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Thank you everyone.
For the support but also the understanding - I didn't expect so many people to relate so heavily to certain things in this, I've been so frightened to open up on stuff. Especially 13:00 onwards.
Maybe get something like this? It's a retractable compact walking stick ❤️ Sending love!!
"In the midst of winter, I finally learned there lay within me an invincible summer" Find your summer Beckie, I know you will and I know you can and you are unbelievably talented, push through the fear, push through the winter, feel the cold, feel the FAILURE and feel the LOVE ❤️
Oh wow, I have a chronic "failure" self talk as well. 90%+ or I'm a failure also
I am so sooo sorry that somebody said that to you. That is so deeply hurtful that someone would say that to you. Please hear me- please I beg you to listen to me- I have only just discovered your channel this very day, and I have been so deeply moved by your creativity and your willingness to share your life. You have moved me to tears with almost every video. Your life is so touching and the way you bare your soul so totally is unimaginably brave and it is such a privilege to be let into your inner life. You are an inspiration, and the current of art that runs through your whole life is just such a beautiful, so deeply beautiful part of who you are as a human being. And don’t be too hard on the 17 year old you. She was wonderfully creative too, and I’d give her a huge hug if I could. And she is still a part of you today. I am writing this literally through sobbing tears because I have been so deeply moved by discovering you today. For you it has been a lifetime of creativity and for me I was able to peruse it all in a few hours. So the profundity of your experience is of course greater but the profundity shines through in your work. And I say this as an artist of sorts myself- a classical and jazz pianist- periods of inspiration come in waves. Sometimes they utterly stop (u recently went through a period where I stopped playing for nearl THREE MONTHS (that is an absurd length of time). But I found, when I felt the piano calling to me finally again, that I was more inspired and creative than I had been in years. And I have discovered new things about my music and about music in general. You listen to me good now, my kindred spirit- you listen good- your inspiration WILL RETURN TO YOU. It’ll happen at the most unexpected time and when you’re totally unprepared to take advantage of it, and you’ll have to excuse yourself from some table randomly to go DO IT and it will be beautiful and wonderful just like you are as a person. You are NOT a failure. That person who wrote that is simply factually incorrect. They simply don’t know enough about the world to accurately comprehend what she is looking at. And it just kills me and hurts my heart so deeply to know that those words were able to throw you off course so drastically. YOU LISTEN TO ME DAMNIT- I BELIEVE YOU ARE JUST A GORGEOUS WONDERFUL PERSON AND YOUR LIFE MAKES THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE. You may take that as absolute incontrovertible fact, because I know what I’m talking about and those idiots who seem to enjoy tearing down such a sweet, gentle wonderful girl aren’t worth their own weight in petrified gnome shit.
Now you listen here young lady- I have been moved so unbelievably deeply discovering your content today. I started weeping on your age progression video and haven’t stopped crying throughout all of your posted content. I am writing this through a torrential downpour of tears. The world needs MORE OF YOU, not less of you. You are just so infinitely wonderful and it is such a deeply joyful experience to see your work and watch you throw little bits of your essence into the world. Please- I need more of that joy and I would love to see more of your work. As much of it as you can put out and it still wouldn’t be enough.
You hace my deepest appreciation, respect, admiration and love. Please, please don’t let any outsiders get you down. It’s all very simple you see- I’m right and they’re wrong.
Sending you a huge bear hug from New York. I love you in a way that I don’t understand. I just find you so very beautiful.
Matt
@@matthewnewton8812 My sentiment, too. Beckie is such a soul that it's easy to feel toward her as the sister/daughter one didn't but would have.
Gonna keep this short and useful: you should implement focused attacks. Learn to choose your battles.
Take/attend some online courses or in person bootcamps for one of those goals that you mentioned, like book cover design, illustrator proficiency, etc. Then create a better focused portfolio. Sometimes we have proficiency for jobs, but can't show it well because we don't know the sector's practices or standards.
If you think your old RUclips content is tying you down, consider a clear and clean break, and deletion of all content. I know this is very hard to do or consider, but your future is more important than all of that.
Lastly, be confident. You are a beautiful soul. You have a good heart. You can do a lot. Cut yourself some slack. Don't be too harsh on yourself. But, be confident, act confident. Nobody is inherently better than anyone. Don't let anyone make you feel less.
I am sure you will pull yourself up ready to take on the whole world again tomorrow. Because that's our Rebecca.
You make some great points Alex! As far as her YT videos go she could put them on "Private" so only she can see them without deleting them/losing them. Then that gives her the option later. Also, Instead of thinking of ALL one must do to get to point B, sometimes it is best to just do ONE thing at a time. Focus on ONE class not the entire degree.... and before you know it, all could be achieved by taking 1 step at a time. The big picture can overwhelm many of us
Lex, you‘re awesome.
Those people who interviewed you and subjected you to a review of your past videos should be reported to authorities! This is discrimination!
I relate to so much of your thinking. I'm unemployed, never had any kind of career, hate the way society is, have no idea where to go next or what to do. I live with my mam and we rent, I'm in debt, I have crippling anxiety and depression and very intense emotions that make daily life really hard. Honestly I promise you are not alone. Thank you for being so honest.
P.S. I hate hindsight too
I'm flabberghasted. The fact that people in Interviews will not only go through your social media, but then proceed to use it against you as a reason to turn you down for jobs?
I'm just, speechless. How do places get away with behaviour such as that? The UK government needs to sort that shit out.
I don't see anything wrong with looking at someone's social media, but to confront you with it in an interview is completely wrong, not to mention unprofessional! If you don't like what you see, don't even call the person in.
I don't know what to say, because I relate to this so much, my thoughts are racing. I just want to say; Thank you for existing. ♡
I know and relate to when words fail. Hug
Your honesty is really admirable
Props for saying all this out loud and sharing it. I feel the same in many ways and sometimes it’s enough to know you’re not alone (not that i would wish this on anyone)
Sending hugs and hope you find your way through to the next level of happiness.
She wasn't stupid.....she was 17. Things change as we grow and gain experience. The honesty in this video was eye opening. Keep taking care of yourself. Your supporters are still listening.
Every time a video of yours pops up i feel this warm, nostalgic feeling. You are one of the best people to watch, even if you ramble for hours we’d still listen. We love you no matter what. You are not a failure, your path is just different and those who love you can tell you how far you’ve come, that even someone hundreds of miles away knows, loves and supports you. Wish you nothing but the best💙
Being denied from jobs can really take a hit on confidence. It makes us with anxiety and low confidence ask ourselves "why am I not good enough?" The job market is so competitive and employers can be so picky. Anytime I've been rejected, I tried my best not to take it to heart, it can be difficult though if you're being denied daily. Whenever I question myself, I remind that I know myself, and know the things I am capable of. Employers can't see our life experience and how far we've come and how much we've achieved from a 10 minute interview and a CV. They don't know the true us
I relate to this so much. Feeling stuck, unmotivated or not good enough when it comes to my own creative pursuits and passions. I have an interview tomorrow for a job in a field that is related to my degree, but its a field that I never wanted to go into because of how stressful and anxious it makes me feel. At this point though, the need for financial stability has replaced my dreams of being a published author. Sending all the love your way
I can't help with much but a folding walking stick that fits in your bag. Life. Changer.
It breaks my heart to hear that you had to hear such words of hatred towards you. I have been watching your content since 2008. I am 25 now and when I was 15 I got through many days because I felt connected to you, somebody I saw as being kind and strong, and I still see that. Thank you for sharing your feelings, I can relate to so much of this.
I’m so sorry, Rebecca.
I remember the forum & I remember people sending it to me when I mentioned you on twitter. And I remember how petty and ridiculous it was. I was, and still am, so shocked that people circled around you so maliciously.
I’ve been following you for a very long time - even when I stepped away because religion is a trigger for me - I kept coming back. You are truly so honest & so clearly kind hearted & good intentioned.
I don’t know what to write to send comfort, but I hope you know that I very desperately want to. I understand these emotions so personally. And as difficult as the position is, I hope you can internalize - even a bit - that you’re not alone.
xxxx
Hi Beckie, I'm in a very similar position at the moment. I am struggling with what I want to do with my life, mental health issues and have been thinking a lot about children recently, and whether I will end up dying alone (Cheerful). Just to let you know that you are still making a difference, no matter if the platform is smaller, everything has a butterfly effect. I really got some catharsis from knowing how similar your situation is, its tough when you feel you should be excited about your future but you cant help but be scared.
This is the most honest thing I've heard someone say in a very long time
Thank you for sharing this.
Beckie, The number of times I've wished I could reach through the computer and give you a hug. I wish you well, wish there was some way I could help. Sending hugs.
Beckie, my friend I can only say you are right. We with mental health issues are discriminated against. I am glad you made this video. I was recently hospitalized for three days. I collapsed, and lost 9 hours of my life before waking up. I am 62 years old. Your comment on children for what it is worth to you, I would find employment before having children. Having raised two daughters I can speak by experience. You can have a career. And children. And it is important you and James are on the same page on this. Much hugs, and love to you.
Job hunting is absolute crazy-making bull shit that is made to break you down and settle for less. its not you, its capitalism. I'm grateful that you keep coming back and sharing with us. Thanks for being here with us and for being you
This one hit me hard, incredibly relatable. Amid career struggles, anxiety and health issue you have to think about adult stuff like having kids. And it feels whatever you choose won’t be a right answer. I wish I could say some words of comfort that would help, but I don’t know any. Except this - you made a difference and your work inspired people all around the globe, and there is a spark - and always will be. Even now, the way you honestly talked about difficult matters helps a lot, may be it is not joyful Spark, but pure sincerity spark. Sending love and all the best wishes ❤️
Loved seeing an upload from you in my subscription box. I love how open and honest you are. This videos just feels like I'm chatting with an old friend and I just want to give you the biggest hug. I have watched you for years and you have grown so much, it makes me proud. And yes Rebecca you have that spark (always have always will). Never forget your light!
Oh Becki.
I am pretty sure you don’t remember me. We met at summer in the city in the bathroom.
I watched your videos for years at this point and you tought me so much. So now I want to give back. If you want to, you can come to Berlin and stay here for a few days at our apartment just to get some different air and maybe some space to think and evaluate.
You are so much more than you can see at the moment. ❤️
Thank you for sharing your life with us. You’re a beautiful soul. Take care of yourself. 🥰
If someone asks me how my life is going, I can show them this. I love how you explain your feelings. You are not a failure❤️
Thank you for opening yourself up. I know that you have helped me feel not alone for the past 5 or so years of my life. I wish I could magically be there for you.
I have never related to something so much. Thank you for sharing, I’ve been following your journey for years and as you said you're not alone and you can do it! We can do it! This pushed me to keep going. Thank you.
I find it really frustrating to read through the comments and see so many people giving unsolicited advice. I understand they mean well but when I was in the depths of applying to jobs, feeling totally unmotivated and stupid and insecure, any unsolicited advice about what I should be trying when I was working my absolute hardest was soul destroying. I understand sometimes people can offer perspectives or advice you maybe hadn’t through about but I think people forget how many comments you’re getting on the internet.
Sometimes it helped me when someone said “you’re right, this really really sucks and it’s really unfair. Things will get better, but that’s no help right now. I’m here to support you and if I can’t then I can listen.” Beckie I don’t think there’s much I can do in the way of support but there are many people who are listening, and your words are stay with me and I think of them often when I feel totally alone.
As a 27 year old as well, I can relate to this video b i g t i m e.
i love how real you are!! i’ve been following you for years at this point and i love seeing how much you’ve grown. ❤️
You've never let me down with your expressions and I'm somebody who has been keeping up with you, your writing, your photography and your various other artworks for several years. There simply won't come a time when I don't care about how you're doing. But I know how it is. Little things I do that nobody else thinks anything of at all drive me nuts and I'm always critiquing myself, always thinking up little ways of doing things better and fighting feelings of dread and disappointment if things don't progress as I'd like.
I can also relate to looking back on past content and feeling like struggles inspired an odd sort of quality. Pain & inner turmoil brought out a lot of outrageous and surprisingly energetic sarcasm from me years ago here on RUclips.
I think you're doing great. The artwork you recently added to your Etsy is lovely. I liked this video too. I think you've got an energy, a speed, a brutal honesty...a sort of spark, that if you'll pardon me for saying so, seemed to have flickered and dimmed for a bit there. And I truly believe that one day you'll find your place and be happy with who you are and where you are.
I know how you feel. I finished my masters and did not have a holyday in years. Now I'm looking for a job and get rejected A LOT. I'm working in two jobs and try to find work. After eleven applications I got one interview. Eleven is not a lot, but I'm looking for a job in the field of forensics, which is really hard and positions are rare! Selfdoubt, feeling miserable? Been there done that... still doing it. But other times will come. Stay positive!
But please do me a favor! Do not isolate yourself! You need people around you, that show you something different.
So much love for you Beckie. You can only do as much as you can do. You speak so well to everything you've been through and it is truly encouraging to me as someone who also struggles with anxiety and failure. Thank you so much for sharing.
I am 41 and have trouble leaving my bed let alone my home.
My depression/anxiety got so bad I atrophied a lot of muscles I had and am now trying to get the gumption to do small exercise.
What I mean by stating this is, you are not alone.
In 2020 most people in "civilized" societies have crippling anxiety (okay not like Denmark and the other Nordic countries but I think that's cuz they have it right)
We all are working just to survive rather than living.
You said it yourself you hold on to your home by the skin on your teeth.
We are all fighting just to stay afloat rather than enjoying the swim.
I don't know, other than society no longer commodifing all of life, of any other path.
I prefer to look at our ancestors for guidance. Become one with our life and all life around us. And stop chasing the paycheck...though in today's society that paycheck barely covers being able to take a full breath.
I am at a loss Rebecca.
I hope you find your way.
It is good to see and hear you again.
The extra few pounds (kgs? Metric...)looks good on you. Despite your obvious stressed look, you look healthier with the few extra stone (? )
You’re so brave for posting this, and I just want to give you a hug, because I can totally relate to these emotions and the lack of self confidence and self worth. You’re vulnerability is inspiring, and I have been watching for a few years and you have come a long way. Love from Texas!❤️
Thank you so much for your honesty. It is brave, and really refreshing to have someone speak so candidly about job struggles and unemployment. Thank you!
I relate to this so much! Especially the last few years. It’s really hard to keep things going when the world feels like it’s crumbling around you. Especially when mental and physical health come into play. Stay strong Beckie!
You’ve always been someone Ive enjoyed watching on RUclips and keeping up with on Instagram so I’m always cheering for you! ☺️ Lots of love and good vibes to you from across the ocean! 💙
im so admirable of your honesty. this was a really good watch, and im so glad youre posting this despite past (and possibly current) harassment.
Wow. I can't even express how much I relate to everything you said. Have watched you since about 2016, and your honesty is seriously so refreshing. God bless you Rebecca, I wish the best for you 💕
Thank you for sharing your vulnerable bits. Always nice to hear from you. BIG HUG!! ❤️
I have had anxiety all my life and i have learned that reaching your goals does not lift your anxiety it simply transfers it to a new place. working on accepting where and who you are in the moment while working towards your goal is everything (just because you aren't where you want to be does not mean where you are now is a bad place). if you are always needing to be in the next place to be happy you will find it very hard to be happy. its okay to be proud of where you are and still move forward to do the new things. i became very ill a few years ago and all my goals had to change overnight, it taught me that i needed to live in the moment and see where i am as an achievement even if all i could do in my life at that point was simply be alive. it was easy for me, and still is, to feel i had failed myself and everyone around me, i hadn't and i mostly know that now but my mind was so determine to break me down and i lived in panic/failure mode for such a long time. we expect far too much of ourselves sometimes. its okay to have a long road in front of you, everyone does. life is about experiencing the journey not reaching the targets. its always full of unexpected moments and sometimes when we think its all going wrong we are actually being taken in the direction we are suppose to be going in no the one we think we should. things will improve for you and you will look back at this one day and be happy to see the change in yourself once again. take one step at a time, work on the way you perceive life first and everything else will feel easier to face. you got this!
i'm sorry if this is one long ramble full of spelling errors. its very late and making words from my thoughts is difficult right now.
This really felt like a Heart to heart with a good friend! So much insight into your life and thoughts, that must have been difficult to Share ♥
Thanks you for opening up about this. People need to be more aware about these issues! Take care. I hope things will turn out better for you in the near future.
Thank you so much for posting this. So relatable, im also 27, struggling with mental and physical health issues, career issues, deciding whether to have kids. You are a beautiful human and you help so many people feel less alone. I'm so sorry that helping us has had a negative influence on your career; the world is bonkers. Have followed for years, found out that that trich was a thing from your videos and felt less alone. Thanks so much for the positive effect you've had on my life.
Also job hunting is brutal. It is by definition a string of failures because as soon as you succeed you get to stop doing it. But nn matter what your brain wants to tell you, it doesn't make you a failure. That feeling that we will look back at this time later is reassuring to me, I hope it helps you too.
The way you express yourself in this video is like a monologue plucked straight from my brain - the back and forth between anxiety, doubt, trying to stay hopeful and optimistic and motivated and GRATEFUL! beating yourself up and feeling bad about it...trying to lift yourself up but faced with harsh realities/real limits, and all the while the SENSE that someone outside yourself is scrutinizing it all so you backtrack on your own thoughts. I've been watching your videos for ages and I'm not even myself sure what it is that has me watch every single one but absolutely part of it is the way you so eloquently express these intensely difficult moments in time - and equally express gratitude and aspirations for the future. Anyway, I really deeply appreciate your existence and all the types of content you create. I don't truly know you of course but whatever happens know that I support and believe in you 🙂
You are by far one of the strongest and most self reflective persons I have ever come across. And you are one of the few I truly admire.
And I could listen to your voice forever. I would listen to any pod cast you do.
feeling sick with anxiety, your videos always make me feel less alone. Thinking deeply of you. Bullying causes lasting damage, but I promise it can be managed. Your voice matters x
Thank you for sharing! And if it can make you feel any better, I truly dont think youre a failure. You actually inspire me. You are so so talented in many things and you explore those talents no matter what age you are. You are very intelligent and hardworking and I truly believe you will find your motivation and get back on track, whatever it is you choose to do. Good luck with every aspect of your life. I truly hope you feel better. :)
I highly recommend the short courses at University of the Arts, London. I've done three of their one week illustration courses and a weekend Wacom course. Take a look!
Wow really agree on the confidence when it comes to jobs, I applied for so many and hearing nothing back from hundreds of applications started effecting my own self worth, I really empathise with you
A good friend once told me something that stuck with me.
"When someone insults you, it's about them, not about you." In other terms, someone who makes it their daily mission to hurt strangers on the internet says a lot more about their own life choices in doing so, than they say about the lives of the people they're insulting.
I haven't commented before, but I've been watching your channel off and on for three or four years, usually for a couple hours at a time during the wee hours of morning when I'm too stressed or wired and my brain won't shut up to let me sleep. This morning it was COVID that had my brain on fire. I thought of your channel and decided I needed some Beckie Jane Brown in my life, I wanted your take on it and you did not disappoint. Then I saw this video and it was just like, woah. Perspective. Bam. You make me feel like less of an alien. I don't know how to explain it exactly, something about seeing another regular person trying to overcome daily and also lifelong battles, discussing valid anxieties and problems openly... We're also in basically the same boat, financially, right now, while this crazy thing is happening around us. I don't know. It's gotta be a weird millennial thing, because it's like having a friend that I've never met or spoken to, because the internet exists. And so do you, and you are valid and wonderful and I am glad that you exist. This video made me want to give my sad, wonderful friend-I've-never-met a hug, so I figured I'd comment and try to say something kind, since you kept bringing up being kind in your COVID videos. I realize this comment is really long but I have to stress that WHAT YOU DO FOR MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS IS IMPORTANT. Keep fighting the good fight Beckie, you do more good than you know.
Love this post because so many people have felt stuck at one point or another. I've been there! The only thing I can say is thank you for posting and just keep plugging away, even if you're just going through the motions. It gets better :) I found focusing on 1% changes really helped (recommend reading Atomic Habits)!!!
I relate so much, Beckie. I've been more or less "stuck" in a job that isn't terrible, but isn't good for me and tends to help enable my habits. I've stayed and delayed getting a new one for fear of discomfort at best, failure at worst.
I've followed you since 2008. You've conquered stuff before, and you sure will conquer it again! ❤ You are beautiful, persistent, and a voice for the hopeless! We are here and listening. ❤ Thinking of you and sending hugs. And have yourself a holiday, if you can! 😊
I'm so proud of you for posting this video - it's MAJOR & I really want you to know how brave you are. I relate to so much of what you're going through - especially the comments about being a 'failure'. As cliche as it is, you aren't ever alone. Always wishing you well, take care.
I am sorry.
You are worthy. You are very creative. You are not a failure.
I admire your strength, and your videos have given me the courage to face my own struggles. I am grateful of how open you have been about your mental health, and I am sorry people bring that at all in a job interview.
You are amazingly talented, and you do have a lot of artistic, editing, digital media skills (and many more).
Thank you for still making vids after all these years and struggles.
💜
I'm so glad you're here, I'm so glad you are brave so others (including myself) don't feel so alone, thank you thank you thank you Beckie.
I can very much relate to what you're saying and thank you for opening up. Hope that saying all this out loud helped you. For me reflecting my situation is always helpful in sorting my mind, opening the gate out of the struggle I'm in, alongside with accepting the situation I am in right now, knowing that it will eventually change, and enjoying good moments and don't let myself overrun by my past or a potential (unpredictable) future. Everything is good and every experience makes us stronger.
I failed my game design studies because of my depression and dermatillomania. Now I want to be an animal carer and I'm doing all I can to achieve that. I'm so much happier now. Because now my needs are the most importat thing in my life for me.
God bless x Animals are great :)
Thank you for your honesty and insight. I feel better about my self and my struggles just by listening to you, Beckie
Thank you for saying all of this. You're a light to so many of us. I hope no matter how dark it gets, you keep on keeping on because there's an army of us behind you
You are braver than I could ever imagine myself being. You've managed to articulate so well what so many of us are going through.
May God Bless You and keep you safe through this difficult time.
Thank you so much for being open and real! I understand. I'm in the same boat as you! You are not alone in this!
I relate to this. Many of us relate to this. I'm glad you posted this. Thank you ♥
As so many others have said, I can relate to what you've articulated and what was more visceral to me was the emotion in your voice and face. I never know what I look like when I am struggling but I know what I sound like and how I feel, and though I never wish to have anyone else feel lost, it does help me to know I'm not alone. And I do, so very often, feel alone. Thank you for taking the risk and sharing.
Thank you for being so honest. Youre not alone in this x
My heart goes out to you becca. You are by no means a failure, you are a wonderful, kind, beautiful human being that anyone would be lucky to have in their lives. I'm sorry that things are tough for you, what you describes sounds extremely difficult to go through and you deserve so much better in your life. I hope that people can see you for how valuable and wonderful you are and I hope that someone out there gives you the boost you deserve ❤️ If you need a positive soul in your life feel free to say hi to me and I'll be here to listen. I'm cheering for you girl xx
Beckie,
I silently watch your videos for more than a 5 years now and for the past year I gathered the courage to actually write something.
Whenever I felt down, variaty of anxieties beging apart of my life, you and your support, energy, real mental health talks and so much more you give here helped me a ton. To take different perspective, to be more grateful, all the things I appriciate about your character that makes me better person aswell.
So right now I just couldn't help it and had to let you know all of this.
Every single worry you express in this video is valid, I wish ppl who are this hateful walked at least a few miles in your shoes. But at the same time, when the times seems to be the darkest, you're still here and I couldn't be more grateful for that. Take all the time you possibly need to heal, even thought it's known it can take a lifetime. I'm so happy you found love with James and I wish you from the bottom of my heart that you will love yourself fully one day aswell. So simply thank you for being you, being here on planet Earth, I draw inspiration from you and your journey almost every single day.
xx sincerely from silent but thankful viewer
Attitude is more important than anything and self love and not caring what others think, including interviewers. Other people’s opinion doesn’t matter. Focus on positive vibes and things will work out!!! Stand ur ground, the only relevant thing is this moment not the you from 10 years ago! ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for addressing this Stuff it’s a nice update :) think ppl need to remember even if someone says or does something online doesn’t mean thel stay that way in the future and I find it so interesting seeing you’re views and opinions on pregnancy and stuff change and have that recording of that change 😊
Glad to see you’re videos again x
"I no longer relate to the person in my videos" YES! This is what social media is in so many ways. I totally get why this is painful. I'm so sorry for you. I hope you find what you need in your employment and personal life
The fact that you face yourself with such bravery and look into your own darkness. Then be willing to taking every baby steps towards something better even though your in pain is so so so priceless and worth being admired. Ive watched your videos since 2013 and youve inspired me through everything. I relate to how you feel very much in my own way. Your older than me so you are experiencing things i havent yet, but every wisdom you drop i pick up because i think its so precious. Please keep it up. It will be worth it in the long run! There is beauty in the small moments. How the wind can refresh us. How beautiful the trees are and the colors they create. You are worth it!! I love you so much 🥺😣💗💖💝💕💜🤗. Im not good with words and idk if you will even read this, but I tried to explain how I feel. Its okay not to be strong. Its okay your sensitive. You are loved by the right people 🌸
I relate to you so much, I’ve been struggling in the job application process and feeling really deflated. Writing cover letters feels like I’m lying and being insincere, because I too greatly doubt myself and my abilities as well as have low self-esteem. Thank you for being so vulnerable, and being open about things. I still think you are a mental health advocate even though it may not be your official job title. I am now in therapy for the first time and it has been helping with my depression and anxiety. Watching your journey makes me realize how I am less alone and that other people experience these things in their 20s and it’s ok if I’m not having the time of my life in this period and I need to stop comparing myself to not only movie/tv depictions of people at this age but also to others' lives on social media where I only see their highlight reel and not their problems/pains that they keep hidden. What you do, I think is radical. Cause you are brutally honest, you don’t gloss over things, and it makes people feel like they are in the same boat with you. Your anxieties and worries are things we all feel and are sometimes hesitant to talk about. You break down facades, educate & illuminate on important topics/issues, and you bring people together in shared understanding. You chronicle the highs and lows of the human condition. And for me, and the majority of your viewers, we all are following you on this journey and we all want you to succeed and can’t wait to watch you when you do ♥
I have endless thoughts like this and this makes me feel less alone with you opening up and also the comments of other people, I was very much the same at 27 I'm now very close to 30 and I swear it gets better or should I say easier to cope
yay Beckie thank you for sharing!
So many of us are addicted to the story of our own suffering, but eventually, we have to choose; do we reinvent ourselves, or keep living within the same broken framework? Part of our healing is to let go of thar victim consciousness. It’s a long way to go, but as someone who lives well with bipolar disorder and has recovered from long term addiction - it’s possible, but only if we let go of our victim mentality. Very brave of you to share this! All the best 💓
Beckie, I wish you the best in life, however long it takes. You will be happy again and you will love every inch of your life. You have it in you, I just know it. Sending much love and I’ve been following you since forever and I think you’re an amazing woman xx
collapsible canes are really useful - just pop it into your handbag and if you need it, just flip it out! navigating disability stuff can be really hard, but there are lots of little things here to help you out. i take one with me in my wheelchair bag to make stuff/transferring easier, and you can get really nice patterned ones too. hopefully that’s at least slightly useful! 🌻✨
This video is just what I needed right now. I’d love to hear you speak more about topics like this because so many people can relate! I have an interview for a job this week and I’m already putting myself down and convincing myself it’s not for me and they won’t want me. Self esteem and confidence can really make or break us. I wish you all the best in the future❤️
You inspire me to keep trying. You motivate me to not give up on myself. If it’s worth anything, I really truly deeply believe in you. And you’ve made a massive positive impact on my life and I’m so grateful you’re here.
Thank you for making and sharing this video.
I relate to so much of this. I'm a creative, anxious, 33 yr old who is currently unemployed and at home. Who wishes she could get back into education, but that seems, like you, very unlikely. I hated education at the time, my mental health was at an all time low, but as you say, hindsight.
What I do know, is that you are strong. And smart. And brave. And so am I. And our brains, and society often tell us otherwise. But today at least, I know we are.
I send much love 💪🏼💚
So sorry to hear you’re going through all that Becca. Hoping better days are on their way xx
I believe I came across some of your videos a couple of years ago?? So I don’t know that much about anything. But this video popped up today, and I am resonating so so much with the fear of failure. I’m so much afraid to try anything, and it stops me from even going for a walk (which I need to do for my health).
So I know I don’t now you. I can see you’ve got huge thoughts about a lot of things and about being stuck.
I love that you have things you want to do and that, even though there’s the fear and low self esteem, there is passion in there. It just needs some healthy space.
Wishing you all the best. These are big things. Take a breath. It’s going to be ok. Stupid sayings, I know. But you’ve got this. All the stuff you’ve mentioned, and as you say, it’s all completely valid.
Biggest thing. Seeing this video.i just wanted to step in and say, take a breath.
Take care. Best wishes from a stranger in Australia
you’re wonderful!! i have loved this channel for so so long!! you have such an original channel with such amazing and creative content! i love watching all your videos! thank you for always being so honest :)
This video puts my own feelings into words where I lack the eloquence to explain to my family or therapist or job agencies why I'm stuck and I can't get out. Thank you.
I realised watching this that I've missed hearing your voice and your thoughts. Thank you! Relate sooo heavily to the fear of failure, and also to feeling stuck. Blessed with free education over here though, wish it was the same for everyone.
Also I get SO MAD at the people saying those things about you. It's just... no. I don't know what to say. For what it's worth you've inspired me a lot. You helped me stand up straight when depression had knocked me down. Given me the courage to consider having a future. Made me feel less alone. Since then I've switched career path twice and I still don't know what I'm doing, but hey, I'm alive, and we're all trying our best. 🤷♀️
Keep up the good work! As you say yourself, you are making progress. We have to focus on the long game. x You're an amazing human being, Rebecca.
This resonated with me deeply. Sending you so so so so much love
This just made me realize how lucky I am and how good I have it with my mental health. I will not take that for granted again. All the best to you, Rebecca. From the bottom of my heart, may you get the opportunities you deserve!!
It’s amazing how life can bring people together. Looking at these comments, we all can relate to things you have gone through, as well as currently going through! What you said about not feeling worthy enough, the cover letter etc...Thats me all the way Becky. One thing though, you are strong! And it takes strength and courage to come on here and talk about these issues up front. You are not a failure Becky, You are awesome and a great person. Never lose sight of that and take things one day at a time! Good to see you uploading again...looking forward to the next video! 💯☺️
💓 thank you for the amazing Artwork you sent me few weeks back,I have it framed and I look at it when ever I feel down thank you - Marc 💓
I related to this video so much. My life also took a nosedive in 2016. Society lets people screw up for a short period -- or collapse for a short period -- but there's always supposed to be a corresponding upswing a couple month later where you emerge better! stronger! and more magical! than ever before. When you've struggled for years, it's so isolating. I don't think people who haven't been there can understand.
I’m sorry that you’ve been going through this. Unfortunately, I can relate a lot to what you’ve been going through. I hope things get better for you soon. I’m praying for you.
I relate to your fear of failure so so much. That same fear made me drop out of the physics bachelor I was trying to get, because I wouldn't solve problems due to the fear of having them wrong. I still have it to this day, but luckily it's not as present anymore. Much love Rebecca, you deserve all of it!!
I complete relate to feeling unworthy to even apply for jobs, I'm a few years younger but feel so stuck at present. Wishing you all the best, thank you so much for sharing this
There's a saying I love "failure is only failure when you give up..." You have not given up and you're gonna be OK. You are such a beautiful soul💕 you have so much support around you remember that... James, the good ones online and your family and friends.
Take that holiday! Take it with James!!!! Make that your goal before kids so you can receive a piece of you back again.
Also unemployment is high everywhere in Australia it is so diffuclt to get work ..you're dedication to get employment is so admirable and because of that I know you will get there.
Also I relate so so so much to your pregnancy dilemma. There is never a right time.. I know its said allll the time but its so true. My husband has been unemployed for a decade no fault of his own he's out there everyday trying and I've bounced from short term job to short-term..although we are married and yes we won't give up on each other just because its hard cause life always has hard spots... But its like we wanted to have permenant employment because of the exact line you stated. Kids are permenant. I completely relate to that so so so so well. I'm 27 now and have been with you your entire journey and I am not a hater I'm a supporter... But it's funny cause I feel like if we lived close I could just hug you and cry with you on so much of these topics and relate so well with so much discussion about it.. Thank you for being so brave thank you for sharing thank you for highlighting real issues no one else talks about.
As for content in your past effecting your work if you have to delete them/ hide them. At the end of the day you need to take care of you.
Much love Beckie x
Looking at this video and all the comments has assured me I'm not alone when it comes to mental health, creativity, negativity, self-doubt, self-esteem, anxiety, disabilities, failure, troubles with employment - and so much else I'm either forgetting or can't place here.
I try to watch your videos, Beckie, when I get the chance. Your voice is gentle and who you are and what you do inspires me in the tiniest of ways.
Beckie- take an improv class/ I beg you. Learn that failure isn’t a death sentence it’s an opportunity to learn and grow. If you keep waiting to be in a good place before you share things you’ll live in a hole with the sun barely peeking through. I think it would help you a lot to do something physical that gets you out of your head, talking to folks, getting new ideas, and learning how to stop judging yourself and learn to be excited about failure! I have been in it 3 years and it’s changed my whole life and ability to art!
I’m a full time artist and can’t wait on “inspiration” to create. You have to create daily. It can be bad. Awful even. But creating anything is a success, and any “failure” in process is learning. I have days and days of failure in line sometimes, but i am a far better artist than when I started 9 years ago, and I’m so excited to suck some more today so I can be better tomorrow! (And I say that knowing I like my art, but always want to improve)
I wish you nothing but the best, and hope you’re able to find the fun in failure and get back to a happier zone. You can do it, you just gotta DO! I think we follow eachother on insta, but if you ever wanna y’all art or vent to a bud or ask questions I am here! @darkredheart on insta
I hope all those people who have been mean to you realize their mistakes and learn how awful they’ve been. You are a WONDERFUL human being. Don’t let anyone bring you down.
I’m autistic and couldn’t relate more to most of what you’ve said. Anxiety, fear of failure, exhausted all the time. Psychological pain that results in physical pain. But we keep plodding on and pushing through hard times. Cats make things better and working on believing in ourselves.
I want you to know that I find you incredibly inspiring and this video was exactly what I needed today xx
As so many others I relate to many of the thoughts and feelings you open up about in this video and it resonate with me and the time in my 29 year old life I'm in right now! I have some experience with public exposure and the comments that (always) follows with that.. sometimes a distructive or even hateful comment can come from a person with intelligence, ability to analyse and a sharp pen, which is often the most hurtful kind because you can't reject them as being just empty and stupid.. But what these people or words always lack is empathy! The ability to put oneself in another person's shoes, tremendous lack of experience and the incapability of relating to others, their feelings, lives and the mental impact the have with their dark words. This lack of empathy and life experience actually do make their statement less valid. It truly does. To finish off you have been an inspiration to me with qualities to really strive for. I wish you peace, rest and faith in your own and life's ability to take steps and open doors when we are ready for them. 💜
It's so heartbreaking to.see you this discouraged. Who tells a person in their twenties that their life is a total failure? That kind of cruelty is just mind-boggling. You are not broken. And things will get better. I have loved so many of your videos and you seem like such a lovely genuine person. I am also many times feel broken because of the type of person I am. I know it is not true. It is never true. You are not broken. You are not a failure. Sending you all the encouragement and love in the world!