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Hey what was your email that you wanted us to reach out to for your deleted videos again? I think another one of your videos was taken down sadly. I will reach out.

Howdy Alex ! A second look at the video prompts me to comment again and ask questions. You mentioned feeling in a pensive mood, sometimes feeling depressed and not always sure you feel the happiness you strive for. Most everyone I know experiences these feelings periodically. Not my skill level to council you on this except I can share what works for me. I try to interrupt these feelings by changing my routine : going for a walk in the park or woods ; working on something involving my hobbies ; meeting with an understanding friend. Or perhaps doing something different in your routine - such as speaking candidly on a great update video ! A side comment would be to offer great praise to the medical practitioners you have found that actually are helping ! I'm A bit disappointed that you are possibly doing your LAST video. I understand you may associate doing these videos with that chapter of your life that you want in the past. I would really want to keep a loose connection with you and what is going on with your grad work, your poetry writings, etc. By the way are any of your writings available in a published form ? Always want to complement you on your successes and offer encouragement when ever possible . I attempted to use the web address at channel heading and the reply was ' site can't be reached '. I don't know how to use ' snap chat' so guess I'm pretty much dead ended at this point. Remember to never surrender to problems - just keep making the positive choices you have been making ! Only the best to you always.....

Wow! This is so great to hear and although I don't know you in real life this makes me really happy to hear! I'm glad that life is going better for you and your story gives me hope that maybe one day I will be able to get my life back too :)

Thank you and I wish you all the best ❤️

It was very nice to hear your update. I'm sure exactly as I am, so are the other supporting followers, happy to see and hear about your progress. I wanted you to know, that you don't have to push yourself when you're not ready to share something, everybody understands how difficult it can be and if or when you do you can be absolutely confident that people who care about you will be there for you. I wanted to finish with words of happiness for your achievements in all sorts of fields, you deserve them. And, as I've only recently realized, my past, however dark and sad it might have been sometimes, it doesn't have to be a burden of something bad that's constantly imprisoning me and doesn't let me move on. What if my past is actually something good: because without it I wouldn't been a person I'm now: a person who developed a deep empathy toward and understanding of people, animals and our planet. Only through my past could I understand and know how imperative it is to care and help whenever and whomever I can and as a result I'm living a much happier and healthier life giving a slight push of positive, nurturing improvement to everything and everyone I encounter so all of us can feel as a big, warm family. Wish you all the best on your path in life, it'll definitely be a great one 😎

Hello Alex ! I almost fell out of my chair this evening when I spotted your video ! Thank you so ooo much for sharing some of your many successes over these past few years and coming back to update your net followers who really care about you. I started watching your story only a few months back and had a terrible time figuring out that it was not current but past tense. You tried, with a reply to a comment I made, to explain but I still was unable to get the time line correct. I am just so excited that your story of problems, sadness and despair, did in fact, not end on that note ! Your successful completion of college, your decision to work towards your masters, the awards you have received in your field of interest - even with the help of others - you know how to chart your future path and are willing to WORK to achieve your goals. Congratulations on finding a possible partner for life. My wish is that this person will be worthy of your love and aware of the treasure he has discovered. Your appearance, by the way, is absolutely great ! I may have suggested this to you before - if so please forgive me for repeating myself. Check out, when you have time, Rudyard Kipling's poem " IF ". This comment is already to long - Again thank you for your update !!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the update. 💙

thank you for being honest and realistic about your experiences so many of these videos follow the same old story almost feels rehearsed it's so corny this feels more real i had a traumatic childhood too it's definitely a factor in developing my ED i'm glad you're doing better

Thank you for your sharing. Hope, you're doing well and, if you're planning, we'd be happy to know your updates. You deserve to be happy, with you all the best.

Hello again, Alex, You seem to have disconnected from the net for some time now. I certainly hope all is going reasonably well in all aspects of your life at present. As I said before, your opening up concerning the difficulties you have been through, have been most helpful to me in resolving some issues I kept since my early days - and may have helped a number of others as well. If ' things ' have slipped a bit - no shame or despair are at all reasonably felt. Keep positive and all those you have helped will surely be " pulling " for you ! Best to you always !!!

Good morning Alex ! Enjoyed your thoughts and insights from this video. Is this video from several years back or actually a more recent one ? If not recent, would you consider doing a " present day " one with a discussion of your successes, items you may be still working on and perhaps a bit about future goals and life in general ? Your bravery in presenting these most private excerpts from your life so far, are to be commended - and certainly appreciated ! Thank you....

Hi Alex ! First a comment on a previous video. I was so disappointed the I.O.P. approach did not seem to work out and I do understand why you disconnected from it. The plan probably DID have value however, but did not seem to be applied appropriately, at least in your view. Physicians with great credentials sometimes fail to apply their skills with a tender, understanding manner, so as to keep their client feeling comfortable with their approach and pleased with developing Dr./patient bond. Your most recent video really has me stressed and concerned for you. I do hope you can connect with physicians who will be willing to go the " extra mile " to work with you. Please, please give the outside help approach another chance Would you consider giving your video followers' comments a short reply ? We (I) care very much about helping you in any way possible and want to reach out to you in a positive manner. Would be so much easier if you would let us in on your specific thoughts on the comments. Please keep pushing negative thoughts out of your mind and, instead work on the good ones : pursuit of your faith ; developing new friends ; mentoring someone in a subject you have knowledge of ; taking a walk in the woods ; participating in a musical group of some kind. Also, understand on your lonely or sad feeling days, you have a bunch of friends pulling for you and wishing you only the best. B

I’m proud of you! One gripe:: Love, PLEASE KEEP YOUR VOLUME UP ! I can’t make out a good portion of your words, particularly the end of sentences your volume drops and it’s very hard to hear even with headphones at full volume. Wishing you all the best xx

Hello super person ! So you have a trip to look forward to ! Great ! It most always is exciting to travel and to be going to see someone who is special to you is the " cats meow " ! The only "downer" here is that your boy friend does not live closer to you . Friendship, closeness and comfort - when you are lonely or just a bit. Off kilter, can work magic when you need a !it up ! I believe you said that you and he were going to talk thru some issues ? I've got my fingers crossed for a good outcome ! Sure he knows he has a treasure in AA ! The Congruence between your medical dilemma and your Faith , as I see it, is that both require active (daily) effort on your part to push one situation out of your life and bringing the other closer in. Again you are so on the right path ! Keep up the good work ! Certainly agree with you on you comment - a pill for every problem . However, I do hope you are reducing your medication in your Doctor's prescribed manner. That is an interesting observation - you are an average of your five closest friends. You see that the take-a-way from this is we all need to develope a close circle of more and better friends to call on when need be. Another subject. I was thinking a " good self worth developer" might be to mentor say an elementary school age person who is having reading problems. A school or local library might advise you considering this. You mentioned you liked video games. Being a " grandfather age person" I did not grow up with that being available. I don't really have good vibes about them either ! But then again, what do I know about VG's ? Not enough to even comment ! I am looking forward to anything you wish to vlog about ! PS if this comment section should be only one or two lines, please tell me and I will stop the letter writing !

Hello Alex, You most likely are familiar with Rudyard Kipling's poem " IF ". If not perhaps you will have time to luck it up. You may find it has value and is an aid in positive personality development. Wishing you the best possible New Year !

Hi Alex ! So glad you came back to us ! Wasn't sure that was your plan. Great distinction between " eating disorder recovery" and your much better description of " positive personality development " ! Your right - who would rather go back to where they were before, than to move forward to a better place ? Please enjoy the thought that you are also teaching your VLOG followers, the importance of the need to work on our own personality improvement ! Many folks, in their lifetime, search for some solid rock - something unchanging upon which to anchor. Not all find it. I am still searching. If the Buddhist faith is that anchor place for you - well I don't think you could have made a better choice ! Please include in your positive personality quest: worthwhile and praise worthy accomplishments, good friends, and the best experiences you can navigate into ! About ' rambling videos '. What is wrong with them ? Your video presentation shows you are speaking from your heart. Difficult to improve on that . A little bit about me. This is Bob (Robert) from the state of Tennessee. I am a little older than you (ha, ha). Will be 80 in January . Also grew up in a dysfunctional family - with Alcohol being the problem. To use word, there is still some small residue in my life but it is past history and easily pushed aside. As you already know it is not what is in the past that is most important. But rather what you accomplish with your future. And you are so on the right path ! Your wisdom is amazing ! And I know you can and WILL keep striving !

Alex, this is your most insightful and helpful upload. Your thoughtful reflections here are something I want to write down and return to as I develop, which is a big upgrade from your others, which (while well-spoken and intelligent) were watched with a sense of familiar toxicity, seeking trigger-fuel. Keep up the good work, and please keep offering up your thoughts and discoveries which motivate and keep you going.

Hi babe, can you talk a lil louder? It’s very hard to pickup your voice with this cam! Even with my headphones in… trying to keep up with you, wishing you the best best - xx

You seem like such a great person..I am so sorry you are involved in such a struggle to resolve this battle. I am pulling for you ! Have you mentioned your age ?

Great video. Glad to know you're doing better. I found your channel maybe two years ago from the video of you in the hospital, because I was deep into searching for other males who had eating disorders. I'd say it helped me at the time, being confronted with what could happen to me. I never subscribed because it didn't seem like there'd ever be more, but I'm still searching for videos like these and just caught one of your reuploads, which brought me back. I've been attempting anorexia recovery on-and-off. I don't think I'll ever not want to be skinnier, but at least I'm at a safe weight.

💙💙💙how brave of you to share your experience - lots of love.

Alex, could you let us know how you're doing, and progressing in your recovery and life?

You are amazing Alex, I just wish there were more videos

This channel is amazing and I really wish there were more videos

alex you are amazing i wish there were more videos

We don’t ser you more in youtube... Are you ok? Do yoy exist? 😢😔

Omg honey, when this video was uploaded I was beginig with the anorexia, I wish you the better ❤️🥺 How old were you in this video? I developed anorexia at 12, I know, very young...

Awwww feel better please eat

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stay strong Alex!! 👍💓

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Alex I'm so glad you're feeling better and you've found support via professional help, progress is being made!! So happy to see your channel is active again, I hope it benefits you in the way you deserve it to :)

Love you, Alex.