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It just fells like that I'll never enjoy playing, going to school, doing my routine and all the other stuff because each day is just the same thing with different scenarios... ...And I'm not even joking.

To the guys/gals who said “I wish I was free. No school. No family. No friends. Just free in the world doing whatever I want.” Be careful what you wish for. I once thought like that in high school and college. I hated the workload and responsibilities and honestly in this education system I don’t blame myself one bit. A lot of it does suck. And you’re not wrong to dog on it. But there are good things about a life like that too. Friendships are there to support you. Family and mentors are there to guide you. And responsibilities are there to give you purpose. I lived that life. I don’t have it anymore. Now I’m out of college. My family’s all dead. My friends and I either split up painfully or grew apart over time (still painful). I worked hard like society told me and I have a place to call home. I have a decent job. I have time to play video games and read and write and workout and the resources to travel and eat out and adventure and do most things in a “full” life. Sometimes, I almost feel like I can live life on creative mode sometimes. I am truly a free individual. But to be honest. I hate it. Genuinely wholeheartedly *_hate_* what my life has become: lonely and selfish. And I’d trade all of that stuff I mentioned for my mom and best friend and pets back for even just a mere 24 hours. No hesitation. I sound like I’m bragging but I don’t mean to. I guess I’m saying be grateful for what you have cuz when it’s gone no amount of materialism or freedom or fulfilled desires will ever bring it back.

"I know this is a dream"

Soon this comment will be 5 years old.

Did you quit? Can you bring back music like you did with school rooftop

I just wanna relive being a kid. Going outside with friends not having a single worry in the world. Having fun. Being a kid.

Sometimes i just feel like to be alone. I dont think anyone cares about me and i dont worry about that but i just wanna live alone. In a penthouse. While its raining. Im just a human too. Everybody needs a break from all the work that you have to do as adults. You can never go back to being a kid but you can always remeber how good times were when you were a kid. Good Night to anyone who sees this. May you have lot of luck in life and wish the best to anyone. With Love, Agent

Don't grow up,It's a trap

My crush used to like me and she liked me and now she's interested in another friend. Im feel so sad 😭nah im really crying 😭😭😭😭

Meow;(

laying in my bed and thinking about everything that I have been through in the past year, I got fired from my job, got into a car accident, and failed a college class I have been through a lot this year but I know that next year everything will get better Hope is on the Horizon and I trust have to keep pushing, believing in myself and trusting God! if you are reading this just know that you have the strength to get through whatever it is that you are going through things will get better you just have to believe yourself and realize that you are special and unique in every which way possible

All I do is work and work and work, it feels as if I can never catch a break… even with 4 days off the shifts I work can go as long as 20 hours… I’m tired… I just want to lay next to my wife and be able to comfort her forever and if I could just take care of her forever I would… she has mental health disorders and needs me here a lot… I love her so much and sitting here playing this while she sleeps in my lap is the most heart warming thing I’ve seen… I love my baby so much 💕💕💕☺️☺️☺️😞😞😞

listening to this and dreading that it's olmost the end of 2024 and also dreading that soon it's gonna be 2025 damn why does time have to fly bye so damn fast..😮‍💨😕😔 I wish I could go back to 2011 😌

I just want to go back, back to those warm childhood days where I didn't care about anything other than my toys and cartoons... I want to have that sweet relationship with my mom... even just for a few seconds it would be enough, I just want to go back

you walk to the front door the sun light is shining in you see and hear your baby sister and kids playing outside. your sister is using the hot comb and the tv is on in the living room and your mom is on the phone laughing with her friends

Ignorance is bliss 😔

I’m just so terrified of school. I don’t think they realize how much harm then good they do to the students, at least mentally. I wish I could just run away and no one knew who I was, so they didn’t have to worry. Tomorrow, I have to sit in a bright empty room and have math problems in front of me that I have no idea what I’m doing, and i sit there for an hour and a half, either crying or thinking about life. I’ve missed so many days of school, and i feel like I don’t have a reason to. I have a supportive family and somewhat nice friends, yet I’ve missed almost 100 days out of the year. I just want to be at home and in my mother’s arms, no worries. All the kids at my school are assholes and it scares me to go. If someone says one thing mean to me, it makes me think about it for months. I just wish I could drop out so badly… maybe if I get better with my art, and somehow start making money with it… I’ll be able to drop out.

This generation of kids are almost purposely trying to be depressed. Life isn’t that bad

Bruh

Its just really sad to see people go through atruggle and pain, but this is all to make you a better person. Ofc you dont deserve it. But keep In mind that happiness shouldnt be even the purpose of life. Its striving to be a better man, for yourself, god and even your family (and maybe your OWN family later in the future) if you think about this: if you would work hard stop bs around and start being the best version of yourself. You will eventually be happy by itself. Eventually people would stop caring about why you are depresed. So why would you ait there be sad for 3 months sipping doing drugs idk sit there watching tv, while you could also say: watch this. Imma gonna be a person you will never gonna be. And live a good life and eventually HAPPY. You need to earn it.…

I wish I was free totally to do whatever I want to have whatever I want to have whoever I want to live wherever I want to say whatever I want to love whoever I want I wish I was free totally to go wherever I want and be wherever I want.

Yoo broo can we play outside Not now bro Next morning Sees your friend not at his house Realize that your friend goes to their other family's farther house

i remember playing cube craft with this shi in the background help me

I just wanna go back in time bruh

I’m tired.

Last month of 2024 or last month for me! Stay tuned...

Wish I didn’t overthink so much 😕

Такой вайб..,....будто бы год 2010 а ты у бабушки гуляешь под дождем ....

This song brings so many bad memories, all flooding back.. ≈trigger warning ‼️≈ =SH, depression, talking of suicide= I use to listen to this song while SH-ing. It would calm me down, distract me. I just wanted out of the world, out of what I was doing, music was a great distraction, and great comfort to be soul, but also pain to my soul.. sad emptiness, and I liked the emptiness, It was comforting in a way. A very disturbing way and unhealthy way, sure. But it’s what I did. I listened to this at the most depressing moments of my life, when I wanted to end it all and was struggling with many things. Idk why, but this song stuck out to me more than most songs I’ve heard. Something abt the repeating melody, the storm in the background. If I could describe this Song, “the regret of the future.” I did- and still do, very much struggle with anxiety for my future, for real reasons, it’s not irrational or anything. and more so anxiety when I was younger and in those depressive years. So this song kinda makes my heart sink, thinking abt the future, and regrets I have yet to make, and even.. looking now, knowing I’ll regret everything I’ve done, everything I didn’t do… I regret it already. And it hurts. Which is why I think that name is so fitting. Growing up is something we can’t help. We can’t stop this. So it’s a truth that awaits us all, so I’m sure we can all kinda relate on that. Anyway, enough ranting, I do wanna thank u for this song tho. I came back- cuz, well.. idk I’m kinda emotional rn lol this song gives me nostalgia, ptsd flash backs, anxiety, and comfort, so much more, all at once, it’s kinda overwhelming lol but, it always had that affect, didn’t it.. I went back to yapping, jeez sorry lol I’m not depressed anymore, nor do I struggle with anything that serious. Jesus saved me from that. for that I am forever grateful. But, I just wanna let yall know, you’re loved. Seriously, I’m not just saying this cuz I wanna make my self feel better or whatever, it’s true. You are loved. Not only be me, and many others, even in ur own life, that u may not even realize. God loves you, idk if ur religious, but he does. Unlike ppl, he loves unconditionally, something I try to do everyday lol no matter what you do, or what you’ve done, God loves, and forgives, and he is just waiting for his child to run to him. So don’t be scared of God, don’t be intimidated, talk to him, even if u arent religious, u can pray, it’s not just for Christian’s, God wants to talk to you. read ur Bible, id recommend somewhere not in the beginning, more so in the New Testament if ur just starting off, get a Bible app where u can see Gods word in even little quotes from the Bible. I mean, if u don’t believe in him, what harm will praying do? Don’t feel like u have to be fancy with God, just speak from the heart, it’s okay if u cry, God is there to be the shoulder for ur tears. God saved me. And he can save u to. No matter how “broken” or “damaged” u are. God can heal, ofc it won’t be overnight, it took me months. And it might take longer for u, and that’s okay. We all go at our own speed, just lean on Christ. He can carry ur burdens. If u are gonna pray, here’s some ideas; ≈ask God to show him self to u, not demanding, humble ur self and ask politely. Tell him he can choose however way he wants to show him self to you ≈ask him to open ur heart, open ur eyes to him. ≈thank God, for everything, anything u can think of ≈question him, if u have questions, who better to ask then God him self? Ask him to answer u, and he might in many ways, you’d be surprised. Don’t be ashamed of questioning, even if ur question sounds “dumb” ≈ask God to show u his character, who he is, who he is to u, who he is to the world. ≈pray for ur wants and needs. Ask humbly for things u want, I did and do, this alot, God wants to hear what we want, remember not always will we get these things. Cuz like dogs don’t understand that chocolate will kill/hurt them, we don’t know what will hurt us. But don’t be afraid to ask for things. ≈thank God for the ppl in ur life, ask God to bless them. Even ur enemies. Ask God to go into they’re hearts and to give them the Holy Spirit ≈ask the Holy Spirit to guide u through ur life, to let u see things through Gods eyes, to see his creation, his Glory, his Grace, his Mercy. Sorry this was a long rant, but I’m assuming it’s late for u, huh? Staying up and reading these long comments. I use to do it to. Old habits die hard, I guess lol Anyway, seriously I meant what I said, God does loves u. I’m not trying to convert u or anything, that’s not my job, salvation belongs to God. I’m simply here to tell u the good news, if Jesus dying a horrible death on the cross for our sins, so that we may be forgiven in him and have eternal life. And I wanted to share my story, cuz I honestly didn’t think I’d ever get better, I imagined my future in an asylum, all alone, or I’d imagine I wouldn’t had a future.. nothing to look forward to, but death. I’m happy and filled with true joy now. I just hope to give u at least some of that hope. To hang on to at least tomorrow, make it another day, another step. I know it’s hard.. but God will never give up on you, so I won’t either. Stay strong warrior. God bless you all, fr, most of u are children, u don’t deserve this pain, and I’m sorry, we live in a broken world. Feel free to open up in these comments,please find a trusted *adult* to help u if u feel depressed or suicidal or struggle with anything. Even if ur just sad, everyone needs someone to talk to. I use to think I didn’t, that this was a problem no one could talk me out of, you’d be surprised, ur probably more social deprived then u think lol not to be rude.. anyway. Had to leave a comment on here, even if this video brings back some bad, dark memories. We all grow. God bless, keep fighting. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. It’s okay to not be okay, but it’s also okay to be okay. Don’t feel ashamed for being happy, or for being sad. We are all human, with emotions, fearfully and wonderfully made. Good night, yall 💕✝️☺️🫶

Tomorrow is my 18th birthday and I’m just listening to this right now in my bed

I feel so alone like I don’t have anyone at all I hope I’m not alone for the rest of my life. I haven’t dated any woman in 4 years I’ve been so focused on myself I ended up in foster care system at the age of nine years old, I was abused beaten with anything that you could put in your hands, a frying pan an extension cord a brick, 4 x 4, wood plank. The list goes on and on. I always ask myself if I’m doing the right thing I was in foster care system for three years before they could find the right home to put me into. After one year of a really bad experience at a foster home got out of foster care move to Texas for two years then back to California for 16 years then I came back to my hometown where I got taken away by child protective services I’ve had bad PTSD memories playback every single day. I walk this town. i’m in college at the current moment majoring in paralegal/legal assistant, hoping to become a psychiatrist later in the future and I still look up at the ceiling at 3 AM and ask myself is this really all worth it I also do bodybuilding and Instagram on the side. That’s a little hobby of mine. I know I’m just some stranger in the world and trust me. I’ve been through it all. I even have testicular cancer stage one, but I’m still kicking it. I’m still running with the flow every single day that’s all I can do really. Love you all and please don’t off yourself coming from somebody that almost off themselves too as well. There’s a guy named Bradley Martyn that saved my life, has now gotten me into the gym. Well, I’ve been in the gym for a very long time but he’s the one that mainly got me going every five days a week, but please guys don’t offer yourself. It’s not worth it in the end. You don’t get to come back you’ll just be this lifeless body on the groundwhere officers investigators and forensic scientist have to come in and look at you and wonder why your mom and dad love you your brothers and sisters. Love you. Yes they might say messed up things but it’s because they’re trying to show you some tough love.

I feel like my life is just a dream and I’m taking my last breathe somewhere and me being alive now is just me getting to revisit my memories from my life one last time before I wake up or die .😢❤ feels like I never wanna wake up and stay but I’m scared to wake up because what if i don’t remember anyone from this dream or my memories of the people I loved.

See thats the strangest thing about Nostalgia. This song was put into so many memes about being nostalgic about childhood. But just you wait... If it hasnt happened already, eventually, this song too will be nostalgic. years into the future, youll here it and instantly think about the good times. even though this song wasnt technically a part of them

oh dude! I've been listening here for 3 years but this is the first time I've noticed a man holding the torch in the middle! Or did I come here from a dimension where that torch was actually anchored to the ground? I could have sworn that dragon was alone!

I just wanna travel all over the world, meet new people, become apart of many different realities, experience it all. One day

I’m very suicidal and really don’t know what to do with my life anymore as it feels like a prison, I go school and back and don’t get to go anywhere. My parents are overprotective and don’t let me leave the house unless we go out to a restaurant rarely for a birthday and I don’t get to go anywhere and sometimes I feel like I’m just trapped in this cycle. They don’t know about any of these feelings and I told 2 friends and they did talk to me and still do. I cry myself to sleep and am very quiet, introverted and distant to many only my twin and few friends I talk to, I hate six form, it is so socially draining, looking good just so no one gives you looks. I’m not really sure how long I can do this for. Maybe not long at all.

"I just need my dad to give me a hint of a smile knowing him would be the best thing for me" -from me

FORTNITE

this is what goes through my head when i see or hear something that reminds me of him

You don’t have to be sad because we have JESUS CHRIST and he died for a sins so we can be saved and with our father ik it gets lonely sometimes be we are never alone GOD is just waiting for us to come to him all you have to do is accept JESUS CHRIST as Lord and Savior if you don’t know how all you have to do is lift your hands and say thank you JESUS for dying on the cross for me I accept you in my heart as lord and savior I truly believe in you with all my heart and he will change you forever just trust in him 🙏

Guys don't put it on 2x, it sounds rlly scary

This song will always remind me about my no longer with me dog she was only 8 and cancer I was playing this song while she was resting hopeless in the bed I just cat hear this without crying so I try to stay away frome this song 😔 she passed 5 months ago

People here be the most realistic of them all

this song played when i was half asleep and i thought i just spawned in the backrooms

Soon it will all be over and I will rest in peace

Replying to @looloo0’s comment since I cant reply. Since it’s been 3 years I hope y’all are free now. Doing whatever y’all want. I hope y’all are doing good now.

this song makes you feel a bit nostalgic, for me it brings up my "what if" thoughts, and yet at the same time its so strangely comforting, almost like a weighted blanket providing warmth and familiarity. to me, it feels like revisiting a place from the past but you're the only one there and everyone has left. you're the only one revisiting your memories. it reminds me of the quote "you can go back to the past, but no one will be waiting for you there."

this is oddly comforting to hear

I wish i was with god normal family no sin no depression real friends i wish i have that

А чо все на инглише Бля просто спокойствие в этой песне нет никаких любых басов нет текста просто спокойная песня в какой-то мере она и успокаивает