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carlose0318
Добавлен 25 апр 2007
Plastic Jesus/Fall Line (Cover) - Jack Johnson
Going wayyyy back in time for this one. Recorded when I was still in high school. Not the best quality but a throw back to when I secretly wanted to be a folk singer songwriter
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Coldplay's 1st interlude This video may contain copyrighted material, the use of which has not always been specifically authorized by the copyright owner
March 16, 2024
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Match Day 3/15/24 - Finding out where I will continue my training after graduating medical school in May! A day I’ll remember for the rest of my life, cause of those I got to share it with ❤️ Video made by Brandon Rycki, an amazing friend and talented visual storyteller.
Another Time Capsule Clip - Improv XI revisited
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Tribute to what was originally called “a improv XI” when I recorded it in 2013. I liked it so much that I remembered how to play it and have gotten to touch up some of the finer details in ever since. It’s another short clip, more of a Time Capsule to where I was 4 years ago. This is a happy upbeat tune that means a lot to me. I know it won’t get much attention on RUclips but I love getting to ...
I Miss You
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In a sea of sorrow and hollow regret Your smile is something I won’t soon forget I miss you.
Testing out Nashville Tuning!
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A Bon Iver inspired exercise Can’t believe it took me 14 years to discover Nashville tuning!
Lost and Found Again (improvisation VII)
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Just found this (at times quite) shaky recording on my list of private videos. Just thought I’d make it public after liking what I heard playing back to me. From ~2012
Hoping (original)
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A wintery tune for the summer Follow me on IG for more: tzarlos
More music coming soon! Preview for a new original
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Yes, shot with a potato (my iPhone 6s). After being away from recording for a while, music has been coming back into my life and I’m about to get some new recording gear to make some better quality videos. As a teaser, this is the latest melody I’ve been working on.stay tuned for more!
Outside Looking In - An original Instrumental Song (acoustic)
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Dedicated to my late grandfather... Miss and love you always. Had a couple ideas floating around, then this happened. Not quite sure I like it, but I'll let others decide whether its worth listening to. Thanks for watching :)
Maybe Another Day (original composition)
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Maybe Another Day (original composition)
Until I See You Again (Guitar Instrumental)
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Until I See You Again (Guitar Instrumental)
Alexi Murdoch - Her Hands Were Leaves (Updated) Tutorial/lesson
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Alexi Murdoch - Her Hands Were Leaves (Updated) Tutorial/lesson
Rider On the Wheel (instrumental cover) - Nick Drake
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Rider On the Wheel (instrumental cover) - Nick Drake
Bach - Jesu, Joy of Man's Desiring (guitar)
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Bach - Jesu, Joy of Man's Desiring (guitar)
Romanza (spanish romance) - anonymous
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Romanza (spanish romance) - anonymous
Very well played! I'm learning this at the moment, tell me do you play the D without index finger to make the D7 easier?
Nice 👍
Hmm. You mentioned you were freshman 12 years ago, were you studying something different back then? Or did you (or smth else) postpone your education for some reason?
@@Leonion6 lol this is med school graduation
@@carlose0318 Ehm. I'm just not very familiar with higher education in the US. In my country iirc studying to become a doctor takes 6 years followed by 2 years of not-always-required residency. But nvm.
>when I see people commenting they're still in the closet I want to give them a big hug I have the same reaction to people on coming out videos, especially when they get emotional or talk about some sad past experience. I've been binge-watching coming out videos for like the past couple of weeks and there are just so many interesting stories (thanks for telling yours, btw) and so many wonderful people telling them that I just want to hug you all. xD You know... it's kinda ironic that during my teenage years (~15 years ago) I sort of had easier time with self-acceptance than a lot of people on the videos I've watched (mostly US/UK/Canada) even though I live in this very homophobic country called Russia. Like, I was bullied in school (for being a quiet nerd) but not much and I don't think anyone really thought I was gay. I don't think I've heard any homophobic jokes, instead my classmates expressed their homopobia in rather funny way: they liked messing with each other by sneakily approaching each other from behind and pretending like they perform... you know. Which was just ridiculous to watch rather than offensive. F-slurs were used in speech pretty frequently though. Then in high school I had those strange occasional "encounters" with 3 guys who were older than me (I was in 9th grade, they were in 11th), who... I don't even know how they noticed me or why the decided to pick on me, but they teased me with "gay" remarks from time to tome. Like "hey, why so sad, did your boyfriend break up with you?", but nothing serious/physical. At some point a girl I was friends with who heard it told me "[leo], it's almost like they're hitting on you" lmao. I've always been an atheist (like my mother) and non-conformist so I kinda just skipped the entire "acceptance" stage. Pretty much the moment I realized I'm attracted to guys (it was when I was 12 or so), I was like "Welp, crap, I'm gay". I never had those "I have to change [because parents/society/hell/etc.]"/"It's not who I am" thoughts. I just admitted it as yet another fact on the long "why I don't fit in" list. I never had any actually close friends so I never needed to come out to this particular group (lifehack! lol) and never feared someone would stop being my friend. I didn't have siblings, didn't have dad, didn't have any important/close enough relatives, aside from my mom, who needed to know about me. And my mom took it well, I told her when I was ~14 (and there was no crying and only like 5-second hesitation before "I'm gay" words). The only thing that tormented me for many years was an enormous crush I had on one of my university teachers who was a perfect human being and my type in every way but for multiple reasons I never dared to do anything about it. And other than that, I never felt like dating anyone at that time and just enjoyed gay films and video games like Mass Effect (Kaidan uwu) instead. Anyway, thanks again for sharing your story. Sending virtual hugs!
Hello high school RUclips crush! Good too see a video from you
I liked it.
Good stuff
I will never be a doctor or surgion because you will have to spend almost a decade of school just to legally be called a doctor. But it's good you're almost finished with your goal. Also your screen name sounds familiar so I looked up all your previous videos. Yes I do remember you have previous videos of your music, but I also am sure you had a really old video(might have been your first video?) where you talked about your coming out expereince. I don't see it there anymore. I hope you didn't take it down because your parents told you too. Or did you take the video down because it's the only way your parents will pay for your education??
I temporarily made it private bc I had interviews and I was being paranoid. I’ll make them public again
@@carlose0318 So are you being interviewed for hospitals in the middle east or Russia??
@@missourigreen051 I talked about other things not related to coming out that would not be good to have employers know about my past lol
@@carlose0318 It's been a long time since I last watched the video, but I kind of get what you mean now. It could mean this or that but I think only guessing what it could be could still out you so I'm just not even going to say what my guessing could be. Before I thought you just didn't want people to only know you as being gay but that kind of really relates to friendship then being hired for a job. I remember one time giving someone a movie script I wrote but I also didn't want this person to assume I only write gay stuff so I sent another script where the main character is a straight guy.
Glad to hear that everything is working out for you.
Congrats, you’ve come a long way! I still have a playlist of your RUclips music - just love it.
Amo Nick Drake Sei veramente molto bravo
I send all my love and support to all the LGBT people of the world ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 You all are important and very valuable even though we live in a world that makes you all believe otherwise. Remember always be proud of who you are 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈 You all make from this world a better place ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 LGBT people are a rainbow of love in a world full of hate, but with difference of our straight partners, we all are united over a same flag 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈 The flag of LGBT love ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 And we all must be united against hate, violence, discrimination and intolerance ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 We all are like a great family and we must fight to destroy hate ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 Remember, LGBT people is love and love always wins ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 I don't care about your race, nationality, biological gender, health condition, religion or any other condition ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 If you are an LGBT person you have all my love and my support ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 You guys are not alone in this fight and all the LGBT people of all over the world needs to understand this messagge, cause just united we will win against hate and we don't have to allow that nothing divide us. Never feel bad of who you are and never allow that this cruel world change who you really are or turn off your light and your shine ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 You all born that way and remember LGBT people of all the world, at the end, love always wins ❤🧡💛💚💙💜
I think I've been subscribed to your channel for what must be over a decade now. It's been a pleasure seeing you grow from a beautiful boy just beginning to discover yourself in the world into a handsome young man about become a doctor. What kind of doctor by the way?
So kind of you to say. I’m going become a gastroenterologist. One more year of med school then residency…it’s a long road. I haven’t really listed any personal update videos in almost a decade so are you just going off of comments? I feel like all my subscribers came for the coming out story videos and all I do now is occasional guitar vids so 🤷🏻♂️
@@carlose0318 yeah, just reading your video descriptions and comments. good luck in your last year!
@@Muonium1 well I appreciate you keeping up with me! Even if my subscribers are mostly older gay men who thought I was a cute twink attention is attention I guess haha. But glad some folks still listen to my guitar doodles after subscribing for different content :)
@@carlose0318 hey hey hey! careful now, I'm only 41! 😆 But yes I suppose that is probably about 75 in 'homo years', which qualifies me as officially old. If I can remember right, I believe I originally subscribed because you were conventionally masculine and your commentary was unusually intelligent and self-aware for a "coming out" video in vogue at the time, qualities that were rare, and which I value and admire. .....still do...
@@Muonium1 interesting. Well thanks for sharing that. I’m 30 now. I appreciate much of the observations you made, though hearing someone say “conventionally masculine” does make me cringe a little bit. I may have been out at the time of those videos but I still had so much internalized homophobia because I thought it was so important to be “masc” because it was a way of distancing myself from really feeling gay. In the years since, I just worry about being myself - and I have masculine qualities and feminine qualities like emotionality. The point is masculinity and femininity are made up by society and I think we restrict our experience of life by assuming we must fit within one of the two. Like other things…it’s a spectrum. But I think I know what you mean. You were looking for someone you related to. Just kind of glad it wasn’t a 65 year old guy haha
Wow! What a nice surprise. (of course I remember you.) Please post more updates. A lot must have happened over 10 yrs. (We don't even need to know about Covid taking up 3 yrs!😄)
Hi Carlos, I wanted to reach out to you. I watched your coming out video and the two year update. I saw the look in your eyes as you were making your video. It looked like you were in a lot of emotional pain. I am glad that you did not commit suicide. I dont know you but you have to know you make the world a better place by being here. I know the videos were a long time ago, but I wanted to see if everything turned out okay for you. I have also dealt with being gay and hiding it all my life except for a couple of people who I told. You strike me as being a really descent guy, I know first hand living with the fear of other people finding out and the risk of them turning on you. It struck a chord when you mentioned that straight people right away may think of you as a pedophile. Im older than you are and my generation does not accept it as easily as your generation does. It definitely is a curse, but we were born this way and as you know it is not a choice. I hope to hear a reply from you, but I understand if you stopped checking your channel. Good luck with your life. Tim
Good on ya for doing this song man!
your singing and guitar playing are so nice and soothing! i really like your nick drake covers also
Thanks so much for the kind words :)
This music is so good. Glad that it was in my recommendations. ❤️❤️
There's nothing wrong with getting angry at homophobic people. It's healthy in fact. I came out at 18 in 1974. We were always angry then. I wish that hadn't been necessary, but we had it rough in those days. I'm glad it wasn't that way for you and younger Gay people. But when the situation calls for it, you should stand. That's what it means to stand. You'll feel better about yourself, and antigay folks need to be confronted. Lastly, thank you for making this video. It will help lots of people.
I want you to know it’s not a crime to being who you are being gay or being straight or homosexual to whatever does it say it’s a crime to be who you are and I know that for a certain we do have civil rights in America today and I don’t want you to forget that we have civil rights in this is America people like you deserve your rights to be who you are and it’s not a crime to be gay either so don’t have to worry about it
What you needed in that office was a big, long, close hug. Sadly, that's not seen as professional, but the nature of the human/ Great Ape type beast is that (and a lot of the animal kingdom,) is physical contact- affection. We have so much good chemical compound release that heals the body and the mind through this physical contact. In peak anxiety/ stress and trauma, one needs that physical warm, kindly touch. Hugs.
I never tire of your music. Someday I need to make a mixtape I can listen to while zoning out on my porch…
That’s awesome 👏
WOW, this is a freaking beautiful piece of music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks so much, glad you enjoyed it :)
Beautifully done. Smile !
This is awesome dude 👏
Aww thanks so much!! Not sure why it’s getting all the dislikes though
@@carlose0318 I'm not sure either, but I think you did great! Keep it up! 💯
Very clean. Your extremely in tuned w/ every note. You make it look so easy yet really hard. You were completely gifted w/ your talent in music. Your singing definitely has my attention. Keep sharing please. #YourUnderRated 🎶💗🎤🎸🎶
Hmm why do I feel like this was an automated comment 🤔
@@carlose0318 I assure you that I'm not a robot lol! I guess my speech sounds robotic. However, your very easy to listen to. 💯✅🕉
@@dawngasper9714 haha ok then thank you 😊. The comment about my singing made me wonder 😂
. 😥 Please don't doubt your talent! It's the truth! I guess cause it's all natural to you...? I can't sing "@ all". When I hear you, I feel your singing. Your voice is well balanced and has the same intensity as your playing the guitar. Trust yourself cause, your beyond even averaged musicians. 🙏✔😇
@@dawngasper9714 you’re really too kind. Thanks 😊
Beautiful.
Dude...you got that finger work too??
That’s my style :)
I love love love everything about this! Please, no matter what, keep putting your voice out there to the world. It should be heard.
Aww thanks so much! That brought a smile to my face. I post these short videos I made on my phone for my ig stories, that’s why they aren’t full songs. I also convinced myself no one wanted to hear my voice, so your comment made me smile :)
@@carlose0318 It's just so honest, dude. I'm not in that place in life, don't know if you are or not, but I feel like you recorded and sent it just for me. Like, it makes me emotional. LOL It's very heartstring-y pull-y. Did you write this, or is it a cover? (Yes, I came back to hear it again. And again. It's one of my favorite things to listen to right now.)
@@bipolarbear9952 hey, thanks again for listening :) It means a lot to hear that this moved you, so thanks for sharing that. It’s a cover by Damien Rice. The song is called Rat Within the Grain. Give it a listen and you’ll see how I came nowhere near doing the original justice! In fairness, I just went with a slightly different feel and pace to it. You’re making me want to record a full cover! I’ll need to use something with a better mic than my phone LOL
@@carlose0318 YES!! If you do, I'll bake you some cookies! :)
@@bipolarbear9952 haha okay well then stay tuned 😉
Love it 😻👌
Really excited to see the full cover 😊
Thanks! I wasn’t originally planning on one but now I really want to
Good stuff.
I started to accept my "gayness" at 38
Very beautiful
Very well done 👍
C'est la seule chanson que j'ai appris en cours d'anglais il y a "quelques" années....Ma prof était fan du groupe EAGLES.....
Un petit bonjour de France,plus précisément de la côte d'azur......J'ai bien aimé cet instant musical....
I just could not hear this guy talking.
Nice 👍
Great to see you back again with those magic fingers.
Beautiful talented pup any bro would be very lucky to have.
Very nice 👍
Umm... I totally just clicked for the guitar playing only 👀. Seriously though, great playing as usual
Fantastic rendition Thankyou .what chords are you playing in Joey please
Look up “Nick drake tabs Chris Healy” and you’ll find the correct tabs for pretty much every ND song including Joey. Enjoy!
@@carlose0318 Thankyou
Nice 👍
Thanks for sharing, that was a very beautiful improvisation 😊
The thing I find missing is your gay experiences hopefully you've had some great ones. I feel like you were paying the price without getting enough of the reward.
Haha that has certainly changed. This was a long time ago :)
@@carlose0318 Glad to hear it handsome!
You were very sweet and naive it seems. You are lucky that you weren't taken advantage sexually of (hopefully).
Nice! You're talented. Keep sharing that gift