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Maybe i start speaking up 🎉

this is my life now, I cannot accept it.

See you soon brother I’m also tired of this 😢 this whole 32 years has sucked I’ve never enjoyed it maybe some good times but I mean 2% happiness out of 32 years is should have never threw that g(~)n in the water should have just stood in that bridge backwards and did it I was gonna do some crazy things and do it but I decided I wouldn’t take a life then my own maybe they want to be in hell but I don’t and I regret it wonder if I can find it with a magnet I’m so tired getting increasingly close to just walking into traffic REST EASY This shit sucks

very wise young man may he live in peace now

he is no longer suffering he is living in eternal bliss we are all one God bless this soul love to all

Goodbye cruel world. I'm leaving you today. Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye. Goodbye all you people. There's nothing you can say to make me change my mind. Goodbye.

And now you are free. Thank God almighty, you are free.

Yellow

Yoyr skin is yellow

Your sister has your soul. 🤍🩵

And as a baby

Did my sister .. touch you?

This is human being.

Confidence is not a feeling x your friends are happy while you’re just trying to be confident x Those bastards.

Those Bastards.

Make new memories memories. Okay?? 🌷✨🧚

Those “friends” leave them be. And your sister. another bastard.

what bastards.

your friends were saving their emotions for someone else. 🧚

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How exactly did he die? I thought I heard that somebody sent him "downers" to overdose on.

Me too

These videos are the only comfort I have these days

Good on Adam for going to the gym still. I can’t even do that

I can absolutely understand why he took his life , people haven't a goddamn clue how chronic pain stamps on you're joy and ambition.

nos veremos pronto capo

Bro is literally me wth

damn we have these final monologues of him right here on youtube before his death and its buried and unknown, so sad

im so sorry it ended this way. i wish your life couldve been better. you seemed like such a strong man.

You got done so bad. I really hope you found your peace, brother.

We are owed this

You remind me of the ending of the movie of beauty and the beast where the beast turns into a handsome young man. And on the same note our health care industry is a tragedy because they only cater to people that physically look sick or are ugly. I know this is going to sound really awful but because you are a handsome young man in this world people will not believe you. People in this world equate ugly to being in pain. And because you are not you will never receive the proper treatment. I know that that's sounds horrible but I've been on this Earth for 20 something years and doctors have never helped me regarding any of my mental stuff because they take one look at me and they think I have a wonderful life based upon beauty and looks when in reality those things will fade away and become ashes and dust in the end. I even live in a building for people that are disabled mentally or physically and the people treat me like I am some sort of person or celebrity to be put on a pedestal watching my every move based upon my looks. I find it to be absolutely disgusting. They are never concerned with how I feel or how I'm doing they only want to watch me fail or fall.they want to see me in pain because it makes them feel better about their miserable lives. Cause if you are beautiful you don't need any help in this world right? Doctor's friends family they will all abandon you because they think that you're doing better than them based upon something that you have absolutely no control over. Beauty is the loneliest thing in the entirety of an existence to be considered societally beautiful is death while living. " A lovely corpse an ideal of human perfection." Yet these same people will never see the pain on the inside the loneliness, the sadness, the depths of depression that reach all the way down to hell itself.. And I promise you the only way out in this world is Jesus. Everything else sucks here.

Helplines in my experience are also a joke....The "Sararitans"and other such are a complete joke!! It's eather people who want to put on their CV they were a "volunteer". Or Catholic religious nuts who are ticking off their "I've done my Holier than thou check-box!!"

The biggest irony 9 discovered in my 27 years of living as an introvert and a loner, is that my fellow brethren who avoid people are the nicest, kindest and most humane people i met, while the extroverts and party animals who love to be surrounded with other people are the meanest, unkind and most inhumane people i met who are superficial and love to boast their superiority to people even to their brethren, A great paradox indeed, I love being alone, i love being an independent thinker, doing my own thing, working out at home or at the park, going hiking and trekking alone, playing my bass guitar alone, writing my journal and a book i started, going to work doing my job and go home no drama, spending time with my parents and wife, it's addictive being alone, i used to be afraid of it, but i feel very good now, i avoid people as much as possible, and it makes me feel happy because i do ehat i want, when i want and go where i want to go. My wife and parents understand that this is me, and they don't get the wrong idea when i go out by myself or wanna spend alone in my home office either playing bass, writing my journal or books, or working out in my makeshift gym home, my friends, my 2 best friends are a bit offended since they are extroverts and party animals, but the sad part? I don't care. Don't worry my brethrens l, you are not alone, we are together in this, connected, just look at the night sky, and you will realise, that we are connected, God bless you all.✝️☦👑

I did a paper on you in high school in 2017. I still think about you! Rest in peace.

What was his problem and illness now???? So much blabla and he said nothing at all. Ok, you are in pain but WHY?

depersonalization is crazy, had it for 10 minutes it was crazy, like living in am ovie

i’m so sorry❤

For people in the comments, Dr. Sarno’s book and the TMS wiki forum have helped many people

Rest in peace man 🫤

People are absolutely obnoxious when someone tries to suggest that there is no cure for a condition. They will just say "hit the gym, do the work, have you tried sunlight" I have had mild issues since grade school..... and my situation is almost nothing compared to the level of what this guy describes. I cant even imagine the BS he went through.

Rest in Peace pal.x

💔🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

I wonder if this guy was ever evaluated for mast cell activation

Medical science is nowhere near as advanced as we like to think. Chronic pain is very poorly understood and there are very few good treatments. Most people don’t get much relief. It’s hell on earth.

Last lines are chilling

Did he ever say what the pain is or is it just his way of describing his neurosis

This is the most rational video ive seen. RIP you earmed it.

Hope youre doing well adam if youre looking down on us from heaven

Unfortunately I am in Australia where we cannot get MAID. Excruciating pain and no end. RIP Adam you were the man.