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I used to be a fundamentalist Christian. I slowly was learning things as an adult about Christianity and I was brought up in private Christian school. I knew what it meant to be sold out for Christ. I was all in. Then I started chatting in Yahoo and people started asking me questions I were never exposed to because I was in that Christian bubble all the time. I had _Evidence that Demands a verdict_ and other texts but even those were not good answers for what they were asking. I started do my own research. Remember. this was in the early nineties and AI was not a thing yet. I also went to libraries. I was confused by what I found because Christians didn't lie so I assumed everything I learned in school was absolutely true. This was not the case. Something as simple as "What is Christian Cannon and how did the books we know now get in our cannon and what did they leave out and why?" Became more complex as I did more research. I thought the Flood was absolutely true. UntiI... found out about the heat problem. I learned what Hebrew Cosmology was at the time they were writing the bible. Type in "Hebrew cosmology" and hit image search. This shook me to my core. What was I supposed to do about all the new things I have learned and told no-one. People were wanting me to Lead Women's bible study at Church. I could not in good conscience do that but I was not going to tell them that for fear of shunning. The Church was big enough that I just walked out of the Women's bible study and never went back. I was scared. I finally decided I need to know what is true verses what I believe is true. At this time I stumbled on a small channel on RUclips called Evid3nc3. He was going through the same thing I was. Truth or belief? Which one is more important? Knowing what is true, or believing with blind faith without knowing was is actually true? Was truth worth it... loosing my social contacts, loosing my identity, loosing salvation? I prayed to God and said I am on a search for truth and I want to know the truth even if it takes everything from me even if I die I would rather die knowing the truth. I had faith that my search for truth would lead me right back to Christianity because I had faith it was true. I started doing more research and looking for experts in the field. Who is the expert on the bible, the languages, who is a historian that can give me accurate non-bias historical information on biblical manuscripts? Who does history on the people's of the Levant? I had just as hard of time knowing what questions to ask and who to seek that would be intellectually honest and unbiased. I started asking about seminary and watching videos from seminaries and listened to people who went to seminary and what they were taught. I was shocked. They actually don't teach in Church everything they learn at seminary or people would just walk out of the Church. This was huge and no one was talking about it so I never said anything to anyone. I kept researching. I got to a crisis of belief. Everything I has assumed was true and had faith in was not _all_ true and some was unknown but filled in by "tradition" rather than fact. If they can do that and Christianity, that is supposed to never change, is evolving how can it be true if it is evolving. Now that I am older I can see blatant evolution in the church that say Millennials and Zoomers are not aware of. Time was one of the biggest witnesses of all. I now was not even sure I was a Christian. I walked to the mirror and looked at myself. If you going to quest for truth then you must tell the truth to your face. "I am not a Christian." I said into the mirror. I felt as if one of my children had just died. I was in so much pain. I cried until i could not even tear up any more. I was devastated but truth was more important. I kept researching. Perhaps I was not being thorough enough. To this day i am still researching. I consider myself a NONES, nothing in particular. Why that specific? An atheist makes a declarative statement there is no God. A believer makes a Statement there is a God. I don't think I can make a declarative statement one way or another. Oh, so your Agnostic? What is an Agnostic? : a person who holds the view that any ultimate reality (such as God) is unknown and probably unknowable. broadly : one who is not committed to believing in either the existence or the nonexistence of God or a god. 2. : a person who is unwilling to commit to an opinion about something. Note holding a view and being unwilling. I am not willing or unwilling I simply don't have enough accurate information yet. I am still in flux. A floating target lock. I don't make a declarative statement yet because I am not done looking. The only thing right know I know is how much I don't know. like Dunning Kruger effect. I thought I new everything and had all the answers as a Christian. Now I know better. I don't know If I will ever find the truth but I will never stop researching for it.

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Fantastic opening to this series Pastor. 🙏

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much wow

This is 10 months old, wheres the new sermons?

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God is looking for ordinary people to be on mission!

Amen for rapid multiplication!

the church is people gathered. Amen.

So blessed by your obedience. It happened!! Love you guys.

Thank you for sending them to Vietnam We Love you!

I miss my Spirit Father so much.

👀 Promo'SM!

You guys should adjust the volume. Other videos is clear and I can hear, but other videos I can barely hear

Where did you go Pastor Nick?

Where is Pastor Nick?

Amen

Hes just like me!!!

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Nice job David!