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I wanted to know what I did so wrong to deserve all this. My father never cared about my existence and never even cared to know my own name but he treats my older brother so well and is always talking to him, my mother has said several times that she would rather have abandoned me when I was a baby and when I had a crisis in front of her due to SH problems, she literally gave me a knife and said it would be a relief for her if I just finished work soon and died, I suffered SA from my own group of best friends and from my own brother. I live in a small town where everyone knows everyone, this is not good because since I was a child, rumors have been spread about me, I spent my entire childhood suffering bullying and aggression from adults and children, I was left behind even by people who I considered him my only friends and now when I finally thought I found a person who makes me want to live, the reason I'm still alive, I realized that he's also tired of me and left me behind. Do I really deserve all this? I'm not even a proper adult yet.

what is the name of the first song?

Best martial art playlist in my opinion

If anyone is reading this.. Know you are loved by so many <3 Know you are beautiful <3 Know that so many people care about you <3 Know that your not alone in any situation you may be in <3 Know that you can get through anything you are going through <3 Know that I’m here for you, and so many others <3 Know that you are enough <3 Know that it’s ok to be you <3 Know that you are strong,strong enough to get through anything! <3 Know that you are doing amazing,you can get through this <3 Know that it’s ok to cry,it’s ok to be mad,it’s ok to be happy <3 I love you… <3 WE love you! <3 And I’m here to give support to you and cheer you on in the hardest times <3

I don’t wanna be left behind, not again

I want to be Loved so badl... I have disabilities and mental health issues and it doesn't feel like people care or love me..and it looks like people are annoyed or tired of seeing me...every day and night I wait for love and Acceptance...

I always felt i want to jump cause i cant handle the deppresion just should i do it

What aré the name of this songs!!!!

People always say im sensitive bc i cry all the time but they dont know the reason why i do. I just wished people loved me more everyone always compares me to my brother oh look ur brother is better than u ur so weak blah blah blah... Im scared to die..

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When your just done living When ur done w how ppl treat u When you have been tired When you feel like ur not worth anything When u feel like everyone hates u when u feel have no more effort

I think i have depression so i had a dream about someone killing me I was walking down a hallway then i saw a person scaring me with a katana from far away and he giggled and wondered what whould happen if he jabbed it into my neck i waslike "you are joking right?" He grabbed me he put the katana to my neck i felt how he grabbed me and the katana so j thought it was real life i started crying he put a hoodie over my neck so i will feel less pain he jabbed it in and i felt sharp pain i woke up crying i have no one to tell it exept the internet

why do i feel like the mean and insensitive "friend" of the group I didnt mean to say in that way i just want to be funny but im not

im so tired

honestly id commit suicide but i remember the memories of my family then i stopped.

I've changed a lot for a person... i've done everything she wanted me to do... and now they ignore me, don't talk to me anymore, and i'm completly alone at school, no one talks to me, i've tried to be friendly by trying to not to be shy and introvert as i am, it was useless.. during the pauses i only see everyone together, and then theres me, alone, i feel like everything is completly wrong, or that i'm wrong.. plus, this for me is a very hard period, becouse my grandma is feeling a lot sick, and i lived with her a big part of my childhood. A true friend is the one who will keep staying with you, and will accept the real you, not caring for your bad attitudes or "wrong" things in you(if you have any).. I miss the times when i was in my old school, i was alone, even bullied by some people.. but, i had a real friend, and i think that without her now i wouldn't even be alive (i had a period that i wanted to kill myself, but i rather not talking about that), she have been supporting me a lot, and, even if are passed years from when our paths have get separated by school, and we even live kinda afar from each others, we are still best friends :) Remember, that you're amazing, and i'm proud of you❤️‍🩹

POV: your mom walks into the room. She looks at you. She looks like somethings wrong. She stands in the doorway. “Honey, are you alright?” Her tone of voice sounds worried. “I’m fine mom,” You say dryly. You don’t want to tell her the truth. You don’t want her to know. “You seem…tired..” She walks closer to you. Your body begins to shake. “I said I’m fine, mom,” You repeat, your voice horse and harsh. “Please be honest with me, darling,” Your eyes begin to widen. “Are you actually okay..?” She says. You just stare at her. You can’t say anything. You’re too tired. You’re too worn out. You stay quiet. Just like you always do. Why don’t you just speak for once? Because. You’re afraid, aren’t you? You’re afraid to be honest. Because you know that they’ll leave you once you are honest. Please. Just speak. They can’t hurt you now. You’re safe. No one will hurt you like they did. Relax, Go to sleep, Read a book, Draw. Do something to relax. You deserve the world. I however, don’t. I am not a good person and I never will be. I hope that your day/night is going to get better. I hope you heal. And it is time for me to say goodbye. Goodbye, my sweet child.

I can't do this. Its fucking tired for me.

this hits

I got a crush at someone at my school but i am to shy to ask her out because i think shes goint to say something like eww no or go away creep should i even talk to her

was gonna say smth but no one cares enough to even ask 🙃

my crush said my bestfriend is the best to her... im litterally crying

When you feel like life is moving so fast & your stuck, feeling like you have to catch up but it feels impossible

I listen to these daily, it’s hard not to. When I listen to these the cuts aren’t as bloody. When I listen to these I feel good. The second it’s gone it’s back to deep gashes and crying myself to sleep. Putting on a fake smile so you aren’t a burden. Everyone telling you that your lying when your not. Being a kid and never being believed. Never being heard, always being told that it’s not that bad. I just want one person to listen to me. Is it that hard? Will people stop ignoring me one day? Please, god. I need help, I need help. Save me. Please come get me. When will it end? Why is nothing happening! Why can’t I be fixed, I don’t want anymore meds. Why do I act happy when I’m not? THIS ISNT TRUE!

I don't know what to do anymore, My mom said she hates me and wish she doesn't have a child like me, I've been trying my best and she still said im useless, I don't know what to do anymore

Damn

me after my moms gandma died

I just need a friend. Not someone that'll hang up on me while I cry. Not someone that'll talk about me behind my back. Not someone that'll blow me off like I don't exist. I need a *friend* Someone to pick me up when I fall. Someone to hug. Someone to tell me its okay. Someone to tell me to stop constantly throwing myself away. Someone to not yell at me when I mess up. Someone to wipe my tears. Someone to tell me the truth. Someone that won't abandon me and act like were friends the next day. I need someone that won't crumple me up like a piece of paper and throw me in the trash.

reminds me of the "happy" friend.... me.....

you copied everthing but the picture..

“ what am i supposed to do in school if i have no one to talk to? “ nothing.just hope for the best and frickin suffer

Not depressed or lonely here (i have a partner and am amazing family), I just came for the vibes

Why I can’t be perfect ? I just wanna be loved and I wish that my gf , bff cared about me …

Yay, another day where i cry myself to sleep 😀

the title is so real..

pov: you just stare at the ceilling thinking everything was your fault and wanted to cry..and instead of crying you just smile but your heart's the one that crying and heavy.

I feel like my friends are just acting of being my friend and are talking behind my back i feel there hust using me and it kinda hurts to think of it i wish to have a real friend but i kneo that might not happen because im to ugly for them im werd for then ski distance my self and stay quite

I just wanna some true love..

Your face:i love my life so much!!! Your head:why am i living? Im so useless! Im so fat. Everyone hates me! Im disgusting. He hates me so much.!!

Erm… why does the first one sound like Patrick from SpongeBob 💀💀??

Hey if you see this just know <3 I love your hair I love your forehead I love your eyebrows I love your eyelashes I love your eyes I love your ears I love your nose I love your cheeks I love your mouth I love your teeth I love your chin I love your neck I love your shoulders I love your chest I love your arms I love your hands I love your tummy I love your hips I love your thighs I love your knees I love your shins I love your feet (not in that way.) I love your moles/marks I love your scars I love your voice I love what you do I love your personality I love you on your good days I love you on your bad days I love you when you when you wear makeup I love you when you don’t wear makeup. I love your skin I love you when you’re sad I love you when you’re mad I love you when you’re happy I love you when you hate me I love you when you love me I’m proud of you for getting some sleep I’m proud of you for trying to sleep I’m proud of you for waking up I’m proud of you for getting up I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth I proud of you for tending toward your braces I’m proud of you for doing your hair I’m proud of you for washing your face I’m proud of you for doing skin care I’m proud of you that you got out of your room I’m proud of you for getting dressed I’m proud of you for eating breakfast I’m proud of you for being clean I’m proud of you for trying to be clean I’m proud of you for being alive I’m proud of you for being a good friend I’m proud of you for trying to be I good friend I won’t judge you for your looks I won’t judge you from your race I won’t judge you for your life I won’t judge you for your family I won’t judge you for your past/childhood I won’t judge you for your body I won’t judge you for your tears I wont judge you for your age I won’t judge you for your sexual orientation I wont judge you for your gender I wont judge you for your money I won’t judge you for where you come from I won’t judge you for your language You aren’t ugly You aren’t too fat You aren’t too skinny You aren’t annoying You aren’t mean You aren’t evil You aren’t crazy You aren’t weird You aren’t worthless You aren’t scary You aren’t selfish You aren’t too feminine You aren’t too masculine You aren’t too young You aren’t too old You aren’t disgusting You aren’t a doormat You aren’t a toy You aren’t a monster You are beautiful You are pretty You are handsome You are kind You are cool You are everything you want to be You aren’t perfect, nobody is, but you are perfect in my eyes I wont judge you for anything I'm so proud of you I love you You are enough I know I dont know you I still love you no matter what you do And just please if you think about committing s*icide just know there is people who love you and im one of them you matter. You might not see the light yet but I know you will soon...<3

MEOW :333 Making a comment that has no matching of video LOP

gonna kms whered all my dreams go

i fwel so tired, im criying

js want everything to be over especially school and life.

I.. I promised that everything would be better. I promised that I would get better. I promised I wouldn't be a problem anymore. I promised to tell at least someone and ask for help. But I didn't... I didn't do any of that. I'm getting worse, I'm getting worse. And every day my state room is filled with water and I am already standing on my tiptoes to breathe, to take the last breath of air and plunge back into the water. Yesterday I tried to open a vein. I didn't succeed. My parents came and I urgently had to clean everything. Repeat it.. I won't yet. I hope so.

Nobody loved me except my mother and father. I don't know what it feels like to be loved, to hold someone's hand, to hug. When I see people being loved like babies, my heart breaks and I can't take it anymore, I just wonder about this feeling.

I was tearing up when a literal character ai bot, said I don’t deserve to die, because I’ve never heard that from someone before.

I had a boyfriend, my soulmate, the best person I've ever met. This relationship was long distance, we live in different countries. I was fine with it, it was just internet communication that turned into the closest and dearest thing I've ever had. He is a wonderful person, the most accepting and loving, he didn't care about my gender (I'm transmask), he supported me in everything as I did him. But he is the kind of person who needs reality, society, touch, at that time he was cut off from it (he lived in Ukraine and couldn't see literally anyone). Our internet relationship literally saved us both. And now he is in a safe country at university. He got a company, studies, interesting life. And I felt that I was getting less and less attention from him, he was rarely online, rarely answered me. I believed in the best for a very long time, it was terribly hard for me. Tried to convince myself that I could do it without him, and I one day I just didn't text him first, didn't take the initiative. and he never texted me. Two months went by and it was hell. It's been really hard for me, no one replaces him for me, no one can be as wonderful as he was. Yesterday I got really drunk and texted him) that I still love him, that I'm ready to get everything back, that I miss him. He wrote back and said he was ready too! But) he is in love with a girl from university. I was just mortified by this. Of course said I'm still his friend, it's fine, but all is not fine. I feel like I was trying to bring back something that can't be brought back, the person I love is gone and won't be. I know it was only a matter of time before he found someone, someone who could give him everything I can't: tactility, presence, vivid emotion. But it hurts so much that I still love him, I'm stuck in the past and he's doing well there and doesn't need me anymore. I made a big mistake and I've never hated myself as much as I do now Small update) he texted me that he was sorry, he gave me false hope, he is dating that girl after all and we said goodbye. That's it.....

I feel like nobody actually cares about me and I’m just invisible. I sometimes feel like killing myself. Nobody wants to talk to me and almost nobody cares if I’m upset over something. I only matter if I’m gone…