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What wonderful images! I visited Venice during summer in the early 80s and the carnival in the late 90s. A unique city for taking photos or video. Definitely want to go there again and then I would also bring my Fujifilm instax mini Evo extra with me, it's such a nice little camera with so much creativity. I love it.

I loved it! Your shots are so perfectly paired with that soundtrack. What is it? ❤

a beautiful vibe

Brilliant! Thank you :)

Wow . I’ve been many times and none of my images capture it like you have . Stunning work .

Wonderful photos Not just because Venice is so photogenic but because you are a very talented photographer. Have a great new year.

So lovely

Beautiful! Brings back happy memories of a lovely holiday several years ago. Happy New Year!

Wonderful!

What a beautiful story. Thank you so much for sharing this. I loved watching Monkey when I was young, and it's lovely to hear from somebody who worked with him.

I’m 55 and just discovered that I’m ADHD & Autistic. Severely masking all the time. So you learn to act. I was lucky as I acted from when I was young, so I need to perform everyday, and it’s really hard work. The issue is now that after all these years I’m getting tired of acting and now my super powers are showing through more and more. It’s like belonging to a club that you have little part off.

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When I hear the word "autism" I immediately translate the term in my head to account for what it essentially is: Super emotional sensitivity, probably rooted in the self-perceived notion of strange or "weird" sexuality (and by the way, there is no "weird" sexuality. It's all weird. As if sniffing butt isn't weird.), reinforced by a judgmental society, where the individual manufactures "tics" or distractions of uniqueness to draw attention to them to feel the waters out, to see if it is okay to reveal what is in their heart sexuality without getting beat down for it. But they do as suspected by the individual. "What are you doing?" "Stop that?" "It's weird." "Oh, you mean just like my sexuality?" It's a problem because they can't get their needs met and they can't empathize with the other person because their emotions are over distorted from the start. Sexuality is no ones business. It is not a moral issue. It is a huge issue in the mind of many people. Beliefs in our minds, real or not on the outside, can destroy lives on the inside as well as lives around the individual.

I’m 17f, I am autistic and adhd but not diagnosed. I’m in a place where there aren’t good psychologists here that has good informations about high masking autism. I’m trying to find a way that can make me get diagnosed both adhd and add at once, because I feel like I need to have the answers I need. And also knowing about autism since I was 15 gave me the answers I needed. I haven’t told my parents but I did told my sister and she understood I guess it helped me. And I completely understand you, I started masking at 4 years old, I remember my thoughts at the\at age that makes sense now as I tried to analyze myself from childhood, I couldn’t find videos of me when I was a kid, so I don’t know if I ever flapped my hands. But I’m trying my best to collect information about myself that can help me get the diagnosis easier!

I was diagnosed almost two years at 53.The feeling of grief is very prevalent....thank you for posting this!

You look great Mat ! ( Sorry I spelled your name wrong on the other feed) . I got my diagnosis on the NHS yesterday. At 54 , I feel really like "wow" ! It is alot and I feel for the wee girl that was beat up alot and spat on for being a bit odd and wished that maybe things had been different but as you say the 70s eh ? I don't know how I feel yet . Your tips are really helpful thanks as I get alot of problems with my eyes and noise ! You are looking alot more at ease with yourself and I hope you have a nice Christmas x

hi Matt I got the outcome of my assessment yesterday. I am 54 too and found out I am autistic yesterday. It's crazy isn't it? Maybe I am not a horrible auld bag after all?😂 Have a nice Christmas Matt. It's a lot to take in !

Thank you for giving me words for my experience. I've known that I am autistic for a while now and yet, when I try to talk about it it's all jumbly. I've had a professional career and masked for 60 years while struggling with he depression and anxiety inherent in the disorder. Now I know why there were so many barriers to my success and now I am stepping into a life of freedom and choice and am happy. You are so interesting and articulate. I'm a fan!

I’m sure that the vast majority of people with autism don’t know that they are autistic. They have absolutely no idea. I see them all around me. In my family, people I bounded to at work and other places. My father never knew, I just realized he was autistic just before he passed, age nearly 94 years old. Then I realized that I to am autistic, at the age of 63. The knowledge about autism is very low here in Norway when I live.

Some parts of what you say may be too underappreciated. A risk comes with being given "autistic" as a label. Giving this label misses all the fine details of a person.

Thank you so much.

Wow! Very nice!

I saw the movie at the Dendy Cinema - Newtown, Sydney Oz.. Lots of fun…😊 I imagine having those 3 actors exchanging friendly hellos with you is the ultimate Dinner Conversation Starter…👍😁

I was diagnosed at 51, but got absolutely no understanding or support for it until I was 59. The thing I hate about telling people I'm autistic, is when they say, "You are not! You're normal." So I don't tell many people. It's not worth being called a liar just because I've developed ways to blend in so I can survive in this world.

What painted nails? Im too busy reading his face while hes talking. Im too busy taking in his words, tone, delivery, expressions, eye movement, what hes wearing, his cleanliness, his neatness, whats he wearing, whats in the background, where is he? Are there background noises? What area of the UK is he from with his accent? And my own autistic brain needs time to digest and process his words. Where is he from? What does he do? A thousand things to take in. I didnt notice any polished nails. I was too busy watching his face because thats how i listen. I listen with my eyes as well as my ears. 😅

You explain sensory overload so well. I only, just recently, figured out I'm autistic at 67! But at points in my life thought why am i like this, why did i react that way, do i have Aspergers or am i autistic or something? What led me down the self diagnosis rabbithole was that I had a nasty reaction to a sudden loud noise then i got grumpy and nasty to the old man who caused the loud noise with his car alarm. Then i proceeded to yell at him for setting off his car alarm after he had parked too close to my car which i was squeezing myself between while getting supplies out of the rear hatch. I was smack right in front of his car gathering up my things and he hit his remote without looking at his car, causing the horn to do a loud double beep. I literally jumped, startled and almost fell as there was no room to regain my footing because my calves were against his cars license plate he parked that close. I angrily said to him didnt you see me standing there right in front of your car?!! He said No! His wife came to his defense saying all he did was innocently hit the remote, which she shows me the buttons and how it works. Like he was just innocently setting the car's alarm. He wasnt looking and never saw me. He was in his late eightiesxid say. Maybe too old to drive anymore!. He also didnt see how he parked too damn close to my bumper leaving me no leg room to remove my art supplies for a class i was to attend apparently with his wife whom he drove there to drop her off for the same class. Well after me reacting angrily and scolding these two on the street upon learning I'd have to sit with her for the same art class i thought i'm too upset to do that! I new id keep mouthing off complaining about her husbands lousy parking skills that id be disrupting the class, draw negatjve attention to myself and decided to skip the class and go home. Later at home i thought why did i react so strongly? Ive always been so sensitive to things. Loud unexpected noises. Noisy places. Bright lights. Flourescent lights. And off i went on an investigative journey online matching up my personality traits to traits displayed by those with Aspergers or ASD. Searching online reading article after article, consulting the DSM, taking the tests, watching video after video, listening to psychologists, listening to other adults who learned their diagnosis at a later adult stage and then watching videos of childrens behavior and figured it out saying oh yeah, i acted like that. I did the stimming behaviors. Ive learned to mask to fit in. Sh*t, im autistic. Been that way all my life. Thats what my problem is.

You Rock Bono ! Thank you very much for sharing your experience. I am getting assessed for ADHD next month. I'm 57 and its been a long time coming. Meanwhile I am just looking at different " Neurodivergent" channels to garner insight. I have a " noisy" brain and, I now realize I " Mask" depending on the Social awkwardness. Subscribed.

Wish I was there.....

I hear you I was diagnosed at 51 and I'm 56 now. And it feels so good to hear someone put into words the grief. No one really talks about the grief but when I was diagnosed I had to grieve the fact that I would never be part of the human race. And I really had to grieve the death of that thought ever becoming real. The depths of my emotions are so deep that I'm exhausted at 56. I am female I am using someone else's phone but I am so grateful for you to put into words how I feel. I am sobbing right now because it's so hard and now that I don't mask anymore I find that I'm very isolated. Thank you so much for your input

Hilarious

that tech company hired top tier entertainment!

Boring muppet wet wipes - total class 😂

So true

Lovely! Im an aspiring circus artist from Soest. Wish I had seen you there.

Wow only a few minutes in and i already love the Video. We should appreciate those big Circus artists so much more! So many increadible stories of so many incredible humans are there to discover

Oreight Matt. Unsolicited advice is apparently criticism but I will say it anyway because I love the art that you produce. You could check out the effects that the sugar substitutes in diet drink has on the body.

For me the real gain is to understand myself better. Avoiding pain and not challenge myself to much. A way to be kinder to oneself. Thanks

Your thoughts and the process after ones diagnosis feels very much familiar. I got diagnosed at 42 and I’m 55 now. Still learning to get a better balance in energy levels and masking less. Great vid.

Recently diagnosed, so glad I found your channel 🙏🏻

How depressed we’re you before taking the meds?

It was great lecture Mat. It was very informative, but also engaging and had a good rhythm to it. Another string to your bow.

So beautifully written! Especially love how you balance all the elements of technicality, narrative, fantasy and realism. Great narration as well.

I was fairly recently diagnosed at 52 after 30 odd years of severe depression (and everything that entails). I had come to realise (not even suspect) my true nature 7 years earlier...I took fighting for that long just to get that diagnosis (I was brought up by my mum, gran and two sisters (as my "father" left and took my two brothers when I was about 4) so my "female" side kept me hidden for decades). I'm now fighting to get an ADHD/ADD diagnosis...the vague guesstimate on when I might get that is another 4 years...which leaves me knackered, I can only get through the evening with weed or alcohol...and I've been down the alcohol route many years ago. I'm not going there again. But weed is expensive (not mention illegal) and I'm on benefits. In honesty, the weed is more effective than any of the 7 different prescribed drugs I take on a daily basis (All of which I'm on the maximum dose (AND I'm immune to diazapam!!))....but it's NOT a way forward. I really don't know how I'm going to make it to that diagnosis, my anxiety alone blasts straight through the Venlafaxine (375mg/day), Buspirone, Propranalol etc everyday by the early evening (this is getting up at noon due to the ADD) and all the medically trained people I dealt with over the last 30 years have had no idea why. The day I was diagnosed has to be one of the best days of my life (almost as good as my wedding day which was also my 40th). I even had a song lined up (I sing a LOT): Tom Petty - Too Good To Be True ......as that's what it felt like.....a final release from the mask I'd been forced into. There are so many of us lost and blundering around not knowing who they are, what their true nature IS, especially the ladies as they hide it so effectively. I have a few projects lined up that might help with that as autism can be really easy to spot if you know what you're looking for (or at least spot the possibility). Another LARGE issue for our kind is over protective parents. You are a great example of what you can acheive as an autie. I've been on expedition into the Australian outback for 3 months unsupported, taught outdoor pursuits, archery, sports and personal fitness, I'm obsessed with gaming with a particular passion for... yep, Minecraft (serve set ups, mods etc as my first career was in tech support), I have a degree in computer graphics and attempting a Masters in Autism. I believe that my purpose is to teach these tricks and tips on how to survive as an ND in an NT world to kids, teens (especially here), adults and late diagnosis adults... because it's one hell of a change to your life style and can be scary as hell. There are more of us about than we think ;)

Got some nice ones in that bunch mate. Got the same camera and love the whole idea about it. It's so simple but so damn great and different by today's standards ☺️

You're such an eloquent speaker. Thank you, just thank you. ❤

You've done the best explanation of masking I've ever heard.

67 here for me! It explains so much of my past and present.

I'm 34, and I know I am autistic, but until I can get free testing (which likely will never happen), I will not get a diagnosis. The worst thing about eye contact is that it ever gets easier... It is always anxiety provoking.

"It's pretty basic, but it's pretty huge". Amen, brother. I love your understatement. For me, it's been f*****g enormous. (Self-diagnosed at 56)

Hi Mat, welcome to the family. I was diagnosed at the age of 54 - I'm 63 now - so totally understand what you mean about "autistic experts" (amongst other things). I'm so glad I've found someone of a similar age on RUclips and full understand your comment about comfortable clothing. I look forward to watching your other videos