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Welcome to my mom’s closet!!😂

i’ve been binging all your vids and i just want to say you’re really helping me get through it all rn. pls make these eps longer so i can put off booking another therapy appointment this month <3

Congratulations on your new job and 23 days 🩷🩷🩷

guilt and shame derive from submitting to another's theocracy and elevating them into higher status than self, usually as a pretentious social scheme to extract validation, when you're actually putting eggs into a misery [loves company] basket and glorifying how it attracts attention in the form of sympathy. the real reality is you owe no one anything, and no one owes you, and any deviation from this is delusional entitlement complexing. a person experiencing guilt/ shame is believing the lie that someone else is entitled, and that they need to start building a delusional purity culture where their grandeur nets them attention. the folly of this is that when you do this you are subduing your own self and giving way to chaos when you had no reason to.

Lol this is so relatable I had pretty much the same feelings!! Except I did grow to like Vihn as a friend (mainly because I liked Max’s banter with him I thought she could dish it out really well lol). I’m so glad you compared the ending to Marvel lmao that was my first thought when they did a POST CREDIT SCENE i was like….who do we think we are Deck Nine? Soooooo corny and I know they’re going to make more of this story and unfortunately I will play anyway to see how it shakes out but….yeah this game was majorly disappointing!!! Can’t deny that it looked beautiful though

GIIIIRL, I HAVE SAME VIBES ABT THIS CHAPTER, ALSO GIVE U A MAGIC POWEEERS TO GOT A LIDERSHIP ON JOB U APPLIED ON

I love you & you are going to get through this & be able to become the very best version of Kai!!! (And the past version of you was already pretty phenomenal!!!) YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! 💪

Just stumbled onto this video in my recommended. Love the concept of this channel, journaling was something I did when I was in my early 20s and a video journal adds an extra element to it. Yearly reflections are such a good idea, not just to see how much you've grown in the passing year but to also compare with the past and see how goals and attitudes change over time. The Billie Eilish videos with the yearly roundup is a great example. Looking forward to seeing more stuff in 2025!

Wishing you well. You have a contagious smile.

YAY NEW POD

Love your podcast girl, appreciate you sharing this thoughts, I have also felt like I’m nobody’s choice (but my moms) so thank you for sharing brain dump diva 💜

commenting for the algorithm bc this was really enjoyable (and relatable as other commenters wrote)

u so relatable, also..do u know MISS LUXURY? yr face is really similar to her

I’m glad I found your channel. Your real personality is refreshing and I relate to you a lot with the self esteem issues. I’m a few years older than you but still struggle with these issues. I’ve been wanting to upload videos too but have been putting it off. Good for you. Keep on keeping on.

Girlie , I Relate So Muchhhh. Ps love Your Hairrrr.

Hello Kai, As a transgender person, I wanted to share with you my struggle. I learned a lot from your perspective on life in this video. It seems somewhere along the way, you were delivered the message that you aren't good enough. That you don't deserve to eat. I am twenty seven years old and each day I wonder if I'll join the twenty seven club. If you didn't know, that's the coloquial club where 'good people' die young, typically by suicide. I've found myself admittedly thinking about ending my life well before this age. From the start, I understood the world was unsafe and at any moment, I could die. I've sat on self reflection and spent a lot of time to arrive at the conclusion that this was because of the nuke. Why? Every day I wake up wondering if I'm worth it to live. I never noticed I was asking that question, or repressing it, until I was medicated with depression and ADHD first. I reached out to the medical system with trust it would give me consent about treating my mental illness along the way, and they did. I eventually discovered I am depressed, anxious, and disassociated with life. My medication brought me up from "I don't want to die every day" to "I think I can do this tomorrow" to "I know who I am now". I believe in empirical data, science, and fact. I've learned the best way to answer thoughts of yourself is to ask questions. I began to ask myself, why did I think I wasn't worth living for? Well, it starts with being able to worry about a job. I became so distracted spending time at work that I didn't realize I can't pay the bills, no matter how much I work. Then, as a male, I arrived at the conclusion that my work was ultimately meaningless. I began to fall into the trap of male anxiety and 'how can I fulfill my purpose in life?'. I came to the conclusion that I always wanted to refuse the expectations society had for me, as a man. It wasn't right that I was told not to be sensitive, that I was incorrigible, it wasn't right for me to walk around ignoring my emotions and suppressing my body. I was raised believing in God, that the Church would tell me my existence is wrong. What message do I, as a young person, receive if I am truly transgender? If it's difficult for me to find a job, if it's difficult for me to find community, what message am I being told? What am I told when I'm not allowed to eat? Ultimately, I felt like society was telling me I was not allowed to live. So I asked, why was I not allowed to live? I looked at the world around me. Why is my existence wrong? Because people expect otherwise? I recall a point in time where gay rights became human rights in America. Why is it even on the table to remove human rights? Why does someone not deserve a job, not deserve food, not deserve to eat? Because we have decided to accept a system where we believe a dollar or two in raised wages will make it so people like me cannot eat. When I go to the store I now wonder how many people cannot eat? I see so many people stealing. I also see so many employees not caring. Why would the employees not care enough? Because they don't even get paid to eat. It's truly a walk in and steal it society - there are no consequences unless you are different, and we have made that very clear. So as a young individual, part of the new generation, I feel the message delivered to me is clear - kill yourself. You don't deserve to eat. It's easier to take the food from you while you are distracted about whether or not AI is coming for your rights. Meanwhile, the right to use a bathroom has been put behind a paywall, the right to drink water now costs money at any restaurant, and the truth is you can go steal from walmart right now - the whole store and nobody will stop you. Somewhere along the way, the dollar lost its meaning. What does the dollar mean? To you? To me? What does the choice of excess wealth of the people truly represent? I believe you know wealth is a measurable fact of freedom of speech. Truly, our wages mean we have lost the access to food. And we are okay with that. Someone told us we do not deserve to live, and we said that was okay. I wish I could tell you who to blame. But then I notice the recent events. Zelenskiy, Ukraine, sent a missile at Putin's nuclear bunker. So I asked a really important question. Why does Putin have a nuclear bunker? Why does Trump have a nuclear bunker? Are they planning for the end of the world, or the beginning of a new one? Are they seeking safety in shelter and planning to use the bomb? The question poses an uncomfortable threat that's fast pacing soon. The people will be gone entirely by the choice of kings. This has escalated beyond the cold war, as even the cold war never had American arms land inside Russia. But why would America even feel the need to hurt someone's nuclear bunker? We should question the obvious. Why is it acceptable for a world government to decide who gets to live when the nukes fall? I ask myself, and notice even more recent events. Or headlines. I understand now that the English word is a tool used to evoke emotion. I see Zelenskiy being praised for saying Trump being elected will "end the war". And they are using doublespeak, also known as devaluing the meaning of words, to convince the world Zelenskiy believes Trump will save the day. How does Trump removing aid possibly mean the war will end? How can media coverage portray this in any positive light? Then I realized the true reasoning. Trump has planned for the end of the world. He has a nuclear bunker. He will be safe. Zelenskiy isn't coming here for help anymore, he's asking Europe. Zelenskiy believes Trump will end the world by being elected. He has seen the war first hand and attended those very same frontlines. Why did he choose these words instead of saying the obvious answer? Zelenskiy is confident now that the world is ending. He has avoided this entire time to use any Russian lying tactics. Now he feels forced to comfort anyone that the war will end. He just doesn't seem to answer how. I'd like to think the world won't end. Then I remind myself, again, this is beyond the cold war. How many countries are involved in Ukraine now? North Korea, the hermit nation, has perched its own head to participate. How many more hermit nations need to participate before we start calling it World War 3? Why can we not use that term now? We are in it presently. We are at the threat of kings deciding the fate of many and it began with saying, "You don't deserve to eat, I do." and it will end with saying "You don't deserve to see the new nuclear world. I do." Thank you for reading my suffering and my story. I know with confidence now what my place in the world is. It is to do my part in conveying human emotion before it is wiped off the earth. Now ask yourself, if I was a bot, or a state actor, why would I be so interested in saving YOUR life? I'm a person. Just like you. Do you see the same need to be urgent? Why do we have nuclear bunkers? Who deserves to live? You, and everyone else in America, deserves to eat. Be loud. Every day. Don't stop going outside. You deserve love.

If I say dude one more time, HOLY SHIT I’m so sorry

I hope this goes viral

a while is awesome