I am a real grown up
I am a real grown up
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day 3 and I've had enough
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I don't feel like talking tonight it's been a day of being in bed until after lunch and Dead back in the uncomfortable armchair I will do something longer tomorrow 9
Day 2 of self isolation and I'm not crazy yet or am I?
Просмотров 154 года назад
Day 2 of fe self-isolation and I'm not going crazy yet and by dictator beard is coming on lovely and my mummy be bought in a TV for my PlayStation got some blueprints of the layout out and there's a chapel and a over grown graveyard so as soon as I can leave my room going exploring
daý 1 of self isolation in a strange place surrounded by strange people
Просмотров 194 года назад
I'm going to document the next 14 days stick around add witness boy slow descent in to crazy
31 May 2020 have a think about it
Просмотров 354 года назад
I'm not trying to change things I just think I have a valid point to make
It's not goodbye more smell you later
Просмотров 334 года назад
Hello I hope everyone is keeping safe if so so as you can tell by the title I have decided leave RUclips for a while right now I am struggling a lot with my depression and now with this isolationist well everything is fucking with my head hopefully I will return but in the meantime I will be be still updating iamarealgrownup daily it would be good if if you all come along and join ...
Even my social anxiety doesn't like this
Просмотров 194 года назад
How is everyone? I now have all this free time on my hands so so I'm getting down to editing and just generally doing more social internet stuff to help pass everyone's time right now I've started a daily music post over on on the Facebook page where I I recommend and tell you why why I'm recommending a new album for people listen to 2 each day and then hopefully get a chat going about it it an...
My my my Corona
Просмотров 204 года назад
Well yet another day of sitting around just waiting 4 for Death to come in the way of of the virus not really but but there has definitely been a more of a serious attitude towards everything at the moment I am thinking about my disability benefits and getting some food to eat and now that they have closed all the schools how will this affect my carer and her child because she can't keep bringi...
A grown up PSA
Просмотров 84 года назад
So this is how the world ends and not with a bang hello everyone hope you're all ok ok this Corona virus has now got a little bit more serious and hopefully this video will show my thoughts on this situation are they good or are they bad you have to watch the video to find out cool keep safe wash your hands do that shit talk to your neighbours and keep sensible don't be a twatt
I'm not the problem
Просмотров 154 года назад
After having to endure another week of people letting me down and coming up with bulshit excuses for their bulshit reasons for what what they are are doing it does upset me and stress me out out so now fuck them my life will be so much better without them is it it it anyway way thanks for watching do what you do do comets shares describe joined Facebook and then we'll all good and things will g...
A new start?
Просмотров 214 года назад
a funeral sickness and yet another outlook on life if it's been a funny old week and because of of circumstances I can see how I need to change and what what order I need to take eque2 make me me happy so so watch the video and please do all the things the nice man tells you to do and I'll be back very very soon goodbye everyone and live like you stole it iamarealgrownup
To be honest I'm not doing so well
Просмотров 274 года назад
Nothing I seem to do helps mend my mental health I feel worthless pointless useless and in the way everything is just fucked up and I don't know how but I want it fixed sorry for being miserable and everything so so go outside the sun is shining it is kind of dry bit windy in places so so wrap up warm and make sure everyone has fun
Yeah this sucks
Просмотров 294 года назад
Nice guys finish last don't I fucking know it this sucks that sucks everything fucking sucks if I was giving a teenager some advice it would be be don't fucking bother with anything it's not worth it it and you're the only one who loses out at the end of the day
19 days down only 347 to go
Просмотров 214 года назад
Hello everybody I hope you all doing well today basically I'm sick of of living like this and sick of saying this and you're all probably sick of hearing me saying it but but I I fucking heat everything at the moment I'm once again really not having a good time of things but I suppose the difference is I now know so how how I appear to people and what I need to do to change things well so far i...
This is not the way it should be
Просмотров 544 года назад
hello everybody I hope everybody is doing good today is just a short video don't really fill in the mood to do anything I really hate being like this especially with all the hard work I've put in in but I just don't seem to be getting anything from it karma is a cunt bad shit happens to good people bad people do what they want and get the world
2019 a disappointing lead up up to 2020
Просмотров 204 года назад
2019 a disappointing lead up up to 2020
Somerset don't care
Просмотров 714 года назад
Somerset don't care
This is not the best conversation I want to have but it's something I have to say
Просмотров 414 года назад
This is not the best conversation I want to have but it's something I have to say
I return with a message for all
Просмотров 614 года назад
I return with a message for all
The story of a lonely Guy
Просмотров 535 лет назад
The story of a lonely Guy
things don't get better
Просмотров 645 лет назад
things don't get better
happy new year I'm gonna have a good year
Просмотров 195 лет назад
happy new year I'm gonna have a good year
there must be more than frustration?
Просмотров 235 лет назад
there must be more than frustration?
lonely thoughts of hate
Просмотров 215 лет назад
lonely thoughts of hate
Health update I’m still in hospital
Просмотров 366 лет назад
Health update I’m still in hospital
lonely and scared
Просмотров 276 лет назад
lonely and scared
A lone star
Просмотров 236 лет назад
A lone star
It’s Been Awhile But The Ibach
Просмотров 216 лет назад
It’s Been Awhile But The Ibach
thank you matt and thank you all for helping out there are some good people left
Просмотров 326 лет назад
thank you matt and thank you all for helping out there are some good people left
A quick hello
Просмотров 326 лет назад
A quick hello

Комментарии

  • @BobBapo
    @BobBapo 2 года назад

    As a society we have to look into if what is happening is right. Maybe the ancient greek city states were right.,

  • @hereboston4619
    @hereboston4619 4 года назад

    I see this was a while ago...how are you now???

  • @hereboston4619
    @hereboston4619 4 года назад

    I’m praying for you my brother! I hope Jesus hears me!!! Love you!

  • @emelizabxth
    @emelizabxth 4 года назад

    Great video and stay healthy!!!

  • @juliet8257
    @juliet8257 4 года назад

    It is upsetting to hear about your uncle. I understand it is a difficult key in your life especially if you're struggling with life which you cant help. But the most I can do is: tell you to be brave; face the world's challenges. I'm not saying everything is going to be perfect because life isnt that easy but it will slowly get better. I really hope the best for you and hope you have a good future. Please, stay safe. Personally, I struggle to say no a lot. But, it is really unhealthy to constantly say yes and it may he better to change your view and sometimes say no. Not to the point you have stopped caring but just so you can look after yourself. Think of yourself first. Also, I am glad to hear that you understand that you should never compare yourself to others mainly because there is always someone better than someone else and the problem with most people, they assume just because they are not perfect means they should not be confident. So I am glad to hear you are changing your perspective. Do not compare yourself to other because you are the one being judged in the end. :3 It is not selfish to say no and it's good that you are understanding this. I've watched you for a while and it had really made me feel upset for you. Do stay safe. Stay well. Have a good remaining of your day; enjoy it. C:

  • @kawardt6784
    @kawardt6784 4 года назад

    Stay strong mate

  • @jamieian
    @jamieian 4 года назад

  • @389rwhp
    @389rwhp 4 года назад

    Hello friend, we suffer from many of the same symptoms. I'm sorry to hear about your uncle. I have learned by watching a video on RUclips Dolores Cannon between death and life. She was an amazing woman that has taught me so much about the truth. She says that Earth is a school, we agree to reincarnate on this Earth to learn and experience. To break our contract and commit suicide will only result to be forced to come back and do it all over again. Where allowed to repeat a grade But Not Skip It. Knowing that and watching more of her videos has helped me tremendously with my thoughts and depression. The only medication I consume is marijuana given to us by our creator. Hoping this advice will help you as well. Take care

  • @toxica.a9613
    @toxica.a9613 5 лет назад

    7r

  • @toxica.a9613
    @toxica.a9613 5 лет назад

    I’m going to be in ur class

  • @sanjithajose8236
    @sanjithajose8236 5 лет назад

    I know mr betterridge

  • @kainansousa5263
    @kainansousa5263 5 лет назад

    hi, just found you, keep it up, i feel you man, if you ever need someone to talk contact me here's my IG: instagram.com/chu_music/?hl=pt FB: facebook.com/kainan.felipe.3 ps- No pity involved.

  • @juliet8257
    @juliet8257 5 лет назад

    Bless you!! 🙁

  • @chrismorris9866
    @chrismorris9866 5 лет назад

    Happy new year max!!

  • @juliet8257
    @juliet8257 6 лет назад

    I'm so sorry mate!!! I feel bad for you! :( But keep going I know you can do it! I'll pray to god for ya! Bless your soul!

  • @juliet8257
    @juliet8257 6 лет назад

    Aww dude no need to feel down! You have a terrible life and I'm super sorry to hear that!!! But you know what I say? "How ever tough the journey is there's always a beautiful end." Bless your poor soul! :(

  • @MrDeleon9999
    @MrDeleon9999 6 лет назад

    Stay positive bro and jeep the videos coming... CHEERS from southern Oregon 🍻

  • @TheQuadfather
    @TheQuadfather 6 лет назад

    From this video you seem to be a depressed, angry, cynical guy. If you’re going to do a dating site you should describe yourself as an independent, Strong man, who’s had some tough times but is still living life. After you describe yourself in this way, you’re going to have to start acting like that otherwise you’ll run them off as soon as they meet you.

  • @TheQuadfather
    @TheQuadfather 6 лет назад

    They didn’t date you because you played in a band bro, They dated you because you were confident because you were in a band. Confidence was the key.

  • @TheQuadfather
    @TheQuadfather 6 лет назад

    I went back and looked at all your other videos. Your biggest problem is you feel sorry for yourself and it’s pretty obvious that you do. The more you feel sorry for yourself the more women are going to feel sorry for you. I’m sorry to tell you but women don’t want a man they feel sorry for. You’re gonna have to get some confidence and some positivity, and if you can’t get it for real you’re going to have to fake it. Life sucks if you think it sucks and no one wants to be with someone who thinks life sucks. Yes you’re in a wheelchair it sucks dick, yes dating is way harder in a wheelchair which sucks dick, but you have a strap on a smile and attack the day like a strong ass man. Because that’s what a woman wants a strong ass man. Don’t give me any bullshit excuses because I’m in wheelchair too homie.

  • @TheQuadfather
    @TheQuadfather 6 лет назад

    Bro are you always this negative. You gotta be positive if you wanna pull a good woman.

  • @albertoq4806
    @albertoq4806 6 лет назад

    What is your name and what state do you reside in ?

  • @kay699
    @kay699 6 лет назад

    I would describe you as distant, proud, cool person with lots of struggles <3

  • @fckyouall9895
    @fckyouall9895 6 лет назад

    ❤❤

  • @MrDeleon9999
    @MrDeleon9999 6 лет назад

    Have a happy New Year brother... life for living so live it well...

  • @fckyouall9895
    @fckyouall9895 7 лет назад

    what condition do you have

  • @leeroyking7308
    @leeroyking7308 7 лет назад

    I think u should chat up dat nurse.. ;)

  • @MrDeleon9999
    @MrDeleon9999 7 лет назад

    You look better man... Stay postive...

  • @MrDeleon9999
    @MrDeleon9999 7 лет назад

    Stay Strong man..

  • @MrDeleon9999
    @MrDeleon9999 7 лет назад

    Prayers bro... Stay strong man... You can pull yourself out of this...

  • @MrDeleon9999
    @MrDeleon9999 7 лет назад

    Keep the faith brother.. I been there many times in my life.. But also had many girlfriends and long term relations... I been in a chair for over 20 years... Life comes as it goes... One day your down the next your flying high.... Know that your a gift to the world... And the right person will come along...

  • @artfreak81
    @artfreak81 7 лет назад

    I feel for you my brother. I've been blind since I was born and I have periodic bouts of depression and sadness, it's just part of being different in our society. Blindness is not the end of the world, and I know that may be hard for you to hear but there are still lots of things to be enjoyed in the world other than sight. I know that being told you are going to go blind, going to die, all that shit is very scary and distressing for you, and I don't blame you for feeling that way. At this point you have two choices. You can either focus on the parts of your life that are shitty, which is very easy to do. On the other hand you can focus on the things in your life that make you happy, the good things that you can appreciate. You sound like a very kind and intelligent person to me, you have an incredible honesty and frankness about ouow you are feeling and I deeply respect you for that. My advice to you is to enjoy what you have now, and try to appreciate this moment. No one knows what tomorrow is going to bring. Focus on the moment, appreciate your vision while you still have it, and if you can prepare yourself for the time that you may lose your sight, do that. You will be a lot happier if you already have skills that you can use if you do go blind, rather than waiting until you are blind. Blind people are not helpless, and you will still be able to do most of the things that you desire to do, just in a different way. I travel through cities on my own with Gps, I memorize the layout of the grocery stores and use my phone to take pictures of the things I don't know about; there are apps like Google Goggles which will identify anything you can imagine. You will still be able to live independently, so don't fear that part of it. We are all lucky in our own way and in order to realize that we have to be grateful to the universe. That's the only way to feel better about a situation like your own and mine, along with doing things you enjoy. You will be okay my friend, but you have to keep your head up. Feeling sad is easier than being happy, and you're going to have bad days; that's everybody regardless if they are blind, in a wheelchair, deaf, whatever. There are people who care about you, I care about you man. If you ever want to talk just message me on RUclips.

  • @quovita323
    @quovita323 7 лет назад

    Hiya, I used to come to you as a carer a few times. I have since started my own care company. We are in your area everyday so if you want one of my carers to drop in for a chat anytime let me know. There are no agency I promise!!, same carers everyday. Take care x

  • @THERAPEUTICJUNKIE
    @THERAPEUTICJUNKIE 7 лет назад

    Still here, still wishing I could change something.... on an aside, edit your tags - spelling mistakes might stop people finding your videos X

  • @makeupandglamourxoxo
    @makeupandglamourxoxo 7 лет назад

    Hi, I just came across you video and I couldn't ignore it. Life's hard sometimes and I'm sure yours is really hard but there are always someone worst than us. I can't imagine what you're going through but you have a lot to live and enjoy, you are a piece of the puzzle called earth so you are needed and irreplaceable. I live in Portugal so I can't really do much for you but if talking helps here is my email itsbiaytb@gmail.com Stay well

  • @ThisisTwizzy
    @ThisisTwizzy 7 лет назад

    Thinking of you mate ❤️

  • @motocrossking84able
    @motocrossking84able 7 лет назад

    I have had depression ever since u was 14 I'm 25 now turning 26 in 5 days I'm not excited now I'm schito effective life's burdens are so hard but I'm trying to stick I'm here I hope you do too bro

  • @ThisisTwizzy
    @ThisisTwizzy 7 лет назад

    Thinking of you mate x

  • @andrewchampy5222
    @andrewchampy5222 7 лет назад

    What helps me sometimes is knowing that there are tons and tons of people out there who have it so much worse than you and how they would do anything to have what you do. And how they would kill to be you, just like you and I would kill to be somebody else.

    • @andrewchampy5222
      @andrewchampy5222 7 лет назад

      It's not a lot to go on but maybe it will take the edge off. I feel how you feel 90% of the time. But the other 10% of the time I'm thankful for what I do have. I spent a month in the ICU with a machine doing my breathing and a feeding tube and an in-dwelling catheter, and unable to speak. And luckily I was able to eventually breath and talk and eat, and get rid of the in dwelling catheter. My family is behind me 100% and I have an amazing mother who will do anything for me. I'm not trying to make you feel badly, just try to think of those people who don't have what you do. People who have to live in hospitals and can't have Christmas with their families. I broke my neck on my 30th birthday (I'm 32.5 now) and needless to say I don't celebrate my birthday anymore. Everything else still sucks bad for me, don't get me wrong , I cry everyday. I always want to go back in time and do something else that day but I can't and I have to live with it. I'm in a prison in my own body. It's as if I died that day and I'm dragging around my own corpse. I miss who I used to be and what I could do and I'll never forgive myself for putting this burden on the ones I love, that's the thing I have the most regret for.

  • @andrewchampy5222
    @andrewchampy5222 7 лет назад

    I know exactly what you mean.

  • @andrewchampy5222
    @andrewchampy5222 7 лет назад

    I feel you man. It is almost impossible for me to find happiness or joy in things anymore. Even looking outside hurts because I see all these things that I want to do and that I used to be able to do. This is not how things were supposed to be.

  • @annetteiroanya9883
    @annetteiroanya9883 7 лет назад

    ❤️

  • @ThisisTwizzy
    @ThisisTwizzy 7 лет назад

    Stay strong bro. Wishing you all the best

    • @Rebekah0417
      @Rebekah0417 4 года назад

      Hey sweetie I just came across your video and I am going blind as well and have severe depression and suicidal thoughts and I’m really having a very rough time adjusting and your video just made me cry because I know exactly how you’re feeling right now I would love for you to reach out to me send only a few views on this I will just leave my cell phone number and anyone else you would like to reach out who has seen this video my number is 1-570-690-3841 I hope to hear from you sweetie

  • @truckcampertraveler7369
    @truckcampertraveler7369 8 лет назад

    Stay strong ! Your an inspiration things will get BETTER!

  • @patricenicholastalksadvice9457
    @patricenicholastalksadvice9457 8 лет назад

    Hey, Great video!

  • @yoshi1325
    @yoshi1325 8 лет назад

    You don't have to be sorry for ranting man... Your story is honestly touching me and I hope that your situation will somehow get better!

  • @THERAPEUTICJUNKIE
    @THERAPEUTICJUNKIE 8 лет назад

    Max you need an 'about' part on youtube so people can find you with tags - the smart house and house hacks kind of angle is interesting to me and I think to others too. Literally the only way I've been growing my channel is through good search terms.

  • @THERAPEUTICJUNKIE
    @THERAPEUTICJUNKIE 8 лет назад

    That's totally shit Max

  • @PartContinuum
    @PartContinuum 9 лет назад

    Woooooo Shepton!

  • @fizzyd83
    @fizzyd83 9 лет назад

    Nice one Max. Got a link for that dog eating snow video? ;)