i feel like im trapped in this cursed body of mine, allways expexted to help everyone in my town, because my family wants me too, to make them proud, im allmost 16 now and i waisted all my childhood sad because of this, im dead inside, trapped in this body, what would they say if i killed myself, would anyone care, would anyone notice, im sick of being yelled at by strangers, did i do something wrong? why am i here?
Oh same but please don't say about killing yourself, dying isn't the solution but I hope you find a way to get out of this, just don't try to stress out that much, ❤❤
You're worth it, dont kill yourself. Someday you'll get away from those people. You are perfect as you are, no matter who tries to dull your light. Please, keep going, it'll change someday and you'll be glad you didnt die. You are worth loving.
I tried so hard to fit into friend groups that never wanted to include me. Im a burden to my family. I dont have anything im good at, i struggle to predict my future.
i thought they wouldn't hurt. i thought the scissors were dull enough to not show. my mom yelled at me for them and now i feel like a total burden. she doesn't get it.
It’s been a while. I’m pretty tired of taking care of those around me. As well as trying my hardest to please each of my separated parents. But that’s okay. It will be okay soon.
i was good for a long time.. well 4 months. i’m also 4.5 months clean. i’m getting rlly tired and im insecure. everything was going good until it just flipped. it’s summer!!! i’m supposed to be happy. idk wut to do..i js wanna be happy.
VENT! "You don't have any stress" Does he know how much stress I go through every day? Does he know the amount of yelling I have to go through in my damn house? Does he know about my insecurities and how I try so hard to make people like me? I barely any get sleep because I'm crying every fucking night, worrying about what will happen the next day. They say, "Wash your face more, it'll remove those ugly pimples." I'm trying so damn hard to fix myself every day, but it's no use. I can't have one day with peace and quiet. If my parents call me to do one thing like take out the garbage, I obey them and do it. After that, they start telling me a bunch of things I should do. Take the dog on a walk, finish your homework, clean the house, help your sister with her work, cook the food, stop overreacting. How do they expect me to do all that shit in one day with all the stress in my head?! I only have one person in my damn life who actually cares about me. My best friend since kindergarten. She is the only one who understands me, who actually related to my problems and listens to me. But of course, there is always something that triggers me. She knows I have a crush on this guy, yet she gets together with him. We haven't talked since. Now, I don't know what to do anymore. Every day, I put on a fake smile, hiding my pain that's hidden under my smile. All I wanted to do was rest, read a book, listen to music. But what do I get? Negative words that pierce through my heart, and no one can fix that. All I want is for the pain to go away. But as he says, "I don't have any stress."
Heyy, I'm sorry for what you're going through. Believe me, you're not alone. My dad died a year ago and I never really had any contact with him. The relationship between me and my mom is getting worse as I'm old enough to understand when I'm being treated unfairly or badly. Now I feel like the last family I had is slowly drifting away from me. It will never be the same again. She tells me to grow up, that I'm responsible for my own feelings. But I feel so helpless when she comes into my room and starts a fight ... and makes me apologize afterwards.
@@amunyy Oh my, I am so sorry for what your you have been through, it's shouldn't be fair for life to treat such a kind soul in this way. I hope things are going better for you. My condolences go to you and I wish you a fantastic life.
life lately feels like a never fucking ending fever dream. lately nothing even feels real. i just go to school and tell myself i live in a simulation to comfort my own mind when i dont even know! i dont fucking know anymore.
i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in TV shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet please spread the word, my beautiful strangers.
he liked my best friend after leading me on for a year he said (what i remember) "you're disgusting i would never date a fat girl" i was forever hurt i refused to date ever again
I don't even know what i feel like. Im in a limbo. I have a loving family I'm pretty sure but my friends are fake. They never invite me out when they go out and they try to exclude me. I don't know what i did but i just try to make money and go on my own grind without anyone knowing. I don't even know if my horniness is horny anymore or if I'm just coping with being lonely. Or if i just want a hug from someone. I don't even know anymore. I just hope the best for everyone and try to hope for myself.
I hate living but I'm scared of dying, I hate seeing my family get healthier than me but I'm so happy for them, I hate love but I want it more than anything, I hate the why they look at me but I crave attention, I hate myself but I love the way I look, I hate how they don't always agree with me but I respect them having their own opinion, I hate the world but I love everyone on it. what the hell is wrong with me?
(⚠Tw Vent⚠) What is even the point of me having friends when to me they look like just a piece of entertainment for me to pick out, and once I'm bored, I just leave them. I hate myself for making things feel this way. It's like wanting everything to be about me, me, me, and if it isn't, I don't care and I never will. I hate feeling way too self-absorbed but then I feel like this at the same time. Its like; I'll be having fun but once I'm done, and the person I was having fun with is still talking to me, I have the urge to slap them and tell them to piss off because they're annoying the shit out of me for no reason at all! I mean THEY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING AT ALL TO DESERVE THAT!!! But I still want too.... No, I have to.... and it's a PAIN! Does anyone feel the same? Or am I just a self-absorbed bitch?
he confessed, the next thing i know is that he likes my best friend and just said that because he didn’t know what to say when i told him who’s ur crush. i hate everyone so fucking much.
I tell myself not to cry to these playlist forgetting I can't cry anymore I have no tears left or any feelings left to cry out I'm just a number cold empty she'll of who I was before (3rd grade) it really shows how messed up the school system is if it can empty someone like it has me (I'm going into 8th grade)
I dont know what im feeling im not happy im not sad i just want to get over with my day, and be alone because i know if i overshare to much they always tell everyone. Just know god helps trust me, and life sucks sometimes but music can sometimes heal you too!
Honestly thank you i am shutting my emotions off i have been hurt to many times can barely trust anyone i have been s/a and i don’t know what else to say…have a good day. -unkown
i feel the same but you aren't a disappointment, they sadly might just be neglecting you like how my mother is but always remember you are better then you think
i miss him :( i feel im getting better, but still theres a part of me still attaches to the memories.. my friend will smack me off the building if they know. its really rough to move on. Times felt so damn fast but also slow.. it slow down when i remember him. Right now i just want to know how hes doing. i bet hes fine without me. i know how heartless he is. he does not care abt me. And i know too well. So i should stop seek him anymore.
As a guy, I kinda regret doing stuff like that. I truly do. I lost her because I broke a rule we made: little physical contact. Now, don't get me wrong, i didn't TOUCH her, I kinda kissed her on the ear (edit: multiple times in a row). I made her scared. I made the person i loved scared. and then, boom. Gone. 4 months ago. I'll literally always regret it. I'm sorry people do this to you, truly. (edited part:) I would also like to mention that she yelled to me right before she ended, telling me how uncomfeterable she felt when I did, and how she told me (my short memory ahh) that she already told me that she doesn't like physical touch bc of some past trauma. so i really do kind of understand what you feel. again, i apologize on those mens behalf, even though they don't deserve it.
@@ikwens_cursorhey you made a mistake but it seems you regret it and that matters.. dont beat yourself to much. Your feelings also matters. Not just hers.
I have a story i made up. Me and the little boy walk through the little forest to the little cottage. He looks up at me and says "why do you never smile?" I look down at him and shrug then look back ahead of me. "Ive know you for 3 years and ive never seen your smiling face. Only in old pictures..." I sigh then look down at his pleading eyes. "Sometimes, smiling hurts..." He looks confused. "Hurts?" "Yes." I say back to the little boy "Actually..." he says looking down at his feet. "Ive seen you smile. But...your eyes become teary. Why?" "Well" i say to him. "Sometimes, youve got to smile through the pain. That tricks my brain into thinking im happy when im not." He holds my hand and squeezes it "smile? When your sad?" "Yes" i reply. I itch my arm and lift my dress sleeve "Why are your arms cut? Did you do that?" I nod slowly. He holds my hand tighter. "Why...?" "Why not." I say He looks back at his shoes "Are you happy now?" He asks I stop walking. He stops next to me. "Happy...now...?" I mumble to myself "Yes" i say. His bright blue eyes light up. "Really? I make you happy?" "Very" i softly smile at him. We arrive at the little cottage house and walk inside with his tiny hand in mine. I really hope you enjoyed this story ❤ it is not based off a true story btw
He said he loved me..he lied he kisses me everynight then kisses other girls.. he says he cares.. but he cares more for her.. he knows a struggle..but he laughs at it.. he knows my dad shot himself..he makes fun of it..He wants me.. but he cheats.. im to weak to break up..But he can't break up..
I'm sorry about the pain and your experiences. I'm really sorry. and the best option is to leave that boy. He does not care about you. There are a million people on our planet who will treat you better and love you better. It would be best if you focused on improving your grades (or work if you're an adult), maxing your potential, and having kind, smart people around you. Not hanging out with a goal-less boy who has no plans for his future.
no. My dad flipping shot himself infront of me and my sister and i was yelled at by my mom because i didn't cover her eyes.. i was 10. now i struggle with suicide thoughts.{not to be drama| please pray for me}
@@nevisagoombaim so sorry...ive been suicidal lately here to. But this is about you. I hope life gets better ♡ and even though you probably wont believe me im gonna say it anyways. You matter to me. Even though im a stranger. You matter to me ♡♡ good luck!
nope (I'm not going to give my story because I lost trust in humanity, but I do believe there is still people out there to trust just very few. I told my story once and then it got linked to the whole school I was called many names. it was by one of my closest friends, but we made up and I found out she was only trying to help :/ but that's fine)
@@violetchan7484 please eat for me dear, please. i may never meet you but please. please go eat SOMETHING. anything. just one thing. please. i want you too see your beautiful in your skin and have a right to feel comfortable in it. i dont know how you look, what your going through... but please eat, remember you matter.. and smile with your head up. <3
Tw: vent, I hate my whole fucking life, trying to be entertaining and nice to people at school (mainly in my class) is hard and especially since they all think I'm annoying, they used to laugh and joke around with me all the time now they act like their friends with me and glare at me mainly acting bored. It's hard trying to get the boy you want when he's always hanging out with other girls and making it look like he likes them, it hurts, im sure the reason why no one likes me is because im so ugly, my acne sucks, everyone says im pretty but i think their lying.. Life sucks at home with my mom having suicidal thoughts from fighting with my step-dad, im always crying to myself, at this point i cant help it, shes controlling and strict but when i lived with my great grandparents (mom's side of the fam) they'd criticize me and tell me i could do better in school, they'd say how good my older cousin is right in front of me during holidays or they'd tell me that i wouldn't end up as succesful as her. My dad neglected me as a baby and cheated on my mom, when i was 7 he tried killing himself in front of me, my grandpa (dad's side on the fam) tried kidnapping me when i was 3, my grandmother (mom's side of the fam) died when my mother was 6 months old from drug overdose.. My mother lied to my grandparents and said she would take me for a small drive but came over and grabbed all of my stuff and took me forever, my aunt (dad's side) tried getting custody of me beause she had 4 children and they were all boys, she wanted a daughter.. my other aunt (mom's side) is schizophrenic, shes more messed up because she takes pills to boost it, she wants to see things. When i was 1-2 my mother was neglecting me and almost let me drown in a river because she wasnt paying attention to me. When i was in pre-school i lived at an apartment complex and i had 4 best friends there that i would hang out with everyday, (skipping to 4 years later) in second grade my mother moved us out of the complex to make us live somewhere else, another 2 years go by and one of my best friends start going to my school, hes was in my 4th grade class, i thought terms were good between us but he started being a bitch to me and it broke my heart.. Sorry for the long vent (btw im in 5th grade so i am kinda young to have this trauma) I hope this shows people that i stress with them too, life is hard, most of us were born in this shitty generation and i feel bad, im in therapy but it sucks and for some reason random strangers comfort me than my own family do, i would recommend using comment sections than going to therapy, i hope this helps!
I can’t even hear the playlist,all I can hear is argueing and screaming and shouting from downstairs.I told myself it would stop long ago,but now we probably need to flee the house and start a new life.
im not even depressed i just like this genre of music
I barely hear anything else than "Pathetic excuse of a human".And guess whatttt?It does hurt after all.
Was
i feel like im trapped in this cursed body of mine, allways expexted to help everyone in my town, because my family wants me too, to make them proud, im allmost 16 now and i waisted all my childhood sad because of this, im dead inside, trapped in this body, what would they say if i killed myself, would anyone care, would anyone notice, im sick of being yelled at by strangers, did i do something wrong? why am i here?
Oh same but please don't say about killing yourself, dying isn't the solution but I hope you find a way to get out of this, just don't try to stress out that much, ❤❤
@@nowhere__00 thanks!
You're worth it, dont kill yourself. Someday you'll get away from those people. You are perfect as you are, no matter who tries to dull your light. Please, keep going, it'll change someday and you'll be glad you didnt die. You are worth loving.
@@SeraphMiinVT-nd3uh exactly I agree with you
I tried so hard to fit into friend groups that never wanted to include me. Im a burden to my family. I dont have anything im good at, i struggle to predict my future.
i thought they wouldn't hurt. i thought the scissors were dull enough to not show. my mom yelled at me for them and now i feel like a total burden. she doesn't get it.
Are you ok ? Do you need anyone to talk to ? I can listen to anything you need to say . Stay strong ❤
"Sorry for being an attention seeker, I might as well not bother you guys." - Last words I wanted to say after leaving our 'bff" group chat. :/
It’s been a while. I’m pretty tired of taking care of those around me. As well as trying my hardest to please each of my separated parents. But that’s okay. It will be okay soon.
You went through a lot darling
It will be I believe in you
when its so bad, to the point your starting to think it's actually a phase.
Yea but he phase comes and goes😖
i was good for a long time.. well 4 months. i’m also 4.5 months clean. i’m getting rlly tired and im insecure. everything was going good until it just flipped. it’s summer!!! i’m supposed to be happy. idk wut to do..i js wanna be happy.
I just relapsed today.. 0 days clean.. stay strong and stay clean<3
@@xXfluffy_foxpawsXx i’m sorry. it’s okay you will get through this.
VENT! "You don't have any stress" Does he know how much stress I go through every day? Does he know the amount of yelling I have to go through in my damn house? Does he know about my insecurities and how I try so hard to make people like me? I barely any get sleep because I'm crying every fucking night, worrying about what will happen the next day. They say, "Wash your face more, it'll remove those ugly pimples." I'm trying so damn hard to fix myself every day, but it's no use. I can't have one day with peace and quiet. If my parents call me to do one thing like take out the garbage, I obey them and do it. After that, they start telling me a bunch of things I should do. Take the dog on a walk, finish your homework, clean the house, help your sister with her work, cook the food, stop overreacting. How do they expect me to do all that shit in one day with all the stress in my head?! I only have one person in my damn life who actually cares about me. My best friend since kindergarten. She is the only one who understands me, who actually related to my problems and listens to me. But of course, there is always something that triggers me. She knows I have a crush on this guy, yet she gets together with him. We haven't talked since. Now, I don't know what to do anymore. Every day, I put on a fake smile, hiding my pain that's hidden under my smile. All I wanted to do was rest, read a book, listen to music. But what do I get? Negative words that pierce through my heart, and no one can fix that. All I want is for the pain to go away. But as he says, "I don't have any stress."
Heyy, I'm sorry for what you're going through. Believe me, you're not alone. My dad died a year ago and I never really had any contact with him. The relationship between me and my mom is getting worse as I'm old enough to understand when I'm being treated unfairly or badly. Now I feel like the last family I had is slowly drifting away from me. It will never be the same again. She tells me to grow up, that I'm responsible for my own feelings. But I feel so helpless when she comes into my room and starts a fight ... and makes me apologize afterwards.
@@amunyy Oh my, I am so sorry for what your you have been through, it's shouldn't be fair for life to treat such a kind soul in this way. I hope things are going better for you. My condolences go to you and I wish you a fantastic life.
@@_A_Random_Guy_On_The_Internet_ thank you 🥲 I wish you a great life too
I'm so emo its crazy 😭😭😭😭🤯🤯😵😵😵
You start knowing they don't mean it when there minds are half cloudy. The "I love you" is just a fake
I thought I was getting better… that happened?
It's okay you have your whole life to get better, this will pass like a wave
Same.
life lately feels like a never fucking ending fever dream. lately nothing even feels real. i just go to school and tell myself i live in a simulation to comfort my own mind when i dont even know! i dont fucking know anymore.
Agreed, I hope you feel better
same
I’m so numb…..it’s almost feels….like…….happiness (=
oh
no bcz me too
ваша музыка отлично перекрывает крики моей матери, спасибо
не перекрыла, она отобрала наушники. но за плейлист всё равно 👍
@@jennifer-mw2ns однажды Эрнест Хемингуэй поспорил что сможет написать самый короткий рассказ, способный растрогать любого
i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in TV shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet please spread the word, my beautiful strangers.
Oh the things I would do js to hear this from someone.. (This comment deserves so much love <3)
These were the words I needed the most right now, thanks you a lot
WHAT THIS ONLY HAS 3 LIKES u deserve much more😞
Thank you fellow internet stranger :D All the same to you
the feeling that u wanna kus but ur a crybaby. it hurts so much
Ohh wow, lmao
This is perfect!
I feel like the burden child of the family
Your not the burden child your loved
❤❤❤
tbh nothing even happened today, I just started to get drained around noon and ever since I’ve gotten slightly more numb.
he liked my best friend after leading me on for a year he said (what i remember) "you're disgusting i would never date a fat girl" i was forever hurt i refused to date ever again
Make this a**hole shut his mouth by working on you and become more attractive than your friend while not giving a f*ck about this rude MF
I don't even know what i feel like. Im in a limbo. I have a loving family I'm pretty sure but my friends are fake. They never invite me out when they go out and they try to exclude me. I don't know what i did but i just try to make money and go on my own grind without anyone knowing. I don't even know if my horniness is horny anymore or if I'm just coping with being lonely. Or if i just want a hug from someone. I don't even know anymore. I just hope the best for everyone and try to hope for myself.
real
I hate living but I'm scared of dying, I hate seeing my family get healthier than me but I'm so happy for them, I hate love but I want it more than anything, I hate the why they look at me but I crave attention, I hate myself but I love the way I look, I hate how they don't always agree with me but I respect them having their own opinion, I hate the world but I love everyone on it. what the hell is wrong with me?
Ohhhh
❤️🩹❤️🩹
(⚠Tw Vent⚠) What is even the point of me having friends when to me they look like just a piece of entertainment for me to pick out, and once I'm bored, I just leave them. I hate myself for making things feel this way. It's like wanting everything to be about me, me, me, and if it isn't, I don't care and I never will. I hate feeling way too self-absorbed but then I feel like this at the same time. Its like; I'll be having fun but once I'm done, and the person I was having fun with is still talking to me, I have the urge to slap them and tell them to piss off because they're annoying the shit out of me for no reason at all! I mean THEY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING AT ALL TO DESERVE THAT!!! But I still want too.... No, I have to.... and it's a PAIN! Does anyone feel the same? Or am I just a self-absorbed bitch?
Oh I'm so sorry, your not a self absorbed bitch at all. Im always here for you ❤
Im also here for u bro ❤ :)
@@germangamerfemboy Thanks <33
@@Youare.MY.lovely np love u ❤❤❤
@@germangamerfemboy Love you too 😭😭❤❤❤❤
he confessed, the next thing i know is that he likes my best friend and just said that because he didn’t know what to say when i told him who’s ur crush. i hate everyone so fucking much.
I’m sorry that’s happening to me rn he likes my “best friend” and now they are basically together but I really hope it gets better for you
@@yocelindelatorre1739 tysmmm <3 i hope everything is alrr.. my bsf had an argument w him abt how can he lie to me n stuff, n she blocked him
@@aysellmao you have a loyal bsf 😄
@@yashvishah5641 yesss i love her smm <3
I HOPE YOU DONT HATE ME BBG😔
real
I tell myself not to cry to these playlist forgetting I can't cry anymore I have no tears left or any feelings left to cry out I'm just a number cold empty she'll of who I was before (3rd grade) it really shows how messed up the school system is if it can empty someone like it has me (I'm going into 8th grade)
I feel the same way, and the funny thing is we're about the same age and school is just tearing me apart, limb by limb, piece by piece.
I dont know what im feeling im not happy im not sad i just want to get over with my day, and be alone because i know if i overshare to much they always tell everyone. Just know god helps trust me, and life sucks sometimes but music can sometimes heal you too!
Honestly thank you i am shutting my emotions off i have been hurt to many times can barely trust anyone i have been s/a and i don’t know what else to say…have a good day. -unkown
Why can’t I just focus in class and stop being a disappointment to my parents 😕
Relatable 😞
i feel the same but you aren't a disappointment, they sadly might just be neglecting you like how my mother is but always remember you are better then you think
Why can’t I just focus in class and stop being a disappointment to my parents 😕
Me realizing I won the sperm race just to lose at everything in life 😕
oh ok..
Real
It all started with that I have been wining ever since 🗿
was it worth it to be happy for a little bit even though we ended up sad and alone? or would we rather not have done it at all?
i miss him :( i feel im getting better, but still theres a part of me still attaches to the memories.. my friend will smack me off the building if they know. its really rough to move on. Times felt so damn fast but also slow.. it slow down when i remember him. Right now i just want to know how hes doing. i bet hes fine without me. i know how heartless he is. he does not care abt me. And i know too well. So i should stop seek him anymore.
vent I'm scared of men and I hate being fucking touched.
As a guy, I kinda regret doing stuff like that. I truly do. I lost her because I broke a rule we made: little physical contact. Now, don't get me wrong, i didn't TOUCH her, I kinda kissed her on the ear (edit: multiple times in a row). I made her scared. I made the person i loved scared. and then, boom. Gone. 4 months ago. I'll literally always regret it. I'm sorry people do this to you, truly. (edited part:) I would also like to mention that she yelled to me right before she ended, telling me how uncomfeterable she felt when I did, and how she told me (my short memory ahh) that she already told me that she doesn't like physical touch bc of some past trauma. so i really do kind of understand what you feel. again, i apologize on those mens behalf, even though they don't deserve it.
@@ikwens_cursorhey you made a mistake but it seems you regret it and that matters.. dont beat yourself to much. Your feelings also matters. Not just hers.
@@ikwens_cursor Maturing is realising that she's in the wrong
@@Thezombiekiller06 How is she in the wrong?
@8allen831 emotional vunerability is crucial for a relationship. If youre closed off like that, its doomed to fail.
i just feel like i can never win in anything lol :(
Same
I have a story i made up. Me and the little boy walk through the little forest to the little cottage. He looks up at me and says "why do you never smile?" I look down at him and shrug then look back ahead of me. "Ive know you for 3 years and ive never seen your smiling face. Only in old pictures..." I sigh then look down at his pleading eyes. "Sometimes, smiling hurts..." He looks confused. "Hurts?" "Yes." I say back to the little boy "Actually..." he says looking down at his feet. "Ive seen you smile. But...your eyes become teary. Why?" "Well" i say to him. "Sometimes, youve got to smile through the pain. That tricks my brain into thinking im happy when im not." He holds my hand and squeezes it "smile? When your sad?" "Yes" i reply. I itch my arm and lift my dress sleeve "Why are your arms cut? Did you do that?" I nod slowly. He holds my hand tighter. "Why...?" "Why not." I say He looks back at his shoes "Are you happy now?" He asks I stop walking. He stops next to me. "Happy...now...?" I mumble to myself "Yes" i say. His bright blue eyes light up. "Really? I make you happy?" "Very" i softly smile at him. We arrive at the little cottage house and walk inside with his tiny hand in mine. I really hope you enjoyed this story ❤ it is not based off a true story btw
i love it
@@jas-mw3fm thank you ♡
you should definitely make this into a short story
@@Itsjustleaa I'll probably write it down in my draft notebook:)
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He said he loved me..he lied he kisses me everynight then kisses other girls.. he says he cares.. but he cares more for her.. he knows a struggle..but he laughs at it.. he knows my dad shot himself..he makes fun of it..He wants me.. but he cheats.. im to weak to break up..But he can't break up..
I'm sorry about the pain and your experiences. I'm really sorry. and the best option is to leave that boy. He does not care about you. There are a million people on our planet who will treat you better and love you better. It would be best if you focused on improving your grades (or work if you're an adult), maxing your potential, and having kind, smart people around you. Not hanging out with a goal-less boy who has no plans for his future.
are you okay? are you really fine..?
no. My dad flipping shot himself infront of me and my sister and i was yelled at by my mom because i didn't cover her eyes.. i was 10. now i struggle with suicide thoughts.{not to be drama| please pray for me}
@@nevisagoombaim so sorry...ive been suicidal lately here to. But this is about you. I hope life gets better ♡ and even though you probably wont believe me im gonna say it anyways. You matter to me. Even though im a stranger. You matter to me ♡♡ good luck!
nope (I'm not going to give my story because I lost trust in humanity, but I do believe there is still people out there to trust just very few. I told my story once and then it got linked to the whole school I was called many names. it was by one of my closest friends, but we made up and I found out she was only trying to help :/ but that's fine)
I Feel Forgotteen
me too
Same buddy
Same (Vent + Background info I came out as trans and got rejected so hard I locked myself in my room and didn't eat.)
@@violetchan7484 ❤️
@@violetchan7484 please eat for me dear, please. i may never meet you but please. please go eat SOMETHING. anything. just one thing. please. i want you too see your beautiful in your skin and have a right to feel comfortable in it. i dont know how you look, what your going through... but please eat, remember you matter.. and smile with your head up. <3
she says she loves me, but then she hurts me
Way to relatable. She left me and it hurt more then it should of😞
not love twin
Tw: vent, I hate my whole fucking life, trying to be entertaining and nice to people at school (mainly in my class) is hard and especially since they all think I'm annoying, they used to laugh and joke around with me all the time now they act like their friends with me and glare at me mainly acting bored. It's hard trying to get the boy you want when he's always hanging out with other girls and making it look like he likes them, it hurts, im sure the reason why no one likes me is because im so ugly, my acne sucks, everyone says im pretty but i think their lying.. Life sucks at home with my mom having suicidal thoughts from fighting with my step-dad, im always crying to myself, at this point i cant help it, shes controlling and strict but when i lived with my great grandparents (mom's side of the fam) they'd criticize me and tell me i could do better in school, they'd say how good my older cousin is right in front of me during holidays or they'd tell me that i wouldn't end up as succesful as her. My dad neglected me as a baby and cheated on my mom, when i was 7 he tried killing himself in front of me, my grandpa (dad's side on the fam) tried kidnapping me when i was 3, my grandmother (mom's side of the fam) died when my mother was 6 months old from drug overdose.. My mother lied to my grandparents and said she would take me for a small drive but came over and grabbed all of my stuff and took me forever, my aunt (dad's side) tried getting custody of me beause she had 4 children and they were all boys, she wanted a daughter.. my other aunt (mom's side) is schizophrenic, shes more messed up because she takes pills to boost it, she wants to see things. When i was 1-2 my mother was neglecting me and almost let me drown in a river because she wasnt paying attention to me. When i was in pre-school i lived at an apartment complex and i had 4 best friends there that i would hang out with everyday, (skipping to 4 years later) in second grade my mother moved us out of the complex to make us live somewhere else, another 2 years go by and one of my best friends start going to my school, hes was in my 4th grade class, i thought terms were good between us but he started being a bitch to me and it broke my heart.. Sorry for the long vent (btw im in 5th grade so i am kinda young to have this trauma) I hope this shows people that i stress with them too, life is hard, most of us were born in this shitty generation and i feel bad, im in therapy but it sucks and for some reason random strangers comfort me than my own family do, i would recommend using comment sections than going to therapy, i hope this helps!
Damn, you need a hug or something?
im in 5th grade too, and wow. that’s actually really bad :( i hope you can get a little better frim therapy though !! c:
@@UncozyBlanket No i'm fine just confused
@@imasimpforkelll Thank you but therapy sucks-
@@Cant-handle-it- fr therapy does nothing for me im geting out of it at the end of this month
as soon as i got better i got bad again
I WAS CRYING AND LOOKING FOR A PLAYLIST TO CONTINUE CRYING TO AND I GOT A F*CKING RUclips SURVEY AD WHEN I CLICKED IT😭😭😭😭😭 (I’m crying harder now)
hope ur ok💓💗💗💞!!<<<33333
Do you actually nee help? Because your username says help
I was wondering the same...i hope they're okay...
@@MoonDvst13 me too
I can’t even hear the playlist,all I can hear is argueing and screaming and shouting from downstairs.I told myself it would stop long ago,but now we probably need to flee the house and start a new life.
feel ya