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Since I was 5 I lost my dad I felt horrible he killed himself and I can’t help but blame myself for it.. I don’t know why I just do I blame myself for not being there to stop him… I cry thinking about it!… my best friend Alison helps me with everything.. I trust her to talk to and she gets how I feel .. I’ve lost all my friends.. I think Audrey blocked me.. I can’t even talk to Laquinton without getting in a fight with him Braxton got a girlfriend when I liked him (today October 16Th Wednesday 2024 I do not anymore) I don’t talk to Kody that much I barley talk to Brook (my online friend) I don’t talk to Emma porter much because we aren’t that good of friends but I still think of her as one Elena never answered my texts case ignores me.. me and Sophia don’t talk.. me and Leah have gotten in multiple arguments but we don’t talk much either.. all I literally have is Alison!.. One family member might die im in the car holding back my tears I am writing this on Wednesday October 16th 2024… he is in the hospital and me and my mom are rushing there it’s so bad my nana told us we should come… we like a couple hours away 2 hours and like 30 minutes… I LOVE my pawpaw!! I can’t lose him… When I first started cutting myself… I was 10 I was getting made fun of for having a dead dad and stuff people saying he’s going to hell for killing himself too.. CJ said I had a messed up family too… all the bullying started when I was in 4th grade and cutting myself began in 4th grade and I’d still going on today with cutting myself but in secret.. mostly with the sharp part of pencils or scissors it used to be a knife in 4th grade when I was ten though… My parents can be mean… Yeah they may seem all cheerful but if I got bad grades my mom would yell at me until I cry and make me go In my room so yeah.. my step dad could accidentally hurt me and when I tell him he did he one time just told me to cry about it.. Things I wanna say This world is so fucked up dude I wish there was more nice then mean there’s bullied people randomly blocking me or ignoring me people literally are getting murdered and dying every single day I wish I could spill all my feeling to people though but then I won’t because I’ll seem like an attention seeker and weirdo or some will even probably say I’m lying about things LIKE NO THE FUCK IM NOT!!! I wish people could see how shitty they are alright..? I know I’m being a bit shitty for talking about them like this but I’m not talking about everybody in the world.. sometimes I think about killing myself.. please tell me I’m not the only one?.. god this feels so good to get all of this off my chest but it’s not even to a person it’s only to myself but it makes me feel a tad bit better… All of the above written above were all typed in on Wednesday October 16th 2024.. I’m at the hospital again for him right now he made it through last night and I’m so grateful thank the lord (I’m Christian) my whole family prayed for him and so did three friends of mine.. Alison, charlotte, and Avery and it worked but his heart is going really bad so he still might die.. this part was wrote on October 17th 2024 My dad… my biological one not my step dad.. my dad he was always drunk and would kick out his girlfriend out of the house (not my mom they were divorced) he could get mean and all but he would never hurt his children but one time he was drunk me and my mom were laying with each other of the couch and he came out of his room with a metal bottle then aiming it at my mom but it hit my head and he felt bad and instantly regretted it he was a funny guy when he was sober too.. he killed him self when I was 5… I’ve known one of my friends longer then I’ve known my own father now…

Today I’m not doing well :( my parents started to yell at me bc I can’t tie my shoes and my mum says how kindergartners can do it, and my dad got mad at me and yelled at me and he said he would hit my ass, and I ran to my room sobbing and he yelled you are grounded for a month. I’ve been sobbing for a while now :(

Hehe I'll duet at some point

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`No matter what You Can't Fit in we are all different in our Own ways and Nobody can change that <3`

Thank you I’m having a very bad day my bst friend got with my crush 😞

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Thank you everyone who has dueted me so far 💕💕

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I’m being stitch because I’m going to get recognized by kids from my school :3

I calabed with you :D

THAT'S AN AWESOME MASK/HEAD I LOVE ITTTT

“Ok first page “ *in the middle of the book*

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I love the fursuit Btw, what are y'all's being for Halloween

SO COOL! IM GETTING A DINO MASK SOON!! IM SO EXCITED!!!! ^U^

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It’s the only time we fit in

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Also sorry for my good awful handwriting

Idk know why but RUclips sucks and took away some of my text so step three you gently lay down the tape on the sticky side then put your drawing on top tape that down then remove and trim the excess tape and then you have a sticker 🎉🎉

"MAN ...and woman...MAN ...and woman. LOOK AT THAT GUY!!HOW HANDSOME HE IS!!!!"

We love the pink (little/glitter) van! (I can never figure out which one it is lol)