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This is so sad. You must have loved ballet and it was turned into something horrible for you. It sounds very cruel.

I cried when you cried because I remember how the teachers used to bully me as a dance student, always telling me how big my hips were, or that my thighs looked like those of a football player. I thought I was fat and now, almost 20 years later, I see my pictures from that time, and I was totally not! By the way, you are so, so beautiful. I send my best wishes.

She looks like Indian actress kirti sanon ❤❤

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Great you are telling the truth.

You are wise to recognize how precious health is at such a young age (I’m in my 40s, so to me, you are very young - in a good way!🙂). Good health and vigor can seem like something that you will always have, and it’s easy to take for granted. I’m glad you quit ultra-competitive ballet when you did. The next chapter of your life is going to be amazing. ❤

this was phenomenal!! much like a guided meditation. thank you so much

there are certainly good things that american police do, but if you look at the number of people they kill and the inability and unwillingness of police departments to fire criminal cops, and you hear the insane stories of cop crime rings, and you learn how they are taught to always be on edge and ready to shoot, and how little training there really is required to become a police officer, and how they patrol predominantly black areas more (and then justify that by saying that there's more crime there, when of course they're gonna see more crime there when they look fot it more)..... i don't see how you don't end up disillusioned with the whole system. them having eachother's backs sadly can be a sign of a "it's us against the world" attitude, somewhat like that of a cult. cops that go against the department often find out how fickle this support really is. i would recommend the "behind the police" podcast series if you want to know more of how deep this goes

oh you worked in tallinn. i went to see a lot of ballets there while in school. when did you quit? i wonder if i ever saw you dance. im glad we both got out <3

i never got quite as far as eating less than 3 meals, but i vividly remember sitting in my room looking at clock feeling the hunger waiting for it to be the time i was allowing myself to eat dinner, since if i ate my fairly small portion right as i got home from school i might've eaten again before i went to sleep.

i also developed "larger" breasts early in ballet school. did not experience the amount of cruelty you did, but i was the only one in my class that had to wear a sports bra under my trikoo, as the leotards had no breast support. felt very out of place. did not help that i actually did not want breasts to begin with and turned out to be trans.

Хорошая форма!

Love this, thank you!

What is this?

omg so much grace! i wish i could skate like this:D very isnpiring

WOW STUNNING!! LOVE THE CHOREOGRAPHY !!!

SUCH AN INSPIRATION!!!

Can you show us a beginner version

I have no words

I'm terribly terribly sorry about your suffering and the suffering of other ballet students who developed eating disorders. But... the fact is that ballet is a grueling discipline and requires not just strength of body and mind but actual toughness. Can't escape abuse either. How do you think the legends of the ballet world survived and thrived under the Soviet Union? I myself have no illusion that I'm that tough. Not everyone is. Ballet is not for everyone -- has nothing to do with talent.

Thank you for sharing your story 💜

OMG this is the rink I skated at as a kid!!! Congrats on passing your Bronze :)

I was tried in a Russian-style school. I’m not even a professional ballet dancer now, but my years in training were still significantly impacting my current mindset. They were both the best and the worst memories of my childhood, which made it so complicated, because I couldn’t just call it “trauma” and package it away. I’m still processing it in therapy, but thank you so so much for bravely sharing your story.

Nice.

Very graceful!

👀👀👀 that arabesque in the thumbnail! ❤

Congratulations!

Can't jofftey open in Kansas city already and move Bill to us! ❤ Daniella misses your zoom classes!

I just don't see any sense or meaning in complaining about all this. Ballet is a lifetime commitment. No one forces a girl or a boy to join a ballet Academy be it Vaganova or any other. If yoy want to dance on stage in the best theatres then sacrifice a lot! Ballet is an exquisite art, not some kind of getaway resort.

You looked very confident and poised to me! Great job! I'm 39 and only at adult basic 6 LTS level, I can only hope if I ever progress to competitve skating, that I could (appear at least) as calm and graceful as you. 🤩😉

Congratulations 🤩🤩🤩✨✨✨🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🥳🥳🥳🥳⛸️

I’m way late watching but wow to just beat your fears is one accomplishment and winning a gold medal!! Woooohoooooo!!! I love following your story and lost track being busy but so proud of your bravery. Anyone would be inspired. Your ballet skills made all the skills sing and I just saw your pre-bronze today. So fun and nerve racking. I never did a freeskate. I stopped bc I severely lacked confidence and couldn’t imagine skating in front of a viewing group lol. You and all the adult skaters are brave women! You definitely have an edge on them with your skills from ballet for sure. Looking fwd to your progress!! You were hard on yourself. Be proud and keep working even now. You are very gifted and move so beautifully. The rest is you needing to learn and hone the skills of skating over time. Practice really pays off! Congratulations!

Your husband is a gem.

🎉🎉🎉🎉 wow this skate was full of confidence!! Congrats and keep up that confidence. You are truly an artist trying to show your art no matter what form. It’s inside of you and showed well here!! Go Mary go!! Gorgeous job!

Your spirals and lunges are especially great. I’m a year late seeing this but wow. The progress from when you started!!

Wow you have come so far with your skating. I remember when you spoke of why you stopped ballet and started skating. You have worked really hard to get these skills. Some of them are harder than people realize too. I did skating in my teen years and it’s hard and intense work and scary bc falls hurt! Lol it was fear of hard falls that made me stop and I had a so so coach ag the time. I did go to a summer training intensive at Bowling Green where Scott Hamilton skated but I was probably the least experienced kid there which took a toll on my self esteem bc all the other girls were more advanced and more mentally grown up where I was still very much a child mentally. So I had never done actual figures and patch skating and had to learn that from scratch and the on ice lessons were trying to promote things like toe pointing and arms being up and practicing for a split jump that I was terrified to do. Lol your jumps and transitions between elements are smooth and great. Keep working and have fun most of all!! I miss the free feeling of the cool wind of just a fast skate, the smooth turns front to back and the small jumps I did master like a half flip and bunny hop. I had some fear of landing on one foot and especially an outer edge and my fear of doing a waltz jump was just having fear of pain from a fall. I wish my mental blocks had been dealt with then. If you come across some mental blocks to your skating it’s likely ones from your history and working on that will help you work on yourself in general. I guess that’s the nature of sports but when you showed up In my feed doing a pre-bronze I was so so happy for you!! Congrats from an old lady who still remembers the feeling. ⛸️❤

Просто великолепно. Машенька, ты очаровательна.

Congratulations!

Beautiful!

I saw that you switched from jacksons to edea chorus and legacy 8 blades. Were they too high level for you when you switched? Did you have a hard time adjusting? I’m thinking about getting the same combo which my fitter suggested and financially I can afford them. I’m just worried that it will be a difficult transition or the blades are too high level. My current jacksons are too painful for my adult wide square feet

Big progress but why each step felt with no confidence.

So beautiful!!

Машенька, замечательный номер❤️. Ты большая умница👍🌷🥀🌹

You are the best!!🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤ congratulations again!🎉🎉❤❤❤

Amazing!!!🎉👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

your musicality and stage presence is incredibly beautiful, I haven´t seen that in a student in my life and haven´t seen it in many professional dancers as well. I really hope you can one day dance again and delight everyone with your movement quality

Nice flexibility on that spiral. 👍

Sadly this is also an issue in many other ballet schools and companies. I have heard similar stories from Paris Opera Ballet school and the Royal Ballet. It might be even more brutal in Russia though, with less psychological resources/sensitivity. Sad thing is that very few people naturally have the "perfect ballet physique", it just isn't attainable for most dancers without starving themselves. As much as I love ballet I would not want my child doing ballet.

I feel sorry. I graduated Vaganova 25 years ago and and never had such a problems since i was naturally thin. The ballet for asthenic people not for normal girls. It can be so traumatic then you have even 2-3 kilos adds or then you misnutrient yourself trying to be in good form. I really hope so much you feel well and healthy, your life is much more important then any art

Congratulations!!! 😊