a time and each day is a blessing to be sober off that ☠️. God bless
Keep it up man. I promise when you get out of the storm, it feels 10x better because you know you did it yourself, because no one else can. God is looking over you and giving you that strength. All you need to do is stay consistent as possible. And that isn’t always linear. Sometimes we slip up. But make the goal to do it less and less. Find something to distract yourself….i promise the temporary pain of changing your life will be worth the long term sunshine that comes with it. You just gotta live to see it through. Wishing you the best my man.
Appreciate you man, I gotta listen to people like yourself because you’re telling me the TRUTH!! god is here. I’m ready for that change and that sunshine, I’ve been in the darkness far too long.
God bless 🙏
many manyyyy prayers -- you'll get through this - it's a process do NOT be hard on yourself -- You are Special -- ♥♥♥ don't think otherwise --- everyone has problems --- this or that -- you're NOT alone -- stay strong -- the toxins crush our self esteem but it's not who you are -- you are VERY ALIVE ---- when you come out of this you'll be & feel magnificent
This is a really beautiful and uplifting comment, thank you 🙏🖤. I gotta remember that the toxins like you said in this stage make life really hard but I’ll make it through. God bless
The anxious & desperately searching for any alcoholic drink when I woke up..is why I quit. I got really sick of that
It’s absolutely horrible!!! The worst!!! Definitely 1 of 1000 great reasons to put the bottle down.
Keep trying Slayer you can do it!! Sending love and prayers ❤️🙏
Appreciate you Jennifer thank you! 🙏
Just spent yesterday detoxing at home after a ~5 day bender, barely any food and super dehydrated. First time in a while. I was on the verge of going to the hospital, had all the symptoms. Worst 24 hours in years. We can't do that again
WE CANT DO THIS AGAIN exactly zack we’ve gotta stop torturing ourselves brother!!! We don’t need to anymore!!! One day at a time man lets keep pushing forward. I know exactly what you’re going through, I don’t eat for days when I’m drinking it’s totally insane.
So glad to see you’re safe Slayer. Addiction is no joke brother. I’m going through it myself right now with food.
Hey thank you brother!!! Addiction of any kind is a MONSTER! Let’s keep taking it one day at a time. As long as we keep trying we aren’t failures. God bless man
Trying again is better than not trying at all…you’re young you got this! And please don’t call yourself pathetic…..alcohol is the devil.
Alcoholic is absolutely the devil!!!! Shout-out and thank you cat lady 🙏🖤
I'm so sorry for your struggle. My son died suddenly, his body destroyed by addiction of every kind. But he was beautiful and kind, funny and smart. What a waste. You have to beat this...alcohol ca not take another beautiful young man.
@@kathy8013 I’m very sorry about your son 😢
Slayer you're cute, intelligent and deserve for you to reach your goals. I'm always here in lincoln if you wanna hang out or talk. Lapses happen. My last one was Oct 2023. You're strong. Just reach out and we'll hang out sometime and hopefully it won't be so bad. :) you need good influences In your young life. You have so much more to do and experience. Don't give up and very much love ❤❤❤
🖤🙏thanks so much rimme!!! You seem like a really good genuine personZ
@Slayer-7373 you remember me from group yeah? If you ever need anything I can give you my number somehow. And I do try to be a good person lol
I can totally tell how it takes a lot of courage to tell this story on RUclips. I am glad you did.
Can you share what you’re currently doing to remain sober? It would help me!
It’s definitely not easy Peter trust me brother, also yes 100% I will make a video letting y’all know the plans moving forward. Much love
Hey man, I wish the best for you. I was a hard drinking alcoholic for thirty years and I never thought I would be free from it but now I've gone thirteen years without a drop! I'm not saying this to brag, I'm saying this because I want you to know it's possible. Even more than that, it's really awesome. Once you get to the other side life gets so much better, you can appreciate the gifts you have been granted and explore the potential of your life. I don't know if AA is for you or church or friends or something else. Whatever you use to get and stay sober. People out here care. Good luck!
Appreciate you my friend, I’m looking into some different options. I’ll figure it out with y’all’s wisdom and help. Much love brother 🙏
I need prayers. Things in my life have turned bad the last few days beyond my control, and my mind is bad I just want to forget it all, I'm planning to buy a bottle tomorrow. I even dreamed about it. I just can't take it anymore and don't care about the consequences. Being sober and suffering is to me just as bad as what a relapse will cause in suffering but at least I'll have some calm for a bit. I HAVE tried facing my mental health issues, treatment, meds, exercise etc. but nothing is helping.
I will pray for you Eric --- Nothing is in our control, I hate to break that secret to you my friend. But what is bad will not stay bad forever. I hope you will reconsider that bottle. You will feel horrible after wards. Come here instead. I will chat with you if I see you --Sure you can endure another day sober. OF course you can. Try to not Identify so much with your mind maybe // it's all concepts anyway ... man made blah blah / not true in other words -- The Buddha taught the Law of Impermanence ---meaning, we try to cling to certainty and safety -- good luck with that .. the most useful advice I ever heard was make friends with UNCERTAINTY and JUMP INTO THE FEAR With BOTH FEET and be afraid. Cry out and ask for help -- life cycles both Joy and Sorrow ... that's a fact .. I will pray
@@judithnicholais1492 Reading this as I walk to the grocery store
@@judithnicholais1492 Reading this as I walk to the grocery store
@@judithnicholais1492 I made it! My 112th day sober. I pass by the liquor section but resisted. I still feel like shit tho and always thoughts of unaliving
@@judithnicholais1492 I managed to resist buying alcohol. Still feel like self-deleting tho,
You should be so proud you are able to stand up, admit failure, and keep on keeping on.
I drank tonight too- should not have. I’m pissed at myself. It sucks.
Hey don’t be upset at yourself!! I know how hard it is, we are in this together!!’ It does help knowing we aren’t alone. One day at a time, one minute at a time if that’s what it takes! 🙏 much love
@@deirdrekokora8680 hey!! You said it yourself, deirdre!! Keep on keeping on!! You've got this, I know you do. ❤️😊
I'm so sorry Slayer! Bless you for being so honest...My heart honestly breaks for you because although life and age is so different from yours, I feel I can understand, infact I bet many people on here do. If I'm honest though, you probably need real help. Probably for a longer period of time than a detox. Can you get a rehab somewhere or sober living? Your family ( dad etc) sounds so much like they care for you. That was such a heartfelt and heartbreaking post. Please keep showing up and keep trying! Never give up! 💞
Hey my friend 🖤🙏 first off thank you for the care. I am currently looking into some intensive care/help, possibly even inpatient. It’s not been totally decided yet but I’ve gotta stay off the booze….. I can’t go back!!
Much love ❤️
I effen relasped 😢. Been on a bender after a horrible hospital experience. I wish everyone sobriety and peace. Im in a miserable ruckus. I empathize with you slayter. Been watching your vids and hope you and anyone going through this disease recover.
Hey brother hang in there man and keep your head held high king!! It happens to the best of us. You know what this is, you know how to get out it just like me. Do whatever you gotta do to break out those chains man. I’m here with ya. You’re not alone. Pray to god brother I know it seems cringe but call out to him. You will be alright. Much love and keep me updated! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373I appreciate the words of encouragement and have tried prayers. Its a tough debilitating experience going through the consumption and withdrawals. Thank you for making these videos they truly help a lot of us feel like were not alone.
You are clearly intelligent. You clearly want a more in depth relationship with God. Lean into him. He's obviously not letting go of you. I can see a good, happy future for you. God bless you!!
Hey Debra thank you so much 🙏🙏 I definitely want more of a relationship with God (Jesus) and I do need to run towards him in dark times!
Amen thank God first and keep him at the center of everything.
Absolutely Bryan. He must come first, no good comes from me, any good that comes from “me” is God. Much love brotha
I've heard of people who go out of town for a one year stint in rehab. Certainly takes you out of your comfort zone, but separates you from the people, places and things. Just a thought.
Been thinking about leaving the state for a bit honestly. 🙏
@RonsMom40-pu1en2gj4p this is some good, honest food for thought, ronsmom ❤️
Peniel in Johnstown PA. I can vouch, they're good people. You will not be able to drink, you can't leave the grounds and they're on you all the time. It's not pretty, but it may help.
Prayers for everything your going through slayer. The addiction is so hard. I managed to severely cut back, but now that the holidays hit am back on the vodka full force. Cutting back isn't enough. Have to quit entirely which is easier said than done. Best of luck to u
Hey thanks my friend 🙏, prayers back to you. We will get through this, it’s tough times for all it seems. Much love brotha keep your head up
Hey friend, man oh man, 😔 this literally has me crying. I visualized the different scenes that led you back to the hospital. I’m so glad your dad has a way to find you. So many people are not as lucky. Thank you Poppa Slayer ❤. This is definitely a disease 💯 but you can find your way out of it. You have to find the best route to address what haunts you and release it. You’re playing the same record in your head and it’s time to forgive yourself. You can’t change the past. I just wish you would see that the “situation” that happened was divine intervention of sorts (in a messed up way). That was not your fault and you should see that you’re so much better off. You have responsibility for not being the best version of yourself but you’re not responsible for the actions of others. People show us who they are and we need to see it. Period!
Anyways, this comment is way long, but I’ll end by saying this. I just want to see you on the other side of this. You have an opportunity to make a decision to live your best life but you have to leave the bottle behind.
You can do this…let’s not think 6 months down the line or one month or weeks, let’s just focus on today. Break it down to hours or minutes if you have to. I appreciate your vulnerability and allowing me to see you, the good and bad. I believe the bad just can’t deal with all the light and love you have to give. Let’s not let them win. As always much love my friend. I’m here if you need anything.
Thanks micru 🙏🖤🖤, this comment made me tear up a bit I won’t lie…… just thanks for the care, it means more than ya know in these dark times.
@Slayer-7373 ❤️🩹 you take it easy and just focus on doing the work to get better. Remember it’s progress not perfection. You can do this my friend.
@Micru866 beautiful comment, Micru 😊❤️ focusing on today is such a good way to fight back. I hope you've been well!
Thanks for sharing this story. I had a recent mini relapse. 2 steel reserve 24 ounces. I had the worst headache that day, no withdrawal. Couple days later I had 4 steel reserve 24 ounces. The only way I was able to buy it is because I used the 7 eleven app to order it and pick it up. Didn't need my physical credit card. Only reason I stopped is I got a phone without an NFC chip. I drank 1 24 ounce bud light and felt horrible since then. I have a high alcohol tolerance so I was really surprised these small amounts of alcohol make me feel so horrible. I have severe depression now. I have the urge to "drink normally" like all alcoholics do. I tried to do that but I felt like shit after drinking just 2 beers so I don't even think that's possible any more. At least the cravings and withdrawal weren't as severe but having a couple drinks isn't even worth it any more. I know I can't have 1 drink but I don't know if total abstinence is possible for me. I think having 2 beers once in a while while I'm being supervised by my girlfriend with no access to money may be the only thing preventing me from having a full blown suicidal relapse. I don't really know what else to do at this point. Good luck bro
I can totally and 100% relate to everything that you said in this comment man. We both need to replace that’s urge for that drink with something positive, that will give us that same feeling but from something good. I try to focus on God and I know that’s not for everyone. For some it’s working out, or videos games, or cooking, or AA we just gotta find that thing. When I truly focus on God it works, I stay sober and I feel fulfilled. It’s when I drift away that things get bad. I wish you luck as well brother, please keep me updated on your journey. 🙏
I relapse recently as well just gotta stay strong and pick yourself up before going back to that bottle. Remember that it’s only going to make things worse and you will regret it. Now I’m a workaholic I’m addicted to making money when you quit alcohol you have to find a replacement and honestly I’d rather be a workaholic or gym rat before an alcoholic
We are in this together brother, as long as we don’t stop trying we aren’t failures. Just gotta take things one day at a tine, we will soon be exactly where we want to be my friend. Much love to you 🙏🙏
I found you through bat country he gave a shout out on his videos. Often you see people in recovery in their 40s, I like you was a drunk from my teen years and in about a decade long merry go round. Even if you relapse don't stop posting cause that's what's relatable honestly. Keep coming back.
@@Helena-ix8wx shout out to bat country!!! Thanks so much Helena this is a really sweet comment. You guys have shown me time and time again too that I’m not alone in these thoughts and feelings. I’ll definitely keep posting, much love. 🙏
Good to hear from you my brother in our shared affliction - this rotten addiction that is rooted in the disease of the mind. I believe what we fight against whether alcohol or some other substance is rooted in deep mental health issues . I managed to hold a job down in mental health for over 22 years and the disease of addiction ran in my family. This time last year I was in hospital for the second consecutive 10 day detox.. I came straight out and drank again.. last February/ March I was placed in a Mental Health institution and detoxed again.. came straight out and drank!! I decided to do a stupid thing in July and went cold turkey - after praying hard. I knew it would either kill me or I’d make it through. It nearly did kill me.. but I made it. I relied on something OTHER than my OWN abilities..( Psalm 55 vs 22, byington)… and since then apart from a 3-4 day slip on beer, I’ve managed to stay focused and sober each day. Take care my friend and ALL who are fighting out there.. remember you - WE.. are not losers in this as long as we keep fighting! I’m 63 now and over the years have lost the trust of 2 wives and 5 children through my addictions.. some hopefully will come back if I endure and keep fighting. 👊🙏🙏❤️ “ Silvo” ( UK)
Totally agree and can relate to everything in this comment silvo. Thank you brother for being on this journey with me and giving me hope. You seem like a really good dude. God bless 🙏🙏🙏
Years of drug addiction. The beginning of this year i decided to finally put an end to it. Started sticking to sobriety. After many years of my chick sticking by me. She finally decides to leave me when i sober up. I wouldn't wish that pain on my worst enemy. Dealing with staying sober is one thing. But losing the love of ur life on top of already struggling is a torture that is insane. Feels like a nightmare i can't wake out of.
good on you big dawg. stay clean bro
@bigdog-n1o thank u homie....I appreciate your words ma boi! I'm gonna soon start talking about my addiction on my channel.....I've been thru some stuff man....as we all have.
Congratulations brother, proud of you. I can totally relate to losing your love, it’s not easy man it’s really tough. Keep your head up soldier 🙏
That's what made me go on my 10 year relapse. My ex fiance left me RIGHT AFTER I got out of treatment...straw that broke the camel's back...
I've been broken ever since, dysfunctional ass family doesn't help either.
Thank you for sharing, Slayer🙏
Thank you Olivia for being here!! 🙏🖤
Hey man, I hope this come across the right way but as someone who has also driven drunk in my life when I was younger one of the best things you could do is hand off your car to someone else you trust for a while until you get some time of sobriety under your belt.
Use public transport, use a bike walk anything. If you were convicted under the law there is no way in hell you would have access to a car at this point. It would also be a great way to reward yourself by getting your car back after a while.
There I no excuse and I know you know that already, being proactive is the best way to protect those around you.
Sorry for the tough love but it needed to be said nonetheless.
Stay safe man 👍 and proud of you for your honesty.
You are 100% right brother, I plan to actually making a video on this. I’m never drinking and driving again man, I WILL NOT let it happen. It upsets me Any time it’s happened. By the grace of god I’ve never hit anyone or hurt myself. I need tough love bro, no worries at all.
God bless and much love 🙏🖤
Slayer, You are going to get through this. Stay Strong. We All Love You.♥️🙏
🖤🙏 much love Cindy
Hey man, story sounds familiar. Happy you are doing better again. For me it started 2 days ago. Didn’t had the urge to drink but after hitting the gym for some stupid reason i bought a bottle of whiskey. I could figure out my inner problems but I think work, girlfriends outer things led me to it. Now starring at a bottle of wine trying to taper off. Just people like us know the hell of withdrawal. That’s the only thing I’m super afraid of. But I’m feeling I can handle it. Keep up your content. I also opened up with the people around me, it’s actually helpful. God bless man
What’s up brother it’s always good to hear from you man. It happens, we are both in this together. I ask you to please be careful my friend because yes I know how absolutely awful withdrawal is. People who haven’t experienced it just don’t understand. Thanks for being here man, keep me updated and good luck. God bless
@smittywerbenjagermanjensen6011 you've got this, Smitty!! Be strong and know that there are others out there who understand and are wishing for only n the best for you! 😊❤️
Glad too see you're out, praying for you dude
Thank you my friend 🙏
People don’t know how it sucks for us
We will never get tired of you slayer
Relapse happens
You motivate us❤️
That’s why we need each other brother because we are absolutely impossible to understand. We only understand each other. God bless 🙏
Sounds like you learned a ton from this experience. Alcohol is the devil. Another step toward sobriety. You are helping THOUSANDS of people by sharing this!
I did, I definitely did!!! Which is good but I wish it would just stick you know?? But it will, WE got this. One day at a time we will get there, god bless 🙏
We practice in order to get better at anything. If we wanna learn to play an instrument, we practice. If we wanna learn martial arts, we practice. If we wanna learn a new language, we practice. Same thing with beating addiction. The mind can often be our greatest enemy. You can train & strengthen it just like your physical body. You're strong because God made us that way! You can do this!!!
⚔️it’s a battle, one day at a time. I’ll eventually get there. Much love 🖤🖤
I’m just coming off a 4 day bender also brother… I’m sorry man I’m praying for us both to overcome this demon
Keep your head up soldier, we will get through this!!! One day at a time man 🙏
What's wrong with wanting your time . . . and your peace? We choose bad objects to bring that about, but there's nothing wrong with wanting your time . . . your peace . . . your freedom. "Addiction is a greater and greater narrowing of the things that bring you pleasure".
Interesting my friend. Interesting, much love 🙏
2 thing's... 1. Try to cut your alcohol with water. 2. If you were sentenced to prison for years you would have no choice but to quit. Think of those of many who have gone through sudden withdrawal because of lock up.
This is a thought that’s been crossing my
Mind, I DONT want to end up in prison….. no not at all. Time to look away from booze.
Much love della 🙏
Glad your out. Stay well Brotha. ❤️🩹 🕊️
🙏🖤appreciate you bro thank you 🙏
Also you're not just some drunk, you're helping people with your videos
🙏🙏thank you man… y’all are really the best.
I really hope I’m helping 🙏
Good to see you, brother. Stay strong.
Good to see you as well my friend, one day at a time. Trying my best 💪
As a fellow believer, there's so much of this I can relate to. Being a believer doesn't mean we aren't just as broken and full of sin/temptation as anyone. Sad part is we know the solution (full faith and submission to Gods way).....and in some ways, knowing the answer makes it all worse....because we're choosing our flesh........but we either don't know how to do that (fully submit to Christ).......or don't really want to do that. And I have to admit....sin is a comfortable place. You feel lost without it. As sad as it is for me to admit that, I believe in Christ......but based on my actions.....I have to question just how much of my flesh am I willing to give up to truly live for him? And FYI......this applies to any addiction of the flesh. I used to struggle with alcohol........but now it can be any other flavor of the day that serves my flesh...........food, gambling, distractions, etc. And daily I'm disappointed with myself because in most causes I willingly choose the fleshly desire over living for Christ. And this all feeds into maybe the root cause......maybe for both of us...........I don't like myself. Maybe you don't like yourself. I don't forgive myself often......but even when I manage to.......my behavior is such to where I don't like the person I am and so I don't forgive myself very often. It's a destructive cycle. And the more you know and still choose sin, the more frustrating it can be. But I would say....especially in the spirit of the season........we both need to learn to fully accept Gods gift of Jesus and forgiveness. I know we aren't worthy. I know we suck. But maybe if we can learn to forgive and love ourselves and see ourselves through his eyes........and allow him to flow through us (full submission)............maybe the desire for the harmful behavior will slowly start to fade. That's my hope brother. But we have to keep fighting and we have to keep forgiving ourselves and others.
This comment was me, like totally me brother. I can relate to pretty much every single thing you said, seems like we are in the same battle right now. It’s like you said we know…. Once you know we are held
To a higher standards. It doesn’t mean we won’t fall of course we will sin but it’s striving to keep his commandments and it’s like you said fully giving ourselves to Christ. THATS MY BIGGEST BATTLE, like you said it’s the flesh and it’s a battle every single day.! Keep me updated and best of luck, god bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 well lets start today brother. Lets forgive ourselves. God used some pretty rough characters in the Bible......so he can use us. I truly believe that. I'll be praying for you. This is a spiritual battle and I think we both need God to free us from whatever spiritual attack is on us.
Prayers for you. You have a good heart. Hang in there. You’re stronger than your weaknesses. We all have them to fight. You’re doing that. Keep talking to the world. You are making a difference. ❤🙏
This is a really sweet comment, thank you so much 🙏🖤, one day at a time. God bless
Thank you for your video your honesty and your courage for not giving up.You will always have my love and support. Please take care and realize what a good person you are in your heart.
🙏💙 Debbie
🖤🙏
You have a great dad it seems. You need to work out a strategy to block yourself from obtaining alcohol when the crisis hits you. Set up a meeting with your dad and couple of friends and work out a plan. Make them help you.
You yourself need to eat more, eat 4-6 meals, make sure you are never hungry. We crave alcohol on an empty stomach mostly. So use biochemistry to your advantage. Eat.
Get back to basics, listen to awesome podcasts by Bardia Rez, The stop drinking coach, read Allan Carr book Easy way to stop drinking.
Take care of your hygiene, shower and eat wholesome meals.
He is a great guy, sometimes ;) lol jk. Solid advice tho brother thank you, I’ll take this wisdom and use it. 🙏
Good to see ya Slayer!!
Good to see you as well Craig!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt hey Craig!! ❤️😊
@amandaflaherty7528 hi 👋 Amanda !!
15:42 slayer would follow sherpa’s up Everest to get booze if it was the last bottle on earth. This story is wild man. I don’t know how the cops were not called.
😂 it’s sad but true, also I have no clue!!! But I’m glad they weren’t.
You can do it bro. Think of how much good self esteem you'll have! Tell yourself good things about yourself everyday. You're so worth it!!
Appreciate you sage!!🙏🙏
your courage to share this is inspiring. thank you for this video
Thank you for being here and watching 🖤🙏
We love you Slayer❤! When the mind is trying to kill you, that’s more then tough! That’s why they call it “spirits”! We are all in this with you Slayer❤! Get up, brush yourself off & get back on that horse! You know the rule if you have horses, you have to get right back on the horse!
Love y’all too 🙏🖤
I have struggled with substance abuse disorder for sooo long. I come from a long line of addicts on both sides of my family (a family where people die young, not surprising). I am so proud of you for discussing this horrible disease publically (because it can be very embarrassing for many people to be so raw and honest about this. I am in your corner, rooting for you, man. Never give up. You are very loved, SO much more so than you may realize
Thank you so much :)
I find it hard to believe you were not arrested after all that happened, you were drunk, and the police got involved. You are very fortunate. Praying for you and your family. Eventually they are going to have to cut you loose before you drag them down with you. Hope you get the help you need.
By the grace of god bro, I live with my
Older brother but sometimes stay with my dad, but I see what you mean man. My dad coming down there, putting all that stress on him…. It’s beyond messed up and really hurts me when I’m sober and clear beaded. Drunk me I’m running wild. Luckily this relapse I only drove like 2 times, I stocked up pretty heavy. I’ve long boarded to get booze as well. It’s all bad news. I look forward to a sober future. God bless 🙏
Dang you aren’t kidding about chaos!!
Absolute 100% chaos steph almost every single time!!!