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Update and Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria
Talmnbout RSD and just what's going on in life.
If you'd like to support me, my cashtag is $ThePenitent
#rejection #autisticadult #genderfluid #RSD
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Видео

Delusion isn't being wrong
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Or having wacky ideas. Or disagreeing with you.
Dear non-autistics: WTF is going on
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Please please tell us
Abilities change
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The capacities of people with disabilities are not always static. For example, me.
Actually talking about comp het
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Compulsory heterosexuality and how it ruined my life.
Oops I'm gay
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Why it took me so long to figure this out. Here's a link to the video I mention: ruclips.net/video/K7WvHTl_Q7I/видео.html
Queer and Autistic Masking
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And a lil update.
I'm back!
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The AQI is 429!
Navigating self-care and relationships when you have a chronic condition
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Answering a viewer's question, and talking about how I try to achieve a balance.
Update & ask me questions
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A quick update on my life and mental health and an invitation to ask me all your questions.
Update: something is wrong with my nervous system, but I have good news.
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Update: something is wrong with my nervous system, but I have good news.
Pregnancy and breastfeeding on Lithium
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Just my own *personal* experiences going through a pregnancy and breastfeeding while taking lithium carbonate for bipolar disorder.
I'm an autistic EXTROVERT
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Yes, it is possible. No, autism is not a personality.
My meltdowns as an autistic adult
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Yes, we still have meltdowns. No, that's not comfortable to admit. Here's how and why I have mine.
I'm genderfluid FYI
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In which I discuss a little bit about my gender. Also I'm tired.
Making fun of psychosis | Ableism on the Left
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Making fun of psychosis | Ableism on the Left
"Are you OK?" is a weird question
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"Are you OK?" is a weird question
When you're suicidal, it's hard to reach out.
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When you're suicidal, it's hard to reach out.
Anxiety is not just "worrying"
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Anxiety is not just "worrying"
I'm bipolar and I like lithium!
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I'm bipolar and I like lithium!
Suicidal impulses and intrusive thoughts
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Suicidal impulses and intrusive thoughts
Guys like Onision: a few of my stories
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Guys like Onision: a few of my stories
Narcissists in the Neurodivergence movement??
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Narcissists in the Neurodivergence movement??
The BEST bipolar representation in film
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The BEST bipolar representation in film
Health update, plus autism spectrum & hormonal imbalance
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Health update, plus autism spectrum & hormonal imbalance
Tips for managing mania
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Tips for managing mania
What to do when your loved one is psychotic
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What to do when your loved one is psychotic
Lying, deception, and the autism spectrum
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Lying, deception, and the autism spectrum
Narcissists vs. Autistics: Why do they get mixed up?
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Narcissists vs. Autistics: Why do they get mixed up?
RE: Chris Hansen interviews Billie
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RE: Chris Hansen interviews Billie

Комментарии

  • @ShreeBadiger-ue2vd
    @ShreeBadiger-ue2vd 24 дня назад

    My sister 3 months pregnant she is taking lithium tablet should it affet baby

  • @MultiMediaEvan
    @MultiMediaEvan Месяц назад

    Thanks for the video! It really resonated with me. I'm diagnosed bipolar 1, then later Autistim and ADHD. I had a manic episode for which I was hospitalized four years ago during the covid pandemic. A really crazy time 😅 lol. But what I think brought it about was that I sought my visions of what I thought would be pleasurable for myself. I ended up not sleeping for several days and I was off to the races 🙃😬. I felt the same sort of intellectual and spiritual pride that you mentioned. I did hurt myself and a lot of others emotionally during this period. I'm more stable fours years on, but it's a work in progress, I've got to remind myself not to seek narcissistic and somatic gratification, or at least to get it under control, to normal levels. That seems to be a big trigger for me. Thanks for the vid 🙂!

  • @Chimeraaas
    @Chimeraaas 2 месяца назад

    Lmao okay ableist

  • @bunnybird9342
    @bunnybird9342 5 месяцев назад

    The ways I've seen narcissists trying to hijack the neurodivergent community really reminds me of back several years ago when pedophiles started calling themselves "MAPs" and tried to hijack the LGBT community. Or when people defend "non-offending pedophiles" in general, which is eerily similar to whenever people argue that narcissists aren't inherently abusive. The LGBT community kicked the pedophiles' asses out and it would really benefit the neurodivergent community if they followed their example when it comes to narcissists. Just like how pedophiles will never be a part of the LGBT community, narcissists will never be a part of the neurodivergent community.

  • @debtalan6255
    @debtalan6255 7 месяцев назад

    Thank you for this--survivor in all the ways here, also. And I appreciate you sharing your thoughts here. Glad I stumbled on your channel.🙏🏻

  • @DystopianDIY
    @DystopianDIY 8 месяцев назад

    Thank you for this. I just encountered a “neurodivergent” space online where everything and everyone was being labeled as neurodivergent; even people with BPD and NPD. I’m a survivor of multiple narcissistic relationships; both at work and in my personal life. There is no way for me to coexist in a space where I am being told to accept someone at face value that has a disorder where they are known for their unreliable personal narrative or manipulative tendencies. Frankly, the whole line that “narcissistic abuse doesn’t exist” feels like straight up gaslighting! It 100% exists and I experienced it first hand! People with NPD don’t get to tell me what I did or did not experience, and they certainly do not get to control the narrative of their victims! If they don’t like the truth, maybe they should do some self-reflection and go to therapy rather than blaming the people whom they have hurt! If this form of “neurodivergence” acceptance/celebration continues to be pushed, I will no longer participate in it. I have every right to define the boundaries of who I will and will not associate with for my own mental health, and nobody with NPD has any right to force me to accept them or their toxic behavior. You want my acceptance and/or trust? Earn it. Nobody gets a free pass anymore; especially if someone tries to blackmail me with the accusation that I’m being *ableist* for having boundaries in the first place.

    • @lizokitten2
      @lizokitten2 8 месяцев назад

      I mean it's complicated. The underlying trauma in BPD, NPD, etc. cause different neurotypes to develop, so they are neurodivergent. And of course many cluster b people aren't necessarily abusive or dishonest. But things go wrong when we turn being neurodivergent into only a positive thing. We can't deny the increased risk of abusive and manipulative behaviors to please their egos. That's not good for anyone involved.

    • @emartin29
      @emartin29 10 дней назад

      Please listen, you experienced abuse, you're an abuse survivor. Nobody will take that away from you. But it's emotional abuse, not narcissistic abuse. People with NPD don't abuse people in an special way, there's not something, a way, they can abuse that others can't. And it is ableist to label NPD as an abusive disorder. And yes, everything that is not neurotypical, is neurodivergent. Every disorder is neurodivergence. I have NPD, and as a person online I can't say I'm not abusive and expect you to believe because you don't know me and that's what any abuser would say, but a disorder doesn't make anyone inherently abusive, and there's also no special way a person with a disorder can abuse that neurotypical can't. Being an abuse survivor makes you as deserving of respect as anyone else, but so do people with an specific disorder, and also things get even more ironic when most NPD people have NPD because of abuse, or trauma. It's a traumagenic disorder. I'm not trying to gaslight you, I'm not saying you didn't go through abuse, it is simply ableist to call it "narcissistic abuse" when it's called emotional abuse, please understand that. I hope this doesn't come off as rude, I just wish for NPD to be as respected as any disorder, and also understand respecting NPD doesn't mean respecting abuse nor bad behaviour, because NPD doesn't mean that, just like any other disorder doesn't, if someone is bad, they have to take accountability and nobody deserves to be judged or generalized or dehumanized because of a disorder, those things do not contradict each other. It's important to bring up NPD and ASPD in the neurodivergent movement because we're called demons, we're stigmatized, those disorders are seen as "evil abuser manipulator disorder", it's so important to humanize them, to humanize us. I consider myself a pretty normal human being, my partner who has NPD and BPD, she as well. I perceive things different and can have wrong thoughts, I'm aware, I don't wish anyone actual harm, the same thing with my partner. People need to realize seeing some disorders as inmoral or moral is ableist, harmful and dangerous... I'm also autistic and have ADHD, it saddens to see such positive and supportive things when researching on those two, while getting antagonized and villainized when researching NPD, all neurodiverce deserves respect and acceptance... I'm sorry you went through abuse, but don't throw narcissists under the bus by labeling as "narcissistic abuse", it is emotional abuse, that anyone, sane or not, NPD or not, can inflict. And respect is lost, not earned, once somebody abuses or behaves wrong they don't deserve respect. You own everybody respect, any disabled person, everyone deserves to be treated like a person until they don't treat others the same way.

    • @DystopianDIY
      @DystopianDIY 10 дней назад

      ⁠@@emartin29Here’s my issue with your statement that “narcissistic abuse” is just an ableist term for emotional abuse. The abuse I received from multiple narcissists, including my partner, was not just emotional in nature. In fact, it followed a fairly predictable pattern. It’s why you can Google search the symptoms of “Narcissistic Abuse” and find a list of common characteristics of this abusive dynamic that include gaslighting, emotional and verbal abuse, projection, isolation, threats of physical violence and/or physical abuse, devaluation, censorship, shifting goalposts, and love bombing. I can’t help it if narcissists have a predictable pattern of abuse. It just so happens, it was exactly this pattern that allowed me to recognize the covert narcissism in my partner and finally escape after specifically Googling “symptoms of narcissistic abuse”. I also can’t help that narcissistic personality disorder is often caused by abuse just as they cannot help that they were abused. However, there is never an excuse for a victim of abuse to turn into an abuser. I get that individuals with NPD have a core wound that drives their actions. I get that they are still human. I get that NPD is anything but neurotypical. However, I still have the right to set a personal boundary on who I will and will not trust and/or associate with based on if I believe that person to be a threat to my mental and/or physical health.

  • @allicat131
    @allicat131 Год назад

    excellent info. thank you for sharing your experience!

  • @hempenasphalt1587
    @hempenasphalt1587 Год назад

    Psychosis is not a joke, sometimes I wish God would give people who are insensitive about it, a little taste of the suffering of it :( not nice of me I know, but it occurs to me.

    • @lizokitten2
      @lizokitten2 Год назад

      No I get it and it isn't mean to want people to understand. And sometimes understanding is necessarily painful 🤷🏻

  • @hempenasphalt1587
    @hempenasphalt1587 Год назад

    Nice prayer wall

  • @hempenasphalt1587
    @hempenasphalt1587 Год назад

    Interesting

  • @Stalemarshmallow
    @Stalemarshmallow Год назад

    Thank you for this. Been on lithium since I was 18 and I’m more hopeful I can have kids

  • @USA-o5o
    @USA-o5o Год назад

    I think if you use crazy to bully someone who has a mental illness then yes in that term it’s a slur but if you use it in a joking way with your friends no it’s not a slur

    • @lizokitten2
      @lizokitten2 Год назад

      Totally. It can absolutely be used abusively. I think actually though the group of people who suffer the most from this are people being gaslit in abusive relationships, not people with mental illness (although obviously there is overlap). We get stigmatized but in my experience it's less calling us "crazy" and more dehumanizing us as a response to our specific symptoms. The only time I was called "crazy" in a dehumanizing way when I actually was psychotic... it was a bunch of people who gaslit me about the abuse that led to my psychosis. So yeah I think it's more often connected with that. In which case I think it's more important to look at the dynamics at play in those situations than the specific word choices.

    • @USA-o5o
      @USA-o5o Год назад

      @@lizokitten2 I totally agree with you I think people in abusive relationships are called crazy when they are being gaslighted

  • @EOShorts
    @EOShorts Год назад

    Thank you for sharing 🙏🏽

  • @GloomGenetics
    @GloomGenetics Год назад

    being delusional is not living in reality, therefor its not a "wacky idea" or "disagreeing with you" its Mental illness, Seek therapy.

  • @ScottyAka123
    @ScottyAka123 Год назад

    Keep your chin up✌️ I know the feeling

  • @ScottyAka123
    @ScottyAka123 Год назад

    👍👍👍

  • @crysvicious
    @crysvicious Год назад

    This needs more views the narcs and psychopaths and other cluster B's are forming a literal army on Instagram and a large part of the Autism spectrum community is accepting them and normalizing narc abuse and going as far as saying narc abuse isn't real which totally invalidates and devalues people who have been real victims of narc abuse. As an autist and ADHD-er who is a survivor of 8 years worth of narc abuse by a malignant narcissist, I know that autists and aspbians are more likely to be abused by narcs and psychos the Autistic population is more vulnerable to being abused and manipulated point blank. Teaching them to accept and normalize narc abuse is outright dangerous I also support any cluster b people who are trying to get help and work on themselves I know not all narcs and psychos are abusers but the fact is their traits make them more likely to be abusive. The ' let's normalize and accept and celebrate narc and psycho traits ' part of the neurodivergent community are posting straight up gaslighting and Crazy making type stuff it's getting ridiculous

  • @RatsPicklesandMusic
    @RatsPicklesandMusic 2 года назад

    I ID as bi. Sometimes I've wondered if I'm actually gay... But I do think I love my boyfriend. I just... Think I have a preference for women. I hope I'm not wrong.

    • @lizokitten2
      @lizokitten2 2 года назад

      Oof, yeah. I wish you luck on your journey either way!

  • @RatsPicklesandMusic
    @RatsPicklesandMusic 2 года назад

    As a kid I used to wish I'd been born a boy simply for the convenience... I identify as agender now. 😅

  • @RatsPicklesandMusic
    @RatsPicklesandMusic 2 года назад

    Thank you so much for this video!! I'm going to share this!!

  • @katyblaisdell5802
    @katyblaisdell5802 2 года назад

    How many milligrams of lithium were you on when you got pregnant?

  • @Lisel
    @Lisel 2 года назад

    Thank you for explaining so well. Last 5-10 minutes was really great and very relatable. Just got diagnosed and learn so much.

  • @valerianmandrake
    @valerianmandrake 2 года назад

    Thanks for this video, it's very informative. I struggle to deal with a loved one in their psychotic states, so watching this helped me make more sense of their behavior and understand things better.

  • @chlhpua
    @chlhpua 2 года назад

    Hi! Your video was really useful. Do you know your MBTI type?

    • @lizokitten2
      @lizokitten2 2 года назад

      Thank you! Yeah I am ENTP / ENFP (I've taken the test many times and it's one or the other but always close to the cusp)

  • @purple_moxy
    @purple_moxy 2 года назад

    Idk if you'll see this but I've been hyper fixated researching about autism for the last two months because I suspect I'm autistic and it's so scary how much I relate with the way you think, see and do things, it's amazing, I don't want this to come off as weird or creepy, it's just really odd for me to find someone so alike, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences

  • @lizastufflococucs6200
    @lizastufflococucs6200 2 года назад

    Your diagnosed Bipolar may not be spiritual to you. But that does not discount others experience. There may even be an overlap between people who are experiencing a spiritual event and those having a manic episode. To me my "mania" was freeing, expansive, productive and down right fun. Weather other people were better than me or vise versa , or any feeling of pride, never entered into it, perhaps that could be one of your complexes coming into play. For me with each mania episode, also came profound shifts in my perspective that were the foundation for positive changes in my life. For me each episode was the death of or letting go of paradigms that no longer served me and the acceptance of aspects of my self that I previously denied either due to social, familiar, or religious pressures. I think the point of the folks trying to find their way out side of Western medicine are trying to form the foundation of that network of guidance you say is lacking. It has to start somewhere. Bipolar is not new, Aretaeus of Cappadocia of 1st century Greece analysed and treated bipolar disorder. So somehow people have lived with it, in fact if they hadn't you wouldn't be here. They wouldn't have lived to pass on the gene to you.

    • @lizokitten2
      @lizokitten2 Год назад

      When I talked about pride, I wasn't necessarily talking about arrogance, but rather hubris. And mania does very much lend itself to hubris, like, definitively. That's part of what mania is. It's not that I don't think there's any spiritual aspect to it, or that it's necessarily impossible to keep grounded enough to have a worthwhile experience -- I'm glad you did. My point is more that it's dangerous and shouldn't be glorified as inherently spiritual or inherently good the way I've seen a lot on the internet -- that's a really dangerous thing to do.

  • @carolkraus2422
    @carolkraus2422 2 года назад

    Thank you for sharing

  • @lizarcher1
    @lizarcher1 2 года назад

    The hospital was so unhelpful I was suicidal and they wouldn’t let me take lithium

    • @lizokitten2
      @lizokitten2 2 года назад

      That's horrible. Yes I hear a lot of bad things like this. Lithium is unfairly maligned.

  • @celine9322
    @celine9322 3 года назад

    Relatable

  • @noobpullup
    @noobpullup 3 года назад

    I can relate, specially the last part!

  • @lovelife9332
    @lovelife9332 3 года назад

    I have the same exact thing too and you described it perfectly. Thank you for sharing!

  • @karensutherland6155
    @karensutherland6155 3 года назад

    Thankyou for sharing your experiences, you're the first person who's explained the difficulties of breastfeeding and bipolar/lithium. Thankyou!

  • @andrewburdge5139
    @andrewburdge5139 3 года назад

    Going to go back and rewatch contrapoint's Shame. Your video and experience are very interesting. Thanks for sharing.

  • @simplyonemortality8122
    @simplyonemortality8122 3 года назад

    I think people often mix up disillusionment (“illusional” I mean, but people’s use itself of the words and their meanings) with delusion - but also people cannot see the thought process behind what people say and find it hard to figure out what is meant by peoples comments sometimes too. Things that sound “out there” people often dismiss or label as conspiracies. Also many people often seem to think saying one thing is synonymous with saying something the person didn’t actually say, too. Part of it is our subjectivity and difficultly understanding others’. I think part of it is that people pick up things they hear or see and then use things often inaccurately. As humans, we make assumptions too much and how we make them and with what information and it’s validity, is questionable - doing so, often without realising, even. Environmental factors often perpetuate these things too. I think as people we can struggle to see things from different people’s perspectives and often times words get thrown around, or people resort to doing so sometimes to not have a proper debate - for potentially various reasons.

  • @josanthepresident6565
    @josanthepresident6565 3 года назад

    Ayyy

  • @Hezelcarl1
    @Hezelcarl1 3 года назад

    I know how it feels. I’ve dealt with meltdowns, sensory overload, shut downs as well as burn out. I am an adult on the autism spectrum officially diagnosed as a child.

  • @goblinodds
    @goblinodds 3 года назад

    really well put! thanks for posting this!

  • @radioactivegorgon2307
    @radioactivegorgon2307 3 года назад

    This video is extremely accurate to my experiences and how I've learned to lie. Thank you for posting.

  • @cornelianathan4623
    @cornelianathan4623 3 года назад

    honey,I am watching.good job

  • @jessicarener6543
    @jessicarener6543 3 года назад

    Wow im the same way! When I was a kid, my mom used to tell me that I'd shut down. Now, I blow up more than just shutting down. For me, its definitely levels. Sometimes I'm full blown screaming, and sometimes (usually daily) i get so overwhelmed I become non-verbal and breathe heavily. Thank you SO much for this video. Honestly this is the first once I've seen that I could relate to because of how much detail you go into.

  • @gonnfishy2987
    @gonnfishy2987 3 года назад

    Yay someone like me

  • @SeveralRasInAJacket
    @SeveralRasInAJacket 3 года назад

    No one is ever going to stop saying crazy or stupid. We say it to our friends all the time, we say “whoa that’s crazy dude” or “you’re so crazy” regular people who are just living their lives aren’t using it to insult people with disabilities. People on Twitter will find a way to make every word offensive. People said it was racist to say sus or finna. I get your point we use it as an insult, but we will never stop insulting people. We will always find words to insult someone.

  • @ClaireCambridge
    @ClaireCambridge 3 года назад

    I am also an extroverted autist - well mostly I do need a lot of alone time

  • @kota3117
    @kota3117 3 года назад

    I'm way late at seeing this video but I have to say I really like how you explain things. I found out only 3 years ago that I'm autistic, and I'm in my forties! Watching videos like this helps me to really understand myself as well as finding the words to explain why I am the way I am. Thank you for putting yourself out there!

  • @stevenamendola8738
    @stevenamendola8738 3 года назад

    ruclips.net/video/8IGVxBb5uYk/видео.html Oh, right, I need to get back to your playlist. I got distracted noticing that you have a, very lovely, RUclips channel.

  • @stevenamendola8738
    @stevenamendola8738 3 года назад

    LSD, Psilocybin, Ayahuasca, refined DMT, MDMA

  • @stevenamendola8738
    @stevenamendola8738 3 года назад

    Oh, definitely not white. You fail the "five second" test in one second. If you tried to get into a white supremacist rally, they'd call you a Moor. I know what you mean though, I'm also not white but one doesn't want to sound like they are oblivious to nuances of inequality. Yet "white" people freak me out if I get too close, definitely Other to me. I once saw a guy turn to his father and say, "Steak's out of the park, Dad!" He was an Eagle Scout. I've never really recovered.

  • @stevenamendola8738
    @stevenamendola8738 3 года назад

    They are not mutually exclusive! Although it apparently manifests differently when autistic people develop narcissism.

  • @wisdomseeker0142
    @wisdomseeker0142 3 года назад

    This is insane.... intellectuality meets faith in a wondrous combination. This was very insightful.

  • @MyASDJourney
    @MyASDJourney 3 года назад

    Hi Liz - What I've always appreciated about you is your candor, your ability to express yourself and the respect you have for others. I hope your expanded life journey leads you to the peace and knowledge we all deserve. Best to you!