Видео

Always wanted to see Bethesda fountain 💚

Good morning from Canada 🍀💚🧸

Here is a big hug for you Tania! 🤗🌹

🫂

Hi Tania emotionally numb about having to go home but I know I will see My Granddaughter again 🍀💚

Your end of year wrap up makes sense after this year big time. The numb makes sense also and I’ve had it also in some areas and times where I realized I was shut down or am shut down. I was extremely burned out in my marriage and still am working through that sense of being able to tune in and care for certain people. Irony is I can easily with some who understand but those who have other needs and problems I find myself super shut off and lacking empathy or I see it but I immediately shut it down not by choice. It also overwhelms me very quickly if I get that feeling and it’s like burning into the area that’s burned out. Again maybe a scar that is healing (I hope) or maybe it won’t. I hope for us both that healing from our respective wounds and burns are possible even if it’s a new way of feeling and not quite as raw and vulnerable as we once were. It’s sad to lose that genuine innocence of being able to feel and process things but at some point your brain is overloaded and you can see the problems but feeling empathy for one more thing, person or problem that doesn’t match your ability to cope with it just bounces off like it’s hitting a closed door. Trauma is such a weird thing. That’s my non poetic way of saying it’s so complex and multifaceted for only having one word for it. And relating to your headache you should ask at physical therapist or your doctor if they can refer you for massage therapy. It might help or it might be too much of an emotional opener that you can’t handle it. That’s one thing only you will know and probably not unless you try it. If you do I would let the therapist know your history and let them know why you are living with such tension so that if you do cry or any emotions or even just need to stop and leave they will understand. I’m sure you are not the first person that has had this happen. And no you aren’t alone for sure. And I feel less alone watching and talking to you so very grateful you are so open and vulnerable here. It helps. Get some hydration boosters and rest. One of the hydration drops I was recommended by a nutritionist is one called Buoy. It’s just drops you add to your water and helps add the electrolytes etc. you can get it on Amazon. Not cheap but she said it’s a good one. I have my own weird idiosyncrasies after my bigger traumas and they still surprise me in various settings. It’s great that you made some friends there at Barrow who sound like real friends. Hang in there and don’t assess the year yet. Some good things have happened amidst the mega truckload of bad. Little sparkles in the shit pile so to speak. Lol You will prevail and I’m counting on you to get thru December with me!!

I love that they moved the $9k dress upstairs elevated for Christmas as it’s green and sparking. Lol.

Як гарно,все таке чудове😊,а у нас повна темрява,зовсім не святково😢.Дякую за красу❤

Cut out coffee and try Barley cup. This could be the Number 1 issue, keeping you down. Honestly.

This just came thru my feed. Lol. Perfectly timed with your post about the Rockefeller tree. ruclips.net/user/shorts1H9v082AxRI?si=6HcaTn_PgkCgsF9m

Loved seeing the windows. Sounds like the Barrow group is a home space for you and a learning space for you which is great fhay you still participate there with helping and participation. Sounds like the grief talk will be very interesting. I will be interested to hear what you learned from it. Your events work made you old hat at working your friend’s event too. Very kind of you and smart to maintain a quality community of friends and colleagues. Get some sleep and glad you are home and ok. Lol.

👽🥲 ❄️I'm up with you..

It’s Saturday night. Did you die of post gym workout pain today? Lol. I always sign in to see your posts before bed now. You would be so amazed at me. I spent hours reading a whole memoire of a woman who was living in ukraine in the early war days and during the coming attacks and how she got through until she finally left. I downloaded her story on Etsy. I literally stared and couldn’t put it down. I read the whole thing. It’s just so real and so unreal and so shocking. I wish someone would pick up peoples stories and make a series based so many personal stories. This one is incredible. Maybe too real for you and too scary but interesting to me to watch how strong this mom was and how creative and how many neighbors were helping neighbors and so on. I hope this ends soon! Here’s the link but you maybe too affected by it so only read at your own risk but people knowing you may enjoy reading it to get one persons snapshot of what is happening. No food, no water, no electricity, communications cut off etc etc. I will continue burning a candle for your family. It’s just so much it’s hard to even perceive. Look what I found on Etsy: www.etsy.com/listing/1303487787/this-could-not-be-imagined-ukraine-20?ref=share_v4_lx

On my My way to see My Granddaughter 🧸🍀💚

Tapping, also known as EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) or psychological acupressure, is a self-help technique that involves tapping on specific points on the body, primarily on the head and face, while focusing on a particular issue or emotion. Proponents of EFT believe that tapping on these points can help to release negative emotions and promote healing. It is thought to work by stimulating the body's energy meridians, which are pathways through which energy is believed to flow. By tapping on these points, it is believed that you can unblock energy flow and restore balance to the body's energy system. EFT is a relatively new technique, but it has gained popularity in recent years as a way to manage stress, anxiety, and other emotional issues. While there is some scientific evidence to support its effectiveness, more research is needed to fully understand how it works. If you are interested in trying EFT, there are many resources available online and in books. It is important to note that EFT should not be used as a substitute for professional medical or psychological treatment. There you are. Steve

Try Tapping. If you do not know what it means and does. Hey google what is tapping?

Don't sabotage yourself. Respect like I do.

Exercise starting day is always so dismal! You are far far ahead of many so don’t get too down on yourself. …commenting as I watch…

Sometimes we all get stuck hugs🧸

Hugs 🍀💚

Hi Tania hope You're feeling better soon Tomorrow is the day 🍀🧸💚

Have you watched Gilmore girls? And have you seen the movie Bridget Jones’ Diary? You are getting down on yourself for sleeping in and taking a day off. Neighbors are secretly tap dancers and walking in their tap shoes. Lol. Maybe a dancer? Maybe a model practicing their runway walk? I had an upstairs neighbor like that in the past also. I’ve had some worse neighbors. Discipline over motivation for sure unless you are a highly happy and living an ideal life person. Just make sure you don’t over stuff your schedule. Make sure to put fun and rest , food and fluids and your walks for the fun. Plan it to double duty walk and shoot Xmas and rats on the street for a nice contrast of reality. Lol You are not taking a day off when you are panicking and seeing the ton of stuff you need to do and critiquing yourself for sleeping until 1. The gas chamber on and off is hilarious. I didn’t know it shut off so suddenly. Super funny. My Thursday was cooking dog meatballs and a very good quiche but then crashing hard bc I also cleaned it all up and was dead and mostly just in pain and over ri but spent time looking at Xmas tree decor designs and thinking how my house will not resemble that at all for the holidays lol. Good for you for taking a day off and despite the dark thoughts I think you did good to let your body rest. Unlock ten points for learning to yield to rest and not pushing yourself on day one and making yourself injured. Lesson learned and test done and given an A for excellent lol. Baby steps. Remember the one small limited thing a day thing you were doing. Go back to that and walking so your brain will have time for ideas to flow freely and relaxation to happen. Mastering the art of vegging without getting a panic when slowing down and looking around and evaluating is the next lesson. Finding a new show or several movies and putting them in a watch list is a better goal for downtime. And maybe just laying on your bed snd staring at the ceiling and breathing and letting yourself digest the intense past few months. Look at how much you pushed and endured under pressure and got into a good groove. Having free time despite an arm long to do list is always so big and daunting. Assign yourself tasks like you would assign an employee including being a nurse and assigning rest, food food, fluids and gentle walks and some positive input. More on this buy I’m awake at 3:40 Am and should try to go back to sleep. Lol. Sending hugs and saying step one is rest and two is getting some decent food in the house and preparing a meal so you have leftovers and are eating semi healthy. And it’s ok to hahe days off from cooking and eating perfectly. Just do your best. Consider yourself your own patient and you are the nurse.

👽Life is brutal for all of us...

Танюша,у тебе дуже чудові гени,як мамині,так і татові.Вони у тебе розумні,тож і ти талановита,є в кого❤😊

Cheers Granddaughter 🧸 2 sleeps💚🍀

That event was such a good closing for your last one. Very inspiring and upbeat. You worked for some amazing charity events. Sounds like whoever blasted you in the morning was having a really bad day if you have worked with her for years without issue. You did great thru this season and get a small hibernation before you do the other engagements you have committed to. Your gas chamber radiator made me laugh and think to tell you about a time I was in the hospital and the sound of the heater that was next to my bed was actually like a white noise machine and I never slept so deeply as I did in that bed. Congrats on making it thru your big events season. It was definitely knferestjngh to see the types of events and how people come together to make their own conclusions for their years or gather folks for the benefit of other causes. You could easily own your own wedding planning business or event biz of your own at this point I feel but it’s not your creative focus. It feels like the end of a television season and pause for some more intense cognitive work when you are rested and have a moment to do some self care via the apartment and things you need to do like vaccines and such. Like mine, now the fo do list is flexible and yet long and a lot of busy work. My to do list is long and I have project piles in my house to deal with too. I’m still swapping summer for winter clothes and bedding and working on a gigantic ton of family photos which I ended up with and is on hold. My oven is so gross and I need to clean it before I do thanksgiving cooking and my various projects for all the places I am supported by are sitting in various piles. I have doc and dental appts I need to make and need to get a grip on having a scheduled -ish time to work on the many projects. There are always tons more but they never end. I also need to remove air conditioners from my windows in November lol. My take on it is I have some deadlines and am dreading the pain that doing some of these will put me in from my c-spine and lumbar as well as my mental health taking a hit from the stress of being in more pain and also any doc and dental appts I have. Anyways just know that you have a more positive outlook than many in similar circumstances and yes you definitely have a well earned break coming up. Do enjoy some serious movie, book and napping downtime. Oh and the expression of getting up on the wrong foot is same here only typically said as “She got up on the wrong side of the bed today. “ lol. Have a good deep sleep in the warm and cozy apartment and enjoy making it nice for the holidays. Doesn’t have to get event level done up but for your own sake I say go get a few lights and a tiny tree and look back to childhood christmas memories and look forward to the freedoms to make it whatever you want it to be even if it’s hanging out in your dirty pajamas watching films and detaching from your emotions for a day. That itself can be its own gift. Lol Now too you can go walking in your comfy shoes and hoodie and take in all the fun decorations etc. then you can dig into the work you are doing for yourself. Enjoy your rest! 🎉🎉🎉for a break!

Woohoo on being done soon. Lol. I don’t drink either. The radiator is hilarious. So very New York and northeast. Get some much earned rest if you haven’t. And woohooo congrats to your mother. Your family is full of talented women! Would love to read some of her writing translated. And your hair is falling out from the no sleep week of shooting. Lol hopefully it will chill. I used to get hair fall out from stress called telogen effluvium. It’s very creepy but it’s not permanent. Just try to rest and take care of sleeping, decent food and positive energy even when I know you are in the stress of your family being in a war zone. Your mom is thriving and making the best of it and I’m sure she wants you to also. Keep finding the Christmas cheerful cafes and celebrate your own safety and good fortune to live in a cool place and enjoying a cool job with impending time off to regroup. Wish I was there to go Xmas shopping. And I cracked up at square butt from your chair. Mine is flat from bed and fat belly. Lol love your body and don’t harm it going too hard when work is out. You won’t be able to write and enjoy life if you are in too much pain. Gentle working out is still working out. I think the walks are the best you do too. And fun for us. Lol.

I swear I saw my neurologist in the crowd at the event. Lol. I don’t think so but will have to ask her. Lol

congratulations to your mom - her talents no doubt are shared in your genes

Everyone is still partying eh😁

Cheers Tania 3 more sleeps until I see My Granddaughter 🧸 Good morning Tania💚🍀

PS a tuxedo! Swanky. You need to model it! You defo make the best out of your adventures living there. I love it. I love the start a new life monday thing. Lol!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉Monday🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 🤣

Btw I love macys at Xmas and seeing the store is fun. The wooden escalator is really a thing of joy. It’s funny to see all the red and white and the many Xmas trees and lights. So fun and festive. I love it. I wish I had the money to go hang out there with you and do the fun things together as divorcee club women making the best of the holidays. I would drag you to see the rockettes bc I think you would love it and nutcracker and all the windows and cafes. I’m so broken but I am bringing a mobility scooter so I can keep up with you. Haha. I used to walk a ton like you. Now I can’t but I would want to get around and see stuff. When we win the lottery we are having a friend meeting during the holidays! I’m also coming to get your apartment sorted out and decorated for Xmas. It’s sucks to be alone but putting up your own tiny tree and a few lights will make it festive. And maybe a dart board and punching mannequin for Christmas to get your anger out. Lol. You are cracking me up about the peppermint candy canes. Don’t they have peppermint candy canes in Ukraine???? I am finding you some berry candy canes! They do sell different flavored candy canes now. Lol. Even berry flavored to rescue you from peppermint. I love peppermint so will have yours. You can have my berry ones bc ick. Lol. Trade ya! I love the windows this time of year. They are always so cool.

First location is actually Madison and 52nd Duane reade Or 3rd and 57th same store or Oh 34th and 3rd has ones tonight same store. You can click on a map and it shows all the locations. If you click on each location it will show what has apprs. If you select evening you can find some open tonight etc. saw one I think Walgreens at 1st and 72nd has three appts tonight last appt 6:50pm

First location is actually Madison and 52nd Duane reade Or 3rd and 57th same store or Oh 34th and 3rd has ones tonight same store.

My comment got deleted :/

Looking good and doing good hugs💚🍀

people are still arguing if it was really the rats that spread the plague , I still don't know

Girl. You can make an appointment for the pharmacy to do your vaccines. Do it! You have enough problems. You don’t need post Covid syndrome taking you down also. So many people I know have post Covid fatigue allllll the time afterwards. Get your vax appt set up on a day you are off the next day so your body can rest and process the vaccines. And I have memory issues when I’m anxious or stressed bigtime. Depression on top of it makes it worse. When I broke up with my first partner here I had such a big hit on my memory it was scary. I was teaching college level art history and I was having a problem even reading and retaining info. It was super scary.

hi, you are fine...we are all lost and battlteing our own thing..

Merry Christmas Tania 🧑‍🎄

My Christmas gift is coming early too the weekend with My Granddaughter 💚🍀🧸 Bringing her a Stuffed Piglet 🧸

on bedrest for at least a few more weeks thanks for always bringing me the outside world and having your dailies to look forward too

Love the tour of Christmas in nyc. Thanks!❤

Fun to see the Christmas decorations and all. You were traumatized by the film. Maybe it’s meant to make you feel trauma in the critique of the poorly made film? Lol. I know what you mean about a student film and to portray someone so iconic in a less than ideal way is just irresponsible. It may have been as developed as the funding allowed. To me I would rather they wait and polish things before a release but also sounds like a film that should be directed by a woman about a woman. Instead they glorified impregnating from what you are describing. I’ve never seen if but that’s what I get from your pained experience of viewing the film. The description of ut being a student film kinda cracked me up. Those of us who took cinematography have sat they some excruciatingly amateur films and had to stay present in watching it as a class participant as well as being creator of our own wobbly on training wheels of shooting our own work. You should do a short film of your observations in meditation in ny like the road, the river and the escalators at Macy’s. All moving nonstop with so many stories and people and also just the movement being poetic. I used those very wooden escalators back in 1986 when I was just in my second year of art school traveling to do a term in nyc as a transfer to Parsons. It was fun and at the same time I was starting to fall apart and did some retail therapy at macys just before Xmas. My family got some nice presents that year. Lol mind you I was using my mom’s macys card. Loll I think macys went out of biz here sadly. I used to go to the parade annually on the day after thanksgiving in Seattle. Oh and I cracked up that you were so disappointed in the candy cane. Lolll I love peppermint. I was going to tell you to try Frangos candy but the one I like is choc peppermint at Macy’s. Oops. Saved by hating peppermint from the sugar demons. 😂 I love ny at Xmas. It’s $$$$ but fun to do the affordable things and exquisite people watching. I was wondering if you were meandering up to where you take a pic with Santa on his lap any minute. 😂😂😂 Also you should go skating or people watching at Rockefeller center skating rink. Some things stand the test of time. When I lived there, Times Square was all porn shops and some prostitutes. lol. Now it’s so cheesy family and tourist hub friendly. I am sad they don’t have FAO schwartz also. That was always a trip to visit. You are making me miss the fun things there but the times I lived there I remember how I had a lot going on but no money so the things people do as tourists were far from what I did as a resident. I did have family and friends come to town though and two jnfernajknak friends so we did the tea at Russian tea room, skating at Rockefeller park and brunch there, many visits with fam to Central Park once we did horse and carriages and tour thru fao Schwartz with my cousin who was a kid at the time and a walk thru the plaza and visit to St Marks. I spent a tonnnn of time at MOMA, Guggenheim, and a bunch of big art museums. I wonder if the Jewish museum will be left alone during the coming presidential term. I remember visiting there and seeing all the photos and artifacts from people who survived the Nazi camps. I went to Munich btw and had the opportunity to do a tour of the camps but I just couldn’t do it. I knew it would be too much for me and though I am educated about it, I don’t fbi I could handle seeing it that directly in my face. I’m afraid I would end up getting physically ill. Anyways babble fest again from me. I had a rough day but pulled it together briefly and worked on doing the annual swap from summer to fall winter clothes. I’m not totally done but made a good dent. I need to dump some clothes but afraid what happens if I can’t afford to buy new ones. So the result is many clothes in many sizes. Lol. And my uniform is leggings and a hoodie or long sleeve 33:05 t-shirt and sneakers or mud boots bc it rains so much in fall here. Oh and I also started organizing my pantry foods some inky bc it was making me angry bc I didn’t even know what all was happening in there. Didn’t get to talk to mom and bro today but did have a lovely migraine and vomit this morning and the headache lasted mksf if the day so organizing efforts were me making a bid at having accomplished anything this weekend. Made dog food and cleaned. Woohoo party animal on the weekend. Your Sunday looked fun despite the bummer of a movie. Ohhh and I keep thinking then forgetting. I will send a link to Insta but if you haven’t, you need to read David Sedaris’ writing about being a Macy’s elf. It’s super funny. If you can listen to it with him as the narrator, even better. I think audible has it and you can prob access it thru your local library for free. I will send you the link.

I’ve only been to NYC once and omg it was so crazy I couldn’t get over how many ppl were out, it seemed as if was a holiday or something. I would love to go back maybe if there was less ppl all out and about and it’s not so crazy. Oh the reason why I even made a comment was because it seems as if it is crazy around there during Christmas time

Гарний вид нічного міста

I've worked like a slave for years sweat so hard just to end my fears Moody blues song💙🩵

I know how you feel. When I’m not busy and have free time it’s really hard. You need to process your feelings also so it’s important to have down times. I understand the ptsd triggers. Don’t worry about joes vs jaws. You are actually quite amazing at English for someone who is from a whole other side of the world with a completely different native language. You are fluent and most of us aren’t that fluent in more than one and a little extra we learned in high school and college. You sound like maybe you are just tired and need to rest and do some self care. Sometimes filling those empty times with fun things is good but when you are tired it’s really hard to not go to the sad places and reviewing life. The fact that you are supporting your friend doing tech is great and hopefully all these people at Barrow will be your backup friends for your own production at some point when ready. I’m so sorry you have to carry so much while working so hard. I know even work is a great distraction from the pain. You have come far since I first met you this past summer and you have been thru a lot. You also have done some freaking cool things like almost earning your SAG status and making some connections and meetings with people new people which is super cool. You are okay and being so strong and responsible and standing strong despite all and have gotten by. I wish I could help donate to your friend’s production. I know how much it means to get these things funded. I will pass it along. You should send it to Rosie O’Donnell and Colleen Ballinger both who are big supporters of youth theater. Rosie is on TikTok and Colleen you may have to leave it in RUclips video comments. You sound very down on yourself tonight. Don’t do that. You are amazing, smart, creative, respectable, responsible, talented and lovely which is why you were chosen for that shoot recently and the actual professional productions. I love the expression you are referring to about the moving forward and being afraid but know how to do it. Sometimes people have what’s called imposters syndrome where they don’t feel qualified or worthy of their job or creative pursuits but are indeed qualified and their self doubt can hinder or fuel their movement. Its an interesting topic. Tell your friend who is afraid but marching forwards to be aware of imposter’s syndrome.

🤗💛💛