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Would I have transitioned as a Minor? No....
This video gets a bit deep, but goes into whether or not I would have transitioned at an earlier age and my thoughts on minors receiving trans care.
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How bad are my tremors?
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Want to see how bad Essential tremor can be? Click to watch and see for yourself.
End of the Semester
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Life after Moving in
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Hey yall, this video gives an update on everything that's been going on and what I'm working. Also I did a little recap to a video I made a few weeks ago.
My experience as a Transwoman
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I MOVED INTO A DORM!
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Hey y'all, happy to announce I have moved onto a dorm. Stay tuned for the details and thank you for everyone who donated to the GoFundMe so I could have this dorm.
Life as a HOMELESS TRANSGENDER Final Part
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Hey! Thank you to all of you who donated to my gofundme, but stay tuned I'm not done with youtube yet.
Life as a HOMELESS TRANSGENDER PART 7
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Hey yall it's day 13 and I'm getting closer to finding a place to stay. If you are able to donate to the $200 application fee I have started a GoFundMe. Here is the link gofund.me/2c90c397 Thanks for all of your support🩷🩷
Life as a HOMELESS TRANSGENDER PART 6
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Hello! Nicole here, it's day 10, it's the weekend and the raccoons are out😂 . Tune in to find out what's happened over the last couple of days.
Life as a HOMELESS TRANSGENDER PART 5
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Going on day 8 of being homeless, tune in to see what's happened so far. Thank you all for your support
Life as a HOMELESS TRANSGENDER PART 4
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Hey yall it's Day 6 of being homeless and in still working to get a place to stay. Unfortunately the shelter did not work out but the dorm is still a work in progress. Stay tuned to see what happens next.
Life as a HOMELESS TRANSGENDER PART 3
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Hey yall I'm here with part 3 and I bring good news this video! Stay tuned to find out.
Life as a HOMELESS TRANSGENDER PART 2
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Hey ya'll I'm Nicole and here is part 2 of my daily life while homeless. Watch to see the adventure unfold!
Life as a HOMELESS TRANSGENDER PART 1
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Hey yall my name is Nicole, I am 23 year old transgender woman in South Carolina. I'm currently homeless and coming clean about my past and history. Stay tuned to my blogs to find out more about me!
Let me start out by saying you look especially pretty in this video. Hopefully, a sense of peace is the reason. As to your thoughts about transitioning at a younger age, I like your take. It made me think of the enthusiasm one feels when first making a decision (especially as a young person). A major decision especially is worth allowing some time to pass. If it is still a good decision down the road, you will still do it and be most certain it was the right decision. I appreciate your smart take on it. As for responding to your video, be at peace, My Friend, time is something most of us have to juggle. We understand. And if we don't, we are not very good friends. I am heading to North Carolina today, so I will be only one state away. It will inspire me to send lots of blessings and warm thoughts your way.
Happy holidays Nicole, thank you for the update! 😊
I'm Trans and have been homeless for 3 years in California Chicago Denver and Nyc it's rough I'm glad you're in college that's a plus these shelter's are rough and have crappy rules
How's your job search going in the larger cities you've been in? Plenty of open spots or no?
It’s crazy that you live with this. It looks so disruptive. Thanks for sharing what it’s like. Good luck!
@legohandsliz it is and it is what motivates me to finish college. Working in Retail, Fastfood, and warehouses is not going to work out in the long run with this medical problem. It isn't working now and it won't in the future because ET only gets worse with age. It is essential that I finish no matter what happens. It is incredibly difficult to aquire disability because ET is not identified as a disability. Even if it was, disability checks are hard to live on. Im a hard worker and I love working, Office work is the most suitable route for me and the only route realistically.
@ Clearly you’ve thought it all through. That sounds like the right way to go. I can’t believe it’s not considered a disability though.
I'm one of your subscribers
@BeverlyRoyster Hiii, im glad you commented. I don't know all of my subscribers, but welcome to the community! I appreciate you taking the time to support me here. I created this VLOG has a means of coping really, but it's been very helpful and influential since I started. I have alot of interesting stories yet to be told just waiting for the right time to tell them. The community is really friendly so feel free to comment, I hope you enjoy the content😀.
Wow I'm not commenting on RUclips anymore sis I just wrote you a long sweet little comment and RUclips deleted it just drop your email please
Wow, just as I told you "feel free to comment". I'm sorry that happened, but yes my personal email is nicoledawkins2001@gmail.com
Medical science has made significant advancements in assisting individuals; however, misdiagnosis remains a prevalent issue. For instance, numerous individuals with autism are often incorrectly identified as having bipolar disorder or manic depression. While there may be some overlap in symptoms, it is important to recognize that autistic individuals may exhibit a range of behaviors under stress that can mimic those of bipolar disorder or other conditions. One additional challenge is the lack of adequate support that individuals often require. For instance, a person may lose their job, resulting in the loss of their primary source of income. Furthermore, they may face difficulties in managing medical expenses, particularly in the event of hospitalization, which can incur substantial costs. Such financial burdens can adversely impact their credit and other related factors. Individuals who aspire to enhance their functionality and achieve greater self-sufficiency often find themselves lacking the essential resources. They may encounter challenges related to transportation or struggle to identify suitable employment opportunities that align with their unique circumstances. It is possible that a person may not be able to engage in a conventional job but requires a more flexible arrangement. This situation does not imply laziness or a deliberate avoidance of work; rather, it necessitates collaboration with individuals based on their current capabilities. Despite these challenges, there are numerous contributions that such individuals can make that hold value for organizations. Unfortunately, many employers create unnecessary barriers, particularly for those who do not conform to an arbitrary standard that is often unwarranted.
I encountered several individuals who experience tremors, and the impact of this condition varies from person to person. Online platforms often serve as a space for individuals to share their experiences, although some may resort to mockery. Nevertheless, this form of expression can be somewhat therapeutic, aiding individuals in coping with their circumstances and potentially assisting others in similar situations. However, it is essential to exercise caution when engaging online, as there is a risk of others exploiting personal disclosures. While it is unfortunate that some individuals behave in this manner, it is a reality. In light of these challenges, I extend my best wishes for your endeavors, as navigating various health conditions can indeed be quite challenging.
Yeah it gets tough when I can't even open my own water bottle sometimes😅. And yes youtube is seeing an uproar in exploitation, although I don't let the risk deter me. What matters most is that I have a community of supporters that know the truth and here for me. Media always has and will take things out of context to boost their own financial gain our popularity. Although, there's always a small portion who look to see the true story, all the facts, the sources and all the details.
Best of luck Nicole!
Thank-you for sharing this video. I am glad you documented this, especially for medical purposes. It sounds like you already know the best way to deal with this. I will just send my blessings and support.💖🕊
@mariehernandez5878 I try my best, what I've learned comes from several years of studying myself, the triggers and effects. Not much information is available online for cases this severe. I've narrowed down most of the causes and triggers, although sometimes like at work. It is hard to avoid those triggers and keep the job. If I can make it through college I'll be fine. I can get office work and leave the hands on stuff and hostile environments that trigger these episodes.
@Nicole.love2001 I am glad you can see beyond. I am trying to do that, but sometimes I just feel low. I have appreciated having you to broaden my focus. We will keep plugging along, hoping for moments of rejuvenation.
😢they are seriously disruptive. ❤
Experiencing homelessness presents significant challenges; however, it is essential to persevere. I have faced periods of living on the streets, and whenever the opportunity arises, I strive to assist individuals in similar circumstances. Many people lack an understanding of the hardships involved, and numerous individuals may feel neglected or uncared for. This sense of isolation can lead to serious consequences, including mental health struggles and, in some cases, suicidal thoughts.
4 A's and 1 B, you're killing it Nicole! Poly sci is such a fascinating major. I've never appreciated people who return lots of clothes,. How cheap of your employer to push you so hard to work faster when you have no choice but to stay late and get the job done. I'm sure you'd rather be going home when you're supposed to. I hope you get some well deserved R&R this holiday season! ❤
Wow! You did it! Great job of making such wonderful grades under such difficult conditions! As far as the job goes, managers get the pressure to keep the hours tight, so it gets passed on to you. I hope you will remember, you can only do the best you can, no matter what is being asked of you. If it is not enough, then it is not enough. Try not to let the managers' stress be your stress. The joys of retail! On the plus side, it is giving you an income, and that is a blessing.😊 Thank-you for the update. It made me happy to hear from you. Many blessings, My Girl.🙏🏽🕊🛐💞
Thank you. Good to hear from you as well. And thanks for the advice.
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I'm so glad you've been able to get some dorm supplies! And I'm sorry to hear about your ET symptoms. It's good you finally got some more info about it, but it sounds difficult to deal with. I hope it isn't too severe for you in the coming weeks.
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WELL., YEAH! (I say that like you can hear me, because I said it as soon you said you haven't been on here!! LOL!!!) I've been looking for you, Girlfriend!!! I know you've had alot going on, so I'm so happy to see you doing well and things are going better! Nicole, your integrity is amazing. You are a genuinely beautiful person, both inside and outside, you're a NATURAL BEAUTY, Nicole. Keep your head on straight, DO NOT let ANYONE OR ANYTHING influence you. The enemy will try, watch for it and don't let it happen, keep following your heart and inner Spirit, Nicole. I need to share this as well ANYTIME WE PUT SOMETHING IN OUR BODIES THAT IS NOT NATURAL TO OUR GENETIC MAKE UP, REPERCUSSIONS WILL OCCUR. PHARMA INDOCTRINATION IS FOR THEIR OWN PERSONAL GAIN AND GREED. EXCEPT YOUR BODY AS IS AND LEARN HOW TO GET YOUR MIND TO EXCEPT YOUR INNER SPIRIT. I wish we could talk privately, I really do. IDK if I have already said it or not but psychology criminal justice and theology is under my belt, I am Cherokee as well, already extremely spiritual, that was the reasons for my career choice in my youth. I feel like you are one of my grandbabies!, LOL I can't help it. I just want to make everything right for you!!! I want to share with you also that I had a friend who was taking medications and the doctors were saying her accident was the blame for her memory loss, her accident had nothing to do with it, it was the meds they were making money off of that was doing it. THEY DO USE PEOPLE AS TESTS SUBJECTS...I stepped AWAY from Criminal justice BECAUSE of what i saw being allowed....If you get what I'm saying!!! Keep yourself safe!!! See you next Friday!
Thanks for reaching out. I am happy to hear from you. 💙💛💚
Nicole, thank you so much for the update! I'm so sorry to hear about your tremor situation, that is beyond frustrating seeing two psychiatrists and two neurosurgeons that just bounce you around to the next person. I'm glad you eventually were given the proper tests and treatments. I hope you are taking good care, sending love your way! 💕
Hello Nicole. It’s me again. I’ll call myself the FinancialAid lady. I was able to listen to this video again and have some observations. 1st, if a college is not processing financial aid correctly, hopefully it will get caught in an audit. That’s a $ fine to the college. You can contact the Department of Education to investigate. Next, typically, the results of your FAFSA is sent electronically to colleges known as a SAR (Student Aid Report). Literally everything has to match what the college has on file for you. Ii recently found someone who could not be found by many of us because the student had a preferred name. I could not find the FAFSA as a result. I don’t know if it is due to the new FAFSA fir 24-25 or what. I just happened to find this student on one of the Dept of Education websites. This student was only on one of the websites. When not found it’s usually a social security number, misspelled or unmatched spelling of a name, incorrect DOB or the wrong school code entered on the FAFSA. Next, when a girl hits puberty and she is developing, she experiences tenderness and often feels like something is stinging her, especially when clothes are rubbing against that area. Sounds like that was your experience. As far as getting stared at and profiled, you know why that occurs to men of color. But at the same time, trans people get a double whammy of it. Please, please, please don’t put NOTHING, past Trump. All it will take is a billionaire to promise him money and he will do what they want. Finally, again please research all things bad about transitioning. Look at those who regret the experience so that you can be prepared. I know you said you researched but look deeper.
@pholbrook2277 I remember you, don't worry🙂. Yes USC Upstate, my former school did alot of things, false account charges, ignoring harassment, sharing information without consent, lying about conversations behind closed doors, etc. I got out of there after 2 years and I'm at a much better school now. Unfortunately, I didn't record any conversations due to them taking place in a private enclosed office, but I wish I had while I was there. But the good thing is I'm not there anymore.
@ I wish you had recorded. You’d own a house if you did. lol! 😂
King Jesus answers prayers…😇💙 believe faith is the key protect it…👽😇🥷🏻
I have been visiting with my son and have not checked your new video until today. I like your voice the way it is. I hope you are fine with it too. Let me know if you need anything. I keep you in my prayers and like to know things are impriving for you.❤
Thank you and I have been very busy myself. It feels so nice to have a full time job again. I'm trying to save for a car so I don't have to walk all these miles😮💨 I'm sure I'll get there though.
It's okay, don't let people make you feel like you want to commit suicide. It's not really your feelings, it's what the bullies want you to feel. They want you to feel unloved, but fight suicidal thoughts with your own self love and remember you are alive for a reason.
He probably wants to be transgender too, but doesn't have enough courage to be honest like you. It's not a secret about transgenders anymore, so it's not just about you being transgender, it's about how honest you are.. if someone is that aggressive towards you, then he needs mental help. Im not transgender, but I have been through issues where someone speed up like they wanted to hit me too. Honesty makes you shine..
Do some self care now. It will help with anxiety and relieve from all the bullying you have been through. Now you are in the dorm you can wash up and clean your self because I know terrible people wanted this to happen to you. Right now, don't focus on whether people are your friend or not, it's okay to go through your journey alone because at the end of the day, you'll be your own best friend.
Just rely on Jesus. Pray and seek guidence. Jesus is very real, and he hears sincere prayers. :)
Hello Nicole. Just checking in again. So happy that you have a dorm. You seem very happy. As I always suggest to my children and I always do for myself, always and I mean always, research both the good and bad sides of transitioning. Research those who have already transitioned, the good and bad experiences. I wish I could talk to you personally.
@pholbrook2277 I have researched well. Transitioning had been around for a couple hundred years at this point, but I believe now it is finally going to become enhanced and researched better. I've heard of experiments with uterus transplants although, not successful yet. They might figure things out soon. It's going to be an adventure🙂
I’m so happy for you Nicole! ❤
I’m so happy to see you!
I am going to watch this later, but wanted to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving and congratulate you on your new home. Here to support you.
What was dating like for you? Do you worry about the man wanting to kill you
Happy everything is working out you
@@jamesspeed2137 thank you!
We are our best self when we are TRUE to ourselves! Keep following your heart! ❤
I am super happy to hear you experiencing gender euphoria from transitioning! It has been such an joyful feeling and relief for me, I had not known pre-transition. I work in medicine and I am very informed on gender affirming care from my own experience and professional work, so if you ever have questions, feel free to ask. Are you connected to other trans people? Is there community on campus, or in your town? I feel like we are always doing better together ❤️
@lunabrevis4620 I have a virtual community I can connect with, but I don't really use it. I really just haven't felt the need to ig.
Link to GoFundMe gofund.me/f18b7cc5
Thank you so much for sharing your personal experience. It's very educational for me not having much direct contact with anyone who is transgender. And I'm glad you try not to let peoples ignorant or hateful comments get to you. You're too sweet of a person to let them bring you down. ❤
@legohandsliz Thank you, and yes transgenders can be very rare in appearance. Many trans people do not want others to know they are transgender. I think I am one of 3 at my university that I know of 😅 but there could be many more in hiding.
How nice to see you! ❤️ Would have rather seen you move in with the girls, but I hope you can still be comfortable with the guys and that they are treating you nice. I don’t see the gofundme link yet, can you comment it again? :)
Sorry I forgot to post it. I'll do it now
I found it on the other post! :) Hope there will be some money left to get something nice for yourself!
I'm so impressed with you staying in university under your circumstances! I'm sure you'll be successful in more than one way in the future! Wish you all the best!
Nicole, you are an exceptionally lovely person, that deserves all the best! 💕
@katherinelyons4799 Thank you, I do my best to be kind.
I smiled ear to ear as soon as your video started playing and I saw you in a dorm. So happy for you!!!
It's nice to be In a dorm again. I'm going to try my best to stay here until I finish school
Are you going to start another Go Fund Me so that we can send money to help with things you may need for your dorm?
That's so thoughtful, but I wasn't planning on it. Y'all have done so much already. Although if you want to continue to donate I will set one up.
Red is so your color! ❤ I hope your dorm application goes smoothly today Nicole. We are all here for you!
Thanks and yeah I'm definitely liking the Red. It makes my skin look a little brighter