I guess that one should start with a why to explain what this all is about. My life has had its experiences, and not all or the most recent (5+/- years) have not been very positive spiritually. Recently I fell into deep pain where mentally I lost my grip and went places I won't go again. I discredited my ways of loving myself, all my ideas all, all 'my' ways of behaving and all my reasons to move forward. This, except for two stable pillars in my life. The aim is to be as honest & transparent as possible about what moves me, on what I spent time thinking about, and how I reflect. So that I can present myself and my growth as an example to how an 'quite' ordinary but authentic person tries to better his life. This creates accountability, which in turn present the opportunity to build.