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I have the worst depression of any man who has ever set foot on earth, I feel completely crazy and dont know who I am anymore and I can not sleep without 4 different sedatives to knock me out at night. I pace backwards and fprwards before I down all these horrible chemicals every night. I unfortunatley did this to myslef by a very specific sin within seconds but my life was riddled with selfishness and greed and enny all the while deluded by Protestant Evangelical teaching that I was ok as I accpepted Jesus as saviour. I have been the most stupid man ever to have been born and did not understand repentance.. I think constantly about suicide but I know I will go to hell for talking my own life. I however do not have a life anymore and so I would not be taking a life but I ruined that life. How I have learned all the words of Jesus are so true. I just could not do them when I was a normal man. I am just a mad, crazy, depressed, banged wake creature who can not surely should not stay on this earth for this suffering. My brain is completely wrecked by psych drugs. Every day my brain tells me I deserve this unimaginable existence of a nightmare due to my sin. I am so angry that I was ever born and brought to earth to fail so stupidy and badly with Jesus to be sent to hell. I am srarting to get to angry with everything. I wish all this world would end .These drugs are completely wrecking my brain forever. I had the most beautiful life of any man but sin was too great for a Holy God to tolerate. I sowed rong deeds and I am reepiing death by insanity.

It hurts so much when it's family ❤

Her mother should've told her she was going to send her daughter to Russia and stay there permanently if she kept it up. Putin would not put up with her hair color and her own behavior.

Man, I hate when people say stuff like. Ow, just do it right the first time. Um, that’s not how life works you have to make mistakes otherwise you won’t learn.

Thank you for this video. I agree that the withdrawals were an absolute hell that no one can possibly even imagine.

Aside from the withdrawal how was it being on Geodon?

I like your style, I am subbed

I’m a questioning osdd system and that video just makes me want to lock my self off from the world. I keep telling my therapist I’m sorry for talking about it. I’m really disappointed about this girl and I hope her mom stands up to her more, if she even talked to her or sees her again. Whenever I talk about my possible disorder I use the world “POSSIBLE” or “MAYBE” or “PROBABLY NOT”. Those are the key words. I really do hope the girl realizes her mistakes and moves on.

People like this make me hide my diagnosis. I don’t want to be lumped with them. I strive for excellence and my work ethic and how I conduct my life is responsible and honest. I am a hard worker who earns respect. I don’t want people to hear my diagnosis and then think inside that I am like gothic grandpa. I take accountability for my actions and I set my expectations for myself the same as neurotypical people. No excuses. My mental disorder is no one’s responsibility but myself.

This and it's painful

I have bipolar disorder that coexist with psychosis. I go to college. I have a job. And i help pay rent and utilities. I can't lie, being mentally ill makes it hard. But it doesn't make me want to stop and blaming it on being bipolar with psychosis.

I have bipolar disorder that coexist with psychosis, got the diagnosis from my psychiatrist. I've had it for a long while. And it SUCKS. When i wasn't seeing a shrink and taking meds, i would be very impulsive, manic and i would be having (auditory) hallucinations or an episode. Thankfully, i am seeing a psychiatrist and on medication. But there are times where i cry because i fear one day, I won't be able to have treatments. And how i have to live with bipolar and psychosis for the rest of my life. People like gothgrandpa666 and other tiktokers make shit harder for us to be taken seriously. Trust me, if you have schizophrenia or DID, or any other illnesses or disabilities you would not like it. You will be so miserable.

I struggled with and continue to struggle with MDD, GAD, and binge eating disorder. Sometimes music and art can express what we are challenged to articulate. I hope you are doing okay. I can understand this picture. Well done.

Wow this hits me way to hard 😢 but it’s true

Hope you been doing ok dude. I stay coming back to your videos they remind me that im more than my illnesses thank you my friend.

i know people who say suicide by cop aka second hand suicide

These people think that havin a mental illness is something they can just say and get glorified for it... if they really had it they wouldnt be proud of it 1 bit. Its horrible and i hate wakin up everyday

Happened to me with compazine which is used for severe nausea

Brilliant video. Hit the nail on the head at every corner 👍🏾

Why the mask bro?

All these parents need to say is, "Aight, we're going to the mental health hospital so they can evaluate you. Gonna have to leave you there for a bit for them to get a full diagnoses." and watch the kids immediately drop their bullshit.

lol I see what people are talking about with the withdrawals but you gotta know how to do it;) ANTIHISTAMINES. especially DXM. It’s like opioid withdrawal. Don’t be a weenie guys;) and your heart is going to be fine chilllllll lol

mention the word suicide and you get taken in straight away. one day i was being pissy, throwing things etc. and was put in the padded room in windsor ont. no clothes, only gloves and a heavy bag to work out your anger. i also had truth serum(sodium pentathol). people who were in danger of hurting someone were quickly sedated and moved to a more controlable enviroment

I Do Not believe that You are Crazy...You are not Crazy Bro...

I’m just curious if you are homosexual? The cross ear rings are telling me you are.

I am so scared of death, but sometimes it’s so uncomfortable being alive and feeling

THE WAY YOU SAID SELF DIAGNOSED LMAO

Ahh, I see. YOU MADE A PART 2

You probably didn't know that she was self diagnosed before making this. I kinda chuckled at your confusion about "schizophrenia attack"

The first image reminds me of The Scream by Edvard Munch, who was also said to have mental illness. Very, very interesting.

Geodon is an absolutely horrible drug. It should not be legal to administer this poison to human beings.

4:44 I believe she lied to you. God does reveal Himself to anyone and everyone that seeks Him. Not everyone gets to see the Heavens open up but stories in scripture describe similar kinds of great sights. You are right it definitely was not a delusion of grandeur because you did not have any power or ego from it. You didnt feel like you were some sort of special being. You just knew in your heart as a believer of Christ that those who seek shall find! God bless you and your uniqueness! Remember seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all things will come to you! ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH GOD. let no man nor woman tell you something is impossible in relation to Yeshua. You know in your heart. Let the Holy Spirit guide you in your battle against the principalities and powers of the darkness of this age. Are you an artist? If not i would love an in depth description of what you saw and a picture of the church so I can attempt to recreate the scene through drawing a picture and superimposing it upon the Church photo! Let me know if you would like to collab in this way. Im currently reading the Bible every day devoting all my time to God and I am trying to develop and listen for the Holy Spirit to express the Spiritual gifts I have been blessed with by God

Honestly after everything I have experienced after the past 40 years I truly feel the Western model of psychotic disorders is extremely flawed and Africa has a far more efficient way to address such including psychedelics which have helped me in these regards immeasurably over the years but yes personally speaking I have witnessed these biblically accurate Angels myself namely in 2004 I was shown quite a bunch of weird stuff that oddly enough is playing out right now on the world stage so take that as you will

I lived in Waipio Valley for 3 years.

I just got off of this drug and it was hell on fucking earth. The worst faze of my entire life

they tried to put me on this. they put me on risperdal and seroquel after I was diagnosed schizoeffective and it fucked me off, this was after growing up with adhd and taking prozac and ritalin. they have my poor brother who has cerebral palsy on abilify. its dispicable because we never had to medicate him when he was living with us and he is now developing permanent jaw tremors. its just complete laziness and people letting someone elses child getting on their nerves. like if you can't deal with that shit then why are you working? and you demand to put my brother on these medications so you can simply control him. They can at least let me take him out to some fucking shows if not nothing else, because I know he would enjoy coming out being on that abilify and secluded, forcing my parents to come over and watch him on command when they could simply let them live with us. I honestly wish I can take this to court because this is just absolute negligence on the states part regardless of what they are finally seeing would be good for him and how much they take it for granted

An experience with God is exclusive, not shared. You can never share a divine experience with another person no matter how hard you try because people will call you delusional or crazy

"Ive been in 3 different mental hospitals" I bet

I'm glad I'm the way I am being 20. I'm staying with my parents since I always want to help them when I'm in university, as well when I get a job. I will always be there for my parents regardless if they want it or not.

Your friend caught his own salmon in Hawaii.. at your local grocery store. Ha! I wouldn’t be surprised if it was from a mainland-owned store like Costco because it’s “cheaper” than a locally owned store haha.

i was in 3 hospitals they just made me wanna kill myself even more

you can say theyre a shitty person all you want but stop pretending to not know how to use pronouns.

“Not security. A Super market. Ahh I got them mixed up. He works at a big security market” 😂😂😂

I feel u on the face thing bro. I don’t like not wearing a mask at school, I feel more secure knowing that people aren’t looking at my full face and judging the shit outta me .

yoooo fire

You did see heaven and they are covering up your gift with a illness that does not exist. I have a certain position where I am in a certain position to know certain methods the CIA have been using since the beginning and controlling the population is their number one. It's like that little boy in the park that points and says look Mommy I see a man with a hat and the mom looks up and doesn't see it, then the mother takes him to a psychiatrist and he gets put on medication which kills his gift and make some docile. Takes your shine away. You were made to believe you are not seeing those things. You are a child of the creator and they don't want you knowing that. They don't want you to know what you truly can be so they have figured out the perfect method and that is tell you that you are impaired when you are truly above them, you are a threat to the system so they are trying to shut you down., there's nothing wrong with you man. Don't believe it, don't believe it for a second.. peace and I hope you get this

Jen is clearly delusional. She has been given over to a reprobate mind. In this video you can see LIGHT and LIFE leave her body, because she has been bewitched to dare go against the holy word of the Lord GOD. Ask Jesus into your heart, and he will give you a new mind of Christ. ruclips.net/video/i6pkfpXP7ls/видео.html

wearing a mask without eye protection is just silly. Covid can leak thru eyes

I got "exorsiced" for my night terrors when I was a young un. Sleep disorders need a lot more research concerning our collective mental health. I've never been "quite right'' since my ''disturbances'' some ''40odd year ago''

Talk of spirituality is interesting.. but as someone with ADD. I can't say i feel "Enlightened" by it, it's like having a bag of cats in your brain that can only be wrangled in order without drugs, through extensive discipline, focus and organization. I've meditated and it's helpful to get my "house" in order in the morning, but it doesn't get me through the day. Discipline does, without it you see, hear and think EVERYTHING, regardless of it's order of priority. Great for creativity, sucks for raw productivity.