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TheAugustineMachine
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Добавлен 8 авг 2006
Quinquagenarian, documenting my transition.
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#94 - Lucky Seven - 12.09.23
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Seven years and petite soapbox reflection on HRT
#93 - 12.09.22 - still here
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This time: 6 years on T, Tweenis, time, time, time. And a special guest at the end... www.etsy.com/shop/TheAugustineMachine theaugustinemachine
#92 - 06.02.22 - fivepointfive
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This time: 5.5 years on T; all the changes keep on keepin’ on; bedhead.
#90 - 02.02.21 - The Unbearable Lightness of He-ing
Просмотров 4433 года назад
This week: four years, two months. Where I'm at.
#89 - 7.25.20 - 'fusion
Просмотров 6724 года назад
This week/month/year: 3.5 years on T, the myth of confusion, blow blow blow.
#87 - 11.26.19 - not the same old me
Просмотров 2714 года назад
This time: unfamiliar self; the vortex of misgeneredness.
#86 - 09.06.19 - I am, I said/33 months on T
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This week: 33 months on T, smile, operation flip-phone update, thank you.
#85 - 08.21.19 - integration
Просмотров 3355 лет назад
This week: leprechaun, or lumberjack? My Etsy shop: www.etsy.com/shop/StineHansenCreative
#84 - 07.16.19 - You Are Here
Просмотров 2565 лет назад
This week: I'm back, the meaning of bruh, low-tech wonder. My hat: www.etsy.com/listing/696422496/cap-regenerate?ref=shop_home_active_1
#83 - 05.07.19 - Two years, 5 months on T -- (Narrative) Revision
Просмотров 8835 лет назад
This week: 29 months on T; was I born in the wrong body? Chester is rocking out to Mrs. Smith: www.worldofsmith.com/ ruclips.net/channel/UC5xJt7MdN0osQAtCXPi7lzw smithcatmrs EVOLUTION'S RAINBOW: www.ucpress.edu/book/9780520280458/evolutions-rainbow
#82 - 04.16.19 - enough is as good as a feast
Просмотров 3535 лет назад
This week: back from Utah; bathroom tale, baby junk pride parade. My Etsy Shop: www.etsy.com/shop/StineHansenCreative
#81 - 03.28.19 - Lessons Learned
Просмотров 3215 лет назад
This week: I'm back, and I have a bathroom story...
#73 - 09.06.18 - 21 months Au Jus - Just Do It
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#73 - 09.06.18 - 21 months Au Jus - Just Do It
#72 - 08.29.18 - Farewell, Summer of Fluff
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#72 - 08.29.18 - Farewell, Summer of Fluff
#69 - 08.07.18 - Breaking up the Bed Fellows
Просмотров 2436 лет назад
#69 - 08.07.18 - Breaking up the Bed Fellows
#68 - 07.31.18 - shirtless near Seattle || T+20
Просмотров 2586 лет назад
#68 - 07.31.18 - shirtless near Seattle || T 20
#67 - 07.16.18 - what worked then works now.
Просмотров 1516 лет назад
#67 - 07.16.18 - what worked then works now.
I really appreciated your reflection on being the imperfect "me." I seldom worried about perfection when presenting as a woman. Now I want to remember just to enjoy and celebrate my body as it is and is becoming
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Hi, thank you for this video! I started testosterone almost 3 months ago, 4 months before my 40th birthday. And yes, it is very hard!! But it’s a wonderful journey too; and I’m so grateful for this!
@@nickjones8596 thank you, and congratulations!
Were all in this together
Thank for the video I feel u may be slipping away from us we are here for ya buddy
Thanks for making these videos! I'm 56 and just starting the journey so it's really inspiring to see videos from postmenopausal people over time to see how the changes have effected no -estrogen dominant bodies. obvious fears for me are the risks of hair loss and increased cardiovascular events due to my current weight and labs, but from the older trans men I've heard from, that doesn't seem to be a problem. Thank you for sharing your journey. I'm glad it's worked out for you!!
My pleasure. Thanks for watching, and best wishes on your journey!
Transman not CIS. And proud of it always because it’s our true identity. Just an other one. Cis people have to accept it and learn. We don’t have to be their teacher. Sending strenght to USA transmen.
Thanks Didac. I am so happy to have you as my brother! xx
Gluten free pizza? I’m in! It’s funny, before seeming this video I had just seen the one on your 8 month mark for T, and you mentioned some similar stuff related to body image and expectations. It makes perfect sense, specially when you start your trans journey later in life (I’m 43 at 7 months on T). Thank you so much for all you have shared with us so far!
I always love hearing your thoughts man. You are so right on with the 50 yrs living as our former selves. It's in our fiber at this point. I envy bros like you that can find peace about body parts as it were. I feel loads better now that I have had phalloplasty. This is what I want people to understand. Trans is not cookie cutter. You are a beautiful man! Kudos on the internal work dude!!
Thanks bud!
Long time no see! Glad to see you on here! And as someone who turns 60 next month, I’m not going to deny that much of my history either. I don’t want to be seen as a cis man, I’m trans.
Thanks! So good to “see” you here.
Nice to see your face, pal! Keep on keepin’ on. Been riding your bicycle still?
Good to see your post and you are keeping it real! Love your creative endeavors (and buying some ❤) -Sam
Thanks so much!
Why have u stopped making videos I'm 55 and just starting out I need u buddy
It's on the to-do list. Seriously, like, this week or next. This far in, the details are subtle and even more internal, and getting that across is a particular challenge. :) thanks!
Keep looking nothing new I guess I'm gonna be an old guy taking over guess u got ur reasons and I respect that
Melissa Ethridge
OMG I totally feel the same I guess because we are older and found our partners for life I'm fine with my v I'll b 55 next month good luck with things
Hats off....better late than never
Hey man - I followed you and your videos years ago when you were early in your transition, and I in mine. You were one of the people who anchored me in my journey, even though I never spoke to you, just watched all your videos lol It’s hard to believe so much time has passed and I find myself in a place I never thought I’d be, but here I am. And here you are! I was just thinking of you tonight and am glad to have found you’re still here. It’s crazy, but you made such an impact on my life - I’m forever grateful to you for sharing your journey. Thanks man, and hope all is well with you. 💜
Happy 7th! Always good to hear from you.
So good to see, hear, that being 50 doesn’t stop us from becoming. I’m 49 and am just starting to watch a lot of RUclips videos! Just bought my first binder. The rest is trying to deal with the ultimate fear of taking the next step!! Thank you for sharing ur steps!
Thank you. One little bit at a time. When I was the most scared about the process, I simply assured myself that if it wasn't working for me, I could stop at any time. As I came more and more into myself, the fears faded. We all have our answers within, it's just a case of finding the space (and courage) to listen, and to follow our long-lost instincts. :)
wow cool!
Hi Stine. Always a pleasure listening you. For me on 11th it will also be 7 years. Years are flying and I feel so confortable that I hardly don’t remember how it was to be on the other side!!
Yessss :)
So good to see you brutha!! I hit 7 in Feb. I just hit 7 on my top surgery.. I love that your dysphoria is such that no more surgery is required to help you feel whole. Gosh. I wish I was so lucky. Hahaha I think we are fortunate, beyond fortunate, to live in the PNW where we do have rights and protections. Kudos to your employer! Mine is the same way and I absolutely love it. Working for the State of Oregon has been liberating. As has living here.
Thanks M!
Believe it or not, I was just thinking about your channel the other day, Stine! I remember seeing your first couple videos drop all those years ago. So glad to see you doing well. I appreciate your openness and sharing your experience with us. I'm coming up on 5 years on T myself. Happy solstice!
Thanks so much, and congrats on 5 years!
Happy 7th birthday Stine! I just celebrated my 5th. Your videos really helped me in the beginning as I am an older guy too. Thank you for your openeness! I have one question which is a bit delicate so please feel free to not answer it: Does your sexuality changed over the years? I mean to who you feel attracted, which kind of sex you desire. I'm asking because I'm still figuring it out and sometimes its confusing. Greetings from germany and all the best for you!
Confusing indeed! I am in a long-term (24 years) relationship, and I am not out dating, but I am very aware that my interests and experience of sexuality has shifted considerably, and for the entirely of my transition. It has broadened, and now I feel like labels are just limitations, so I don't even bother to give it a name anymore. At first I kind of judged myself for urges and interests, and now I just let it all be there. Best wishes!
@@TheAugustineMachine Thank you for your answer! Good point not to judge yourself or put labels on. And congrats to your long-term relationship, thats really beautiful.
I'm so glad I was able to find your videos again!!! I will definitely find you on Instagram. Would love to get your thoughts on a few things.
Right on. I'll look for you there.
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You are brave one. It is great
Swarg please my channel #themumasvlog
Amazing videos Thank You so much. I am 47 and glad to know I have some time til I can get things figured out.
Thank you for watching, and yes... lots of time.
It's so cool to me, just told Earl this on his video, how I am right behind you two in age and journey! I hit 6 yrs on 2.24.23. I also agree so much change! In you, in myself, people's perception. It's quite affirming to see the reflection evolve before us. I am such a proud owner of Tweenis. I agree with Stone in that it has important place for history! You should be proud! Happy to be on your journey with you, you wise and articulate man. 😘
THANKS mah friend!
DAMN SON! Look at YOU! Time flies. Indeed. LOVE this video. Still changing. For sure. gearing up to do my 7 year video and thinking about all the things. chchchanges. I have a similar relationship to my facial beard. missing in spots but it still keeps happening. Add that link to your Etsy shop for the Tweenis comic. You should be proud of it. It's great, important and has a place in our history. Like Tweenis, it is tiny and mighty and deserves it's place. You are a wise man and knows how to describe something so nuanced. Proud of you, young man
Oh and maybe add your socials!
Thanks, Earl!
Wonderful to hear from you Stien! Missed these videos! Glad you posted this, your thoughts on transition are very intresting!
Thank you!
This is such a beautiful video about "process." Thanks for posting it.
Thank you.
I deeply appreciate your insights. And I'd love to chat with you over coffee. It's been almost 6 months for me. I'm feeling more me than ever. Thank you for being part of my journey even though you didn't know it.
Thank you. I'm so glad we can connect, and congratulations on 6 months.
What dosage of injectable T did you start with?
I started at .5 cc (generic testosterone enanthate 200mg/ml) once weekly, IM. Over the course of about 6 months I decreased that down to about .20--.25cc ( my levels got too high at that starting dose).
@@TheAugustineMachine Awesome, thanks for replying. Have you ever had high hematocrit? I do at 48.7% and I don't know if I can start T.
@@HeyJoeHaze I've never had an issue -- I k now some guys who donate blood regularly to manage issues. I'm also aware that there are supposed to be some dietary interventions to lower hematocrit... best wishes.
Thanks for posting. It’s always good to hear what you have to offer the community of us who’ve transitioned later. Good to see you in the midst of the world today.
thank you!
Hi. Yes a lot still change even after 5 years. Keep on going to hair dresser you look fantástico.
This is Mark. My channel was removed by the powers that be. It's always so good to see you. You always give wisdom filled nuggets. Go ahead on my brotha!
thanks, buddy!
PIGGY BANKS!!!!! wha??!!
Stine! Happy to see you, Loved this video. As you were talking I was thinking we can have a conversation. I'm going to make a video in response to yours.Your video was super relatable and wonderful to hear another more mature trans man talk about their understanding and experience. You have clearly done a lot of work and that's so beneficial to share with others. Like me. <3
I’d love to virtual dialog… 🧠
Very wise stuff - for trans people and for everybody else! Thank you!
thank you
Hey Stine! Always so good to see and hear from you. Just another trans guy - 56 and 4 years on T and living in Africa. I really have appreciated your head start and narration of you "taking off and flying your plane" through this process. Im not sure we ever land per se, touch down yes. Touchdown moments, experiences, epiphanies, traumas, losses snd and And then the gratitude. And the super powers. Acknowledging and playing wth them. Feeling my way around it all. Celebration and apprehension about the neurological remodeling and chemical changes I have no control over. I'm sorry you've had such a brutal last few years. Have you heard from Earl? How is he? Taje care and stay well
Thanks so much, and well said. There’s such complexity to this experience, and age both amplifies and assuages all of it. Best wishes.
I’m so glad I found these videos. I’m just staring T at 54 and was looking for content from a peer. I appreciate your insight, candor and humor so much. I hope that your leave was everything you needed it to be and that you are well. I hope you share more when you feel like it. I’m slowly moving through your past videos. Enjoying them tremendously. You feel like an old fried.
Thank you so much, and best wishes for your journey.
Beautiful. Thank you.
U Look Amazing Bro!!!
Thank you!
Hey, Stine! Great to see you again. Great insights and message. Hugs to you!
Thanks so much, Deborah. May 2022 be...different!
Congrats on 5 years. I’ve been watching your videos since the beginning of your transition. I started T about 2 months before you did. Always love your videos. You look great.
Thanks so much. Gonna check out your channel!
Hola Stine. Nice thoughts again. I feel it’s difficult “to hide” in a sense our past life because of what it may suppose. I mean what can be people reactions. As I listen to you (and others too) I realise how lucky I am to live where I live because I feel mainly quite safe. Should I make a video for my also 5th year? Enjoy your vacacions.
Thanks, Didac. I always love your updates. :)
Hey bud! Happy 5 years on T. You look great and I’m happy to watch this update video from you. My 5 years was last month….and I never made a video. Oh well. Your video made me reflect and I appreciate you. Enjoy your time off work!
Thanks, Kam. It's been a long (yet not?) road together! And congrats on 5!
Happy Birthday!! 5 years. WOW. SO great to see you. You look super handsome. Glad you're taking leave. You deserve it. Hard core. I sure relate to this video. Coming up on 6 years and been working on these things and experienced the pause. You really have experienced trauma in the workplace. Please take good care of yourself, buddy. Sure have missed these videos. Thinking about making one for the 6 year anniversary coming up.
Thanks, Earl. I was thinking about your 6! Always great to see/hear you.
Hey Earl! Just seen your post. Good to hear that youre posting - you and Stine are unwitting cyber mentors of mine. You are both missed and appreciated. A vid from you would be great. Any visual. Your work, whatever.. You take care man! Be safe
@@tomtaft9861 I’ll get on that soon, brother! Thank you 💙